#eeeuufhgghhh i just want to go home and cry cause im a stupid little bitch uwu

[kingasriel]

h not to be a little bitch ex stoner on 420 but

its stupid i know its really really stupid but its rly depressing me that i cant sm*ke w**d anymore

its mostly my anxiety driving me up the FUCKING wall like. im so tired of it i just want to fucking relax and have a good time but even taking ONE hit of weed instantly sends me into a panic attack and now i cant even think about taking CBD products without getting nervous and i cant bring myself to try anything anymore cause im so damn scared of panicking and my meds arent a high enough dose to even work fully when im sober so Lmao

and like idk its not like i cant have a good time or live life sober but it fucking sucks lol and i literally have such a hard time relaxing cause of my constant anxiety and dissociation and my shitty fucking stomach and weed used to HELP all this not make it WORSE but now here i am and im like hello?!!! is there nothing i vcan do about this???

abd i know im not the only one whos experienced this its just so frustrating cause it was just. its just another past time i enjoyed and i could relax and my trauma was easier to process when i was high and its not like i was dependant on it to function cause obvi ive been fine several months sober but again not to be a whiny lil bitch but IT SUCKS TO BE SOBER

and im sorry this isnt meant to put a damper on everyone enjoying themselves today / who smoke currently like im just complaining dont worry ablut it i guess it just is rly upsetting that my body and brain hate me so much and literally every time i find something i enjoy, weed or not, they try to ruin the experience for me

i just want to chill the fuck out but i cant. and im just really fucking tired. but it literally doesnt matter and if u read this piss rant im sorry