#dorcas you stupid gay idiot 💞💞💞

[loserboyfriendrjl]

dorcas realising they like marlene while watching her making out with another person

"are you okay, cas?" evan asked, looking at dorcas with a huge grin. "what happened, love? too stunned to speak? cat got your tongue?"

dorcas wondered what exactly made her decide that going to the gryffindor tower, to mckinnon's birthday party, was a good idea. now, their drink was spilled all over the floor (had she crushed it in her fist?), and their eyes were fixed on her, sitting in the lap of a hufflepuff girl they had only seen in passing.

mckinnon, sitting on the lap of a hufflepuff girl.

making out with her.

"fuck off, evan," they said through gritted teeth.

maybe she should have stayed in the common room with regulus. they could have read together, done some homework (which included regulus helping her with arithmancy), smoked some cigarettes (regulus had the habit of serving himself from dorcas' whenever he felt like it).

in other words, they could have done anything but attend the party.

and it wasn't like dorcas liked mckinnon. they hated her, loathed her, despised her to every atom. they hated her blonde mullet, her hazel, black-rimmed eyes, her stupid face and plump lips.

yet what was the ache in her chest when she saw mckinnon with that girl? what was hurt that she felt? why did she want to be in the hufflepuff girl's place?—

oh.

oh shit.