#dont tempt me like this meg

[elfimseinsp]

@gpminseok replied to your photoset

THE PLAYFULNESS, THE UST??? this is def deokseok. and i could see minseok sneaking them into a public pool late at night trying to be romantic

pls i need this

[thaliasthunder]

grecia reading The Trials of Apollo #1: the hidden oracle

first impression: the covers of this saga look actually dope

"My name is apollo. I used to be a god" hi sweetheart

"I inflicted a plague on the Greeks who besieged Troy." can u shut the fuck up

WHO TF IS LAST-NAMED PAPADOPOULOS IM CRYING 💀💀

A four thousand year old god being afraid of a 12y.o girl? this is amazing

“I know someone who might help. He lives on the Upper East Side. Take me to him, and I shall reward you.” let it be who i'm thinking of please 😭😭😭

"Zeus did not answer. He was probably too busy recording my humiliation to share on Snapchat." Help me 💀💀

“Let’s find Percy Jackson.”' WAAAAAAAA 😭😭😭😭😭

"For children blessed with an immortal parent, they were strangely sensitive about their backgrounds." this bitch didnt just say blessed

"the young man swung open the apartment door and said, “Why?” As usual, I was struck by his resemblance to his father, Poseidon. He had the same sea-green eyes, the same dark tousled hair, the same handsome features that could shift from humor to anger so easily." PERCY MY BELOVED SON, MY FIRSTBORN HI BABY BOY 😭😭😭😭😭

"sacred sybil" ??? "Are u cursed?" what the actual fuck apollo 😭😭

“The war ended in August. It’s January.” percy is 17 im gonna fucking SOB 😭

sally finally got to write her book <333

"He smiled, and some of that old demigod mischief twinkled in his eyes." STOP 😭😭😭

“Some of the best demigods have gotten their start by blowing up toilets.” *sobs in the lightning thief* 🤧

"I did not like the way she was grinning at Percy. I didn’t want the girl to develop a crush. We might never get out of here" LMFAO everyone falls in love with my boy i know he's so gorgeous he's stunning he's mesmerizing 😭

Because Poseidon 😭

“I keep thinking, I have now killed every single thing in Greek mythology. But the list never seems to end.” “You haven’t killed me yet” “Don’t tempt me.” percy is so done w apollo's shit 💀

"The calmness of his eyes, the smile resting easily on his lips, the way his hair curled around his ears…" oh? look at that! im sobbing!

"crotchkicker mccaffrey" I CACKLED

WAAAAAAAAHH NICO HI MY BABY 😭

significant annoyance

"they were so cute together it made me feel desolate" istg 😭😭

not paolo's arms JFJKFKS 💀💀💀

"She's a communist!" JFKFKDJF THIS CSNT BE REAL 💀

apollo sayin' gay relationships w gods can also have children might be the best thing i've read

MY CHILDREN KAYLA AND AUSTIN ARE MISSING WHAT

paolo got his leg sewed for god's sake 💀

will being a doctor in charge and nico his little nurse this is good food

rachel elizabeth dare my redhead beloved so pleased to see u again !! <3

rachel jealous over apollo having more oracles bestie pls 😭

apollo using meg's rings as a necklace </3

apollo's thoughts about daphne in the woods oh the poetic tragedy of a lost love <\3

"rhea's laugh reminded me of a piglet with asthma" HELP ME??💀💀

who's the emperors??? nero??? caligula??? commodus?? TELL ME

OH IT'S NERO

apollo's melancholy singing for daphne & hyacinthus <\333

'“Sing. Sing like you did before" "I—I can’t. My voice is almost gone.” Besides, I thought, I don’t want to risk losing you again.' man dont do this to me 😭😭😭

"I love the Internet! It is impossible for me to fade completely now. I am immortal on Wikipedia!” i DID SEARCH THIS DUDE, sorry apollo 💀💀

MEG WHAT DID YOU DO

"Artemis shot me in the groin because I was flirting with her Hunters." JDFKDFK GO BESTIE💀

"I stared at my beloved Dumpster waif. Yes, somehow over the past week she had become beloved to me." awe 🤧

The dryads & zephyros helping apollo in the woods <3

"Will, Kayla, Austin. Come with me" "And Nico. I have a doctor's note" boi ur doctor's note only consist on being by will's side 😭😭

WAAAAAAAHHH MY OCEAN BABY BOY IS HERE 😭😭

"I wanted to flirt with Chiara and steal her away from Damien…or perhaps steal Damien away from Chiara, I wasn’t sure yet." this dude is so painfully bisexual it kills me 😭

percy & rachel together again it's been so long since i read them interact <3

MY FIRE BOY AND MY GIRL ARE BACKKKK 🔥🌿

they're beating the shit out of my boy leo 💀💀

"When they first saw each other, Percy and Calypso had hugged awkwardly. I hadn’t witnessed such a tense greeting since Patroclus met Achilles’s war prize, Briseis. (Long story. Juicy gossip. Ask me later.)" DUDE YOU HAVE TO BE KIDDING ME

"piece of torta" help. also my water boi & fire boi giving each other a high five 😭

apollo, leo & calypso walking together to the amphitheater <3

more of my reviews & reactions of the rrverse books here: percy jackson & the olympians, the heroes of olympus, RRverse mini stories

[effervescentdragon]

Good evening my darling Akira. It is I, not-drunk-but-definitely-not-sober Dee!

This message is brought to you by spiced Rum. Sadly this has been an evening of drinking in my house (alone- blame work), so I haven’t gone feral in front of my friends again. Which I think is boring but also maybe good. I fear they may be worried about me 😹 my friend Meg and her guy keep asking if they need to set me up with religious people because of my crucifix meltdown. I’m tempted honestly 💀

HOWEVER. I did just do a thing ….. I’ve been thinking about going to Bruges and/or Amsterdam for a few days on a little break. But I have no one to go with….my friends are either busy or have children and responsibilities or are just being boring, and I was scared at the thought of going alone because I’ve never been out of the country by myself. But I guess I am now!?!?! Flights and hotels are booked, and I go in like 3 weeks 😵‍💫😹

There is every chance I’m going to regret this tomorrow but fuck it right? It’s an adventure. And also non-refundable.

Anyways. I’ve gotta go walk the dog and then actually sleep and stop being feral on here so I can be at least semi-competent at work tomorrow, if I ever want to convince them to sponsor the wag agenda!!

Goodnight & Ily 🖤

Dearest, dearest Dee, I've saved up this ask and haven't precisely forgotten about it, just, the time was never quite right! But, here we are, a day before your trip, and I think it's time.

First of all, again, I am so proud of you for doing this. It's vwry brave, in my not so humble opinion, to just set off on an adventure. Very Bilbo Baggins of you, I whole-heartedly approve!! 😻 the gold you will come back will be the memories, unless you find some real gold somewhere, in which case, we can fund the WAG agenda ourselves, and I volunteer as a tribute! 😹😹💖

Secondly, I will spare you another crucifix meltdown, because if i start, I will not stop, and you have to pack, and my bestie is coming bcs we have some battle plans to make on this lovely Thursday. So, qhat I wanted to say is this:

- youre going to netherlands on Monza race week. please, leave your merc and ferrari merch home 😹;

- dont fight people over f1. its not worth it, getting arrested in a foreign country, when its not italy, and the person youre fighting isnt mattia;

- here is some coffe recs ive scrounged up for you, just in case - this, this, this (this one apparently has a bar w the same owner across the street!), this, this (these two are in bruges, and every time i tyoe that, i think of colin farell, nom nom nom), anyways i chose them from like too many websites on vibes only, where i'd go as a tourist, so if you do visit any, or find some better ones yourselves, send me all the coffee pics!! 😘;

- be sure to stay safe at all times, but also, have fun. im the devil on your shoulder telling you its okay to have fun, and that you're awesome for doing this, and that it's gonna be awesome 💖💖💖💖💖

Now go, pack, dont forget electronics, panties (or do, you know, i dont judge 😏), enough meds for a double time there just in case, and your toothbrush! ILY 🫂💖

EDIT: also. dont forget the passport lines, bcs your govt is shit, and now you have to wait in lines.

[coffeeteaitsallfine]

ok.... it’s Vampire Boyfriend, Live Free or TwiHard time

(disclaimer i dont actually really talk about S6x05 live free or twihard, it just sounded catchy)

No, Castiel is not the archetypical vampire boyfriend but he is a very Edward vampire boyfriend-- Seasons 6 - 8 in nice little arc. No, he is not lustful (just in subtext). S6-8 (& a lil before that) Cas is heavily the outcast. He is not impure traditionally (until he gets those leviathans!! sick ahaha sera!!!!!fightme) but he does have a crack in his chassis. Cas doesn’t think about sex the way humans do but it’s not really about that. Human feelings let alone feelings for humans are sinful (hellooo nephillims being abominations) they’re just “mud-monkeys.” To the angels, Castiel’s love for humans is worth giving him lobotomies over and over. Falling in love with one is the worst sin (“the very touch of you corrupts [Castiel]”). He is thus outcasted! (this was all written pre-s12 so go with it)

Now, in twilight the sex subtext isn’t subtext, it’s repressed because this is a good little Christian novel of course. Edward the vampire is constantly repressing his thirst and they’re only able to be together with ease once they’re on equal footing. I’ve reread it just this year. It’s repressed and not just in Eclipse when he won’t have sex with her. Bella CLEARLY has a sex dream and Edward knows about it but they don’t talk about it. Anyway, the text is the whole “I’m a killer bella” not blood drinking though. He is repressing that so it’s under control. NO no Edward is a danger magnet literally just crushing her with strength or luring other people to kill her. Castiel’s violence pre-s6 anyway is framed as holy and because heaven commanded it, but the slaughtering of angels for no good reason? unforgiveable. Cas doesn’t tempt dean in any lustful way but just the fact that he’s Gay and in love is already too obvious subtext as it is thanks to S4-5, bringing sex appeal or tempting imagery here would be too obvious or overdoing it i guess and works for us so it doen’t come off as predatory I don’t think. Meanwhile for the proxy Meg Castiel is the pizza man. (whereas s9′s answer to that is...nah he’s the babysitter apparently lol ? lets not read into it). Note as I’m editing: Eve literally eve is a character is S6? I forgot this but oh my god make it stop.

Then in S7 Cas is all “I deserved to die” because he killed a lot of angels and bad people as Godstiel (hello eddie boy’s serial killer murder streak if you didn’t pick up on this yet). Then, obviously, he is not even deserving of LOVE he’ll just hurt everything and everyone around and probably dean too. Cue the early S8 New Moon subplot culminating in fallen angels because we all know the third ingredient for the spell that would expel angels from societyheaven and lock the door behind them, was an angel falling love with a human. At the same time, his angel grace is taken away from him, making him a human no longer “pure” or without sin in the eyes of heaven like adam. the first to fall causing all the angels to fall with him.

Now this doesn’t quite work the same way for dean from dean’s perspective cause why would it. He’s not the Laura/Lucy to Castiel’s Carmilla/Dracula. (This makes Benny’s placement in Purgatory for the love triangle (literally) so in contrast like Benny IS this story’s Jacob) He’s not scandalized by the prospect of falling love. He’s got complicated emotions & thoughts is scared to for vulnerability reasons plus his own sexuality issues but I beg you to see that as separate and not over think it-- Twilight is very repressed, Dean is extremely repressed, poor Cas. But! Dean feels completely “pure” in purgatory & wants nothing more than to find the angel the entire time. He is Bella Swan thinking the killer/monster is an Angel (see: Twilight Ch. 23 “The Angel”), the only angel. All the other angels (vampires) are evil dicks but not my angel :) Mine is powerful, strong, psychic, and sexy. he’s beautiful and perfect and will never love me the way i love him unless we are the same species, equals if you will. 

Castiel is the vampire boyfriend, but not in the old, traditional way rather in the inevitably “modern” (2000s--early 2010s) take, where the vampire isn’t preying upon your sexual purity but the wholesome family ideal (ie lisa/ben, raking those leaves, the cookouts ah yes how american)....ehh yikes sera gamble? s6 reeks of homophobia thanks, thanks a lot. Except well, also, dean doesn’t really want that life not entirely. Neither did bella either tbh until the end but lets not get into that, except twilight is the “wholesome” ending, the opposite in every way to traditionally evil (lol ykwim...) vampires. The show eventually moves into a middle space, a synthesis of horror and home-- where it should’ve ended as we all know. Anyway, while writing this I remembered the beginning of Season 6, when the modern version of the vampire boyfriend arc kicks in, was also when they had the episode “Live Free or TwiHard.” Is this coincidence? probably, maybe, idk. I started this post just wanting to make casward parallels cause it sounded right and I’m a deancas/bellaedward truther for the Jokes, a Good Time, and the hot takes. 

except no, with Carver finishing up S8 (bookending the arc nicely with the two gay truckers being soulmates), Benny is the old world would be tragic vampire boyfriend and they couldn’t last! Sorry benny it’s been real. Castiel is the modern twilight vampire boyfriend, without predatory vibes and since religion is more of a plot device than a theme, less Mormonism and heteronormativity. Plus this reading is just sexy and cool and I like to have fun 

[selfcareparker]

(lovely anon) ok so this may sound so dramatic but; let me paint you a picture: i’m responding to your latest message, sitting on the edge of the sofa. i type in “lovely anon” into the search and see this longgg post come up and i’m like uhhh... i scroll down and see the people you tagged and literally. when i saw @ lovely anon. i . cried . like full on tears. my brother goes “what are you doing” “she tagged meeeee” and he continued what he was doing and didn’t care LMAOO but i was so emotional? i love and appreciate you too and aAH IM CRYING!! you’re just really sweet and i didn’t expect it at all and it was really lovely to be a part of something :’)

the kermit pic sent meee but yes yes yes!! when you start uni let me know, lol i’m so excited for you!! let me know how it goes cuz i’m literally hype hahah & yes we will be in our sad corners of the world, missing england but you’re right it’ll be sooooo worth it in the end!!! and oH i’m glad you talk to them lol i truly thought you like haven’t seen them/haven’t spoken to them this whole time😭 that would’ve been awful!

also i totallyyy get what your saying about the english speaking thing. and idk why you’re insecure (well i *knowww* bc it’s not your first language and you’re studying it in college so yuh) but your english is great :)))

lol yeah that makes sense.. my mom took french in college and she remembers NOTHING HDJSHSJ (the fact that you wanna learn MORE languages i- ahh i so admire you.. you literally know so many languages🥺) yea i mean you know a bunch of languages bc you know the base of words lol, but i wonder if because you know latin it’ll be easier for you to learn french? oh- oh wait you said it’ll be easier HAHHAHA

THERES SO MUCH EXCITING STUFF TO TALK ABOUT HDGSJSJSL it’s so wild to me that you can’t watch chaos walking :( i’m a professional hacker tho so i’ll try and find a way for you LMAO (by professional hacker i mean i literally have gotten multiple free trials and i’m pretty sure the hulu police are after me bUT ITS THEIR FAULT BC WHY IS IT SO EXPENSIVE???) i mean the movie was good? and cute? and funny? but yea don’t think it’s gonna be the most fantastic thing haha AND THE DOGGO AWWW (i saw it again today- or my today lol, saturday, aND THESE OLD PEOPLE CAME AND SAT IN FRONT OF ME AND MY FRIEND LIKE ITS A LONG STORY LMK IF YOU WANNA HEAR IT)

SHARK FILMS?!?!! PLEASE READING THIS I HAD NO IDEA YOU WOULD LIKE SHARK MOVIES TOO FHSKSHSHDJDJGAJAYSJS ok so i haven’t seen any of the classics (i’m working on it) but i would probably watch jaws to laugh at it? not like that lmao but like comparing it. OKAY BUT HONESTLY I BARELY KNOW ANYONE WHO LIKES SHARK FILMS AHHH OKAY im adding “the shallows” to my watchlist bc it sounds super good AND SAME AHSJD ANY BODY OF WATER IN A MOVIE I JUST KNOW ITS COMING LMAO watch me not go in the water anymore after seeing that picture HHDJSJ

WHEN I READ THIS I JUST GOT DONE TALKING TO MY MOM ABOUT THE MEG AND THAT SCENE WHERE THE SHARKKK JUMPEDDDD AND ATE THE OTHER ONEEEE AND THEN JONAS HAD TO DO- bro i cannot (i think that one is my favorite because i love me a bit of romance and the subtle romance hAD ME) 47 meters down PHEW could you imagine?? i try not to think too hard about it i’m like “don’t be dumb catherine, don’t put yourself in a dumb situation” (not autocorrect having “dumb bitch” ready i am not lying) and i literally understand... there is no other way to explain 47 meters down

i CANNOT watch horror movies, can’t can’t can’t, i literally hate them i cannot do it!!! the thrill is tempting and it’s cool in the moment but i cant lmao. i don’t have nightmares about scary things (for the majority of the time) but going to sleep i’m like oooohhhhhh shit 🥲 literally what you explained

music !!!! music !!!! music !!!! (u ever write a word and now it looks weird lmao) MY BROTHER DOESNT LIKE MUSIC AND ITS SHIT IM LIKE WHAT IS WRONG WITH YOU- anyway, my music taste is all over the place i mean......... it’s crazy. earlier today i was listening to meghan trainor’s album “title” oUT OF NOWHERE, but just a few minutes ago i was listening to fall in love with me by earth wind and fire soooo lol .. megan is *chefs kiss*, i’m not familiar with stormzy🙈, harry styles.... IM SORRY IM THAT PERSON but i don’t listen to his solo music EEK i only listen to adore you... and not that frequently... the music video freaked me out... i like niall’s solo music a lot more, which i listen to a lot more. now. one direction. favorite. please & thank you. i have a playlist called “boy bands” and it consists of one direction and the vamps (obsessed with cherry blossom btw) but as you can see my taste is all over the place!! fr fr if i sent you what apple music has as my “favorites” it went from ariana grande to carrie underwood to glee (OBSESSED DONT LET ME TALK ABOUT IT) i mean please if you let me i will nonstop (hamilton HDJSH) talk about music all day😩 & NOOO UR MUSIC IS GREAT HAHSK IM NOT A BIG RAP PERSON BUT DOJA CAT IS MY FAVORITE!!

okay good, i’m glad :) i was just nervous that you did feel that way <3 and GOT IT HAHAJ healthy pressure is always good :’) my friend got me these pens cuz i love stationary and school supplies lol and was like “now you have to write something” soooo yea i feel that! and i saw you posted the ficcccccc literally so proud of you 🥺🥺 i’m trying to decide if i read it tomorrow or tonight..... sleep or a literal beautiful creation made by the sweetest person and is v v nice smut and college!peter and 4.7k...... sleep aint really calling no more.

GIRL ALL OF MY SENTENCES ARE TOO LONG HAHAHAH IN FACT THIS IS TOO LONG SOOO (also why am i 3 days late..😑) anywho it’s 1 in the morning so <33 lovely anon

🥰

oh my god the fact that you cried nearly made me cry too😭😭🥺🥺 (also, your brother LMAO), i wasn‘t even sure if you‘d see it but i immediately thought of you so of COURSE i included you <333

the hulu police lsjsjaiaik, girl i was ready to get a hulu membership when i wanted to watch big time adolescence and i couldn‘t find it anywhereee, and when i got to the payment it said i need a bank account that‘s based in the US or whatever. like bro i was about to pay you!! but i was forced to find it somewhere (and i did, on levidia,— not that i‘ve ever used it because it‘s illegal 😤 i would never!!! i‘d rather support billion dollar companies and spend my money on watching films that i can find for free 🥰🥰🥰 not

i‘ve found chaos walking online so i‘ll watch it som time this week!! also YES TELL ME THE STORY

okay so idk if you watched/are planning on watching falcon and winter soldier but i watched the first episode the other day and they were speaking french (just a few seconds) and I UNDERSTOOD SOME WORDS DLDJDJ and i was so proud of myself. i‘ve only ever learned french with duolingo lol (i only do like 5 mins a day and that‘s why i was so surprised that i understood some of it!!). and yeah apart from latin i feel like italian, german, french and english are all similar in a sense.. i mean obviously they‘re completely different languages but for example there are some grammatical constructions in french that i think i wouldn‘t understand if i only spoke english? so when i translate those things into english you can‘t directly translate them bc you say things differently, but when i translate them into german then it makes more sense to me. idk that‘s something i noticed so i feel like if you already know multiple languages it‘s easier to learn another language compared to if you only know one language and are trying to learn a second one. even if the languages aren‘t similar then i think you get the hang of it easier.

ikd slsjsjs also i don‘t want you to think that i‘m a linguistic genius or anything lmfao, like i‘m only fluent in english and german and i‘m just a wannabe (ew that word) polyglot sksj (yes i had to google polyglot— i do think learning ancient greek would be super cool tho? like imagine studying latin AND ancient greek, whew). and honestly i don‘t think i‘ll ever be fluent in another language bc i don‘t plan on living anywhere other than germany or possibly england and i‘m not dedicated enough to properly learn any other languages esp if i don‘t have anyone to speak the language with. but i still try my best and i just love language/languages as a whole so yeah i‘m happy & just learning as much as i can dkdjh🥰

(I guess language/linguistics are/is my passion (which sounds sooo lame lmaoooo) and the word passion comes from the latin word pati (i think💀) which means to suffer, and in german passion is called Leidenschaft which basically means suffering too, idk why i‘m telling you this maybe you know it already. but ok dumb fun fact, in german you can make compound words with as many words as you like, and the longest official german word is Rindfleischetikettierungsüberwachungsaufgabenübertragungsgesetz which is a law for the monitoring of labels on beef... this is such a dumb fact but i think about that word like once a day idk why dodjsjsj so... 👁👄👁)

but i‘ll stop boring you with my linguistics talk because truly i don‘t know much about languages but i am interested omg i‘m gonna shut up now.

now water + sharks. (so in non-covid times i always go to croatia with my dad during the summer, and even before ever watching a shark film i was always kind of scared in water.. but after watching so many shark films wldjdj HELP Like you know when you go deeper into the ocean and you can‘t see or feel the ground/floor? anymore.. then i just start imagining sharks. like i can‘t help it i just imagine a shark sneaking up on me or feeling something graze my foot ABD I JUST START FREAKING OUT SSKJSHSJ. idk. anyway kdkdh i do love the ocean/swimming though but the older i get the more i realise how fucking scary the ocean is ( even if we’re gonna disregard sharks)

your brother... what‘s wrong with him? HOw CAN YOU NOT LIKE MUSIC LIKE WHAT THE FAWK

OKAY BUT SAME ABOUT THE ADORE YOU MUSIC VIDEO DLDKDJSJSKSLSLKSKSJSHSH and yeah i have to say harry’s style (styles lol) as a solo artist isn‘t reaaally my cup of tea, and i only like the popular songs from his second album and the first album is only good when i‘m in the right mood (haven‘t actually listened to it in a while though, but kiwi is one of my all time favourites along with only angel but i hate the start, like it takes 40 seconds to actually begin properly). i like mgk and because of him i watched the dirt which is a film about motley crue, and now one of my favourite songs ever is same ol situation and i‘m into rock now lol. +++ justin bieber. I had a justin bieber cardboard cutout thingy😭 i was the biggest Belieber on earth when i was 13-16, but i didn‘t like his last album and tbh he‘s become a bit weird lately, BUT OH MY GOD. i Listened to his new album yesterday and i‘m in LOVE with the song hold on

i really like niall‘s music toooo!!!! And doja cat 😌😌😌😌 And THE VAMPS OG MY GOD. i got to see them live bc they were the opening/support act for little mix and ajdsjskslslsjsjsj. (Also i love concerts, some of the best memories of my life are concerts, i‘ve seen nicki minaj live 🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺 and justin twice and my heart fills every time i think about how excited i was, it was my first concert ever (16th of September 2016 😌) and i was the happiest person alive seeing justin drew fucking bieber (even if i‘m not tooo sure about justin nowadays)

i have a confession? Idk what hamilton is. I mean I‘ve heard about it and i keep googling it but i‘ve never watched it (is it even a film???? or like a proper musical? also pls tell me you grew up with high school musical. i have a few friends who didn‘t and it makes me so sad 😭😭😭 hsm is the best thing to happen to my childhood , the sooooongs— i still listen to some of them every week or month lool they make me so happy)

(Okay wait i was about to recommend some stormzy songs but you said you‘re not that into rap so i won‘t dksksjl)

What you said about my fic AHSLSLSJB (i wasn‘t sure if you sent an ask about it earlier? idk that might have been someone else, so if it was (and you‘ve read it already) i hope you liked it sksjsj i was...... unsure about it. and i have this reeaaallly long peter fic that i started writing in december and that‘s the only peter thing i currently want to write but also i can‘t because idk how to continue kddjj.) but I’m definitely getting back into writing i have a few blurbs that i want to write so 🥰🥰🥰

Oh and pls as soon as you read this let me know: violet or yellow? (it‘s just a tiny thing for my new theme slsksj)

[hecohansen31]

SoulmateAU! Duncan doesnt care about his mark. He loves Michael. He loves Jim. And when he meets Reader, his soulmate, he loves her too, but he wants to keep everyone. Except that Michael and Jim are afraid that he will love Reader more and so they are a little mean with her when Duncan isnt here (even if they dont hate her). The poor girl is sad, because she likes them and think she should leave for them to be happy. Duncan must quickly find a way to reassure everyone ! (sorry its a bit long)

(A/N): Hello there, mon amour!

How was your day?

I hope better!

Also sorry for taking A LOT OF TIME! I am an idiot, but I got quite through a bit of ask, and since tonight I cancelled my plans, I am hoping to work on even more requests or such!

Hope you’ll like it!

WARNINGS: Jealous, Abandonement Issues, People Being Idiots.

It had happened almost as a fairytale: she had been the poor and starving journalist meeting Duncan Shepherd, the rich heir to the Shepherd Foundation at a gala, when he had accidentally drenched her with expensive champagne.

She had been dabbing her shirt, with him helping her dabbing the liquid, excusing himself in a way that she hadn’t expected him to.

He had been gentle and modest, almost as if he was just a fellow colleague.

It was in that moment that he had noticed on her wrist a little sign, the same one he owned on his matching wrist, the obvious sign that they were soulmates.

At first he had simply asked her on a coffee date, more as friends than lovers, but he had kept asking her out and she hadn’t been able to stop herself from accepting, although slowly she had discovered more and more out of the busy man’s life, such as his two other fellow “friends”, which were actually his partners in life and work: Michael Langdon and Jim Mason.

When she had first met them, they had been pretty nice with you, but as soon as Duncan had left the room, a glacial silence had appeared for the entire time they had spent together and no matter how nice she was with them, they didn’t seem to share the same predicament, teasing each of her insecurities.

At first, she had thought it was simply some initial jealousy, but as she had settled in Duncan’s house, they hadn’t been very welcoming alongside acting as brats with her and as saints with Duncan.

She had tried with anything: gentleness, bribing them with their favorite food and gifts, trying to spend some time together in their favorite activities and even going as far as to push Duncan away so, the three of them could spend more time together.

But it never worked, and then in the end she had ended up feeling left out as if she was the problem.

Then she was the one who needed to leave.

She had been packing her suitcase, after she had gotten a friend to host her for a bit, till she found a nice apartment to rent for the rest of the year, meanwhile she worked onto forgetting Duncan Shepherd.

She honestly had fallen in love with him, and hadn’t Michael and Jim been a tad nicer towards her she thought that she would actually like them.

But she just couldn’t think about this anymore, or she would cry and lose all her resolution.

She was packing her suitcase, when Michael walked in without knocking, a donut in his left hand and his face smeared with vanilla sugar on it, which was a truly adorable sight, but she was too focused on closing her suitcase before he could notice it.

She hadn’t wanted them to know just yet.

That night she would call Duncan and break it off on the phone, since she thought that challenging him face to face would make her break all her resolutions and go back,

But she just couldn’t.

She was the one who was out of place with them: definitely not as divinely gorgeous as them and charmingly delightful.

“What are you doing?” asked Michael, eyeing her strangely, and she was expecting some insult to came, but he was just looking at her curious, and she would have sworn that she saw him being almost worried.

“Oh, a friend of mine needs a luggage and I am giving her mine, since hers broke” she lied, quickly, although she knew that it was extremely bad, but Michael didn’t seem to mind it too much and she thought that he had gone back to his usual behavior, so she turned to get back to her things.

But he surprised her again.

“… do you want to come with us downstairs?” he asked, eating up a bit of his donut “… we are sharing a box of donuts, do you want to join us?”.

She was extremely surprised by the proposal since they hardly ever shared Duncan with her, so she was surprised that they would be willing to actually share their precious donuts, but she rejected the offer, because it might all be a very unfunny joke of theirs: like they would have given her a donut, just to smash it in her face.

They would have thought it was funny, but she wouldn’t.

“I can’t, I have to bring this to my friend as soon as I can” she replied, pursuing her lips to seriously fake being worried about the time, shooting a quick look at the clock.

Michael nodded slowly and turned around without talking, but in his movements, she couldn’t help but see some kind of sadness, as if he had seriously wanted her to join them.

But she just couldn’t let got to her mind: she was a woman on the mission.

She went down with the luggage to take her car keys, meanwhile the boys were in the kitchen, where she could hear them giggle, and she shout a quick “see you soon”, welcomed by two “have a nice day”, which was strange since the boys never ever seemed to notice whether she was out or in the house.

She proceeded with her plan: driving off to her friend house, who was already waiting for her with a mug of tea and chocolate, to comfort her tormented heart, meanwhile they gossiped about anything but her relationship, till Margret, her friend, mumbled:

“Are you sure about having done the right choice?” she had been the one who had insisted on her talking like a civil woman to Duncan about the situation and get the two “idiots” kicked out “… maybe they’ll miss you…”.

“I don’t think, Meg” she replied, rather quickly and without thinking, although her mind went a bit back to that morning, when Michael offered her to eat donuts with them “… I felt so unwelcome, but at the same time, I was the problem, they weren’t”.

“That’s (Y/N)’s mentality” tried to make her reason her friend “… Meg’s mentality is… you should have talked with Duncan”.

“I am!” she exclaimed, before she blushed, hiding her face in her mug and hoping it had been something stronger “… tonight, maybe…”.

Her friend just smirked sadly, before the intercom ringed and she moved to hear who was bothering them, meanwhile she searched a more comfortable position on the sofa.

Just as she had found it, her friend came back to her, with a face that made it seem like she had just seen a ghost, before ending up in a laughing fit, which she didn’t understand, looking at her confused.

“Apparently I have the police under my house, searching for you”.

Which was extremely strange: yeah, she had been staying at Meg’s house for a few hours, definitely not enough for anyone to be worried.

“Why are they searching for me?”.

“I have just let them up, before they accuse me of kidnapping you, so you can ask them yourself”.

The little policeman who had come to search for her, was actually the type of investigator that she would have found in a comedy and both she and Meg had had to stop each other from laughing at his face.

“Mrs (L/N)?” he asked and she nodded, thinking whether she needed or not to show him her ID, but the man just huffed relieved “… Mr Langdon and Mr Mason are extremely worried for you, they said that this morning you left with a luggage and they were worried you were trying to run away”.

Which had been her plan, but she didn’t think that they would have cared, or noticed.

“Ahem… I just went to Meg’s house, to leave a luggage and we ended up chatting for a bit more than we had thought, I am an independent lady, I am allowed to go anywhere alone”.

The policeman seemed to completely agree, but what he said further, surprised even more.

“I know, Mrs (Y/N) and personally… I think that both the misters might have overreacted a bit: we usually don’t warrant a missing person warning till twenty-four hours are passed., but Mr Langdon wasn’t able to calm himself till I told him that we would rush the procedure and I would personally search you for the city”.

This was rather surprised and Meg almost looked like she was going to choke on biting too hard her tongue not to laugh.

She hadn’t expected the boys to even notice her absence, she almost thought they would party on her finally leaving them.

She hadn’t definitely thought they would be worried for her.

“… so, if you don’t mind it, Mrs (L/N), can you come with me to the police station, so that Mr Langdon and Mr Mason might stop pestering my agents?”.

Although she was almost tempted to stay here at Meg’s house just to make them panic even more, she went after the policeman, since he honestly seemed too done with this entire situation.

Meg smirked, meanwhile she hugged her goodbye, whispering about the fact that she needed to confront them now.

When she came at the station, the total chaos was happening there, meanwhile Michael basically screamed at every police officer in the station on how they should rush what they were doing, as Jim looked like he was a step from crying, surrounded by many secretaries who tried to get him to be slightly happier.

But he only brightened when he saw her coming alongside the detective, immediately pushing them all away to run into her, to hug her, meanwhile Michael stopped his screams to turn around, also catching the sight of her, but standing behind with a mysterious expression she didn’t understand if it was cooled rage or true surprise, as if he hadn’t expected her to be back.

“Ladies and gentlemen, Mrs (Y/N) is back” mumbled the detective, meanwhile she thanked and everyone erupted in an applause from which she hid, hiding her face in Jim’s shirt, who was more than happy to bring her under his wing, gently hugging her, meanwhile Michael escorted them out.

The drive back home was silent: she hadn’t been able to disentangle herself from Jim’s hug, so she was still stuck on his chest on the backseats of the car, meanwhile Michael drove, with an eye on the road and another looking at her from the rear window, as if he was expecting her to disappear in thin air.

When they came back home, she almost rushed to her room, but she was stopped by Michael who looked at her with a heavy expression.

“I think we need to talk”.

“I’d prefer to go to my room, to settle some things” she replied, knowing that “talking” might entail them making fun of them as they always did.

They might have been extremely worried about her but, did they seriously care?

“Sweetie, I do think that we need to talk” commented Jim, backing Michael off, but she was convinced by his tone and followed them to the sofa, and she took a seat on the chair in front of it, where they settled, putting some distance.

“Why did you run away” Michael Langdon was never one who liked to play around with things, mostly when they personally mattered to him.

“What are you talking about?” she tried to play dumb, meanwhile an exaggerated laugh left her mouth to hide her embarrassment “I just went to Meg’s house to give her the luggage and I stayed to talk with her, I didn’t even think that you would notice me missing”.

She knew that she was being unfair and definitely a bitch, but they had been terrible to her, so she didn’t owe them any gentleness.

They both grimaced at the screeching words.

“We did notice it, and Michael saw that your luggage was full” shittity shit, she thought, meanwhile Jim withheld her sight, as if he was an abandoned child “… and you wouldn’t come back or pick up your phone”.

“We were worried” summarized Michael, looking at her deeply with those shards of lethal glass, but she refused to give in.

“Yeah… I am sure that you were worried on how to explain to Duncan how you hadn’t killed me and buried me in the graveyard” she mumbled, meanwhile she crossed her arms over her chest to push them away from her mind “… you were just worried it might get you in trouble”.

“Yeah we were worried of what Duncan might do, if he didn’t find you tonight” mumbled Jim, his voice just a shade apart from totally becoming a crying “… he wouldn’t have been ok, without you, his soulmate”.

“We didn’t do this only for that” mumbled Michael, this time lowering his face as if he was ashamed to say that “… we were seriously worried about you… I know we might not show it much, but we seriously care about you”.

“Yeah I honestly and truly believe that you were” she spit sarcastically, meanwhile she just made to raise from her chair, but then Jim started crying and gently hugged Michael, who immediately welcomed.

“We are sorry for the behavior we have displayed with you, it’s just...” but before he could finish his discourse.

“… we were worried that you might take advantage of Duncan” shouted out loud Jim, before he hid his face in Michael’s chest so what he said next was a bit mumbled “… he is generous with the people he thinks that love him, and you appeared so suddenly in our lives… I just didn’t want him to suffer”.

She had never seen this side of the story, but she could see Jim’s worriedness, he had been there before both her and Michael and he clearly was extremely attentive at whoever came in their lives, mostly after what had happened with his mother, something that Duncan had whispered to her, when she had asked what to avoid with the boys.

“I was jealous” confessed instead Michael, although she would have obviously guessed it since he wasn’t as subtle as Jim, so she had caught him many times looking at her with green eyes, when Duncan would lean into her or circle her waist with his arm “… I honestly thought that you had some favoritism which you didn’t deserve just because you were his soulmate”.

She wanted to tell him that she had never wanted anything like that just because she was Duncan’s soulmate, just as him and Jim, who were each other’s soulmates, didn’t distance or made any favoritism towards each other in spite of Duncan.

“It was stupid, I have to admit it, but it felt easier to hate you than admit the fact that maybe you deserved Duncan’s love” he mumbled, biting his lips, meanwhile he focus his attention onto Jim “… but the fact is that he truly loves you and we have been assholes not to notice him”.

She was without words, and she was unable to breath properly meanwhile she thought about what to do, the two boys gently comforting each other, and she took a chance.

She raised, immediately feeling the boys’ eyes onto her and gently moved next to the two boys, enveloping them in a hug, extremely careful as if they were two cats ready to attack her at any given moments.

Jim was the first who leaned into her, gently grabbing her waist with an arm and pushing her onto his laps, completely smashing his face in her chest, in a soothing manner, for Michael it took him a tad more but he leaned into her touch, gently hiding his face in her hair and kissing her neck, softly.

They stayed like this enough not to be surprised from Duncan finally coming back home, who looked at three of them who he always found fighting, all entangled but didn’t say anything, instead gently he leaned in and kissed their foreheads, joining the hug.

Explanations could wait.

[a-winchester-fairytale]

SPN Writing Challenge

Everyone has their favorite sitcom shows, and I created a list of quotes from some of mine for my first challenge.

I know not everyone likes to do the quote thing, so I also added some music and picture prompts. Whatever you choose, please make it part of the story.

I am so grateful to each and every one of you that has started following me. This ride has been amazing so far, and I absolutely love writing and sharing my stories with you guys.

Please join me in celebrating 100 followers! Fics due by March 2, 2018. If you need an extension just let me know. Rules and prompts below the line.

RULES:

1. Please click the little follow button if you aren’t already. It will make me so happy….really, you have no idea

2. Send me an ask with your 1st and 2nd choice. I will not count reblog or comments as entries for the challenge. That just makes it easy for me to keep up with.

3. Please, SPN characters only, no RPF

4. I prefer Reader Inserts, but I will read OC, no pairings, and some ships, like Deonna, Megstiel, Salieen. If you have a ship you really want to write, just send me an ask, but I really want to stay away from the whole Destiel and Wincest stuff. No offense intended, its just not my thing.

5. It can be fluff, angst, crack, whatever. I will even say ok to smut, but if you do please include a warning and put everything below a Keep Reading line.

6. Speaking of Keep Reading…please include one if your writing exceeds 500 words.

7. Include #Mel’s S2S Challenge within the first 5 tags and Tag Me in the A/N. This way I can find your story

8. No hate allowed.

That’s it. All I ask. I promise that I will give feedback on every one that sticks to these guidelines. I will like it to let you know Ive seen it, and then add the feedback as soon as I have had a chance to read it. If you post your fic, and I haven’t liked it within 48 hours, send me a message and let me know. Tags are temperamental.

PROMPTS:

“Have you all just completely lost your minds?” @bunnyrabbitct

“Whiskey and Truth should always be served straight up.” @katymacsupernatural

“If I stay, I might be tempted to do more than talk.” @wingedcatninja

“You should buy them in bulk if you’re going to hand out apologies that often.”

“What is this, Mayberry?”

“I was so good I screamed out my own name.” @roxy-davenport

“If sex were fast food, there’d be an arch over your bed.”

“When I eat jello, I feel better. Dont ask me to reduce it to a science.”

“Don’t get excited. I basically chose you over death.” @inkbleeder

“Sometimes people disappoint you, and you just have to let it go and love them anyway.” @toodeepinthefandom

“Keeping promises when it’s convenient is easy. But easy doesn’t count for much in life.” @caitthejourno

“I think it’s time to set aside our differences.” “Not by my watch.”

“I think you’re beautiful when you’re jealous.”

“I can’t imagine anyone seeing you as a disappointment.” @avengethis

“We’re sugar and spice and everything nice, so bite me.” @herbologystudent252

“You might think there’s an explanation, but you would be wrong.”

“I ain’t stupid” “well, that’s a matter of opinion.”

“I’ll be your family.” “And I’ll be your best friend”

“You know my motto. Today could be the last day of the rest of your life.”

“You’re special.” “What, like ‘stop eating the paste’ special?” @fandomoniumflurry

“I feel like I’m in the middle of a really bad after school special.”

“Don’t hate me because I’m beautiful.” @csulliven

“Okay, you’re being weird. Did you want sex or did you do something bad?” @roxyspearing

“I’m staying in my room, where life is beautiful.”

“Love isn’t always enough.“  “yeah, it is.  You go without it long enough and you realize it’s everything.” @triciareh

Music:

Battle Cry by Beth Crowley @pencilpie

Higher than Heaven by James Durbin

I’ll do anything by Keifer Sutherland

How to Save a Life by The Fray

Every Little Thing by Carly Pearce @soullessdemontrap

Dive by Ed Sheeran

Everybody Wants to Rule the World - Assassin’s Creed Unity

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1. @pencilbean

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3. @the-winchesterboys

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[mattiassamuelsson]

FIC PROMPT: my boys eichart with something fluffy. i dont care what. domestic shit. something happy 💞

u do love challenging me dont u meg. fluff? idk her.  i still have the last prompt u sent me sitting and marinating in my drafts. anyway. enjoy a horribly written ficlet.

12:30 am is pretty much the same everywhere –that muted sort of feeling that sleep should be coming soon but it’s not. And Jack is starving. And feeling too lazy to pull anything together that requires more than two steps and thirty seconds. So he dumps some Cheerios into a bowl and searches the fridge for milk. It doesn’t take long given its barren state, only when he retrieves the jug from its shelf there’s not even enough sloshing around the bottom to dampen his Cheerios. Which like, dry Cheerios –not cool.

“Sam,” He yells, “where’s the fucking milk?”

In the living room, Sam shifts on the couch, craning his neck to get a good look at the kitchen. “In your hand?” He says unconvincingly.

Jack rolls his eyes and moves from the counter to a better line of sight, all the better to direct his looked of unamused, disapproval. He holds the offending jug up. “There’s literally like, half a teaspoon left in here. It was your turn to get the groceries this week –you had one job.”

“Two.” Which is a shitty and lame excuse, by the way.

“Oh, so you can pick up your protein bars but not some fucking whole milk? What am I supposed to do with my Cheerios now?” And like, he’s not really that upset over the whole not having milk situation, it’s more –he just likes it sometimes, the banter, the pushing.

Sam stares back at him, unimpressed. “Wegmans is open right now –go buy your own milk if you want cereal so bad.”

And uh –hell no, Samsom. “Samson, if you think you’re getting out of this you’re fucking wrong.”

“I’m not going with you.”

“Yes you are.”

“Jack– do you really want to go out just for milk right now?”

“Yes.” He says, more to be difficult than anything else.

Sam regards him for a long moment before he shuts his laptop with a sharp click and exasperated sigh. “Fine.”

Jack blinks, caught slightly by surprise, but recovers quickly, giving Sam a slash of a grin, “Great –I’ll drive.”

The drive is a relatively quiet one, peaceful like the lack of cars on the road, and Jack’s gaze slides occasionally to the panes of Sam’s face, illuminated in the glow of passing street and traffic lights.

“I can’t believe you want milk this badly.” Sam mutters as they wait at a red light, there’re no cars in sight and Jack’s tempted to run it. But instead, he turns to look at Sam with his pulled up hoodie and expression that doesn’t quite match his exasperated tone. It’s —gentle. But maybe that’s just the glow of the red light. There’s a feeling though, and Jack’s no stranger to it even if he hasn’t felt it in a long time. 

He swallows, looks away. Sam seems not to notice, fingers idly tapping against the door.

The light turns green and Jack guns the car, as if he can leave the funny warmth in his stomach at the intersection.

Wegmans at 1 am is a surprisingly peaceful experience: no carts clattering loudly over tile, no screaming kids and tired moms. It’s the feeling of ice rinks after the lights have gone out, of quiet bedrooms and a redeye out of Buffalo with Sam curled up on the seat next to him.

Sam follows him like a quiet shadow, only speaking in quiet suggestions and pointed fingers drawn from the depths of his hoodie pocket. He catches Sam looking sometimes, fleeting moments he can’t quite catch besides out of the corner of his eye. 

They end up with a lot more than milk –sushi and pasta and eggs and unbuttered popcorn that tastes like nothing all loaded into the single open checkout. The cashier shows no visible sign of recognizing them –either doesn’t know or doesn’t care –either way, Jack’s vaguely relieved. Exhaustion is finally settling in now, and he blankly watches her scan their objects one by one. 

He almost doesn’t notice that beside him Sam is edging closer. Doesn’t really until he’s resting his head on his shoulder and Jack lets him. He has the urge to wrap an arm around him –Jack resists it.

“$15.62.” says the cashier without missing a beat, and Jack fishes a twenty out of his wallet with as little movement as possible.

“Thanks.” He says, gathers their bags and tugs Sam out by his arm.

It’s closer to 1:30 by the time they get back. Jack listens to Sam’s breath even out into sleep over the soft purr of the car engine, stares more obviously when they’re stopped at the red lights.

“Sam.” Jack says when he’s parked back in their garage, silence pressing around them as he shuts off the engine. It sounds loud in the absence of all sound, but Sam doesn’t stir. And Jack can feel himself staring again, noticing too much in the muted light –the way Sam looks younger in the way people do when sleep erases years, the way there’s a strand of hair falling across his face and Jack doesn’t realize he’s reaching out to brush it away until he is.

Sam stirs under featherlight touch and Jack snatches his hand back.

“Samson,” he says, firm. “Wake up. We’re home.” Sam mumbles something incoherent and Jack opens his door and climbs out, tossing “Grab the milk, will ya?” over his shoulder for good measure.

“Fuck —grab your own milk, Jack.”

this flash fic has been brought to youentirely  by my love of Wegmans at 1 am. I hope u enjoyed.

also  hmmm… now reflecting on this. it’s more… content than happy. but like. that’s cool right??? i love the feeling of contentness. it matching the liminal feeling of Wegmans at 1 am.

[himynamesreg]

Quotes in “I Was Here” by Gayle Forman

“It was bad enough she had to die. On purpose. But subjecting me to all of this, I could kill her.”

Amidst the heavy topics in this book, I found this quote an interesting fun way to lighten the mood a bit. I’m pretty sure this is a hyperbole, but if not please let me know so I don’t look stupid by keeping this on my blog. Anyways, I appreciate that Cody is still able to make light despite all of the emotions she must be feeling. This quote wasn’t jaw-dropping or anything but it is the first one that caught my eye; I don’t know, I just found it a little funny. Come on now, you can’t kill a girl if she’s already dead. Silly Cody. (btw i hope i dont offend anyone with this/i don't find the suicide funny, the “i could kill her” part just made me giggle a lil hehe ok bye)

“He told the Garcias that Meg had committed a cardinal sin and therefore her soul wouldn’t  be admitted to heaven, nor her body to the Catholic cemetery.”

I connected to this quote on a more personal level. Being a Catholic as well, I’ve definitely heard of this before, even from some of my own family members. Yes, taking your own life is a very serious act, but I don’t think it’s right for a Priest to tell a mother that their daughter is on a one way, no return trip to hell because she killed herself. I don’t necessarily agree with suicide, but I think it’s a shame that people still think this way.

“Consistency was one of the many things I loved about Meg’s house.

In this quote, I came to realize that Cody may not have had the best childhood. She longs for consistency within her household; A more homey home where she can expect someone to greet her in the morning and wish her goodnight. Meg’s family had that, which is why she was always with them.

“He seems like he’s aged a thousand years in the past month”

Here, Cody is examining Meg’s dad after the viewing. Personally, I found this a very elegant way to describe how horrible a person looks. I could only imagine what Meg’s family is going through and I think this is very accurately portrayed. He’s probably feeling exhausted, miserable, and lonely. This quote somewhat reminds me of how people say that stressing gives you grey hair and wrinkles. Now imagine that but x1000. Thinking about that just makes me feel more empathetic for her family/those left behind.

“I am tempted to inhale those sheets. If I do, maybe it will be enough to erase everything. But you can only hold your breath for so long. Eventually, I’ll have to exhale her, and then it’ll be like those mornings, when I wake up, forgetting before remembering.”

At this point, Cody is beginning to open up more about how she feels with Meg gone. She misses her, and it shows. As Cody is in Meg’s old dorm room, she notices that the sheets still have her scent. Maybe if she inhales them for long enough, she’ll replace all her grief with the memories of her smell. But she knows she can’t because eventually, her scent will wear off and she’ll have to let go. For her own good, she chooses not to indulge in the scent familiarity, as all it would leave her to do is reminisce.

“I think of the club we were meant to have gone to the weekend I came to visit. All the clubs we were meant to have gone to all the weekends I didn’t come to visit.”

With this quote, I fell like I’ve missed a theme: regret. I’m starting to notice all the times Cody says she wouldn’t visit although Meg had invited her multiple times. Going to Seattle, where Meg used to live, is giving Cody a taste of what could have been a trip to visit her, if only she had gone to see her more.

“—it’s the particular contortion when fury meets guilt. And I know that look. I see it every day in the mirror”

Ben (Meg’s fling) and Cody had gotten into a heated argument over Meg. The expression on his face is one that Cody is familiar with, as she makes it herself. I believe that both of them are angry with the choice that Meg has made, yet feel somewhat responsible for not seeing the signs. This seems to be another theme I did not catch: guilt.

“It’s a different kind of good-bye, and in spite of the happy face I can feel her heartbreak and rejection and defeat, things I’ve never associated with Meg Garcia”

The quote is found when Cody is reading the emails between Meg and Ben. This ties into the theme of mystery. Cody sees Meg in a new light and discovers emotions that she found to be very uncommon with Meg. They’ve been BFFs for over 12 years and yet she’s reading secret emails with a secret love interest; Did she really know her that well? Sounds mysterious to me. 

“And then you wait, and wait, and wait, and nothing comes back, so all those things you thought were so important to say, really, they weren’t”

This quote led me to another personal connection. Something I’d rather not admit, but this is what I thought of when I read these lines: When you're in an argument/disagreement with someone and think of something clever to say back, and it may not be the wisest, but it doesn’t matter because you took so long to think of it and in your mind, it sounded so clever so you say it anyways. But in return, you either get no acknowledgement for the amazing and thoughtful argument you’ve come up with or you just get no response back. So all of the things that you were spouting while you’re head was filled with emotions, it really wasn’t worth it in the end after all. Now, I have no idea if you understood what I just said, but that is genuinely what I was thinking hehe.

“My voice threatens to crack but I won’t let it. There will be time to lose it later. There’s always time to lose it later”

The basis of this quote lies between the argument between Cody and Ben, once again. I felt that this quote represents the theme of friendship. Cody gets uncomfortable and scared as the tension between the two rises. Amidst her fear of faltering, she still stands her ground and defends Meg’s name. Although she’s gone, Cody still chooses to stay strong and puts Meg over herself.

“The girl didn’t suffer fools”

I found this quote pretty interesting as it made me admire Meg in a way. I interpreted this quote to mean that she didn’t care for surface level relationships and she didn’t entertain those she felt she would probably end up hurting. I don’t really know why I admire her for that, to be honest. I just think it’s cool that she only really kept people that she considered her true friends. She kept her circle small, in a sense.

“...the despair that she left behind—even for people who may not have known her—has to be honored and felt”

I really do agree with this quote. I think that suicide can be a selfish thing. When Meg took her life, it affected everyone around her, even people who didn’t even know her. Now all that’s left of her are the memories. This can be applied to situations in the real world too. This type of behaviour can trigger the wrong set of emotions in another person.