oh also! i have like written chapter 1 of the letterbrey and aubrey story based off of that drawing i did and im like planning on just making it a tumblr exclusive story??? maybe??? i dont know if id post it in ao3 cuz well... embarrassment... i dont think if its a good enough story to post in ao3... horribly rusty in terms of writing and the general plot of that one is... something i am terribly unsure of.
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i computed my first sem gwa for the first time and it's 1.5 and here i am flopping the second sem away from the 1s and keeping it close to the 3s (ive been getting 2s, a little close to 3 but not 3 but still!). i can just imagine my department head's expression when she gives me my second sem grades lmao i did tell her i cant be her candidate for the latin honors because im really lazy
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Whats really strange about life and relationships is that someone might not even have done anything WRONG to you, but their actions and impact have rewired your self-image in ways that still is notable even after years has passed, even if it was something minor. Like you can see very clearly how A caused B, even if it doesn't seem proportional and you can still FEEL the effect in your bones.
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SORRY I NEED TO YELL ABT SMTHN REAL QUICK IGNORE IF U DONT LIKE REFERENCES TO DUDES BEING VIOLENT
thinking abt the time i was waiting outside my science lesson and some kid in my class straight up choked me against a wall (not in the good way. we were 13. and i dont like men) idk why he did it either i think i was being annoying or smthn but like. what the fuck. LMAOOODHASJFHUIA i fully forget abt this so often and then it just like returns to the forefront of my mind and refuses to leave for 8-10 business days.
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slowly voicing my concerns abt being handicapped and iv been treated with nothing but understanding. Everyone keeps tellin me to get on benefits lol cause we are SO lucky to have social security and access to meds and such its just... I already have a handicapped status which I am ashamed of. Anything further paperwork wise is just a valid on INK confirmation that the me from less than 5 years old is dead. That in 5 years I have become. a fucking handicapped bitch !!! Thats litteraly what I am. There are things about me that are wrong. And I have to make do. Great. Fucking great. I used to dream about matching my peers and becoming a wonderful animation student and then master. And I'm learning that my dreams were in vain. That I had no chance to follow up in the first place. That their improvements are constant and exponential but mine take 5x more time. And the worse is that they always did. So I always did 5x the work because i REALLY wanted to be fucking good. I wanted to be Louie Zong man. But I no longer have the energy. If i socialize for more than 5 hours one day I need an entire day break from that. I need immediate silence after idk. overusing my ears or something. I cant look in the eyes anymore im in kaput mode. Meanwhile people my age have an entire portfolio, have worked on multiple projects that have been available online, have build up experience, edited graphic novels .... What the fuck. All I have is yaoi. 馃 there isnt a word to describe how pathetic i feel. I am dust on their boots. If I cant physically follow then why do I still have the same ambitions ? Why cant i fucking give up the desire to become GOOD. not iust GOOD but like NOTEWORTHY GOOD. Wat am i looking for but the love i have lacked while growing up. Its so annoying. wats the point dude. let go. i am average. not even noteworthy bad. just not noteworthy. and 11 y old me is just looking down at me
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