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[mysandwichranaway]

bunny suits. i love to draw costumes lol

[fuerrziah]

quick sketch of the headcanon that elliott is a loud singer while drunk asf hahahah

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[averageclawcodeenjoyer]

Average queer person falling in love with their best friend crisis trope (it never works out)

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Aaaaaaaand closeups :3

Plot twist: It's Ganke's computer and Miles forgets to delete his search history

Hahahah what if clears throat what if I sweats a little What if I wrote a little story about them on here big cane comes out and yanks me behind the stage

[fruit-of-infidelity]

DIABOLIK LOVERS: ⌜Blood & LoveSweat⌟

Track 7: “A Bloody Affair on the Paddle Boat”

Japanese Title: スワンボートで吸愛

CV: Takehiro Kou

Audio Available: HERE

Author Note: If it didn’t click with the title: here we finally are! The first introduction to the voice of Ryuuto’s character! I hope you all enjoy the scenario and the voice acting as much as I did; I’m really pleased how this all turned out. I tried to keep with the original theme of the Blood & LoveSweat for Ryuuto, so this is a one-on-one scenario with a little bit of romance and a whole lot of blood sucking~! Also, a big shout-out to @dialovers-translations​ for the title reference!

― There’s a gentle splashing of water as you paddle together. ―

[0:15] “There, just like I told you. It’s far nicer out here, away from those others…”

― You nod. ―

[0:27] “You think so too? I cannot believe the coincidence of us both deciding upon this place, at the same time, for a summer get-away. It was a good thing I spotted this paddle boat when I did, otherwise we’d be far more miserable on the beach with them.”

― You tilt your head. ―

[0:45] “I just wish this paddle boat wasn’t in the shape of a swan. I’m sure they all enjoyed themselves at the sight. Why couldn’t it have been a regular paddle boat?”

― You frown at him. ―

[1:03] “Hmm? What, you like the shape of the boat? I can’t say I’m overly shocked; You always seem to have a taste for the tackier things around… Although I suppose you are under the impression that this is supposed to be something romantic, for couples to use on the water?”

“Fufu. Please, don’t be so full of yourself; You’re my plaything, in every aspect of the word. Mine to touch, taste and expose to the world… But play the delusional card all you’d like, if it helps you to sleep better at night, Pet.”

“Speaking of this paddle boat… I am surprised that it has managed to take us out as far as it has. Say, if we just go a little further out, we will be completely out of earshot of that Ayato’s hollering. I, for one, greatly look forward to that peace and quiet…”

“Now, paddle.”

― The two of you paddle a little more. ―

[2:10] “More. Put your back into it.”

― You look back to shore. ―

[2:18] “Why do you keep looking back that way? We still have a little more to go, and you must keep your eyes forward whilst paddling, otherwise you might lose your balance and fall in…”

“Although, I wouldn’t hate to see that, fufufu.”

― You slowly stop paddling, puffed. ―

[2:34] “…Hmm? You’re already exhausted? Good grief, we barely moved further than where we were before… I suppose this spot will do for now.”

― You ask to head back once you catch your breath. ―

[2:49] “You want to head back to shore? I don’t think you should be going anywhere, for now… Look at the state of you. Now that the clouds have dispersed a little more, the moonlight makes it clear that you’re almost drenched in sweat. All from this paddle boat? Fufu.”

― Ryuuto leans over to you. ―

[3:12] “I thought I would have smelt that salty aroma of yours far sooner if we were anywhere but the beach… but the closer I get, the stronger that scent really does get, regardless of the ocean surrounding us. And, seeing it glistening down your body like this, under the full moon, is…”

― He climbs into your side of the paddle boat. ―

[3:32] “Haah… It’s arousing.”

― You panic and try to shove him. ―

[3:38] “Fufu…Ahaha…Hahahah! Careful, Pet… If you shove at me and rock the boat anymore, it’ll completely capsize. Instead, you should just―”

― You’re pushed down, and trapped, beneath him ―

[3:50] “―Do what you do best, and submit to your Master while I clean every inch of your body of this sweat. I can’t have anyone else laying their eyes on you in this state, after all.”

― He licks at your neck ―

[4:06] “Mmm… I cannot believe how drenched you are, fufu. I’m beginning to think this isn’t the result of the paddling at all… Could it simply be from spending such quality time with your Master that you don’t know what to do with yourself〜?”

“You’ve been on edge all evening, haven’t you? Since the moment I gave you permission to come on this trip with me, you’ve been anticipating us alone together, I can tell〜”

― You try to deny him. ―

[4:36] “Oh? ‘No’? You have no clue what you’re saying, do you? You shout out a ‘no’, and yet your body is getting hotter and hotter by the second… I have a feeling that if I bit into you right now, you’d cling to me and never let go again.”

“Aren’t I correct?”

― You grasp onto him. ―

[4:57] “See? Even now, you’re pulling my body closer and closer to yours, showing off your exposed shoulders to me. So… Brace yourself for the very thing you’ve been craving the whole night.”

― He kisses your skin. ―

[5:14] “You’re tensed in anticipation… I can’t hold back any longer.”

― He bites your shoulder. ―

“Nnn… Haah…”

“Fufufu.”

― He sucks more blood. ―

[5:35] “Look at how your blood so passionately flows for me… It’s trickling from your shoulder, all the way down your chest… At this rate, the top half of your swimsuit will be completely stained…”

“So, wouldn’t it be best to just take it all off?”

― Suddenly, he rips at your swimsuit. ―

[5:56] “Looks like I got a little ahead of myself there. It’s completely torn. There isn’t any point in hanging onto this useless piece of fabric anymore… Shall I toss it overboard〜? ”

― You question about the others. ―

[6:09] “Hm? ‘What about the others on the beach’? That’s the only thing you’re concerned about, and not how on display for me you are?”

―  You fluster a little. ―

[6:24] “Oh? Could it be that, perhaps, you were hoping they were watching? What a lewd woman you are… But you should know, these fangs alone are enough to intoxicate you completely.”

―  This time, he bites into your chest. ―

“Aah… Mm…”

―  His hands roam your body. ―

[6:44] “That’s it. You know me well; those cries of pain and pleasure are exactly what I want to hear. You’ve already stopped fighting back, too…”

“Your hands, combing through my hair, are just another means of clinging to me. At this rate, your grasp is so desperate, you’re practically holding me hostage against your body, begging me to drink more without ever actually saying it... Fufu, I don’t mind indulging you when you’re like this.”

―  He sucks at your chest some more. ―

[7:20] “Haah… But, this isn’t enough, is it? Even though I’m thrusting my fangs in as deep as this… You’re greedy for more, aren’t you? In that case…”

―  He kisses your lips this time. ―

“My lips will satisfy you whilst we’re out here...”

―  He kisses your lips once more. ―

[7:41] “Fufufu… But, once we get back inside, I’ll have my way with you. For now, I think I’ll savour this drunk expression of yours a little longer, under the moonlight…”

―  He bites at your lips. ―

[7:59] “As our lips connect and I taste your blood, let yourself succumb to pleasure, lose yourself completely to me. Give in to your Master, and I’ll make sure you’re rewarded for it...”

[vsdumbaf]

THE ARM IS FUCKING WEIRD HAHAHAH AT THE POINT IM LAUGHING AT MY OWN DRAWINGS

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[askthesnake]

HAPPY SPOOKY SEASON EVERYONE

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Sorry these literally took me 100 years to make! Ive had midterms literally all month, but how im proud to present you with your favorite squad of gays!

Deceit is Erik/The Phantom of the Opera from Phantom of the Opera!

Remus is Beetlejuice (beetlejuice beetlejuice) from Beetlejuice the Musical! He is from henceforth dubbed BEETLEDUKE because the crackheads came through with that name.

Virgil is JD from the Heathers!

Patton is the Wonderful Wizard of Oz from Wicked

Logan is the S.Q.U.I.P from Be More Chill

And Roman is King George III from Hamilton!

Ive never drawn so many characters in one frame before and holy shit I hated it hahahah. Anyway I hope you all enjoy it, I worked really hard on these!!

Happy Halloween everyone! From the deepest coldest pits of my heart to yours!

-Thayer

@thatsthat24

[zombu7]

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hi THANKYOU!!! I drew this the other day for reaching 300 but now it’s 340 HAHAHAH ty for following this blog 🥺

Have a smol hawwy potter uwu 🥰🥰🥰

[orbiiance]

"HAHAHAH, STINKY!!!"

I love these two gremlins, they can come into my house and pull pranks on me and I'd ask them to come back again on their way out

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[ashisreallytired]

I need you, like I need a gaping head wound

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[13thdoodle]

//BREAKS DOWN DOOR// HI HELLO BET U NEVER THOUGHT TO SEE THIS COMING AFTER LIKE..... 4 months.... HAHAHAH im so sorry anon.... well anyway...

Angst/Fluff Prompt 4: “Can I join you.”

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if its still bad i could try upload it somewhere better.. sorry it took so long..

[nakamuto]

mutuals appreciation! write heart-felt messages to some of your favorite mutuals (or even ones you haven't talked to yet!) and tag them, BUT don't tell them which message is theirs, let them guess! after you're done, send this to 1 mutual you want to get a message from! 💌

this ask has been sitting in my inbox for 2 days bcbwqbbw i’ll try to not make it awkward hahaha,,, TuTTT (omg i got this twice im sorry ive been procrastinating)

@taeiloves @doyoukki @haecha​  @1aeyong @dovounq @softlyqentle @neocity 

under the cut:

a. you’re always so kind and nice,,, like you’re just so nice and patient with everyone? how did i even go from being mutuals > mutuals + anon > your friend honestly ;u; anyways I like you a lot as a friend and i appreciate all your endless effort in creating quality content for the community like idek how you do it everyday,,, i hope you dont stress yourself out too often TnT my long lost neighbour i hope you’ll be able to hear me scream from my window one day

b. you really have golden hands,,, everything you make is incredibly beautiful,, like LITERALLY masterpieces.. it’s also amazing how we’re in the same fandoms (like only 2 but yEAH) ;u;;; i feel very comfortable talking to you and every time you’re online i know that im getting quality content on my dash again :’DD please sleep early i know i say that sleep is an irrelevant concept but wELL,,, YOU’RE A CHILD AND U GOTTA !! you’re working hard, good luck

c. why would I leave you out of this,, even if you’re not super active here for now.. my one true soulmate..one that tolerates my bullshit and rambles well,,, i cherish you a lot because it’s so hard to have someone of the same wavelength as you and our thinking are so similar and we click incredibly well???? ,,, well talk about the countless jinx moments hahaha i think you’re an absolutely amazing person always trying to better yourself and i think i can learn a lot from you,,, i will pray for you everyday and i love you so much x 10000000 (u know i dont like to use ilu too excessively but for you I WILL),,,,

d. there’s something mysterious about you,,in a good way,, i always get that vibe im not sure why but whenever i see you appearing in my notifs im all :’’’’DDDDD

e. we’re literally one and the same,, like how is it even possible ;u;;; im still amazed at the fact that we’re so alike..from our biases and music tastes and even our age and also our thoughts/feelings on some people/issue. Talking to you is like talking to myself :’) im glad we got to talk quite a bit these days,, also have i told you that ive admired you since my svt days,,, ive seen quite a fair bit of your quality™ creations and i hope they’ll make a comeback soon,,, bless up buddy!!!!!

f. you’re a very sincere person,, i haven’t known you for very long but i like your gentle and sweet personality it calms me down somehow. thank you for talking to me first tbh im a bit on the introverted side and im lame so :::))) so now you know that you’ve signed up for more lame convos hahahah,,, everything about you is cute tbh the way you caption your gifs and your icon (its my fav pic of ur bias owbcbwcb) im happy to have known you now i have someone to ramble about your bias with hehe maybe one day i’ll be like yuta too

g.  hi queen!!!!!!!! you’re really sweet and kind,, and you’re good at what you’re doing,, and you’re really smart too TuT like,,,how can someone sc*ence. still cant believe we almost became uni mates (if u still remember) I respect you a lot for your dedication and i think you’re someone who knows how to get along with many different people,,there’s a phrase in chinese to describe this it’s called “很会做人” which is usually used to describe someone as very tactful and i think that’s very fitting for you,,,which is like,,, really cool. please continue to bless us with more quality stuff im always looking forward!!! 

[quasip]

Your moodboards are all amazing! I'm just really curious as to how you make them, since I haven't really seen a tutorial. (And I wanna try making one too~)

OOOOH! Thank you very much, anon! I put a lot of thought and effort into those so it’s super awesome to hear that you like them! I fully encourage you to do them. I’m sure you would be super amazing.

Now, I am sure there a lot of different ways to do moodboards and aesthetics but here is how I do it. Sorry for any lack of clarity.

1) FINDING THE PICTURES

There are a lot of sites that you can go to, to find pictures. Most common is probably just a google images search. It can be good but your wording will have to be specific if you want to find just the right image. Try adding tumblr or photography to the end as it might help up the quality of the result, especially if you are looking for a sellable thing like shoes or jewelry. It’s probably the most popular because you don’t need to make an account to use it. 

Other sites I know are used are Pinterest (you need an account), Weheartit (you also need an account. You could also try Wikipedia Commons: Free media resources/Photography page, which lists a bunch of other image sites that you can use. And don’t be afraid to use your own photography if you want!

2) EDIT 

If you have photoshop or Adobe I would suggest using those as there is a lot more control over what you can do to the pictures, but I can’t give you any advice on them because I, unfortunately, do NOT have those tools. 

Instead, I use a free photo editor on the Internet called Pixlr. It lets me do all the editing stuff that I need like saturation, brightness, cropping, all the good stuff. It’s not as extensive as any paid for program, but it will get the job done. Play around with it and see if it works for you. 

3) PUTTING IT TOGETHER

Hahahah, this is the one I’m actually most awkward about. You see when I’m done with all the editing I put all the pictures into one place to align them and group them together. The place I put them together?

Microsoft Word. 

Yup, I’ve been using a Word document to put all this stuff together. Just insert image your stuff into the document, go into properties and adjust sizes and just line it all up. I eyeball a lot of the dimensions and stuff but use the rulers on the sides if you want a more accurate measurement.

 After you get all your images together (I tend to stick with 6 pictures for aesthetics and 9 for moodboards as is usual but the number of pictures for aesthetics is pretty flexible so just go until it feels right) use the group button in the pictures tools tab and make them into one image. 

I copy that grouped image and then I go to the paste button on the top of the home tab. I DO NOT click it. Instead, I click the little arrow to show the different paste options. I click on paste special and choose Picture (png). Then I right click on the newly pasted picture and save it. Then I upload it to Tumblr. 

These things also don’t have to be in this exact order either. Sometimes I just pile all the pictures into Microsoft Word and see if I need to edit something. Sometimes I have the aesthetic ready, but I search and swap out something for another picture. Honestly, a lot of aesthetic work is just trying to make the visual flow. So experiment! Keep going because, honestly, aesthetic making is like anything else, you get better as time goes on.

I hope this helps you out a little. I would be so happy to see another aesthetic maker out there! Let me know if you need anything else explained. 

[elosnotebook]

PENETRATORS SQUAD IMAGINE (pt 5)

Imagine being the first and only girl in the Penetrator Russ bus. Author’s note: I like drama way too much for my own good hahahah here is part five guys! Sorry I let y’all waiting for too long. Now, I’m finally home and I can write as I used to. Also, please go show my beta writer Alyssa (@imyourliquor-youremypoison) some love. She is always taking time to fix my mistakes and helping me to improve. Check her fics with Chris too, because they’re incredible!! Let me know what you guys think about this part.

Part 1. Part 4.

Part 6.

Masterlist ❁

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It was not the first time a Penetrator crossed another one. The last time it happened, I was on the first grade and I got incredibly shocked. How could someone do this kind of thing to a friend? A close one? I had no idea. 

The next two weeks were the shittiest. One day after my party, Chris came to my house, knowing Theo was here. He practically begged the boy to punch him, and at some point, Theo did. Thoughts about how the hell I was supposed to separate them were going through my head when the younger Penetrator stopped and left Chris there. His nose was bleeding and he had a new cut on his lips. 

I stood there, while thinking about what should I do. Should I follow Theo inside? Or help Chris, who was still on the ground? I almost went for the second option, but William showed up and I let him take care of Chris. I knew that walking away from a bruised Chris was probably one of the hardest things I’ve ever done. 

I spent the whole of Saturday and Sunday ignoring Chris' calls, or any attempt to communicate, and honestly, this lasted for an entire two weeks. He tried to corner me at school several times, but I always found a way to run from him. It was hell. I found myself in the position of judge and the culprit was someone who had never left my side, and in a short period of time I managed to push him away. Twice. 

The only thing that got my mind off of it was Theo. I was trying so hard to make him feel better. I took him to every bar I knew, got him drunk and basically slept at his house every single night. The other boys said to me that Chris and William were really annoyed by me babysitting Theo, which was another reason for me to keep doing it. If I didn't take care of him, who would? Who said boys weren't allowed to be heartbroken and didn't need to be looked after once in a while? 

During one of the nights I sent at his place, we were drinking Tequila. He downed eight shots while I stopped after two. I was the designated driver of the night, and I wanted to make sure that we would both get home safely. 

“We’ve thought about expelling you from the bus,” Theo said, after his six shot. I knew I was supposed to feel offended, but he was too drunk and it was the first time of the week I saw him smile. 

“Oh yeah? For what reasons? Being too hot?” I joked, feeling a little relief upon finally seeing him as I’m used to: my goofy young brother. 

“Close shot.” He let another shot run down his throat. He didn’t even make a face for this one. “Half of the bus wanna sleep with you.” He laid his head on the table. “Not sleep, sleep. Like sleep, having sex. Why do we call having sex sleep if they’re not the same things?”

 Theo was one of my favorite drunks. He always got so thoughtful and his geek side started showing. If every drunk guy I had to deal with were like him, it would be so much easier, and honestly, funnier too. 

“Who wants to have sex with me?” I asked him, amusement all over my face. 

He took another one. “At this point the question is: who doesn’t?” 

Good point. Drunk Theo was always a good thing for my self esteem, he was a real egobooster, I thought, giggling. "So why haven't you expelled me?" 

"It's not worth it." He shrugged his shoulders. 

"Ouch, that one hurt. So I'm not worth it?" I questioned playfully. 

"No Cap, you understood wrong," he mumbled. "We'd be lost without you. One night of, what I imagine to be, a wild and absolutely amazing sex with you in exchange of not having you around?" He almost dropped a shot in front of him. "Being without you is just... Not an option." 

My cheeks flushed with red automatically. It was just incredible, how much I loved them. 

"Good," I stated. "Because you know, even if I weren't in the crew anymore, none of you would have a chance with me." 

"Oh, I would. You can't even imagine the things I'd do to your bod-" 

“Okaaaaay," I interrupted him, before he could say anything he would regret by the morning. "This one was your last, little guy.” I told him, already knowing that I had a long night ahead of myself, sitting next to him in the bathroom. 

When we got home, he ran to the toilet, where he stayed all night, his head inside of the cold marble. I sat on the bathtub and kept an eye on him, just to make sure he wasn’t going to drown in his own vomit and places a pillow under his head. 

Theo was pissed. Not only because of what Chris did, but also because of how the Penetrators reacted to it. They didn’t care. The only one who got mad was Julian, he has always seen Theo as his brother from another mother, but the rest of them? They told me they would stay out of it. William included. 

It was Friday. I went to the school’s cafeteria, thinking of a way to avoid all of those idiots, also known as Penetrators, but when I got there, my eyes couldn’t believe what they saw. 

Theo was sitting next to Chris. Anyone there could hear his laughter over the other conversations. Chris was talking very excitedly to little Theo, his hands following his words. They didn’t notice I was there, completely motionless, and I couldn’t help myself but wonder if I had dreamed the last two weeks. Nope. Pretty sure Chris' face when Theo punched him was not a figment of my wild imagination. In fact, the cut on Chris' lips was there to prove it. It's amazing how many times Chris had hurt his lips, it was the universe's way of pulling a joke on me. It was telling me random people's fists were more used to get close to Chris' mouth than me. 

“People were talking about them getting into a fight.” I heard a voice beside me, and it made me jump. I turned around to see Sana. “So is everything okay now?” 

“I don’t know,” I told her. Usually, if people asked me about any rumor about the Penetrators, I would lie. But I was completely lost and confused. 

“Rumor has it, that you were mad too,” she added. I was so uncomfortable with the whole situation, all I wanted was to get out of there. 

“Sana, I’m not feeling well. I need to go home. Can I talk to you later?” She nodded in response, a flash of concern appearing in her eyes, and I got out before the boys could notice I was there. 

I went straight for my car, my head spinning around about ideas of what Chris could have told Theo to make everything okay so fast. This is when the dawning realization that I wasn't okay overwhelmed me. 

I got home, my legs automatically bringing me to my bedroom. I dropped on my bed, pulling the covers so I couldn’t wrap myself in it, like in a cocoon. My thoughts were rushing so fast in my head that I didn’t know how to keep track on them, they made me dizzy and nauseous. Until, at some point, I fell asleep. 

I woke up to the sound of my phone buzzing. I looked at the screen to see William’s name. I considered ignoring it, since we haven’t been talking from the moment he took Chris’ side, but what if it was something serious and I turned my back to him on purpose? 

I took a deep breath and answered it. 

“Mangussom?” 

“Why did you leave the school today?” He asked with his usual delicacy. 

“I wasn’t feeling well,” I told him, wondering if he saw me at the cafeteria. “How did you know I left?” 

“I saw your car when I arrived, and when you didn’t show up in German, I went to look for you, that is when I saw your car was gone,” he informed me. 

“Right,” I clicked my tongue against the inside of my cheek, not knowing what else to say.

“Anyway, Cap, come over.” One of my favorite things about Will was his ability to go directly to the point. But even this quality couldn’t make me forget why I was so mad. 

“I’ll pass. See you tomorrow.” I thought about hanging up, but he wasn’t ready to give up yet. 

“Look Y/N, I’m sorry. I know you’re mad about what happened, and I understand your position. I really do.” He took a pause, waiting for me to say something. As I didn’t, he kept going. “If Chris had hooked up with Noora, I would probably kill him and I’d like you to stand by my side. But honestly? I miss you. So much.” 

I was speechless. Will never had trouble telling me his feelings, but when we broke up, his love demonstrations got really scarce. 

“I don’t wanna see Chris,” I said, fearing it was another plan of Chris to corner me. 

William hang up the phone. I stared at it, shocked and confused. He begged me to come over and then he left me talking all by myself? What a jerk. 

His name popped up two seconds later, but now it was a video call. He was going to show me Chris wasn’t there. I answered the call with a smile on my face. 

“Seriously?” I asked. 

“How could I prove to you Chris isn’t here? I’m not lying for him this time. He really isn’t here,” he repeated, to make it clear to me. 

I considered the idea. I missed him deeply. All I wanted was to hug him and watch whatever idiot movie was on netflix, while hearing his dumb comments about it. I sighed. 

“Come on, Theo and Chris talked and they are good. Please, let us be at the same page as them.” 

“Ok Will, I’m leaving in ten,” I gave in. 

I changed clothes, grabbed my keys and went for the door, checking my phone one last time. It had a message from William. 

“I love you unconditionally, Cap. I did what I thought was right for you,” it said. 

Oh God. What now? I texted him while opening the front door. I closed it with my foot. I stopped when I realized what William was talking about. Not what, but who. 

Chris was sitting on the front of his car, clearly waiting for me. William's call was just a way to get me out of my house. Our eyes met and I instantly knew I wasn’t prepared to face him yet. I started turning around to go back inside my car when I heard him. 

“Please. Please.” His voice was so broken, it made me pause long enough for him to reach me. 

“Can we talk?” He asked me, practically begging me. I felt utterly idiotic for not finding the words to reply, but the way he looked at me was too much. Afraid of saying something I shouldn’t, I kept quiet. 

We let silence surround us. We didn’t dare saying a thing, but we kept staring at each other. Suddenly, it became unbearable to have him so close. And, at the same time, I didn’t wanna leave, never. 

“The boys and I heard some rumors before,” he started, looking at the ground now. “About you being ruthless with the girls who have done something to us. They said you turned into a crazy ex girlfriend and threatened them.” His fingers were playing an invisible piano in his leg. He was nervous as I’ve never seen before. “I never believed it. I couldn't imagine you purposely hurting someone's feelings.” He swallowed hard. “Well, I guess I know better now.”

 I clenched my hands into fist. It begant o hurt when my nails dug into the flesh of my palm,but I didn't stop. That pain helped me focus. It was easier than the ache he was causing me with his words. 

“Look Chris,” I forced the words out of my throat. “I don’t know what you said to Theo, but-” 

“We’re good. Theo and I,” he cut me off. He didn’t want me to talk, I realized. He was afraid of what I had to say. “I told him about the positive side of it all.” 

Positive side of him kissing his friend’s girl? I felt my face burn with a violent rush of anger. My blood started to boil in my veins. My hands were tickling due the new blood, adrenaline and emotion rush. 

“Positive side, huh?” My voice was pure ice. He shrugged. “Tell me what's positive about betraying a friend.” 

“I showed him he deserved better than a girl who couldn’t keep her hands to herself. Especially with a friend of his.” I couldn’t believe what I heard. 

“So, that's it? Now everything is supposed to be great and back to normal?” He was having a hard time keeping his posture. 

A part of me found it strangely funny. He could be an asshole with a girl, when he wanted to, but he couldn’t argue with me without trembling. 

He breathed heavily. “Tonight it’s my turn to host the party. I want you to come.” 

I laughed. “Who’s going to be the challenge of the night? Any Penetrator’s girl to hook up with and show them what sluts they’re?” Did I ever mention I was fluent in sarcasm? “Oh.” I took my hands to cover my mouth, in a suddenly realization. “It's Noora tonight, isn’t it?” And that is when he lost it. 

“Enough. I don’t even know what to do anymore.” He threw his hands in the air. “There’s nothing I can say or do that will make you stop being a bitch to me!” His voice was raising with each sentence. “Do want me to apologize? Because I can do it. I’m fucking sorry!” He shouted the last part. 

“I am not the one you should be telling this.” I said, half angry half uncomfortable by his explosion. 

“EXACTLY!” He yelled at me. “I told Theo how sorry I was one million times during the last two weeks. He finally forgave me. So why the hell can’t you?” 

He was right. Why the hell I couldn’t forgive him? I didn’t know how to explain it without telling him how I really felt about us. All I could do was stay quiet. 

“You know what?” He asked when he realized I wasn’t going to answer him. “Do whatever you want. I’m done running after you. It’s like driving directly into a fucking wall, with my foot pressing the accelerator.” I had to chew inside my cheeks so I wouldn’t cry. “Go to my party. Don’t go to my party. It’s up to you. I don’t even care anymore,” he continued, going for his car. I followed him, don’t ask me why. “By the way, Theo wants to show us his new girl.” 

I was waiting for him to say any kind of things after that ‘by the way’, but Theo getting a new girlfriend wasn’t one of them. 

“What do you mean new girl? I basically babysitted him the whole time. I don’t know about any girl.” 

“Well, it seems like you haven’t done a great job.” My words before were cold as ice. But his words now were sharp as a knife. “Have a nice day, Cap,” he said my nickname like it was an insult, driving away. 

I stood there, not sure about what I should do next. All I knew was that I didn’t want to be alone, so I grabbed my phone and dialed the familiar number. William answered on first noise. 

“What happened?” His voice filled with concern.

 “It got worse.” I heard him curse on the other side. 

“Can I still go to your house or it was all part of Chris’ plan?” 

“You have five minutes to get here or I’ll come get you myself. I’m making hot chocolate, and we’re watching Civil War.” I hung up and drove to his house. 

We didn’t talk about what happened. He asked, but he saw I didn’t want to bring it up, therefore he dropped the subject. We spent the whole afternoon watching superheros movies and drinking hot cocoa. I didn’t realize how much I truly missed him until that moment. 

We haven’t realized how long a time passed until Chris called William. 

“Hi Chris. Shit, your party. What time is it? That late? Sorry, I’ll be there in a minute, I just need to shower first. I lost track of time. Yes, Chris. I said I’m sorry.” William got embarrassed. I didn’t need to ask to know that Chris was talking about me. “Yes, I talked to her. She is.. Well, you know how she is. Let me shower, we talk later. Bye.” 

He looked at me, waiting for me to tell him what to do. 

“Go take a shower, I’m going to my house so I can shower too.” He raised an eyebrow. 

“Are you coming to the party?” 

“Hell yes. Not missing a party because my other best friend is an idiot. If this was a reason, I’d miss every single party because of you,” I joked, so he would think I was fine. 

He smiled. “That’s my girl.” 

My eyebrows knitted together. “Ew. Don’t treat me like a dog,” I told him, standing up. “See you in forty.” I kissed his forehead and left.