#dont rb . in case it wasnt obvious.

[bugenjoyer]

11/10/23

I forgot I can just use this place as a personal journal. Whoops. Anyways-

Most of my childhood up until around being 18ish, I was very desperate for attention and validation. This was for a number of reasons that I don't particularly care to unpack right now, but that's just how I was. I spent a good portion of my teenage years being a compulsive liar, doing or saying things to "fit in" or seem cooler (whatever I perceived to be "cool" as a small-town sixteen year old, at least), doing everything possible to shrink myself down and not inconvenience anyone. I just reeeeally wanted people to like me.

And then I started getting better once I fucked off to college. It still wasn't great, but I was getting help via therapy, I had decent friends, life was ehhh better than it had been. I eventually ended up valuing myself a lot more, gained a lot of wisdom, started becoming more masterful at balancing care for myself and care for others, and setting aside more energy for myself.

Unfortunately this mindset didn't ever reach maturity, it didn't last. I don't 100% know what caused me to go downhill again, though I suspect discovering I have DID and autism didn't help (such discoveries rarely go well, or so I'm told). I became really codependent again and was so focused on my social relationships, my friendships and classmates, and any moment I wasn't actively talking to someone I felt useless and worthless, and unloved. Which, that's a me problem.

Anyways the point of all this is that I've JUST FINALLY snapped out of it. As in, like, a week ago. I got really, really low, I hit my equivalent of rock bottom and barely survived but I guess that's what was needed? So here I am, trying to figure out what the hell life is all about other than getting people to like you. I'm back to consuming more Buddhist wisdom, which I've found very helpful and enlightening in the past, and I'm giving myself time to just... think. I don't think I was letting myself think a whole lot before LMAOO

I can at least say I'm a lot happier now, I think I'll continue being happier in the future too as long as I keep a much closer eye on myself and my behaviors and thinking processes. I have hope, and at the end of the day that's really the only thing that's kept me going my whole life, so I'm glad to say I still have that.

I'm not expecting anyone to read all this btw LOL but my therapist keeps cancelling my appointments so I gotta write this shit down SOMEWHERE y'know?

-bug

[narwhalandchill]

(certain genshin ships w ajax brief negativity lmao like this is gonna b real controversial im sorry. not an attack at anyone just my opinion here be gentle)

obviously disclaimer that if u like the pairings in question im not like canceling or attacking you personally or saying ur wrong for liking it or for not considering the more uhh iffy angle im abt to bring up in terms of how i personally always felt abt these ships, i have mutuals who rb stuff for these sometimes and its just a tag i have blocked its life it happens, im more so just overall commenting on the existence of the pairings to begin w, its not worth the drama its my opinionnn please keep that in mind but yeah

anyway ugh now w like capitano model preload stuff and some of the model comparisons being made (hes slightly bigger than the usual tall male apparently n childes model was used for the comparison) and the shippy comments being made abt it im gonna be honest chief. i do not. like. a single ajax x harbinger pairing like im sorry just how exactly is the age gap (and seniority. and experience. and power imbalance) not processing with ppl when it comes to these at all ??? 😭😭 hes the youngest appointed harbinger canonically and w perueres story we now know that was like. Literally 16 at most for him. and even if that wasnt the case and before it was confirmed. hes still been around the harbingers since he was a teenager bc of being pulcinellas protege idc if its like this convoluted argument of well he wouldnt really interact w them on an interpersonal relationship level before hes a bit older its just still so weird to me i just dont understand how any of these pairings became a thing 💀 like you think not being around him that frequently would stop the usual shipping suspects ppl favor with childe from seeing him as a literal kid either way???

arles literally the one exception here since theyre actually around the same age but those 2 have the ship chemistry of two noble gases JSKSKSLDOSOSKFL (= literally no reaction) . arle is a whole dyke that much is obvious.

like obviously its not like much can be done since pairings like scara are way too popular to be somehow halted on their tracks and the cap stuff will prolly have a resurgence as well now that hes getting a more tangible characterization in natlan but ughhhh. it also sucks bc i think ajax 100% has a crush on cap and its such a peak concept (the guy Absolutely played a part in childes bisexual awakening) but the idea of it being reciprocated on any level whatsoever just feels nasty to me im sorry 😭 my cap would Never its literally on the level of pairing him w skirk to me

also scara always felt strange to me solely based on the fact that he genuinely dislikes ajax lmao like. it feels ooc on principle afshsjsksidk but whens that ever stopped anyone i suppose. it lowkey feels like ppl just wanted a m/m harbinger pairing at any cost 💀 and i suppose scara being an immortal puppet wasnt like known early on so i suppose the ship becoming a thing in like 1.1 is fair enough? but still my current feelings wrt ajax age gap w the harbingers do stand

[haootia]

serious personal post. mobile still doesnt let you do readmores so sorry if this takes up ur dash

my grandmother just died after having a steep decline over the past ~month, she had c*v*d and a stroke in addition to congestive heart failure and other stuff. even still this is sooner than me or my mom were really expecting. she wasn't in the hospital, she was at home at the assisted living place. despite being the grandparent i was by far the closest to as a kid i'm not that torn up about it. because of c*v*d and other stuff i hadn't seen her in years despite her living literally like three minutes from our house, and she hadn't been herself since probably before her husband (not my biological grandfather) died in... 2019? i dunno. i'm bad with dates. anyway, it's kind of just. a thing that happened. i have a lot of complicated emotions about this but i'm not terribly sad, in fact i don't think i'm even mostly sad, i'm mostly just relieved that it was over relatively quickly. this is the first time a family member i really knew a lot about has died since my dad (almost exactly 9 years ago, btw--) as even though i'd known him as my grandpa my whole life, i didn't really interact with my grandma's husband's side of the family... my extended family is kind of complicated and i've really just stuck to my mom and her two siblings and their kids even though i technically have a lot of other cousins or half-cousins or whatever. what i'm trying to say is that i didn't know very much about my grandpa (stepgrandfather?) compared to my grandma, and it's just weird. it's just weird when someone dies. i think experiencing my dad's death as a kid changed the way i'm going to deal with death for the rest of my life. it's a lot less.. overwhelming, maybe is the word, and i find myself feeling very flat about the whole thing. she was born september 9, 1941, and she died today. i don't know what else there is to say.

on a technicality, i actually don't know if she died today or yesterday. it's 12:33 midnight on june 3 right now. my mom told me at ~12:05 after her sister called to tell her, and i don't know when the assisted living place called my aunt, or how long that was after she actually died. so it was either the very end of june 2, or the very first few minutes of june 3. i'm sure this is going to cause problems later with getting certificates and stuff. nothing makes you appreciate the inanity of government paperwork quite like living through someone else's dying.

somewhat ironically, this means my stepgrandmother (my maternal biological grandfather's wife) has now outlived all of my other grandparents, despite not actually being related to me by blood.

this post is mostly just a diary entry, honestly. i kinda just wanted to capture my thoughts in the moment. apologies for Being A Bummer On Main but well the medium of Posting is very convenient for writing down thoughts & feelings without being incredibly melodramatic about stuff. i doubt i'll make any more posts about this because again it hasn't really... changed anything about my life, in a practical sense, or an emotional one either tbh. just some casual memento mori. might make a song or something tomorrow to try and capture these abstract emotions, i dunno, i'm going to bed now like i intended to half an hour ago. goodnight.

[pyrodigy]

hi its late at night and im hitting a pretty low point (again) as i think of my general presence here so im gonna vent a bit, dont mind me

when i was still on my previous blog and i first started realizing i didnt feel as happy and inspired there as i once was when i first made said blog and genshin rpc was new, it was pretty obvious why that was. the community had become so massive compared to those first couple of months, it had become impossible to keep up with what everyone was posting so people weren’t really engaging with each other’s content anymore, unless they were already friends with those people or those people were ~popular~ and therefore worthy of attention.

it was a completely different atmosphere and not one i was fit to thrive in as i could only display minimum activity as it is seeing as i have a full time job and live alone and providing + looking after myself can be demanding enough as it is without factoring in the fact that i also have other hobbies i wanna do and people i wanna spend time with. i felt the only way i could fix this and restore that early enthusiasm was to downsize significantly, remake my blog and only keep for mutuals people who tend to show a minimum of interest so i could also interact with their posts and ideas without feeling like i was wasting my energy on people who didnt care. so thats what i did.

but i find that cutting in half my number of mutuals so i could better keep up with all of them doesnt change the fact that the community as a whole has grown and that me being mutuals with a small portion of it doesnt spare me from the downsides of a bigger fanbase. making things more manageable for myself doesnt change that other people are too busy to (i know this sounds needy) pay attention to me if im not on the dash 24/7, doesnt change the fact that the evergrowing number of dupes makes it so people have less reason to take an interest in my portrayal, doesnt change the fact that the energy of the rpc as a whole has shifted and people dont have the same expectations they used to.

this is concerning to me as a whole but the most flagrant aspect of it is how it seems most of the rpc only seems to care about (romantic) shipping. not a day goes by that i dont see several of my mutuals make shipping calls or rb strictly romantic memes or say things like ‘someone should kiss my muse’ ‘i want my muse to be happy in a relationship’ ‘whos gonna hold my muse’s hand’.

its extremely harrowing speaking as someone who already has a main (romantic) shipping partner and would rather focus on any other sort of relationships for my muse, because it makes me feel like no matter how much effort i put into developing that with my mutuals, either they’ll always hope it can eventually evolve into romance, OR it’ll just be inherently inferior to whatever romantic ship they write with someone else.

and im not saying this to shame any of the people who prioritize romance in their writing or otherwise find more comfort in it than in other types of dynamics. im not saying that at all, i completely understand the yearning and case in point i dont think a week goes by that i dont have a few minutes of weakness where im tempted to say fuck it and have my muse become all charming or smitten with whoever’s muse happens to be on the dash. i wholeheartedly understand that craving and how comforting it can be to just write some fluff when real life can be so harsh and shitty.

i dont know. i guess i just wish i wasnt left to feel like my diluc isnt worth caring about because hes already taken. i want him to hate and love and care about so many people in so many different ways. and scrolling through this dash lately makes me feel like almost no one else is keeping those doors open.

[voidselfshipp]

Home is within you

Ok to rb

Cw: none but if needed ask to tag

Summary:just two Argentine gays who love eachother a lot

And so the alarm went off, the horrible noise made itself be heard in the bedroom.

It was too damn early for this shit.

Jerico hits snooze on the alarm and drags himself to change and brush her teeth, nobody,except for maybe Harry could be awake at this hour.

he walks to the kitchen, ready to make some tea and get started.

--Buenos dias--(good morning) a distinct accent said,Jeri smiled and Turned to flores who was casually drinking mate-- ¿quere'?(do you want some?)

he nodds sitting infront of him, as he brewed the drink.

--¿cómo dormiste?--(howd you slept?) He asked him handing him the drink.

--como un tronco--(Like a log).

Both argentines had found a sense of home in eachother,being brought togheter by their heritage and shared life experiences,it wasnt unsual seeing them mess around with eachother, playing dumb pranks on one another, And doing annoying things.

They spoke for maybe half an hour before jerico had to go to her Office,they said goodbye and went their separate ways.

The morning was awfully quiet and boring, by now the operators should be waking up and eating breakfast.

he sighed in quiet desesperation pressing his forehead against the desk,unaware of the Man walking in.

--que bajon boludo--he perks up and meets with flores who was kind enough to bring his mate kit for them to share.

he chuckles as he sits infront of him.

They talk for a bit, quiet chatter of whatever, but Santiago had noticed jerico wasnt answering.

Oh yeah, hed told him what to do on these cases.

Flores presses a soft hand against jericos, who shakes his head and turns to him--Perdon me re tilde(sorry I totally dissociated there).

--No hay drama-- ( no problem) he answered.

Surely the operator had to go for training that day, but he was too concentrated on jeri, specially on those lips of his.

The romantic tension they had between them was painfully obvious, but neither of them dared to speak up.

So flores just sighed and stood up cupping jers cheeks to then kiss him, he ends up sitting on the other Mans lap hugging his waist.

Its a tender and long kiss, parting away ever so slightly for air only to press their lips togheter again.

--zero me va a hacer cagar si llego tarde--(zeros gonna kill me if I dont make it in time.

Jer rolled his eyes--decile que necesitabas hablar de algo conmigo (just tell him you had to talk about something with me)

--Y tanto de lo que estamos hablando (and look how much we've talked about)

He kissed him again.

Eventually and sadly flores left,but first he gave jerico one last breathtaking kiss.

After that they didnt see eachother until night, where Santiago had just sneaked in jericos room to cuddle.

--¿y a vos quien te dio la llave?--(and who gave you the key?) Jeri asked as soon as flores hugged him.

--quien dijo que tengo la llave--(who said I had the ley?)

Jer chuckles and turns around to kiss him--Bueno dale, mañana tengo que levantarme temprano,así que a dormir (come on I have to wake up early tomorrow)

Santiago hugged his waist pulling him closer--buenas noches (good night)

--Buenas noches~

[gay-country-fangames]

please lets not be shitty

tws for talk of racism, eugen/cs, n*zis, slavery, genocide, etc. read at your own risk but please be aware this message is important. so this isnt specifically related to hetagames but its related to hetalia and i think its important that everyone hear it again just to be sure. im going to shelve my rabid persona for a minute because this is super important and a super serious thing.

making hetalia OCs or 2ps or personifying characters based off of problematic time periods from their history is not okay.

some examples include: -n*zi germany this is so wrong for so many obvious reasons everyone should know by now but for the sake of the post im gonna go into detail a lilbit. so many people were killed and both physically and mentally tortured during this time period, a large group being jewish people. during this time period german schools taught eugen/cs to their children which was a  h i g l y  racist concept. n*zis basically hated everyone that wasnt a blonde blue eyed ‘pure blood’ german. everyone else deserved to die according to them, and thats just.... not something that you make an anime boy about? like no. please. -civil war era america/the confederacy/the confederate states of america this one some people seem to think is okay for??? some goddamn reason??? no??? okay i know a lot of non-americans might not understand what exactly the civil war was so here we go heres a very watered down explanation. once upon a time there was slavery in america. we all know that. but at one point the public opinion shifted to thinking ‘hmm, maybe slavery is actually really fukin gross and bad? hey lets pass a law to ban slavery.’ and the southern states went ‘wait no we like slavery.’ and they went and said ‘this law would violate our constitutional right to states rights. we should be able to choose whether or not each state has laws against slavery!’ which is bs by the way they just wanted to keep owning slaves but they called it a violation of states rights so they could start a war over this shit. so then the south decided to form the confederacy and then they declared war on the north to try and break away n have their ‘right’ to own slaves. by the way this wasnt just a buncha racists fighting for their right to own people a lot of them also made their slaves fight in the war. so black people were being forced to fight for their own enslavement. lovely. spoiler alert they lost hella bad and the emancipation proclamation was signed which helped pave the way for black people to be free. the confederacy through its entire short life stood for nothing but slavery and racism and that is  n o t  something that its okay to make an anime boy out of okay please stop this.

-Communist Russia okay look. look. stop what youre going to say and read this. okay? okay. yes i know himaruya kind of wrote about this already. no that does not make it okay. hes human just like anyone else and hes realized his problems and faults and doesnt write that shit anymore. and even if he hadnt thats no excuse. even if he had kept making it that wouldnt make it okay. creators arent perfect and everything they do isnt automatically moral. popular people do stupid insensitive shit all the time and they have to be held accountable for it. anyway if you really need to be told why communist russia isnt good ‘uwu anime boy’ fodder then you really need to read a history book. but in short; genocide. mass starvation of their own people. imperialism. etc. bad shit. lets not.

-Mafia AU Romano okay this isnt really a time period perse but it felt like it belonged on the list so i put it on. its my list i can add what i want. so anyway ive seen southern italian people express blatant discomfort with this before, and from what i remember it stems from both racism and classism to a certain extend and thats just.... uncomfy. i get the appeal of a mafia au ok some people find crime hot but if its blatantly making people uncomfortable then id suggest you stop. other peoples comfort is more important than your fanfic. just make some generic crime lord au or summ instead idk it dont have to be the mafia all the time an it dont have to be romano all the time. if anyone who has a better feel for this wants to expand on it be my guest.

anyway im sure theres many more but these are the things i see the most. feel free to rb and add your own “please dont”s to the list. an before anyone gets on me about “why is this stuff bad but things like ancient rome arent” look ancient rome did about as much bad shit as england did but we dont all cancel mister arthur monster brows do we? the difference is these examples are narrowing a character down to one specific problematic period of their history (or in the case of the mafia thing one single small problematic part of the countrys history) and ancient rome represents the entirety of the countrys existance which did more than just imperialism and murder and shit. ok mun lei out now.

[jadecringecomp]

jade, of course, is still trying to deflect rather than own up to anything at all. im too lazy for screenshots so youre going to have to deal with text for this one. you can see their post here though. and if receipts are needed they are most likely on the callout blog or you can come to me if you cant find them.

“uses their own dead grandma as leverage out of nowhere literally months after the original argument”

jade are you really that braindead. like youre still just proving my previous point. youre still practically shitting on me for it. i gave a reason as to why that night was so traumatic for me because you keep trying to make it seem “like it wasnt that bad” by your own words!

also like uh, jade. you yourself have used your aunt having cancer as a reason to just... excuse every single action youve done. so again, take that and choke.

“abuses their own bf/ex but its fine because he abused her first lolololol!!!”

jade i... honestly have no words. youre still defending a pedophile, and you even admit he abused me. like, yes, i cheated on him. but how does the fact he is a pedophilic abuser not process through your head. why are you so set on defending that. a genuine question.

“flips back and forth on whether they were actually abused or not whenever it benefits her“

theres... nowhere that even says that in the link you posted. are you posting that to still try and imply i lied about the abuse you inflicted upon me or...?

“refriends their own ‘abuser’”

ok well one jade, you still have no actual proof ive befriended broden at all. all you have is a like on a fucking post. really how braindead is it possible to be at this point.

and regarding bailey, i never called her my abuser. you were the one to do that. you said she abused me after i showed you screenshots of what went down between us. and whats worse after i even came to you and showed you the screenshots and you got involved with that mess?? you still wanna try and say what happened was fake. like you wanna call me two-faced, yet youre so quick to change your mind once you realize that person doesnt benefit you anymore. 

also! for someone whos a survivor of abuse, you sure as hell dont realize a common thing between us survivors is literally going back to those who’ve hurt them right?? like you keep bringing this up as if im fucking lying about the whole thing when im not since again, i came to you while we were friends with the proof. i can even post them if need be. and honestly it doesnt even fucking matter anymore ive broken contact with her after shortly realizing my mistake.

“denies other ppls abuse just because they doesnt like them and a few vent discord messages means they knows literally everything abt it“

i can admit to saying i denied your abuse because there is actual proof that you werent abused two years ago, not because i dont like you. do you really just think nobody will believe proof right in front of them jade??? do you think youre some perfect princess who can do no wrong???? like jade the proof is right @deeancie, @estweri, @honeykeis-callout, and even here. you really expect me to just not believe it if i didnt hate you. you honestly need some real fucking help if thats the case jade.

and really like. if you say your bf clams up when you go to him... what else am i supposed to believe. sure i can be wrong, but reading that shit can really make you wonder what is going on between you two. and jade you wanna say that like you yourself dont do that shit. remember all the times you read vague text posts and would go on a tangent as if you knew every little thing about what was going on in my life. yeah kinda what i thought.

“says grooming minors is talking to people One time“

i love how you fail to leave out the fact that these people were minors and that youre practically defending loli. so if youre still talking to these minors and since youre still defending loli, then yes youre grooming minors into thinking loli is ok.

“straight up let a minor into their porn server on discord (they can go as rabid about this as they want but they still straight up showed an actual minor graphic porn but IM a pedophile bc i rb anime sometimes lmfao)”

again its been resolved. like ive acknowledged it was wrong of me to do and ive changed it. and how can you say you just rb anime sometimes when. you literally are reblogging this kind of fuckshit. like do you not remember reblogging that obviously naked child in a collar or what. the difference is i realized my wrong and changed it while youre still rbing actual loli.

“lied about the relationship (the one where they abused each other and she cheated on him with her other abuser???) having elements of pedophilia because they lied about her age”

this is so... ive told you i forgot. the ages. i was literally an age off for the both of us. like what else do you want me to do about this.

“has sketchy as fuck ocs, including one thats physically ten who would force their adult self insert to be naked around them and also drew them being physically beaten“

while the first was true (but i dont have that oc anymore), where in the fuck did i draw them being physically beaten lole??? are you pulling this out of your ass to deflect you yourself rbing beaten children????

and i swear to god if you bring up this comic, im going to scream.

“is a stalker and an abuser. by their own logic“

ok like. a couple of things to this. jade when are you going to get it through your thick skull i didnt give a shit if you were lurking or not, it was the fact you would comment on my every move. which is stalking by the way and incredibly creepy like get a life!

and an abuser “by my own logic”. the link you shared, again, doesnt show that anywhere. also with how badly of a hypocrite you are, thats you. you told me it was abusive to call people delusional. you started doing that once i realized my wrong and stopped. you told me it was abusive. you told me making people relapse was abusive. yet once i relapse you still didnt give a shit and somehow that makes you in the clear (though i still dont give a shit we both literally did that to ourselves the point is youre an abuser too to your own logic). you said trying to gaslight people is abusive (which it is). look at the stacks of proof i have of you gaslighting me. like i could go on but all the proof if here on this blog.

“oh and dont forget they foamed at the mouth that i didnt instantly know when they changed their pronouns but has been proven to have Actually knowingly misgendered me for weeks“

jade the fact you were lurking should make it fucking obvious you should have known my pronouns. and for weeks?? jade i misgendered you in your callout, which i immediately changed once pointed out. will you please stop lying to make yourself look victim and just tell the truth for once in your life.

“also apparently i can call them rae and its not deadnaming because its not their birthname so“

oh my god youre literally fucking braindead it hurts to watch at this point. no rae isnt my deadname. but i do prefer not going my that. the whole point of that was that you tried screaming transphobia because someone called you by a previous name you went by. you fucking dumbass.

“claims to have bpd but doesnt even know what cluster b is holy shit!!!“

what do i even say to this jade?? what does the fact i didnt know what that was at first matter to me having bpd??? also are you just gonna shrug off the fact that you first claimed you got misdiagnosed with autsim, then suddenly you do? you claimed to have bipolar disorder, then later you suddenly decide you have bpd??? kind of sketchy if you ask me!

“tries to send anons under my name but forgot that their friend levi doesnt even have me blocked so why the fuck would i go on anon if i would ‘sign’ it anyway hm“

a....... are you implying i was the one to send those....? is it because you realized once you did so it backfired?? jade for someone who wanted to claim i was the one making up conspiracies, you sure make up a lot of them.

in conclusion: jade you still are just deflecting! you still havent defended any of the shit me or my friends have called you out for! the fact you still havent admitted to them or so much as even defended the claims sure does speak a lot! stop deflecting and lying and just fucking come out about it!

[cornflowercanine]

GOD i,,, have a vague idea what i want for my blog theme when i make it Not Boring.jpg

like? themes where yoU DONT HAVE TO GO TO A POST TO LIKE/RB IT??????? THANK!!! GOD!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! p much Essential bc idk about u but i just. really. hate. having to go into a new tab to just LIKE smth like AUGH

i really want the BG to be an image,, i cant tell what but. my brain always imagines. like, heavy blue overlay, and some sort of lush nature? sunbeams too mayhaps??? I’LL HAFTA LOOK AROUND THOROUGHLY. 

oh yea like, if it wasnt obvious already, entire theme would HEAVILY center around co8alt (added 8 to specify i mean blood color cobalt) blue, maybe a tad tad more pure blueish and less greenish? if that ends up being noticable at all. just, monochrome co8alt!

HHH i,, can get the idea of like uhh... when images aren’t as opaque unless you hover over them, blends into the ~Aesthetic~ but most of the time i dont realize it and so im seein all these images wrong and!! fuck!!!!!!

having an about is obvious lmao. i dont really think id need a BYF/DNI? it could be nice to just make it clear if youre a terf or transmed ace exclusionist Literal Pedo etc etc you can go choke but like. as if my profile having “NEY/NEM” slapped on it wasnt clear enough lmao

pfp showing would be nice! or otherwise some kinda pfp-y image, just hovering there~

mmm.. just wanted to put this here, in case anyone knows a theme like that or smth lmao. its 3 am for me dont mind me

[fantastenby]

quick list of my cosplays for personal reference

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complete:

-school usagi (bought)

-trollcop terezi (broke shoes)

-rose lalonde (closet)

-trickster jane (lost lolipop?)

-feferi? (closet)

in progress:

-yugo (everything but hat)

-princess peach (everything but underdress)

-link (belt/hat/pants)

-star butterfly (accessories)

future plans:

-team rocket james (have rose)

-fi (priority?)

-linkle (when have money)

-violet evergarden

-patema

-ranma?

-lolita???