#everyone’s always like omg it’s winter and now i’m depressed i wish the sun was out

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therapy isn’t enough, i need to live somewhere where it rains.

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Thanks to the lovely @youngmoneymilla for taking the time to answer these! Get to know more about lovely Eliza, go give her a follow and then show her some love!

These questions are from this list. You should check it out, there’s 50 questions all together and they’d be great to ask your favorite fic writer!

1) How old were you when you first starting writing fan-fiction?

13

2) Do you prefer writing OC’s or reader inserts? Explain your answer.

I did love writing OC’s because I have a lot of fun with physical description. However, that was when I wasn’t aware of Reader Inserts since I just recently came back into the fanfic world. Reader Inserts are great because I have to work that much harder on giving them a backstory/personality and not focus at all on physical description. Plus, everyone gets to read the work and hopefully find themselves in it. The only thing I hate is being unable to use a name. I can’t write “Y/N” bc it bugs me haha.

3) What is your favorite genre to write for?

Ummm Angst probably? I’m a huge horror fan so, I’m trying to incorporate that into more work.

4) If you had to delete one of your stories and never speak of it again, which would it be and why?

“It Would Have Made it True” just because I didn’t really connect with it that much and the ending was rushed.

5) When is your preferred time to write? 

11 am to 10 pm haha. I’m an asshole and write a lot during my job.

6) Where do you take your inspiration from? 

I have about a million fics bookmarked from over the years, literally fics from when I was in high school to now. They’re so gorgeously written and they inspire me to write. I pretty much only read non-fiction outside of fanfic so, that doesn’t really work.

7) What’s your favorite scene that you’ve written?

Bathtub/Bedroom scene in the second part of “Bungalows and Baths”

8) Have you ever amended a story due to criticisms you’ve received after posting it?

Yep. In one fic, I included a descriptive characteristic for the reader that implied she was white. It hadn’t even occurred to me but, I immediately fixed it when someone pointed it out.

9) Who is your favorite character to write for? Why? 

Tossup between Bucky and Steve. Bucky has the very obvious trauma and grief that’s interesting to write about but, Steve has a lot of buried darkness that’s subtle and extremely intriguing.

10) Who is your least favorite character to write for? Why?

Maybe Bruce? I don’t care that much for his character (despite the fact I love Hulk)

11) How do you come up with the titles for your stories? 

A lot of the time, it’s a line that’s said throughout the narrative. However, I have a word doc filled with random quotes I like and I usually throw something together. I always think up the title at the end and it’s always an afterthought. Titles blow.

12) What do you think is the best idea you’ve had for a story so far?

I am currently writing a Bucky x Reader fic (TRYING TO AT LEAST) that is going to take the team to New Orleans. It’s going to involve vampires since I wrote a novella about vampires back in high school and want to re-explore that mythology. However, there is going to be a lot of twists and it won’t be an AU, it’s just introducing the possibility of vampires in the MC universe. The reader and Bucky will both be struggling with the idea of themselves as monsters and trying to help themselves through that. It’s going to be a lot of voodoo and magic and angsty “will they, won’t they”. I’m going off on a tangent now but, that’s the gist. I have not written an actual series in a long time so, this would be my first one.

13) Do you have any abandoned WIP’s? What made you abandon them?

There are many half-filled one- page word docs on my desktop that are rotting away as we speak. I just get bored or think of something else.

14) Are there any stories that you’ve written that you’d really love to do a sequel to?

I’d love to do more fics with the same reader from Bungalows and Baths.

15) Are there any stories that you wished you’d ended differently?

Lol I’m actually annoyed with how I ended 6 Times right now. Not sure why.

16) Tell me about another writer(s) who you admire? What is it about them that you admire?

Omg I admire so many but, here are a few.

@bitsandbobsandstuff – obviously for her “Safe with Me” piece which is fantastic, emotional and well-paced. Pacing/keeping the reader on their toes is the hardest thing for me in a series and so, I really admire her ability to do that. I also LOVED her “A Million Invisible Threads” piece because it’s such a gorgeous character study on the Winter Soldier

@a-splash-of-stucky  – She’s the Queen of Angst duh and a GORGEOUS writer. I love her stuff. A Messed Up Place left me weak.

@imhereforbvcky – Her “Mirror for the Sun” fic inspired me to start writing from Bucky’s POV actually. She’s just a beautiful writer.

@tilltheendwilliwrite – I love everything she writes. I love all the mythology she brings to her fics while still staying within the Avengers universe. Her smut is on another level, too. I find myself rereading her stuff again and again.

17) Do you have a story that you look back on and cringe when you reread it?

Here and there. There are definitely moments in a fic where I think why did I keep that. It’s usually because I ended it too quickly or just wanted it over.

18) Do you prefer listening to music when you’re writing or do you need silence? 

I love music when I write fics. It’s all movie scores. I have a spotify playlist for it.

19) Have you ever cried whilst writing a story?

I’ve cried (ish) when writing anything that has to do with alcohol/substance abuse. I’ve been in and out of AA for the past two years and have finally started recovery again. I also have depression so, writing about that can leave me raw. Writing truly always helps though.

20) Which part of your fics have been the hardest to write?

SMUT. Jesus Christ. I struggle so hard with making smut sound hot, as well as lyrical so, it can fit with the narrative. I don’t want to reuse anything I’ve used in other fics before or repeat words but, it’s SO hard (pardon the pun). I always forget what position they’re in and where the body parts need to go. It’s legitimately why I have yet to write a Stucky x Reader fic. I can’t introduce another person into my difficult SMUT journey.

21) Do you make a general outline for your stories or do you just go with the flow? 

I usually have a general idea and I’ll have a very vague outline going. I just write everything out like word vomit and go back and edit.

22) What is something you wished you’d known before you started posting fan-fiction? 

That some of the best stories I’ve read aren’t necessarily the ones with the most likes or comments. I stumble upon stuff and wonder “HOW DOES THIS NOT HAVE 2K LIKES”.

23) Do you have a story that you feel doesn’t get as much love as you’d like?

That’s tough. Maybe the stuff I wrote in the beginning where I didn’t have many followers. I loved the concept of “You Don’t Mean for it to Happen” but, sometimes I want to rewrite the whole thing. I put a lot of myself into “I Think of You All the Time” but, I feel like that got some good traction. IDK.  Bungalows and Baths got a crazy amount of love. Did not expect that but, v grateful.

24) In contrast to 23 is there a story which gets lots of love which you kinda eye roll at? 

Nope. I appreciate any love haha.

25) Are any of your characters based on real people?

Well, I think it goes without saying that every reader character has a little bit of the author in there. I think I pull from some of my friends but, not really.

26) What’s the biggest compliment you’ve gotten? 

Someone once said that their soul was marked by “Bungalows and Baths” which was amazing haha.

27) What’s the harshest criticism you’ve gotten?

I haven’t really gotten criticism other than that time I screwed up on including a feature for a white reader. I felt terrible about that.

28) Do you share your story ideas with anyone else or do you keep them close to your chest?

Not really. I don’t have people to share them with haha.

29) Do people know you write fan-fiction?

My best friend knows but, she doesn’t read fanfic. Shockingly, my mom and sister know but, I told them that they could never read them. I just share reviews with them. My mom likes to know that I’m staying creative.

30) What’s you favorite minor character you’ve written? 

Oh jeez idk if I have one. Natasha isn’t considered a minor character but, she usually plays a side character in my stories and she’s fun to write for.

31) What spurs you on during the writing process?

Once I get started, I’m usually good at keeping it going. Music helps.

32) What’s your favorite trope to write?

Probably slow burn romance or one of the lovers is injured/captured. I also am a huge sucker for love triangles because I’m greedy AF.

33) Can you remember the first fic you read? What was it about?

Lawl this might not have been the first one but, I read a Lizzie Mcguire SMUT piece when I was maybe in 6th grade and was severely chilled to the bone. I was trash even at 12.

34) If you could write only angst, fluff or smut for the rest of your writing life, which would it be and why?

Angst. I always write better when I’m emotionally distraught and tortured. Although as I get older, I realize this isn’t fabulous for my own mental health.

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WOW it’s a miracle I have been tagged and have actually remembered to play the game!! Moment of silence to observe this momentous day ;)

Thanks to the sweet @studyingraphics for the tag!!

Game rules: answer these 92 statements and tag 20 people (or however many you feel like lol)

LAST: 1. drink: wine :3 2. phone call: my best friend from college! 3. text message: to a good friend about her new boy <3 4. song you listened to: Despacito by Luis Fonsi & Daddy Yankee omgggg. Makes me want to dance and also be fluent en español lol 5. time you cried: eh...earlier this week. Stupid breakup stuff.

HAVE YOU: 6. dated someone twice: Nope! 7. kissed someone and regretted it: Nahh. #NoRagerts 8. been cheated on: ¯\_(ツ)_/¯ Honestly who knows. 9. lost someone special: Sadly, yes. C’est la vie. 10. been depressed: Yes, unfortunately. 11. gotten drunk and thrown up: Again....unfortunately.

LIST THREE FAVORITE COLORS: 12-14. Navy, maroon, and lavender.

IN THE LAST YEAR HAVE YOU: 15. made new friends: Yes! So many awesome friendships. 16. fallen out of love: Yes, sadly. 17. laughed until you cried: Omg yes, those are the best laughs. 18. found out someone was talking about you: Not that I recall. 19. met someone who changed you: Probably.  20. found out who your friends are: For sure. 21. kissed someone on your facebook list: Welp....he’s not on my facebook list anymore....

GENERAL: 22. how many of your facebook friends do you know: Liiike 99%  23. do you have any pets: Used to have a pupper. She was the greatest pup that ever lived and I’ll never love again WAHHH. 24. do you want to change your name: Not really. I mean, aside from never being called my birth name ever, I’m good haha. 25. what did you do for your last birthday: My boyfriend at the time came up to visit and it was a pretty shitty birthday because we were on the verge of breaking up. 26. what time did you wake up: 4:45 AM 27. what were you doing at midnight last night: Falling asleep to a cheesy chick flick on Netflix (seriously check out Picture Perfect bc Jennifer Aniston is perfection as always) 28. name something you can’t wait for: To visit my little sister in Spain!! 29. when was the last time you saw your mom: About an hour ago loll 30. what is one thing you wish you could change in your life: How much my anxiety controls my life every day. It’s often crippling and sometimes I don’t deal with it very well at all. 31. what are you listening to right now: Nothing except for Despacito playing in my head lmao 32. have you ever talked to a person named tom: Yes I work with two Toms haha. 33. something that is getting on your nerves: Ignorance/racism/sexism/homophobia, etc. etc. 34. most visited websites: Is Instagram considered a website if it’s the app? Well. That.

LOST QUESTIONS: 35. mole/s: I don’t think I have any? 36. mark/s: I have this birthmark on my had that’s almost invisible in winter, but is very dark in summer when I get tan (”tan,” lol). My dad realized it was there when I was like 16 and told me to go wash my hands bc he thought it was dirt. 37. childhood dream: I wanted to grow up to be a vet with a big family. 38. hair color: Mousy brown. Kinda hate it, but too lazy and cautious to do anything with it color-wise 39. long or short hair: Short! Used to have hair down to my butt but short for the last year or so. 40. do you have a crush on someone: When do i NOT have a crush on someone, let’s be honest. I crush hard on everyone lol. 41. what do you like about yourself: My eyes/eyebrows, my brains bc I’m brilliant (shh), my ~bubbly~ personality as described by friends and coworkers. 42. piercings: 5 ear piercings. Wish I had courage for a nose piercing haha. 43. blood type: Not a dang clue and I’m deathly afraid of needles so we ain’t finding out! 44. nickname: Ceej 45. relationship status: Single as a Pringle, in the best way (Pringles are delicious, get over it) 46. zodiac: Libra 47. pronouns: She/her 48. favorite tv show: Friends, probably.  49. tattoos: I wishhhhhhh. I want a sleeve so badly. 50. right or left hand: Right 51. surgery: Unfortunately. 52. hair dyed in different color: Never had it. 53. sport: To play? Softball. To watch? Football or wrestling (I know, judge me. It’s good when it’s real lol) 54. where’s 54 (<--lol this threw me off at first but I’m leaving it) 55. vacation: I don’t know what this is asking lol. Next vacation is Europe YAY! 56. pair of trainers: Huh?? Sure, i’ll take a good lookin’ pair of trainers ;)

MORE GENERAL: 57. eating: Pizza rolls (judge me) 58. drinking: Riesling 59. I’m about to: Get ready for work tomorrow and go the heck to sleep! 60. stop skipping numbers, dear author, it’s cheating  (,<-- lol again) 61. waiting for: The sun to go down so I can sleep 62. want: To be over this breakup, to have enough money to not be stressed about paying student loans every month, to be able to travel freely 63. get married: One day, yeah. 64. career: Graphic design!

WHICH IS BETTER: 65. hugs or kisses: Hugs cause you can get them from anyone and they’re so cozy :) 66. lips or eyes: Mmmm both. Eyes though, if I had to choose. 67. shorter or taller: LOL everyone is taller than me. 68. older or younger: Oldr? 69. COME ON IT REALLY IS CHEATING. at this moment is what, 89 questions to answer you lying duck 70. nice arms or nice stomach: Arms. 71. sensitive or loud: Sensitive I guess?  72. hook up or relationship: Relationship. Not into hookups. I get attached way too quickly for that shit lol. 73. troublemaker or hesitant: Depends haha. 

HAVE YOU EVER: 74. kissed a stranger: Nope 75. drank hard liquor: Yes ma’am 76. lost glasses/contact lenses: Don’t wear them 77. turned someone down: Lol yes 78. sex in the first date: Noooope 79. broken someone’s heart: Yuuuuup 80. had your heart broken: Unfortunately, but again, that’s life. 81. been arrested: Nope 82. cried when someone died: Too much 83. fallen for a friend: Yup and that’s how all my relationships have started lol

DO YOU BELIEVE IN: 84. yourself: Sometimes. I try to. 85. miracles: Yessm. 86. love at first sight: I don’t think so. I think it could be infatuation, but I think love is a lot deeper and how can you love someone if you literally just laid eyes on them? Idk. 87. santa claus: OBVI one of the best Christmas movies ever ijs. 88. kiss on the first date: Eh. Idk. I’ve never dated a guy that wasn’t a good friend first so idk how to date lololol. But probs not. 89. *coughs* 88 questions

OTHER: 90. current best friend name: Danielle! Best friend for 10 years :) 91. eye color: Green mainly, with blue around the edges. 92. favorite movie: Omg way too many favorite movies. Cinderella Man is the first one that comes to mind. Oh, and Hitch.

Now I’ve done way too much typing so if you see this and want to play along, consider yourself tagged!!

For everyone else, I tag @intellectys @obsidianstudy @notebuddy @anikasprocrastinatingagain @genspen @allydsgn @legallychic @alqariyah @seduloustudy @sassypitbull @xxjammyjamiexx and anyone else who wants to play!!

K love y’all bye :)