#helloolizz

[helloolizz]

I'm Back and Blue

Hello, Tumblr world. It's me again. Finally I had the courage to type my thoughts in today. I missed writing in here. I miss writing my thoughts in general. I used to scribble down everything on my journal when I was young. Now, I make digitalization quite an excuse for me not to write anymore. That sucks.

I'm 24 now. Turning 25 this year, and the last time I navigate through this website and write my thoughts was when I was 21. Time sure flies fast and my character development was a wild, chaotic, and quite strange the past 3 years. I was learning how to find my voice and battling newfound demons and my early 20’s so far is consisted of learning more about my demons. How to accept and harmonize with them.

I don't know if I've said this before but there were a lot of things I repressed as a kid, that are continuously starting to overflow like a glass full of bubble fizzes when you pour the soda in your glass too fast. The more I had the option to repressed my emotions, the more I had the options to run, and the more that I run the more I was faced to see my darker selves. I think there’s always so much intensity and emotions overflowing inside my head and yet it just burns in my tongue before I get to express them.

I sometimes wonder what version of me i feed to people and I wonder what it tastes like to them.