#help! im parasocializing!!

[soyeonshugs]

Okay this is just random rambles but does anyone else also start feeling bad any time someone implies George not openly talking about his emotions/ feelings and occasionally having a hard time outwardly showing his empathy means he’s a bad person?? Or ppl sometimes talking abt him like he’s an emotionless robot :/// cuz personally I’m like that too most of the time and I always start feeling really guilty abt it even tho I can’t help it 😭 George being relatable to me in those ways is part of what makes him so comforting to me and so ppl being mean abt it to him kinda makes me feel like their being mean abt it to me if that makes sense?? Idk mby im just being parasocial or smth but it always just kinda puts me off, anyway i just wanted to yap abt it a bit ://

[depressedraisin]

MAXIE MY BEAUTIFUL ANGEL

[seblore]

what's the point of anything?

[charmac]

x

[saltedcoffeee]

relapsed (thought abt xander watching david's shitty fucking tiktok lives after his family's death to cheer himself up and sending him fanmail that david opens and answers and it makes him cry so hard because he's so kind and patient with all the grieving sad questions xander asks him)

[madamegoodparty]

Not naming names and definitely not putting this in the main tags but I saw someone say Alaska was their least favorite queen bc "she's not as into it as the others" and I had a violent urge to maim in that moment

[sapoteylx]

people being nervous to int with their mutuals is so odd to me sometimes because im probably the least intimidating/judgemental person ever

like you could send me a random death threat and i'd be like OMGGGGG!!!!!!!! wow thank you for taking the time to message me!!!!!!!!!!!

[neilphen]

shes been on my mind all day long....

[tellthemhowihopetheyshouted]

more in depth explanation ig, i dont feel like i can listen to especially poets without thinking about the whole paternity test analysis thing.

when i first listened i felt really awful and embarrassed and i couldn't quite articulate why

while im still trying to figure it out, a huge part of my feelings was (and still is) that the part of me that wants to theorize about songs and who they're about, and connect it to taylor's life and imagine what she wrote about is at odds with what i hear in the lyrics about creeps who want the best for me and etc

there are some songs im better at just vibing with and some songs that i just actively have to force myself not to be like "oh thats about x person and so they did this and she did this and..."

I'm trying, and if anyone has suggestions or things that work for them please send them to me, im new to this and to online fandoms in general. i feel so shitty but then there's part of me that still doesn't see harm in thinking "x song is about taylor and x person, so using what you know about them both lets picture this in your mind" and "oh [symbol 1] that must mean it's about [person 1], but wait now there's also [symbol 2] so it's about [person 1 and person 2] but wait does that mean person 2 could also be related to symbol 1?" all the while all of these people are real actual people.

[angelbambisworld]

Sometimes I deadass forget that Gene and I are not actually in a relationship irl. Like I'll be on Pinterest and I'll see a funny meme and be like "Hahaha Gene would like this. I should send this to him."

And then I remember

[dabidagoose]

I can't believe I get to have my ears transported into another incredible plane of existence. For only $5/month.

[jrueships]

sauce and/or stef for bingo please!!

TWO FOR ONE!!! here's sauce <3333

and diggs!

[mbat]

i hate so deeply the fact that im so paranoid that any person i enjoy online is secretly a horrible person

like theres been so many youtubers that have been awful people that its left me scared that every single one of them is awful and so im sitting here overanalyzing against my will and reminding myself every 5 minutes not to get too attached

[barbiebiddie]

and if i cry??!?

[ef-1]

The creeper shots of Daniel lately…like what is wrong with ppl??? (to clarify I’m referring to the security camera screen grabs and shots through windows not ones he’s posing)

abhorrent, appalling, creepy beyond words.

and while we're at it, that one heidi berger fan page- not sure what they're fans of tbh- who encourages people to take and submit photos of daniel and its always shit quality, behind a bush, of him walking away? not even photos WITH him bc he's always happy to interact with fans, no just criminally uncomfortable creeper shots? Its literally so suspicious and freaky. The whole page has a major jobless, hobbyless, lifeless, chronically online, obsessed bitch air about it 😍

[findingcrow]

Ok I’ve heard that Flanagan responds pretty fast to emails and I think I mmmmight have his email (off of a Reddit post from like 3 years ago and so I have no idea if it’s actually his) and I’m seriously debating emailing (if I confirm that it’s his email) and just being like. Hey. I fucking love your books. But also I’m horrified and if I send it to the wrong person I think I will have a break down