#edit as I'm editing this to post: it's past midnight and nothing has changed. ||

[mgnifique-tion]

— from the heart.

summary || ``the scientist, y/n l/n, finds the key to the god of mischief’s hardened heart.``

pairing: 2012!loki x gn!scientist!reader song recommendations: i’ll be your man - btob / covered by park jeup, choi suhwan, and kim seunghun (build-up) lowercase is intended… »» read part 1 here

— themes and warning/s: open-ended (yet again), very mild swearing, the enemies have turned to complicated lovers, religious/christian metaphors, angst, death of family member (mentioned), thor mentioned 🗣️🗣️🔥🔥🔥🔥 (just a heads-up)

— a/n: entry for april! what the hell, y’all… how did i get so active writing about loki, i’m not even into the mcu that much anymore (idk, probably because he turned into a tree and that was sad?) anyway, this is the second part to “human reaction” so if you haven’t checked that out, just click the link on the title for some backstory. this has also turned out longer than earlier so wow, i think i’ve gone crazy for loki (thanks a lot, tom 👍) — edit: hello, so this was supposed to be up for april but i'm posting it now on july because, unfortunately, i have a very busy life with unexpected events taking place. enjoy reading!

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it was past midnight and that self-proclaimed god had brought you to the top of a hill, telling you to wait for him as he’ll be taking some time to converse with his allies.

allies in ruling the world? yes.

“faen!” you heard him growl into the darkness, which startled you from the rock you were sitting on. but of course, that sudden shock died down due to how tired you already were; sleepless and alert from anything that could happen if you’d ever close your eyes. there was that fear that you may never open them again if you had left them closed shut even for just a little minute. 

there was a long pause until you decided that it’d be somewhat of a good idea to say something. a single word at least just to fill in the silence. “... so, did the meeting go well?–”

“oh, will you just not question it!?” loki grunted, startling you again. well, he did say he wouldn’t lay a finger on you so erupting like a volcano right at you wasn’t technically breaking any rule. “don’t you see? it’s obvious that nothing else had gone well, you imbecile! what else would i have to offer you in exchange for your eternal silence!?”

then, he proceeded to take in a deep breath, closing his eyes to collect himself and his emptied patience while you just stared at him. yes, of course, you hated his guts and the fact that you couldn’t really do anything against him but you never intended to offend him; that question was genuine.

in fact, every single response you’ve ever given him was genuine.

“sorry,” you blurted out, “i was just asking. i didn’t mean to hurt your feelings or something... just wanted to know what went on.” the way your voice sounded so hazy and somehow breathy had given him the impression that you were already exhausted, not just mentally but rather physically. you couldn’t think of the words to respond anymore and maybe it would’ve been better if you had just said nothing.

but surprisingly, this was just another reason for loki to take interest toward your gift: humanity, as he’s said. “... did you just?–”

“yes… i did. i did apologize!” you didn’t even notice how your tone had changed; you’ve never raised your voice at him for the sake of him doing the same for you but you’ve had enough. you weren’t a friend, you weren’t even anything to him. you were just a total mortal stranger he spared, which does not give any reason for both of you to yell at each other but that rule has been broken.

after all, you’re just human and that is natural.

“i have never insulted after you’ve spared me,” you reminded him bitterly, getting up from that rock you’ve been sitting on ever since the past hour. you don’t even know why this god had brought you here and something about it was just familiar to you, just like the sacrifice of isaac. “i couldn’t sleep... i couldn’t eat... i couldn’t even ask you to stop whatever the fuck you’re doing to my world anymore but the moment i asked you about your stupid meeting, you just– you just blow up at me! is this what i get from saving you!?”

and that was the first time you’ve ever startled a god.

loki was stunned. slightly amused but completely out of words. just by staring at him, you’d know that he would start thinking of something with a smug smile but there was nothing on his face; he was fazed by you. 

“right,” he said with a low chuckle, “i must’ve forgotten you were human with feelings all over the place... natural... real.”

as the scepter started glowing again, panic rushed in your head and you damn knew that you had to run – just like the many times you’ve thought of that scenario but it just never took place. “you want a meal and an hour of sleep?”

“make it at least two–”

“four, it is.”

and despite the second peak of terror just occuring, that was also the second time he’s ever shown actual generosity. “you humans are too fragile,” loki commented with yet another chuckle as you huffed since that’s all you could do; you don’t trust his promises after all and you might never will. “... you really do need a proper leader. a god you can see, feel, and touch… not some written messiah.”

oh.

that statement must’ve crossed borders.

“... where do you want to eat?” he asked softly, almost as if he’s returning that genuine question he didn’t even bother to listen to. you were starting to wonder whether this was a symbol of your last meal. the last thing you’ll ever eat before your execution. 

who knows what else he could do with that scepter of his. “... well, in-n-out is open for twenty-four hours so…” you trailed off, looking away for a bit as your eyes scanned the area. every hill and path already turned into several landmarks in your mind as if you were the first person to discover it. “... would that be okay?”

once those uncertain words left your lips, the god of mischief smugly smirked back and nodded once. “i have one condition, however.” loki, of course, had to have some benefit from allowing you to take your basic needs as he stood before you, his hands clasped together and shown rather than his usual. “you’re not allowed to eat alone, therefore, once you purchase your cheap delicacies, we’ll come back here.”

so, a total bummer? of course, loki would know how to ruin your chances of escaping even if you hadn’t plotted against him… yet. “i wouldn’t want my apprentice to attempt freeing themselves, would i?” he knew what he was doing and you just had no choice; you needed to eat. you needed sleep. you needed to survive and in order to do so, you must abide by his rules.

he did spare you, didn’t he?

and as time passed by, you were now seated in the same mountain area, eating a take-out burger with a god. you didn’t know whether this was an early breakfast or a late dinner but nonetheless, you were somewhat grateful. “... are you not hungry?”

“gods don’t need to–”

“i bought you one, too.”

for some reason, loki just couldn’t say no to that as he continued to sit down next to you while your hands scrambled into the paper bag, searching for the other burger. at the moment, this was the only thing you could afford since he’s taken you under him once he’d given you that offer: wherein he or his blue-eyed minions couldn’t hurt you yet you still had to be somewhat his subject; a witness and a bystander.

after all, how could he lead humanity without being familiar with one?

“why aren’t you making attempts yet?” loki asked, “this is your perfect and only way of taking the hit and setting yourself free from my commands.”

“because i stick by my words,” you said back effortlessly, “i’ll be here until you let my co-workers– my friends go.”

he was silent again. in some way, he expected you to tell him that you were staying because you simply wanted to but a whiplash of reality quickly swept him away from his delusions. “so, you’re telling me that you’d wait until i let them go, huh? you’re willingly waiting for ages, then.”

the god hardened his heart and set aside any chances of letting your friends go as he chuckled before taking a bite from his burger. on the other hand, you just sat there, rethinking your choices; there’s no way nothing could convince him to let them go, right?

“yet i do admire your everlasting… hm… patience,” he pointed out, later letting out another low chuckle. “now that is something i don’t have… how do you do it?”

for the very least amount of times, he actually was genuine with that question. “well, i had a baby sister and she definitely trained me a lot with my patience.” you laughed, the delayed silence seeping in little by little, which made him cock his head to the side, curious about the matter.

“... had?” he just had to ask about it. “she passed away.” and you just had to tell him.

hearing your solemn, guilty answer was enough to make loki hooked to that story behind your younger sister’s passing. it wasn’t something you’d openly talk about but it surely was the only thing you endlessly blamed yourself for. 

“... oh,” loki uttered with a rather bitter tone, “i’m sorry for your loss… how old was she?”

“twelve.”

considering the fact that he was thousands of years old, his eyes widened after finding that out. “... that’s young,” he commented rather blankly but the look on his face was otherwise; you weren’t the only one terribly heartbroken about the incident. loki took the lives of eighty individuals in two days but never did he think of taking the life of a young child.

so, that was terrifying to think of. “and that happened because of?”

“... terminal disease.”

no matter how casual you sounded to him, your heart shattered. “well, actually, it could’ve been her twenty-second birthday last month if she made it… i’m a bit sappy now, aren’t i?” reality woke you up and told you to snap out of it; you weren’t talking to a friend, you were talking to a dictator. an alien. the god of mischief.

this story was not supposed to be and shouldn't be disclosed with him. “be sappy all you want,” he said, taking a sip from the straw of his cola. “after all, a god should be able to listen to his people’s messages, right?”

narcissistic? yes. but empathic? weirdly, that too.

“... that thing you used earlier,” you took a pause, letting out a sigh and then, a laugh. “it was supposed to be for her… well, for people like her at least.”

loki was giving it his best to not feel sorry – guilty for using the thing you’ve made but who knew that a sibling tragedy would soften his heart? he wouldn’t admit it, of course, but it was there. present at the moment and served as a reminder that he too had a sibling.

well, has.

“it was up for testing but of course, it was used for something else,” you said, eyeing him down as he managed to fake a chuckle; he couldn’t let himself show weakness after everybody else in his life made him feel like a nuisance – a tiny, little problem they’d have to deal with every day. not ever. never again. “... but i guess i still saved someone? and i still don’t know if i should be happy about that but it still provided its purpose.”

“oh, please.” he laughed, facing you more than he ever did before. “you saved me, your god and not anyone else… you should be celebrating this for your whole life.”

“you’re not the god i worship, loki.”

“well, i suggest you must. it’ll make this all easier for you.”

and he talked like a noble deity while eating a french fry. cheap and comical but it didn’t lower his status. “and, oh, if you do, there would be a lot of kneeling that’d occur.” that statement made you turn around and look at him with your brows either furrowed or raised; you had no idea how to react properly to it.

“... what–,” you were then stopped midway.

“i meant in praying.” he choked out.

this was one of your weirdest, most out of place conversations with the god so you just had to slowly turn away again and face the hills below both of you while munching on the burger in your hands. and then, he told you the truth you’ve kept deep in your chest, “... oh, i see it clearly now… you saved me because you want to prove yourself that you’re capable of keeping someone away from death. that you’re… worthy of things.”

it felt like time had stopped the moment you listened to him say that. for the first time, he was actually right with what he’d told you. he’d always claim the most bizarre things about humans and gods but this time, he was so close to the truth that he just blatantly told you what it was.

you were guilty because you couldn’t save her.

“i have a brother,” he added, “that’s why i… um… figured it out.”

“well, where is he, then? did you kill him?”

loki laughed at that. despite the hatred and fueling anger he had for his older brother, he wouldn’t end up killing him even though he’s close to it. the scars of the past made him into who he was now but the wound that his brother’s death would leave him absolutely destroyed. alone. all by himself. consumed by nothingness. just like what his old, so-called friends would tell him.

“he’s alive,” he said so soothingly, “and he’s living against what i had planned for this world.” those following words were much bitter, angrier than what he’s said before. it’s almost as if he’s relieved to see his brother again but upset enough to know that he wasn’t on his side.

“oh, you totally miss him.”

“... silence, peasant.”

and yet another unexpected scenario happened: sharing a laugh with the god of mischief who wants to rule over your world like a second hitler. “... but you can’t show that, can you?” you questioned and he nodded right away, politely letting you finish despite already expecting that you’d ask that. 

when the cold air and the rustling leaves collided, it was time for you to ask him the question that might just change the entire situation.

“is everything all from the heart?” you asked, pointing towards your chest as you stated him down. “... are you saying all of this from the heart?”

it took loki a while before he accepted it; he did speak about all of it from the heart. all of it. no lies were told for once and it was chilling for him. he didn’t even know that he was capable of opening the doors to the secrets he’s kept locked and buried in but that was the effect of the midgardian sitting next to him; the human who made him realize why thor loved jane.

the human he was willing to rule and to love. “... if i asked you now, would you kiss me?”

and for some reason unknown, your lips did brush against his, caressing them softly while you brought your hands to the back of his head, tangling your fingers around his waved locks. maybe you had been caught up by the moment but for him, this was real. this was the moment he understood why thor wanted to protect this world.

because humans spoke from the heart. 

but how could he take everything back when the damage had been done? when the chaos had taken over?

he pulled away and asked with teary, glistening eyes, “what have you done? why did you do it?”

one thing about him was that his need was also his one and only fear; it was love. 

you were startled once again, still keeping your hands behind his head. was it a trick? was it some test? you didn’t know anymore. you were bound to do whatever it took to save your friends and if a kiss that you’ve been longing for could do it, then what else could go wrong?

well, things may have not gone wrong for you but to loki, this was his one and only wake-up call.

wake up, loki.

you’ve fallen for the human.

[thedarkmistress16]

please gush about your passions and pastimes!!! I would love to hear about them

ack- im happy you want to hear about them!

Passions:

obvs as y'all know recently and just in gen., i guess, writing- i love crafting worlds and stories where anything can happen and just creating scenes above all else, like getting lost in the details of everything. I love getting lost in my own world and making myself happy as most self-indulgent writers do (and showing off my legitimate skill in a proper form of writing after doing shitpost-y things for so long is pretty rejuvenating, XD). And upon going back to some of my older, posted works and wips, I still laugh at the dumb shit I thought was the best stuff ever and now find myself giving those ideas a refresher like my last writing update, because it's still a legitimately enjoyable read.

i love sketching for similar reasons, but more so to visualize a fuzzy, almost-there idea, usually about fashion. Like recently I re-drafted some outfits for a fic idea I had, in order to make the world and designs make sense in my head. And I redesigned an existing outfit, running with certain themes and embellishments in design. I'm so happy I can churn out simple sketches like that when i really put my mind to it and feel content with the finished product nowadays. I feel accomplished as a hobby artist now and it's all thanks to heavy online research, a few how-to books, and putting effort into one art class. It's the second hobby of mine that I want to be good at, almost as much as my writing. Speaking of, I sometimes draw what I write or dream about because it's that prominent in my head.

Wow i love music guys- ha, but you already knew that *lenny face*

Past times:

I really like playing the simpler games in life- not as much in the vein of it being less difficult or busy, but more so with fewer controls, interesting mechanics, and a captivating style that I can easily fuck around in or beat some levels for a few hours. Bring on the (spider) solitare (only 4 suit sucks ass why do i do this to myself), jewel quest (FUCK YOU CROWS), barbie's fashion show (SINGLE DREAM-), zoo tycoon (fuck guest happiness), and sonic adventure or x-men of course.

MMD vids are v neat, like I know a handful of choreos that are fun as past midnight exercises to get my blood pumping and i get to discover new songs and learn more about other languages at the same time! Also the aph as mmd crack vids are the best whether its them making 'i hate this' or 'yeah im hot shit' faces or being completely into it as they're forced to dance or simply copying a vine. Like, they give me brainrot and serotonin at the same time its so fun. I love seeing all the different outfits for mmd vids in general, too, on top of new covers i never would've known about.

I really love analyzing things in general, actually. It's how I learn most of the things I do and know now, even though it technically causes me to lose large chunks of time because all i'm doing is staring at the damn thing, XD. Sometimes (all the time) I'll look at a gif or vid of a character changing their facial expression as they do/say something and I'll be completely enthralled by it. Something similar happens when I stare at REALLY GOOD artwork. I think it's the technical part of my brain trying to figure out the individual elements which make up whatever that thing is, like what facial muscles are being used to convey that emotion or mix of them, what the character is feeling, how the lighting or shading of the environment or extra details in editing affects said expression, etc. And for art, I'm thinking of the lines, posture, composition, object placement, color palette, negative space, tone, and all that jazz you learn from studying art.

Scrapbooking is a fun pastime for me that's extended from celebratory cards to actual gifts to my personal sketchbooks. It's part of the "creating something out of nothing/seeing what you can create with some basic templates and decorations" kind of mindset. And it makes me happy because I get to be creative and my family members and friends (even my employer) love them as part of their gifts every time and come to expect it from me each holiday, so I'm constantly encouraged to do it in the best way. I've recently kinda gone overboard on using ribbons and charms for the spiral and stickers and washi tape for the actual book itself on my sketchbooks, but I find myself wanting to draw in it more because I did that, lol.

I love rewatching the things I love. I usually have the same commentary about it, but its nonetheless enjoyable. And I never know what new thing I'll discover about it next, even if i've seen it over 50 times and only have it on as background noise and don't actually watch it. And yes, I will easily let something play on repeat at least that many times in my lifespan as well (like, a full day of it, at least).

wow i love staring at characters im attracted to for hours on end can i get a HUYEA-

[mcnypieces]

@beyondshadow​ ferried:  Happy birthday, BunnyBun !!! May your days and evenings remain prosperous and fruitful and full of the things you enjoy. I'm glad we're finally getting around to interacting on the dash these days, it's all love from here

     Oh yes, how I hope they remain just as wonderful and prosperous as they have been over the past few days! Comfortable and memorable down to the last, even in their simplest, most mundane form. Thank you. ♥

     Ah I’m just as glad as you are, too!! Chuffed as chips, really. You are just a delight J, through and through. I’ve definitely been eager to write with you since the moment I laid eyes on your lovely writing and all that love and dedication. Nothing speaks louder to me than somebody that puts so much effort into the things they love and you do so tens of thousands of times over! I look forward to all the potential back and forths, things little and long, and everything rolling about in between! Really I could just sit here and go on for a century about why I’m so excited about it in its entirety but I’m afraid that kind of eagerness doesn’t have an explanation in any string of human language out there. It’s a shame, really. At its core, though, I appreciate you so much as a person and a writer and I just can’t wait for all the wonderful times that await us in the lands of interaction. 

[my-fragment-of-peace]

So I was listening to Midnights (3 AM Edition) as I was falling asleep last night and I have this theory now that is probably completely wrong (but also what if it's actually right?). Anyway, my theory is that all of the songs on Midnight were intended for other albums. Before making Midnights, what if Taylor went back and listened to any demos or read the lyrics she wrote for these songs, polished them up, updated them, and changed some of the perspective to reflect her thoughts and where she's at in life now? There's no real evidence to support this, other than songs sonically sounding like they belong on other albums and/or they're a continuation of past songs. Here are my thoughts as to which album each song may have been intended for if they were in fact pulled from the drafts/vault. Or what albums I think they would belong on if they are all in fact completely new: (below the cut)

(Also disclaimer: These are just my thoughts and opinions and they're probably completely wrong if you disagree that's fine, I was just curious to know if anyone else was thinking anything similar lmao)

Lavender Haze - Lover, obviously. It reminds me of a combination of False God and I Think He Knows.

Maroon - Red, again this one's obvious. It's a shade of red. The reference to New York.

Anti-Hero - 1989. This is like Blank Space's non-sarcastic sibling. It conveys some of the same feelings. Also it sounds very 80s pop to me.

Snow On The Beach - For this one I'm actually torn between 1989 and Lover. Lyrically I think it could be on either but based on how it sounds I lean more towards Lover.

You're On Your Own, Kid - Red. It reminds me quite a bit of The Lucky One in some ways, and sonically it makes sense.

Midnight Rain - Reputation. 80s pop, but slightly darker synth and cool background vocals.

Question...? - Fearless. It just feels right idk how to explain it.

Vigilante Shit - Reputation, probably the most obvious on this list. No explanation needed.

Bejeweled - 1989. Fun and very poppy. Post break-up anthem. Feels very similar to Clean, but it's about the feeling that happens after Clean.

Labyrinth - This song makes me think of Fearless too. It has the same feeling to me as Breathe.

Karma - Lover. I don't feel like this one needs further explanation either.

Sweet Nothing - Lover. Again, does this one need to be explained?

Mastermind - Reputation. This gives me a very similar vibe to Gorgeous. Gorgeous is from a more shy and apprehensive perspective, but Mastermind is like "surprise, this was my plan the whole time."

The Great War - Folklore. It's a bit poppier than some of Folklore, but it just seems to fit.

Bigger Than the Whole Sky - Evermore. It actually reminds me a lot of the title song from the album.

Paris - Lover. Again, this one's obvious it's the pop love song of the year.

High Infidelity - Evermore. It fits in so well with other songs from the album.

Glitch - Lover. A very soft song, it just fits there.

Would've, Could've, Should've - Based on content of the lyrics, I want to say Speak Now. Do I think she ever would've released it on that album? No. It's much darker than anything she was releasing at the time but I do think maybe she had the lyrics saved in a draft or something if this theory is true.

Dear Reader - Midnights. I think this song is completely new and she did write it beginning to end for this album.

[doc-pickles]

fanfic master post

A handy dandy guide to all of my Jolex fics. 

(EDIT: This list is definitely not comprehensive as I know I haven't put every single fic onto it. To see all of my Jolex writing, go through this tag on my page)

MULTI CHAPTER FICS

it’s nothing funny just to talk (complete)

“Well, I will call you darlin' and everything will be okay

'Cause I know that I am yours and you are mine

Doesn't matter anyway,

In the night we’ll take a walk,

It’s nothing funny just to talk”

- PUBLIC feat. Misterwives, ‘Make You Mine’

The fic that started it all! What happens when you text that random number graffitied on a bathroom stall in your favorite bar? Jo Wilson is about to find out.

part one

part two

part three

part four

epilogue

little pieces of you (ongoing)

“You've been my lover, my cornerstone,

You're the best friend that I've ever known,

This wind keeps me sailing home”

- Ben Hartley, ‘Pieces of You’

Set in the ‘it’s nothing funny just to talk’ universe, a series of one shots that take a look at Alex and Jo after they finally meet up. This list will be in chronological order not posting order to make it easier for you to read in order!!

alex & jo after the wedding

jolex after the hospital shooting

alex & jo take care of amelink’s baby

alex asks jo to move in

jo gets sick

jo tells alex she’s pregnant

jo tries to leave

alex brings jo home

alex treats paul at grey sloan

alex proposes to jo

jo is involved in a shooting

alex is hurt at work

jo gives birth to annie

alex goes back to work

I won’t hesitate (for you) (complete)

“Pull me close and I'll hold you tight

Don't be scared 'cause I'm on your side

Know there's nothing I wouldn't do for you”

- Jonas Brothers, ‘Hesitate’

Jo is happy, at least she feels like she is. When someone from her past shows up, will her and her daughter's world ever go back to normal? Or will things change for good?

chapter one

chapter two

chapter three

chapter four

chapter five

chapter six

chapter seven

chapter eight

chapter nine

chapter ten

chapter eleven

i’ll be home for christmas

Set during Hesitate (between chapter ten and eleven) Alex, Jo, and Harper go to visit Helen for Christmas. read it here!

trick or treat (and two little feet)

Set in the Hesitate universe, Jo has some exciting (if not unexpected) news to tell Alex as they get their girls ready to trick or treat. read it here!

dear alex/dear jo (complete)

“If we come back and we're broken

Unworthy and ashamed

Give us something to believe in

And you know we'll go your way.”

- Mumford and Sons, Guiding Light

When your husband sends you a letter telling you he's left you to move halfway across the country and raise kids he didn't know he has, you don't respond. Right? Because only a crazy person would write a letter in response to divorce papers and 'I'm not coming home'.

A series of letter between Jo and Alex after she responds to his infamous letter. Written by myself and @odd-birds-and-booksellers​

read the whole collection on AO3

won’t let no one break your heart (on hiatus)

“Oh, darlin', don't you ever grow up

It could stay this simple

I won't let nobody hurt you

Won't let no one break your heart

And no one will desert you

Just try to never grow up.”

- Taylor Swift, ‘Never Grow Up’

A case comes into Grey Sloan that rocks the Karevs world in more ways than one. Can Alex and Jo navigate the challenges and bad memories that come with it?

part one

part two

part three

part four

part five

part six

the one where they met in med school (in progress)

What would’ve happened if Jo and Alex had met while in med school? A super duper AU series for @thejolexgroupchat​ that I’ve been writing with @iamtrebleclefstories​ and Nat! Here’s a link to the entire series!

ONE SHOTS

in canon

the one with the midnight pizza

A cute, fluffy one shot with a lil dash of smuttiness in there set right after Jo and Alex steal the hotel room in Season 9. Written with @iamtrebleclefstories​ and @choosingmywife​ for @thejolexgroupchat​ Read it here!

maybe i don’t quite know what to say

Set in Season 13, Alex discovers Jo is pregnant as he faces a prison term. Angst with a happy ending. TW: mention of abortion read it here!

the one where jo’s in denial

Set early Season 13 in which Jo is absolutely avoiding the fact that she’s pregnant. With a little nudge from Bailey and Arizona, things begin to get a little clearer for Jo. Written with @iamtrebleclefstories​ for @thejolexgroupchat​ Read it here!

things just happened (and so did you)

A two shot rewrite of 14x08 and 14x09 exploring what would have happened between Jo and Alex if she had been pregnant when Paul showed up.

part one

part two

untitled wedding day fluff

Jo finds out she’s pregnant when her wedding dress won’t zip up. Takes place in 14x24. read it here!

grow as we go

Set early season 15 during the time that Jo is in Boston and Alex is chief. Pure fluff and happiness! Read it here!

‘you know your wife is pregnant, right?’

Set during Helen’s visit in season 15, Alex gets some big news from an unexpected source. read it here!

the one with the juice box

A fun and fluffy fic set in Season 15 that I wrote with @iamtrebleclefstories​ for @thejolexgroupchat​ using the prompt “So stick that in your juice box and suck it!” Read it here!

unmade plans

A short one shot in which Jo suffers through a miscarriage. Takes place *somewhere* in S15/16 canon. read it here!

all jokes aside

A fluffy post Halloween wedding fic. read it here!

oh baby

Jo is sick and Alex has found the reason why. Or so he thinks.... A fluffy one shot of Jo and Alex with some Amelink thrown in for good measure. Set in future, not *technically* canon but I can dream. Read it here!

the one with drunk jo

Jo and Alex attend his sister’s wedding and things get a little out of hand. Fluff and Jolex adorableness, along with a drunk!Jo makes for lots of fun. Written with @odd-birds-and-booksellers​ and @iamtrebleclefstories​ for @thejolexgroupchat​ which you can read it here!

never thought i’d see it break

A look at Jo’s life on the Halloweens after Alex’s letters. Angsty and not Jolex friendly... but good writing nonetheless. read it here!

i saw mommy kissin’ santa claus

Alex dresses up as Santa for the Peds Christmas party at Jo’s insistence. Pure fluff. read it here!

that was our place, I found it first

In which Alex and Jo both struggle with their new realities and that overwhelming sense of deja vu. Takes place post 16x16. read it here!

AU

love in bloom

AU stand-alone piece. Whenever you’re injured, flowers bloom on your soulmate in the same spot. That can only mean a world of pain for Alex and Jo. read it here!

squeeze cheese, pandemics, & you

I was bullied into writing a Jolex pandemic fic, but it ended up turning out pretty good. So uhhh here it is, it’s pretty fluffy and really hilarious so enjoy! read it here!

the phone call

A one shot of Meredith’s call to Alex in the ‘squeeze, pandemics, & you’ universe’ read it here!

the college jolex au that literally no one asked for

Wrote up this fluffy and hilarious little AU of Jo and Alex meeting in college. There’s fire alarm, frat parties, and a chemistry class. read it here!

the storm & the wind

Brooke is running and Alex happens to meet her along her journey. Their brief encounter might just change everything for her. read it here!

fix it

let me take your hand i’ll make it right (swear to love you all my life)

Fix it fic, post 16x16. Alex comes back to Seattle months after he writes Jo his final goodbye. read it here!

mosaic broken hearts

Pre 16x16. A fix it fic in which Alex comes home and Jo is reminded that sometimes we carry scars on the inside too. read it here!

we’ll go your way

Pre 16x16. In which Alex returns from Iowa to a surprising sight. read it here!

the worth while fight

Post 16x16 in which Jo shows up in Kansas to see Alex again. A celebration fic for hitting 500 followers!! read it here!

‘twas the night before christmas

A fluffy Christmas sequel to ‘the worth while fight’ featuring Jo, Alex, and their kiddos on Christmas Eve! read it here!

make my wish come true

Alex isn’t going to make it home for Christmas... Post 16x16 Christmas fluff! read it here!

right where you left me

Takes place in a season 17 AU where Jo was pregnant when Alex left.

part one

part two

break & burn & end

Post 16x16, Jo calls Alex to share some important news with him. read it here!

don’t wanna lose this with you

Post 16x16. Alex ends up in San Francisco but he’s not as alone as he thinks he is. read it here!

half a heart (without you)

Jo receives some unexpected news and the only person she can think to turn to is her ex husband. read it here!

you’re the one that I want (at the end of the day)

sequel to half a heart (without you). Jo endures the longest day ever, because nothing can ever be simple for her and Alex can it? read it here!

Smutty One Shots

oops.... everything in this section has adult content. read at your own advisement :)

don’t wanna keep you up

After a long day all Jo is craving is a hot shower and maybe a little relief from her husband. Just.... shameless smutty smut. read it here!

all i want is you

Jo is pregnant and frustrated, Alex is there to help. read it here!

i put a spell on you (because you’re mine)

AU stand-alone piece. When you and your soulmate touch for the first time, you’re overwhelmed with the urge to consummate your relationship. This makes for an interesting Halloween for Alex and Jo. read it here!

lovin’ me, touchin’ me

Set early season 13, Jo comes to get some much needed closure with Alex before his trial. read it here!

Taylor Swift x Jolex Week

My masterpost of all of my fics from TSxJolex Week 2020! Also includes the master posts for each day that include other authors work. Find it here!!

Jolex Playlist

I also created a Jolex playlist that lives right here and is always open for suggestions on new songs!

I’m also on AO3 if you want to look at my work for other fandoms, but I post here more than anything as of late!

Requests? Check out my prompt list!

[loudestcloud]

BNHA Character Theme Songs!

Part 1

Part 2

Part 3: Welcome and apologizes for taking so long. I thought I'd already posted this part ages ago so didn't think about it until I was adding songs for part. EDIT: ARE YOU FUCKING KIDDING ME!? I FORGOT AGAIN!!! I've had this in my drafts for litrally all year I just- I'm really sorry 😭

Regardless, were here now and it's big 3, Shinso and Pro time!

Mirio: Kickin this part off with something nice and happy. This song starts with 'today I feel like running naked thought the streets' and I think that's very funny given his quirk misshapes. Anyway, he only wants to see people smile and thats the main reason this song is perfect and it's very up beat.

Tamaki: A song about anxiety for an anxious boy. But it's kinda more than that. This song is quite upbeat, by a popular band and an album with the most popular songs they've done yet not a lot of people know. You'd know it's them if you heard it but wouldn't name it off the top of your head for them. Idk, I over thought this one a lot

Nejire ⭐: It's so pumped up and positive, I can totally see her singing this just in general but also to cheer up Tamaki and it kinda sounds like her. She's definitely a Mario girl.

Shinso: Completely shifting the tone, we have a jazzy song that is another huge reason I started this playlist. It's litrally him, there is no other song possible for him! Also, The musical video is amazing, please watch it it needs all the love in the world.

Aizawa: Another anxiety ridden man mean another AJR song, I don't make the rules. Yes I do but this song reminded me of young Aizawa, thinking he was just going to mean nothing and 'Can we skip to the good part?' being now with Eri and Class 1A and not the current Manga cos I choose this song ages before hell set lose

Present Mic: This is his go to karaoke song n you can't say anything against it. 'Present Mic and Midnight bitch'

Midnight: Is sexy, would also be a karaoke song for her and feels like she's fightin' with My lady.

All might: He is here guys, did you know that?

Sir Nighteye: Okay this is a little ship-sided and like the Aizawa choice, more of the younger character feel, but I feel like when All might left, he wished his quirk could do more than just see the future and past. He would totally wish he could fix the relationship they had and platonic or romantic, that bond was close and I don't think either one turely let it rest.

Ingenium💙: Tensei, my beloved. He's all about that strong team work and honestly, i don't think this is his music taste but I could see this playing over the chase pannles with the team or just the team in general working and helping eachother.

Wild wild pussycats: Haha get it? Pussycat dolls? Yeah that was the only reason for this to start... BUT It's an old song that was popular when I was like 3 and saying that makes ppl feel old so they Ignore it much like the girls do and I think it's a nice fit. They seem like the type to have been very flashy, not camera shy, wanting all the hype in the prime and the "you just might get it" feels like Tiger mid transition not liking spotlight and later them chillin' out in the mountains.

Fatgum: He's big, beautiful and would love a big girl so like what else can I say here? Man would sing it so much, Kiri showed him it and Tamaki gets shy when they just suddenly burst into song patrolling the streets.

Best Jeanist: No one actually wants to be him and some people would say this is how he handles hate but I think he genuinely believes all haters are jealous of him.

Endeavour: I hate all the songs ppl put for him because it's always the weirdest songs. It was hard to chose a good one but this has a lot of key Enji words like 'Got my legacy set in motion' and the phase 'the bigger they are, the harder that fall' reminds me of the public's response to him

Hawks: Kay so this one was an old choice back in S4 and The start of the manga arc I won't name to keep it spoiler free but i don't want to change it. He didn't really have much choice in things he does so it kinda feels like he's venting to someone. I just think it fits his vibe too.

The rest are Villian and Vigilante songs for part 4 so guess who they are if you want. The title is the link to the actual playlist if you wanna vibe with us, see you later for last part

[handcrafted-by-fluids]

A Glimmer of Hope (Draco x Slytherin reader)

Summary: This is the second and the last part of a sixth year fanfiction. Your friend Draco has recently got distant. You've taken it upon yourself to find out what he's up to. Is it just because he's your friend.

Link for 1st part: https://handcrafted-by-fluids.tumblr.com/post/620292667778236416/a-glimmer-of-hope-draco-x-slytherin-reader

Warnings: Angst

Requested by: @malfoy7

Edited by: @eternallyconfusedsoul

Also dedicated to: @the--queen-of-hell

Y/N- Your name

Y/L/N- Your last name

Part 2

The winter was almost knocking the sunlight off the clock courtyard. Hogwarts had never been a particularly safe place to be in, but this year was going especially substandard, both for you and for the school. Last month a Gryffindor student had been cursed by a jinxed necklace. Draco was still avoiding you, and now he had started missing classes too. You were trying your best to stalk him, but most of the times he ended up in the boys bathroom or the Room of Requirement which you still couldn't access.

Christmas would be there in no time, and the word got around that Draco would stay at Hogwarts for this Christmas, something he never does. You decided to use this as your opportunity to find the truth out. Going back for a vacation wasn't more important than your friend.

On the first day of your holidays, you decided to wait in the common room for Draco to arrive from his regular venture. It was almost midnight when he sneaked in slowly, as it was well past the curfew hours.

"Filch missed you again?", you asked, keeping your DADA book aside.

He almost dropped his wand in shock. It was dark, and clearly, he hadn't noticed you.

When he didn't reply, you got up and stood in front of him. "Do you want me to turn you in?"

"You wouldn't", Draco replied, but it missed the familiar smirk.

"You don't know that, do you?", you replied. "But if you tell me where you were, I won't inform anybody."

"You think I'm answerable to you?", he replied, suddenly raising his voice. You noticed a glittery trail on his face. Was he crying? It was hard to tell in the dark. "I have support from people you wouldn't guess. Also, I asked you to stay away from me".

His voice broke towards the end of the sentence, which pained you terribly. He was crying.

But you had never seen him cry. Never. He had definitely wailed purposefully when he was attacked by the Hippogriff, but those silent tears told something else about the person you knew so well.

He was suffering.

"Draco. You can tell me. Whatever it is. I won't tell anybody. I trust you", you said softly. "It's okay."

"That's the problem Y/N. You shouldn't. You shouldn't trust me", he said, almost inaudibly. "You'll hate me."

"I- I won't", you said, carefully choosing your next words. "We've been friends for five years, haven't we? I never hated you."

"We can't be friends anymore. I have chosen my legacy. This is to keep you safe", said Draco. "Please."

He finally looked at your eyes. You gazed at his beautiful gray eyes which matched perfectly with his pale gray tinged skin and felt a sudden desire to hold his face in your hands and wipe his tears off. After what felt like an eternity, he tore his eyes away.

"I'm sorry Y/N", he ran off to his dormitory once again. You were too speechless to stop him. Were you falling for him?

.....

It was tough to accept what you actually felt for Draco, as now he was as distant as ever. By the time the students returned from the break, you had given up all hope of ever seeing him again.

The first blow came in the form of a widely circulating rumour. Draco had been fatally injured in a duel with Harry Potter. Before you even gave it a thought, you found yourself running out of your Charms class (to Flitwick's immense agitation). In no time, you're requesting Madam Pomfrey to let you in.

Being a Slytherin had it's own advantages. For example, you had some tricks up your sleeve to convince Madam Pomfrey.

"But he's asleep. He's been given a high dosage of sleeping draught. Wouldn't be another six hours before he wakes up", she said, clearly annoyed.

"It's okay, I'm just going to wait here, I won't disturb him".

You spent the rest of the day sitting by his bed and looking at him. Though you're highly tempted to brush off his hair, Madam Pomfrey was good at keeping an eye. You just hoped no other teachers noted your absence in class.

You had lost the track of time when you noticed Draco stirring. Madam Pomfrey rushed to his side and helped him wake up.

"Has the pain reduced?", she asked, as Draco started to regain his consciousness. But he was far past answering her, because he was starting at you tenderly.

"Y/N?", he asked, completely ignoring Madam Pomfrey.

"Oh, very well", said Madam Pomfrey, "looks like your pain is gone. I will give you two some time to catch up while I go for my meeting with Professor Snape", she said and left you alone with Draco.

"How are you feeling now?", you asked tentatively.

"Better", he said.

You placed your hands on his left hand and brought it close to you, but he pulled away quickly.

You noticed a small part of a black ink on his forearm, which looked suspiciously like a tattoo.

"Were you waiting here for all that time?", he asked, to which you nodded. "You know you didn't need to."

"I was worried", you said.

He looked at you unblinkingly, and once again, you felt as if someone had stunned you. All the time you had spent away from him had made you realize how much you loved his company. You had loved every bit of his intoxicating personality- his smirk, his snide remarks, his eyes, and the way he ran his fingers through his golden hair.

He sighed, but didn't break the eye contact. "You deserve the truth Y/N".

"No, Draco. I'm sorry for pushing you all this time, you don't have to tell me if you don't want to", you said. You realized that all your curiosity was driven by your eagerness to be his friend. Now as long as you could just look at his eyes and talk to him, you wanted nothing more.

"It's okay Y/N. I want to tell you."

You nodded and helped him to sit up. "I have been given a task Y/N. By- by the Dark Lord. It is my only chance to save myself and my family".

You shuddered. You had always been afraid to lose all your friends in the wizarding war. You knew it was inevitable, but never really thought about it. Especially how your friendship with Draco would be affected. You knew which side you were in. You were not the bravest, but your parents were killed by the Dark Lord, despite the fact that they worked for him. If you had a chance, you'd definitely fight against him. But if you had a chance to bring back your parents by working for him...

Your thoughts were interrupted when you realized Draco hadn't finished yet.

"I- "

"You don't need to say anything", he said. "I have done horrible things while trying to accomplish it. I almost killed Katie Bell."

So that was him. What task could be so dangerous that he almost killed a student? Afterall, he was just sixteen.

"The truth, Y/N, is that I'm a Death Eater now", he said, and rolled up his left sleeve to reveal a tattoo that you knew so well. He sighed again. "I know you'll hate me after this. But you weren't going to leave me alone, were you? I wanted to keep you away from my messed up life, but I was also afraid that you might hate me. I didn't want to lose you, but you deserved the tru-"

You grabbed his hand and leaned in to kiss him before you could change your mind. For a moment, the world paused. The only thing your senses could pick up was the subtle scent of his musk cologne and the slightly bitter taste of his lips, probably from the medicines.

Before your realized what you were doing, you felt his hands on your cheeks, drawing you in his embrace. He was kissing you back.

After what felt like an eternity, you parted, though his hands were still on your cheeks.

"I love you", you whispered.

"Why?", he mumbled, more to himself than to you.

"You are the strongest person I know. You are doing what you must, but you are not a bad person. I know", you replied. "You don't need to tell me what task you have. I know what the Dark Lord is capable of. We all have our terrors Draco."

He removed his hands from your cheeks, held your hands and brought them close to his lips, and gave them a soft tentative peck.

"I don't know what is to come Y/N", he said. "I might not be able to finish the task, I might not be able to survive. And if I do manage to finish it, I'll never be able to look back, I'll have to commit to him. But for what it's worth, you, Y/N, are my only glimmer of hope, and you'll always be", he said, and kissed you again.

You didn't know how long the peace would last, how long you would have the opportunity to kiss him, how long you could hold on to him, but you knew how much you loved him, and how you always would.

As if reading your mind, he replied.

"I love you Y/N, and I always will."

Note: I tried my best to write it without affecting canon, so it's a bit of an abrupt ending. If you want me to continue this and change the main plot of HBP, do tell me.