Flake's podcast - Mountains (Berge)
Published 2023-02-14
Mountains this time, and differently from usual Flake doesn't start with explaining why he chose the theme (apart from at 0h09 quoting famous German mountaineer Reinhold Messner who, when asked why he climbs mountains, simply said "Because they are there"), so i'll leave that for the end of this 'take' too 😊
Well, to get the question out of the way probably all Rammstein fans reading this have "Is 'Ohne Dich' in it?", yes it is ❤️ at 0h57 (hadn't heard it in a while for some reason, and it struck me again how great that song is). After playing it Flake explains for his listeners why that song is on the show, it has a video where the band go mountain climbing, one of them gets hurt, he is pulled along to the top and dies there. Very dramatic, Flake says it's very close to his heart (he says 'the band' as if it's some other band he knows nothing about, but in the follow-up he gives himself away 😊) Because of the video the band got mail from another band 'Naked Lunch' who complained "That they stole that video because Naked Lunch did it first and made a real mountain video because they are from Austria, and we..eh..Rammstein..do everything wrong, wrong shoes, look wrong, so the video is really bad" Flake watched the video by Naked Lunch and indeed it is on a mountain, but he thinks that just because it's on a mountain doesn't mean Rammstein stole the idea. Rammstein actually wanted to do a mountain video already for 'Sonne' (climbing the mountain and when they'd reach the top, there was the sun). Anyway, to make up for it he plays Naked Lunch too in the show 😊
A few other bands more or less associated with Rammstein are featured as well: at 0h09 Laibach (often mentioned as an inspiration for Rammstein) Flake mentions Laibach is also a town, it's the german name of Ljubljana in Slovenia. Flake actually visited the town Ljubljana, he thinks it's a lot like Erfurt, except Ljubljana is on the river Ljubljanica and Erfurt isn't 😊 After he jokes some more about that, at 0h14 he announces the next song with "we tried to be funny with Feeling B too, didn't work".
Feeling B's song ends with a lot of rattling and a lion's roar, they had to do that to make the song be a little over 4 minutes long because at that length the money they got for it was doubled (and they needed that money). This song "Du wirst den Gipfel nie erreichen" they even had translated into english by an american translator (to try to have a wider audience), and she made it into "Mountain top" which makes Flake consider that he could have come up with that translation himself 😊
Another short mention of Feeling B at 0h49 who were in the USA for the first time in 1993, listening to the radio rock stations who played rock day and night, and one of the big names at the time was the band he plays on the podcast Jane's Addiction (who Flake for a long time thought were called James Addiction, and figured that was the name of their singer).
At 0h54 Flake thinks the best way to experience mountains is hiking. He already did so as a kid, with his family, his dad was an avid hiker and to encourage his sons, he'd sing hiking songs ('Wanderlieder' in German), and his dad's favorite song Flake plays on the show (albeit this time sung by 'Die Fischer Chöre'). When Flake sings, his kids started walking too.. to get away from him 😊
And we get a Rammstein anecdote too, at 1h16 before playing a song by Moby, Flake talks about hearing a Moby song and this strange sound in it, which turned out to be the bass, Flake mentions he's not that much into bass, but the other Rammstein-guys liked to play it really loud and only then Flake found out that it was actually in the song (had thought it was the neighbour using a powerdrill). A Moby album was released when Rammstein were in Heiligendamm to work on the Mutter album, and 'our guitarist Richard' (usually Flake doesn't mention names with 'our guitarist', but this time he does) really loved that record. Richard had brought along a huge sound system in his room, and when he'd wake up in the morning he'd blast Moby on it and would go in the shower. So Moby sounded through the entire house (almost made Flake fall out of bed), letting the whole band know "okay, Richard is awake, in the shower and ready to start working" 😄
And now to the theme. At 1h49 Flake poses the theory that people are naturally inclined to use flat surfaces, and going up, like on a mountain, is unnatural; a person always tends to go to the flat area again. Flake's own experiences with mountains are basically all traumatic. Like at 1h50, when they went on tour with the band (i take it this is Rammstein) in Switzerland, had a day off, and figured they'd do something fun. So they went up a mountain in a cable car. Now Flake likes cars and trains, but a cable car, on that thin wire, also goes up from the ground. At that time Flake was going through a phase where he had many anxieties (helped by too much alcohol and too little sleep), and when they were at the top, Flake said "I'm not going down again in that", because that's even worse, it even goes through the clouds ("Im Ernst!" (seriously!)) almost like a plane looking down on a featherbed. Anyway, Flake figured he liked walking: he'd walk down. They agreed to meet up again in 4 hours, the band went skiing and Flake started to walk. He figured he'd just take the walking trails, except it turned out in winter these are closed because they are covered in snow. So Flake just marched through the snow, down the mountain. Went very well, got wet feet, they way you do, thought he saw a nice meadow, figured he'd go there, see if there was a mountain cabin, maybe get a drink. But when he got there it turns out it wasn't a meadow at all, it was the next mountain, just as high as the previous one.
A true Berliner, Flake measures everything by the height of the Berlin tv tower: he had to walk down 4 tv towers, made it to one tv tower, but turns out...that was only the start... so he walked and walked, another hour, the sun was already setting, and the road he was following ended up at an ice glacier...on the right hundreds of meters going down, on the left hundreds of meters going up, vertically, all ice, like a skating rink, put one foot on it, slipped and fell down on his behind, couldn't go on, couldn't go back, so just sat there and cried.
Flake didn't know what to do...walk 5 hours back up to the cable car (which would probably be closed), stay there and hope to be found some time (the story is from before everyone had mobile phones)...so he just sat and realised it was the same old story: hopelessly overestimated, didn't think it through...and that's how he got the theme of this podcast (you can hear him go 'huhhuh' after that statement) 😄
Unfortunately he doesn't tell us how he managed to get down in the end, but at 1h57 he leaves us with a useful life motto: Don't go up a mountain you don't know how to come down from 😊 unless you're a cat, because cats always know how to get down (as a fireman once told Flake "Did you ever see the skeleton of a cat up a tree?")
When i saw the photo fanaccount _christian_flake_lorenz_ shared on ig yo the show, i thought this would be a fitting end to this 'take' 🌺
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Title: 24 Reasons
Pairing: Richard Z. Kruspe / Till Lindemann
Presentee: @kitthefox
Prompt: Advent Calendar
Warnings/Tags: Mutter Era | Drug mention | Angst & Hurt / Comfort
Word Count: 2.374
Summary: Richard wants to leave the band. He feels like he needs something else. Something new. Till shows him that there is a reason to stay.
Read on AO3: here
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The pre-production for their new album was almost done, but the band was still kinda restless. Richard feels mostly angry these days, but he still tries to hold himself back. He doesn’t like any of the shit they have managed to record so far.
“I’m just saying, we could look over the songs again. I think there is something missing,” Richard says quietly. Paul who sits opposite him sighs very loudly and puts his guitar away. Thank god, the thrumming had been giving Richard a headache anyway.
“Look, we get that most of the songs aren’t your typical style, but we all decided that we wanted to try something new,” Schneider says and he takes another sip of his coffee. Richard looks down to his own mug for a second.
Tomorrow they would all leave Heiligendamm and settle down before Christmas. December is so close now, Richard feels like he can already smell the snow that would soon settle over the landscape. Only a few more days, but Richard knows that he doesn’t want to record their album like this.
His hands are shaking.
“I don’t want my name on a record like this,” Richard answers. He tries to keep his voice light and playful, but it doesn’t work out. He can see how Ollie closes his eyes and looks away. Paul sighs.
“I mean you’re also free to just leave the band,” Schneider says now and Richard bites down on his lower lip. They really had fought a lot the last few days and Richard knows he said some very bad things too.
Richard knows he has hurt his friends and yet he feels so unsatisfied with their new music, that he just can’t shut up. He doesn’t understand how they can not see it? They have much more potential than that.
“If it means that I don’t have to see your face again, sure,” Richard replies, the anger taking over again and there is nothing he can do about it. This time Schneider gets slowly up, Richard happily looks up at him, not backing away at all.
“Guys…,” Flake whispers behind them, but they ignore it.
“You don’t mean that. You’re too cowardly,” Schneider says and there is a nasty grin on his face. Richard wonders sometimes what happened between them all. There are so many rifts between them now.
His drugs caused most of them, but not everything. It’s not his fault that they can’t see his vision.
“Watch me,” Richard says slowly and with that he turns around and walks out of the room.
“Oh we will be glad that you’re gone!” Schneider yells after him.
Richard doesn’t answer. Instead he goes upstairs first and walks into his own room. There he takes a deep breath and then slowly packs his personal stuff back into his suitcase and puts his favorite guitar on top of it.
He would ask someone else to get the rest of his stuff. Right now he doesn’t care too much about this. He doesn’t care too much about any of this. Richard opens his nightdrawer and takes out a small bag.
Only to find it empty. He slams it against the wall.
Richard’s fingers are shaking even more now and so he walks outside on his balcony for a second. At least he still has some cigarettes left, so he carefully lightens one and blows the smoke out into the cold night.
Here it’s so quiet. Richard ignores that he’s shaking a bit already, because he’s just wearing his soft jumper. Instead he looks down to the small town they’re staying in. It looks so peaceful. So schön.
There’s a knock on his door.
Richard huffs, but stays silent otherwise. The door opens anyway and Richard knows it’s Till because nobody else would dare to do that. Richard slowly turns around and there he is. The singer looks sad, Richard’s heart out of stone, squeezes painfully in his chest.
He’s not even sure when he turned into this version of himself. Normally Richard loves to show his affection or gets bathed in it, but lately…
Till looks so broken, when he comes outside on the balcony as well, surely he had seen the suitcase.
“Will you really leave?”
“Yes.”
Richard can see how much that hurts Till. He doesn’t take it back though. He knows that he has to leave right now. Otherwise he would just end up hurting himself and the others even more.
He just never wanted to hurt Till.
“When?”
“Probably tomorrow, before anyone wakes up. I wrote Joey already,” Richard says and Till nods slowly. Richard takes another drag from his cigarette, he slowly feels himself calm down. Till always had that energy on him, even without doing anything.
“Is there… any way I can make you stay?” Till asks so softly. So hurt. Richard swallows his own feelings down. He had always been rather good at that.
“I don’t think so,” Richard admits. There is of course a way, but Richard would never tell him about that. He’s not stupid or particular has a death wish. He kinda needs his best friend in the way he has him now.
“And how long will you be gone?” Till dares to ask. Richard looks at him now. There are still some street lights on behind them, but the moon is already up as well and Till looks so beautiful like this.
As if someone can read his thoughts, it slowly starts to snow. Richard looks into the sky for a moment.
“I’m not sure yet,” Richard whispers back. He doesn’t want to leave the band forever… at least he thinks so, even now. But maybe the others wouldn’t want him back after he leaves. Richard sighs.
“I hate this,” Till mutters almost too quietly for him to hear. Richard nods.
“I’m sorry,” Richard offers and Till steps even closer to him. When he holds his arms out, Richard playfully rolls his eyes, but lets himself be hugged anyway. It feels good and he flicks his cigarette away, so he can cuddle against Till’s chest.
“Do you know where you will go?” Till asks and there is so much hope in his voice. Maybe he thinks that Richard would just leave Heiligendamm. Richard knows the next sentence will hurt him as well.
“New York,” Richard answers and Till breaks the hug. His green eyes are so wide and so full of pain. Richard presses a cold hand to Till’s cheek and he tries to smile.
“W-what do you mean?”
“I thought for a while about this. Joey offered to help me settle down there,” Richard says and both sentences are the truth. He had been thinking for weeks about this and yes he feels bad, but he knows this will be better for all of them.
It’s what he tells himself at night, when he wakes up crying.
“This band needs you,” Till says and Richard squeezes his eyes shut, when Till’s voice breaks. That’s why he wanted to leave overnight. He didn’t want to say goodbye to Till, he had known how much this would hurt him.
“I don’t think so anymore,” Richard admits, his own voice shaking and he hastily wipes over his eyes, before he’d start to cry like an idiot in front of Till. Sure he had cried in front of him before, Till is the only who had ever seen him cry besides his parents maybe, but he has to stay strong now.
For both of them.
“Will you… will you ever come back?” Till asks the question Richard doesn’t want to hear. He’s not sure about that yet, so he doesn’t answer. He had already tried once to leave Till and his feelings behind, because he knows he’s not good enough for someone like Till, but back then it hadn’t worked.
Till nods to himself and then walks back inside. For a moment Richard thinks that he will just leave, because Till even walks out of his room. Instead it takes only a moment, before Till is back.
This time he’s holding a package in his hands.
“I want you to have it. I… I made it for you and I originally wanted to give it to you in a few days, but… you should have it now,” Till says and he holds the package out. Richard slowly takes it, noticing that it’s rather light.
It’s starting to snow even harder now, it looks beautiful in Till’s dark hair.
“Thank you,” Richard whispers. Till leans closer and presses a soft kiss to Richard’s cheek.
“Maybe… maybe it will make you come back to me,” Till says and before Richard can reply again, Till turns around and really leaves this time.
Richard isn’t sure how long he stays out there on his balcony.
*
“Hey what the hell is this?” Joey asks, when he finds the package a few days later, buried underneath other stuff. For now Richard is staying at Joey’s. He doesn’t have an apartment in New York yet.
“Uhm… something Till gave me,” Richard answers and he slowly takes the package in his own hands. He hadn’t opened it so far, so he sits down on his couch and does that now.
“Oh.”
“What is it?” Joey wants to know and Richard holds it up.
“It’s an advent calendar. Seems like Till really… made this for me,” Richard says and he can’t help but tear up at the thought. He tries to swallow his tears down and nods to himself. That is so sweet and thoughtful.
“Open it then! Today is the first of December!” Joey says, sounding so excited himself. Richard feels so bad. He hadn’t even called Till or anything when he had landed. He had been so sure that this would be the best for them.
Richard’s hands are shaking when he opens the first little bag. It reminds him of the night he had last seen Till. He misses him so much.
Inside the bag is a bit of chocolate, which makes Richard smile and a small piece of paper. He’s not sure if he wants to open it.
Joey is still watching him, his smile so encouraging.
Richard takes another deep breath and then opens it. He can see that Till wrote that with his fancy pen.
“Reason 1 why I’m in love with you: You are everything I never knew I needed. I wanna stay with you forever,” Richard reads out loud.
“Oh shit,” Joey says and Richard nods.
This time he can’t help those tears. Fuck. Richard slowly turns away from Joey and hides his face in his hands. He misses Till so much.
Till - who actually loves him.
Richard would think that this is a joke, but Till would never make a joke about something like this. Richard’s heartbeat picks up again and he sobs into his hands. He wants to go back home. To his Till.
“I m-miss him,” Richard says and he hears how Joey gets up. Joey pats him on the back and then gives him his phone. Richard takes it and Joey leaves him alone for the moment.
Richard clicks on Till’s number. He isn’t even sure how late it is already in Germany, but he needs to speak to him now.
“Scholle?”
“I love you too,” Richard bursts out and he winces when he realizes that he hadn’t even said anything else. Till is chuckling though. It’s Richard’s favorite sound in the world (besides his guitar).
“You mean that?” Till asks and Richard imagines him blushing. He wants to see that. He wants to touch the blush, feel it. Rub his cheek against Till’s and make him laugh.
“Yeah. I’m sorry that… Till I… I miss you. I opened the advent calendar. Please, don’t tell me that it’s too late to come back home,” Richard says and Till makes a surprised sound.
“It will never be too late. I will always wait for you,” Till whispers and Richard’s throat closes up again. Before he knows it he’s already crying again. Till makes a soothing noise and hums quietly into the phone.
“I was so dumb. I thought I need distance, but… all I need is you,” Richard admits and while he feels kinda silly about sounding so romantic it also sounds right.
“Why did I bother to write down 24 reasons why I’m in love with you, when I already won you over with the first one,” Till says now and he laughs so cutely again. Richard is for sure blushing himself now.
“I’m in love with you for years,” Richard mumbles back.
“Good. Does that mean I get an advent calendar too?” Till laughs and this time Richard laughs as well.
In the end he doesn’t know how long they spend on the phone together, but he falls asleep with Till’s voice in his ears.
He wishes he could always have this and for the first time he actually believes he could have this.
*
A week later Richard is almost falling asleep on Till’s chest.
He had been right after all. He had needed a new perspective and a break from the band. But never a break from Till. He just needed to be even closer to him.
Till carefully strokes through his hair, before he presses a kiss against his temple. Richard hums and nudges him, so Till would finally read the newest letter of the advent calendar.
It’s his favorite thing in the world.
Till laughs and starts to read. Richard blushes and squirms a bit, but he has to say that he really enjoys hearing what Till loves about him (even if he doesn’t agree sometimes).
In may they would meet up with the band again in southern france. But right now Richard doesn’t want to think about them again.
Right now he wants Till to open his own calendar. Richard had bought that one in New York, since he didn’t have time to actually make one of his own. But Till loves the chocolate one, he had said.
Maybe next year he would make Till an advent calendar with 24 songs only for him. Richard smiles.
Yeah.
He likes that idea.
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