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[beybuniki]

someone sucks at otome games

[reflections-in-a-critical-eye]

Bts definitely not fictional characters I 100% agree with that part and some people do treat them like that but the other part. Are we just supposed to wait for them to die before we talk about anything theyre not historical figures but theyre public figures and artist art itself can definitely be queer coded and ngl they have a lot of art that you can view from a queer lense even if most of them are straight most not all because theres confirmation all are not straight unless your super in denial also saying real life people cant "queer code" is :/ that's not exactly the right word its called signaling but its literally existed since the dawn of time for people who cant be out but want to be recognizable to other queer people some people act obtuse because they know its unrealistic for any of bts to officially come out because of the damage it would do to their career and they feel life if its not explicitly acknowledged they can pretend nothings there and they dont be acting like fruitcups and they dont have to combat the fact that theyre homophobic and hate the very people they claim to love and support or that it shouldnt be discussed because it endangers even though theyre the ones releasing the content to be looked at and analyzed like if someone posted a pic of one of them kissing a guy that would be bad but discussing how they seem to love the pink purple and blue color combination is not https://twitter.com/rocktanbangwool/status/1544198292137037824?t=iON93qWQrB33tSa3KddEyA&s=19

Op who said that because they are real people, it means they can't queer code sounds too much like someone who doesn't like the idea of any of the BTS members possibly being queer, so they transfer their dissatisfaction in making comments like these. It's always obvious, they're not subtle at all. As you said, there is such a thing as signaling. How come this discourse doesn't happen if it would involve a woman connected to a BTS member. In that case, it's what? Straight coded acceptable, even if they're not ''fictional or historical characters''? I have to laugh.

BTS are public figures and there is 10 year content out there that involves 7 people who have never publicly dated so of course fans can mostly base their arguments on what they see. It's not completely their fault. It's the culture surrounding it and it's not that any member is required to reveal their partners because at the end of the day, it's their private life, but BigHit had a big contribution to creating a homosocial environment for so many years in which not even female stuff is allowed to show up on camera, which was not the case 6 or 7 seven years ago.

They may be real people, but their art can be queer coded and analyzed. But I'm fully aware that even talking about their performances or songs in such a context is at best, frowned up and at worst, a rejected hypothesis.

As always, it's hypocrisy and homophobia. And not just that, but the generalization, with little nuance and the mockery. BTS are ''fruity'' only in the context of ot7 - they're attached at the hip, they want to stay together and marry each other, look at how they slap each other's asses - because army doesn't actually believe this. It's the ot7 fantasy and BTS are ''fruity'' because fans can't possibly accept that some of the members could be straight and others could be queer. So yeah, they do treat them as fictional characters in the story army writes daily. But in the case of actual queer coding in art or the signaling, all of a sudden it's ''delulu territory'' because they never said anything explicit. Sure, because any BTS member is in the position or it's necessary for them to put on a label just so their fans know exactly their sexual identity. Shippers are sometimes in this category or those who reject a certain ship. They do use a similar argument - ''until they don't come out, I can never be sure if they are queer or in a relationship''. Yep, you can never be sure, but not because of that reason, but because it's someone's private life and as an outsider, no one knows all the ins and outs of someone's identity and relationship. This is more of a matter of public vs. private life. It's stupid for someone to say they don't ''believe'' 2 guys to be in a relationship because they didn't come out, as this is something that will probably never happen and these fans know that. It's a cheap argument.

[taurustony]

The True Mighty Bison - Season V edition.

Some weeks ago, I had a very productive discussion on twitter with Steven Mane about the subject of this essay, and he brought up very good points, an alternative theory (not as out there as mine) and reminded me I haven't actually added the ACTUAL Seth info from his story and Arcade endings to this text. Now that even Rose is on the game (although she didn't bring new info on this front), Let's update this very wild theory about our favorite psycho powered dictator. For the day you discovered the truth about M. Bison was the most important of your Street Fighter fan life. But for them, it was only Tuesday. HEAVY SPOILERS FOR SETH'S SFV STORY MODE AND ENDING. and in a lesser intensity, Rose's. -----------------------------------------------------------------------------

This is M. Bison. Bison is one first class A-hole who runs the biggest crime syndicate on the world (Shadaloo), wants to spark global destruction if not given global domination and has a tendency to kidnap 16 year old girls.  Bison also wields something called Psycho Power. Through profane rituals (more of this in a bit), He is the biggest source/receptacle of it. this power is also destroying his body, which leads to the only thing he likes more than kidnapping 16 year old girls: Body Swapping. The body in the picture is not his original body, not even his first, but is the... model we are most used to see him using. This is how you would imagine him if one mentioned M. Bison. In SFV he finally got grey/white hair, but originally this body had black hair.

however...

These are Ed and Falke. They are CLONED Bodies of Bison, They are both spare bodies for M. Bison, created in a attempt to build a body strong enough to hold his power. They are both of the most recent attempt, the newer models so to speak. As far as we know, they are all biological (a point that will come up later) and since CAPCOM use the word CLONES, they share the same DNA as Bison. Physically speaking, they are around their late teens, although being much younger actually (both suffered from accelerated aging). They escaped Shadaloo due to the fact that an older model ended up destroying the base where they were being held. speaking of the Devil....

These are Seth and Abel.  Also, spare bodies of Bison. But (un)fortunately, they developed a conscience and independence. While Abel ran away and joined the french army, Seth created a splinter cell from Shadaloo called S.I.N. and planned a hostile takeover of the syndicate. One interesting fact is that both Seth and Abel are the SAME MODEL of bodies, but Seth installed the upgrade of the Tanden Engine on his body. So Seth was once like Abel and if given enough time and the proper modifications, Abel could become like Seth.  One recent release on Street Fighter V revealed the Seth was always more machine than man. If that is plainly due the Tanden Engine modification and what this means to Abel, its still unknown. both (Abel more than Seth) still have Bison’s DNA on them. Also, Bison considers this batch of clones a FAILED experiment Seth was the final Boss of Street Fighter IV, and Abel was the protagonist of that series. but, the older models are the more interesting ones.

These are Cammy and Decapre. Both are the oldest clone models player knew until recently. They are also fully biological and the first successful vessels for Psycho Power. Decapre is actually a “ Cammy Alpha“, a first attempt to create Cammy herself. Being fully biological, they ALSO carry Bison’s DNA. While Cammy became independent and joined the British Army, Decapre stayed brainwashed and a weapon for Shadaloo until recently (SFIV). Both Decapre and Cammy were part of a shadaloo project call “The Dolls project“: Most of the Dolls were the kidnapped teenage girls mentioned before, who were also test beds for Bison’s mind control via psycho power. There were 12 Dolls (Decapre and other 11), with Cammy being a 13th, codenamed Killer Bee. As of now, you probably noticed: 3 males, 3 females. We might be onto something here. But remember that profane ritual I mentioned? One of the results was this lady here...

This is Rose. In order to get full access to Psycho Power, Bison had to EXPEL ALL THE GOOD ENERGY FROM HIS SOUL. No joking. the good half of Bison’s Soul incarnated on a young Italian GIRL who was being born that moment and who grew up to be a incredible psychic and fortune teller ,plus the most powerful user of the SOUL POWER, the opposite to Bison’s Psycho Power. so Rose is the REINCARNATION of Bison’s soul, or at least half of it. After the events of SF Alpha 3, Bison even used Rose’s body as a vessel, to hide himself from the authorities. How she was freed and what happened to her during SFII is still unknown. Street Fighter V didn't really expanded on the relationship between Rose and Bison, as much as confirmed that as of the end of A Shadow Falls (SFV general story mode), Bison's is truly gone, at least as definitive as Rose can sense. Let's also remember that, until the interference of Rose herself, Cammy/Killer Bee was considered a succesfull attempt at creating the perfect body. If Rose hadn't freed Cammy's mind, which was as close to a blank slate and receptive as possible, its highly probable that Bison would be using her body instead. Still with me? STREET FIGHTER V: ARCADE EDITION added another point on this list: SETH was released in 2020 as a playable character, part of Season IV. HOWEVER, the FORM he appeared is quite the surprise.

THIS IS SETH! YES, THAT SAME SETH!! (a name tag on SFV confirms this is number 15, the seth that was at the center of SFIV events) After having all of his bodies destroyed during SFIV, his brain was placed by Juri on an old body known as DOLL UNIT 0. The interesting thing here is that Jury is doing this in behalf of a third party, identified only as voice on phone. This voice expected a male body, while Juri didn't even noticed (or cared) that Seth or DU0's had a gender. Doll Unit 0's body accepted Seth's biological brain without a problem. Seth's mind however, is on turmoil. When integrating with the DU0' original personality, something went wrong and Seth went completely batshit crazy. He only sees Psycho Power, and mistook Ed and Falke as being Bison himself, due to their Psycho Power energy. Some lines, such as this Seth is true perfection hints on a ongoing attempt of accepting the new body. The Arcade mode ending and an extra Seth on his Critical Art during his V-trigger 1 also hints that Seth's true power lies in the INTEGRATION with this new body. ALL OF THESE, ALL OF IT, are just canon facts from the SF series lore.  now for the speculation. Bison is not using the original body. And psycho power, specially the levels Bison desires, requires quite the strong one, which factors on why his current body is failing these days. why he had to abandon his original body? My only guess is that the profane ritual either destroyed it in the process or damaged it beyond repair. but at this point, Bison already had gained the power to posses other bodies. Doll Unit 0, the prototype for the perfect vessel, is female. Bison’s soul incarnated on a female body and until very recently, when his clone technology developed enough to create more radical deviations, the clones were all female. While there is several attempts of male bodies they are a late development and not only there is only one almost successful male body, it is the one that requires constant replacing AND Bison is trying to upgrade from, because it's not enough. But, the creation of a male body is stiil on the table and being attempted. Considering CAPCOM’s own words, that Seth is more machine than man, we can guess that Abel is probably just the biological basis for Seth, who is mostly the Tanden Engine and a biological brain. This is what was implemented into Doll Unit 0, who was completely female at that point, maybe even fully biological since Cammy, the earliest successful clone so far is fully biological as well. If we compare to real world cloning technology, cloning someone of the same gender is easier and more direct than altering the gender. Then there is the not-satated-but-extremely-obvious-fact that DU0 was the true first attempt at the tech that would produce Cammy, meaning, Shadaloo’s cloning tech was tested with HER. This also means that Doll Unit 0 IS EXTREMELY SIMILAR, IF NOT IDENTICAL, TO BISON'S ORIGINAL BODY. in conclusion: Bison’s original body is FEMALE and something close to this:

Thanks BbbSFXT from Deviant Art for the Mod and the picture. On the last version, I considered Mistress Bison being blonde, but thinking it through, it was more wishful thinking, trying to make them close to Cammy. Clones being a blonde is probably a side effect of DNA manipulation. Blond hair is recessive, and putting on the simplest, almost insulting way possible, it means blonde only happens if both sides of the DNA have the same code for hair. Since Bison is using the same DNA over and over, it makes sense clones would end up blonde. This also fits with DU0 being a very early prototype, with almost Bison's entire DNA intact, including the code for them hair. And now let's talk mysticism: There is the whole Yin/Yang theme surround everything Psycho Power, explicitly shown in Seth's design, but it was already there, at least as early as the Alpha/Zero series. In the balance of the Yin/Yang symbolism, Yin, the black part, can represent a “feminine principle” and also, can be a suffix/preffix meaning shadow. While Yang, the white part, can represent a “masculine principle” and also can be a suffix/preffix meaning light. these are parts in all living beings, be them male or female.

Psycho Power, the shadow, is feminine. Soul Power, the light, is masculine. There is a inversion of the symbolism here, with Bison, the male body, using the yin and Rose, the female body, using the yang. But the catch is: Rose is not a traditional reincarnation of Bison (obvious reasons) but received Bison's yang, on top of her natural one. This counts on why Rose is so powerful with Soul power. And while she doesn't seem to suffer a physical instability like Bison, as fortune teller and psychic, seem to be incredibly sensitive to strong emotions and energies around her (How the mind of G affected her on SFV being a exemple), I would argue that this extreme sensitiveness is the side effect of that extra yang energy. Let's also consider that while Bison wants MORE shadow and went way beyond what his natural body could hold, Rose stayed pretty much at her natural levels, as far as we know. So Bison's instability can be accounted as using insane levels of pure feminine energy inside a male body. Seth, the genderless one, will only find harmony in accepting his female body. Rose, the female body, is the only of them to have any kind of control and estability. This all points towards Mistress Bison, and that's the hill I'm dying on. this also ties to the idea proposed by Steven Mane: Psycho Power is closely related to the feminine and can't function properly, or at all, with men. Bison forcing that is the base reason for the physical instability. Which leads us to... ------------------------------------------------------------------------------

Steven Mane's alternative theory of Psycho Power

The main gist here is that there isn't really any indication that Bison's OG body is any different from the one he uses today (which is true. There isn't a single line about it on the canon sources). The initial lack of male clones is accounted simply as that we haven't seen enough male clones, and they might have existed since Killer Bee's times. In his views, everything so far points to Bison desiring a male body. However, Psycho power works better with women, or was meant to be used by women. There is another fighting game with a similar plot, Skullgirls, in which the main McGuffin for that story is a mystical artifact that only works with women, which is why most of the cast of that game is female. And after Rose's SFV ending, I wouldn't put behind CAPCOM to lift another game's plot point for their own, specially one that would fit well with the already stablished canon. However, Steven Mane's best argument for this comes from SFA3 itself, or rather, the PSP version of SFA3. But before we get to that, let's go down on the memory lane and remember the facts.

Street Fighter Alpha 3 MAX, also known as Street Fighter Zero 3 Double Upper in Japan, is so far the last version of Street Fighter Alpha 3 released and it is an exclusive of the Playstation Portable console. The Alpha/Zero Series is the main focal point when talking about Bison and Psycho Power, as it's the series where Rose first appeared and in Alpha 3, we have the only canon appearance of Cammy as Killer Bee (on the intro of her first fight against Rose) and the first playable Dolls, Juli and Juni. SFA3 MAX is also, up to the publication of this, the only game in the series to have a guest character (the jury is still out on SFV last season V character). "Wait, Tony" you ask "Don't you mean 4 guest characters?" Eagle and Maki are not guests: They were always part of the Street Fighter franchise, and are contemporary to the events of the game . Yun makes a non-canon appearance which is explained by time travel (in his own quotes), since the events of Alpha series happen way when he was nothing but a toddler. But he is still part of the franchise, so not a guest, per se.

Ingrid, however, is a conundrum wrapped inside a enigma and kept inside a locked puzzle box missing some of its pieces. That is inside a cave inside a volcano under the pacific ocean. On the mariana trenches.

Ingrid is from a failed, unreleased CAPCOM game called CAPCOM Fighting All-Stars. Her first playable appearance is the ill-received crossover game CAPCOM Fighting Jam, known in Japan as CAPCOM Fighting Evolution.

In All-Stars, she was kind of a regular fighter, with a special importance to the plot and final boss. The very little we know about the plot hints on her being something beyond human. She carried a code Isis, is nicknamed the Eternal Goddess, and is said to posses the power of longevity.

On Fighting Jam, she has to solve some issues she had with Pyron, the final boss of that game and an alien who is basically a living sun and is hinted to be what ended the dinosaurs (i swear this is Darkstalkers Canon) Her ending there is... weird.

I brought this up because it adds a tiny little bit of context to her SFA3 MAX ending.

Ingrid claims ownership of the psycho power. Notice that its the power itself, not the Psycho Drive Bison's uses. And Bison is aware of that. Roses recognizes both as users of Psycho Power, even though she doesn't recognizes Ingrid. Also note at 00:59 that the focus point of the psycho drive carries Ingrid's Seal, the same one on the cups on her head AND the one she summons on her Fighting Jam ending. Oh, and she is capable of time travel. but no mention if she was the one who brought Yun to SFA3 time, though. What this all mean? Speculation time: According to Steven Mane's theory: With Ingrid being the creator of psycho power, Psycho power works better with women. You can even explain Bison's obsession with 16 year old girls: They are the ones who closely resemble Ingrid, who he knows is the original source of that power. This also explain why Bison's desire of a male body directly conflicts with psycho power: It was never meant for such body. and why there is so much female clones: It simply the result of experiments to see what fits better. But Bison is trying to get around this: He has been experimenting on both, noticing that male bodies deteriorate way faster, confirmed that female ones fit better, but for reasons only known to himself, this was not enough. The genderless Seth, a sentient machine build to gather psycho power, was Bison's latest attempt of circumvent the body type limitation, but it still didn't work (as stated by Bison himself) This is where Steven Mane's theory ends. But from that, we can jump to other conclusions: Ingrid is a goddess and is the source of Psycho Power energy. Notice that she is not the source of soul power though, so behind her innocent face, behind those red eyes, lies something sinister and evil. (Or maybe, Soul Power is simply Psycho Power with another name? Rose might be the one hiding something...) [Small June/2021 update: After a lazy Sunday re-reading the SF30th's bios, its is clear that Soul Power is not just Psycho Power with a different name. So if you want to follow this line of thought through, you have to consider that Ingrid is EVIL, or at least deals heavily with negative energies (closer to Akuma than Bison). and it opens the possibility of a God/Goddess of Soul Power somewhere out there on the SF Universe. but that is speculation for another time.]

Ingrid is time-travelling to specific points in time to collect parts of her power. Bison was one of those who stole it. Pyron probably did it too, and in 201X, Ryu has something to do with it.

Oh, extra fact: SFIII, the last game on the timeline, happens in 1999. SFV, the game that was released on the 10's, canonically happens during 1998. So the Ryu she is supposed to meet next is YET to appear (maybe in SF6?).

And because she is a time travellng goddess, not a dimension hopping one this means a direct connection between the worlds of Darkstalkers, Street Fighter and Red Earth, the three franchises from CAPCOM Fighting Jam: Darkstalkers' Human World could be considered to be Street Fighter's Earth, and Red Earth is literally another planet on the same universe, hinting a bigger CAPCOM shared timeline then we expected. We can also speculate that Bison ultimate goal would not be just global domination but to replace Ingrid as god/goddess of psycho power. And she took Yun to 1989 just for the LuLz. Why I didn't mentioned Ingrid up there in MY theory? because of CFN Portal. The Capcom Fighters Network Portal is essentially the final word on who is canon in Street Fighter. Released together with SFV, its a well documented, weirdly organized and deep source of any street fighter or final fight character you can imagine. Those 2 guys fighting on the intro of SF2 got bios there. As well as Hakan's daughters and Elena's Family. Heck, CFN Portal is the place that finally settled Chun-li's father name as Dorai.

There is also relevant guest characters and characters who appeared in other games but that CAPCOM consider part of the franchise and canon, such as Blade from the Street Fighter: The Movie game (now part of the North American operations of Shadaloo) and... Ruby Heart from MARVEL vs CAPCOM 2 (a version of her actually, before the events of that game). Ingrid is clearly shown as a guest character and NOT part of the street fighter franchise, as she does not have the SF franchise standard background. the only ones who this happen are special guests from, such as the ones from Street Fighter EX and Street Fighter 2010. Ingrid is also described there with her bio from CAPCOM Fighting All-Stars, rather then her own story on SFA3 MAX or even CAPCOM Fighting Jam, in a way making her role on SFA3 MAX similar to Evil Ryu's: A what-if non-canon scenario of the events of the game, that has no bearing on the main plot. Evil Ryu's ending are always Ryu kills everybody and wants more blood, never really explaining anything. Evil Ryu is more important as a visual representation of the dark side of Ryu rather than a character itself'. and because of that precedent, when CAPCOM itself gave her non-canon status, it's better to err on the side of caution and not consider her direct influence and acts when speculating about the plot and lore, unless they are the only source of some kind of hinted information. And there is one very canon character who has a situation like that. Killer Bee. As I mentioned before, the ONLY time Cammy acts as Killer Bee in canon is on her SFA3 arcade/story mode: In her intro against Rose, her very first fight, She initially starts under control of Bison. Rose actually recognizes Bison's Power and frees her, even before the fight starts. The fight itself is actually framed as a violent reaction to being freed. but there is a game where we can see Killer Bee Cammy in all her brainwashed glory: X-men vs Street Fighter. Released before Alpha 3 and the first game where Cammy is shown with her Alpha design. Her quotes there shows a profound reverence to Bison AND some are mechanical in nature. Goddess Ingrid (to differentiate a bit from Code Holder Ingrid) could be one of these instances: Canonically speaking, we know very little about Bison: What are his motivations, why he desires such levels of power or anything that would elevate him from one dimensional antagonist. Sagat started as that and became one of the most developed characters of the franchise. Gill is from the straight go good intentions that will end up bad. Seth is the whole reason of this essay, so I don't need to show you anymore how he turned out a interesting character. and there is G, who is either a suicide cult leader still looking for followers, or the savior of mankind. Not to mention that most players thought as a good guy until Rose's ending. like, holy psycho powered cow... Bison is still just the dictator who wants to rule the entire world. And the only character that deals with Psycho Power in a way that is not just evil power for the evil dictator is a character that, as far as CAPCOM is concerned, is not even acknowledged as the relevant version.

[blkmxrvel]

A Millions Reasons

Pairing: Alex Danvers x Female!Reader

Words: 1,955

Summary: You’re sick and tired of Alex’s mind games. One day she has you thinking that you’re the only person in your heart and then the next, it’s like she doesn’t even know you. You love her, but you aren’t sure how much more of this you can take. Based on ‘Million Reasons’ by Lady Gaga

Warnings: Angst, Briefly Implied Smut, Insecurities, Crying, Wlw

A/N: This is my entry for @flatbottomholland ‘s writing challenge! I hope you all enjoy this! This broke my heart, I love Alex so much. This is so bad I’m so sorry. It really turn out I envisioned it to be.

Walking into the DEO, you had tried to make the best out of today. You woke up 30 minutes late, your clothes weren’t dry, and you weren’t having a good hair day by any means. You just wanted a fresh clean start.

A chorus of “Y/N, you’re late” and “What happened” rang through your ears as you walked up to Winn’s desk.

“Hey.” You rang out and ran a hand through your hair. Winn turned around and waved quickly.

“Hey! I thought you were staying home today, it’s like an hour after you were supposed to be in.”

“Yeah I know,” you sat in the chair next to him. “Not a good day today.”

Winn shrugged and didn’t press any further. He turned back to his computer, you following suit.

Out of your right ear, you heard laughter that you would immediately recognize anywhere. Your girlfriend, Alex. You turned your head to look at her, only to regret it a moment later.

Alex was talking to Maggie, way to close for your liking. You had no idea what they were laughing about and you didn’t care. This was a constant cycle with Alex, she’d only acknowledge your presence when you were at home, but when you were in public places, it was like she didn't’ even know you.

You were pretty sure that you weren’t losing your mind. Your dignity-- a strong maybe-- but you were almost positive that your mind was intact.

So, you had no idea why you continued to let Alex toss your heart around like a forgotten rag doll, when you knew you could do so much better. You didn’t deserve to have your emotions played, to be treated like a queen one day and complete shit the next.

You loved Alex, that much was obvious. It was very clear that you would do anything for her. She had your whole heart, and you thought that you had hers.

But clearly, you were wrong.

It was a cool, October day. The leaves came tumbling down from the sky as you walked into your shared apartment. It was warm, quiet, and any other day you would be joyous, but today, you could only sigh.

You shrugged off your coat, placing it and your scarf on the rack, before plopping down on the couch. It was warm, quiet. Alex wasn’t here, as per usual. You hadn’t seen her in a few days, which was quite alarming since you lived in the same apartment.

You weren’t quite sure what her deal was. It was great a few days ago, she had taken you out on a date; she was happy and smiling and you were reminded of just how in love with her you were. But, you knew Alex, and with her, you never knew what you were going to get.

You were 5 seconds away from going to sleep when the hushed creak of the front door made you pry open your heavy eyes. It was Alex, obviously, and you subconsciously rolled your eyes.

Your girlfriend of 2 years hadn’t noticed you until she saw a movement coming from her left. You had adjusted your position on the couch, head facing the back and buried in the crook of your elbow.

You felt the couch shift, indicating that Alex had just sat next to you. You weren’t in the mood for her games. You didn’t know whether she was just going to ignore you again or try to act like nothing had ever happened. Either way, you wanted no part of it.

“Y/N..Babe, wake up please.” She shook your legs lightly and you pretended to stir like you were asleep. Groaning, and turned on your back, rubbing your eyes and not bothering to look Alex in face.

“Wow, we’re actually home at the same time for a chance, I’m surprised you even remember my name.”

“What’s that supposed to mean?” Alex tilted her head, feigning confusion and offense.

“You know what it’s supposed to mean, Alex. I don’t have time for this, not today.” You huffed and stood from the couch, walking towards the kitchen.

“Time for what?” You heard Alex start to follow you. You didn’t answer. She grabbed your arm.

“Y/N what are you talking about? What don’t you have tim-”

“This!” You turned to face her, throwing your arms into the air. “I don’t have time for this, this dance that we do. That you do with me. Sometimes, I don’t even think you want to be with me.”

“Of course I do. Y/N where is this coming fro-”

“Let me finish. Please.” She nodded her head. “There are days where you make me feel like the only girl in the world. Days where it’s like nothing could ever go wrong, like everything is perfect. And then reality sets in.” Your voice had started to break and you looked down at your fingers, broken-hearted.

“I get that your have your days, you know? I get when you don’t want to talk to anyone or be around people, I get it. But lately, the only one you’ve been acting that way towards is me. It’s like a switch is flipped in your heart. Like suddenly, I’m not worth it. Like you don’t want anything to do with me. And I don’t understand it.”

Alex started took a step toward you, and you took two steps away from her in response.

“I love you, Alex. I really, really love you. I want to spend the rest of my life with you, but-”

Alex walked up to you quickly, grabbing your hands and holding them firmly. You let her, secretly liking the way her touch still made your heart flutter. But then it broke your heart.

“No, please don’t leave me, babe. You know I love you, I want you. I always have and I always will.”

“See,” you chuckled dryly. “that’s the thing. I want to believe you, so bad. But I can’t. Because it’s always one thing after the next. You give me a million reasons to leave you, a million reasons to walk out that door and never look back. Whether it’s you ignoring me, or being cold towards me, or forgetting date nights or ditching me to hang out with Maggie.”

“That’s what this is about, your jealous of Maggie?”

“I’m jealous of everyone, because they get to see you more than I do, your fucking girlfriend. They get to hear about everything first, they get to see your smile or hear your laugh first. I’m not one of your priorities anymore, we both know it.” Alex pulled you into her by your waist when she noticed the tears falling down yours at an alarmingly rate. It broke her heart to see how much damage she had to you, to your relationship.

“You don’t even know the pain you cause me, how many times I cry alone in our bed at night. Because of the things you do. I try to reason, and rationalize. I tell myself that I’m just overthinking and I worry too much. Because then you’re nice, you love me again. Even if it’s for a few days, I feel your love. I feel better. And it shouldn’t be like that. I won’t let it be that way.”

“Y/N, please don’t do this-”

“I’m not the one who’s doing it. I’m not the one who’s tearing us apart one heartbeat at a time. It’s you, we both know it is.”

Alex sniffled and the first tear came out of her eyes. She moved a hand that was on your lower back and wiped her eyes. You were whipped, and couldn’t stand to see her cry no matter how many times your tears were because of her. So you brought both of your hands up and placed them on her cheeks, rubbing the pads of your thumbs into her ever growing dark circles.

“I’m sorry,” she muttered. “It may not seem like I am, but I’m sorry. You know I never meant to hurt you, I have no excuse as to why I did what I did, why I made you feel like shit. But, I love you, baby. I do. I have no rationale or reasoning, but I don’t want you to leave me, I’m willing to do whatever it takes. I want you here, with me, forever.” You smiled a light smile, with love and adoration just pooling in your eyes.

“Give me a reason.” You said after a few minutes of silence. Your face was now a bit more stoic, not so soft.

“What?”

“I have a million and three reasons to walk away right now, but because I love you, and I see the good in everyone. If you give me one very good reason to stay, I will.” You lifted yourself a bit on your toes and kissed the tip of Alex’s nose that was red from crying.

“It’s that easy? It can’t be that easy.” She responded in shock.

You laughed like you used to, before doubt and grief had found it’s way into your heart.

“No, it’s not. I need a reason to stay, love. To give you a chance and not give up on you.”

“A good one, right?”

“Extremely.” You could feel Alex’s heart start to beat a tiny bit faster, and the way her hands got a bit clammy while resting on your back.

“Well, I don’t know why you would give me a second chance. I’m an asshole. I didn’t realize what I was doing at first, but I’m an asshole. I don’t want to be one, especially not with you. I’m not okay with that, and I’m glad you aren’t either. That’s why I love you, because you’re strong, and loving and caring and you aren’t afraid to give anyone tough love.”

“Flattery won’t get you anywhere, Alex.”

“I’m not done!” You both smiled at each other. “I know it won’t be easy to believe, but from now on, I will be doing my job as a girlfriend. I will put you first, I won’t ever single you out, I will prove to you that you have every last bit of my heart. That you’re the only one who can make me fall in love every single time I see your face. Give me two weeks, a month tops, and I promise I will kiss, cuddle, hug and love every single one of your doubts away. If not, you can walk away. I know I’m not perfect, but for you, I will stop at nothing to make sure I damn near am.”

You stood in silence for awhile. You were trying to process Alex’s words, staring into her eyes and replaying each syllable in your head. You let it sink it, travel from your ears, to your brain, then your heart. Alex got worried, thinking that her reason wasn’t a good enough one. She bit her lip while her eyes started to tear up again.

Noticing this, you leaned on your toes, smashing your lips on Alex’s passionately, hands still holding her face. Her eyes bulged out of her head in shock before she started to kiss you back. She slipped her cold hands inside your shirt, rubbing them up and down your warm back.

Your lips stayed connected with hers until you couldn’t breathe, and when you pulled away, you saw stars, hearts, fireworks and everything that you love about Alex.

“Your time starts now, baby.” you pulled on her shirt and started to step back, dragging her with you. You kept your eyes on hers while you walked into your shared bedroom and falling on the bed with her on top.

“Prove it.”

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As citizens of Zimbabwe, we all know someone who has been the victim of some kind of scam related to real estate property. It may be a person who is a seller of land or who does not own or has not been sold. It is a reasonable reason for us to be a buyer before purchasing a property and to adequately protect them for purchase.