#grievingsucks

[helenalwrites]

“I'm falling, watching as your hurting I'm down here I'm on my knees How can I survive And you turn to me and promise me you're ready And tell me you'll be waiting on the other side And I still believe in the good And I still believe in the light And I wanna feel the sun I wanna free you tonight And you showed me all the good And you lead me through the light And you gave me the sun It's time to free you tonight” - lyrics from “Into the Light” by In This Moment It’s been 67 days since you left this earth Papa and I’m still not ok with it. One week ago would have been your 79th birthday. I feel like I didn’t give you permission to leave me. You were my rock in the worst of my childhood, the glue that held my broken pieces together. You were still always there for me no matter what as someone who loved me no matter what and would protect me from whatever demons haunted me. The world isn’t right without you and all of us that loved you are equally lost on how we’re supposed to live lives that don’t include you. You were too great of a man to not leave a mark on everyone that knew you. I know you were at peace with leaving this world but none of us are. I’m not. My grief is too great Papa. I love you so much. I will see you on the other side, yes, but I didn’t want to give you up. COVID is this evil monster that stole you away from me before I was ready, but I know I never would have been ready. I feel like I’m drowning in this grief sometimes because you’re one of those people I knew I would never be ok with losing. It’s so hard to talk about. I had my first pieces of popcorn yesterday since losing you. I love you so much, Papa, and I will always be your Doodle. #griefjourney #grief #griefandloss #imissyou #covid #covidloss #grandparentlove #grandparentloss #grandfather #grandfatherlove #grandfatherloss #griefsucks #grieving #grievingsucks #grievingprocess #grievingfamily #grievinggrandpa #songlyrics #griefquotes #writerslife https://www.instagram.com/p/CODMJPuLtJI/?igshid=1r4145az2oj81

[anorphaneddaughter-blog]

who am i

this is just a small introduction to who i am and why i made this account.

for a little while, i ran an instagram for teens who were dealing with grief. losing their parents, a sister, a brother, a friend, a child. anyone. but i still felt very alone in my grief. i used to get barely three comments, and all of them just kept repeating what i said, and i knew they were trying to help. but it didn’t do much.

i just need a space where i can freely talk about my pain, hopefully talk with others about their’s. maybe write some poetry or get things off my chest. i don’t know. i could have all the goals planned out in my head, but in truth, i know if i set them out, it will never work. so i suppose we’ll just wing it and see what happens, i guess.

i know i didn’t talk about who i am much here, but i guess that will be told through the various things i’ll be posting and writing.

[quakertotes]

This is the longest that I haven't worked since the pandemic started. Finding things to do by myself while also grieving is close to impossible. And I need to clean my apartment so my sweet poor roommate wont be left with a disaster while I'm away.

[jogaskincreates]

I lost my mother in the 26th of December. I miss her terribly today. I will never hear her voice, she will never meet my children. Today hurts more than most. I know I'll adjust and grow, but I can never talk to her again, and that just does not mesh today. #lost #motherdaughter #mymotherwasmybestfriend #grievingsucks #hurting https://www.instagram.com/p/B7TzbeLHbD6/?igshid=arpz7401tgm2

[ggmadeit]

NYR it's Mother's Day weekend and if you are blessed enough to still have your Mom; ACKNOWLEDGE HER. Because when she is gone nothing can fill THAT hole. #grievingsucks