#esp if the tags are talking abt the process of making the post

[solcarow]

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[vinnymauro]

9, 28 and 41 for the gifmaker asks 😉

hi aimz!!

9. what/who inspired you to start making gifs?

every gif maker on this website to be honest! i’ve talked abt this before but i’ve been photo editing since myspace days (2007 or so) but never really knew what gifs were until tumblr. even then, i was content with using screencaps and editing based off screencaps! and i was fine with it when my laptops felt old and sluggish while constantly saying next laptop i’ll learn to gif. i said that for like 3 laptops 😭 but last year (late october) i got a new laptop and finally decided i was going to gif! and now here i am! i really wanted to gif back when i was rping so i could make my own resources but now that i gif i would cry having to make my own resources. y’all need to respect all types of gif makers, esp those who make 100+ gifs of an actor for rp bc that can’t be fun or easy.

28. have you ever posted a set, regretted it and immediately deleted?

nope! you get what you get. and if i really don’t like it, i’ll do a remake. i’m all about improving and showing my improvements. this blog is 10 years old and it hosts a lot of shit that i no longer like or care for but it doesn’t mean it needs to be deleted! i’m gonna look back on old edits like here let me color this better as a gif. i should start a special remake tag 🤔

41. what is your least favorite part about your giffing process?

capping and typography. they’re even. with capping i use a program where i manually cap and i tend to over cap scenes bc idk what i want to cut away and what not. so i’m usually hitting two buttons back and forth for a while. and i get tired of it pretty quickly. and then typography is my nemesis. idk how people can use small fonts and be able to see (i also don’t know if i could make my workspace larger. idk how to explain it but it always feels smaller in photoshop and then i upload it like oh that looks bad). i did a quote edit last night and i was having an almost breakdown over the typography before i gave up trying to do something cool. it’s whatever. i’m still gonna post it 😂

gif maker asks!!

[yellenasbelova]

show your process

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i was tagged by @zavens and @burningblake to talk about this edit. thanks for asking abt it!! it was a pretty fun process so im glad i get to talk abt it.

planning:

so one of my first reactions to listening to happiness by taylor swift was like oh............. this is a swanfire song. esp "there'll be happiness after you / but there was happiness because of you too / both of these things can be true / there is happiness in our history" i heard that and was like ok so i HAVE to make a swanfire edit using that. and then it took me a little over a month to get around to actually doing it lmao. i originally had a bit of a different vision for it but it was kind of vague so i ended up going in a different direction. mostly i wanted to just like mess around and try out some different edit trends, especially the smaller gif inside a shape on top of a larger gif style. that one became the main goal, and then i had also just learned how to do the paper rip effect and was having fun doing that so i decided to include that as well. so it just kind of turned into an experiment to see what i could do and what would work for the edit and look the best lol.

in terms of each panel, i decided i wanted to split up the lyrics w three panels and put the "there is happiness in our history" part in the caption. for the first panel, there'll be happiness after you, i wanted to represent emma finding happiness in her family after neals death. for this i chose the moment emma finally accepted her parents as the foreground and in color with emma holding neal while he was dying in the background in b/w. i wanted to include henry in the "after" also but this ended up working out better like composition wise.

for the second panel, but there was happiness because of you too, i included the moment of them talking abt how they used to be happy and then a moment from tallahassee representing that reference to them being happy. once again i ended up doing color for the like "present" part and b/w for the "past" part. the combination of color and b/w ended up also really like balancing out the edit bc everything in color was just too much lol.

for the third panel, both of these things can be true, i wanted to represent how while they did have a great deal of happiness together in their past, and they both still remember that and are fond of it, there also is still a great deal of pain as a result of their past together weighing down on them and their relationship, and they also both have found ways to move on since their separation. so i ended up choosing a moment from their first date to represent the former, and again its in the b/w for the "past" part, and then the end of the beach scene after neal has brought up his guilt for abandoning emma and they were able to have a conversation about how it impacted both of them (and also they mention how they've moved on from their feelings for each other, esp in regard to neals new fiance) to represent the latter. the moment of emma walking away at the end of the scene ended up being my choice since it looked better composition wise bc of the gif in the middle, but also bc i liked how it went w the vibe of them moving on from their past w each other. and then i ended up doing the b/w shape w the color gif in the background to like inverse the style of the first gif so it didn't like look repetitive or anything.

giffing/arrangement:

combining these together bc they're basically the same for this set.

so since i did each panel a bit differently, i'll just go thru the process one panel at a time.

first panel: to start, i made the background gif. it just involved a pretty basic process of just like turning it b/w and doing some various adjustments. for b/w gifs, i like to up the curves, lower the contrast, and lower the exposure, and in selective color under whites i raise the black, under neutrals i lower the black, and under blacks i raise the black. and then for the shape gif, i followed this tutorial. for the gif on its own, i just did some simple coloring to brighten/lighten it and added a layer w soft light blending mode to make the background blue. the blue worked well w this gif, so it ended up becoming the color scheme for the rest of the set. for the text, i wanted a simple font and a cursive font, so i ended up using cambria and charlinda. the “there’ll be” and “after you” i just kept white and added a drop shadow, and then for the “happiness” i made it the same blue color as the gif and set the blending mode to difference.

second panel: this one involved three different gifs. for the first two, the blue ones, i just did similar coloring as the in color gif before, but instead of adding a blue layer i used selective color to up the blues and then change them to the shade i wanted. then i blended them together to combine them into one gif (using this method, just gonna link the tutorial instead of explaining it myself since its how i originally learned how to do it anyway). then for the third gif, i used the same method as before to make it b/w (obv making adjustments to the different levels to better suit the gif). in order to do the ripped paper effect, i used the method from this tutorial (again just gonna link the tutorial instead of explaining it myself). i then did the text the same way as for the first gif.

third panel: this one was v similar to the first gif, but i flipped which gif was colored and which was b/w. the b/w gif was once again done using the same method as the others, and then i did the same tutorial method for the diamond shape. for the background gif, this time instead of coloring the gif the way it was, i made it b/w and then added a layer w blending mode multiply (i think, i dont have the psd for this part saved anymore so i couldnt check) and colored it the same blue i had used before. i then did some other adjustments to brighten it and make the color match correctly. then the same method as the first gif was used to put the b/w gif on top of the blue one. for the text on this one, i basically did the same thing again, except i didnt change the blending mode on the blue text for this one since it was overhanging on the b/w gif and it didn’t look good bc of that. 

in terms of layout, i just organized them in the order of the lyrics. since i knew what order the gifs would be going in from the beginning bc the lyrics had to be in the right order, i made sure to construct them in a way that made sense for that order. thats why the first and third gifs have the diamond gif w the bg gif, and the middle is different. 

posting:

generally i try to post my sets at noon CST a day or two after i finish them n thats basically what i did for this one. i always save my posts to my drafts before i post them/as im constructing them so i can see how they look put together and also on mobile (bc i use mobile primarily anyway) and then just post from my drafts.

tagging:

@ivashkovadrian for this edit | @mysteryandnonstopfun for this edit | @seeleybooth for this edit | @roseapothecary for this edit | @starkozova for this edit

feel free to ignore this if you dont wanna do it or pick a different edit that you wanna talk abt more!!

[doctorguilty]

osdd talk playing therapist with myself in public because I dont know who else to talk to but i my blog makes me feel like im talking to someone jdshskdgfdh

the more research I do about DID the more sense everything fucking makes like I’m angry, like usual, at all the mental health practices I’ve been to throughout my life that completely dismissed all the REALLY important details of the experiences I would describe and be like, I diagnose you like Depression (tm), at best I got c-ptsd from the best therapist I sadly couldnt see very long due to moving, and I also got bpd though every time I see a new therapist they think their job is to debunk my bpd???? cause I don’t fit the stereotypes or whatever so like Good Luck myself for EVER getting a professional to help me with this, I don’t care, I’m not even fucking bothering like going out of my way for it 

I’m am pretty confident I fall under secondary structural dissociation (overlapping like, textbook with my bpd and c-pstd, and I’m not sure about the OSDD/DID part perfectly though I’m leaning to OSDD-1? I think that would like, cover the most of me? hm i’m not sure 

anyway I understand what’s going on here I FINALLY understand, what I have going on is two (at least two? I can distinguish two right now) ANP’s, aka host personalities, aka parts that manage every day life like work, socializing, etc and I’ll shift between them frequently, like multiple times a day probably most days. which explains super fucking well why I’m ...incredibly detached from my trauma most of the time but can be so hypersensitive to triggers, cause evidently ANP’s don’t integrate trauma and that’s what the EP’s are for and this was a thing with me omg, I was going to EMDR therapy before I had to move in attempts to process trauma??? I didn’t get very far and even the little I did the results were like, super funky, I think thats cause my shit didn’t end at c-ptsd that was just the beginning aughhhh 

SO I GET IT OK i get it.... this is why for no explicable reason I would start disliking my name or my outward identity STILL even without it being a gender dysphoria thing because Seth is only one ANP, and there’s another one, (like ig still making the assumption there’s only two but thats currently how its looking), and I’ve been thinking about it like, what to call that, well, I guess, that’s me like kfjldsg me typing at this moment I’ve been just like??? so confused but hey Lore this is why a bit ago I made that post saying I wanted to go by Guilty more online. like seth is still fine that’s my name irl too it doesn’t bother me being called that but there was still something dysphoric about it?? 

so I know it might be cheesy to like pick names out of my online handle stuff but ;; it’s stuff I’m used to being called and I like it and it’s been with me for years now....... but I think guilty is a perf name to like, refer to the whole system or just like anyone present, I think... for myself I really like Doc, I was making that a nickname but i mean, i dont know if i’d want a whole new name you know like? Doc sounds pretty good and a lot of mutuals were already calling me that!! 

I think the split between ANP’s is probably like, close to 50/50, like it defs depends on situations and stuff like work and social situations, who I’m talking to online? 

and then I have those emotional parts, like glitter, and more I havent namedropped yet, I was calling those alters but I think I like it better calling them EP’s, I think ANP and EP speaks more to me than host and alters and such 

omg but!! yea! wow! like I was saying last night? I think? the more I come to understand the infinitely better I feel, like esp with the EP’s every time I’ve made mental/emotional headway on that everyone involved felt better so it’s like fuck it, I’ll do all the psychological work myself (slaps my own ass) 

i think ultimately I might round this all up in a page on my blog or something,I was iffy to do a sys page but i’m like... wistful I guess like idk where else i could express this stuff ,I cant in everyday life, but i want to! idk I’ll think more abt that later though for now I’ll tag all my stuff so i dont lose it for reference

idk who in their right mind woulda read all this but if you did congrats and like?? if you want to ask any questions you’re welcome to 

[meichangvevo]

@tariqah replied to your post

“RIGHT i think it’s a shame bc fma’s homunculi rlly provide such an...”

I KIN YOUR WHOLE TAG and the whole they’re just fighting narrative doesn’t make sense when you look at the fact that Amestris itself was created through imperialism and by conquering smaller nations like / Falman was talking about it during the underground scen in Briggs / So the Ishval vs Amestris conflict is in no way an isolated event either / Liek remmebrr the scene when the Ishvalans Scar gathered entered someone’s house and that lady just kept screaming while technically they were saving her life / Zjskaksjjsjsuisisa I got so angry br also major kin moment / Like I still find the military characters in FMA to have been VERY WELL written and actually likeable in their personalities alone but when you see the barebones of it this was the most reformist weirdo group on earth I hate / Also we should have had a scene where Scar actually gathers Ishvalans / MORE than Mustang, the man who tucking annoys me is the bastard Marcoh / Because truly Marcoh had no right to give him the stone like, remember in the last scene he’s practicing even when he’s blind? Just let him stay blind smh or Scar should have been there smh Marcoh did not have the RIGT to do that bs

ohhh my god the more i think abt it the more it is soooo disappointing seeing how arakawa had set up such a brilliant critique of the intwining nature between imperialism and militarism and then she... not only doesnt see the necessity for it to be abolished but also believes the military (no thanks @ roy) can be an agent in promoting peace LMAO?? and yea they never mention the legitimacy of the briggs fortress (or any of the other borders) and the constant escalation against drachma again even tho they all kno it’s just another installation of the transmutation circle... like logically as long as the govt is interconnected to the military and they reinforce (post-promised day) institutions of border conflict then normalization w/ any nations can never be achieved ajsdkjljanskbhas i bet even socdems should know that idk what arakawa was thinking on that one

scar rlly shouldve been the among the main ppl leading all of this i hate how the ishvalans were just in the background during all of this... i rlly need to know how arakawa would portray the process of them collectively agreeing to cooperate w/ mustang n armstrong bc to me that doesnt make much sense esp if they’re being told everything regarding the homunculi/philosopher’s stone lool id think it would make them even more apprehensive of being dependent on select military officials for govt change n reform

also marcoh rlly is bastard and it’s worse in the anime too bc the writers had him admit that giving mustang the stone was due to his own desire for mustang to see again n not the sacrificed ppl’s... UGH even in the manga it’s frustrating how can marcoh claim to atone for his crimes and then think he has the right to decide a perpetuator of genocide is entitled to that stone even conditionally.. literally he didnt need to ask mustang for permission to go to ishaval n be a doctor there he shouldve just made it out irregardless of the bs military hierarchy 

[busaned-blog]

dude your tags on tht post abt hobi+jin not having any lines (+ the discrepancy in ppl's reaction to those awful distributions) is WHEW coldblooded but accurate. ive also seen it happen, ppl leaving bc they can't GET WORK in their own group, and beyond hating awful distributions for wht they are, theyre bad for group longevity esp w/jin whos getting his college degree, who i cld see walking away frm bts w/work+network options even outside of ent. industry. like, bight cherish wht u got rn, dang

Hello anon, thank you so much for your message! It’s nice to know some people actually read my tags I guess haha. I’m not gonna lie, at first when I read your message I was thinking of not replying… simply because we all know tumblr tags are messed up (especially on mobile) and I did not feel like people interpreting my response as hate towards Bangtan or to any of the members. But then I realized that for me in my heart I know my feelings about this whole situation are not based on hate towards either of those so I decided to respond anyways and I just hope that I will word everything correctly so that people reallize I am not a hater. It will be a long response, because as I said in my tags I have a lot of feelings about this, so I’m putting it under a read more :)

When I reblogged that post we’re talking about and put all those tags in, I was extremely angry. I can’t lie about that right now, because I was. Maybe it’s a petty response, but in a song that is 4 minutes and 34 seconds long you just cannot convince me there was no room for Hobi at all. That there was no room for him to get like four lines on his own or for Jin to have more than the two he did? Especially when some members take up like half the song? I just refuse to believe that I’m sorry… And especially to realize, if you look objectively, that the difference in ‘talent’, to put it as such, in Bangtan is not that big let’s be real. They are all extremely talented and no one is 1000 steps above the rest at all in my opinion.

I’ve been a fan since about July 2015, a little after the Dope era, so I have been around for four comebacks now (and a hell of a lot of other groups’ members leaving/groups disbanding) and I’ve said this before on twitter: I feel like the line distribution is getting worse in stead of better with Bangtan. Run was sort of okay for me, especially if you keep in mind the idea of main/lead vocals and sub-vocals, but after that it just got worse and worse imo. And apparently, judging by the response to Hobi having no lines in Spring Day and Jin having barely any solo lines in BST, people really don’t give a shit and want to disguise it under the ‘I love ot7 so let me reblog some posts complaining about the awful line distribution and be done with it’.

The outrage on my dash with the Hobi situation was pitiful, because (and maybe I follow the wrong people who knows) the only ones actually being mad were Hobi stans and some Jin/ot7 stans. The outrage for Jin was basically non existent and it still pisses me off till this day. And the biggest discourse was that people needed to just basically shut up and support Bangtan because otherwise, and wow guilt tripping much?, they would hurt Hobi in the process too. And I get that we all have our favorites, we all have our ranking of the members whatever, but how can you look at this situation and just not realize how damaging it could be in the long run? How damaging it could be for ot7. You don’t have to love and cry and yell about Hobi and Jin as much as you do your bias, but to stay mostly silent cause it doesn’t concern your fave? I just can’t relate…

I’m a Jimin stan, but that means to me I am realistic enough to realize I have nothing to worry about with him. That he will get his lines and his screentime and the attention from his fans. So why should I be blind towards the mistreatment of some of the others? Because I’m settled? Because Jimin is my bias so I have no worries? And I’m not trying to say people who don’t stan Hobi or Jin feel like this, but this is really how it comes across to me. And then everyone, and this annoys me the most, wants to hide behind one of two defenses, a) Bangtan love each other more than anything and they want to stay together forever so awul line distribution won’t break them up and b) Bangtan have a lot of creative control so they probably decided this was best for the song…

Which is funny, because in the same breath they want to oppose haters, which they should don’t get me wrong, by saying ‘don’t hate on *insert their bias here* because it’s not their fault, Big Hit makes the decisions not them’. Excuse me? But that is not how this works. You can’t want to claim they have full creative control and make the decisions themselves and then turn around and say it’s actually Big Hit. It’s either they make the decisions themselves and they are basically assholes for ignoring Hobi, and more specifically Jin in like every song, or they are all subjected to what Big Hit wants.

But to come to the actual point: whether people want to close their eyes to this situation or not, in the end this could be damaging for Bangtan. Do you really think Minzy from 2ne1 didn’t love her group and her members? Do you really believe that guy from Teen Top that wants to leave doesn’t love his group and his members? Do you really believe that someone like Minzy, to take her as an example, who was in one of the biggest girl groups in kpop, just casually decided to leave? Do you not think that she didn’t realize that if she left she will probably never have the income she had with 2ne1 again or that she most likely will never ever be as popular as she was when in the group? Yet she freaking decided to leave anyways, because as you said she got no work! And ofcourse she wanted some, even if that meant not living the live she did with 2ne1, but it would be at least some sort of a life. And this happens to idols all the time, and then they, shocking I know, leave… Awful line distribution, and awful equal promotion, will be the death of any group no matter how much they love each other and the fans or how successful they are.

And I just wish as a fandom we could collectively come together on these subjects a bit more. You don’t have to be a Hobi or Jin stan to be critical of Bangtan’s efforts and in this case their line distribution. And there is also nothing wrong with being a critical fan and trying to let them and Big Hit know that no fan is going to leave if they make everything a little bit more fair. I just don’t want it to come to Bangtan’s contract renewals in a few years and having one or two of them even contemplating leaving. As you said, Jin is graduating soon and many people in the industry have already said that he is a lovely person, easy to work with, funny, clever, hard working and on top of that a lot more multi-talented then people want to give him credit for. You really believe he has no chance of a career outside of Bangtan?

Let me say something positive though for once. If we move beyond the line distribution and take a look at the promo, Big Hit gives me a little bit of hope. 2016 has been a rather good year for all of them in my opinion. Yoongi had his mixtape, Jin had Law of the Jungle and some other variety shows, Tae had his acting, the Taejin OST (where they both proved even more that Bangtan’s line distribution is shit), some MC jobs for all of them on music shows, etc. I think that if you would write it down then their promotion seems to definitely be sort of equal, which gives me great hope that Big Hit will at least always try to promote them equally in that area. But it also seems to me they want them stuck in certain positions: Hobi being the dancer, Jin being the visual, Jungkook being the main vocalist etc. When they are so much more then that!

So what I’m trying to say is that I’m not trying to convince anyone that Hobi or Jin are going to want to leave over this whole thing, but please can we all for once as a fandom acknowledge Bangtan’s shortcomings and realize that if nothing changes (because this is not a one time thing with them), and if we don’t try to voice our concerns, it could come to a Minzy situation (or any other group member that has ever left their group due to disrespect basically). I just don’t want them in the future to break up or have some members leaving, and then have everyone cry their eyes out for a day when we could have done something about it now…

This became so much longer then I wanted to, and I probably didn’t even say everything I wanted to say, so I’m really sorry. And I mostly ranted about nothing you were talking about in your ask, but I needed to get this all of my chest. I always say this and I will say it again: I love Bangtan with all my heart, and I don’t plan on abandoning them anytime soon, but these comebacks just slowly become a little less enjoyable and I will keep hoping that next time will be better. That next time I won’t have to sit through the music video waiting for a glimpse of Hobi or Jin or anyone. I just want Bangtan to reach their full potential, because I really feel they haven’t yet, because I think they are 7 wonderful individuals who deserve nothing less.