#everybody in the world knows i'm a little twisted

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FIC REC WEEK 16 – DARK FIC

SERIES: Anxious Jitters by Naivelittleprincess

Pairing: Steve/Tony, Bucky/Tony, Steve/Bucky Rating: T Words: 6,517 Tags: Horror, Canon Divergence, Dead Dove: Do Not Eat

Summary: Scary, angsty, unrelated one-shot stories with unhappy endings. This is me coping with my bad days.

Reasons why I love it: This series is like a collection of little, bloody gems. They're creepy and horrifying and all the things I love about dark fic, combining some really cool concepts with heartwrenching terror. In short, this series is amazing, and I really hope you check it out. All the fics can be read on their own, so I'm sure there's something for everybody!

This series consists of:

Eater of Hearts

Pairing: OFC/Tony Rating: G Words: 1,102 Tags: Steve Rogers Feels, Obsessive Behavior, Unhappy Ending

Summary: There's a girl—a new girl who looks like a porcelain doll and has a smile that's too sweet. Steve doesn't like her. He doesn't like her one bit.

Reasons why I love it: Oooh, this one's so creepy! The plot twist sends chills down my spine, holy shit, it's so good. And those last few lines? Jesus Christ. This fic is amazing, and I highly encourage you to check it out!

Heavy in Your Arms

Pairing: Steve/Tony, Pepper/Tony, Wanda/Vision, Bucky/Sam Rating: G Words: 717 Tags: Endgame, Fix-It of Sorts, Infinity Gauntlet

Summary: "Steve, what are you doing?" "Fixing this."(Or Where Steve changes the world. And everybody has a role to play.)

Reasons why I love it: Jesus Christ, the implications of this are horrifying! And that "happy" ending, oh my god, I just want to grab Tony, Nat and Vis and get them the hell out of there. I love this one, and if you're into twisted shit, I bet you will too!

What an Expensive Fate

Pairing: Bucky/Tony, Steve/Bucky Rating: G Words: 1,557 Tags: Dark Bucky, Jealous Steve, Winter Soldier

Summary: "I can't hurt him, Stevie. You know that. But, I gotta hurt someone. Who better to dish it out on than you?"

Reasons why I love it: Oooffff, poor Steve, the guy just can't catch a break. I love dark Bucky, and this one is DARK, holy shit. It's so good. Please give this one a shot if you like messed up Winter Soldier stuff!

The Clock Strikes Out

Pairing: Tony & Avengers Team Rating: T Words: 1,719 Tags: Murder, Manipulation, Revenge

Summary: "Tick tock, Mister Stark." "Time's running out." "I need a name." He blinks and shakes his head. Looks around, tries to see the outlines of his team through the dark spots dancing across his vision. A shock of red hair. A flash of a silver. A blink of blue and red. Something, someone is dragged to a corner by the hair and he thinks it could be Barton. "A name, Mister Stark. Just one."

Reasons why I love it: I couldn't tell where this one was going at all, so the reveal at the end hit me hard. It's so good, holy fuck, I love this one. Definitely give it a read!

My Town Was A Wasteland

Pairing: Steve/Tony Rating: T Words: 1,422 Tags: Vampires, Rituals, Howard Stark's A+ Parenting

Summary: Howard wants to raise the dead. Even if it's at the expense of his own son. It backfires spectacularly.

Reasons why I love it: As gruesome as it is, the imagery in this fic is really beautiful. I love the juxtaposition of the bloody ritual with flowers and sunlight. And the note at the end made me really happy. This fic is fantastic, and I hope you check it out for yourself!

[turianosauruswrex]

📻 + per!!!!

my son my son my son my son thank you so much Shan!!!

Send me 📻 + an oc and I’ll give you a random song off their playlist + an explanation of why it’s there

Okay so this was harder than I thought. Per's (first) (complete) playlist is largely based on vibes, lyrics being relevant of course but the sound of a song taking precedence in that I didn't listen to many of these song's lyrics until later. And then the ones I did pick for their lyrics-- I mean they're a little obvious.

Like come on. That's just them! It wasn't on purpose I made them fit that song either! Coincidence!

So the one I'm gonna go with is "Autoclave" by the Mountain Goats!

It's the last song on their playlist, after an onslaught of loud, dissonant, dark sound and dark lyrics. And I specifically wanted to give them one or two Mountain Goats songs to contrast the rest of their songs, because they are still a person underneath their violence, their indifference, their bloodline. Peregrine very much feels like they're set on their path: They do not have a choice in their murderous actions. They do not have a choice on whether or not they are Bhaal's son. Everything is fixed. They can't change it-- they tried, once, and they were punished for it. The Mountain Goats not only do an exceptional job of putting such feelings to song, but they also come steeped very heavily in religious and mythological imagery, which are things I obviously wanted to lean on for Peregrine.

"Autoclave" is a heartwrenching song (that I would kill to see performed live) because it sounds so defeated, so resigned, so lonely. The verses fit Peregrine well, as by the point of the Chains of Asmodeus campaign, they firmly believe their path is set down that of a monster-- figuratively, as one of their Father's death-dealers, and literally, as the avatar of the Slayer.

Hand me your hand, let me look in your eyes As my last chance to feel human begins to vaporize Maybe it's the heat in here, maybe it's the pressure You ought to head for the exits, the sooner the better

When I try to open up to you I get completely lost Houses swallowed by the earth, windows thick with frost And I reach deep down within, but the pathways twist and turn And there's no light anywhere, and nothing left to burn

And to be clear-- this isn't something they angst over. They have better things to do than worry about the state of their soul (it's cubed, apparently). If they are meant to be a monster, then by gods, it's the will of their Father, and who are they to defy him? Thus, they avoid getting close with anyone-- it happened twice. It ended disastrously for those two people, and for themselves, and some part of Per, deep down, won't let it happen a third time.

I dreamt that I was perched atop a throne of human skulls On a cliff above the ocean, howling wind and shrieking seagulls And the dream went on forever, one single static frame Sometimes you want to go where everybody knows your name

They are so lonely. Oh my god. They could have everything they want-- Bhaal's favoritism, the world dead at their feet in his name, and it would not bring them happiness. This is not something they yet realize-- that they find more peace and joy in companionship, more love from people rather than their Father.

But it's the second chorus that I really wanted to pull for them:

And I am this great, unstable mass of blood and foam And no emotion that's worth having could call my heart its home My heart's an autoclave My heart's an autoclave

The bloody imagery in the first line, the defeat in the second, and the use of an autoclave-- pressure and heat to sterilize and make inhospitable-- to describe their heart. This song is less an outside description of Peregrine and more, when you pry, when you twist it out of them, how they see themselves.

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