#especially since we have a healthy queue of reblogs

[bleachbleachbleach]

Your Hisagi's Birthday Special Edition Seireitei Communication was absolutely brilliant. Mixed media fanworks are one of my favorite things in the world. It looks like it took a ton of work, and it came out visually stunning, hilarious, and chock-full of tremendous character bits. I must have cackled over it for an hour. Truly a successor to Color Bleach! Thank you so much for it and for being wonderful people on tumblr dot com!

Aaaaah thank you so much! 🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺💖💖💖💖💖💖💖💖💖 That really means a lot--like a LOT! You are an absolute geeeem and your content inspires us always. <3

We have been so overwhelmed by the positive responses to the birthday edition. It was so much fun to make and we spent way too much time on it (which for any fandom thing is obviously exactly the right amount of time). I have personally laughed at the Kuchiki Komedy Korner way too many times to fall within the realm of sanity but OMG they are so bad but so good but so bad.

Some of the ideas we came up with before starting to put the issue together (that the issue was going to be excessively overbudget because Hinamori didn't want to curb anyone's enthusiasm, that Byakuya would contribute jokes, that someone would be very enthusiastic about Windows 97 Word Art) and some of them developed as we went (the long subplot about 7th having forgotten about Hisagi in the course of their own Three Wolves stag party planning, the particular design aesthetics from each division), so it was a total blast.

ONLY THE BEST FOR HISAGI. (Even though out of 450+ pages only one half sheet ended up being dedicated to his birthday wishes, LOL. And that's including "random people from 10th Matsumoto cornered in a hallway." But think of all the enthusiasm for the SC this built!!! Even if they'll need 690 fundraisers to be able to publish anything ever again.)

[musette22]

So, tomorrow is the day 🦾

To everyone who is watching and who’s excited: HAVE SO MUCH FUN, and I hope it’s everything you’ve been hoping for and more 💜

To everyone who is watching but a bit apprehensive or anxious about it for whatever reason: I hope it’ll exceed your expectations and that you’ll come to enjoy it, and in the meantime I’m sending lots of love and support 💜

To everyone who isn’t planning on watching tomorrow, for whatever (non-assholish) reason: Please take care of yourself and remember that your own well-being & mental health are always paramount 💜

A few (lol) notes under the cut, for those who are interested (mostly aimed at the last category, I’d say!)

TLDR; I myself am not planning on watching tomorrow - I’ll probably watch the show at some point in the future, but I want to know exactly what I’m getting into before I do. I’m too emotionally invested in the relationship between Bucky and Steve to be able to enjoy it right now, but at the same time I’m also 100% rooting for the show to do well, for various reasons, and it does have my full support. For my personal mental health, I’ll likely be on Tumblr a little less for a while, at least while the show airs, but I’ll be running a queue and answering messages as much as possible.

As I’ve said before, I myself am not planning on watching tomorrow - I might watch the show at some point in the future, but I want to know exactly what I’m getting into before I do. At this point I don’t feel emotionally and mentally up to dealing with some developments this show is inevitably going to present. By that, I mean possible deaths, therapy sessions, mentions of Steve, new love interests etc. - I do not mean having a new Captain America, or two of my favourite characters getting a chance to shine and bond, just for the record.

Despite my reservations, I am also 100% rooting for the show to do well, for various reasons. I’m so hyped for Sam being Cap, I’m so loving the dynamic between Bucky and Sam, I’m so looking forward to Sharon finally getting the screentime and character development she deserves, and I’m so so happy for and proud of Anthony and Sebastian for being co-leads in their very own blockbuster TV show - and for all those reasons I want the show to be a great success. Millions of people are going to be watching and loving the show and I couldn’t be happier about that.

As for myself, I know I’m too emotionally invested in the relationship between Bucky and Steve to be able to enjoy it. In fact, for a Stucky shipper like myself (i.e. an extreme (mono)shipper), the fact that part of the show deals with Steve Rogers leaving his best friends and fucking off to the past to have his perfectly heteronormative and incredibly OCC happily ever after is pretty much the worst thing I can imagine, and it’s enough to actively spoil the whole thing for me. I wish it wasn’t, because as I’m pretty sure you’re all aware, I’m kind of a massive Sebastian/Bucky stan and I fucking love Anthony/Sam to boot, and I’m devastated to be missing out on the fun here. But I’m self-aware enough to know that it’s better if I don’t put myself through this.

And I know some people might say that I’m being dramatic and the show hasn’t even aired yet, which is fair lol. But I’ve been so upset at every trailer I’ve seen, and I’ve cried so much just thinking about it for the past few months, that I’m pretty positive it’s just not for me. I’m fully aware it’s not healthy to feel this emotionally compromised by a TV show, and since this type of hurt is something I have the ability to distance and protect myself from, I owe it to myself to do so.

I’m sure Mackie and Seb would agree, and they still have my full support, and so does the show itself to a large extent. But I’m going to stay over here in my little comfort bubble for as long as I need to, and I don’t believe there’s anything wrong with that. We all have to do what we have to do to cope, especially this year. On the bright side, I’m super excited to do some proper writing again, because I haven’t been able to as much as I’d like lately and I have signed up for several Stucky bangs 🙈 

So anyway, this was (characteristically) way too long and too pompous but it’ll have to do lol. I’m not sure how much you guys are going to notice as a result of it, but from tomorrow, I’ll likely be on here a little less - at least on Fridays and probably Saturdays, for the duration of the show. I’ll be running a queue, I’ll be answering DMs and asks (but most likely not too many about the show itself, because as you can tell, I need to step back from that a bit for right now) and working on my writing, but I won’t be checking my dash much. So if there’s something you’d really like me to see, please feel free to tag me or send it to me!! If I do reblog any TFATWS content, I’ll of course make sure to tag it for spoilers with ‘tfatws spoilers’. 

Alright, I think that’s all I wanted to say for the moment, but again, if you’d like me to clarify anything, do feel free to ask me (nicely). I’m sending everyone who needs it lots of love, support, bear hugs and smooches. You’re not alone and things might be weird for a while, but maybe it won’t be so bad, and in any case it’ll be alright in the end. Maybe a bit different, but still alright ❤️

[psg-est-magique]

Tumblr tag game

Thanks so much to my loves @kingkyks and @too-multifandom-to-function for tagging me! I love these ask games so much! I love you both so much! 🥺☺️

1. Why did you choose your url ?

I chose this url when Ney first signed for PSG. It was such a special time and I will never forget how warmly he was welcomed to this team. In the press conference on the day he was presented as a PSG player, Ney said “Paris est magique” // Paris is magic. He then proceeded to laugh and run off. So that’s how I got my url! It was just such a precious moment, maybe I will look up the video and try to post it.

2. Any side blogs ?

Nope! ❤️

3. How long have you been on tumblr ?

I have been on tumblr since 2014 because during the 2014 Brasil World Cup, I absolutely fell in love with Neymar and football so I made a tumblr to join the football fandom. I had a old blog when Ney played for Barça and then in 2017 I made this one. But in 2017 I left tumblr for a while. Finally, in 2020 when my heart was crushed by PSG losing the ucl final I came back to this blog so that I could have company in my misery. And the rest is history baby.

4. Do you have a queue tag ?

Nope! ❤️

5. Why did you start your blog in the first place ?

I wanted to start fresh with a new Neymar Jr/PSG/Brasil NT blog because although I met amazing and sweet Barcelona fans, their fandom became a bit toxic for me especially when Ney left in 2017. It made me sad the way they would speak about him which is a big reason why I left tumblr for a bit around that time.

6. Why did you choose your icon/pfp ?

Okay so I remember this photo perfectly! It was in summer 2020 when the players came back to France to play matches after the first quarantine and I was so excited!!! I just love this photo so much, I love it when Ney smiles so big and bright like this and his eyes get all scrunched up. I just love to see him smile, and I love it when he’s happy and healthy, I thank God for his smile, health, and happiness. Ney is just so precious!

Although I love this picture so much, I think I want to change it soon but I’m hesitant to because icons are like identifiers. Honestly I don’t think I’m going to change it for a while though.

7. Why did you choose your header ?

I chose this one because it is just absolutely gorgeous, have you seen it?! I love it and I’ve always dreamed of going to Paris. It is also a photo from our win against Dortmund in 2020 when we qualified to the quarter finals. This win and this day is one of my favorite memories as a PSG fan, it was such a special time.

8. What’s your post with the most notes ?

I am not sure at all honestly, I think it might be the post about Leo Paredes and Ney sharing a blanket and watching a PSG match together at Ney’s house. It was such an adorable moment, this team is really such a family and I love them all so much!! 🥰🥰☺️❤️

9. How many mutuals do you have ?

Hmmmmm I’m not sure, I would say about 5! But I love my entire little PSG family. You all have my heart.

10. How many followers do you have ?

93! Almost 100! But it’s not about followers, tumblr is just a really nice safe place to express myself about the what I truly love. And I have met some of the most amazing people on here! Like my best friend @too-multifandom-to-function ❤️❤️

11. How many people do you follow ?

I follow 79 blogs and before I follow someone I always make sure they are at the very least neutral about PSG and Neymar and don’t say nasty things about them because that honestly makes me really sad.

12. Have you ever made a shit post ?

Um I do not think so, I usually just rant about football related things that make me upset in some way. I guess that sort of counts as shit posting. 😅

13. How often do you use tumblr a day ?

I don’t know the exact amount of time but I like scrolling through tumblr a few times a day to check the out what’s going on in the football world. I also love coming on here to talk to @kingkyks !❤️❤️

14. Did you ever have a fight/argument with another blog ?

I have had a few disagreements as I am very defensive of the people and things I love. So when people just unjustly attack Neymar or PSG or any of our players I usually get upset. Most times I let it go because I don’t like to be mean and I think energy is better spent by sending love to our players. But sometimes I’m like nah baby it’s on and I have to say something and defend my boys.

15. How do you feel about the ‘you need to reblog’ posts ?

I really dislike those posts, I feel like people are already so anxious, so why make it worse by getting into their heads. Plus it’s just annoying.

16. Do you like tag games ?

Yes I love tag games, I think they are so fun. Also I love it when think of me and tag me!!

17. Do you like ask games ?

I love ask games too, I like to send people asks for ask games. Sadly I don’t really get many asks when I do those things but it’s okay, it’s all in good fun!

18. Which of your mutuals do you think is tumblr famous ?

@holdmyhopeinyourhands @kingkyks @amelmajrii

I just love these three so much, I always checked their blogs even when I was off tumblr. They are my tumblr famous celebrities and I love them! ❤️

19. Do you have a crush on a mutual ?

I have a crush on all of my mutuals I love every single last one of them! Mwah! 😘

20. Tags

@tmnteshk @amelmajrii @sevyntwentyfour @msn-forever @holdmyhopeinyourhands and anyone else who wants to do this!

Love you guys all so much!! ❤️❤️

[tellywoodtrash]

status update:

So, I got a few friendly, good-natured asks on how I was doing, and what’s up with my life (work, Chandler, etc.), so I suppose this is as good a time to tell everyone: I quit my job earlier this week.

Early followers of the blog may be aware that this blog started as an attempt to find some kinda peace during some very trying times in my life. Since then, I’ve been burning the candle at both ends (I guess, in some kinda misguided attempt to move on with life) and... it’s finally caught up with me. I’m fucking exhausted and at a breaking point. Physically. Mentally. Emotionally. ('Spiritually. Ecumenically. Grammatically.' Name that movie!) And so, I'm giving myself a break and am going to be taking some time off to focus on my mental health.

However, this hasn’t been an easy decision to make, as it means bye-bye financial independence and my ~~riproaring Sex And The City life (snort, NOT) and that I will now have to pack up my entire life and leave the country I (and Chandler!) call home. So the next few days will be even rougher; full of transition and second-guessing myself. But in the long run, I think I need to do this now before things get much worse.

Poor Chandler has no idea what’s coming up; that he’s about to be unceremoniously stuffed into a box and flown many thousand miles to a whole new country, with strange new smells and creatures (including my relatives who will want to come around every now and then and friendly-ly harass our socially anxious butts.) I just hope we both survive this move!

As for what it means for the blog, it’ll mostly be business as usual, I suppose. I will have more free time, but it’s going to be invested in moving, and settling in, and recovery (first I have to recover from the moving and settling in, and only then can I focus on *actual* recovery) so... I’ll do as much as I can. Yes, there's lots of new shows, most of them better than IB, and I might wanna watch them too, but.... idk, I don't seem to have it in me right now to get invested in a whole... new.... thing. We'll see once I'm properly settled into a restful routine where I don't feel so battered in the brain. On the plus side, moving to India means proper access to Hotstar and Sony Liv and alllllllll the platforms; I won’t have to jump through hoops and diddle around with VPNs to access what I wanna watch! Yaaaaaaay!

There are a few things blog-wise that I just have to address though, because they’re srsly stressing me out a lot lately:

Messages asking me to explain WHY stakeholders in the industry (actors, makers, the channel) make the decisions they do. Bhai main kahan un sab ke ghar ya boardroom mein ghussi baithi hoon, ki mujhe pakka pata hoga???? All I can do is speculate like the rest of you. Which is what I do. I look at the facts that I do have (social media posts, TRP reports, etc.) and put out MY theory. But it’s all it is. A theory. I do not have any kind of information that you also do not have access to. Asking me to explain the inner workings of complete strangers' minds is just nonsensical. I do not have the complete information based on which I can give you an accurate answer. So please just stop asking me these. At this point, idek why *I* do half the things I do, let alone have any surety of anyone else’s decisions.

Complaints. Look, all of us have complaints about the shitshow that is IB, and the Tellywood industry at large, and its affairs both off-screen and on-screen. But just think of my plight when news breaks/an episode airs and I get like 10 anons in an hour, most of which are filled with cribbing. OVER SOMETHING I DON’T HAVE ANY CONTROL. You have all the right to complain, sure, but not IN MY INBOX. I only publish about 30 - 40% of the asks that I actually do receive, and because of that you may think that you’re the only person sending in this to me; but trust that more often that not, you’re not. I most probably have already received least 5 messages about it, in varying degrees of negative, and it’s exhaaaaaausting for me to wade through it all.

"Asks” that are just STATEMENTS, with no real question to them. I get these and whether I agree with your statement or not, my only reaction is “.... haan, toh???” What really is the point of these? I have nothing to contribute to them. It’s just YOU deciding that your opinion is sooooooo important that you must come tell ME it. In my inbox. On anon. Which is not just stupid, but also RUDE af. What you're doing is the equivalent of going and ringing the doorbell of a stranger's house and monologuing in their face about a random topic when they open the door. Like, I literally did not ask?????? Especially since you’re on anon and I have absolutely no personal equation with you. By having an open inbox, I didn't consent to being the receptacle of every opinion wrt Tellywood under the sun. Like, the whole point of this blog is so I can shout MY dumbass opinions into the void that is the internet without bothering anyone else about things they might not care about/agree with. Anyone who follows/engages with me is here by THEIR choice. Why don’t you do the same? Go make your own blog, instead of using mine. There’s only place for one person here on this blog, and that’s me. Please read your messages before sending them and ask yourselves: Does my tone/content leave anything open for discussion? (FYI: Just putting a question mark at the end of a sentence does not make an engaging question that opens up a discussion.) What contribution am I inviting from the recipient with this message? If the answer is “no”/"nothing", then please don't send it.

The rise of combative and contrary asks; ones that don't come out of a genuine curiosity, but with the intent to mindlessly argue, talk in circles without a point and overall, and just belittle the opinions I’ve expressed by engaging in whataboutery. There's a point at which "healthy discussion" ends, and "debating" starts, and I’m not here to engage in Debate Hour. The open askbox (or replies function) is NOT an invitation to pick at ONE sentence of some post (often missing the context; those other sentences are there for a reason y'know) and demand explanations from me, for which I have to then bend over backwards to clarify to some random faceless person on the internet. Not only does it take tremendous amounts of time and energy (for what is largely a pointless endevour: these people aren't really here to have an exchange of ideas or even try to see my point of view, they're just trying to force THEIR contrary opinion ON me), it really sucks the joy out of the blog for me. Look, I am not an idiot. I can correlate writing patterns and associate them with previously seen comments/opinions and make educated guesses on who these may be coming from. I've been holding off on blocking anyone yet, but these comments and asks have me seriously considering it. (And FYI: blocking an anon blocks you via IP address. So don't think ki 'oh ho ho, I can just hide under the anon function, coz that has no consequences.' All you'd be doing is proving my guesses right, as to who is whom.) I don't WANT TO go to such extents, and want this still to be a place where people can approach me, but this gross disrespect of my time and boundaries is beginning to wear on me now. Before coming at me, please think to yourself if what you're saying is actually necessary. If it's just a passive-aggressive counter-argument to my opinion that's all conjecture/opinion (i. e. things without factual basis and based on feelings) then please; you're very welcome to whatever you believe, but I don't care. If I wanted your opinion, I’d ask for it. If I care for your opinion, I will engage with your posts (by liking or commenting or reblogging or sending you my love in your inbox.) I just really really don’t care what anyone's opinion ON MY OPINION is. Please stop being contrary just the sake of it and ruining my day and mood. Go chronicle your opinions on your blog/twitter/whatever, instead of using MY blog as a platform and arm-twisting me into participating in this unpleasant exchange. I just don't have have the energy or interest to engage in this fuckery anymore.

Look you guys, I love getting stuff in the askbox. I do. If I didn’t, I’d just have closed the askbox and called it a day. I’m just asking that you be a little THOUGHTFUL about the recipient, me, AS AN ACTUAL LIVING PERSON WITH FEELINGS AND A LIMITED AMOUNT OF ENERGY AND TIME, instead of some kinda faceless robot who just processes your messages in binary and spits out an answer. Before engaging, please re-read your message to consider your tone and content and the impact on the person on the other end. Despite this request, if you just decide to engage in the above mentioned ways, I’m sorry in advance if you end up getting blocked; but things have reached a point where I have to look out for myself, and my comfort, and what I want from this space. I would like this blog to be source of joy in my (and others’!) life, not something that I feel resentful about, or as a source of draining what little energy I have left.

Sooooooo, that’s how it is! Things should be the same around here barring some periods of inactivity occasionally due to moving/spotty internet (but the queue should be running anyway.) A lot less negativity and gloom, hopefully! Wish me (and Chandler!!!!!) luck and please send us all your good, restful, soft and fluffy vibes!

(The restful slumber of a poor fluffy bastard who has NOOOOOOOOO idea of what the next few weeks have in store for him.)

[println-archive]

warning for tumblr user epiphanct

disclaimer: most of what happened between us was on now deleted quotev/quizazz accounts and my old blog that i deactivated after getting stalked by someone irl. all the screenshots i can give are from our email conversations, but i can get some testimonies from people who knew her about how she treated me in public and what i told them at the time it all went down. 

(@stillwritinghaikus & @sadcryptid knew me and eli most of the time, but @gafou was there towards the end and can say what they were like the few times we all hung out also only contact these ppl off anon, they don’t all want to be involved too publicly but agreed to be included as character witnesses to who eli is-- there are other people but i don’t have ways to contact a lot of them because we fell out of touch over the years)

anyone who has followed me for long or knows me knows i still deal with panic attacks, issues in relationships, issues with self worth, and nightmares because of a bad ex-girlfriend.

me and eli (i think that’s what they’re going by now and i believe they use they/she pronouns now) were best friends and on-again off-again since 2013 up until some time in 2017. consistently from 2014 until 2016 (i tried to detach from them in late 2016 so we talked significantly less and i would ignore them when they got angry or anything), they emotionally abused me. 

tw for incest, daddy kink, and emotional abuse under the cut-- don’t harass her about the things regarding incest or daddy kink because most of that is from when they were 13-15, i’m only including it because its a testament to what type of person they are and something that is available in our email chains to prove. i was complicit in a lot of the incest rp/kink but at no point was i legit into it, i just never called them out on it and i went with it

we met when they were 12 almost 13 and i was 13 (i think) on our first accounts on quizazz (now quotev), a quiz and story-making website, because they spoiled fred dying for me in a post about harry potter. 

from then we started talking and eventually became best friends. things were mostly normal and healthy overall for the first year until i got into my first relationship w/ someone. they started to get possessive of my time and over me but i thought it was normal and it pretty much was especially when i found out why-- they confessed to having a crush on me. i got permission from my S.O. at the time to be poly and date both of them but eventually i dumped my S.O. for eli alone. it was around when we became exclusive (when they were 13 and i was 14) that things went from normal messy teenager dating to controlling my entire life

they would get angry when i went to sleep, saying that i had to stay up for them or giving me the silent treatment the next morning if i went to sleep when they didn’t want me to. they didn’t limit asking me to stay up to when they were unstable either, most of the time their reason was that they wanted to rp. they would snap and withhold affection from me if i went to sleep on accident or my mom took my laptop away so i would go to sleep. at some point it reached the point that i was missing days of classes in a row because i was sleep deprived and throwing up in the mornings from stress and lack of sleep. i told them this and they still didn’t stop.

they would also control what i posted on my blog or what i had my layout look like on quotev, because if they didn’t like what it was they would claim we had nothing in common and should break up or they should unfollow me or they should block me. most notably, when i made a sideblog for taylor swift posts at some point i started spending most of my time on that blog because taylor swift was a hyperfocus at the time. i switched that blog to my mainly active one and made it a multifandom with a focus on taylor swift, and they got mad at me for posting so much taylor swift. to placate her, i changed it so i only posted taylor swift in my queue and then, finally, i just ran a multifandom blog and avoided reblogging anything about taylor swift more than two or three times a week. i need to emphasize here: i never tried to make eli talk to me about taylor swift after they made it clear they didn’t like them, i didn’t talk to them about it and i didn’t require that they interact with my posts or anything. they just didn’t want me to post about my interest. this also happened with pokemon and homestuck, but to a lesser extent-- the fight was over once i changed my layout from having art for them, i was still allowed to post some.

we broke up sometime in late 2014 for good, but they still made all of my decisions. they were possessive and called me theirs, they didn’t like it when i liked girls who weren’t them, and only let me show affection for them. i was allowed on relationship other than eli, and only because they approved of her and set me up with her. in the end, we broke up because, with eli’s manipulation and forced dependence on them, i was still in love with them. then, within the month of breaking up with this girl, eli switched the script completely and would randomly go through bouts of anger where they would give me the silent treatment and vague about me for still having feelings for them.

they also made it very clear that they got to pick who i could and could not be friends with. most notably with my then best friend dani (@sadcryptid, dont message them publicly abt this). when they found out i was talking to dani in any capacity-- whether i mentioned her or posted something about her-- they would give me the silent treatment or yell at me about it extensively. this went on for YEARS (two? i think) until i ended up dropping dani for entirely unrelated reasons (we’re cool now). when, briefly after, i made friends with a girl who went by luna (who sexually harassed me so eli ended up being right but they didn’t know about that at the time), they lost their shit guilt tripping me into dropping luna too because they wanted to be my only close friend. another time my friend irl confessed to having a crush on me and eli made me talk to her less and said i was theirs

they also briefly shipped reylo and wincest, i have no idea if they still do but i know they did as long as i knew them, and shipped nico from percy jackson (a canon gay character) with their girl oc. (they had a whole breakdown when nico was confirmed gay, saying it ruined the books for them)

they also would give me the silent treatment whenever something good happened in my life-- when i got tickets for the nebraska comic con, or got to see taylor swift, they would give me the silent treatment or yell at me

they had an incest kink to the point of making up ocs to be their twin and older sister, only agreeing to human aus for michael/lucifer from spn if they were related in them (until they changed their mind to getting angry at me for suggesting them), and had a literal daddy kink-- not just into calling their partner daddy but to the point where they would propose rps where their self insert was the literal child of michael and they would have sex. 

they also liked professor/student plots, especially in harry potter with professor snape and their self inserts.

so here are the screenshots now, for your ref in the screenshots, they’ve gone by “mya”, “lottie/charlotte”, “wren”, and “matt”. they also have an oc other than the fake siblings that come up a few times named “juliet” and one named “holly” and one named “casey”. i know that the screenshots don’t have proof of everything i’ve outlined, like i said above most of it happened on accounts that have since been deleted or deactivated so i only have what i could find in my gmail.

i’ll add more screenshots as i find them

[james-bionic-barnes]

Update Part 2

A Heads-Up

Okay so, again I’d like to point out that I’m writing this at 4 in the morning so it’s definitely still sincere, but no one is going to see this if I post it at the time I’m writing this so this post (and probably even some asks) will be queued, but whatever I say in them I still definitely mean, I just want them to be seen & not be lost because of the time I’m posting them. Also, I’m going to divide this up a little bit through titles just so it’s easier to skip to the important parts because I’m probably going to ramble & type a lot in this, & I do want those who care to see my explanation as to what happened. Please AT LEAST read the TL;DR near the bottom (after the ‘read more’ link, that is) so that you can avoid my stupid rambling, but know briefly what happened.

My tentative plan is to be active tomorrow & respond to messages (& to any of my friends who might be reading this, I’m sorry that I’m not responding but I don’t want to do so at almost 4 am my time.) However, I am in an area that might be possibly affected slightly by Hurricane Harvey so if I lose power due to storms, I’ll respond on my phone as much as I can, although it’ll take me longer to type out the long messages that I’d like to, but when I’m free (I’m currently in the midst of unpacking & getting ready for school) I’ll respond as much as I can, since obviously, everyone deserves that.

The ‘read more’ link below starts with my actual explanation as to what happened to me & why I was gone for so long. If you read it, or even just skim it (which I’ll understand because I want to let people know what happened, & there IS a TL;DR near the bottom), I hope you understand. But no matter what, I love & appreciate you all <3

What Happened (in as few words as possible, which is still a lot)

So about right after I hit 3k & posted how I wanted to celebrate, I stayed offline for a bit because I was hanging out with family, with full intent to get back on & host a celebration for 3k followers & continue conversations with my friends as always, and ask everyone for opinions on what I should write next. About right after posting my last post, my family got into a tight spot financially, both my parents & as well as my sister & her husband. Obviously, we were all stressed about it despite the fact we knew we were probably going to be okay. But it was a major stress not knowing if my sister was going to be able to pay for groceries or not. Eventually, we got mostly out of that, however, but my stress didn’t really go away.

All summer I’ve been packing and getting ready to move to an apartment close to where I go to school, along with my mother moving in to help me. Even though I was extremely excited at the idea of decorating my own apartment and being closer to the school campus that I love, I was (and still am, honestly) extremely stressed about it. Even though I have my mom with me, the rest of my family (my sister & her husband, and my dad) are back home. But the entire process took forever (as moving does) and I just got more stressed as time went on since I was worried about not getting everything done. That, compounded with my regular stress and anxiety just snowballed on me and made my mental health take a nose-dive. I barely did more than stay in bed and sleep, or just marathon shows I’ve seen before just to let my brain rest a bit and get away from the stress.

I had a brief good period during late July - I celebrated my birthday as well as my mom’s, and I spent a lot of time with family and relaxed a bit. But then my sister began to have issues at work - and I mean issues. She works at the entrance desk of a psychiatric hospital. She deals with visitors before they are allowed back to visit patients, and obviously, there are mandatory requirements before you are allowed back. When a particular woman wasn’t allowed back, she began to physically threaten my sister, & attacked her verbally right in the lobby while my sister’s boss just stood there. The woman has returned twice and each time threatened my sister’s life and continued to attack her verbally and insult her, as her boss does nothing to help. On top of all this, my sister is pregnant with her first child - clearly, this isn’t an environment for her to be in if she’s possibly going to be threatened or hurt. Thankfully, she’s quitting, and hopefully she’ll find another job soon, since it’ll be tight financially for her again, but we’re praying everything works out.

But the biggest personal cause of stress has been school - I start Monday, and although I am now *mostly* moved into my apartment, I still feel under prepared. Not to mention that there was a screw-up in my financial aid process so I’ve been worried about that even though it’s probably fine. Still, school is my biggest source of stress, so now that it’s starting again I’m worried of it getting too much again like last time. Hopefully, since I’m in a different environment this year (with my mother & cats in an apartment, & not in a tiny dorm), my health (both physical & mental) should be better off as I have a lot more ways to cope with it. As some of you might know, I’m physically disabled & have chronic pain, so last year’s dorm situation was not ideal for my health. But now that my living situation is different, I guess I’ll just have to see how everything goes.

The longer I was away (and obviously, I’ve only “come back” just recently, if you can even say that), the worse I felt about tumblr & getting back on - I figured that since I hadn’t posted much writing before I left, if I came back saying that I might not be able to write for a while, I’d just be met with anger. Which, I admit, is a complete discredit to my followers - all of you that I’ve interacted with have been absolute sweethearts, and completely understand. But still, my anxiety got the better of me, and it just spiraled. And I especially felt like shit when it came to the idea of talking to my friends again - since I left every one of you hanging, I just felt like I’d immediately come back to not wanting to talk to me anymore. Which, even though I haven’t been able to speak to anyone yet, I still think it’s a complete discredit to you as well, since every single friend I’ve made on here has treated me with complete & utter kindness & love. And I’ve always made it a point to be kind to people and to always work to be the best friend I can be - which, clearly, I have not been doing AT ALL. I’ll talk to each one of you, I promise, and hopefully everything can be worked out and I can finally apologize to you, too, since each one of your friendships mean an incredible amount to me and I don’t want to lose any of them.

TL;DR - Why I Was Gone

tight financial situations with my family

moving to an apartment for school

school starting soon/financial aid mess up

my sister being threatened and her job & her financial situation now that she’s quitting and expecting her first child

worry that once I came back after being gone for so long, I’d just be met with anger and every one of my friends dropping me

My anxiety just making everything seem so much worse than what it’s probably is going to be, especially when I think of coming back & talking to my friends

& my mental health has been absolute shit since I left and until I get everything worked out here, it’s still probably going to be.

Apology (& this is the last thing, I promise)

So if you at least read the tl;dr, you got a brief idea of what happened to me and why I dropped off the face of the earth again. Despite all of what happened couldn’t exactly be avoided, and that I’m still accepting the fact that I’m allowed to not be okay, even if it’s for a longer period than I would want to, I still am so sorry I disappeared. Believe me, every day I was gone I was so torn about coming back and would go to the login page but would just psych myself out since I was so scared of the backlash I might be met with due to my anxiety causing me to worry about it. I thought of all of you & would read a bunch of my favorite fanfics of all of my friends just to help make me feel better when I had really bad days. But I’m sorry I never actually responded to anyone (that is, until I start to tomorrow, but my apology will still apply), & that I feel completely horrible for, and I don’t think I can get that across in few enough words to not sound pathetic or just to not make this post any longer. But I want everyone to know that I’m sorry for vanishing like that and for any hurt I may have caused during all of this.

After seeing tomorrow (I guess later today, technically?) what some of the reactions are to this, hopefully some of my stress will be a bit lifted about the anxiety of returning back here. Once school starts (and the actual true work starts, not just the opening week) and I find my routine, I plan to figure out exactly how active I can be. At the very least, I plan to be on as much as possible & respond to everyone & reblog, but I’m not sure yet how writing is going to go. If I’m able to, I might just start off with a drabble or two, maybe a one-shot. It all depends on how much free time I have after school starts and how I’m dealing with the stress. For now, I’m back on a writing hiatus (not that I was off of one much before I disappeared) but I’ll see what happens after all this settles down.

I’m still recovering, and a few of these issues are still ongoing, and obviously, mental health is always going to be a struggle for me, and whatever happens is pretty much unavoidable - it’s life, after all. But still, I ask that everyone is patient with me as I respond to asks and messages when I can. I promise I’ll get to everyone. I just need to get back up, and it might take a bit, but I’m going to work to get better, both with figuring out how active I can be, and as well as keeping myself healthy at the same time. For the meantime, I’ll queue up a couple of asks and maybe a few reblogs to appear after this, just so the most recent thing on my blog isn’t this mess.

Regardless of how people react to this, I am sorry about what happened. But I’m thankful for each and every one of you, and I hope that everything can kind of go back to where it was eventually. It’ll just take time, but I’m willing to work toward it if you all are. The people I interact with and the space I’ve created on here for myself (and hopefully, for others, too) has always been a place of love and support for me. It’s not something I ever take for granted - so thank you for all that you’ve done. I love you all <3

Sincerely,

Kathrynn

[elizabethrobertajones]

Hi Lizzy, I'm new to the SPN fandom and saw a bunch of bibros making fun of meta writers. As a lowkey Destiel shipper it still pissed me off. I'm wondering- who are your fav meta writers to read?

Pfft, it’s practically a badge of honour that THEY are pissed off by the meta. Interpretation worries them because as soon as you get into the what they’d see as hippie dippy “all readings are valid uwu” part of literary theory, you’ve made an attempt to level the playing field with them and they don’t wanna be on it with us, they want to have the one sacred and true reading of the show to which all roads lead etc etc. Actually buying into the idea you can interpret the show and come up with multiple readings or that the text would DARE support another version (even the interpretation that Sam and Dean aren’t soulmates or something ship-free that gets in the way indirectly - or an argument they are soulmates but that’s basically just the show’s way of conveying Heaven is somehow worse than Hell for them :P) immediately is a threat to the idea of a cast iron version of the show that’s the one they latched onto. 

Strange world where “reading into things” is an insult instead of a sign of healthy curiosity and a desire to learn and understand. And I see people who literally mind their own corner or would agree in spirit with their interpretation as long as you CALL it that and leave others be to have a different one, get dogpiled by them for daring to treat the show as a flexible and multi-layered, analyse-able thing…

Ah well. 

Kinda missing out on the yearly punch up in the parking lot round the back of the fandom right now, tbh, since I’ve been AWOL with hanging around with family and friends stuff. Kinda not missing it. :P Welcome to the fandom, it can get pretty messy, and some of us here just wanna watch the show and ask silly questions to everyone about how many burgers Dean’s eaten on screen recently or whatever important character analysis nonsense is bothering us today.

To which end! :D 

No matter how long you have followed me, even if it’s like a day or 2, you must have noticed my queue endlessly spitting out @mittensmorgul‘s full-show rewatch along with the TNT loop, all out of order and a week late because that’s how I roll. Mittens is a great meta writer to read because everything she writes is fun and the kind of hectic idea hopping my brain glues with..

Everything @awed-frog writes is similarly enjoyable to read in that style but longer and more poetic and dark, and very insightful. (You might be able to tell I’m mentioning the meta writers I reblogged stuff from today while waiting for my long term memory to contribute anything)… Linking their ask tag for starters because idk how to find other long meta at short notice :P

Actually while I’m thinking about rewatches, I’ve always enjoyed @dustydreamsanddirtyscars‘s dramatic, purple prose essay approach to meta and flawless blog presentation… Sadly Jenny’s not enjoying season 12 very much with the change in style from the weird dark symbolism of Carver era, to the sort of fractals upon fractals of weird little emotional references and do-overs this year when Dabb gets to do his thing on a whole season, but if you want Carver era weird dark symbolism, I’ve been really enjoying where she has been lurking in Carver era, meta-ing her way through it. 

(I just generally dig reading re-watches, especially because all that hindsight is paying off so much now because for Dabb era if we’re going to meta it we NEED hindsight and reminders and the TNT loop playing in the background showing us just how layered and self-referential the show has become (and what it’s doing differently, and how much the characters have grown and changed, which, I think, is the point now) - anyway if you’re doing a rewatch, I LOVE to read posts about old episodes, especially the weird old MotW and really early seasons stuff no one seems to talk about much any more)

There’s a LOT of great meta writers out there and after every episode I try to find and reblog the long reaction notes, if they’re done it, from @dorkilysoulless @grey2510 @kayanem @bluestar86 (and awed frog again). @charlie-minion has been busy this season with other stuff as far as I know with a few more infrequent visits, but I know she has a page with every meta she wrote on it and generally wrote a great post per episode for a good chunk of the time I was in fandom, and still drops by fairly regularly despite a smaller presence. @thevioletcaptain also is great and has an episode reaction for most episodes (though again has been busy with IRL stuff for a few weeks/months/I have no concept of time but she hasn’t posted anything for the recent episodes as far as I’ve seen >.>) and also a page with her meta on it that when I was brand new to the fandom I had permanently open in another tab to cross-reference while I re-watched the show :P

(A lot of my favourite meta writers I imprinted on like a duckling when I was new and remember them really well but of course I love all the new people around here but my actual useful visual memories are all the fandom circa season 9 and not all around any more much, because my brain has been stewing in migraines and fatigue since, like, the middle of season 10, and my new approach is to wearily trudge through my dash barely checking who wrote what unless I have to deal with minuscule fonts on a read more, so I’m afraid my memory of active bloggers is totally rubbish and it’s best just to look at my awesome meta tag and see who I’ve been reblogging a lot lately and some really grevious oversights in people I will smack my head for not mentioning if you bring it up, but your question was phrased in such a way I went straight for who do I ENJOY reading not quick gimme a useful list with no explanation thing :P So uh, sorry if this is 100x longer than you expected :D)

[babysweetiedrops-blog]

Change of plans. I was just going to be gone a few days due to my health. But now I’ve decided I’m leaving. 

Before I say anything further: I want to preface this with one thing. Most teenietots do not create drama, encourage it, or enjoy it. 

But to specific members. I am leaving age regression all together. There is a constant flow of drama on my dash from them. I am not healthy enough to handle this many untagged, extremely negative mosts. 

“But Sweetie, its all the kid//hearts’ fault.” No. It’s not. Conflict requires two sides. For there to be conflict, especially that’s been going on as long as this apparently has, you have to be taking in active role in it. 

These last 2 spats? Kid//hearts were hardly involved.

 In the first one, one kid//heart asked to be blocked. In no way is that unreasonable. If you all hate kid//hearts so much, why wouldn’t you? It would mean they can’t even see your content, let alone interact. But the hostile refusal by the teenietot main page, simply shows they have no real interest in stopping the drama. 

That user and a second minor then recieved multiple anons harrassing them and then at one point even suicide baiting them. The teenietot main refused to even address the situation. They waived any responsibility from someone who was claiming to be a teenietot. 

There was also a brief mixup where someone who just switched to kid//hearts had some teenieot posts in their queue. They apologized and deleted them, while the teenietots main made a post describing the situation as something entirely different. And then another teenietot misgendered them 4 times in one ask and one again in an ask informing them that they misgendered the person. 

Then a few teenietots received similar messages from someone claiming to be a kid//heart. Kid//hearts addressed this. They made a post on the main, which they’ve been reblogging nearly every day since, and one of the mods made a very intense post on their main. Which is far more than I can say for teenietots. Kid//hearts at least take responsibility for anyone claiming to be a part of their community. 

Involvement total: 2 asks from someone asking to be blocked and a few anons claiming to be kid//hearts, just as there were some anons claiming to be teenietots. The rest of the “drama” was just post after post of vauging and bashing kid//hearts. That, that is called fear mongering. It’s uncalled for. 

In the second spat, which was last night and today, we had a self proclaimed teenietot harassing and suicide baiting a kid//heart mod, while another self proclaimed kid//heart, sent a death threat. 

Then teenietots blamed two seperate people’s actions on the kid//hearts, despite them not even being kid//hearts. So kid//hearts is clearly a scapegoat. 

And then several more vague and bash posts by teenietot members. 

Am I saying you have to like or accept kid//hearts? No. I am saying you don’t need to be so over the top about your blatant hatred of them. 

Most of the “drama” could be solved by:

block and delete hateful anons, and yes that’s possible

stop answering questions that bash kid//hearts. if you’re a “no hate tolerance” community then fucking act like it. 

stop making vague posts

stop making bash posts, especially if you aren’t going to censor their community name. 

block them instead of promoting conflict by responding

There’s this thing called neutrality. And you seriously need it. Because by actively participating in conflict, you are creating a lot of your problems. 

But here’s the best part. I 100% expect to be attacked over this by teenietots. I expect to be dismissed. I expect to get told that I don’t know anything. I don’t expect any of you to listen to a single thing I’ve said or to make any effort to help yourselves. That’s why I’m leaving. I’m leaving tumblr all together. Because I know there isn’t a single community out there, where your drama wont wind up on my dash. I know because I have checked. 

[gruntadminloch-moved]

((venting post tbd it’s okay i talk myself through it this is literally stream of conscious you can just watch me think myself through something if you read this which is probably hilarious but also probably very not just ignore this i’ll actually delete this unlike everything else i tag tbd i swear

whenevr i consider reblogging like a ‘give my muse a nightmare’ meme or something similarly darker like that to explore that side of Loch or just any other side of him because i’ve explored like maybe a fifth at best

I feel like “yeah well you’re too new. people don’t know enough about loch to pull that off.” (disregard that i’ve been here what a month at this point? i answered an ask about things that trigger him and also included some fears in there?? loch’s pretty simple you can also take a wild guess based on ‘he REALLY likes kissing guzma’s ass’)

(also, hey, danie, why don’t people know more about loch? because you haven’t been doing your tags dipshit! why don’t you do those? clearly you want to! anxiety?? poor attention span??? well shit can’t do much about that now can we.)

at the same time some people reblog those and get silly/funny ones or general ones so. it wouldn’t hurt to do that.

I also feel bad doing memes when i could be doing proper tags. memes just come quick and easy. but it’s not really the right way to share info about the character rather than y’know actually playing him y’know? but i also feel bad about not posting so much when i’m in a rut like this. i should stop feeling bad because everyone tells me that it’s fine and not to feel bad but i don’t /shrug

unrelated vomiting warning obvs not for me tho but that’s a delicate thing for some people but my dad’s throwing up again which is great can’t do anything about that either

can’t do anything in general lol

I’m actually getting a tag done right now!!  unfortunately there are 30+ more waiting after that somet hat will probably be dropped for timing reasons but i wanna reply anyway to show that i’m still interested

just

blaah i suck /shrug

idk how i did this before idk how i was part of even ran a whole kind of indie multiverse space in the past i guess i had less on my mind and less to do i didn’t have a job i didn’t have to take care of my dad i was slightly more mentally healthy than before

just

i have so many excuses but i hate having excuses i feel like they’re never enough or they’re not well understood or just that everyone ELSE can power through their excuses wh can’t I????

(a lot of those people have meds or support systems or otherwise self that’s why. there are lots of reasons you’re you and you need to stop comparing yourself to other people it’s not HELPING it makes things WORSE and you’ve gotta stop making things worse for yourself because it just makes things harder for you)

i wonder if i’d feel better if i got things done but those things can be done whenever y’know? like the pile of laundry on my floor doesn’t feel as pressing as tags i’ve been sitting on for weeks. sure rl comes first but once i throw those in the washing machine i can just walk away and it’ll take care of itself. this is osmething i actively have to do

then again that’s the kind of logic that says it’s a priority. it’ll take five seconds. hell maybe i’ll do it now and feel like i did something. sweep up the rice i spilt on the floor earlier and feel a little better. hang up my clothes that’ve been sitting in my laundry basket for weeks and have stuff done. just the thought(or maybe the rambling) makes me feel a little less tense would you look at that

okay. i have a tag half done. i’m gonna finish it and queue it and then put some stuff in the laundry. do another(or part of another), hang up some clothes. yeah i can do that. good talk self you're gonna be fine

and y’know what once you do a few things reblog a meme or make a headcanon post or something. you’ve got this. you can earn things for yourself

feel like you’re gonna cry? that’s fine. go ahead and cry. whenever it comes. maybe listen to pikachu’s goodbye that used to make you cry all the time it might help get it out. you’re all manner of pent up and you need to pull yourself together

your arms might feel tense from restlnessness--adhd isn’t just being foregetful and distracted you get restless and angry and fidget too and you’ve been kind of still since you sat down to type. your body wants movement and activity besides using your hands and fingers. use them or flail around do some wall pushups or something. you’re gonna be fine. it’s amazing how nice it feels to talk to yourself sometimes and talk yourself through things. maybe it’s just because i know how to do that, talk through things. i just never have the time to really tell myself to do it

it’s especially nice to be able to look up from the keyboard and see it addressed to me. like. hey you. me. self. you’re gonna be alright. things’re gonna be fine. nothing in particular is the matter but everything is also the matter and that’s okay because it won’t be the matter forever!!! you just gotta work through it

thanks me. you’re not bad at that. you hear that a lot actually. you don’t mean to project that way when it comes to loch but you do. hopefully when you pick up other characters you can keep your self to yourself.

okay! enough typing!! time to get to work!!! /cutsey flexy emoji

[oohkahmee]

Get To Know Me Tag

Tagged by: @dovahkiin99

Star sign: Scorpio 

Height: 5′2″

Time right now: 3:11 p.m (when it wasn’t in queue)

Last thing I googled: Sad song lyrics by We The Kings and lyrics for 一千年以后 by 林俊杰

Favorite music artist(s): Uhm.. I don’t have one? Basically if I like the song then i’ll listen, including video game OSTs. But lemme see, maybe.. Linkin Park, Maroon 5, Owl City, Breaking Benjamin, Bruno Mars, Panic! At The Disco

Last TV show watched: I’m a lazy bum when it comes to catching up with shows. Anyway its The Walking Dead.

What I’m wearing now: Blue oversized tee originally owned by my bro, and a pair of shorts.

When did I create this blog: A year+ ago.. Can’t recall.

What kind of stuff do I post: My blog contains..

Gaming related reblogs, ESPECIALLY dynasty warriors, kingdom hearts and final fantasy as if it isn’t obvious enough lol.

My own drawings.. psst they are filed under #doods and scribbs :3

Some very random dogs and landscape pictures.

Do I have any other blogs:  None at the moment. Thought about making another separate one for purely doodles.. Cuz maybe not everyone enjoys them since my blog has mixed posts. Would anyone be interested? 

Do I get asks regularly: Rarely. Although a few took their time out and dropped by my inbox truly made my day. Oh, also those who add sweet compliments in their tags when reblogging my drawings, I see you too (◍•ᴗ•◍)♡ ✧*。

Why did I choose my url: My love for wolves and games?? Instead of calling it Okami I made up words according to the pronunciation.

Pokemon team: Team Instinct. Got my bro and dad to join as well.

Favorite colors: White, blue, black like the color of my soul and some pastels

Average hours of sleep: *Looks into mirror revealing puffy eye bags and dark circles deeper than Guo Huai’s* ...Yeap definitely not a healthy amount.

Dream job: Video Game Artist. But it seems impossible.

Tagging: I don’t know, to be honest. Anyone who reads this feel free to do it!

[fuckyeahspones]

Submission Announcement

Our submission and ask box is open!

When @chaoticaddict chose us (@demidani & @logicheartsoul) to be mods, it was intended to bring this blog back to life. And it did! We run a regularly scheduled queue full of Spones content that we all desire.

However, that being said, eventually all the content will posted. And while the Spones tag has a healthy amount of activity, it’s not like some tags which have a steady outpouring of content. We have more than a rarepair in that we have steady flow but not like a more popular ship where we’re a raging river of content.

That’s where this post comes in.

We welcome all messages and submissions that come in. 

You want to promo a work (fic/art/graphics/fanmix/etc)? You can send it to us. We love spreading Spones works especially if you’re new or not as well known to fandom.

You want to promote a Spones related event? You can send it in. 

If you want to send us recs, feel free! 

If you want to send in headcanons or just want to tell us why you love Spones, all the merrier! 

If you just want to talk about Spones in general, we’re always up for that!

Our guidelines are fairly simple and are on their respective pages. 

Yes, you can send in NSFW content but it will be tagged accordingly. 

We will only post new art and fic that’s submitted to us by the original owners since we follow a reblog not repost policy, unless you have permission by the original creator(s) to do so.

Otherwise, feel free to leave us a message or submit something to us!  Anything from their friendship to their romantic relationship or just about Spock or McCoy themselves is fair game. Have at it! (And don’t worry, we still have the queue so you will still have Spones content on your dash!)

[sunnibits]

I was tagged by @queer-lodgingss @reshirement and @lordoftherazzles for this, thank you! (sorry for taking so long I’m lazy)

1. why did you choose your url?

Idk, sunnybits was my AO3 account name before I joined tumblr so I just stuck with it. The name literally just comes from me sticking random words together lol and I might actually change it soon... but I like the ‘sunny’ part specifically because I like the mental image of radiating sunshine and light :D I think it’s pretty cool that I’ve been able to become comfy with it as a secondary name <3

2. any side-blogs? if you have them, name them and why you have them.

I have my art side blog because idk, art blog reasons at @sunniscribbles 

Also I’ve never talked about it but I don’t mind introducing y’all to my soft cottagecore-esque sideblog @sunny-and-bee :) it’s just a nice positive space I started with my friend @killerbeestan and it’s pretty inactive compared to my main, lol. (But I still try to keep it up at least one or two posts a day)

3. how long have you been on tumblr?

I made this account on August 10th of 2020, apparently, so almost a year now! That’s not a lot compared to some people lol but it’s still crazy it’s been that long already. However, it should be noted that I stalked the tags for my various fixations very often long before I actually made an account, so I’ve been floating around for a little while. 

4. do you have a queue tag?

Nope, and I still don’t really get queues or queue tags, so. I use my queue occasionally for spam but like... with my little goblin brain if I see something cool it’s going on my blog NOWS >:(

5. why did you start your blog in the first place?

I mean, come on, look at me. I’m obsessed with many fandoms, this is easily the best place to talk about them and I really didn’t have a lot of irl friends who know what I was talking about in my endless hyperfixation rambles. (But they are amazing and still listen to my rambles today.)  Plus, as an artist I wanted to be able to contribute, especially for like Ninerose and whatnot, because those poor fans don’t get a ton of content!

6. why did you choose your icon/pfp?

(I feel like this is meant for people who have consistent layouts, lmao) Currently I wanted a Loki layout to honor the show coming out very very soon!!! :DD

7. why did you choose your header?

Same reason, and it’s aesthetic. 

8. what’s your post with the most notes?

I believe my post about the new Venom movie giving us gays everything we want.

9. how many mutuals do you have?

About 23, apparently? I haven’t actually counted until now, I thought it would be more lmao.

10. how many followers do you have?

I hit 300 today! :D (Who knows how, but I love you guys)

11. how many people do you follow?

86, I feel like that’s not a lot but I’m very picky about following people.

12. have you ever made a shitpost?

Who... hasn’t? This is tumblr? Yes, several.

13. how often do you use tumblr each day?

*sweats* A - a normal healthy amount, I’m sure.

14. did you have a fight/argument with another blog once? who won?

Once early on in my tumblr existence I suddenly discovered a mutual I had been talking to was a pan/ace exclusionist and I tried to argue with them for a while before I just blocked them. But yeah, that was nasty and made me really uncomfy :// I haven’t gotten into any arguments since that, thank god, I don’t enjoy nor have the energy for fighting with icky people.

15. how do you feel about “you need to reblog this” posts?

Especially for serious moral stuff, they make me pretty uncomfortable. I usually support the idea presented or want to help whatever cause they are explaining, but I feel like some people forget that while the suffering of people in the world is obviously important, tumblr is literally just a place to have fun and create your own space that makes you happy, and guilt-tripping people is just unnecessary. Besides, there are a lot of minors on here (including me) that genuinely can’t do much to help and really don’t need to be worrying about the weight of the entire world at once. (Sorry for getting deep oof)

16. do you like tag games?

YES I LOVE THEM! I don’t always have the energy for them, so I may not always do them soon or at all (see this game, lol) but never hesitate to tag me!

17. do you like ask games?

YES I LOVE THOSE EVEN MORE I LOVE ASKS

18. which of your mutuals do you think is tumblr famous?

Idk??? But there are definitely a few I consider the cool mutuals I want to impress, lol.

19. do you have a crush on a mutual?

Not, like, romantically, no. But again, there are definitely a couple I consider Very Cool and being praised by them in the tags feels akin to being patted on the head affectionately, I beam every time.

20. tags?

Not today, but anyone can do this if they want! (literally you can tag me in it and say I tagged you, I would love to see it)

[lavendertales]

thank you for the tag @acourtofsnakes 🥰🥰

1. Why did you choose your url? I watched Game of Thrones back in 2019 and basically rooted for Arya throughout the entire show and her part with the faceless men stuck with me, sooo here we are.

2. Any side blogs? This is actually my side blog!

3. How long have you been on Tumblr? Oh God, I think I joined for the first time in 2014, but back then it was pictures of puppies lol. I really became active around 2018.

4. Do you have a queue tag? Nope. Maybe I should make one.

5. Why did you start your blog in the first place? I made it to write for the fandoms that I am mostly active in and I ended up using this one far more than my main.

6. Why did you choose your icon/pfp? I think Din just goes splendidly with the whole queenofthefaceless URL. Keeps the mystery alive.

7. Why did you choose your header? That quote is gold and applicable to soooo many things.

8. What’s your post with the most notes? I think it's one where I said I wanted Din to raise hell lol right before The Mandalorian season 1 finale HERE

9. How many mutuals do you have? A lot and I appreciate them so damn much, especially since they're so wonderful and supportive and genuine!

10. How many followers do you have? As of now, a little over 1.8k.

11. How many people do you follow? 63

12. Have you ever made a shitpost? Uhhh I think so? this one

13. How often do you use Tumblr each day? Quite a bit, but I did reduce my time on it lately.

14. Did you have a fight/argument with another blog once? Not really, no. Mostly cause I try to mind my business and keep things healthy and clean on here. And if there is an issue, I prefer to talk about it in private like adults and see what went wrong and what's to be done about it.

15. How do you feel about “you need to reblog this” posts? It depends on the topic. If it's something relevant going on in the world, yes, I will reblog links and information. I feel like if you believe in it and really want to spread the word, you will do it regardless.

16. Do you like tag games? I love them! Love being tagged!

17. Do you like ask games? YES!

18. Which of your mutuals do you think is Tumblr famous? Oh god, @beskarhearts @lunaserenade @myownworstenemyyy

19. Do you have a crush on a mutual? @acourtofsnakes @artsymaddie @maharani-radha-writes @wild-at-heart-kept-in-cage @walt-breslin @captn-andor @beskarboobs and honestly pretty much all of my mutuals because you're all lovely and wonderful!

20. absolutely no pressure tags

Anyone who wants to do it! Please do, this was fun 💕