#fishee talks

[fisheem4mmal]

I would like to take the chance to say thank you for enjoying my art and sticking around!! ;v;

I'm a very shy person so I don't speak much, and I had a lot of things on my plate in 2023 that got me very stressed and tired, drawing has always been my stress reliever and it makes me very happy to see ppl enjoy the drawings when I post!

Here's to a better year for us all! Happy New Year!

[karineverse]

A lot of things changed this year. How I treat people, how I see myself, how I make my art. You all taught me how expressing myself can be fun and talking to everyone was so fun I made a lot of new friends. Y'all taught me that making what I love and drawing what I like is not something to be ashamed of, and that made me feel free. God I'm horrible with words.. I love you all and I hope everyone has an amazing year. You mean a lot to me. Thank you for everything.

Some of the people tagged are artists I enjoy that aren't my mutuals (ig)

@akiraartz @bugharvest @belovedstilldear @captain-fishee @cloudyside @crunchontoast @dreagine @elizakai @fandomsoda @grayskiesandink @bonejello @hiro-doodlez @hygmeol @iamsofuckinggay @iinkydebbieestuff @jun1per-t33th @justanidiotartist @keuwibloom @ksopaz @kalitheinksimp @lightyearssurrogatedaddy @lazyasyoucansee @lazy-shapeshiofter @letsatomicbanana @lukark @maichan404 @mirage126 @necrolexic0n @opudont-donut @pepperonipizzafan1 @pinkcottoncandyss @popiollie @rawrlands @rainbowbooom @rib-rabbitmask @raaaaaaaghhhh @randomwindowsvista @spookyflavors @silly-inksans-stuff @samijami @safwunnz @sansburger @sandeewithtwoe @seepylilthing @sel-mesanity @seaborguy @solkipp @tundra115 @wolfbeestudio @westaysilly

I'll reblog it with more people dw

[jaeheewillalwaysbemyfav]

so since you're gonna do the avatar!mc au with the entities you think each brother would fear the most (SO excited for that btw, my friend can attest to the fact that i've basically been rambling about tma x om nonstop since the first post you made that put the two together), i'd love to hear your thoughts on which entity each brother would *be* an avatar of, if you're cool with sharing! personally i love the ideas of specifically vast!levi and dark!belphie but i'd love to hear your takes on the concept! <3

So because of how time works, despite receiving this ask on July 12, by the time you see this it’ll be August! So the entire Avatar!MC series should be out by now, which I hope you will/have enjoy/ed. I wholeheartedly agree with the concept of Vast! Levi, which I’ve talked about before (as you know ;) ), but I will happily ramble about it again!

These aren’t gonna be short fics though bc I do Yearn to save that energy for The Longfic, which is still in the planning stages because a) I can’t pick a timeline, and b) trying to match up the timelines of Obey Me and TMA is hard, especially when I tend to have a violent disrespect for actually paying attention to the timing of plot events in both. I already fucked up a part of the plotting because I forgot the order we get pacts with the brothers lmao

Content warnings: Mentions/allusions to tma-typical Spookies, yet another installation of my Cursed Crossover idea, lengthy debates about what makes someone choose to become an avatar of fear, spoilers for Lesson 16+ of Obey Me and S5 of TMA

What Entity Do I Think The Brothers Would Serve? (Cursed TMA x Obey Me Crossover)

Lucifer

So I put him as falling victim to the Eye/Beholding bc of his whole thing about Secrets and Pride being about wanting control over your own image

And he does have a creepy tendency in canon to always know when his brothers are up to some Dumb Shit

BUT! You know what we see in Lucifer’s character that we see in a certain Entity?

A simultaneous manipulation of others and submission to being manipulated by a higher power

That’s right, I think Luci would be a Web avatar

But Winter, Lucifer wouldn’t wanna take marching orders from someone/thing else! He’s too proud for that— You’re right! He doesn’t want to. But he will.

He willingly submitted himself and his family to Diavolo for eternity to get what he wanted (saving Lilith)

And from how much we see him work, it’s safe to say that he’s a pretty damn essential part of running the Devildom

If he really wanted to, he could probably successfully pull a coup on Diavolo

But he doesn’t, because he’s trapped himself by his own honour code

Thus, the sexual tension bromance we all know and love/insist is Deeply Problematic and blacklist (depending on how much you like/hate dialuci lol)

10/10, would fill with spiders again

Mammon

I put Mammon as falling victim to the Buried for pretty obvious reasons

But admittedly picking a fear he’d serve is trickier

I had to get a bit abstract with it, but I think the Hunt might suit him

Not necessarily the primal *cough* and police brutality *cough* parts of the Hunt tho

More like how Basira was considered an avatar of the Hunt in the fearpocalypse because of her mission/promise to Daisy

See, Greed can stem from fear

Fear of losing what you have, of no longer being able to support yourself, of being preyed upon by others

So people become greedy as a defense mechanism, to protect what they have

If they’re on the offensive, they won’t be targeted

Also, if you’re constantly pursuing more more more, there’s no time to think about anything else

Like consequences, or guilt, or Feelings

If Mammon let his little tough guy act go too far for too long, I don’t think it’s too much of a stretch to say he could start heading down the path to avatarhood

After all, people pay big money for hitmen and bounty hunters…

Leviathan

As I said last time, I can see why people would associate Levi with the Lonely first: he’s a shut in, he acts like he wants nothing to do with people/would rather be alone, and I get it

BUT! All of that actually stems from the fact that Levi has terrible self-esteem and thinks he deserves to be this gross shut in loser

While envy can make you want to bring others down to your level, so to speak, Levi tends to just shun “normies”, not actively conspire to sabotage them

He actually does crave understanding and to have people in his life, he just doesn’t know how to go about it

Boy’s got Mega Social Anxiety is what I’m saying (funny how both the Lonely and the Eye can be real bad for that, huh)

But the Vast? Nihilism? Takes all the pressure off

If everyone is a small, insignificant speck in the face of an uncaring, unfathomably large cosmos, who cares what you do? Who cares what people think of you?

Yeah, you’d be kinda weird too if you stared into the infinite abyss of the ocean and realized it was just the maw of a gargantuan sea monster too, Karen, lay off

Plus aesthetically, the great Awful Deep most people fear in the ocean is a comfort to Levi

And again, THE VAST IS MORE THAN JUST THE SKY

I WENT ON A BOAT ONCE

LIKE REAL FAR OUT, SO I COULDN’T SEE LAND FOR DAYS

IT WAS JUST ENDLESS B L U E

AND I WAS ON A CRUISE IN THE CARIBBEAN

I SAW A FRACTION OF THE OCEAN’S S U R F A C E AND IT WAS I M M E N S E

Did you know we’ve only explored like 5% or whatever of our oceans? Think about that! Every Single Thing we know about what’s in there is just the tip of the iceberg!!! GOD KNOWS WHAT’S DOWN THERE!!! PROBABLY FUCKED UP FISH IS WHAT

*ahem* anyway, fishee

Satan

Another tricky boi

I marked him down as fearing the Desolation, as a reflection of what he fears most in himself

I probably could have also gone with Slaughter, but I’d say that’s more baby/early-Satan

Desolation is also about destruction of potential, and Satan has very carefully built himself into a non-rage-monster person

So tearing that all away from him is :)))

But what would Satan give himself over to?

Ceaseless Watcher, I want that twink OBLITERATED—

Satan clings to knowledge and erudition to distance himself from the rage he was born as

“Watch and learn” is literally how he became a person

I find it deeply funny that it could also easily be how he becomes a monster once again

Also if you think the avatar of Wrath wouldn’t have a use for supernatural blackmail you’re just straight up incorrect

Couple that with Satan’s various connections and he’d be a Force to Reckon With

Asmodeus

I put him as a victim of the Corruption bc I found it extremely fitting considering the duality of his romanticized image vs the “dirty” fluid-filled nature of Lust.

Lust can be really nasty, but as licentious as Asmo’s supposed to be, he’s surprisingly coy

(now part of that comes from the fact that Obey Me isn’t strictly 18+/full-on porn, but still)

There’s a lot of Interesting Ideas to unpack there with attitudes towards sex vs sensuality and idealisation vs reality

Now as for an avatar… I debated this for a very long time, tossing around Eye, Stranger, Spiral, even Web for like one second

But I think I’ve got it

Slaughter!

Specifically the musical/random outbursts of violence side (not so much the war side)

Why? Well for one, Biblical Asmodeus is said to “"transport men into fits of madness and desire [...] with the result that they commit sin, and fall into murderous deeds (Testament of Solomon, verse 23).”

But also, Obey Me Asmo’s affair with that portrait chick from the earlier lessons started a whole ass war

Like it or not, the boy is very good at instilling manic violence in people

They don’t call it bloodlust for nothing

Beelzebub

I paired Beel with an End avatar MC bc the boy fears losing his loved ones like he lost Lilith

You could argue that Desolation would fit there too but I liked how it fit Satan better

Now as for a Vibe…

I’m tied between Flesh and Corruption tbh

Though corruption is mostly bc buge :)

So I’ll talk about the Flesh

So uh, mass consumerism, meat is meat, cannibalism… see where I’m going?

Ignoring the Hans because that was super racist, the two Flesh avatars I remember best are Jared Hopworth and The Guy Who Stuck His Arm in a Spooky Meat Grinder To Feed His Buds

I think of Jared in relation to Beel not because of the gym thing, but because his very chill/apathetic attitude towards his patron is similar to how I’d picture Beel’s approach to all this

Like “well, guess I’m here now”

I love Beel as much as everyone else, but he’s not exactly apologetic about his… habits

Not to the degree that he’d actually try and change them anyway

So if he got started on the path to Flesh avatarhood, he’d be pretty fucked

Belphegor

I put Web for him as a fear almost entirely because of the concept of Uno Reverse Card, ngl

It does technically tie into his whole thing about being trapped in the attic, since he’d denied all agency and freedom in there, but… Uno Reverse

Dark!Belphie is an interesting concept, and MAG86 “Tucked In” is iconic, but tbh I don’t really… Get the Dark

Don’t get me wrong, put me in a dark place and I will be scared, I don’t like not seeing things, but I have a hard time wrapping my head around why one would become an avatar of the Dark

It’s not a very “primary” fear imo? Like, I’m scared of the dark bc I can’t see what’s there, ie. a threat could be there and I wouldn’t know, but intellectually I know it’s just the absence of light. That’s not really spooky on its own.

I guess what I’m saying is I can attribute spookier things related to the Dark better to other Entities, so I’m not sure what its draw is specifically

According to the Entity Sexiness Survey I did a while back, there’s apparently some Catholic stuff going on with the Dark so maybe that’s why i don’t get it lmao

Anyway I’d put Belphie down for Spiral

“What lies behind a smile” indeed cowboy

Apparently it’s getting choked

Is it because MC’s entire relationship with him is originally founded on a lie?

Is it because the Spiral deals with distortions in your perception, gaslighting gatekeeping girlbossing, as well as foggy liminal mental spaces like between sleep and consciousness, death and life?

Is it because I think Belphie would absolutely delight in driving someone bananas by fucking with their dreams until it bleeds into their waking life?

Is it because being a person or consistent being at all is too much effort, consistent internal geography is hard, fuck it, just be an endless twisting series of hallways?

Yes :)

[stolligaseptember]

i was tagged by the awesome @likeazurestars!!

rules: bold statements that apply to you, italicize your aspirations, than tag nine people

air -

i have small hands / i love the night sky / i watch animals and birds when i pass them by / i drink herbal tea / i wake to see dawn / the smell of dust is comforting / i’m valued for being wise / i prefer books to music / i meditate / i find joy in learning new truths from the world around me

fire -

i don’t have straight hair / i like to wear ripped jeans and overalls / i play an organized sport / i love dogs / i am not afraid of adventure / i love to talk to strangers / i always try new foods / i enjoy road trips / summer is my favorite season / my radio is always playing

water -

I wear bracelets on my wrists / i love the bustle of the city / i have more than one set of piercing/ i read poetry / i love the sound of a thunderstorm / i want to travel the world / i sleep past midday most days / i love simply lit diners and fluorescent signs / i rewatch kids shows out of nostalgia / i see emotions in colors not words

earth -

i wear glasses or contacts / i enjoy doing the laundry / i am a vegetarian or vegan / i have an excellent sense of time / my humor is very cheerful / i am a valued advisor to my friends / i believe in true love / i love the chill of mountain air / i’m always listening to music / i am highly trusted by the people in my life

aether-

i go without makeup in my daily life / i make my own artwork / i keep on track of my tasks and time / i always know true north / i see beauty in everything / i can always smell flowers / i smile at everyone i pass by / i always fear history repeating itself / i have recovered from a mental disorder / i can love unconditionally

i tag: @fishee, @ftchocoholic, @lavishcabbage, @ver-itas, @somebodyhelpthenotdeadfreds, @foolsfires, @reservoirite, @marchingatmidnight and @second-hand-heaven!

[ameliathermopolis]

creator 2017 tag game

i was tagged by @impossibletruths!

rules: it’s time to love yourselves! choose your 5 favorite works you’ve created this year (fics, art, edits, etc!) and link them below to reflect on the amazing things you’ve brought into the world in 2017. tag as many writers/artists/etc as you want (fan or original!) so we can spread the love and link each other to awesome works.

i didn’t actually write five things and i’m trying hard not to feel bad about that because i was really proud of the three things i did write for crit role this year so let us begin. 

strike true, fly high 

1.7k, perc’ildan. a gift for @asiainthelight.

this was such a fun one to write because it involved class-swapping and imagining percy as something other than his edgelord gunslinger self. i actually really love 5e druids so getting to take some of their mechanics and turn it into narrative was a fun challenge. 

Never trust anyone who says they love you, if they haven’t seen you without your skin on.  Percy pushed his mother’s voice to the back of his mind and leaned forward to kiss Vax, one hand braced at the front of Vax’s armor. The fingers at the back of his head stiffened before threading anew into his hair. They were both still so shy, painfully so whenever Percy would look back on their little trysts hours later. This thing, this bond they had started to weave together, was still new, like a bud waiting for a burst of sunlight to help it grow, and Percy feared more than anything that running headlong towards it would be akin to ripping the whole plant up by the root. Still, he had never thought he could take to this kind of affection, to softness and gentility and care. Where even a few weeks ago, every kiss and touch would be a contest, a battleground, now they were starting to mellow into conversations, to explorations, and Percy found that he didn’t mind not having to fight for everything he wanted.

if i could but know his heart, everything would become easy 

1.6k, pikeval. a gift for @impossibletruths.

it is a truth universally acknowledged that ari hands out The Best Prompts so when she slam dunked one for hand kissing into my ask box, i had to oblige in my usual self indulgent way. a soothing balm to my heart. 

“You do have the best hands,” he whispers. Pike remembers the last time they were this close. It feels like longer ago than it is. They were huddled together, her hands on his face, his forehead against hers. Even with the concentration the restoration spell required, even with the separation from feeling her astral form rendered necessary, she can still remember. She remembers the roughness of stubble on his jaw, the harsh and hollow breaths of ill health and cold that rattled his chest, the darkness she could feel clinging to his mind. He smelled like pine and sandalwood and gunpowder. All my bad dreams were about you. They still are.

Percy folds her right hand over her left. His thumbs brush over her knuckles before the pads of them press to where her pulse beats in her wrist. Pike’s eyes widen as he kneels down, still taller than her even on his knees, and bends his head. When Percy’s lips kiss the back of her hand, she is reminded of the love poetry her and Kima make fun of on particularly indulgent evenings drinking wine and eating anything they can spear on a toasting fork. All that talk of touches that crash down like thunder and sear like lightning, of love being madness and pain as much as beauty…oh, why does every word have to be true?

with hey, ho, the wind and the rain

6.4k, vaxlan. a gift for @thegoldenlocks.

i know it’s very On Brand for me to not have a very high opinion of my work, but this is the best thing i’ve ever written, and even if i didn’t do a lot this year, i’m glad that one of the few i did was this one. i’m glad i put the work i did into it and that it’s out in the world. originally started as an exploration of how bards are the only other class that can cast resurrection and how the concepts belief and immortality as are integral to the stage as they are to the temple. 

“Am I under your sway as well, Lady Fate?” Scanlan asks when he looks back up at her. Nera’s cheeks dimple as she smiles.

“No. But not why you think. You think yourself too chaotic, too unpredictable, and too wild for the hands of something as tenuous and exact as fate. However, I have found that this,” she gestures with her left hand from his hair to his feet, “is the opposite of chaotic. In this group of heroes, this family of yours, it is you, and you alone, who are the eye of the storm. Every single piece of you, every detail, is composed, practiced, conducted, and performed with a rigor and exactness even I, with all my webs, feel no shame in envying. Chaos? Oh, no, master bard. You are a symphony.”

There is a moment when neither of them speaks; only the sounds of the forest just before dawn press at the silence. Nera looks down at him, her red eyes soft and calm, and Scanlan can see no lie in them.

that’s it!!! also i started dming my own dnd game this year and apparently i wrote 75k in campaign notes so i’m going to take that as a victory. 

so many people have already done this but i’m gonna take @chipchopclipclop, @thegoldenlocks, and @fishee if you want! 

[lemonadesoda]

tagged by @fishee -write 10 facts about yourself & tag 10 people

I grew up in a Buddhist/Shinto family so I find the smell of incense really nostalgic and comforting (I lit some just now, so that’s the first thing that came to mind).

Still have never dated anyone or otherwise been in a relationship (hard when not interested in almost everyone)

I loved pokemon since the first generation but never actually owned a pokemon game until Ruby because my parents never got me a gameboy so I would bum off friends and family members and would train their pokemon for them when they got bored.

When I was a kid I knew all kinds of things about dinosaurs because I was obsessed with them, but sadly I have not kept up with the rapidly updating understanding of them, so now all my knowledge is outmoded.

I don’t know how to sit on a chair like a regular person, possibly because almost my whole life was spent sitting on the floor, so I’m always perching and contorting whenever I’m trying to sit in a normal chair.

I have always loved birds ever since I was a kid. According to my friends it’s weird that I can identify random birds in my area on sight and sometimes even by call and this is supposedly a weird amount of knowledge about them. I think this is just the regular amount of information to know about birds.

One time I read all 7 Harry Potter books in a week. It was fun and worth it but also I don’t think I would ever do it again.

I majored in math in college but I actually was kind of bad at it until middle school, when suddenly algebra clicked into place and I took off in high school. I think it has something to do with me being phenomenally bad at arithmetic but really attuned to the abstract concepts of higher level math.

I have a hard time mentally processing information and also receiving new sensory input at the same time, which makes things frustrating when people fire a whole bunch of new/complex information at me and then ask me if I have any thoughts about it. Like no, give me some time to punch it all in first and figure out what it means. Likewise, if I’m thinking and you’re talking to me, I promise you I’m immediately forgetting every single word you’re saying right as you say it.

My birthday is a national holiday.

I tag @caillech since you’re the only other person I can think of besides fishee who seems to enjoy doing these

[darth-ivan]

tagged by @fishee to write ten facts about me! hmm i will try to think of ones not many ppl know

1. im nonbinary! my pronouns are they/them but if u call me dude,bro,man,boy,guy i will love u forever

2. i work in a call center, it gets interesting sometimes

3. i have a fear of vomit which i think started from bad reactions to adhd medication and having a motion sick brother

4. in relation i love horror movies and gore but in 6th grade i had this weird gore fear, in science class i had to leave class sometimes cos wed be talking about the body and id freak out and cry. that was the year we had to dissect an eye and i barely got thru it lmao

5. i really want a pet bulldog currently

6. my ultimate dream is to own a cabin on a lake

7. i collect quite a few things but my favorite collection are my vhs tapes which are mostly horror

8. i loved the scary stories to tell in the dark series, so much so that i 'accidentially' never returned a copy to my elementary schools library

9. in 5th grade i wanted to be a stand up comedian after realizing vet school wasnt for me

10. my favorite thing ever is going to the movies even if i have to go alone.

yayy!! uhh i hate tagging so everyones tagged!

[fisheem4mmal]

What games are you currently interested in?

Hello anon!

I haven't had time to get into anything new lately (work and health ;v;) so most of the games I'm into are ones that I've had been for a long time: FFXIV, TWST, Pokemon, KH, these are the ones I regularly think about currently!

I'm looking forward to the new XIV expansion, KHML and KH4 I'm starving for their content, and really excited for Pokemon Z-A (I enjoyed legends arceus soooo much). Also now that tsumsute might be on its last part... I'm hoping... they collab with kh... :x perhaps too big of a pipe dream...unless...?

Other than that I really hope to get the chance to play BG3 and P3R, I'm saving for them!

[fisheem4mmal]

i've always been curious about your user name because i'm thinking you're fishing for mal mal and it's just so cute and BWKRJAIFJKADJAKJDKS WHAT DOES IT MEAN (genuine question!!) AND I'M ABOUT TO MARRY YOUR ART I LOVE IT SM 🫶🏻🫶🏻🫶🏻🫶🏻🫶🏻🫶🏻🫶🏻🫶🏻

Hi hi!!! Thank you so much I'm glad you like my art!!!!

IT'S ACTUALLY KINDA SILLY I'M SO SORRY! I love collecting sea animal plushies, dolphins being one of them, and they are mammals that look like big fish so fishy mammal ---> fisheemammal (＞＜) your idea is so cute if I ever have a twst-focused thing I should name the alt fishing4malmal www

[fisheem4mmal]

nearly burst into tears seeing Lilia's card I've waited 3 years.... and now we're so close to Malleus!!!!!!!!!!!!

[fisheem4mmal]

Your drawings, especially the ones with Lilia, is just drop dead gorgeous!!

Hi there!! Thank you very much for the kind words ;^; ,Lilia is really really fun to draw, I'm glad you enjoy the artworks!

[fisheem4mmal]

I absolutely adore your art it's so beautiful;^; do you do commissions?

Hello!! Thank you thank you I'm glad you like my art! Yes I do!!! Though I'm not opened right now and am only accepting waiting list submissions ;v;/ I'll get to someone on the waiting list as soon as I have the time!

My commissions info site is here is you're interested: https://fisheem4mmal.wixsite.com/commissioninfo

[fisheem4mmal]

THAT WAS A LOT MORE MALLEUS THAN I WAS EXPECTING IM CRYING SHAKING SCREAMING

[fisheem4mmal]

Diasomnia fans... when will our time come

[fisheem4mmal]

Everything hurts

That was all hurt no comfort twst

[fisheem4mmal]

AAAARRRGHHHH I LOVE YOUR ART SO MUCH!!

HELLO HI THANK YOU SO MUCH ;v;/ GLAD YOU LIKE EM