#first time y'all see my mom and me being bald

[holocene-sims]

15 oc questions!

i was tagged by @stargazer-sims - thank you so much!! ❤️ i've never done one of these tags in a character's voice, so it's fun to get extra practice writing as them 😊

i'll tag:

@dandylion240 @bl-sims-anime @idyllicephemera @elderwisp @nectar-cellar @minty-plumbob @crazykissim @mangosimoothie & anyone else who wants to do it!

ANYWAY i'm doing this for grant! idc if y'all have heard enough about grant, the honor goes to him

are you named after anybody?

my actual legal first name is joseph, which is my grandfather's name! so, uh, somehow yes, i am named after somebody! but i'm 99.9% sure it was out of laziness and not out of love. well, no, i'm 100% sure of that. it's not like my mom has ever respected her parents...but that's a whole different thing, we're not going there.

when was the last time you cried?

i'm a crybaby, come on! i'm known for being very emotional. i mean, sad animal commercials make me weepy. externally weepy. like tears running down my cheeks weepy. but the actual last time i cried? hmm, maybe like a week ago? i don't know if i could tell you why, though. i probably blocked it out of my memory! i'm great at that.

do you have kids?

do, uh, do cats count? because i do have a cat who i love and put sweaters on. sweaters! and he loves it.

do you use sarcasm?

it depends? sarcasm usually feels mean-spirited to me, so i'm not super into it, but then again, that's half the conversations i have with my family. i know in that case, though, that it's all bullshit humor and not serious. anyway, i think what i'm saying in a roundabout way is it depends a lot on context and audience. i don't want to hurt anyone's feelings or be a dick. i like being nice.

what's the first thing you notice about people?

okay, listen, in the most normal and not at all weird way possible, people's hairlines are always what i see first. i've been the first witness to so, so many fake blondes accidentally showing their dark roots or to dudes going bald. i'm sorry! i'm just freakishly tall! i can't not look down at all your heads unless i'm kneeling down on the ground. i'm not trying to spy on or judge the state of your hair, i promise.

what's your eye color?

brown! justice for brown eyes, the best eye color. i love being able to go out in the sun and not have my eyeballs bleached by the light. also, there's really not that many brown eyes in my family, so that's kind of fun. i'm a special boy.

scary movies or happy endings?

why not both? i love a good blair witch project, final destination moment. i also love a nice mushy gushy romantic movie with a happy ending. hell, i'd watch both in the same evening. start off with a fucked up horror movie and end it with pride and prejudice. sounds like a perfect night to me.

any special talents?

probably not anything relevant? i mean, i've played skyrim on survival mode without dying before. oh, and i guess back when i was still playing hockey, uh, a decade ago, i could score with the michigan goal pretty easily, which isn't all that common. in high school, i got my school the state championship win with that skill. but meh, i don't know how many people in the world know enough about hockey to care about that.

where were you born?

michigan! the part everyone forgets about, aka the upper peninsula, aka diet canada.

what are your hobbies?

i like to think i'm a well rounded person. i enjoy the super basic stuff like listening to music, but i'm also into into video games and tabletop RPGs like d&d. cooking and baking are fun for me, too. i did get into art semi-recently as well. i kind of had to have something i could do while laying down, like, 24/7 after i had spinal surgery.

if you're ever bored, just go fuck up your spine. you'll have SO much time on your hands to get new hobbies. actually, don't. please don't. i've been suffering for years and will continue to. i'm dying. don't be me. pretty please. pinky promise.

oh, duh, i also forgot that i'm into astronomy and um, planes. look, i'm not a car guy, i'm a plane guy. that's more fun, right?

have you any pets?

he's a cat named turtle, so, like, you know, the best cat in the world. sometimes i think about getting him a cat friend to hang out with but then i worry he'd get jealous, so i haven't done it. who am i to say whether or not he wants to live with a friend? or a sibling? being alone is so valid. i respect that.

what sports do you play/have you played?

oh, well, like i said, i played hockey for a really long time, like from, hmm, i think kindergarten and on! i even got a scholarship in college to play hockey. i'm glad to be done, though. some things ruined it for me. long story. but these days, uhh, i don't play any real sports anymore. i like hiking, you know, and i do work out at least every other day because it makes me feel better in a lot of ways, but that's kind of it. my sports days are over. i don't even skateboard anymore and i used to do that all the time.

how tall are you?

like 6'7" - though, i am rounding down a little bit. yes, down. not up. also, don't ask me how i ended up that tall. i have exactly one relative who is also tall. hi, chelsea! anyway, i am an accident or one hell of a joke. i'm laughing, i swear. it's very funny.

favorite subject in school?

i was overall a good student because i studied pretty hard but i was for sure a science and math kid. i loved physics in high school. and then in college, i got some way more fun science and math classes. just so you know, i am really holding back right now from rambling like a total nerd loser about my college classes...

but i mean, if you wanna learn about, i don't know, quantum mechanics or flight control systems, hit me up.

dream job?

that's such an easy question! when i was really, really young, i wanted to be a weather man, but then i changed my mind and wanted to be a pilot because, i don't know, i hit that time in every child's life where they have to become obsessed with a form of transportation. but then i never let that obsession go. my parents wanted me to be a doctor the whole time, though, but eww, no, i'm good. anyway, the dream of flying planes never died and somehow it worked out. now if i could just, uh, you know, go back to that job soon, that'd be sick.

[the-acid-pear]

Today's dream was mental.

I was in this ysrd and there were a lot of onions on the table and and there were masculine role models there it was a party and turns out my friend my irl was getting married to her mom but her appearance was that of Shun from Saint Seiya and there was a Hyoga too who was like, in a clip from the show? "I love you too, shun" while smiling smugly. And on the tv there was bald Vegeta (the no forehead one too, you'd see the buzz tho) nd he was in saint Seiya in the city and Vegeta was calling out for someone angry as he is but more worried then there's an explosion and red trees like those in the Minecraft end come out from the ground and back into it and a figure of an electric tower fades in an out and my dad gets emotional and I'm like holy shit I need to watch this show.

My friend also had a mini shun as a child. And her mother wasn't anyone just a generic middle aged woman. I wasn't happy about this AT ALL btw.

We then had to leave the place to go to the wedding which, like... It either was in my grandma's house or we were leaving from there 🤔 not sure. But I left and we were many in a bus and we were discussing we needed a cake and I remember saying dijiste torta y me acordé que tenía un asiento acá because apparently in this dream sitting in a single bus seat (like, not in the pairs, in the solo ones) is innuendo or something for being a hard full horny lesbian. Before that I was leaning onto the divider talking to two friends from highschool I believe? My irl was in their class too so it makes sense, these were mean boys tho.

Eventually the bus stopped and I got off with 4 random women two middle aged to teens daughter of one of them, the women short, one skinny one fatter, the daughters tall and lanky, everyone on the darker skin tone side.

I immediately regretted my decision and I was like Y'ALL GOING TO THE WEDDING?! 😟 And they were like yeah, of course! and we headed to take another bus and I had no sube because I don't have one and I told the woman, the skinny one, if she'd pay for me but she was like I don't have money sorry and then the bus driver grabbed HIS one and payed it for me like a legend... But then I realized i was missing my backpack.

And this was the second time I misplaced it because on the first bus I couldn't locate it for a while since there were 3 in total and one was camouflaged like mine but mine was heavier and contained... Something ? Else?? On the back. But I saw one of the lanky girls who was blonde had one so I was like ah maybe the girl has it...! But no, it was hers, so I had to leave the bus in a rush because I needed mine.

So I did and I started wandering trying to go over my steps. City was colorful and pretty and it wasn't argentina it was somewhere else. Although I saw places like la casa rosada and the same but white too. On a trash container to the side there was a concrete block and on top (block was the height of the container) 3 little figured of this wild cat like creature with a heart. They were in different poses and he was in 2 legs and looked kinda fucked kinda off but those tiny toys used to look like that. Fur was also dramatically shaded with strong darker tips against his lighter fur and such. Face was a bit human but his kitty mouse was big. Details aside, I picked one. For good luck.

I kept wandering and I walked past a very skinny brunette woman with Pinterest cool clothes, no one was here except for her, well, no one but two men that came afterwards in jeans and with tans and blonde spiky hairs who did some gesture in my direction before deciding to follow me like an rpg party. They kept trying to flirt with me and I talked with them but I was so stressed out and uncomfortable bc i was also in pain and worried and upset about my friend that I couldn't be even shy.

With them we ran into a different wedding kind of like fair which I'm sure I saw a horse at somewhere. There was also a library and an old man who war urging us w his looks to gtfo

And we kept wandering only once I tried to ask the boys what they did for a living but they didn't answer and I found a backpack, but it wasn't mine. But it had some weird sticker than said I ❤️ AI but didn't really see the bottom so I'd have said DYING or ART or PORN, either way they made me laugh. They were light blue in a desaturated tone like they'd been abandoned there. (We were forgotten by the rapture and we didn't even notice....... /J)

BUUUT as we went around further in this japanese looking apartment we ran into a bed and WOULDN'T YOU KNOW my BACKPACK WAS THERE WOOOOO ‼️‼️‼️ but now I had to get there somehow. I left at 2 pm or so and it was 6 pm now. I was so worried and scared no one would pick me up or perhaps the wedding was over and I couldn't stop them or...

I remember drawing or visualizing a drawing on the sand of a sad bear saying... Something. But I wanted to add ON COKE at the end too fsr referencing the cocaine bear?? And I didn't know who to call and I was getting anxious and...

Suddenly I was watching moonlight jewel make twilight sparkle. And I tried to go back to the dream but couldn't. It was twilight sparkle time.

So yeah one of the fucking wildest ones.

[ellaintrigue]

Since I'm posting this on FaceBook too, where many of my mom's older friends follow me: you are old, and you are fat.

But wait, keep reading!!

Now, I don't like Jeeps. I find them cliche, ugly, and have never known a Jeep owner that wasn't an asshole. That is a coincidence, I know, but just saying. But, if I walk past a Jeep in a parking lot, I'm not going to stop, point at it, and scream, "THAT'S AN UGLY JEEP, I DON'T LIKE JEEPS, NO ONE SHOULD DRIVE JEEPS, EW!!"

I went way off track, right? Not really. I had a big boss, she was fat with nice curly hair and a sweet face and her legs weren't bad at all, with small feet. She was cocky and joked a lot but one day she hung her head and said she felt "fat and ugly." I was like HELL NO, you're not. And I meant that. She was really pretty, just fat. Being fat doesn't stop people from being attractive, it is truly a matter of preference.

Singer Lizzo did that nude shoot and ALL these people (mostly fit yuppy whites it seemed) started calling her a poster child for diabetes. Okay, yes, obesity is not healthy, but, PEOPLE FUCKING KNOW THAT. Fat people get health facts drilled into their heads by their doctors, the news, and society. They know they're fat, and they know the risks.

Also, some people are just naturally big, and it feels good when society embraces all body types and has plus-sized models. So, let it go! There is something wrong with you if you're going to stop and scream at a Jeep because you don't like them. There is something wrong with you if you are going to shame a fat person because you don't like their body and want to be holier than thou.

I had this friend on FaceBook, had known him like 4 years, and he posted a picture of a big black woman, this random lady standing in line at a bank and compared her to an ogre. So I posted, "why? Because she's fat?" He didn't reply and unfriended me. See how petty this fat-shaming is? Do you think he would have laughed if that same lady posted a picture of him and pointed out how close together his eyes were? I'm going to point out people's flaws here because guess what: no one is perfect. We're all just a bunch of smelly animals pointing out that our peers stink.

So back to y'all being old and fat: WHO CARES. I look at my mother's age 60+ friends, some of which aren't that big on their looks or like taking selfies, and think "these are good looking people."

No one is expected to be a size 2 or firm at 65, and anyone that says otherwise is a douche, just like the rest of fat shamers. Body shaming is fucking stupid, are we all meant to be the same Barbie/Ken doll? No!! So comb your hair, smile, and celebrate your age and shape. It's 2020!

As you all know, my poor ex had a battered face and no teeth from a horrific street life in California. So on social media some guy hit me up: bald, bodybuilder type, big nose, but whatever. I love to make friends, I don't care about your race, gender, orientation or background!! First thing he does is ask about the "old guy" in my pics. I said, that's my boyfriend, he's my age but has had a rough life. Dude: "He looks old and ugly, can't you do better than that?" I said, "but this is coming from an ugly bald c*nt?" He was at a loss for words, he couldn't fathom having HIS appearance put down. Now, I shouldn't have said that, but it all comes down to these basic points:

We all have preferences, everyone is different, and if you have to shame someone over their looks then you need to look at your own. Chances are you're already insecure about them which is why you're a bully. All the perfect tight gym rats bullying people? The ones with the expensive dental work? Their low esteem goes way deep, that's why they have to play themselves up so much. I'm not saying every gym nut model type is like that but it is common. I can't count the times they've put me down.

So: Acceptance. Accept yourself and accept others, don't follow a pattern of abuse if you grew up being told you weren't good enough. Break the cycle and spread kindness. Stop negative obsessions over body types.

If we all put as much effort into finding a cure for cancer as we do condemning other people's looks it would probably be figured out by now, lol.

Stay humble, y'all.

[whimsically-ominously-auspice]

This is me and they added a "voice hinder" to purify the sound and we used teeth and nose pieces so I looked like her.

In Promise of a New Day you'll see i kept my hair down and you don't get a clean shot of Mark's face.

Because we stole children from kidnappers and replaced them with their parents, we tried to remain unknown. Just a person in the background.

So most videos i am in, yoh can't quite recognize me as we did a temporary change so i could just go plain and untouched up in real life I wouldn't need camouflage. It was easier that way.

It did kind of make me sad i would always be unknown and someone else would take credit for my work. Because of evil people in the world. It seems they always got their way, but not me.

At any rate, my voice was heard and people did oay to hear it, which would make you think would make me feel good. But it didn't. I just gave the money away (although Michael Jackson did invest it for me -- i still didn't have it) so it impacted my feelings that i was worthless and no one cared what I had to say. Or that i was a liar, allowing others to say what i felt, knowing they didn't and could never clearly quite understand me. The true me. And i wished people could feel my sadness just for me. To know how i felt worthless, i couldn't even have a family. Not a mom nor dad nor pa. No one. Just me. I really truly had no one. Just myself. When i thought of it that way. I felt power. I felt I could do things. Not relying on anyone was ajd is true power. No one could tell me otherwise. I decided. So i was Number One. One wasnt the loneliest number. I and only I could be Number One. And i would get to work! And save other people's children.

But how? I was ruthless. I couldn't be a beggar. I couldn't ask how I was doing. I had to KNOW. I had to KNOW myself. I had to KNOW ME. I had to have that power to thrust myself into the world and take it over.

But how? What did i need most? People at home with their families. People next to me on the couch to keep my spirits up.

NO!!! I HAD NO ONE. JUST ME. NO ONE ELSE. ONLY ME FOR NOW. Until the Conclusion. Just me.

Only me forever now. No one else.

Privacy and dominance. But how? I can take over the world. I Cleopatra. Must! Or it would not be saved.

I can't save anything, not my husband or my kid..

NO. I'm not saving anything! I'm taking over! Move! Get out the way! Now it's my land! Indians! (Native Americans) Sit! You stay! You live there? Don't move! Okay you can move but you don't leave. Wait. Do you want to live someplace else? I can help. But not today

Power and dominance. I have the power, that is I. I a the power of the world.

Move! Don't move! Who cares? Home! Now where is home. Home is what is needed. Home is where the heart is. Home is love. Hearts are love. That's all,we need then.

Step One: give all Humans a home of their own.

Step Two: take over the world

No, wait. That is a pre-requisite.

World Dominance. No. I'm being dominated.

Be until-dominated

Huh.

That shouldn't be step one? What the fuck here...

I should have all this done before people get their houses.

Oh well. This is the aftermath.

Steps 2 through 1 million: HELL for myself.

H E double hockey sticks

May be at one point I'll get Mark back. And the son!

The sun! Hmmm i wonder what i could do with that... Could it explode? Check on that. That could be bad.

Man I got to make this list right. New paper...

Okay self goal...

Oh right. First i need Privacy. Then I'll need Dominance. Is dominance power? I'll have to ask my dad uncle. But I don't think so. I think you can have power and leave people the Hell alone. I'll include both just in case I'm right.

Lets see here.

People in Homes then they will Learn Love.

There that's done. My life's goalzzzzz.

Then i can rest and May be enjoy something of my future. I'm only 12! No 13. So I'm let's see... What am I? 7 less. 6.

World Dominance at 6 years of age. This is nutty.

Cleopatra I guess it is then

Lets watch MTV, see if I am on.

....

In the year 2020 i own 76% of the Earths land and 94% of the Earths Oceans, Lakes, Seas and Rivers.

I'm 35. My friends and family own the rest.

I own 72 mortgage companies. I can take your house and your land at any time. I own Selene Finance one of the world's biggest that buys foreclosure mortgages.

All the mortgage companies that i own will start charging 0% interest rates on all home loans. We will not advertise, your payment will remain the same in the paper bills but online it will decrease by the interest change. Then in 4 months we will no longer mail paper bills. Or make phone calls if you're late. This will counter balance the decrease in money. As we put our employees in a different position doing something more lucrative at a promoted rate of pay.

Do please continue to pay your mortgages and look online to see the amounts you owe. It will also save you a stamp or cost you the price of and envelope if you insist to mail a check.

Insurance rates for homes and autos that i own will decrease by 72%

The General. Allstate. Liberty Mutual. American Modern.

Be one of our customers within the next 6 months and you'll enjoy these savings for life as They go by your social security number.

Otherwise the decrease from the original pricing will be 36% for 6 months then 20% thereafter.

No more than a 2% increase on your rates if you are ib an auto accident, guaranteed. 2.2% if you have full coverage which i recommend as the prices are very similar within 10% per month capped at $10 difference. And we will pay for your car AND theirs if you totally trash it. Otherwise liability only pays for theirs and it's a waste of money for you. And within 2 months of today, 2.16.2020 we will discontinue carrying liability for our auto insurance.

But you can price check at other companies such as Progressive which I traded Jesse James for American Home for. Which then rebranded to American Family then American Modern. American Modern Family if you kept up. ;) They also offer car and motorcycle and include flood insurance so you don't need to purchase an additional policy. Mortgage such as Wells Fargo don't notice that every year So call us or your insurance broker and we/they will rip them a new ass hole to stick their head in that notifies them there's flood insurance IN the policy so you don't have to pay more.

I wanted American Home because that's what I had and i got it because of the flood insurance and obviously Wells Fargo wouldn't read that inclusion. And i really liked it. So we cover motorcycles too now

In case y'all West Coast Chopper lovers want a discounted rate and just one policy for your home and auto. --it is seperated because mortgage usually pays insurance but one website shows you all. So it's easier to remember what you've done in life.

Gerber, Globe, United Mutual and Town Home life insurances are all discounted at 60% for life.

Business owners with my insurances with no claims in the last 6 years (2014) will see surprise discounts in the future.

World Dominance. See you There. I will make it. That. I know i will. Hopefully Mark will make it to his skin... Till then... I know he's thinking of y'all.

I wrote and sang this song to him.

And yes when i was 19 i shaved my head. This was a bald cap and wig. He was dead 9 months. So this song is my baby. And watching it on MTV produced my goals and depression. And my need to crawl out of the shame the evil side of the world had put me in.

I never felt shame again. I knew the real Sinead O'Conner wouldn't let me. So I didn't either.

Sinead. Here's to you. The real me and how you made me feel and see myself.

Every one thank Her for my Goal of World Dominance.

To the real woman who played my spirit, Tasha. Thank you for allowing yourself to be my voice to be heard around the world. Nothing compares to that. Thank all of you woman whom did, have and will.

[surveys-at-your-service]

Survey #221

“god is making fun of me; he’s up there laughing, i can see.”

What type of toothpaste do you use? Crest. What is your favorite color(s) of eye-makeup? b l a c k Are you sexually active? No. Do you have sensitive skin? I guess? Are you egotistical? I have the self-esteem of like... a blobfish. Do you have an older sister? Multiple. Favorite song by Owl City? I like "Fireflies" and "Hot Air Balloon." What color is your mum’s car? White. Where do you keep your kitty litter box? In the hallway that connects the bathroom and kitchen. Are you a lighter complexion than your father? I AM MUCH MUCH LIGHTER. My dad is really dark-skinned from being a mailman for all my life. Always being outside does it. His arms especially are really really tan from sticking them out the window. Do you like apricots? Noooo. Do you like kinky sex? Never tried anything kinky before, so wouldn't know. What country were you born in? The U.S.A. Solid soap bar or liquid body wash? LIQUID. Bar soap grosses me out, even though it's... yeah, soap. Like multiple people (if you live with others, anyway) are rubbing that on their body, no thanks. Do you believe being gay is a choice or a “disorder”? Neither; I believe it's a mutation. How many birds can you name just by looking at them? Uhhh jaybirds... cardinals... bald eagles... crows, ravens... vultures... peacocks... Victoria crowned pigeons... barn owls, horned owls, snowy owls... probably others. There's so many, I'm not musing over it forever. Which birds are most common around your neighborhood? I don't live in a "neighborhood." But you see lots of crows in this area. If you don’t understand a reference in something, do you look it up? Sometimes. Depends on what it is, how interesting it is. Are you the kind of person to look at accident sites, when passing them by? Morbid curiosity gets the better of me here. Did you ever make dolls or hand puppets in primary/elementary school? Yeah. When you were little, what sorts of make belief did you play? Y'ALL I did the weirdest shit. I remember I loved mimicking A Bug's Life by taking a leaf and placing things like seeds and stuff on it, my little sister and I enjoyed "cooking" with plastic food and our oven set, we liked playing house with friends, OMG I FORGOT ABOUT HOW WE USED TO LOVE BEING MERMAIDS IN THE POOL, uhhh. Idr, there's other stuff for sure. I was really creative as a kid and loved playing make believe. Has a friend’s parent ever given you a present just because? I don't think "just because." What do you do with clothes you can’t wear anymore? We donate them, give them away to friends if they like something, or, when it comes to our favorite shirts, my mom has actually been working on creating a big blanket out of them since we were kids. I hope she finishes before her time's up. What is something you’re very particular about? How my food is prepared. What is your dearest stuffed animal that you own? Why is that? My moose Brownie from Cabela's in Ohio. I ALWAYS slept hugging him as a little kid and even teenager until Jason got me Rebel the meerkat. He's still on my dresser. Name something awesome from another culture that is not part of yours: Oh man, idk. When at a Chinese or Japanese restaurant, do you use chopsticks? I have pretty intense tremors. I could NEVER use chopsticks. What’s something you can’t wait for about growing old? Um, nothing? Nothing about being elderly seems fun. How do you expect your life to go like? How are you ensuring that? Ideally, it would be defined by contentment and success. I want to know financial peace, stability, and pride in what I've accomplished. I'm trying my damnedest to ensure this by going back to school, trying as hard as I can to push my photography, and work on my mental health. Or do you just wing it as you go? NO. I've always had plans and goals, and I act on the desire to achieve them. The only time I was truly "winging it" was during my suicidal depression phase after the breakup. I was literally too busy wanting to die but being too afraid to and so lost and hopeless that I didn't know what to do. What’s a yard game that you still enjoy playing as an adult? Hunny I don't go outside rip. What do you think is the most interesting sea creature? Portuguese man-o-war, probably. They don't have a fucking brain yet are alive????? And deadly as a mfer????? How do you reset your head to zero, so to speak? Sleep. Have you ever gone exploring an abandoned building? Well, shacks. Are there any foreign television shows you enjoy watching? Some anime. What’s your favorite way to spend a weekend? I don't think I have a set "favorite" way. What’s your “Death Row Meal”? I mean, it'd depend on what I wanted at the time? Do you like going to the movies or prefer watching at home? I strongly prefer going to the theater. Don't really know why, though... I guess the setting, being in the dark and watching on a huge screen? When you were a kid, did you eat the crusts on your sandwich or not? Yeah. I've never minded crust. What activity instantly calms you? Car rides where I can blare my music. Ideally, how would you spend your birthday? It'd depend on what I was up for that day. But definitely doing things with friends and family. What’s the best joke you’ve ever heard? Idk. I don't really like traditional jokes. Be witty. What’s the career highlight you’re most proud of? Ha. Do you think you’ll stay at your current company awhile? Why or why not? N/A How would your 10-year-old self react to what you do? That's like the most depressing thought possible lmao. What do you remember most about your first job? The fact I can't do customer service. All I remember is the anxiety. Did you start working immediately after finishing school? Why or why not? No. I just wasn't ready. What’s the worst job you’ve ever had? I lasted two hours in a deli in a constant state of panic. Guess. What’s the best career decision you’ve ever made? Going back to school for a degree. What’s the worst career decision you’ve ever made? Trying the deli. How much time do you spend with your family? Like... none, almost ever. We all live in different places. Who do you most like spending time with and why? In my family? My mom, because we relate on a lot and just generally get along. Were you close with your family growing up? My immediate family, yes. How do you define your family now? Distant. What traits are most important to you in your family members? Being accepting and open-minded. And supportive. Who are you the closest to and why? My mom. I live with her and she's supported and loved me through everything. Do you want a family of your own? Why does "family" always have to mean including kids? I don't want any. I just want my s/o and pets. What’s your favorite family tradition? We don't really have any anymore. If you could change your relationship with a family member, would you? If so, with whom? Yes, with my oldest sister. She pretty much disowned me at one point, we reconnected, but I'm pretty sure she doesn't like me again. We are VERY similar according to Mom, so it'd be nice to be close with her, but. What’s your favorite family memory? As a family... uh. Idk. Probably some times we were all in the pool together when my parents were still together, having fun. What TV family most reminds you of your own? *shrugs* Do you ever wish you were raised differently? In some ways, yes. Chores absolutely needed to be more enforced. What’s the best piece of advice a family member has given you? Idk, I'm sure something my mom said about moving on from things. Do you wish you had more siblings? If so, why? I wish I had a little brother, but one I was still relatively close in age with. I would've rocked that protective big sister over slightly-younger bro jazz. It would've been cool to have another kid to play with, especially a guy instead of a relatively girly-girl; not trying to make any pre-judgments about an imaginary kid, but you get it. Stereotypes and all. It would've been nice to have a more boyish sibling. Did you ever hide anything from or lie to your parents? Yeah. If you had a family business, what would it be? That would never happen in my family. Do you and your family have any nicknames for each other? Nothing out of the ordinary; ex. they usually just call me "Britt," but it's clear and reasonable why. What’s your favorite way to spend time with your family? I mean it varies. My parents are divorced and best apart so we're never really "together" unless we're at my older sister's house for birthday parties or holidays. That's the only time we're really *all* together. How do you show your family you love them? Always being there to listen or offer a signature bearhug. Have you ever been to a family reunion? Noooo, our extended family is littered all throughout the country. What’s the most important holiday you spend with your family and why? Christmas. It just reminds me of being a kid again. Who in your family would you describe as a “character”? Ho boy, my grandma. It's hurting lately to think of her as a "character" now though, seeing as she's dying of cancer now. She starts chemo soon, but this one's a death sentence regardless. It's spread too much. My relationship with her is strained and difficult, but I care for her nonetheless, and I worry that I'm really going to feel it all crash when she dies and I probably won't be there due to distance and school. What’s something your family would be surprised to learn about you? Shit, my family doesn't know most big things about me, I think; not because they don't care, but because I'm embarrassed of hobbies and interests and thus secretive. Only my mom knows mostly everything. I guess more than anything, uhhh... I'm no longer a Christian? I was raised religious, so most probably just assume I still am, and I don't just go around talking about how I dropped my faith. Which family member do you confide in most? Mom. If you had only one sense (hearing, touch, sight, etc.), which would you want? Sight, I think. What’s the first thing you look for in a partner and/or friend? A friendly, likable personality. When was the last time you shaved your legs? Oh wow, not since... around my birthday in February. The last person to say they loved you? Mom. Last thing received in the mail? For me, school textbooks. Do you have any famous relatives? Only ancestors. I consider "relatives" different/closer. Have you ever had sex in a public place? No. Have you ever been searched by the cops? It was either staff or police who did so the numerous times I went into the hospital and ER for my mental state. Are you any good at math? NOOOOOOOOOOOOOO. Do you draw your name in the sand when you go to the beach? No. Have you ever been awake for 48 hours straight? No. Well, I think. Do you remember the most naughty night of your life? Yes. Have you gone to college/uni? What is/was your major? I'm in college now! My major in this school is organismal biology because they don't have zoology. I'm getting what I need here and then going to a university for zoology. What color is your best friend’s hair? Brown. Where were you going the last time you were a passenger in a car? Yesterday otw home from school. Have you ever dated someone who had a kid from a previous relationship? No, and I wouldn't. What was the last event that was a turning point in your life? Going back to school! :') What’s your favorite setting in nature? (mountains, beach, desert, etc…) M O U N T A I N S  M O T H E R F U C K E R What hair color is most common in your family? BROWN. Almost everyone is brown-haired. For how long has your favorite band been your favorite? Damn, it's been Ozzy Osbourne since 6th or 7th grade, and I'm 23 now. He probably always will be. I'm hopefully seeing him next year and I'm!!!!!!!! not!!!!!!!!!! prepared!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Do you have any photos on your refrigerator? What are they of? Yeah. There's numerous of my older sister and her fam, plus my grandmother and her husband. Maybe others, idr. What color are the pillows on your couch? We don't have pillows on there. Have you ever gone more than 5 years without going to the dentist? No. My mom always makes sure her kids keep up with health check-ups. Do you have a hard time sleeping when you’re away from home? It depends on the emotional and physical comfort of where I am, really. Do you know anyone who got engaged while still in high school? I believe so. Are you friendly to retail employees? Honestly, fuck you if you're not for no good reason. Half the shit you complain about isn't their goddamn fault. Do you know anyone who litters? Not regularly, no. I wouldn't associate with them, I don't care how simple that sounds. However, I kept my mouth shut at my nephew's last b-day party because the kids let balloons up into the air; they tend to end up on beaches or in the ocean, so technically, it's littering, but I didn't want to seem like an asshole. I'm certain my sister didn't really think about that though, or else she wouldn't have allowed it. Do you think your neighbors have any complaints about living near you? No. We don't do any harm. The dogs bark sometimes, but not obnoxiously loud to where you can hear it if you're in your house. What was the last kind of soup you ate? I tried canned vegetable soup when my tongue piercing was healing, but I didn't like it. Where do you usually buy groceries from? Wal-Mart or Harris Teeter, depending on a few circumstances. What’s your favorite candy? Reese's if you include chocolate, strawberry Sour Punch Straws if not. Have you ever gone to a strip club? No, not my kinda scene. Are you jealous of anyone? *Envious, yes. Last song listened to? why????? do i like????????? "love rhymes with fuck you" by j star??????????? Do you take vitamins daily? No; only on Sunday I take a vit. d pill because otherwise I'm severely deprived. Is anyone jealous of you? I HIGHLY doubt that, homie. Last CD you listened to? Metallica's "Ride The Lightning" album when Mom and I were otw to my therapist once and my iPod wasn't working. This was FOREVER ago and I'm pretty sure it's still in there, lmao. Is there something you want to tell someone? I'm going to die wanting to see Jason one final time and apologize to him for how I treated him after the break-up. When you eat Frosted Flakes, do you add sugar in it? NOOOOOOO not a fan of Frosted Flakes. How many kids do you want to have? Zero. Have you ever gone behind your parents' backs? I actually don't think so... Who’s the biggest hugger you know? Ashley's huband's grandma will give you a hug even if she met you for only five seconds. Not a bad thing, it's just kinda uncomfortable. Where did you get your worst scar from? Surgery. Do you name your stuffed animals? Some. Have you ever been to Disney World? Yes. What is your favorite roller coaster, and where is it? My ass will not sit in a roller coaster, probably ever. What is your favorite state? From what I've seen, I find Utah the prettiest. Do you own any form of a Gameboy? I have a red Gameboy Advance that somehow still works. How is the world going to end? I find a meteor striking to be most likely, or we're swallowed by a black hole. Do you have any pets? Do you want any/more? Yes, and I do want another ball python morph, as well as a bearded dragon. Though if/when Sara and I move in together, Doris will be enough for a beardie, oml I love that sassy baby. :') <3 How did you find out about Myspace? Probably my older sister, or classmates. Are you careless with your information on the internet? "Maybe by some people’s standards." <<< Change "maybe" to "probably" for me, lol. I'm trying to improve, though. Have you ever owned a lava lamp? No, but my older sis had one as a teen. I want one SO BADLY. Is it better to color with markers, crayons, or colored pencils? Colored pencils, by far. Do you like to draw or write better? Write. I get more satisfaction out of drawing something I like, but I draw so rarely because I'm painfully critical over what I make. Do you have a favorite cousin? No. Can you knit? No. Are you interested in more than one person at the moment? Nope. Who are your last three missed calls from? Mom, Mom, and a number I didn't recognize. What’s the biggest upcoming event for you? I dunno. Have you hung out with any guys recently? No, but I miss Girt, so I should invite him over some time soon. Do you like your school? I love my school. They are very invested into their students' success, as well as being a community. Who’s the weirdest teacher at your school? I wouldn't know, I've only been here a month. Do you have nightmares often? Apparently. Mom sleeps on the couch right outside my door, and I spook her quite a lot by waking up screaming or attacking my bed, she says. Thank God I don't tend to remember them. Clarification, they're not night terrors or anything like that. I'm just pretty active in my sleep, such as talking and such. Can you remember how old you were when your appearance started to matter? I was kinda self-conscious in middle school 'cuz BOY was I an ugly duckling. How frequently do you pee at night? I almost without fail get up once a night to go. Do you name your pet fish, if you have any? N/A Do your parents care about you cussing? Dad doesn't, but Mom does about "severe" words, so I try to censor myself around her. Who is your favorite person in the world? Sara. Who do you spend most of your time with? I live only with my mother, so. Is there a stuffed animal you still take places with you? No. Last insult you received? Idk. Have you ever eaten Pop Rocks and drank Coca-Cola at the same time? Yoooo I think I did once at a b-day party, but not a lot bc I was scared lmao. At concerts, do you buy merch? I've only been to one, but I did. I would if I went to more. I've missed some fucking amazing bands' concerts this past year, and it's really annoying me now. Are you gullible? Not really. Do you get excited easily? No. Are you a headbanger? No, I'd get dizzy with a headache on board. First concert you went to? Alice Cooper. What venue was that at? Somewhere in Raleigh, idr. Have you ever been out of state for a concert? No. Are you fascinated by outer space? I don't know a person who isn't. It's very intriguing. Do you shop for new clothes each season? No. Is your hair dyed right now? If so, what color is it? No, but damn I want to. I wanna dye it lilac. I just need a professional to do it. Do you look up your symptoms online whenever you have a problem? Not "whenever," no. I typically just ask Mom. Do you eat enough fruits and vegetables? No. Definitely not vegetables. Do you have dreams that you’re not giving up on? Being truly content with my life one day. Do you think your hair looks better up or down? It's too short to go up. Do you like bare trees or green-leaved trees better? I prefer autumn trees. What season would you want to get married in? October/November, preferably, when the trees are all pretty. <3 What does your favorite stuffed animal look like? I have three "favorites," those being Brownie, Plum, and Rebel. I've already talked about Brownie the moose, then Plum is a stuffed snake from Sara that she'd had growing up, and Rebel is my stuffed meerkat from Jason that I always slept with while we were together and for a very long time after the break-up. He was a big comfort to me, and though he's a bittersweet stuffed animal now, idk. A lot of memories. His fur is all matted and you can just tell that fella has seen some love. Do you collect anything? Meerkat & Silent Hill stuff. What was the last book you read? I'm almost done with The Handmaid's Tale for school, and it is fucking phenomenal, coming from someone whose love for reading slipped away long ago. I have never in my life read a book with such vivid imagery and description. When was the last time you moved to a new house? The beginning of 2017. How long was your longest relationship? 3 1/2 years. Tell me about how your parents met. How old were they? They met through work. Idk how old they were, somewhere in their 30s, probably. What makes your bedroom special to you/what is your favorite part about it? It is VERY personalized; my room is looooaaaaded with shit relating to me and my interests, and that's what I love about it. It's very homey to me, surrounded by my passions. When washing your hands, do you wet your hands or put soap on first? I put soap on first. When was the hardest you ever cried? What was the circumstance? I think the night of the breakup, when Mom essentially dragged me home from trying to walk to his house to talk. I entirely fell apart. When it comes to school, how motivated are you to work? It depends on where I am, actually. I'm at school for hours most days because my schedule fits into Mom's to avoid driving back and forth, and while I'm waiting in the library, I'm very motivated, even a bit obsessive. Meanwhile, at home, I don't want to work like... at all. I'm so used to this being my chill place. Do you know any high school sweethearts? How’s life treating them? My sister and her husband dated for a while in HS, actually, and they seem just fine. I'm sure my former friend and her husband are still together, and they've dated since middle school. I haven't had contact with her for like a year or so now though so idk how they are. Where do you usually buy your clothes? HotTopic or Wal-Mart. If you had to be a school teacher, which subject would you teach? Science, probably. But God FORBID I ever be a teacher; I wouldn't last. Which is the scariest ride you have ever been on in a theme park? Whatever that ride is where you sit in a bunch of chairs in a circle, go up way too damn high, and drop. I did it as a yolo even though I was terrified, and yeah, I screamed way too fucking loud. Never again.

[shay-iamiam]

°Still°

Pairings: Boxer!Bucky x poc!reader (Can be read if your not a Poc! You won't go bald 😂. )

Warnings: Smut and Fluff 18+

A/N: I dont want to "mansplain" myself so I'll be putting my A/N at the end.

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°If I told you this was only gonna hurt

If I warned you that the fire's gonna burn

Would you walk in?

Would you let me do it first?

Do it all in the name of love°

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“Sugar come on now don't be mad at me. You know I did it for us, you know that baby?”

“Buck, you know I don’t care about the damn money, I hate seeing you come home every night  with a black eye or a broken nose every week.”

Fighting, it was one word you had heard ever since you were a kid. Growing up dirt poor  in a small town didn’t exactly scream “I got it easy”.

Your mom worked at the local library and bartended on weekends just to make ends meet. Your dad skipped out when you were ten.

Life was never easy for anyone in the small town. The majority of your clothes were hand me downs and goodwill was were you did your back to school shopping.

You knew life wouldn’t be a walk in the park for you ever since you could remember, but when you met Bucky you started to become optomistic. Maybe the card’s could fold in your favor.

Working two jobs one bartending at a local restaurant and the other working at the library on the weekends. You and Bucky struggled to make ends meet. You all decided together that you wanted to leave the small town behind.

“Come on Y/N don’t be mad at me.” He leaned down to kiss you.

Trying to make light of the situation. Bucky decided to take up boxing a “quick way to make cash” was the way he put it.

He wanted to leave town as much as you did. He felt like you deserved the world, he always felt bad that he couldn’t even give a you slice of it.

Good jobs in your town where hard to come by, neither one if you could afford college

“Come on Buck stop it I’m not doing shit with you tonight.” You rolled out of his arms and marched to the bedroom. Nothing was going to happen tonight.

You walked off to your bedroom. You hated what he was doing; tearing himself apart for you.

Bucky let you sit alone for awhile giving you enough time to calm down and not tear him a new one. He entered your shared to find you sitting against the headboard. You looked p at him to find a small smile adoring his face.

“Come on sugar at least give me some sugar.”  He laughed out loud at his own joke, Bucky always had terrible sense of humor you couldn’t help but laugh with him, all your previous anger disappearing.

You scotted towards of the bed and wrapping your legs around Bucky backside.

Knowing you both needed this tonight, being in each other arms for the first time in weeks.

Bucky worked odd jobs in between boxing trying to make ends meet. He hadn’t been home much.

The only thing you two had time for at end the end of the day was a quick peck on the lips before you sunk into the bed.

“I just hate seeing you hurt… Saving up to get out of here just doesn’t seem worth it if  you literally have to kill yourself to do it.” tears had began to well up in your eyes.

Bucky worked so hard no matter what job he had.

You watched  as he chipped away at himself little by little all for the love of you.

“I know baby but I promised you that we would get out of this town. I’m going to do everything in my power to make sure it happens .” His hand gripped onto your ankles gently rubbing circles into your feet.

This man would move heaven and earth to see you happy. He didn’t care if he had to break himself in half to do it.

Bucky moved off the bed throwing off his dirty gym clothes. Today had been long for both of you; the only thing you wanted to do was be balled up in his embrace.

Following his lead you thru you let your clothes scatter on the floor, hearing the faint sound of the shower dribbling down.

One thing that you and Bucky joked about was not being able to afford some big fancy spa you both always said the shower was your “free getaway” spot.

Grabbing your robe you padded down the hallway to met Bucky in the shower. He was lend against the counter waiting for you.

“Come on sugar the water is warm.” he half heartedly joked.

“Baby you know we can’t do that the water bill will be out the roof this month.”

You rarely took long hot shower in fear the water bill would be more expensive.

“Don’t worry about that. I worked a double at the mill friday we can afford one long shower Y/N.” He grabbed the ties pulling each one slowly, pushing the fabric over your shoulders the floor softly hit the floor. Bucky’s eyes traveled up and down your naked from smiling to himself.

“I feel like we haven’t been together in awhile, come on baby get it.” he grabbed you by your hips and let you settle in the shower first.

The warm water felt amazing on your skin; it felt good steam building up quickly in the small bathroom.

If only the water could wash away your problems not only the dirt you accumulated along the day.

Bucky grabbed your loofah and loaded it up with your favorite body wash. Swiping his hands over your collarbone moving down to your breast, rubbing the soapy sponge over your nipples working his way down to your core moving slowly nodding for you to spread your legs further apart.

He worked slowly until your skin had been covered in body wash. It was like he was remembering your body again. He moved slowly over every area spending extra time gliding his hands over your skin.  

The act was  slow and simple but you couldn’t help moaning out when he run a fresh town over your folds.

His hands worked slowly as he began rubbing your inner thighs. You knew what he wanted, you wanted to feel connected to him to; remembering the way his skin felt under your hands.

Skimming his fingers he rubbed fast and slow circle on your clit causing you to throw your head back and relax against his chest.

“Bucky hold on.. Let me take care of you.” shuffling to move Bucky under the warm spray of the water. You lathered up his towel and began to glide the soapy foam over his skin just as he did for you; taking your time on every area you touched. Working your way down to his erect member.

His hand hit the shower wall with a loud thud as you counited washing over his lower half.

“Baby slow down.” his voice was horse from his fast approaching release you’d caused.

“I’m not cumming without you.”

Bucky grabbed you by the waist and hiked your leg up on the bathtub leng, parting your folds with his fingers skimming down on the sensitive area.

He scissored his fingers inside you preparing you for the stretch of his cock.

“I love you baby i’m right here with you.”

Bucky moved into you with one slow motion rolling his hips; grasping onto your breast massaging them in his hands. He moved slowly the drag of his cock along your core made your head spin.

The slow lazy pace continued until felt you appending release.

“Bucky I- I’m going to cum.” your voice was barely above a whisper. The feeling was so intense you felt as if you wouldn’t be able to breath.

Your hand smacked against the shower wall, you bgan to bounce back on his cock moaning out his name the faster you went.

Without a word Bucky spilled himself into you, his release caused your own. Your legs where shaking the feeling of his cum cok pumping inside of you caused your walls to clamp down on his cock again.

“Y/N your-your squeezing the shit out of me baby..Fuck.”

Bucky counited to spill into you his cum filling you up until it dripped on the shower floor. He slid out of you leaning his back against the shower wall.

You dropped to your knees and took him into your mouth licking up everything that was left.

Bucky eyes winded at the sight of you. He was still sensitive but with the way you looked up at him he knew he would cum again.

He grabbed your arms and yanked you back up to your feet. He pushed you against the wall and hiked your legs around his waist.

“Fuck baby the way you were sucking me, God Y/N how do you expect me to be able to calm down after the first one.”

His cock slid into your entrance again sliding in and out like there was no tomorrow.

His head dropped to crook of your neck as he continued to slide into you,knowing he was close you decide to help with his release.

“I know your close go ahead Bucky cum inside me again.”

Your words of encouragement caused Bucky release. Calling your name as he collapsed against you and the shower wall.

You snuggled into Bucky s side as you listen to rain drip down on the earth. Not remembering the last time you held each other in a warm embrace.

“Baby?”  Bucky’s voice broke the silence in the room. You turned to your side to face him.

“You know I would do anything for you. And if that means comin home with a couple of bruise every night than by all means that’s what I’ll do. I made a promise to that we could leave this town together. I don’t care how hard it gets I’ll do everything I  possibly can do to make it happen.”

You knew not to fight Bucky. When he made a decision it was final it was almost impossible to change his mind especially when it was something regarding to you.

“I love you baby I just hate seeing you hurt.” you skimmed your fingers across his lips. “I know you wont stop so i’ll be behind you every step of the way.

“Thank you Y/N, without you I would have gone insane.”

“Well we can be crazy together baby.. I’ll be anything for you.”

Part 2

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°A/N: I hope this clears up any confusion. I'm rewriting this series! I stared this a couple of months ago. But at the time I was writing for validation from others and not for the enjoyment of myself😌. I'll be writing this series because I genuinely want to! So I'll be finishing this series it's only going to be around five parts. °

°The next part is actually already written (Y'all I never do that 👀°

°I was going back and forth on the whole tagging people thing. But if you would really like to be tagged just let me know! 😌°

Feedback is beautiful and amazing! But if you don't want to leave any I'm pretty sure I'll live.

[saitamastamaticsoup]

Bnha boys with poc(black lowkey) s/o part kirishima

Kirishima-

👌🏿okay this cinnamon roll loves you to the moon and back

👌🏿he doesn't mind any of your quirks or anything (ducking when police come bye,flinching at people who touch your hair)

👌🏿 The first time he saw you he was already knee deep in all these natural hair articles

👌🏿he protects her hair all the time like you not stepping out without a bandanna or some sort of rag

👌🏿 he's a natural humidity blocker like he always has something to shield you

👌🏿"you gon let yo girl step out wearing this??"

"Her job is to look how she wants and slay everything she does, she not gon disappoint me"

👌🏿makes sure your style stays fresh throughout the whole day. He got your touch ups and everything

👌🏿helps you select a good style so training won't mess up your hair

👌🏿loves when you kiss the scar on his eye

👌🏿he borrows some of your eyeliner so it can match

👌🏿he becomes a whole different person when someone is being rude to you like even bakugo shudders

👌🏿if grape rat head or class b bowlcut says anything he cuts that shit off right now like black twitter is bald for weeks

👌🏿loves kissing ya neck

👌🏿he's basically DJ Kahaled

👌🏿when you do some iconic shit he's like "another one"

👌🏿everyone loves how happy you make him like he was sunshine before but you make it a different level of amazing

👌🏿if you roast in your native language he's like "white that down" bc he might not understand it but dam if you don't look good saying it(this was obviously a typo but it was too funny not to keep)

👌🏿homework dates are best dates

👌🏿also spa/wash day dates are great

👌🏿like he's the best at hair like holy shit

👌🏿water temperatures is just right,finger combs your hair so soft,Braids and twists like he was born to do it

👌🏿he lowkey takes you to the beach so you can tan with him but he's so energetic you don't notice

👌🏿he's grown up snapping back on colorism but with you by his side he's even more adamant about it(he's darkskin shut up)

👌🏿he has all the best hair routines bc his step sister has that good 4c hair too

👌🏿he's a willow smith stan

👌🏿 yall got glowing skin with black soap and cocoa butter

👌🏿 his mom makes the best soul food like wow

👌🏿he hypes you and Mina up bc honestly super models

👌🏿 speaking of Mina he sometimes gets jealous Lowkey bc yall always together

👌🏿 reminds you it's wash day

👌🏿 the bakusquad always got your back like they're ready to f I g h t

👌🏿you and bakubro get along great bc you take no shit from anyone

👌🏿grape head who?? Another side comes out of him when he speaks like kiri will instantly destroy him

👌🏿"shut the fuck up you vibrator looking bitch I will make your hairline recede even more "

👌🏿jaws are on the floor like even aizawa is like??? Shit man

👌🏿"can someone call the janitor bc I see a cockroach talking to my partner and they hate bugs"

👌🏿"beanbag looking bitch🙄🙄"

👌🏿introduces you to fatgum and tetsuX6 bc they hear about you all the time

👌🏿tetsu might as well be your older brother man he's so protecting of y'all like he's planning the wedding

👌🏿dadgum is shooketh like y'all get along so well like you guys have a secret handshake it's so cute

👌🏿he legit thought lock rock was your father

👌🏿like?????? Wdym

👌🏿at first you're like🤦🏿‍♂️ not all black People are related but you see him and you're like "understandable,have a nice day sir."

👌🏿kiri and you go see black panther and it's amazing like you scream the loudest in the theater

👌🏿fawns over t"challa with you

👌🏿"he's a whole meal" "I want him to claw my face off" "it's dinner time"

"Da strength of da thirsty is being seeped awey" "mood I'm nutting rn"

👌🏿everybody is so confused as to how you both got so good overnight 👌🏿dekusquad and the bakusquad saw the movie also so they know what's up

👌🏿Y'all wear straight outta wakanda shirts for weeks

[carrickbender]

Soggy saturday six.......

1. So I just came from a memorial service for a man who was a Kodiak legend, for whom I had worked a few years back on what was lovingly called “the gut barge”. Kodiak processes a lot of pollock, which ends up mostly as surimi, aka “imitation crab meat”. Well when there is a lot being processed, often the plant that deals with the guts, aka biodry, gets overwhelmed and cannot process it all. So, the guts of the processed pollock (and undersized pollock, and the occasional salmon) get placed on a WW2 era landing craft with giant, open topped tanks, taken 5 miles out and dumped. The actual work is pretty fun and easy-you popped the hatch on the tanks, and out came the volume of yuck. After most had drained, I would climb in and spray most of the remaining offal out of the tanks and the surrounding deck. I know it sounds gross, but there was only one part of the job that was miserable-keeping eagles off the boat. Now before I say what I’m about to say, let me be perfectly clear- I love nature. I love being able to go to work and see the grandeur that is Alaska and the ocean. I do my best to always return to the water fish that we do not intend to harvest, and I do my best to be kind to birds. But I hate eagles (I’d say the Eagles, but I’m not the dude, and this is not a lebowski blog). Seriously, for being our national bird, they are one of nature’s biggest trash birds. Here, you can’t not run into them at any given juncture in an outdoor activity. Add a big pile of protein like the gut barge, and they become a nuisance. Like bad. At one point I counted 35 on deck. Now I know what you are thinking, that’s kinda cool-where’s the problem? Problem is that if one or more of these buzzards become injured or observed eating off of your vessel, it becomes a national marine fisheries service issue. And a United States Fish and Wildlife service issue. And when it becomes an issue, each violation lightens ones wallet by 10k. Yikes, right? So what does this have to do with a funeral? My enduring memory of the boat owner is that of him our on deck, with a broom, shooing away bald eagles, all of whom giving him the look like, “what is this little native jackass doing, trying to scare us away. ….OH S#@T, HE’S MAKING CONTACT, FLY AWAY, FLY AWAY!!!!”. Right then and there, watching him shoosh eagles with a broom, I knew he was a nut. But a good nut. And he will be missed. 2. I am good friends with his daughter, who put together an amazing slide show of pics her dad. She and I talked for a minute, and it reminded me of how this last couple of weeks has seriously been crappy, and that we are approaching the age where we are losing our parents. Mom was the first one. After changing doctors, she had an appointment with a new fella from Wisconsin. He did a battery of tests on what was assumed to be an inflamed lymph node (thanks to a bite from a hobo spider), which occurred on a Tuesday afternoon. On Wednesday morning, they called her and told her they needed to come in the following morning for further tests. No waiting, no messing around, and urgent. Fortunately the next morning after a few more tests, it was simply a soft tissue tumor and benign. Then there's the ongoing saga of my dad. He's having serious heart issues where his valves aren't filling and emptying correctly. So he went in a couple weeks ago and they did the whole stop/restart manouver on his heart twice, which didn't work to fix the problem. So, he's going in next week to be administered a drug that is supposed to pharmacologically fix the issue. He has to be in the hospital for its course because it could kill him. And if that doesn't work, they want to try and "kick start it" again, and if that fails........re-evaluate. The truth about all of this is that I'm not ready for this. Selfish as it is, I'm not quite ready to even face their mortality. When I lose both of them, I'm alone here. I have 2 step brothers (brothers), but they're doing their own thing. I'm my mom's only child. And let's face it-it's just me. I have nothing to show for this life, and while I've lived a lot, I have no legacy. Nothing to say, "yep, Geoff is leaving this". My parents? Both can say they did-both have left their marks on their respective occupations, both recognized as giving above and beyond and excelling. Me? I can't say that I do..... 3. So if anything, facing their mortality has reinforced my needing to complete the album I've been working on. But because of being sick, a bad cod season, and sheer cost, I'm looking for alternatives for studios. I started a go fund me for this album, but I feel super cheeky doing it. I know I could use the help, but damn it feels strange asking for it. 4. But that being said, now that I feel like a human being again, I'm able to go back to work and play catch up. I have one halibut job lined up, and almost got 1 more. All of this goes for school for my merchant mariners credentials, so I can finally be qualified for a real job. Something that actually will always pay the bills. Because I'm tired of being such a nomad....I've plans so damn many times, and it seems like they've always fallen through. In rediculous ways. Like its almost a Greek tragedy. And to that, I say no more. 5. Speaking of Greek tragedies, I'm absolutely floored by the passing of the ACHA. Unlike many who voted for it, I read it. I read the ammendments(or as many as were available), and find myself sickened that most of my fellow Americans can now be put in to the category of having a pre-existing condition , and therefore be charged more for insurance, without a cap on said charges . I don't even know what to say anymore. Every time I think they have reached the limits of their inhumanity and greed, they find a new level. My question is this- what will it take for them to quit asking the question, "what's in it for me" to those who offer campaign donations, and start asking "what can I do that will benefit all of my constituents?" Because this? This wasn't it. And when will those who actually have a heart in the GOP realize that their efforts are simply making it easier for what's left of the middle class to be fleeced by corporate America by what will become one of the largest transfers of wealth in US history (may not look like it now, but medicare is next.....)??? Ok, no more politics. Lol. 6. But seriously, enough of politics. You all are amazing for listening. I know I owe at least a few of you a write back on notes, and lemme get another beverage in me tonight and I will. I look at your lives, doing big and amazing things like being single parents, owning cats(lol), facing serious health issues with poise and calm, and I just admire y'all and send as much good karma your way as possible. I know we can kick this world's ass of we do it together, and I'm rooting for all of you. Thanks for listening, and just thanks!

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GODHEAD'S DAUGHTER ELS Traveling Singing Preacher Of Righteousness

Annyeong Haseyo, Ni Ha Ma, Ohayo Or Good Morning Everyone Around The World.... This Is What People Of Racism Get!!! TO REVOLT ON MY HEAVENLY FATHER GOD ELOHIM CREATOR OF HEAVEN AND THE EARTH, Y'ALL NOW HAVE TO DEAL WITH HIS DAUGHTER WHO IS ULTIMATELY ONE IN HIM WHOLEHEARTEDLY FOR ALL ETERNITY!!! IT WAS ADONAI IDEA, TO FOOL OUR ENEMIES, BECAUSE I WAS TRULY HEARTBROKEN OVER MY TWIN, WHO I JUST BEGAN TO REALLY LEARN MORE ABOUT HIM, SO ADONAI CALLED MY NAME, IMMEDIATELY AFTER THE CORNERS, CAME AND GOT HIS BODY, BUT CHECK THIS OUT, THE VERY AMBULANCE TOLD US THAT THEIR DOCTORS MADE THE CALL NOT TO PUT THE BREATHING MACHINE ON HIM, JUST BECAUSE HE WAS A YOUNG DEARLY, BELOVED CHOSEN BY GODHEAD PRECIOUS ANOINTED PROPHET OF GODHEAD, THAT WAS BLACK, BUT HE TOO WAS A MIXED BREED!!! STARING DOWN ALL OUR ENEMIES WHO TOLD BALD HEAD LIES TO OUR FACES, FILLED WITH SO MUCH ANGER, GOD REALLY GOT MY ATTENTION THAT NIGHT, SO I RAN INTO MY HEAVENLY FATHER GOD ARMS, BECAUSE I KNEW THIS ONE THING MY ANGER, WAS VERY TERRIBLE BACK THEN AND I DIDN'T KNOW HOW TO CONTROL IT!!! SO EVERY TRIAL THAT CAME MY WAY, I LEARN TO SEEK GOD EVEN MORE. THE MORE DUMB, OUR ENEMIES BECAME THE MORE I BECAME DETERMINED TO UNDERSTAND MY KING OF GLORY LORD JESUS CHRIST OF NAZARETH, MY VERY DEARLY, PEACEFUL, VERY POWERFUL, LOVING CHERISHED HUSBAND ALPHA AND OMEGA HEART... IT'S TRUE GENTILES ALL OVER THE WORLD[ THE TRUE OUTSIDERS OF GODHEAD YAHWEH, AND YESHUA KINGDOM OF HEAVEN CREW, IN HEAVEN AND ON EARTH TOGETHER FINALLY!!!! IT'S VERY FUNNY, NOW BECAUSE THEIR WAS ONLY ONE TIME MY FATHER GOD WAS MAD AT ME, AND IT'S A CERTAIN YEARS AGO, BUT WHEN ADONAI, LITERALLY STATED TO ME SAYING THIS" WHY DO I HAVE TO KEEP TALKING TO YOU LIKE THIS, I DIDN'T HAVE TO TELL YOU THIS AS A CHILD!!! BEING REBUKED, BY MY ABEOJI FATHER GOD, I QUICKLY REPENTED, AND DECIDED TO CHANGE EVERYTHING ABOUT MYSELF, JUST TO MAKE MY HEAVENLY FATHER GOD PROUD OF ME IN EVERYTHING IN THIS LIFETIME!!! I NEVER CARED TO BE LIKE OTHERS, BECAUSE I TOLD MY HEAVENLY FATHER GOD FAMILY, I NEVER THOUGHT IT MADE SENSE TRYING TO BE LIKE ANOTHER HUMAN BEING, IT'S JUST A IMITATION OF THE REAL BEING!!!! SO I STARTED TO REALLY CONSIDER GODHEAD YAHWEH AND YESHUA, BECAUSE MY NAME GOD GAVE MY PARENTS OUR NAMES, BUT SPECIFICALLY FATHER NAMED ME PERSONALLY. SO I COULD NEVER CARE TO BE ACCEPTED BY A WICKED SOUL FROM HELL, CAUSE I WILL BLAST THE WHOLE DAMN TERRITORY DOWN, CRUMBLING TO HELL ITSELF!!! ALL THOSE BELOVED SOULS FROM GENESIS TO REVELATION ALL THE WAY TO MY VERY OWN YEAR I WAS BORN IN!!! PEOPLE CHOSE THE CREATURE BECAUSE THEY NEVER LOVED GODHEAD IN THE FIRST PLACE, AND IN FACT, THEY REALLY HATED BABY LORD JESUS CHRIST OF NAZARETH, MORE BEFORE HE CAME TO DESTROY THE WORKS OF THE DEVIL, WHILE ALSO TEACHING PEOPLE[MANKIND YOUR FOCUS SHOULD BE ON STUDY THE HOLY BIBLE TO KNOW THE OWNER OF THIS WORLD FOR YOURSELVES [ELOHIM HIS MAJESTY, THE REAL SUPREME BIG BOSS MAN OF CREATION ITSELF!!! SADLY IT IS AMERICA FAULT AROUND THE WORLD WHO CAUSED THIS DISTURBANCE, IN THE ENTIRE UNIVERSE, BECAUSE AS A CHILD I KNEW THE DIFFERENCE OF WHO WAS RIGHTEOUS, AND WHO WAS WICKED!!! GODHEAD DESIGNED ME, SPECIALLY THIS WAY, TO HELP OUR LOVING FAMILY IN THIS WORLD, TO OBTAIN THEIR GOD GIVEN INHERITANCE TO THEM... BUT HOWEVER, YOU ALL HAVE TO SEEK GODHEAD WHOLEHEARTEDLY LIKE MY HUSBAND ALPHA AND OMEGA TOLD YOU ALL IN THOSE 4 BOOKS MATTHEW -MARK!!! NO ONE CAN BLAME, ANYONE ON NOTHING ANYMORE, WHO YOU CHOSE TO SERVE, OR CHOOSE TO SERVE IS YOUR CHOSE, BUT I JUST REFUSE TO JUST SIT BACK AND DEAL WITH THESE STUPID DECEPTIVE BASTARD WAYS!!! BECAUSE ACTUALLY DONALD TRUMP = DAISY TRUMP IN OFFICE [HE'S A GIRL, PEOPLE!!! BECAUSE YAHWEH ALWAYS HAD ME TO BE CLOSE TO PEOPLE OF 1970, BECAUSE THEY REALIZED I WAS MY AGE AND HEIGHT, BUT I NEVER LIKED GOSSIPERS, THAT'S NOT HOW WE JOINT-HEIRS WITH OUR LORD AND SAVIOR JESUS CHRIST KING OF GLORY, LIVE IN THIS LIFE!!! REAL MEN AND REAL WOMEN, TRUE HOLY PEOPLE OF GODHEAD CLINGED TO ME, AND I TO THEM BECAUSE WE SENSED WE WHERE FAMILY SPIRITUALLY TOO... SO TECHNICALLY EVEN THOUGH YOU WHERE ACROSS SEAS AND IN AMERICA TOO, GODHEAD MADE IT TO WHERE BOAZ AND I WHERE STILL IN THIS WORLD TO SHOW YOU ALL LOVE IS ALWAYS IN CONTROL, AND NO ONE, AND NO THING ON OR UNDER THIS EARTH, CAN STOP, THE UNSTOPPABLE, UNSHAKABLE, AND UNTOUCHABLE ANCIENT OF DAYS [EL ELYON- MY TOUSAN, HE'S VERY LOVING, BUT WHEN YOU DEFY HIS VERY OWN ORDER, HE'S OH SO VERY DREADFUL... THAT Y'ALL PIST MY DAD OFF LAST YEAR, THAT I FEARED EVEN GETTING OUT OF THE BED, IT SHOOK MY VERY SOUL, BECAUSE NO ONE HAVE THE RIGHT TO ANGER MY DADDY GOD, TO A LEVEL THAT IT'S SO FIERCE, I THOUGHT I WOULD SEE HIM STEP ON EARTH LITERALLY!!!! Y'ALL LOVE LUST SO MUCH, THAT YOU ALL ARE DAMNED TO HELL, FOR ALL ETERNITY, IT'S FOR EVERYTHING YOU ALL EVERY DID IN THE DAY AND IN THE NIGHT, THINKING WE DIDN'T KNOW YOUR PLOTS ON MY FAMILY'S AROUND THE WORLD!!!! YOU ARE RIGHT DUMBASS BASTARDS THIS WORLD IS ON FIRE, IN FACT YOU ALL ARE IN CONSUMING FIRE EVEN AS I SPEAK... YOU ALL SET ON VIDEOS, IN MINISTRY CONVENTION, DID MOVIES, AND EVEN SET AT THE TABLES AND ATE WITH OUR DIVINE CREW FROM HEAVEN, ACTING LIKE YOU ALL WHERE FOR THEM, BUT YOU WHERE INDEED AGAINST THEM!!! THEY LAUGHED AT ME, IN THOSE HOSPITAL CHAPTERS OF MY LIFE, CAUSE I TOLD, AND TALKED ABOUT EVERYTHING, AND EVERYONE TO THEM!!! THEY CRACKED UP LAUGHING SAYING WHY DIDN'T WE KNOW ABOUT HER??? MY GREAT KING WHO REIGNS SUPREMELY IN EVERYTHING, RESTORE EVERYTHING TO EVERYONE THAT IS A CHILD OF GODHEAD EL ELYON[ A ROYAL KING & A ROYAL QUEEN , FROM THE KINGDOM OF HEAVEN, INTO THE EARTH, SO WAKE Y'ALL ASS UP ALREADY AROUND THE WORLD, STOP LETTING PEOPLE WHO ACTUALLY ARE LITTLE EMPS OR LITTLE ASS FUNKY TROLLS, TELL Y'ALL HOW TO LIVE IN GODHEAD ALONE!!! MY VERY BEAUTIFUL,AND VERY TREASURED LOVE ONES DIDN'T ABANDON ME OR YOU ALL THEY ARE RESTING FROM THAT DAMN TRADIOUS CRAP, THOSE DAMN MINISTERS AND ARTISTS FROM HELL, LU THE FALLEN DUMMIE CREW, TRICKED Y'ALL INTO THINKING YOU WHERE ALONE, Y'ALL WAS NEVER ALONE, YAHWEH AND YESHUA, ALWAYS HAVE AND ALWAYS WILL LOVE Y'ALL VERY DEARLY, BUT YOU ALL HAVE TO DECIDE WHAT IS IT YOU ALL REALLY DESIRE TO HAVE NOW??? 2 OPTIONS ONLY MAKE IT COUNT, CAUSE WHEN MY HUSBAND ALPHA AND OMEGA RETURNS HE WON'T BE PLAYING WITH NO DAMN BODY!!!![1(MATTHEW 6[ THE KINGDOM OF HEAVEN LIFESTYLE,LIVING IN GODHEAD ELOHIM HIS MAJESTY FOR ALL ETERNITY [EVERLASTING LIFE]... OR [2(ROMANS 1[the dumpster kingdom of darkness living in lust LOVING DOING EVIL TO EVERYONE=DEATH AND DESTRUCTION FOR YOUR SHREDDED IN PIECES DISOBEDIENT ASS SOUL]!!! [NO ONE IS PLAYING WITH NO BODY, IN THIS WORLD THAT HAS CHOSEN TO REALLY HATE THE VERY SEED WHETHER IT WAS JUST A BELOVED,PRECIOUS,TREASURED DAD, OR A MOM, WHO REALLY JUST TAUGHT YOU TRUE LOVE IS CONTENT IN JUST DOING RIGHT WITH THE MAN AMONG MEN, MAN THAT'S JUST PERFECTLY FOR YOU[ELS]... ABEOJI NEM KNOW I SEE, I WAS RIGHT ABOUT WHEN A CHILD IS 18 YRS OLD THEY SHOULD HAVE ONLY THEIR VERY OWN ACCOUNTS, SO THAT WHEN THEIR SPOUSE'S SHOW UP, THEY CAN HELP EACH OTHER, IN SAYING WHAT'S MINE'S IS YOURS, AND WHAT'S YOURS IS MINE'S MY LOVE!!! THROUGH THOSE CHALLENGES I LEARNED THIS EVERYONE IN THIS WORLD, NO MATTER WHO HAS MONEY OR DON'T, AS LONG AS YOUR HEART IS ONE IN GODHEAD, AND YOUR HEART'S DESIRE IS FATHER'S GOD ULTMATE SUPREME KING OF THE UNIVERSE... HIS MAJESTY WILL SEE TO IT, PERSONALLY THAT YOU HAVE EVERYTHING THAT'S YOURS, EVEN IF THAT ENEMY HAS TO DIE OFF OF THE FACE OF THE EARTH THIS DAY, AND EVERY SECOND,EVERY MINUTE, AND EVERY HOUR OF OUR GLORIOUS DAYS WITH THE KINGDOM OF HEAVEN CREW, Y'ALL WEEDS, AND TARES IS MADE AN EXAMPLE OF IN THESE DAYS... SO DON'T THINK YOUR CRIMES, WON'T BE BROUGHT INTO HIS VERY MARVELOUS,VERY BEAUTIFUL, VERY SHINNY, VERY MIGHTY,AND VERY POWERFUL LIGHT [ALPHA AND OMEGA MY LORD AND SAVIOR JESUS CHRIST KING OF GLORY, MY ONE AND ONLY TRUE LOVER OF MY SOUL FOR ALL ETERNITY, WILL SEE TO THIS ONE FACT ALONE.... THAT EVERYONE IN THIS WORLD WILL GIVE AN ACCOUNT OF USING THE HOLY BIBLE SCRIPTURES TO CORRUPT OTHER SOULS AROUND THE WORLD... DO Y'ALL NOT KNOW HOW MANY INNOCENT PEOPLE REALLY DIED, COMMITED SUICIDE BECAUSE YOU EVIL ASS DAMN BULLIES IN THIS WORLD!!! IT'S THE VERY ARTIST Y'ALL HAVE BEEN IDOLIZING, THE VERY MINISTERS TOO YALLHAVE BEEN SAYING AMEN TOO.... BUT HERE THIS YOU MASON BASTARDS, THE DAMNATION ON Y'ALL HEADS, IS MORE DESTRUCTIVE THEN Y'ALL WICKED ASS COULD EVER IMAGINE!!! NOT KNOWING THIS SECRET ALONE[ IT'S WAS MY FATHER GOD IDEA TO SEND ME INTO ALL OF THE FATHER OF LIES SATAN TERRITORY ITSELF, JUST TO INVESTIGATE YOUR VERY OWN COMPANY'S IN AMERICA... STUPIDLY YOUR CHILDREN PIST ME OFF EVERYTIME, AND THEY KNEW, I'M THAT CHILD FROM LONG AGO, EDDY MURPHY THAT GIRL TOO, PROTECTED A CERTAIN CHILD, BUT I WAS PIST OFF,CAUSE I TOLD MY FATHER GOD IT WAS NOT IN Y'ALL HANDS TO PUT OUT OUR STUFF, ABOUT CERTAIN THINGS... IF ONLY YOU ALL ACROSS SEAS REALLY, UNDERSTAND BOAZ AND MY HEART THROUGH THE SPIRIT OF TRUTH, THE SPIRIT OF GODHEAD, IT WAS NEVER SUPPOSE TO BE ANOTHER SHADY UNDERCOVER WORLD WAR ATTACK NO ONE, WE WHERE BORN INTO THIS WORLD THE CHOSEN GENERATION OF GODHEAD THE KINGDOM OF HEAVEN, WE DEFIED EVERYTHING OPPOSITE OF THE HOLY BIBLE, WE ALWAYS HAVE, AND WE ALWAYS WILL WHOLEHEARTEDLY WITH OUR HEAVENLY FATHER GOD ELOHIM HELPING US IN ONE ACCORD TO FULLY LOVE WHAT OUR ABEOJI LOVE'S ,AND TO FULLY HATE WHAT OUR TOUSAN HATE'S!!!! DESPISING THE VERY CORE OF DISOBEDIENCE, IS THE DEFINITION OF ME[ QUEEN ELIZABETH L.SMITH], BOAZ MY LOVE I PRAY I HAVEN'T MADE IT HARD ON YOU ALL MY LOVE, BUT SOMEONE HAS TO, STAND UP AND STAND OUT IN AMERICA, EVEN IT'S JUST THE KINGDOM OF HEAVEN CREW WITH US TRAVELING PREACHERS OF THE KINGDOM OF HEAVEN CREW, JOINING HANDS TOGETHER TO DRIVE THESE WICKED ASS BASTARDS OUT AND DOWN BACK INTO THE VERY PLACE THEY CAME FROM!!! BUT THIS TIME, NO FAMILAR SPIRIT FROM HELL, WON'T BE RETURNING, IT IS YOUR VERY TRUE AND FINAL DESTRUCTIVE END, JUST SPECIALLY FOR Y'ALL WICKED ASS SORCERER'S!!!! DO Y'ALL NOT UNDERSTAND DOING THAT TRIGGERS THE VERY ANGER OF MINE IN THIS EARTH, I TOLD YALL I WAS TORMENTED FOR YEARS, HAVING SLEEPING PROBLEMS, BECAUSE PEOPLE WHERE MESSING WITH MY FAMILY, AND I SENSED IT, SO IMMEDIATELY MY ABEOJI HEAVENLY FATHER GOD TRAINED ME STRICTLY, TO NEGATE YOUR DAMN TRAP CRAP!!! SHOULD WE REALLY HAVE TO SHUT DOWN EVERY DAMN COMPANY Y'ALL HAVE IN THIS WORLD, THAN SO BE IT, WE WILL PERSONALLY MAKE SURE YOUR DAMN ASS, AND YOUR DAMNED COMPANY'S GET SENT TO HELL RIGHT ALONG WITH Y'ALL CROOKED ASS!!!! WE DON'T LIE, CAUSE LIES =DEATH DUMBASS DUMPSTER BASTARDS!!! AND YOU KNOW I'M GETTING ALL OF THESE DAMN FITHLY ASS HELL CREEPING THING CHILDREN OF HIS= THEIR RACIST ASS HAS AND ALWAYS WILL HAVE THE COOTIES[LOVL LAUGHING OUT VERY LOUD]... I'M FROM THAT GENERATION, WE TALKED ABOUT YOUR DUMBASS STRAIGHT IN YOUR FACE AND AROUND YOU, BECAUSE IT'S OUR WAY OF SAYING DON'T BE STUPID, YOU TRIFLE WITH ANYONE OF US, WHILE I WAS NOT AROUND, AND I FOUND OUT ABOUT IT, OH IT WAS AND IS GOING TO BE ALL OF THE ELEMENTS ON,UP,LEFT,RIGHT,AND DOWN YOUR BACKSTABBING FUNKY STRINGS ATTACHED ELVE'S FROM HELL LOOKING ASS!!! I TOLD EVERYONE, I DON'T GIVE A DAMN ABOUT YOU LOVING EACH OTHER IN A SICK MINDED TWISTED ASS WAY, BUT PUTTING THAT DAMN X IN FRONT OF MY HUSBAND ALPHA AND OMEGA MONTH OF DECEMBER... DAMN NEAR I FOR SURE HAD IT IN FOR Y'ALL DRAGON LOVING ASS, I TELL Y'ALL THIS I WILL SHOOT ELECTROMAGNETIC FUSED ELEMENTS OF ALL TYPES OF NATURES KIND, TO SHOOT THAT DAMN ONE WINGED BROKEN BACK BASTARDS ASS DOWN, ONLY JUST SO WE KOH KINGDOM OF HEAVEN CREW CAN SHOW ALL OUR ENEMIES, WHEN WE SAY, DON'T YOUR ASS DO NOTHING ABEOJI SAID NOT TO DO, YOUR STUPID ASS BETTER NOT DO IT!!!! AND THAT'S THAT, Y'ALL WICKED ASS DECEPTIVE PARENTS LIED TO Y'ALL, FOR NOT TRAINING Y'ALL CAUSE I NEVER HAD PATIENCE FOR A FALLEN ONE,OR OF ANY KIND OR NOTHING... THEY DO TOO DAMN MUCH STUFF, THEY LOVE ATTENTION JUST TO DO SOME MORE DAMN DUMB STUFF, AND Y'ALL TURN AROUND AND BRAG ABOUT THEIR DECEIVED BLIND ASS!! YAHWEH AND YESHUA IS NOT COLOR BLIND,BUT THEY DO HATE Y'ALL ASS THOUGH, CAUSE YOU'VE BEEN ROBBING PEOPLE Y'ALL BALD HEADED ASS LIVES, AND GO BUY SOME ROGAIN TO PASTE ON Y'ALL DAMN HEAD, THINKING WE DON'T KNOW THAT PATCH WAS PASTED ON YOUR LYING ASS HEAD!!! SO LET ME GET THIS RIGHT MY KING OF GLORY, THE MEN IS BEEN REALLY WOMAN, AND THE WOMAN THE MEN REALLY= BECAUSE I REALLY SAW EVERYONE TRUE IDENTITY IN THOSE 4 BATTLES!!! Y'ALL REALLY TRIFLED WITH THE WRONG CHILD OF GODHEAD EL ELYON, THEY BROKE MY 2 TEETH,HAD ME WITH MIGRAINS, EXPERIMENTED ON ME, AND EVEN MOCKED ME IN MY FACE, DON'T FORGET THEY LET ME WET ON MYSELF KNOWING I'M A VERY CLEAN WOMAN OF GODHEAD, AND DON'T FORGET THE DAMN AMNESIA, WHEN YOU TOLD THEIR DUMBASS JUDGE'S IN THE EARTH, THEY SAID YOU CAN STILL WORK EVEN MORE HARDER STILL BASICALLY, JUST BECAUSE THEY DIDN'T WANT TO PAY ME NO ASSISTANCE IN THIS VERY COUNTRY AMERICA, THAT HAS HAD A TOTAL OF 6 PRESIDENT'S ASSIGNED FROM HELL, TO GET INTO OUR VERY VERY VERY, HOLY OFFICE ANOINTED BY GODHEAD PERSONALLY TO UPHOLD HIS PRECEPTS IN THE HOLY BIBLE, TO PROTECT THIS VERY UPKEEP OF THIS WORLD ITSELF!!!! WOE UNTO YOU PERSONALLY YOU DUMBASS DAISY TRUMP, I KNEW YOUR ASS WAS A CHILD OF HATRED I STUDIED UP ON YOUR ASS IN MY EARLIER YEAR'S, I SAID TO MY FATHER GOD THAT GIRL REALLY IS VERY DAMN STUPID AND SELFISH YOU HAD THE VERY HOTEL ITSELF WHOM YOU GOT BY WHOREDOM ITSELF, AND APPRENTICE YOU AND OMAROSA, ONCE AGAIN THE SNEAKY WEASEL' S FROM HELL COLLABORATED BLACK WOMAN FROM HELL, AND WHITE MAN FROM HELL, SHE WAS YOUR HIDDEN BOOTY CALL, TO SABATOGE THE OTHER PEOPLE IN THE SHOW JUST FOR HER TO GET INTO THE SPOTLIGHT, JUST LIKE PUFFY COMBS- WHICH IS TAFFY COMBS & DAWN FROM DANITY KANE, REALLY WAS LAWN FROM HELL Y'ALL LUST STINKS YOU KNOW IT'S VERY FOWL JUST LIKE THE DUMB ASS FOWL YOU ALL ARE IN REALITY!!! Y'ALL SHOULDN'T HAVE INSTIGATED NOTHING ON 2PAC NEM, AND MR.MONROE MEN, BECAUSE THOSE VERY REAL TRUE ANOINTED PEOPLE CHOSEN BY GODHEAD WAS AND IS MY FAMILY AROUND THE WORLD FROM THE 4 CORNERS OF THE EARTH [NORTH, SOUTH,EAST, AND WEST= THE CROSS OF CALVARY MY LORD AND SAVIOR JESUS CHRIST [ALPHA AND OMEGA ,HIS WIFE IS VERY ANGRY AT EVERYTHING... LET'S SEE DO YOU ALL KNOW THIS VERY VERSE FROM THE HOLY BIBLE[ I AM ALPHA AND OMEGA THE BEGINNING AND THE ENDING, HE WHO WAS,AND IS, AND IS TO COME THE LORD ALMIGHTY!!!! [ FOR MESSING UP MY DADDY GOD ELOHIM EARTH I'M HAVING EVERYONE PUT INTO HEAVEN'S COURTROOM, AND ACTUALLY Y'ALL HAVE BEEN CAUGHT RED HANDLY ALL THROUGH THESE YEARS ARABIANS.... BECAUSE OF COURSE THAT ROSE TO MY FACE BOOK PAGE, TOLD ON Y'ALL ASS, Y'ALL MADE AN ENEMY OUT OF HIS MAJESTY HIMSELF, PICKING ON LITTLE OLD ME, ALL OF MY 32 YRS... THAT LOUD MOUTH SUCKING BOTTLE BABY FROM THAT CHURCH WITH A STEVE GREEN, WHAT TO YOU KNOW SOMEONE NAMED STEVE AGAIN, JUST THE SAME NAME AS THAT UGLY ASS MALE BARBIE DOLL I HAD, LORD JESUS CHRIST OF NAZARETH KNOWS, I WAS LOOKING FOR ME A DOLL OF EITHER MY KIND -KOREAN, ASIA,AND JAPANESE KIND OF MALE DOLL... LOVL LAUGHING OUT VERY LOUD, I'VE BEEN TAGGED UP WITH MY HEAVENLY FATHER GOD ELOHIM CREATOR OF THE ENTIRE UNIVERSE THIS WHOLE TIME..... OH MY WHAT WILL THEY DO BOAZ, MY LOVE MY MAN AMONG MEN, MAN YOU HAVE THAT UPPER ROOM CLASS OF SKILLS, OH HALLELUJAH, HOSANNA IN THE HIGHEST OF PRAISE... HOMIE YOU HAVE THE VERY ADVANCING SKILLS FROM ON HIGH SKILLS, I HAVE TO HAVE THIS VERY SPECIAL INVITATION ONLY FOR YOU MY LOVE, CAN I COME OVER TO YOUR HEAVENLY PLACE, SINCE WE ARE ULTIMATELY OF THE SAME VERY CLASS, AND EVERYTHING ELSE DO YOU STILL HAVE THE INFORMATION I GAVE YOU AKA!!!! SEND ME A MAILING JUST FROM YOU ALONE MY LOVE, I'LL BE EXPECTING IT SUDDENLY JUST FROM YOU ALONE MY PRECIOUS BELOVED, CHOSEN OF GODHEAD EL ELYON, MY DESTINED PARTNER FOR LIFE VIRTUOUS ONE I LOVE YOU FOR ALL ETERNITY, AND ARIGATO,XIEXIE,AND GOSAMANIDA, AND SARANGHAEYEO EVERYONE IN HEAVEN AND ON EARTH... GODHEAD AND SPECIALLY BOAZ HERE🌏💎😍😍😍🌟🍒🍉🍽🍴💑💝... ABEOJI OH MY HEAVENLY FATHER GOD ELOHIM MEN, LOVING YOU FIRST AND FOREMOST IN EVERYTHING WHOLEHEARTEDLY, I CAN FINALLY SAY I'M FREE TO MOVE ON FROM EVERYTHING NOW, LOVING GODHEAD YAHWEH AND YESHUA, AND YOU BOAZ, HAS TAUGHT ME EVERYTHING SERIOUSLY, LOVING YOUR VERY OWN GODHEAD DESIGNED PARTNER ALONE, THAT IS ONLY YOURS, AND NO ONE ELSE'S, I REALLY TREASURE EVERYTHING FROM THE MOMENT WE MET EVEN UNTIL NOW AND FOREVERMORE WITH YOU MY ONE AND ONLY TRUE LOVE OF MY HEART BOAZ YOU AND THE KINGDOM OF HEAVEN FAMILY, HAS TAUGHT ME IT'S OKAY TO JUST BE A WOMAN OF GODHEAD AGAIN AND ONLY, I REALLY DON'T HAVE TO DO BOTH PARTS NO MORE, ABEOJI, TOUSAN NEM, IT'S REALLY BEEN SUCH A LONG TIME SINCE, I WAS PROTECTED IN THIS WAY AGAIN, MY HEART IS MORE FREE THAN YOU COULD EVER KNOW BOAZ MY LOVE, I REALLY WAS A HIDDEN CINDERELLA FROM ALABAMA IN AMERICA, I JUST BEGAN TO RAGE IN THOSE HOSPITAL CHAPTERS, BECAUSE NO ONE WANTED TO SAY IT WAS THIER FAULT, AND THEY JUST DIDN'T WANT TO TAKE RESPONSIBILITY FOR ANYTHING IN LIFE ITSELF!!! HOW CAN YOU YOURSELVES CLAIM YOUR A ADULT IN THIS WORLD WHEN THE HOLY BIBLE SAYS THOSE THAT ARE BABIES NEEDS BOTTLES FOR THEIR BEGINNER LEVEL OF GODHEAD!!! BUT WHAT DO YOU ALL DO WHEN THE ONES WHO HAVE A MUSTERSEED OF FAITH, MEANING THEY NEVER WHERE OF GODHEAD, THEY JUST HAVE BEEN LIARS THEIR WHOLE LIVES.... [YOU CAN'T WALK IN TRUTH, AND LIES= EITHER YOU ARE OF THE FATHER OF TRUTH, OR YOUR EVIL BLACK ASS IS OF THE FATHER OF LIES, THAT DAMN THING, FROM THAT FALL!!!! I REALLY HATE ANYTHING THAT'S A CREEPING, AND Y'ALL GOT THAT DAMN THING ON THIS EARTH LIKE THIS, YO HOST OF HEAVEN I REALLY FEEL LIKE, Y'ALL MIGHT HAVE TO REALLY GET MY RIGHTEOUS FIGHTING SELF!!!! THIS IS AN EMERGENCY FOR REAL NOW, DAMN MARIAH,TIMBALAND,R.KELLY, LIL KIM, JUSTIN TIMBERLAKE, AND THAT DAMN DRAKE FROM DEGRASSI YOUR SISSY ASS IS A GIRL... THEY SHOULDN'T HAVE MATCHED MY TWIN WITH YOUR ASS, YOU ALL DON'T KNOW BUT NOW YOUR ASS WILL KNOW TO PLAGIARIZE A HOLY VESSEL OF GODHEAD, TO MATCH THEM WITH A HOMO A VERY UNHOLY AND STUPID SOUL FROM HELL. GODHEAD JUDGED ALL TO HELL QUICKLY BEFORE Y'ALL EVEN KNEW IT, AND I'M NOT TELLING Y'ALL WHEN!!!! BLAME IT ON THIS SAYING YOU GIVE ENEMIES ENOUGH ROPE, THEY WILL HANG THEIR OWN ASS!!!! WELL, BOAZ WE REALLY ARE VERY EXPENSIVE, TO CORPORATE VESSELS FROM HEAVEN TO EARTH, HOMIE THESE INFIDELS, HAS SUNKEN THEIR OWN ASS INTO THE LAKE OF FIRE!!!! OH MY HEAVENLY FATHER GOD ELOHIM, MR.VERY SUPREME, VERY ULTIMATE, YOUR THE MASTER OF EVERYTHING YOUR WAYS ARE REALLY NOT LIKE MAN, AND I'M SO VERY GRATEFUL TO YOU ALL ABEOJI NEM, MY HEAVENLY FATHER GOD ELOHIM HEAVENLY CREW [KINGDOM OF HEAVEN FAMILY IN HEAVEN AND ON EARTH TOGETHER IN ONENESS, THANK YOU FROM THE BOTTOM OF MY SOUL, FOR TEACHING ME EVERYTHING, AND I'M LOOKING FORWARD TO YOU CONTINUE TO TEACH ME IN THINGS I'M STILL DESIRING TO LEARN ABOUT YOU ALL YAHWEH AND YESHUA NEM, LOVE CHANGES EVERYTHING WHEN YOUR FOCUS IS TOTALLY ON MY WHOLE EVERYTHING, MY LORD AND SAVIOR JESUS CHRIST KING OF GLORY, MY KING AND LORD JESUS CHRIST THE SOLID ROCK I STAND ON AND LIVE IN FOR ALL ETERNITY, YOU REALLY ARE MY HERO, YESHUA, BECAUSE YOUR LIFESTYLE TAUGHT ME THE VERY TRUE MEANING OF LOVE, NOT IN JUST SPEAKING IT, BUT TO WALK IN RIGHTEOUSNESS FOREVERMORE... A LIFE WITH GODHEAD YAHWEH AND YESHUA THE KINGDOM OF HEAVEN FAMILY IS EVERYTHING JUST US TO BOAZ AND I[A HOLY COUPLE THAT'S ONLY SPECIFIC FOR GODHEAD USE!!! MY KING OF GLORY, SEE TO IT THAT THESE DAMN IMITATIONS IN THIS WORLD AND UNDER THIS WORLD GETS THE JUDGEMENT OF A LIFETIME SENTENCE FOR ALL THEIR GENERATIONS TO COME TOO, WHAT WE SAY AND COME UP WITH IS NOT FOR Y'ALL DIRTY LIVING SELVES TO REPEAT, CAUSE IF Y'ALL STEAL ANYTHING I'VE STATED OR CAME UP WITH THROUGH THE YEARS OH, THE HOST OF HEAVEN WILL EXECUTE Y'ALL ASS OFF THE FACE THE EARTH PERMENTALY... WHOEVER SHOWED Y'ALL TO FOLLOW PEOPLE AROUND AND KEEP UP STUFF WAS STUPID AS HELL TOO, CAUSE WHEN WE WHERE FROM SCHOOL, AND BEGAN IN HOME SCHOOL I TOLD MY HEAVENLY FATHER GOD ELOHIM, I BETTER NOT HAVE TO DEAL WITH NO MORE DAMN HE SAID SHE SAID STUFF, CAUSE I WAS GOING TO TURN IT OUT AND DOWN ON ALL THESE VANITY BASTARDS THAT'S SO VERY EMPTY AND STUPID!!! Y'ALL IN AMERICA SHOULD HAVE SHUT DOWN EVERY DAMN TALK SHOWS THIS COUNTRY HAVE WORLDWIDE, BECAUSE IF YOU ALL CAN'T TALK ABOUT THE LOVE OF GODHEAD,AND HOW PEOPLE ARE STILL LIVING AND UPHOLDING RIGHTEOUSNESS THESE DAYS, THEN I ASK THIS OF THEE. YOUR MAJESTY SHUT DOWN AND OFF, EVERY DAMN TALK SHOW FROM HELL... THIS SNEAKY ASS RACISM WE WILL DESTROY IT OFF OF THE FACE OF THE UNIVERSE, JUST ONLY FOR YOU MY VERY,VERY,VERY, OH SO PRECIOUS TOUSAN HEAVENLY FATHER GOD[ELOHIM, MY HEART IS ALWAYS AND ONLY WITH YOU ALL ALONE... IT WAS WRONG OF THOSE DIABLOS CRAZY CHILDREN FROM HELL, TO COME INTO AMERICA WOE UNTO YOU ALL AFRICA,MEXICO, ARABIAN, BLACKS,WHITES, OF HATRED... HOW DARE Y'ALL GO AROUND INTO ANYWHERE IN THIS WORLD MAKING IT HARD FOR ANYONE, THAT IS RIGHTEOUS, JUST BECAUSE YOU ALL ARE JUST AS EVIL LIKE THAT SNAKE FROM GENESIS 3 AND MAMMOTH FROM MATTHEW 6... NO ONE CAN LIE TO ANYONE NO MORE AND CLAIM THEY DIDN'T KNOW WHAT THEY WHERE DOING, IT'S A DAMN LIE....YOUR VERY OWN DECEPTIVE WAYS CONFUSED YOU ALL AND ALSO IN PSALMS 2 MY PARTNER DAVID QUOTED THIS HE THAT'S SEATED IN HEAVEN SHALL LAUGH, HE HAS Y'ALL ASS IN DERISION!!! THAT'S VERY LIGHT,AND VERY EASY BECAUSE THE WICKED TRIED TO BREAK THE BONDS OF GODHEAD HOLY ANOINTED AND PROPHETIC CHILDREN ON EARTH... THE DUMBASS CHILDREN PLOTTED ON HIS CHOSEN CHILDREN, AND THOUGHT THEY GOT RID OF EVERYBODY.... GOD FORBID, WE KNEW Y'ALL ASS WHERE COOKING SOMETHING UP FUNKY, SNEAKY,AND WICKED, CAUSE I NEVER LIKED CHITTLENINGS DAMN SWINES, FLEW THEIR ASS INTO THE WATER!!! SPEAKING ABEOJI MEN, YO KINGDOM OF HEAVEN CREW WITH OUR HEAVENLY FATHER GOD ELOHIM, DIDN'T GOKU HAVE A LITTLE GIRLY ASS PIG WHO LOVED EATING UP SANDWICHES,AND KEEPING UP STUFF THEN, PUGGY LITTLE FUNKY ASS STAYED IN EVERYTHING RAN BEHIND GOKU TO SAVE HER EVERYTIME... HE WASN'T NO DAMN BOY THAT'S A GIRL... HOW WE KNOW THAT'S EASY I USE TO HAVE 2 GIRLS WITH ME IN SCHOOL, AND SOMETIMES I WOULD JUST GO CHILL WITH THE BOYS, THE HATER HARLOTS, WOULD ALWAYS FRONT IN MY FACE TALKING ABOUT THAT'S MY GIRL WE WILL HANGOUT AND COME OVER MY HOUSE AFTER SCHOOL, TOO MANY DAMN COMPLIMENTS, THE SCHOOL HAD A TRAIL I USED TO WALK AROUND WHEN I WAS ANGRY, AND DIDN'T WANT TO BE BOTHER WITH NO ONE, SO I WALKED AROUND WHAT TO YOU KNOW THE SAME GIRL THAT COMPLIMENTED ME THE OTHER DAY TURNED AROUND AND SAID I CAN'T STAND HER SHE THINKS SHE IS ALL THAT!!!! I ELECTROCUTED THAT DAMN RELATIONSHIP WITH WORDS. NO NEED TO CALL ME,TALK TO ME,OR NOTHING IT'S OVER I DON'T KNOW YOU, AND YOU DON'T KNOW ME!!!! IF YOU CAN'T STAND SOMEONE DON'T SAY YOU LOVE THEM AND YOU HATE THEM!!! THIS STUPID PUZZLE CRAP I'M DONE WITH FOR ALL ETERNITY, DON'T BRING YOUR DECEITFUL ASS AROUND ME, NEVER AGAIN, OR YOU WILL REALLY BE SENT TO HELL INSTANTLY!!!! ENTER AT YOUR OWN RISK DUMBASS BASTARDS CHILDREN, I'M PIST OFF AND I REALLY DO MISS MY TRUE CREW, I'M NOT IN THE MOOD FOR THIS DAMN MIND GAME NO MORE, CAUSE I MIGHT REALLY BUY A STAFF JUST FOR MYSELF AND WHOOP YALL ASS LIKE ANUBIS AND KAIRA COMBINED ALL INTO FROM RONIN WARRIORS!!! I STUDIED THE HOLY BIBLE, AND GODHEAD BLESSED TO MASTER ALL OF MY GIFTS AND TALENTS FOR HIS GLORIOUS NAME SAKE ALONE!!! Y'ALL SERVE WHATEVER JUST STAY AWAY FROM ME, IF YOU IS NOT LIVING A LIFE VERY PEASING UNTO GODHEAD ELOHIM HIS MAJESTY.... I DON'T WANT TO KNOW NOTHING ABOUT BEYONCE AND JAYZ STEALING ASS, HOW IN THE HELL, DO YOU BOTH TOOK 2PAC SONG ME AND MY GIRLFRIEND, AND CHANGED IT INTO SOMETHING ELSE. WHEN JAY-Z KNEW 2PAC SAID HE COULDN'T STAND HIS SISSY ASS!!!! Y'ALL THAT SHADY ASS HELL, TO KNOW THAT ORIGINALLY Y'ALL KNEW THEY HATED Y'ALL AND Y'ALL HATED THEM, Y'ALL JUST DECEIVED THE PEOPLE IN THE WORLD THINKING Y'ALL WHERE COOL, BUT NO THEY WEREN'T CAUSE I TOLD MY TWIN, NO MATTER WHO SMILE IN OUR FACE, A JUDAS AND A JEZEBEL WILL ALWAYS JUST DO WHAT THEY KNOW HOW TO DO IS JUST BE CROOKED AS HELL, IN LIES AND EVERYTHING ELSE!!!! DON'T THINK I'M ALL TALK, THIS HAS BEEN MY WHOLE LIFESTYLE, DEALING WITH Y'ALL DAMN KIND, TOO SORRY TO OBEY THE HOLY BIBLE AND SEEK GODHEAD WHOLEHEARTEDLY, Y'ALL WENT TO SOMEONE LIKE ESTHER ROLL FROM GOOD TIME, TO FIND OUT ABOUT AALIYAH NEM, SO Y'ALL COULD FAKE IN FRONT OF THE CAMERA AS IF Y'ALL WHERE VERY TIGHT BUT MY SIS EXPRESSION TOLD ME EVERYTHING ON A CERTAIN PERFORMANCE SHE DID, AND GOD TOLD ME LOOK I NOTICED AT THE SAME TIME SHE FELT THE SAME BUT WE WHERE IN DIFFERENT STATES I COULDN'T GET NEAR HER IN TIME. BUT MY PRAYERS SAVED THEM YOU ARROGANT BASTARDS!!!! IT'S PAY BACK ON Y'ALL WICKED ASS UPGRADED IN A WHOLE NEW CLASSIC WAY THE VERY NEW AND IMPROVED CROSS OF CALVARY WHOOPING OF A LIFETIME JUST FOR YOU ALONE MY LOVER [ALPHA AND OMEGA, I SHOW THEM THIS BRIDE OF YOURS, IS NOT PLAYING ANYMORE WITH OUR ENEMIES. WATCH Y'ALL BACKS AND ALL AROUND CAUSE I KNOW SOME ANGELS WHO FEEL THE SAME WAY I DO, THESE AND I CAN COMMAND THEM AT ANYTIME TOO, THIS IS FOR EVERYONE WHO EVER HAD TO DEAL WITH Y'ALL ASS STARTING WITH GODHEAD NEM FIRST THEN ADAM NEM IN THE HOLY BIBLE ALL THE WAY TO BOAZ AND MY AGES...... TO GOD BE THE GLORY FOREVER AND EVERMORE, AMEN, AND AMEN... ENJOY BOAZ MY LOVE I LOVE YOU FOREVERMORE WITH MY WHOLE HEART. THE ELEMENTAL QUEEN STRIKES BACK AGAIN WITH MY FATHER GOD SUPREME JUDGMENT, PRAISING THE LORD GOD ALMIGHTY CREATOR OF HEAVEN AND THE, FOR ALL ETERNITY AND EVERMORE, AMEN,AND AMEN.....😗😙😛😛😛