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so angry at this one particular young girl in a few of my classes
she keeps very loudly whining about mary shelley's frankenstein and how it's the worst book she's ever read and that she hopes no one ever has to read it in school and that she hopes we never have to read it in class now. this is such a frustrating take because the point of reading and learning about mary shelley's frankenstein isn't solely about your own personal enjoyment of the novel, which you're free to have an opinion about of course, but that it's an important part of history, that a teenage girl in 1818 wrote one of the earliest examples of science fiction that still influences us to this day. "it's so boring" i do not give a shit stop being an idiot
and when she proudly talked about how in high school, one of the guys in her class had a unibrow (EWW apparently) and how he was single, which by the inflection of her voice we should all understand, but that she took it upon herself as the gracious hero she is to pluck his eyebrows, and guess what - he got a girlfriend after that. so that's one of her proudest moments, apparently. you fucking dumbass stop being proud of perpetuating the bullshit nonsense that if you don't fit stereotypical western beauty ideals you're ugly and you deserve to be alone and that the way to fix that is by conforming to those superficial societal pressures.
and when we were split into different groups in english class and each group had a member tasked to write about the caste system in india. we were in different groups and we both got the caste system so while i'm doing research on how this hierarchical categorization of people works, i'm hearing her, in multiple classes (monday, then friday, then monday again) proudly explain to people "well, the caste system is like... imagine when you die, if you're a bad person, you end up as a worm. but if you're a good person you can maybe get reincarnated as a cat or something and then maybe a human." girl that is the karma system. while not intrinsically separated, they are not synonymous with each other! she never ever even mentioned any part of how the various castes look like in society, just talking about various animals you might be reincarnated as. and finally ended with "i tried to find out more about this but it's so hard to find a good podcast." then don't get your fucking factual historical information from a podcast, which requires more work to fact check.
#i am never not struggling when i have to share a room with her#she's so loud too#very loudly and vocally sharing shitty takes and spreading misinformation she picked up from a podcast because she won't do research#as a protest against her existence i wrote 700 words about the caste system and focused so hard on the social aspect throughout the years#i never even mentioned karma once#god she sucks so bad#''i hope i NEVER have to read mary shelley again'' i hope you one day realize you're a problem
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MANIPULATE MOLD MOMMYNATE
GO JADE GO
#she's playing these two like fiddles#topaz at least is dancing to her tune flawlessly#aventurine i'm not fully convinced isn't playing along on purpose#i feel like he could be seeing through her game because the tone of that message is very exaggerated#compared to how he talks to her otherwise#she can make them worse#hsr#hsr jade#hsr aventurine#hsr topaz#ray's records#god she sucks so bad#leading them along with praise and gifts#i love that for her keep it up ma'am
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SO LIKE. As much as I roll with the Emanator of Elation Sampo theory, I do have. Some doubts about this specific instance of it. Not that I think Boothill is lying, or that I think Sampo isn't an Emanator, but I wonder if the person Boothill actually met was Sampo.
Just! Sampo is so careful. The only reason we even knew he wasn't of Belobog was due to a dialogue-dependent fourth wall-breaking dream sequence that no other character could have seen. It took a missable dream bubble in an out-of-the-way spot that was seemingly left only for the trailblazer at the very end of a side mission just to confirm him as a Masked Fool. Like it's not just the fact that Boothill mentions this person being an Emanator. It's that he knows they're also a Masked Fool, which is also something Sampo is incredibly dodgy about. Sparkle even seems to call him out on this in her party join line fjkdjaskldj
((But also, Boothill, baby. WHY were you trying to get them drunk????))
And regardless of if you believe him when he calls himself an old timer, he obviously has a lot of experience in doing what he does. He knows what he's doing, he's good at it, and he is viciously capable and competent, unfortunately for his victims smhznskdn
So it just. Feels very unlike him, for him to let his guard down enough to not only let himself get drunk in front of Boothill-
a total stranger btw whom Sampo has absolutely no reason to trust, and a dangerous Galaxy Ranger to boot who has plenty of blood on his hands and a significant bounty on his head
-but to get SO drunk that he lets loose the secret that he's an Emanator.
When Boothill brings this up, he mentions that if Emanators were obvious and known at a glance, it would lead to atrocities. And for as much as Sampo is disliked by his victims (there's an entire anti-Sampo organization in Belobog JFDKLASJFDL), it's all for fraud. He's wanted by the IPC as an intergalactic thief. He scams people out of their money, and only rich people at that. That's mostly all that he's known for. Nothing he does is violent, even though Sampo surely has the capacity to inflict a lot of harm.
And I don't mean that he's exactly a pacifist or anything; Firefly comments that Sampo seems like a highly skilled covert fighter. His voicelines make it sound like he enjoys combat- hell, his ult line makes him sound like a hitman. I like to hc him as being a pretty high ranker in the fighting rings at the World's End Tavern, like we see in the Simulated Universe occurrences.
But I don't think he would enjoy being the cause of uncontrollable violence and bloodshed.
Like yeah he's a dick who scams people on the regs for funsies, but he has lines he refuses to cross, which we see a lot of in how he interacts with Sparkle. More than just not enjoying it, I think he would hate it if he were found out and it caused an incident, especially since he seems so endeared to Belobog and her people now and it looks like he plans to return there. He wouldn't want to bring any of that back to them.
So I just can't imagine him carelessly fucking up bad enough to out himself to a random stranger that could easily put a bullet right through his head.
Sparkle maybe could, though.
Because as we find out later the dreamscape had expanded FAR beyond what it seemed, far enough that the trailblazer had been dreaming since the warp jump in. Most people enter it unknowingly, and don't realize they're already dreaming when they think they're still awake. Boothill and Dan Heng should have already been dreaming during their exchange on the Express that started all this.
And as long as someone knows they're dreaming, completely changing their appearance is easy, even for the common layman. We see this with a couple of NPCs and also Sparkle herself, with her (in)famous impression of Sampo.
Thank youuuuu Sparkle
And yeah, the trailblazer and almost all of the other characters wouldn't know about the expansion until near the very end. None of them realized they were dreaming even outside of their dream pools, and surely none of them would think to be suspicious of another person's appearance outside of the dreamscape like that.
But Sparkle has a script from Silver Wolf.
She knew all the secrets of the dreamscape, and she knew them from the very beginning. There would have been nothing stopping her from appearing as Sampo in front of Boothill and spilling all his secrets.
And she apparently has a long-standing history with Sampo, including trying to get him in on her own much more fiery and aggressive version of Elation.
Maybe all Sampo needs is to be outed as an Emanator, and then when all the violence and bloodshed catches up to him, then he'll finally understand! ദ്ദി(。•̀ ,<)~✩
#honkai star rail#hsr#sampo koski#hsr sampo#sparkle#hsr sparkle#hsr hanabi#boothill#hsr boothill#tbh I doubt Hoyo put this much thought into it- Boothill did say he only found out by sheer luck after all#but it's such an entertaining conspiracy theory for me JKFJASKLJD#Sparkle sucks so bad I hope she commits atrocities <3#she should show up in Belobog. at least just to give Sampo a heart attack and finally rile him up out of his customer service act.#it would be funny#her relationship with him makes me chew concrete AUGH#HOYO GIVE ME MORE OF THEM PLEASE OTL#if it turns out Sampo really IS an Emanator of Elation and the Fools know it that makes all the disrespect he gets like x10 more hilarious.#you guys that is the MOUTHPIECE of your GOD that you WORSHIP and you are grilling him for his religious views (Giovanni)-#- and backstabbing him (Sparkle)#I hope Aha treats him in a similar manner#God's favorite little chew toy uwu#and also my favorite little chew toy#I am going to shake him until the squeaker breaks!!!
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I think the funniest thing about scogan to me is that if you try to imagine it in practice it actually ends up much more compellingly fulfilling some of the tropes that the comics have seemingly always been trying to push with Jean/Logan. Which is just. Hilarious. Like the supposed (very old, tired, romance novel ass) dynamic they’ve often tried to push w Jean/Logan (esp in the new xmen era) is that of Logan representing some sort of… wildness or freedom to Jean’s restraint. That her “giving in” (yuck) to him is also her embracing… idk? Some sort of more natural, unrestrained version of herself and her power.
But it falls really flat with Jean not just bc of the misogyny inherent in the trope but also bc. She’s literally already done that. Like several times in fact. It’s sort of her whole thing. She doesn’t need to fuck Logan to step into her unrestrained power. She already, as a character, is supposed to be a vibrant, impossible, wild manifestation of pure creative/destructive will. (And really it’s kind of everyone else— and the writers’ latent misogyny— that keep fucking that up for her).
Scott on the other hand. Well. He kind of is the high powered female romantic lead obsessed with her job who gets sent on a work trip to a rural town where she’s forced to loosen up a little. Like for better or worse that’s kind of exactly him. He would fit alarmingly well in that sort of push and pull storyline. Which is so… good to me. That Scott, of all people, makes more sense on the cover of a Johanna Lindsey novel than Jean does. That him having that kind of dynamic with Logan actually feels way more interesting bc Scott is restrained to a fault, he is an insufferable, neurotic little headcase who would rather die than tell a waiter they got his order wrong. And yet he’s also the guy who’s admitted to actively enjoying riling Logan up bc part of him just wants to see what will happen. Which I’m pretty sure is called chemistry
#something to be said for scott’s relationships w jean and emma and how they affect his feelings about power/agency as well!#I feel like w jean his instinct is just to bask in her sunlight to the point of living in shadow. which she doesn’t WANT but its. scott.#and as the boundaries blur between them her power is also sort of his but also it still isn’t just enough that he doesn’t have to feel#scared of Having it#and meanwhile emma is like ok sweetie what if I just Made You embrace your own agency. that’s how it works right. and scotts like yeah ur#so right it definitely does. this is such a healthy relationship.#and then w logan its like. this guy is literally just gonna keep bothering him until scott has no choice but to act about it.#god. he sucks so bad ❤️#both of them. jean shouldn’t have to deal w any of them we should send her on vacation w ororo#wait no remembered ororo has also had an insane gay rivalry. damn nobody’s safe huh 💔#jean grey#scott summers#logan howlett#scogan#comics
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#gorillaz#my art#artists on tumblr#noodle guitarist from gorillaz#fanart#aesthetic#do they look like noodles idk i cant draw them#this is what watching one 1 colouring tutorial video does to a mf#lile the original one sucked SOO BAD i didn't know where i was going with the colours but thank god youtube exists 🩷 and artists on youtube#not that this js perfect but the original one was atrocious lemme tell you ..... i understand why i stopped drawing for so long now#i hated my art lol#because i didn't study enoughhh but now that im learning its better 🩷#anyway idk#digital art#illustration#beginner artist#artwork#noodle gorillaz#i drew her so many times shes my blorbo#lgbt#she is bi ! bicon !#hidden snorlax big plushie hehe#and adventure time posterrr#and and sailor moon snoopy tamagotchi doraemon miffy things ... plus nana akira manga but kinda too hidden#OH AND those sanrio characters i forgot the name tho#and kirby#tiny murdoc 2d and russel 😺#y2k aesthetic
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Happy BHM!!
I know its a bit late from me but happy black history month y'all! I didn't really wanna make this post but my roommate has covid so we need some money for supplies so that me and my other roommate Don't get it. I'm working two jobs but I don't get paid until next week and we just found out about the other roommate being sick this morning.
Anything helps! If you wanna send me reparations in general or just wanna help out two struggling black college students here's where you can: pp ca vm
#honey.txt#waking up from a 9 and a half hour sleep session to find out our WHITE ROOMMATE HAS COVID SUCKED SO BAD#she STILL needs to pay me back for groceries last week too like god..... UGGH#either way#happy black history month
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they're soulmates, your honour 🩵💚🩷
#i wanted to squeeze in clara so bad but it's funnier when she's cut outta the frame HDKABFKS#gods i love these three so much I'd die for them#ALSO SHOUTOUT TO MY BROEST OF BROS FOR SHOWING ME THIS MEME#i suck at keeping up with trends but thankfully my bro has my back 😤🩵#low effort doodle no skill only vibes#mairuma#mairimashita! iruma kun#iruclarazz#funny#meme redraw#asmodeus alice#clara valac#iruma suzuki#memes#redraw meme#redraw#myart#welcome to demon school iruma kun#anime#artists on tumblr#myrambles
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saw some lego dinosaurs today :3
#australia adventure#i also watched the jurassic world movie for the first time AFTER going to the exhibit#it feels like it Could have been a good movie but the writing is so sexist and i spent too much time yelling EVACUATE THE GUESTS OH MY GOD#chris pratt sucks but they should've made him a horse girl for dinosaurs. that would've fixed it a bit#claire as a character is done so horribly dirty like. she's extremely competent and professional#but the entire narrative is like... portraying her as in the wrong for... being professional? for not being maternal enough?#what kind of moral is 'omggg u just need to let loose' in a movie where a SUPERMURDER DINOSAUR IS OUT OF ITS ENCLOSURE#SHE SHOULD'VE STUCK TO PROTOCOL AND EVACUATED THE PARK IMMEDIATELY!!!!!! AHHH#justice for claire jurassicworld 2024#literally every character is telling her that whatever she's doing is wrong and bad#it's excruciating to watch. anyway#indominus rex just feels like wasted potential. like it's scary for a little but it just looks like a slightly wonky t rex#should've done the thing where you barely see it and it keeps outsmarting everyone in fun and clever ways#i also personally. think they should lean into the tragedy of creating the most perfect predator but it cannot exist on this earth#i feel like there should be a sorrow and grief in having to kill a magnificent beast#like titanic or something. idk. like as a dinosaur kid im like. i like Cool Creature. in my heart im siding with cool creature#it wants enrichment. give it a meat pumpkin#would've loved to watch a defunctland style video about the theme park
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about to start season 2 of gravity falls and hey are we done with Mabel Has To So Much As Tolerate A Guy Who Wants To Date her That She’s Not Fucking Interested In plots
#throwing gideon like a wet paper towel at the wall. grow up HDHSHSHSHDHSJSJ#i feel like I have to say this all the time but it’s good for characters to suck. for them and us#so this again isn’t really a Criticism of the show just a Oh This Makes Me Sad thing. yknow#but oh my god stop trying to force mabel to marry you. the gnomes and gideon#if you’re afab youve Likely had to deal w boys not fucking taking no for an answer. or you Cant tell them Firmly no bc of societal pressure#it made me feel Bad. i was sick i was ill. don’t remind me of real life you’re a cartoon /JOKEY#i didn’t realize gideon And The Gnomes were still hung up on her until the dreamscapers two parter. get over yourselves ‼️ she said no#also in a similar vein bc I know everyone talks abt how Immediately sick of it they were w dippers crush on wendy and. Yeah#though funny enough it didn’t Show itself until a few episodes after wendy’s appearance i feel#i feel like i remember it being The episode she was introduced#words from the monarch#gravity falls
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bard!riz is so important to me bc the kind of character he would be if the truth-fear balance tips all the way to fear esp. bc he takes so much pride in canon in the fact that his parents are brave badass people and he's following their footsteps. but also bc I have so much fun thinking abt bard!kipperlilly
#not art#she would suck SO much more it would own#sighs dreamily imagining influencer kipperlilly.... kinda love the idea that she's still like the ''frontman'' of her party#and so would still run for student body president#would be a full tossup with the bad kids for now tho. kristen's still a good candidate for the arc#bc (I did lock down sorcerer for her) something abt actively sharing her power that she kinda held onto as Hers rather than A God's#would be good for her. but also riz overcompensating esp. for a previous sophomore year and putting himself out there#esp. in a sense ''filling the seat bc someone else worse might“ and it burning him out#him coming up against Influencer Girl With 374927474837 Sponsors would be insane. he would hate it. he would also 100% do it#trying to think if any other bad kid would run.... fabian even after multiclassing would probs be like if you even Look at me. its on sight#fig does not subscribe to this power structure. adaine is allergic to sunlight and showing her face#gorgug.... he might be in. depends on how it goes for him in sophomore year#even proximity to that kinda popularity might still be scary to him but he Is great at conflict resolution#it would be fun if kipperlilly expectes to run up against someone playing her own game and instead got gorgug who is A Wall#ah...beautiful pictures in my mind.......
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Oh FUCK umg to hell and back, why is no one talking about this?!?!?
#I actually feel extremely bad for Taylor because even TAYLOR SWIFT#is succeptible to being trapped into shit that sucks because capitalism#first they fuck up all her merch and she is clearly not stoked about it but like. w/e small price to pay#then they prevent artists from doing re-records just like the ones they’re benefiting off of from HER#and now this#fucking cHRIST#oh my god I’m so mad#I doubt we’ll hear about it from her but like#oh my god
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my opinion on the Blake lively situation
#okay so I never HATED Blake lively#but I did have a feeling about her#so I’d always like purposely not interact or view any interview or anything of hers that came up on my feed#I DON’T like Ryan Reynolds and never have#I just find him a try hard and annoying#and I did not like the couple of Blake and Ryan#they just seemed soooo pick me#so yeah I tried to just ignore the whole downfall of Blake lively that’s been happening#bc sometimes I just don’t care to comment or learn about celeb drama#BUTTTT ofc i got sucked into it#and not Blake tryna have a Margot Robbie in Barbie moment 😂😂#‘bring your girlfriends and wear florals!1!1’ GIRL MARGOT NEVER TOLD ANYONE TO WEAR PINK TO BARBIE IT WAS A NATURAL THING#not to mention I didn’t even realise this movie was about domestic violence as I’ve never read the book#and it was NOT being marketed as one thanks to Blake and Ryan#also why did Ryan have to get involve#ALSO this morning I saw the interview from 2016 where Blake is being rude to the interview#and oh my god it’s awful like SHE FIRSTLY FAT SHAMES HER OFF THE BAT NO HESITATION#then proceeds to ignore the poor interviewer#like doesn’t give her eye contact AT ALL#which I felt so bad for the interview bc I’ve BEEN THERE#this is why I’d hate to be a celeb interview bc imagine getting treated like a third rate individual by these big headed LOSERS who think#they’re better than you just bc they’re famous#I could NOT#anyways also Blake tried to have a whole feminist moment when the interviewer asked her about the clothes she wears in the movie#‘would anyone ask the men about the clothes’#UM BITCH YES??? COSTUMES??? IN FILM?? IS A THING ???#also can I just say Blake has always had the worst hair ever and the fact she has a hair care line is insane bc SHE IS KNOWN TO HAVE BAD HAI#and I never thought her fashion was good like even when people were simping over her met gala outfits I NEVER EVER SAW THE VISION#anyways yeah lol#the interviewer thing triggered me lowkey like HOW RUDEEEE
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rewatching fantasy high (freshman year) and tbh i don't think i appreciated kristen applebees enough as a character when i originally watched it years ago. like i kinda get the feeling that her arc was meant to be more drawn out but got speedrun by her literally dying and meeting god in the first two episodes and getting SLAMMED into that crisis of faith head-first, and it honestly makes her into both a VERY FUN character to watch and a fascinating one
#shoutouts to ally beardsley for the characters they create fr (has only seen like 3 of them)#i also appreciate that kristen's crisis of faith is not fueled by 'god might not be real'#it is instead 'god is real and he SUCKED and also the community that raised me to believe in him ALSO SUCKED'#bc really whether or not god is real doesn't really matter. it's whether the people who act in said god's name are#meaningfully doing good or harm#and also if your god is a frat bro who can't handle being asked why good things happen to bad people that's probably not a fantastic god#jort post#dimension 20#fantasy high#the whole fantasy high cast is so strong honestly. i think fig's still one of my faves (she was my fave on my first watch)#we love a punk rock bard who's really bad at pretending she doesn't care about her friends#and also loves both her cool devil dad and her cringefail elf dad#might post more as the rewatch goes on btw i have thoughts
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so i started this show and it just gets worse and worseeeee not only did it lift the romance subplot directly from twilight (and not well) but they also are trying to play the forbidden love angle hard in the fantasy racism vein except it's a "cross-species" relationship between the two whitest people i've ever seen in my life and there are three people of color in the whole (first season of the) show who aren't villains and it seems that every other episode (and sometimes ebery episode and sometimes twice an episode!) there is a man physically or magically subjugating a woman and i keep waiting for the big reveal at the end to be stolen from fucking rainbow rowell
#yes i read 'carry on' by rainbow rowell in middle school what else could you have possibly expected from me. anyway she gives me simon snow#vibes and not in a good way and she's even blonde while her british vampire boyfriend has dark dark hair and just. you will never be basil.#also i hate to be that guy but the writing has made me physically recoil and the acting almost reads as silly but mostly as middling :/ and#i wanted and expected more from matthew goode bc i really liked him in downton but i guess this is a 2018 bbc modern vampire fantasty serie#like i guess.#also there's SO much shit about bloodlines and maybe i'm gay with a blood disorder amd a family history of adoption but like. who fucking#careeessssssssss it ahould not be that serious. why is it that serious.#also the fantasy racism kind of reads like it's mesnt to be? homophobic adjacent? like there's a Lot of 'love who you love' talk going on#for the single most bland heterosexual relationship i've ever seen on a screen like there is so little chemistry? so little#anyway it's called 'a discovery of witches' and i'd recommend not watching it 🫶 or if you do then watch it on 1.5x speed#it's been decent background noise for knitting bc i kinda sorta care about the plot but if miss a chunk bc i'm in the lace chart zone i do#not care and i do not have to go back to catch it bc the writing is so transparent#there was another series it stole from that's escaping me atm but when i noticed it pissed me off a touch. hmm maybe it will come back to m#a post#do not watch this show#I REMEMBERED they wanted the juliette holding diana captive moment to be joaquin's 'i want to watch you fuck her' from sense8 SOOOOO BAD bu#it WASN'T bc they were too afraid to lean into anything that would make juliette interesting at all. for being all about the world's most#special blonde woman this show does not seem to like women very much. sad! well there's other shows#OH ALSO ALSO there are 3 magical 'creature' species which are witch + vampire + femon except the demons don't seem? to have any magical#abilities that humans don't have besides sensing the species of other creatures? like witches can cast spells and vampires do their various#vampire things but demons have nothing going for them except disproportionately high rates of homelessness and suicide?? like girl what are#we doingggggggg what are we doing here !! what's their deal why does no one care !! can they do anything or no !! god this show sucks
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when considering Ashton's reasoning about Imogen continuing to give in to Predathos, that her being lost is inevitable and that it would be better if it happened now as opposed to later, it feels very important to remember what they said to Laudna when they first landed in Issylra, when she was terrified Imogen had become a moon-worshiping zombie in their separation: If she got blasted into space, we'll go to space. If she got vaporized, it's not like we didn't fucking find you. There is nothing else until this is dealt with. This is what we do, is we bring everybody back. Not only is nobody getting left behind very much Ashton's thing, but he specifically does not see Imogen being lost to Predathos as her being lost for good. (and tbh I agree, given how heavily the story since the start of the campaign has been leaning on her to confront this.) And even if it did, they'd still go through hell trying to get her back.
But it also makes me think of what Imogen told Ashton, after the shard; maybe this was destiny, like they thought it was. Maybe what they needed was to shatter into pieces and come back together. That same idea, of controlled burning, needing to confront something to overcome it, fuck yeah, jump into that lava and find yourself, to hurt is to heal - Ashton, we watched you break into a thousand tiny pieces. If she got vaporized, it's not like we didn't fucking bring you back.
#critical role#imogen temult#ashton greymoore#cr spoilers#this is not to say they're CORRECT about any of this btw. but i saw Takes acting like Ashton said what he said#with the belief that this would be the end of Imogen as we know her and that its inevitable she be unhappy. and like.#classic 'Ashton is deeply pessimistic and sucks bad but also you're missing something pretty fundamental abt the character' moments.#and i had already been thinking of the post shardgate moment in this context so.#crposting#cr#also i will just run back in and add that you can't just attribute the same perspective on this to ashton and orym even if they agreed#orym would be crushed if they lost imogen. but if it meant they defeated the vanguard and predathos it would be a worthwhile sacrifice#meanwhile ashton would tell the gods to go fuck themselves to their faces if the choice was between saving them and saving imogen#or any of the hells#you're so special
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to be truthful. i think playin bg3 is making my mental health worse. not in a bg3 is a bad game grrr kind of way but like. my life was very different the last time i played and that was only roughly a year ago. it makes me sad. i do not know if i can say things are better. but i feel lonely over the things i had then that i don't now. i miss them. not having them is making me feel lonely
#fray.txt#anyone who KnowsTM knows this is very much about my best friend who ghosted me and well. every mutual they had on tumblr i have since learn#just poofed from all our lives like we never meant a thing#and i was so so in love with her. i gave her every single piece of me i had to offer someone#and ive been unable to do anything akin to that since because she ripped me to fucking shreds man#i long for her companionship again terribly and she was so intertwined with afhiri that to this day afhiri feels. off because of this loss#much of her lore and even her creation was from ideas this person had. she was like a coparent to afhiri#idk man. i know i need to push through it. move on#heal etc etc#but oh my god man.#and it sucks that there will be people who read this know who im talking about instantly and be sad too cuz she also ghosted them#sucks so bad. so so bad#tbd
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