#haunted depths

[g0nefischin]

Got this from one of those incorrect quote generator things

[dreadark]

that ivan loves till is the most obvious thing about them

but. does ivan know that…?

the ivan that regards his own feelings as shallow, the ivan that learned how emotions are expressed only from copying others… does he even know that the love he’s felt for so long is love? probably not. and part of the reason is the one he loves himself

because the easiest example he has of love is till's feelings to mizi. till outright calls it love, and ivan watches him so much he has to be aware of this and till’s love to mizi is totally unselfish, right. he doesn’t seem to actually want much from her—just that she's still there and still "mizi"

but ivan can't be satisfied with just watching he… wants. ivan wants till’s attention, till’s affection—

surely this selfish wanting can’t be love

...no wonder he was never able to express his feelings straightforwardly when he belittles them so much but he can’t stand not having anything either, so he does… whatever he does instead to get any scraps of attention he can, from someone he's convinced doesn't care about him at all only showing affection when till can't see it, right until he knows he's going to die

but ivan's feelings for till are all he still has of himself... to think of them as shallow...

I've seen this translated as "I should've been kinder" to him (till) or to her (sua)

but really, the one he should've been kinder to was himself

[carnivalcarriondiscarded]

i think i need a lobotomy

[cosmicwhoreo]

A Little Late

[sweaters-and-vertigo]

mike flanagan really saw american horror story and thought to himself “meh.. i can do better”

and then he fucking DID

[majimasleftasscheek]

Hi, im very sorry if this has already been answered or established somewhere else but im curious, with your Kazumaji stuff, around what time did they start dating (i.e. after the events of Yakuza 0 and all that) and how?

tbh, I dunno!

I don't really have an established date for that cuz sometimes I'm like man they'd be really cute during y0 and then other times I set it between post y0 and the beginning of y1. The latest they would start me thinks is some months after the events of y1 but in general it sorta depends on how I'm feeling and what silly scenarios play in my head

ideas under the cut tho 👀

if we're talking y0: I like to think Kiryu has to go to Sotenbori for some reason, be it business or he's there with Nishiki for some partying. he sees Majima at the Grand being depressed and is like "damn girl those bags under your eyes makes my dick go *boing sound effect*" and asks him out 🥺 Kiryu gets rejected immediately cuz Majima's in this cycle of 'I deserve nothing but pain and suffering' but Kiryu can't read the room so he is persistently showing up at the Grand despite Majima very obviously wanting to kick his ass. eventually he relents and goes on cute™ dates with Kiryu and realizes oof maybe human intimacy be kinda gucci

if between y0 and y1: Majima's fresh in his mad dog era starting shit with people just to be annoying and Kiryu's one of his targets mainly due to the events of y0. he's kinda like "lol this goober really did some important plot stuff, huh?" and his curiosity gets the better of him because Kiryu is an enigma who eats bugs and Majima cannot suppress his need to get some sense of understanding on this weirdo. in this timeline, it's more one-sided affection from Majima that comes in the form of stabbing while Kiryu is desperately trying to fight the gay allegations and failing. eventually he caves but it's a sorta unofficial, on and off thing that Kiryu doesn't really know how to evaluate for himself. Majima doesn't really care what they are since he's high on life atm and has a cute dude with big boobs on his arm

if during y1: literally just everything Majima Everywhere. Goromi. GOROMI 😩💦 Kiryu is all: I LIKE PUSSY but everyone's like okay big man then why's Majima pole dancing for you huh. the two braincells he has start to click and he realizes maybe Majima wants to hold hands or something unthinkable like that. ngl I like to think Kiryu's thing for Yumi is like a demisexual bi thing where he's like, I do love her but she don't zap my brain quite like the bowlcut freak who knows how to punch me real good and it becomes sorta his personal introspective journey during this time. Majima is also floating in the space of am I doing this for his benefit cuz "training" or am I falling for this dork. he's pretty sad about it cuz of the Saejima reminder vibes but eventually Kiryu falls into his own person that Majima really meshes with and the two of them struggle to actually voice how they feel all the while their pants are down in some dirty alley

if after y1: (going to insert shit from a fic I'm working on) Kiryu's absolutely devastated with what happened in the Millennium Tower + now having to take care of Haruka that he's shut himself off from everyone and everything other than doing the bare minimum to live. in comes Majima being a menace like yo you can't like, let a child parent herself you gotta get outta this slump and Kiryu's all fuck you stop breaking into my house. so it's a long pain in the ass process to help Kiryu deal with his grief while Majima keeps unintentionally making googoo eyes at him and both of them are like boy I sure hope this doesn't awaken anything within me. there's also a lotta dadjima stuff going on and Kiryu's like wowie zowie so you do have a heart and Majima's like no way loser while being just 😳👉👈

[landoffreaksandfrogs]

bloodswap doodles! the basis of this au is: what if everyone kept their moons and classpects, only their blood was changed? what would their signs be on the extended zodiac to reflect that?

[mothtral]

in one world, scar is the captain of a pirate ship. his crew rowdy but each member is dear to his heart, alongside his faithful companion, jellie. scar tries to hide it, but something was wrong as they sailed across the sea.

one night after he sent his crew to bed for rest, insisting he was able to man the ship for a few hours on his own, he hears voice. it’s low, barely heard over the crashing of waves. scar is inclined to think he’s just hearing things, it’s been a long time since he’s slept, when jellie hisses at something.

when scar peers over the railing, black void eyes stare at him from from the water.

[betweenlands]

i think someone needs to lock squiddo and forgelabs in a room to see what kind of entirely new backstabbing gremlin behavior heretofore unthinkable by mankind might pupate out of the resulting scheme

[themostefficientwaywithwater]

I think the main reason WW's Ganondorf is so different from the others it's because he has learned that his battle against the Goddesses is not a matter of everyone against him/the gerudo but rather a everyone against the gods.

Besides Demise's curse, Ganondorf has always been flooded by his wish of revenge: revenge against the hylians who marginalized his people, revenge again the hero who slayed him, revenge against anyone who opposed him. He doesn't fight for a just cause because he believes the world is unjust and the only way of surviving is by being unjust in return.

But in the Adult Timeline, after the events of OoT and breaking his seal, he discovers an awful truth: it's not that the world is unfair, the Goddesses are. Just to seal him again, they flood the whole kingdom they were supposed to protect, killing most of the hylians population and condemning a few selected survivors to struggle in tiny islands isolated from the rest by a huge sea warren of fishes but filled with dangerous monsters. Even the other races had to undergo drastic changes in their bodies to survive un the aftermath of the flood. That's when Ganondorf understood that the Goddesses weren't just unfair: they were uncaring, and willing to sacrifice anything to torment anyone who wronged them.

I think this is why Ganondorf, even thought some of his actions are still deplorable (launching Link to drown at the sea, kidnapping girls, allegedly destroying a village...), we see that he's less willing to actively hurt people (in the final battle, he has TWO clear opportunities to kill Link and Tetra, and in both times he just incapacitates them, and besides whatever happened in Windfish island we never see him sending his monsters to attack people, just kidnapp a few of them). In fact, he's motivanted by a more "noble" cause: to bring Hyrule, or better said, his idyllic version of it, back from the seafloor. This could be because he has stopped seeing hylians as the "other", and has started to consider them as being from the same band, just a bunch of mortals trying to survive the whims of the gods, who play with them as if they were mere chesspieces.

So, in a sense, Ganondorf is not really much different from its other incarnations. He's still full of hatred and rancor, but It has been redirected. Not against the royal family, who exiled his people to the deserts. Not against the hylians, who lived si much better than them and even had the gall to call them thieves when they were just trying to survive. Not against the hero and the princess who defeated and sealed him when he tried to reclaim what he thought he deserved.

It's the Goddesses.

The Goddesses that drowned their people to "protect" them from him.

The Goddesses that decided it was okay to let two children fight against him as their champions. Forever.

The Goddesses that decided he is the one and only Big Bad Guy of the story when they have commited more atrocities than him, both by action and inaction.

[foggysirens]

okay so im thinking about luke (again) and for some reason all im wondering about is if, growing up, he knew what he looked like. because stick with me here, just imagine a young luke, six or seven and he’s staring at his own warped face in the metallic refection of water barrel or in the belly of a droid. the mirror in the homestead has been broken for ages and owen and beru can’t spare the credits to replace it. think of him just looking at the hazy vision of himself and wondering if the blond flop on top of his head bears any resemblance to that of his birth mother. if the flecks of dirt on his cheeks that beru calls ‘freckles’ are something he got from his birth father. imagine an older luke now, ten or twelve, sitting in front of aunt beru as she brushes his hair back from his face as she tells him what colour his eyes are, how his stomach flips and his hand turn into fists because how can she says he’s handsome when he can’t see for himself? imagine an even older luke, fifteen or sixteen, and owen finally lugs a busted old mirror through the door. the frame on it has gone from varnished gold to faded copper, shadowed in the corners and cracked across the bottom, but it’s real. imagine him sitting in front of it for hours, picking apart the pieces of his face and finally, for once in his life getting a sense for who luke skywalker actually is. imagine a luke who is now a young man, newly nineteen and owen and beru surprised him with a gift, a true relic of the past. a photograph. the truest capturing of one’s visage, of one’s soul. an image of the three of them together, one that luke proudly places in his room. imagine again, days later, luke stumbling home to find it all gone. burned and gone are the mirror, the photo. owen. beru. imagine the soot blowing into lukes face, covering his freckles, clinging to him, and how for a moment he must wonder if his hair has gone from blonde to black with it. imagine further, if you will, how he never cares to know. never looks to see even when he gets to echo base and there are suddenly mirrors in every fresher. he doesn’t need to see. he can feel it, the ash that sticks to him, even after he scrubs his skin pink and raw. he knows the luke skywalker that he looked at in the mirror back on the homestead will not be the one he sees this time. because that luke is gone and will never be again and he can’t stand the thought of looking in those perfect, shining mirrors, because he knows the image he’ll see will be warped anyways.

[at-the-depths]

Every day I find a church, I say a prayer, and I light a candle just for you.

[swinging-stars-from-satellites]

top 5 books?

off the top of my head right now? it does change often and there's some recency bias of course but right now something like:

Station Eleven by Emily St. John Mandel

The Little Prince by Antoine de Saint-Exupéry

Tomorrow and Tomorrow and Tomorrow by Gabrielle Zevin

Turtles All the Way Down by John Green

Salt To the Sea by Ruta Sepetys

[august-undergrounds]

[fishing-lesbian-catgirl]

I’m always looking for more music with no lyrics that I find engaging to listen to while I do work because it helps me focus. And lately I was listening to an arknights boss level theme playlist, which is mostly good, but there are some themes that are so good at capturing the essence of the event story that I can’t focus because I’m too busy thinking about how good this theme is

[egophiliac]

May I humbly request to see pegallama herder, hippocampus rider, and dracocapra shepard again? I know it's been a VERY long time since you last drew them, but those characters and the fun little world they lived in always made me happy every time I saw them (◕ᴗ◕✿)

oh wow, it's literally been half a decade since I last drew them, huh. :') I don't really post stuff like this here anymore, but I'll always be fond of these guys!