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laurelindebear · 1 year

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Oh good I've hit the 'I hate my characters, I hate my story, I have to change the entire plot because otherwise I'm forcing my character to accept the Christian god, there's no way these people would fall in love, the timelines make no sense, this character can't be French because their worldview is fundamentally different, and the family situation falls apart unless you add a much bigger conflict or rift than you currently have or want' stage of proceedings.

If anyone wants a few garbage paragraphs to try build something even vaguely worthwhile out of, just check my recycling bin before I delete it all.

#personal #writing #fuck all of this shit #why did I even think for a second this was a worthwhile idea #absolute pustulent ass #the cough is worse the last two days than it was the rest of the week #fucking asthma attacks at night #got the shakes #starving but there's no fucking point eating anything but cereal and carrots #may as well try to lose some of this fucking weight while I get no fucking dopamine from food anymore #can't even tell if I'm clean or not because I can't fucking smell anything #there's still no furniture at the new storage place so Monday I get to work standing up or on the floor again #and hurt my hips and back and pelvis and legs #flat is a tip as usual and supposed to have a guest next week #I feel tired standing up for a few minutes #I'm shit and everything's shit and it's all fucking garbage #nothing is fun and everything sucks #fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck #disgusting wretched little fantasist #nobody wants your shit

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