#fuck literally everyone with a fucking NaNoWriMo account

[cinnamonfridge]

I am so fucking done with all those fucking retarded morons at NaNoWriMo.

Fuck every god damn one of you. Go die in a mother fucking fire.

I'm actually glad I'm dying. Can't wait to see the end. But fucking know this... everything I ever posted is about to become public and I mean everything. Even all the moderator posts. See, I have an export of my account data from late May so it contains a lot of shit that staff and certain moderators don't want posted.

This is what you fucking pieces of shit have earned. May all of you and @nanowrimo burn in fucking hell.

[blaacknoir]

Hi, you recently reblogged a post about how Nanowrimo is not disallowing or disavowing AI because doing so is classist and ablist and in your tags suggested that you consider this "yikes."

Honestly, it kind of hurt my feelings as a person with a disability who occasionally uses AI as a disability aid. Let me explain.

I use AI frequently for word recall. I have ADHD- a lot of people do. Many people with ADHD, including myself, struggle with word recall. It can be extremely bad, but how bad it is day to day is variable, and not all people with ADHD struggle with this to the same degree. When my word recall is really bad, NLP's (Natural Language Processors) are practically tailor-made to find that exact word I need. As an example, I used AI to remind me just now about the term "Natural Language Processor," which, along with the term "machine learning," is frankly just a better description than AI for these tools. But I will continue using the term AI for convenience.

The fact that people do not imagine this sort of use in conjunction with AI IS a form of ablism. They immediately assume all use is infringing. If they actually talked to people with disabilities (who do use AI), they would discover these other uses, and perhaps the conversation could be elevated to a more constructive state instead of trying to make everyone who uses a tool feel "yikes" for using it. Many of us are extremely conscientious and well informed of the issues involved.

Consider that if someone has said something is ablist (or classist or any other -ist,) they just might have a point and that you should try to discover what that point is before assuming that it's fake. Don't take everything at face value, but don't dismiss it out of hand either. Listen to people who have differing opinions and try to get the nuances of the conversation.

When people think about AI being used in conjunction with writing and visual art, they only consider the egregious uses - which makes sense, as that is how AI is advertised; as a magic technology that solves ALL problems. But those egregious uses are not the only use of these tools. AI does not have to be a magic wand that replaces the creative process of an artist. I have given one example of such a use above, but I could list many more.

If your "yikes" is in regard to the ecological impact - I hope that the overzealous implementation of AI into everything takes the ecological facts into account and that is ammealorated, but please do not throw people with disabilities under the bus while trying to make buses less polluting.

//The only use of AI in this post was to help me remember the word Natural Language Processor - I know my tone is pretty formal and sometimes comes across as AI, but it's not.

Jeezly fucking crow, dude. It was a single-word comment. I hope you sent this to literally everyone else who commented in a similar manner.

I use AI frequently for word recall. I have ADHD- a lot of people do. Many people with ADHD, including myself, struggle with word recall. It can be extremely bad, but how bad it is day to day is variable, and not all people with ADHD struggle with this to the same degree. When my word recall is really bad, NLP's (Natural Language Processors) are practically tailor-made to find that exact word I need. As an example, I used AI to remind me just now about the term "Natural Language Processor," which, along with the term "machine learning," is frankly just a better description than AI for these tools. But I will continue using the term AI for convenience.

I also have ADHD. I also struggle with word recall. You know what I do? I google things. I use dictionary and thesaurus websites. I use OneLook, which suggests associated words, similar words, and similar concepts.

Not everyone who uses AI is stealing from artists, no, but it's well known that AI does scan people's art--almost always without their consent--to generate pieces. It's also been seen around places like AO3, scraping fics from unlocked accounts.

Personally, I dislike the implication that disabled (or poor--that's what "classist" means here) people are incapable of writing without an AI generating something for them. I've written 100k+ words on AO3, and all of them are mine. I've talked to friends, I've written parallel fics, I've rewritten my own stories, but those words are mine. I wrote them. A disabled person. To imply that I need AI to do that pisses me off.

And believe it or not, my primary dislike of AI isn't ableist or classsist or whatever. (I'm not even against all forms of AI! I understand that in some fields, analyitical AI is quite helpful--I've read that it's great at finding breast cancer, for example.) My primary beef with AI, especially generative AI like ChatGPT is the fact that:

It will just lie to you. It will just make up things. There are people who have used it in court cases (it didn't work), and there are people using it to write books--everything from cookbooks to mushroom identification guides. (Guess what amateurs need expert help with when they're starting out? You know, so they don't die?) It's also happened with animal care guides. AI doesn't need to be used in a generative context at all.

There is also a massive environmental impact that I rarely, if ever, see talked about.

[thehighladywrites]

Hey! Can I ask a few questions? Imma ask my every fav author these.

1. How long have you been Writing?

2. Are you planning to make a profession out of this or just doing it for fun?

3. Who or which character do you prefer to write more for?

4. What do you do when you're out of ideas?

5. Lastly, Will plz give an advice for the young writers out that.

hi sweet anon, ofc you can!!💗💗 also thank you omg😭😭

1. I’ve been writing for anime characters since 2020 on twitter, wattpad and ao3 but i stopped in 2022 bc school killed me. And now I’ve been writing on this acotar blog since october 2023💗

2. I have no idea what the future holds but for now, i’m thinking just as a hobby. I’ve participated in nanowrimo in my school district and i won back when i was like 15-16. It was really fun and i started writing more and more with anime characters and now i’ve expanded. But i’m only keeping it as a hobby i think😵‍💫💗

3. My fav characters to write for are sanzu from tokyo revengers, eren from aot, gojo, toji, nanami and geto from jjk, the entire msby team from haikyuu, the hashiras from demon slayer and everyone in acotar tbh but the ic is my fav, especially the guys + vanserra brothers.

4. I’m gonna be honest, i don’t really run out of ideas, it’s more about motivation. Bc i can come up with the wildest plot and the most jaw dropping storyline but i just sometimes can’t find it in me to write it all down. But if i ever find myself in that situation, i just go back to my old notes and what i used to write. Or i go to tiktok and see what’s trending and make a fic/headcanons out of it. For example my bow trend idea was from tiktok and i just edited in bows to the pictures.

5. For the writers out there, my biggest tip is not loosing hope. It was really hard in the beginning and I considered just deleting my accounts several times but i didn’t. It seems impossible at first but i promise it will not be like that forever. And consistency is key. If i don’t want to post anything, i just yap och post something random tbh.

And connect with other writers on this app. Don’t be afraid like i was. I was literally moots-less on my old accounts for like 2-3 months bc i was scared😭😭 writers and my moots are so fucking nice, especially in the acotar fandom. Everyone are so sweet and i promise they’re really fun and nice to talk to.

If you’re worried at all, please do not have any doubts. Just hit me up or message me whatever you want!! I’m always available and I love to make new friends💗💗

[losttheoldone-hereweareagain]

I've been a consistent user of the official Nanowrimo site for over ten years. And I finally deleted my account

I'm just so fucking tired of the way every company under the sun has to pretend generative AI is a good thing that everyone should get on board with. Anyone who has been paying attention can tell the whole thing is gonna crash and burn. Between the inevitable plagiarism lawsuits, the tendency to cannibalize what it can't steal, the output that is currently termed "AI hallucinations", and the way it's literally making people dumber (WHY ARE YOU USING CHATGPT AS A SEARCH ENGINE?? WHY?? I genuinely do not have the energy or time to explain how truly stupid it is to do that shit), generative AI will. not. last.

And yet so many companies and platforms have piled onboard that bandwagon and tout it as this amazing tool, lying about everything from capabilities to sustainability

The way the tech industry currently runs is literally that old dumb quote "if all your friends jumped off a cliff, would you?" Because they do exactly that ALL THE DAMN TIME

[22ratonthestreet]

horrible au concept: tma but it's a high school drama au and they're all theater kids. Jon is the like head editor for the school newspaper, Elias is class president and claims to kin the school's founder, Sasha gets switched for a semester abroad with like a transfer student and as a running joke everyone pretends they're the same person, Gertrude got expelled and Martin goes through the theatre prop storage trying to set out fly paper because fuck dude there's an infestation and finds a (1/)

(2/) prop skull from their production of Hamlet and jokes that it's Gertrude, Nikola is one of the gay theatre nerds that gets waaay too into method acting, Georgie and Melanie run school spirit events or a school social media account, Leitner is a history teacher that everyone just fucking despises, like literally everything is just weird private high school shenanigans and not supernatural

i’ll make this highschool/college unspecified, just: theater students. some of the professors/teachers are fears, the Eye is absolutely that creative writing teacher that knows too much about you because they read your silly little nanowrimo story and understood more about you than your own parents. 

you fucking GOT me at ‘kin the school founder’ youre RIGHT he’d be the student that like... purposefully ignores you until you address him by the name of the founder. he also claims ownership over the prop skull (rip barnabus) and everyone knows it’s not true. 

also uniforms... theater kids get a pass during tech week cause they claim they need to stay in their costumes a hour before rehearsal

[areyouscarletcold]

Concerning November and Beyond

I’ve been going back and forth on this decision for nearly two months now, but I’ve finally decided to announce it: for the first time in four years, I'm doing NaNoWriMo again!

This may not seem like a big deal, but the last project I finished was a first draft of a novel that got entirely scrapped, and NaNoWriMo has always been difficult for me to finish in the past due to word counts, being busy, and having no motivation whatsoever. However, I’ve solidified what I’m going to be writing this year after warring between three different ideas (one of which was to add onto BBST until it was finished, but I kinda want to complete BBST without 50k hanging over my head like the sword of Damocles, thanks), so I decided fuck it, I’m writing this au if it kills me.

Which...is ironic, given what fic I’m writing, actually.

I’m not going to spoil anything, for reasons, but I’ll be posting excerpts for Six Sentence Sunday once my challenge of Writober ends - though, here’s a hint, if you follow me on Twitter...I’ve already posted a few excerpts ;) so look into that. And I can say that while this fic may not be for everyone, both ship and content-wise, I’m looking forward to getting it written and to seeing reactions from those of you who don’t and definitely do know what’s coming cough cough Kate cough.

So what I will tell you is:

this fic is currently titled but me you have forgotten

it’s a horror au, which I’m definitely loving and hating myself for already

the current ships I have down are Flashvibe, Parkwest (potentially adding Eddie into this one, but I haven’t decided), Killergold, and Shawna Baez x Patty Spivot. Because, of course, I can’t seem to write anything but rarepairs and Coldflash lately though I will say there’s a reason I forwent Coldflash for this fic because believe me, I thought about it a LOT

this fic will be 7 chapters total, and I’m holding myself accountable now to not go over that limit despite the 50k I’m fighting to hit

I’ll be posting moodboards either throughout November or once I accomplish my goal, because I’ve made quite a few for these characters

As for my other writing priorities (aka BBST, gen fics I have planned, prompts, etc.), I will be keeping up with those as well throughout November. I’m determined to try and finish at least writing, if not posting, BBST before the end of 2019, and I highly doubt it will take me long unless I keep at writing. After all, I do have certain scenes started from way back in April of last year, so it’s just getting to those scenes that’ll be hard. And for now, prompts are going to stay open unless I get spammed with 20+ like last time, so I may try and ask for some little ficlets to write every now and then.

This week, Chapter 15 of BBST may be going up, depending on how much progress I make on Chapter 16 before October ends, and I do have a gen ficlet that will be posted tomorrow thanks to Kate and I brainstorming again for another au but it was totally worth it and the au is fabulous, so who cares. So look forward to those coming up!

Overall, I’m kind of excited? And terrified? And if I manage to pull NaNoWriMo off for the first time in literal years, I’m probably going to throw myself a party, not gonna lie. Though, I need y’all to please hold me accountable if you see me whining about not wanting to write or posting things I said I would, because I’m not letting myself slide back down that rabbit hole of depression. Not again.

[echodrops]

The Promises I Made (2018)

For the past twelve years, I’ve spent every New Year’s Eve compiling a list of fifty promises I intend to keep or fulfill over the next twelve months. The results have been truly amazing, and I have kept some promises I never thought I could. Although this year was really, really bad, oh lord... This year, for New Year’s, there will be a new set of promises for to me keep, but here are the old ones, for review!

 The Promises I Made (2018 edition)

1) I will be less anxious at work and not let passing comments from students or passive rudeness get under my skin as much. Status: Somewhat kept; I feel like I wasn’t as upset by students being rude this year as last year, but then again that might just be because I had better students. XD

2) I will be more proactive about my responsibilities for the college newspaper committee so we can make a great product. Status: Uhh… Can I count this as kept if the newspaper committee was put on hold due to decisions from the higher administration, so I didn’t have to be proactive about these responsibilities?

3) I will actually visit Mexico, not just accidentally take a wrong turn and end up there... Status: Broken. You know how some people like live next door to a restaurant for years but somehow never get around to trying it? Yeah that’s me, with the entire country of Mexico. Like, I literally live less than a mile from the border… I really should just go get lunch one day or something…

4) I will actually decorate my office with all the stuff I have had sitting around at my house for months. Status: Actually kept. I don’t feel like the decorating is really done in the office, but the decorations are no longer cluttering up my actual home instead of the office!

5) I will be better about focusing so that I can grade quickly and feel less overwhelmed throughout the course of the semester. Status: You know, it’s hard to say whether or not I did grade more quickly because spring semester I took on a really annoying class schedule and it screwed me over hard. I feel like I was a little faster this year, but I felt more overwhelmed than ever.

6) I will get the scratch on my Camaro buffed a bit to clear up the parts that can be cleared. Status: I just… didn’t do this. Broken.

7) I will repair the mortar on the fence outside the Utah house and seal the bricks on the window sills. Status: Somewhat kept/broken. I fixed the mortar on the fence outside but did not seal the windowsill bricks.

8) I will finish at least 26 books over the course of this year. Status: Look man. If my promise had been “Finish 26 fanfics longer than 100,000 words,” I would have blown this promise out of the water. But as it stands, I think I only made it to 10-ish printed books. I’m naughty. 9) I will retrim the grape vine at the Utah house and also spray/get someone to spray to kill the wasps. Status: Broken. I don’t know why I thought it would be smart to make a promise about trimming the grape vine, since that’s something you do in fall… when I’m not even in Utah… Hrmmmm… 10) I will get the mail man to stop delivering the wrong mail to my box because I’m getting ten times more mail for other people than for myself. Status: I had so many opportunities to do this, and I just didn’t. RIP.

11) I will have the fire escape window installed on the Utah house to make it legal to rent. Status: Broken. That’s a lotta money fam.

12) I will update Home and a Half at least four times (and no more double posts, just be chill Yehn, be chill for once…) Status: WOW. I was so, so optimistic, wasn’t I? 13) I will actually build all the furniture I bought for the Texas house and never assembled. Status: Mostly kept? I think there’s like one more thing I haven’t assembled (the spare futon), but up to this point I haven’t needed it, so...

14) I will actually watch Stranger Things since everyone keeps nagging me about it. Status: Broken. I just didn’t do this at all.

15) I will go to a dentist and get this annoying wisdom tooth removed and also see what can be done for my front tooth that got pushed out of alignment by said wisdom tooth. This really needs to happen ‘cause the partially erupted tooth is killing me. D; Status: Wisdom tooth is still hurting me… I am the worst at taking care of myself… 2019… the year of self-care?

16) I will take a road trip with my friend Karen like we’ve been talking about for a while. Status: Actually did this! Finally something completely kept. It was a great trip too.  

17) I will continue to serve as the video game club’s faculty sponsor. Status: I was too busy… T_T Broken.

18) I will lower my credit card debt by at least $2000. Moving is so expensive. T_T Status: I ended up having major set-backs this year in the form of having to pay out of pocket for a new windshield in my car and also my Playstation flat out dying on me, so this goal did not get satisfied. But now that my car is completely paid off (hell yeah!), I’ll finally be able to start making big payments on this sucker.

19) I will have ALL my lesson plans planned out in advance for Fall 2018 so that I can just chill next fall. Status: YO THIS ACTUALLY HAPPENED. There were still some instances of needing to fix things, but overall I did actually have all the lessons done in advance, and that was probably the only reason I survived fall at all lol.

20) I will finish painting the living room in the Utah house, finally. Status: I… forgot I even made this promise. Yikes.

21) I will be better about walking my dog because I have been slacking lately. Status: I wanted to be better, but every fucking time I go to walk my dog, the neighbor’s Chihuahua runs through their fence and tries to attack my dog, so literally every walk becomes a nightmare and there were a lot of days when I just didn’t want to deal with that stress… :/

22) I will finish a game other than FFXIV this year. Man, so many games have been piling up… Status: I couldn’t even find time to play FFXIV this year, let alone another game… 23) I will write a new, original short story. Status: I… did not write like at all this year. 2018 was just really hard for me. T_T

24) I will get my black glasses fixed this year, finally. Status: Uh… Kept… I think? At least I think this promise was referring to the damage to the frames of my black glasses, which I did get fixed. But now the lens has a scratch… V_V

25) I will attend more professional development/on-campus events and trainings to bolster my evaluation. Status: Eh, kept? I’m signed up for a conference and did some extra training thing that I can throw on the sheet, so I’m calling it good.

26) I will ink and color at least the one drawing of Yehn’zi that I finished sketching a while ago and did absolutely nothing with. Status: A whole lot of nope on this one.

27) I will really finish moving in to my Texas house, no more “I’ll fish out the clothes from the Space Bag when I need them but never actually hang them up.” Status: I’m counting this as kept, since the only thing that didn’t happen is that I never took the plastic wrap off the top of my nightstand, but like… hey that’s a really convenient way to avoid water spots so…

28) I will volunteer at a non-profit organization to fulfill my “service to the community” work requirement. I mean, I will volunteer from the goodness of my heart… yeah… Status: Shitttt this didn’t happen and it really needed to… Oh dear…

29) I will level ALL my classes to 70 in Stormblood. Status: This also did not happen. No time to play.

30) I will reach 1000 followers on tumblr. You should follow me. I’m only marginally a waste of time and space. Status: Kept and exceeded! I’m at like… 1540-ish right now I believe.

31) I will find a salon so I can get my hair dyed consistently instead of looking like a shabby blob half way through each semester. Status: Well, the good news is that my hair color fades so nicely that one of my students actually asked if the strawberry blonde was my natural color. But uh… no… it’s not… so…

32) I will find some way to pay back my coworker for all the incredibly nice things she has done for me already. Status: I mean, I took her out to lunch a lot but I don’t know if I really managed to feel “equal” on the debts I owe her for helping me out.

33) I will see an Anhinga (it’s a kind of bird!) in Texas. Status: Kept! The very first time I went looking for it, I found it, so score.

34) I will win Camp NaNoWriMo this year (because November might never be a possibility for me again, given how much grading I seem to end up doing during that month). T_T Status: Broken. Again, I wrote almost nothing this year. Too much stress. T_T

35) I will scout for new neighborhoods to move to with better internet access and closer to my work. Status: Kept. It’s still a bit too early for me to be looking for specific places, but I have a better sense of where I’ll be aiming for when I do go to buy something.

36) I will try to get better at Spanish, possibly by using my DuoLingo app more. Status: …Broken.

37) I will buy sod for the front part of the Utah house so that my house actually looks decent from the curb. Status: I COULD HAVE… But I didn’t.

38) I will be more proactive about commenting, reccing, and reblogging content I appreciate online because I find so many wonderful things but I rarely say as much about them as I should. Status: I think I was worse about this than last year. I miss the days when I didn’t feel like every five minutes taken to myself was stealing from my work responsibilities…

39) I will actually use my Instagram account to upload my photography somewhere public. Status: I forgot I made this promise too. Oops…

40) I will go dolphin-watching in the Gulf. Status: Somewhat kept? I mean… I stood on the pier… And saw dolphins in the Gulf. That counts, right???

41) I will clear all the photos and videos off my phone and camera SD cards because they are overflowing. Status: Kept but now they’re just sitting on the hard drive unsorted and in a confusing jumble of unnamed folders...

42) I will update my calendar with important dates—holidays, birthdays, etc.—and be productive about sending cards and well-wishes. Status: Broken, just totally broken.

43) I will complete my series of posts about Yato/Hiyori. Really. Status: >___> One day…

44) I will not work later than 10pm on any given work night. I can’t keep running myself ragged. I need to brake sometimes. Status: HA. I was really hopeful. More broken promises…

45) I will explore some new places/cities in Texas that I have not been before. Status: I… did not do this. I had a chance to do this and I didn’t. D;

46) I will get a gardener for the Texas house because the lawn is basically unmanageable by myself. Status: Kept. Because… the lawn really was unmanageable by myself so…

47) I will clean out the fridge more often. No expired milk or ancient leftovers this year please… Status: >_____> Ooopppssss.

48) I will get some sort of watering system set up so that the lawn at the Texas house isn’t a total disaster anymore. Status: Somewhat kept. I did buy hoses and sprinklers to water the lawn but mostly it’s just been raining a lot and that made the grass greener on its own.

49) I will help make one of the super complicated cookies from the new cookie cookbook I bought for Karen. Status: Actually kept! We learned much about the workings of cookie guns.

50) I will keep these promises. Status: Ouch, this one hurts a little.

Totals Kept promises: 12 Broken promises: 29 Somewhat kept/broken promises: 9

Y I K E S ™. I thought last year was crazy and was so hopeful for this year… I had NO IDEA how hard this last year was going to be. So many broken promises; I feel so guiltyyyyy. DDDD; Although I’m still at the same job and not planning on dramatically swapping entire career fields again, things are still in the process of settling and there’s still SO much more I feel like I need to work on. 2018 was the year of being constantly overwhelmed. Unfortunately, 2019 doesn’t seem like it’s going to be much calmer because I’m still working on designing classes and getting my lessons ironed out, but I at least no longer feel like I’m at rock bottom… So, I’m cautiously, very cautiously, feeling the tiniest bit optimistic?

  Let’s do this, 2019! The new set of promises will be up by tomorrow.