#ganglians still living

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Ganglians - My House

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my entire life i’ve always hated the doctors for a couple of reasons.

the first reason was i used to fake sick a lot, so ofc i wouldn’t WANT to go lmao.

the second more important reason is that... pretty much every thing i’ve had wrong with me medically, has never been textbook. let’s make a list:

tonsils out - normal

ovarian torsion fixed - scar tissue galore and they’re not even sure if my tubes work

wisdom teeth out - i had an extra tooth

earring hole fixed - normalish

i had a tick right in the corner of my eye once. like only me right?

celiac disease - no symptoms. despite being on a gluten free diet, i still test positive for the disease. (shouldnt happen if you’ve been staying away from what you’re allergic to) and they don’t know why.

i’m on birth control and my periods still aren’t normal and they don’t know why

i randomly had abnormal poops for a couple months last year. they don’t know what was going on there either. colonoscopy and endoscopy came out normal (of course)

my big toe on my left foot like cracks a lot and it hurts almost all the time i wiggle it and this has been going on for YEARS now and i refuse to see a doctor about it because it’s. of course. probably nothing :’)

also for years, i’ve had this bad pain where my right thigh meets my pelvis when my move my leg a certain way? not gonna see a doctor about that either lmao

i had a laporoscopy last year and he cleaned out the scar tissue from #2, not all of it though. apparently my ovaries are like. scar-tissue-glued in place

my cervix was reddened and they don’t know why lmao

i hurt my wrist 2 years ago and i was in a good amount of pain for about a year - blamed it on a ganglian cyst that they said “shouldnt be causing that much pain” and would “eventually go away” it went away but the pain hasn’t. now it’s just on and off every few months or so. i gave up on it

more recently, i’ve had this pain in my side for about a month now that comes and goes regularly. it was extremely painful on sunday (like on the verge of tears painful) and it lasted over 24 hours. yesterday i went to the doctor and they couldn’t find out what was wrong, though they refused to do a CT scan because they didn’t want to expose my ovaries to radiation. no one knows what it is and apparently i might have to live with this for the rest of my life

because of this, i’m always afraid to go to the doctor for anything, because i always think they think i’m lying. like just the mere fact that my side pain was better yesterday, they didn’t really... do anything about it. it worries me that the excruciating pain i had ALL DAY sunday is being essentially ignored because it’s “better” now. its not gone. it’s just slightly less painful. its still very much there, and i’d rather not ignore something that had me on the verge of tears TWICE now.

the fact that i’ve had so many mysteries going on with my body makes me entirely opposed to seeing a doctor about it, because they just don’t... get it. i don’t even think this pain in my side is ovary related. i know it doesnt fit anything else, but it doesn’t FEEL like it’s where my ovary is. i know my body, and since it started i had this feeling that it’s not my reproductive system this time

idk. i guess i’ll see. if someone would give me a damn mri or ct scan, then if nothing shows up there, THEN i’ll be convinced that it’s just “scar tissue” despite the fact that literally a year ago i had that cleaned out. sure