#hny '24 <3

[taegularities]

HAPPY NEW YEAR RID!! 🥳

I hope you got to celebrate in whatever way you enjoy best!!

Also, I finished redraft a couple days ago and the only thing I could think of was this meme 😂

it was a really great chapter though and I’m so excited for both jungkook and oc! onward to translucent! wish me luck <3

HAPPY NEW YEAR, MY DEAR ALYSSA!!!!! hope you had a beautiful start to it and that it continues to be as fulfilling as possible. <3

NOT THE MEME LMAOOOOO i miss seeing yall clown cmi like that 🤣 honestly, if oc hadn't had plans to move out anyway, they might not have taken that step already :') but ykw… you and your cute ILY-obsessed ass… just wait for it >:) thank you so much for reading, love <3 wishing you all the luck bc i think translucent needs it hehee 🤍

[qualityrain]

love how shinpei can say the most insane off putting weird intense yandere bullshit and all it takes is for satoko to give this specific look for him to backpedal like crazy

[slut4msby]

the atsumu hny was super cute !!! loved It sm !! I hope you had an amazing new year's celebration!! was jus wondering if you could write something w samu or maybe Kita Shinsuke (24) rice farmer ? btw inarizaki #1 forever 💯

high school sweethearts. kita shinsuke x fem!reader

+ tags & warnings; fluff for a change of scenery & reader has a kid

+ a/n; I READ THIS AND WENT INSANE OMG I COULD TALK ABT KITA SHINSUKE (24) RICE FARMER FOR EVER. Fun little piece of lea slut4msby lore, when I first watched season 4 I had not read the manga yet and when Kita first came on screen i went insane. Also Kita and I are legally married?? My friends through a fake wedding for me because I was so in love with this man. And pls keep the Inarizaki reqs/asks/anything coming bc i am INSANE about inarizaki (i am normal i swear) <3

You couldn’t help peer out the window of your shared home with your husband. He was outside with your 5 year old son, playing some volleyball. Your son had never taken a liking to sports until your husband began cleaning out his old stuff, stumbling upon his jersey from his high school years. He would never admit and you would never bring it up but he did get emotional looking back at these days.The days where he led one of the greatest teams, not on the main roster, but he was still aware of the impact he had on the boys. He wasn’t the worst player but nothing notable, however Shinsuke had the power to put anyone at ease and you loved that about him.

Shinsuke never showed much self-confidence when the two of you had met in your first year. It’s not that he didn't have the confidence he just never felt the need to show it, and you appreciated that about him. You appreciate how no matter what Shinsuke was straight the point, you appreciated his need for routine, which has really helped your home life. You appreciate how he loves, how he cares for others. Kita Shinsuke was the perfect man.

However, despite how lucky you feel to have Shinsuke in your life. He feels even more lucky for you, he knows you are his soulmate from the day he met you in the first year. He felt as if all the work he had ever done paid off, he felt like the luckiest man in the world. At the beginning it was just a hallway class, the girl from class 1-6. Having your classes next to each other & both being in advanced classes meant the both of you would have recurring meetings. The next thing he knows, Aran had recruited you as the volleyball clubs manager as the team wouldn’t shut up about not having one. Shinsuke then began spending everyday with you, which turned to every waking second he was with you whenever he could be. He was your best friend, right?

That’s what you had thought. You would have never admitted your crush on Kita that began growing. However his admiration for you began sprouting. He loved the way you smiled, how you got along with everyone, took care of yourself and others, how you tie your shoelaces, how you set out  your notebook, how you played with your hair when you were nervous and how you didn’t seem to fear anything. Unlike him. Kita had put his feelings behind him, until he decided it was now or never, graduation. It was cliche, Shinsuke knew that. He had gotten you a bouquet of flowers, you had mentioned your favourite flowers in a passing conversation the second week of the second year. A useless piece of information, Shinsuke remembered that. Why wouldn’t he? He loved you. That day to Kita’s surprise, you said yes. You agreed to be his girlfriend.

Now, almost 10 years later. Shinsuke was your husband. Those flowers he had given you on graduation day you had pressed, they stayed on display in your kitchen, as well as a photo of you and Shinsuke the day your son was born. Now Shinsuke spent his days as a rice farmer instead of a volleyball player. However seeing him playing with your son reminded you of the man you fell in love with. 

You snapped out of a trance when your son called out to you, “Mum! Look! Dad taught me how to play volleyball like he used to.” You couldn’t help but smile, “He said I was really 

good! Mum, can I start playing volleyball! I wanna be like dad!.”

You turn towards Shinsuke, he looked so amused at the scenario. You jokingly roll your eyes at him, “of course you can baby!” You said planting a kiss on your son's forehead. “How about for now you and daddy go get cleaned up?”

“Okay!” Your son responds with a toothy smile, before your son begins pulling your husband down the hallway.

You felt like the luckiest woman alive.

©slut4msby

[dreaming-of-mossballs]

Mossball Masterlist - updated (4/14/24)

IT KEEPS BREAKING MY LINKS IM SORRY

Childe

ONE SHOTS

▸ Battle Scars

❆ Gepard ❆

Bamboo for a Bashful Captain - FULL

Divided into Chapters ⬇️

▸ CHAPTER 1 ▸ CHAPTER 2 ▸ CHAPTER 3 ▸ CHAPTER 4 ▸ CHAPTER 5

BFABC ONE SHOTS

▸ A Visit to the Landau Estate

▸ One Call Away

▸ A Care Package for a Bashful Captain

▸ Happy New Year, Captain

▸ HNY CAPTAIN REPOST

▸ Porridge for— you guessed it— a Bashful Captain

▸ First Date..?

Coming soon…

▸ ENDING

[sheryl-lee]

ask game 13 and 24 !!!!! ✨✨hny✨✨ I hope we flop atrociously together next yr amen

yes if we must flop, we shall do so together!!!!! it's about Solidarity (insert predator handshake meme here) 🫶

13. how was your birthday this year?

it was fine. my parents are muslim and my birthday fell during ashura this year (google it if you have no idea what i'm talking about), so i had to celebrate about a week early with them. but i got to eat some cake and hang out with my sister (who is a proud aetheist like me) on my actual birthday so it's all good. i love my birthday because i'm a huge narcissist so at least i got some attention on the day of. mostly i'm just excited that the Teenage Years are nearly behind me 🎉

24. did you keep any new year’s resolutions?

i think my resolution was to be more self-aware and... let's just say i'm actively trying and that's what's important <3

send me an end of the year ask ✨

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#5

WALKING WITH YOU IN THE SUNSHINE— an iwnma story // for @clare-with-no-i​ 

i am moved, stunned, agog that you voted if we never meet again for favourite jily AU!!! here is my thanks to u all hope u enjoy HNY everyone <333

That’s awkward, he thinks. He’s actually never starred opposite a redhead, except Lily. Never done a photoshoot with a redhead either.

READ.

107 notes - Posted January 2, 2022

#4

HOLY THE AIR, THE WATER, AND THE FIRE; for @sunshinemarauder

avatar but make it regency 🌙 8.5k words

“As it is I’m told two dances would be quite forward. If we dance two in a row we risk being carted off straight away to a chapel.” He's a Firebender. That's the only reason his hands are so warm.

READ.

119 notes - Posted March 16, 2022

#3

CERTAIN SHARP THINGS

prompt from @crimson-snitch

tattoo shop but make it regency 🪡 8k words; rated M

All the other customary marks on James’s body have been made either aboard his ship, his fear abated by cheap spirits, or in foreign ports. But this, they all said, this, his promotion to captain, this deserves ink from the Portsmouth tattooist’s hand.

READ.

138 notes - Posted March 24, 2022

#2

TWO’S A CROWD— 

there was only one bed but make it regency ✨ 4.2k words

The only thing Lily Evans can share with the Earl of Devon is a healthy dose of mutual dislike.

READ.

186 notes - Posted March 14, 2022

My #1 post of 2022

TELL ME WHERE YOUR SECRETS LIE, a slytherin!lily AU—

She’s Lily Evans. She's Muggle-born. She's a witch. She's a Slytherin. You already know how this story goes.

READ | PLAYLIST

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[cuebitcrush]

devlog 01/05/24

hny!

finished scripting the day 3 cycle and starting on day 4, but i'm stuck for the moment because i moved some things around just for better pacing, and that does mean that i need to figure out an alternative for what i had planned. super happy as well because i've figured out a way more efficient method of doing the day > night cycle than what i was doing before! also very appreciative to the person who helped me figure out a major issue with my cooking sections.

i need to write some plot things (letters/notes/final day + finish flavour text tho i probably won't do the flavour text atm) and also make different descriptions for some things so that they change throughout the game.

uhhh let's see. music and sfx will be later but i do have some audio in mind already, i'll need to compile a list of all the assets i've used, i've got an idea for what to do for the facesets, still need to figure out some drawings + the title art. tried fucking around with changing the font but i haven't been able to do it right for whatever reason so that's an issue.

[nagi-gohan-days]

ブログに書こうかなぁと思ってたことはあったけど、消去法で決めていったら書くことがなくなった………

ので今回は質問コーナーです。

自問自答でやったこともありましたが、今回は質問お借りしました。→ https://50mon.jp/q/225

100問は考えるのがきつかったので50問カテゴリから適当に選んで答えました。

以下長文です。対戦よろしくお願いします。

START▼

質問テーマ『微妙なプロフィールを披露したい人に50の質問』

1. 利き腕を教えてください

　左

2. 味噌汁は何味噌派ですか

インスタント派です

3. パスタは好きですか、好きなら種類を挙げてください

　好き カルボナーラ

4. もしかしてラーメン、或いはうどん派なのでしょうか？

　らぁめん派です

5. イケメンリア充と雰囲気イケメンリア充、憎いのは？

　会ってみてイライラしたほうが憎い

6. 好きなバンドであまり有名じゃないのを教えてください

　amazarashi いや、有名か、、、。

7. タイプの人を見かけたら何を思いますか

　アイドルにスカウトする

8. 好きな雑誌は？本でも良いです

アイマスの漫画やコミカライズ

結構ある。SideMも全部ではないけどアンソロとかストラグルハートとかは少し持ってます

9. 苗字はありふれてる方ですか、珍しい方ですか

　珍しいらしいです

10. 途中で怠くなってやめたゲーム挙げてください（ボードゲーム等可）

今有名な音ゲーは大方手をつけてはやめてます。家庭用だとMGSとか。やめちゃったけど実況プレイは見たりします

11. 外出��好きですか、好きならよく何をしていますか？

好きでも嫌いでもない

ただ、外を歩いていたり出掛けるとイラストや漫画のネタが降りてくることがあるので、詰むと歩くか出掛けます

12. インドア派なら貴方は家にこもって何をやっていると言うのです

作業したり原稿やったり妄想したりデレステとかミリシタとかシャニマスやったりMマスアーカイブで思い出に浸ったりアニメ見たり意外とやることあるのよ

13. 店員に恋したことありますか

　ない

14. 霊に祟られなければいけないとして、子どもと狐、どちらがマシですか

狐なら雨彦さんがなんとかしてくれそう

15. そもそも霊を信じてない？でしたらそれっぽい現象に遭った時どう対処しますか？

　神社に行きます

16. 倒す方、倒される方、どちらが好み？

　倒す方

17. 字は人並みに書ける方ですか

　普段セリフとか文字は全部手書きなんですが人並みに書けてますかね…？(質問返し奴)

18. 絵は得意ですか

　得意とは思えないけど描くのは好き

19. 笑顔と泣き顔、どっちが好き？

担当泣かせたいので泣き顔

20. 好物は何ですか

辛いもの、苦いもの、コーヒーとか抹茶

21. 砂糖だけ舐めるとか、氷を食べるとか、そういう趣向はありますか？

　紅しょうが食べてたい時がある

22. 好きなマスコットキャラクターをどうぞ

　ポチャッコ、ハンギョドン、カエール

23. そのマスコットキャラクターの好きなところは？

　みんなをにこにこさせてるところ

　ハンギョドンの趣味

24. アドリブは利かせれる方ですか？

　　　利かせられない

25. 最近利かせたアドリブは？

　　　利かせてない

26. ベーコンとソーセージ、選ぶなら？

　ソーセージかな、、、ベーコンって噛みきれない時もあってちょっと食べにくいよね。好きだけどね。

27. 自分にしか出来ない特技とか

　早苗さんと英雄のことで3時間くらいは語れる

　………特技か？？？(Pなら多分みんな語れる)

28. 夢ってあります？

　　今はわからない。見つかれば追います。

29. 消しゴム程度なら食べれると思いますか？

　　食べられないからやめようね

30. 小学校の時の性格を教えてください

　　感情を表に出さない

31. 後世に残したい事やものがあればどうぞ

　　無理はするなという事

32. 冬の防寒具は最近何がお気に入り？

　　アームカバー、手袋

33. 仕事大変ですか、やってない人は今何が大変ですか

　　資格持ってるのにワードが理解できない

34. 好きな花はありますか

　アネモネ、椿、向日葵、パンジー、ラベンダー

35. 何の脈絡もなく嫌われたらどう対応しますか

　疎遠を待つ、物理的に距離を置く(これわりと大事)

36. そこまで好きじゃないけどここは気に入ってる！ってものありますか

　まどマギ3話でマミさんが薔薇の魔女を倒すところ

37. 音楽は得意でしたか？

　得意じゃなかったけどカラオケは好き

38. 体育は得意でしたか？

本当に大の苦手で、体育祭に使う装飾物を作る係に立候補して練習サボってました

39. 集中力は高い方ですか

　没頭してしまえば高い

40. テニス、卓球、バドミントン、サッカー、バレー、バスケ、やるなら？

　　全部やりたくないな……強いて言えば卓球かな

41. 最高！って思った瞬間教えてください

　　　デレ7th名古屋

　　　HNY 世界滅亡or KISS

　　　デレ10thファイナル always

　　　かがやきよまつり サイン・オブ・ホープ

　　　SideMプロミ サイバネ、ベスゲ2

　　　ミリオン7thリバーン

　　　シャニ3rd 五ツ座流星群

　　　MOIW2023 マスピ

　　　アイマス最高、、ってなったとき

42. 友人がsnsなどで急にポエマー始めたらどう思いますか？

　　何かあったんだろうなぁと思って静観

43. タコとイカ、どっちを掴みますか？

　　Beitちゃんにたこパしてほしいのでタコ

44. 好きって言われることと嫌いって言われること、どっちが多い？

　　後者ですね……… でも好きだと言ってくれる方もいるので自分の好きなことは大事にしていきたい

45. 打楽器得意ですか

　　やったことない

46. 運命とかって信じます？

　　ティンときたら運命だと思う

47. 例えば知人の結婚が決まったら、結婚式で何をしますか

　知人がPだったら担当アイドル描いて贈る

　またはその人が好きなものを描いて贈る

48. 自分の結婚式で知人に何をしてほしいですか

　挙式する気ないので何もしなくていい

49. 好きな曲を何か一つ。

　　can't stop‼︎

50. 最後まで答えてくれてどうも、ところでおにぎりって手で持って食べてる？

コンビニのだったらだいたいのは持って食べられるよね。ケーキみたいに倒れちゃったり崩れるタイプだともう持てないから箸で食べてるよね。

以上です。ちょっと楽しかった。

最後の質問がおにぎりだったので、この質問にさせていただきました。(美希恭二要素)

この間描いた完成する前の楓さんが撮ってあったので、それを置いて終わりにします。

お疲れ様でした。

[pa3am]

2023 HNY Januari CW &  Radio-activity.

December CW-activity was great, wishing all radio friends MRY XMAS es HNY.

101 QSO’s in Actio40 activity, 24 DXCC mainly EU, 2 x DX. Extra catch of 7 new SKCC and 2 new NTC friends. I already applied for third award-sticker.

Overall score SKCC is now over130, (since 2018), so I have to analyse my log, exclude some dupes and fill in Basic SKCC Centurion Award.

Nice December activity:  RSGB Transatlantic Test Centenary Club c/o Radio Society of Great Britain. I worked several stations on several bands, so have to analyse Log as well. Good for a new award.

It’s not that often that you find ZA in your log but second day of 2023 fine CW Ragchew with Albany on 40 meterband, ZA1ME, Thanks Miri from Tirana for fine CW QSO.

TN8K DX-Epedition now QRT, in Log on 10,12, 15,17, 30, 40 and 80m. Missed 20m and 160 was unable to hear/work them.

While cleaning up the mess behind my garage, I found back my homebrew 3 el 50MHz beam, between lots of used Aluminium. I already checked mechanical and electrical contacts, will do some cleaning and take it to the coming Fielddays in June. 

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Afficher uniquement les événements clésVeuillez activer JavaScript pour utiliser cette fonctionnalitéFlux en directLes évènements clésil y a 1hNouvelles de l'équipeil y a 1hPréambuleAfficher uniquement les événements clésVeuillez activer JavaScript pour utiliser cette fonctionnalitémaintenant11h40 HNE8 minutes "Bonne année à toi Rob, et à tous les MBMers, et merci d'avoir commencé avec une allusion à The Big Lebowski", déclare Charles Antaki. «Je ne me souviens pas exactement de la ligne, mais notre héros à un moment donné invite quelqu'un à l'appeler Dudester, Duderino ou« juste le mec, si vous êtes dans toute cette brièveté ». Comment Forest pourrait-il utiliser une partie de son insouciance maintenant. Aussi sa capacité à, d'une manière ou d'une autre, se sortir des égratignures les plus terminales.Eh bien, c'est juste, comme, votre obrochehomme d'ions.il y a 1 m11h39 HNE7 minutes Sterling envoie un centre bas à Mount, qui court sur le ballon et frappe un premier tir bien bloqué par Worrall. il y a 2 m11h38 HNE7 minutes Beaucoup de possession de Chelsea, ce qui ne devrait surprendre personne. La forêt a l'air plutôt compacte défensivement.il y a 3 m11h37 HNE6 minutes "HNY Rob !" dit Joe Pearson. "Le premier match d'aujourd'hui a été désastreux. C'était tellement nul qu'on parlait de soupe roumaine au MBM. Veuillez fournir une meilleure correspondance. Ou une recette différente. Merci d'avance!"il y a 4 mois11h36 HNE5 minutes Forest a commencé avec Awoniyi à gauche et Gibbs-White comme faux neuf. Bienvenue dans Tactics Corner, un bref aperçu en attendant que quelque chose se passe sur le terrain.il y a 5 m11h35 HNE3 minutes J'ai changé d'avis sur la position de Mount – il est presque un n°8 sans le ballon et un n°10 avec. De nos jours, de nombreuses équipes jouent avec des milieux de terrain à trois déséquilibrés. Un No6, un No8 légèrement à droite ou à gauche, et un No10 de l'autre côté. Arsenal le fait, tout comme Manchester United ; il semble que Chelsea joue un système similaire aujourd'hui.il y a 6 mois11h34 HNE2 minutes Koulibaly pulvérise une formidable longue passe vers Mount. Il s'enfuit de Yates, tue le ballon adroitement mais tranche ensuite le poteau proche avec son pied gauche. C'était un angle assez serré.il y a 8 mois11h32 HNE1 minute Je me suis trompé sur la forme de Chelsea – elle ressemble plus à 4-3-3 aujourd'hui, avec Mount jouant légèrement plus profondément que contre Bournemouth.Mis à jour à 11h33 HNEil y a 9 mois11h32 HNE1 minute Peep peep ! La forêt démarre de droite à gauche pendant que nous regardons.il y a 9 mois11h31 HNE"Voeux de nouvel an de Californie," dit Mary Waltz. "Pulisic a une autre chance d'impressionner et il ferait mieux d'en profiter, il avait l'air bien lors du dernier match. Après une belle performance en Coupe du monde, il doit enchaîner avec un match qui justifie l'énorme investissement que Chelsea a fait en lui.Il est là depuis si longtemps qu'il est facile d'oublier qu'il n'a que 24 ans. Il y a un joueur de classe mondiale là-dedans, mais je ne sais pas s'il sera jamais trouvé.il y a 10 mois11h30 HNE Avant le match, les joueurs se rassemblent autour du cercle central pour rendre hommage à un visionnaire unique : Pelé, décédé la semaine dernière à l'âge de 82 ans.Avis de décès de PeléLire la suiteil y a 13 mois11h28 HNE"Bonne année Rob," dit Kim Crawley. «La forme de Chelsea semble trop étroite et avec Jorginho assis profondément comme pivot, leur transition sera trop lente. Forest se mettra en face d'eux; les arrières latéraux de Chelsea vont être occupés. Cooper a déjà remporté la bataille du milieu de terrain. Forest va causer quelques problèmes. Sterling et Pulisic devront jouer un grand rôle défensif pour arrêter Forest. J'espère que je me trompe.Quand tu dis content nouvelle année. (Je pense que c'est un double pivot avec Zakaria au fait, même si je ne suis pas sûr que cela change votre point.)il y a 13 mois11h27 HNELes joueurs sortent du tunnel, dans la cacophonie de City Ground.

Quel endroit glorieux c'est.il y a 15 mois11h25 HNELes résultats d'aujourd'hui jusqu'à présent Dimitri Van den Bergh 5-3 Jonny Clayton Michael Smith 5-3 Stephen Bunting Tottenham Hotspur 0-2 Aston Villa il y a 16 mois11h24 HNE"Comme vous le savez, Rob," mensonges Ian Copestake, «Je crois que la seule vérité à trouver dans le monde moderne est basée sur la différence de buts. Les Spurs viennent d'en être informés alors que la véritable fausse position de Man Utd dans la ligue attend son jugement.C'est une mauvaise nouvelle pour nous les nostalgiques qui deviennent tout chauds et flous quand on pense à La saison 1992-93 de Norwich. il y a 18 mois11h23 HNE« Christian Pulisic devrait quitter Chelsea cette année,» dit Kurt Perleberg, « et retourner aux États-Unis ».Essayez-vous de me faire annuler le jour de l'an ?il y a 19 mois11.21 HNEMusique d'avant-matchil y a 42 mois10.58 HNELes soldes de janvier (pt 2)Nottingham Forest a déjà de l'espoir mais janvier pourrait définir son 2023Lire la suiteil y a 43 mois10h57 HNETemps plein : Tottenham Hotspur 0-2 Aston VillaLa forme à domicile des Spurs chez Spurs s'est poursuivie avec une défaite surprise contre Aston Villa, leur troisième lors des quatre derniers matchs de championnat au Surely We Should Have a Sponsor By Now Stadium. C'est une bonne nouvelle pour Chelsea, qui sera à égalité de points avec les Spurs s'il remporte ses deux matchs en main.Tottenham 0-2 Aston Villa : Premier League – réaction en directLire la suiteMis à jour à 11h01 HNEil y a 46 mois10h55 HNELes soldes de janvier (pt 1)Chelsea accepte des frais de 32,7 millions de livres sterling pour le défenseur central monégasque Benoît BadiashileLire la suiteMis à jour à 10h55 HNEil y a 50 m10.50 HNEJonathan Wilson sur Graham PotterGraham Potter ne fait face qu'au chaos jusqu'à ce que Chelsea accepte qu'il n'y ait pas de solution miracle | Jonathan WilsonLire la suiteMis à jour à 10h53 HNEil y a 1h10h41 HNENouvelles de l'équipeSteve Cooper apporte deux changements à l'équipe Forest qui a perdu à Old Trafford : Morgan Gibbs-White remplace Jesse Lingard, blessé, et Dean Henderson – qui n'était pas disponible contre son club parent – ​​prend le relais de Wayne Hennessey dans les buts.Graham Potter fait un changement forcé, César Azpilicueta pour Reece James à l'arrière droit.Forêt de Nottingham (4-3-3) Henderson ; Aurier, Worrall, Boly, Lodi; Yates, Freuler, Mangala ; Johnson, Awoniyi, Gibbs-White. Remplaçants : Hennessey, Cook, Williams, Toffolo, McKenna, Colback, O'Brien, Surridge, Dennis.Chelsea (4-2-3-1) Kepa; Azpilicueta, Koulibaly, Thiago, Cucurella ; Zakaria, Jorginho ; Sterling, Mont, Pulisic ; Havertz. Remplaçants : Bettinelli, Chalobah, Kovacic, Ziyech, Gallagher, Chukwuemeka, Hutchinson, Hall, Aubameyang.Mis à jour à 10h49 HNEil y a 1h10h30 HNEPréambuleBonjour, bonne année et bienvenue pour la couverture en direct du match de Premier League entre Nottingham Forest et Chelsea au City Ground. C'est 19 contre 9, si vous êtes dans toute la ligue, et une chance pour les deux équipes de commencer 2023 comme elles veulent continuer.La forme à domicile de Forest va sûrement décider s'ils restent debout, et jusqu'à présent, ça a été plutôt bon : P8 W3 D2 L3. Cela inclut une bonne série récente de huit points en quatre matchs, dont une célèbre victoire contre Liverpool en octobre.Bien que Chelsea soit un grand favori en raison de ses footballeurs supérieurs, Forest a une chance de remporter une autre grande victoire contre une équipe qui a lutté loin de chez elle cette saison. Chelsea a déjà perdu quatre fois en championnat, soit autant de défaites que dans toutes les compétitions sur la route la saison dernière. Avant la Coupe du monde, ils ont été pris en embuscade 4-1 à Brighton puis bien battus par Newcastle, même si le score n'était que de 1-0.La victoire sur Bournemouth après Noël était beaucoup plus encourageante, beaucoup plus "Potterball", mais c'était à Stamford Bridge. Et ils ont eu Reece James pendant une heure, ce qui ne sera pas le cas aujourd'hui.

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[dog-forest-spirit]

so the demon exited out the body of the strong half demon girl who was whupping ASS to go to a 3 year old child for what reason

[taegularities]

Hey Rid!! happy new year!! I just wanted to come here to say thank you for bringing so much joy into my 2023 💞💞 I hope you have a great year this year filled with lots of love and happiness 💞💜

happy new year, nat, my love 🤍 thank you so much for being part of this lil virtual community and journey, you've been a ray of sunshine, truly 🥺 hope this one's the best one yet!!! <3

[shinidamachu]

I got a complaint about Sunrise's execution of Yashahime. Ignoring the ships&animation: 1. Intent was to make Yashahime accessible to younger audience. Problem: Yashahime relies heavily on call backs to OG series&fan favorite characters. It doesn't work as standalone series. This alienates some fans. 2. Follows format of OG series with filler stories direct from Inu manga. Problem: We're now in a binge/streaming culture. OG series was produced when 'seasons' did not have breaks in-between (1/2)

Filler eps made only for call backs to OG series in 24 ep season format reduces proper story progression and satisfying character growth. 3) Lack of outside input. RT has said she asked Kag's VA for opinions (also rumors exist that Sunrise loved working with Kikyo's VA, thus Kikyo appears more). OG cast of VAs, some VERY big names, have shown surprise and differences in opinions (sort of a big deal to admit publicly in Japan). This leads to 4) Many expected RT-style storytelling.

Many saw the cash grab but Sunrise assured multiple times RT approved all, thus 'she must be heavily involved.' Problem: VA has mentioned RT's surprise at some story elements & RT clarified her opinion on some topics. Sunrise exaggerated or lied of RT's 'heavy' involvement & lacks outside opinions. Franchise with sequels relying on one person to make big decisions... *cough*starwars*cough* HNY could've been a good generic standalone anime. But no. Relies heavily on call backs

You are absolutely right and you should say it. You know, I’ve recently read Yashahime: Where Did The Inuyasha Spin-Off Go Wrong? by Alan Hobbs and let me tell you: it is spot on, just like your complaints. Everyone interested should give it a read sometime.

I’d say the problem isn’t even that Yashahime relies heavily on call backs to the original series, is that call backs to the original series are the only thing Yashahime has to offer. And it manages to fail even at that. Let’s be honest here: right now, who is Yashahime’s audience? Mostly adult hardcore Inuyasha fans. Why are they still watching? Because of the original characters. We know those characters. We care deeply about them. But the new viewers won’t, because the new main characters don’t give them a reason to, so they aren’t drawn by nostalgia like we are. People who have never seen Inuyasha are getting nothing out of it. And lately not even nostalgia is enough to keep ratings up. Not when there’s literally thousands of more interesting shows to watch out there. 

They intended to use the original character as bait for us to come, but forgot to write compelling plots characters for us to stay. In fact, they went out of their way to deliver a story that pretty much insulted the original, so not only most of us left, we made a point out of screaming to whoever would listen how bad of an experience this whole thing was on our way out. 

If they were trying to make Yashahime accessible to younger audience they miscalculated splendidly, but in the end of the day, I feel like Yashahime was just a move to recover some of the big, old Inuyasha hype in order to sell more merch, because look at the decisions they have made so far. They were always going to alienate a part of the fans. There’s no way they didn’t take that in consideration.

And sure, because of the streaming culture, the format of Inuyasha, which Yashahime tries to follow, may have fallen out of use, but the difference is that Inuyasha’s fillers were needed as a breather from the plot. Yashahime has no plot, which makes the fillers unnecessary and frustrating rather than funny or cute like most of Inuyasha’s were. 

The lack of outside input was their fault. They either didn’t search around the fandom to see what we truly wanted from this show or they did and completely ignored it because they thought we were gonna eat whatever crap they fed us anyway, so why bother? If they had stopped and actually listened, they would have come to the conclusion this series was a bomb (derogatory). But it doesn’t matter how much we hate it, as long as we keep buying their products, it was all worth it for them.

And, finally, you can’t expect Takahashi-style storytelling without Takahashi. That’s why everyone feels out of character. That’s why the story is so dull. It has no soul. Inuyasha was charming enough that we could overlook its flaws. Yashahime falls unbelievably flat in comparison because is trying way too hard and not trying at all at the same time. Takahashi’s level of involvement wasn’t the only thing Sunrise nastily lied to us about. 

I can only hope they lose a lot of money over it and never touch the Inuyasha franchise again.

[fenharael]

Yashahime informational post

By request from some server folks here’s some info on RT’s involvement with HNY and what we know about it. I’ve tried to just summarize the translations and not directly quote any of them, all sources are marked and available at the bottom.  Note: These are all third hand sources from a personal translator’s blog here on tumblr,  there are no links cited to the original articles in Japanese and I have not been able to find digital copies myself- except for source 4 - this isn’t to cast doubt on the translations at all- just to be up front that  there are no links to first hand information or validation of the source material. If anyone has any OG links to these interviews or could verify the translations, it would help. 

- This first article describes how Towa and Setsuna’s designs were based off of Sesshomaru’s light and dark sides, and that RT informed the animation team not to consider their mother when designing them. [1] - During early production RT said could not draw a character if she did not understand them, but that after much discussion the designs were approved. [1] - Moroha was designed quickly and easily, the twins were more difficult. [3] - RT  [and the team?] had more difficulty designing Towa’s personality, as Moroha and Setsuna are essentially mini versions of their parents. This may be what the above quote was referencing in terms of not being able to design a character that was not understood. [2]

- RT was told to design the twins based as a “black and white Sesshomaru” [4]

- There are some sources who say she was instructed not to consider the mother in their designs, but I can’t find any direct quotes regarding this. This also may specifically be referring to their mannerism and personality again though, not their looks.  - The article discusses how coming up with conflict or plot of HNY was difficult as the original, Inuyasha, was wrapped up so neatly and there were no real loose ends RT left unanswered. The solution to this was centering the story on Sesshomaru’s daughters, as to not repeat plot points. [2,3] - RT was hesitant at first to continue Inuyasha into a sequel but was convinced by Sumisawa who she put her trust in. [1] - The staff and RT are very close and vacation together. [3]

1.  Ayuuria. “Yashahime Translation: Animage Magazine September 2020 Issue.” Muses of a Dog, 9 Feb. 2021, htpps://www.ayuuria.tumblr.com/post/642643193485312000/yashahime-translation-animage-magazine-september.  2. Ayuuria. Yashahime Translation: Livedoor News Interview. Muses of a Dog. Retrieved February 13, 2021, from https://ayuuria.tumblr.com/post/641058612208369664/yashahime-translation-livedoor-news-interview 3. Officialinuyasha. (2020, September 15). Yashahime Animage Magazine 2 TRANSLATED. It’s Time for an Inulysis! https://officialinuyasha.tumblr.com/post/629334377576464384/yashahime-animage-magazine-2-translated 4. Lilginnyblackv2. (2020a, October 24). About Towa, Setsuna, and Moroha’s Character Designs: Ramen Noodles 2.0. https://lilyginnyblackv2.tumblr.com/post/632824416544423936/about-towa-setsuna-and-morohas-character

[porlockstompf]

ALL BOMBS 2018     my favourite platterstompf

01 up-tight "live in europe" [cdr & k7]

02 france "à la recherche de la flexitude du temps" [cd]

03 dylan carlson "conquistador" [lp]

04 kawaguchi masami's new rock syndicate " now" [lp]     + masami kawaguchi "13.3.18" [dl]     + masami kawaguchi, fukuoka rinji & anla couris "ramen en los parlantes" [cd] 05 bardo pond / plastic crimewave syndicate "live amen" [k7]     + bardo pond "volume VIII" [lp]     + bardo pond & major stars "this inner light b/w s.l.t." [7"]     + curanderos "on the glaze b/w danger bird" [lathe cut 12"]

06 hôpital de la conception the electric rockin' chair [k7] 07 skullflower "werecat powers of the crossroads at midnight" [lp] 08 ulaan markhor "helm" [k7]                                09 roy montgomery "day of the lords" [lathe 8"]                    + roy montgomery "suffuse" [cd] 10 demdike stare & il gruppo di improvvisazione nuova consonanza       "the feed-back loop" [k7]      + demdike stare "passion" [dl]      + demdike stare "stitch by stitch part IV (back)" [k7] ...

11 bridget hayden "pure touch only from now on, they said so" [lp] 12 brian ruryk & schakalens bror "2 guitars country style" [k7]                   13 hex waves "canine rising" [k7]                               14 altaat "maa on täysi" [k7] 15 yann gourdon "15.10.15" [cd & dl]

16 ian william craig "tresholder" [lp] 17 stephen o'malley & anthony pateras "rêve noir" [cd] 18 sunn 0))) downtown la rehearsal rifftape march '98 [lp] (2018)°    + °sunn 0))) live @ echoplex los angeles 181118 [dl] (2018)° 19 wet tuna "great wet wonders" [cdx2]   + wet tuna "livin' the die" [lp]   + wet tuna "mountain busted" [cdrx7] 20 the opawa 45s "silver screen guitar" [k7]    + the opawa 45s "the ostrich triptych" [dl]    + the opawa 45s "live at lyttelton coffee company" [dl]

21 pro et contra "pro et contra " [cd] 22 the dead c "on the outbreak of civil war b/w good consul is punished [7"]       23 mainliner & expo 70 black hole bw totality wormhole [7"]   + mainliner / plastic crimewave syndiate "no mellow" [k7] 24 midnight mines "stations b/w radio dub" [7"]    + midnight mines "invisible insurrection of a million minds" [k7]      aka midnight mines "live @ cafe oto 200517" [dl] 25 buñuel "the easy way out" [lp]

26 ilta hämärä "velloa" [7"]                                   27 fadensonnen "brut" [k7] 28 fukuoka rinji & michel henritzi "desert moon' [cd] 29 slift "la planète inexplorée" [12"]   30 black helium "primitive fuck" [lp]

31 keiji haino & konstrukt a philosophy warping... [live] [lp]   + keiji haino & sumac "american dollar bill..."  CF 2017 !!!   + keiji haino & musqis "keiji haino & musqis" [cd]                       32 wooing "daydream time machine" [7"]                   33 fuji/ junzo "live at de audio plant" [k7]   + fuji & suzuki junzo "live at de audio plant plus" [dl] 34 leda "japanese key b/w the silent contest" [7"] 35 the caretaker "everywhere at the end of time stage IV" [lpx2]   + the caretaker "everywhere at the end of time stage V" []

36 albedo fantastica "culvert & starry night" [cd] 37 giegue "'77 tachikawa trip [hadaka no rallizes tribute]" [dl]     + giegue "noise guitar pop" [ep] [dl] 38 the band whose name is a symbol "basement blowouts" [lp] 39 mark lanegan & duke garwood "with animals" [cd]     + mark lanegan & duke garwood "mescalito" [10"] 40 suzuki junzo & ikuro takahashi     "live phantasmagoria vol I helluva lounge 27/11/16" [cdr]

41 comacozer / blown out "in search for highs volume I" [cdr] 42 parades against parades "driving me stoned" [lp] 43 headroom / dire wolves (just exactly perfect sisters band) "split" [lp] 44 hastings of malawi "visceral underskinnings" [lp] 45 barth, hjorthol, & åm "the broken vessel" [cd]

46 "in death's dream kingdom" [lpx4] 47 le réveil des tropiques "big bang" [lp]                    48 urthona "destruction blues" [cd]   + urthona & the asterism "murmurations" [cd] 49 brant bjork "mankind women" [cd]                     50 antony milton "(don't have) much to say" [dl]

Your Annual Bowery Eclectic:

& The Usual Baker Street Irregulars:

many many rereleases & the odd compilation (short list):

01 high rise "high rise II" [1986] [lp & k7]

02 public image ltd "the public image is rotten (songs from the heart)"      [cdx5 & dvdx2] 03 einstürzende neubauten "grundstück" [2004] [lp] 04 earth "the bees made honey in the lion's skull" [2008] [lpx2] 05 ian william craig" a turn of breath [extended]" [2014] [lpx2]

06 tappa zukie "dubshot zukie" [dl] 07 bauhaus "bela lugosi's dead: the bela session" [1979] [lp/cd] 08 brainticket "zürich/lausanne" [1983-1984][cdx2] 09 snatch "snatch" [1983] [lp] 10 new york dolls "personality crisis: live recordings & studio demos '72-'75"     [cdx5]

11 "step forward youth roots masters from the "punky reggae party" [cdx2] 12 augustus pablo "dub from the hills" [dl]     + augustus pablo "presents dj's from 70's to 80's" [1997] [cd] 13 international harvester "remains" [1968-1969] [lpx5] 14 "birth work death - work, money & status in country music" [lp] 15 "hillbillies in hell volume 666 country music's tormented testament '52-'74" [lp]      + "hillbillies in hell volume 777 country music's tormented testament '52-'74" [cd]   + "hillbillies in hell the rapture country music's tormented testament '52-'74" [cd]   + "hillbillies in hell the resurrection country music's tormented testament                 '52-'74" [cd]

16 simply saucer "cyborgs revisited" [rec '74-75] [1989] [lpx2] 17 the heads "rkt!" [1998-2002] [cdx2] 18 thisquietarmy "unconquered [10th anniversary edition]" [2008-2018] [cdx2] 19 ut "ut live at the venue" [rec 1981] [lp]   + ut "early life" [1987] [lp] 20 siglo xx "box" [1982-1983] [lpx3]

most pleasing purchases:

01 cottonwoodhill "places of light b/w poetry" [1970] [7"]

02 batkin brothers "mai... b/w tropical" [1970] [7"] 03 worst "mmxvii" [2017] [k7] 04 shit & shine "bass puppy" [2010] [12"] 05 sister spliff & demon dread "marchena city dub" [1980] [lp] /      king blood "eyewash silver" [2010] (2015) [cd]

gigs:

bardo pond live @ magasin4 040618

bootlegs:

01 bardo pond “live @ 100 club london 060618″ [dl]   + bardo pond "live @ union pool brooklyn 170218" [dl]        

02 van morrison "the catacombs tapes / live in boston '68" [dl] 03 einstürzende neubauten “live @ helsinki 241118″ [usb]

favourite record sleeve:

surprise ;)

the dream dates “the mess you’re in b/w search & destroy” [7’’] (1979)

radio:

               ...  sadly, 2018 saw brian turner leaving wfmu ...

podcasts:

01 jim sclavunos "conway savage tribute @ soho radio 240918" [dl]

2018 summer hit:

your annual reminder:

                   youpi youpi yeah “youpi youpi yeah” [cd] (2010)

humorstompf:

01 hans teeuwen "real rancour" / "echte rancune" [dvd & dl]

          ex aequo      01 stewart lee "content provider" [dvd]

  02 simon munnery "renegade plumber" & "sings soren kierkegaard" [gfs] [dl] 03 jeroen leenders "jeroen leenders experience" [soundcloud] [dl] 04 tony law "lost show" [gofasterstripe] [dl] 05 james acaster "repertoire" [netflix] ex aequo      luke mcqueen "the luke mcqueen pilots" [bbc]

dire times... the world needs lou sanders more than ever !

bilderstompf:

01 "here to be heard: the story of the slits" [dvd & scrapbook]

02 suburra "season I" [netflix] 03 counterpart "season I" [starz] / 12 monkeys "season IV" [syfy] 04 bas heijne "onbehagen" [vpro] 05 altered carbon "season I" [netflix] /      queen of the south "season III" [usa network]

06 bron/broen "season IV" [sveriges tv / danmark radio] 07 endeavour "season V" [itv] 08 commissario monalbano "season XII" [rai 1] 09 killjoys "season IV" [syfy] 10 inside n°9 "season IV" [bbc] / david rodigan "reggae fever" [bbc]

favourite blog:

best interwebs:

       ... a rare glimpse of the true potentiality of the interwebs ...

may your home be safe from tigers, x leroy

HNY & stay hungry!

the long list:

adam stone & dead sea apes "warheads" [cd] alvin lucier "criss cross b/w hanover" [lp] + alvin lucier "so you (hermes, orpheus, eurydice" [cd] amm "an unintended legacy" [cdx3] amt & the melting paraiso ufo "reverse of rebirth in universe" [cd] + amt & the melting paraiso ufo "hallelujah mystic garden part one" [lp] + amt & the melting paraiso ufo "electric dream ecstasy" [cd] + amt & the melting paraiso ufo "paralyzed brain" [cd] + amt & the melting paraiso ufo "the man who fell to us live in nagoya 2017" [cd] + amt & the melting paraiso ufo    "either the fragmented body or the reconstituted soul" [cd] + amt & the melting paraiso ufo "sacred & inviolable phase shift" [cd] + amt & the melting paraiso ufo vs lee van cleef "psychic battles vol V" [lp] anna von hausswolff "dead magic" [cd] black spirituals "black access/black axes" [lpx2] black thumb "lucy leave [syd barrett]" [dl] bonnie 'prince' billy & roadie "hope is all i'm holding" [dl] + will oldham "songs of love & horror" [lp] + bonnie 'prince' billy / naked shortsellers "the best of folks b/w harbour men" [7"] + bonnie 'prince' billy "blueberry jam" [dl] boris "eternity - dear 25th anniversary tour live 28-12-17" [dl] + boris "phenomenon's drive" [12"] br'lâab "other people's crimes" [10"]

campbell james kneale "naamah" [k7] + campbell james kneale "o blessed fornicatrix" [k7] + campbell james kneale "timid seamstress" [k7] + campbell james kneale & anla courtis "one-1-I b/w two-2-II" [7"] chris forsyth & the solar motel band "rare dreams: solar live 2.27.18" [dl] connorparty "koko [keiji haino]" [dl] cousin silas & the glove of bones "spirits of afrodubism" [k7] dan melchior "the folksinger" [lp] + dan melchior & sigtryggur berg sigmarsson dark arc [lp] + dan melchior & dylan nyoukis "unusual dealers" [cdr] daniel bachman "the morning star" [cd] david nance group "peaced & slightly pulverized" [cd]      --- "110 blues" --- + david nance group "stalled out b/w profit" [subscriber 7"] dhidalah "moon people" [k7/dl] ecstatic vision "under the influence" [cd] efrim manuel menuck "pissing stars" [lp] einstürzende neubauten "live in helsinki nov 24 0529pm" [usb stick] elkhorn "lionfish" [k7] + elkhorn "live fish" [cdr] eugene chadbourne "solo guitar volume 1 1/3" [dl] + eugene chadbourne "29.10.17" [dl] + eugene chadbourne, beresford & ward "pleasures of the horror" [lp] flame 1 [aka burial & the bug] "fog bw shrine" [12"] fuji yuki, michel henritzi, & harutaka mochizuki "shiroi kao" [cd]

gnod "chapel perilous" [cd] + gnod "be aware of your limitations" [12"] grouper "grid of points" [lp] heather leigh & peter brötzmann "crowmoon (the auckland concert)" [cd] + heather leigh & peter brötzmann "sparrow nights" [cd] + heather leigh "throne" [cd] "hexadic III" [lp] hibushibire "official live bootleg vol III" [cdr] + hibushibire "official live bootleg vol IV" [cdr] honey radar "psychic cruise" [7"] + honey radar / john peel   "middle class revolt bw the fall as introduced by john peel" [7"]    aka chunklet industries a mark e smith tribute single [7"] + honey radar & henry owings    "wind-up man b/w 172 seconds over louisville" [7"] + honey radar & gotobeds "no present" [7"] ilta hämärä "himmeä kaihoisa sininen" [lp] it hurts "estuary" [lathe 8"] jean dupuy "all of the time: sound works 1969-2017" [lp] jo meares "back to the world" [cd] jjuujjuu "zionic mud" [lp] john zorn "insurrection" [cd]   jozef van wissem "we adore you, you have no name" [cd] julia kent, jean d.l. "the great lake swallows" [cd]           keaton is dead "treat me like I knew you would" [dl]       + keaton is dead "flying woman machine" [dl] + keaton is dead "itzy bitzy [ep]" [dl] mainliner / expo seventy "black hole bw totality wormhole" [7"] marisa anderson "cloud corner" [cd] mark kozelek "mark kozelek" [cdx2] michael gira "the egg: stories by michael gira" [cd] michael gordon, kronos quartet "clouded yellow" [cd] michael nyman "mcqueen" [cd] moe / marhaug "capsaicin" [cd] moon duo "no fun b/w jukebox babe" [12"] mv & ee & the golden road "feral run live @ brattleboro 140118" [dl]

nick cave & the bad seeds "distant sky [live in copenhagen]" [12"] + nick cave & warren ellis "kings [ost]" [cd] + nick cave & warren ellis "wind river [ost]" [cd] norman westberg "after vacation" [lp] + norman westberg "idling live" [cd] + norman westberg "before the bridge" [dl] oneida "romance" [cd] orchestra of constant distress "distress test" [lp & k7] oren ambarchi, jim o'rourke, with special guest u-zhaan "hence" [lp] + oren ambarchi, kassel jaeger & james rushford "face time" [lp] + oren ambarchi, crys cole & leif elggren "certainly" [lp] + oren ambarchi, sprenger & sollmann "panama b/w suez" [12"] -"scale" [cdx2] peter brötzmann & fredrick lonberg-holm "ouroboros" [lp] purling hiss "out tonight b/w walkin' with jesus" [k7] schakalens bror "omelette of disease" [lp] + schakalens bror "overdrive" [k7] scientists "braindead (resuscitated) b/w survivalskills" [7"] + scientists "mini mini mini b/w perpetual motion" [7"] simon wickham-smith "extreme bukake" [dl] stefan christensen "city code" [lp] sumac "love in shadow" [cd] + sumac "wfmu" [k7] sun kil moon "this is my dinner" [cdx2] + sun kil moon "linda blair" [dl] suzuki junzo "the magus" [cd] tape loop orchestra "lead is into the light" [lp] + tape loop orchestra "return to the light" [lp] + tape loop orchestra "before the light" [lp] tashi wada with yoshi wada & friends "nue" [cd] the aints! "church of simultaneous existence" [cdx2] the band whose name is a symbol "ottawa psychfest 2018" [dl] + the band whose name is a symbol "symbol ensemble III" [dl] + the band whose name is a symbol "basement blowouts 2" [dl] + the band whose name is a symbol "droneverdose" [lp] + the band whose name is a symbol "codocil" [dl] the limiñanas "shadow people" [cd] touts "sleep" [dl] träden "träden" [cd] uh "uh" [cd] uncle jim "my niece's pierced knees" [dl]       young fathers "coccoa sugar" [cd] zeal and ardor "stranger fruit" [cd]

-anthroprophh "omegaville" [cdx2]                           -black elephant "cosmic blues" [lp]                         -brigid mae power "the two worlds" [cd]                     -broeder dieleman "komma" [cdx2]                             -carlton melton "mind minerals" [cd]                         -civic "new vietnam" [12"]                                  + civic "live on pbs" [k7]  + civic "those who no" [7"] -dirtmusic "bu bir ruya" [cd]                             -la morte young "a quiet - earthquake style" [cd] -long hots "monday night raw" [k7]                             -mazzy star "still" [12"]                                       -nicolas wiese "unrelated" [lp] -okkyung lee "dahl-tah-ghi" [cd]                                   -sadahiro yamada "shitaiha" [k7] -sean mccann "saccharine scores" [cd]                           -stefan neville & greg malcolm "a nuance" [lp]                   -the final age "the final age" [lp]    

    moments of brilliance (long list B):

1/3 octave band "headlands" [lathe cut 12"]                   20 guilders "il grande silenzio: guitar improvisation 2017" [cd]     "a" trio & amm "aamm" [cd]                                 a-sun amissa "ceremony in the stillness" [cd] akio suzuki & aki onda "ke i te ki" [cd]                     alexandra philips & jan henderikse "you b/w i" [10"] alien mustangs "alienation" [lp] alternative tv "her dark places" [12"] andreas ammer & fm einheit "sie sprechen mit der stasi" [dl] anji cheung "terma" [k7]                                           + ani cheung & burial hex "solstice tape split" [k7] ash brooks "crown of thyme" [k7] ben bertrand "ngc 1999" [lp] benjamin boone & philip levine "the poetry of jazz" [cd] big blood & thunder crutch "big blood & thunder crutch" [cdr] + big blood "operate earth spaceship properly" [lp] blk w/bear "mo re b roken th an y ou" [cd] bill callahan "live at third man records" [12"]         bill orcutt "neu bros/ok phone/rural beatles" [lp] + chris corsano & bill orcutt "brace up!" [lp]                     + bill orcutt & chris cosano "gucci tops & bottoms" [k7] bong "thought & existence" [cd] boris "secrets" [cd] brian eno w/ kevin shields "the weight of history b/w only once away my son" [12"] bruce russell & noel meek "classical music" [lp] bob bucko jr "under cover summer" [k7x2] + bob bucko jr "trade mark of quality" [k7x3] brownout "fear of a brown planet" [cd] capri-batterie & stewart lee "bristol fashion" [lp] cave "allways" [cd] claire potter & bridget hayden "i am come from a place" [k7] colin stetson "the first ost vol I" [dl] + colin stetson "hereditary [ost]" [cd] constant mongrel "living in excellence" [lp] corrupted "felicific algorithm" [lp] country heroes "honky tonk tears" [cd] -courtney marie andrews "may your kindness remain" [cd] dalot & sound awakener little things [dl]   + dalot & sound awakener strangers in the city [dl] darksmith "hatred of sound" [lp] datashock "kräuter der provinz" [lpx2] dead fretts "howlin' wolf (live)" [dl] + dead fretts "third day (live)" [dl] death grips "year of the snitch" [cd] derridada "derridada waits for wolf" [k7]           dreadful "attack of the space machine" [dl] dreamweapon "sol" [lp]  

eagle twin "the thundering heard: songs of hoof & horn" [cd] ellen fullman & okkyung lee "the air around her" [dl] emmanuel witzthum "songs of love & loss" [cdr] epic beardmen "season 1" [12"] félicia atkinson & jefre cantu-ledesma "limpid as the solitudes" [lp] + félicia atkinson "coyotes" [k7] flower room "arrangement I" [dl] futurians "distorted living" [lp] + futurians "lta" [k7] gad whip "post internet blues" [lp] geography of hell "hiroshima 1945 / nagasaki 1945" [lpx2] gerald murnane "recites how i wrote elastic man by the fall" [dl] giuda "saturday night's alright for fighting" [7"] giulio aldinucci "disappearing in a mirror" [cd] + ian hawgood & giulio aldinucci "consequence shadows" [cd] + giulio aldinucci & star pillow "hidden" [cd] + martijn comes & giulio aldinucci "split" [lp] goat "let it burn b/w friday pt 1" [7"] grand veymont "route du vertige" [lp]                       heads "collider" [cd]   henry blacker "the making of junior bonner" [cdr]                             hunderd year old man "breaching" [cd] + hunderd year old man "rei" [s-sided 12"] immersion "sleepless" [cd]                                    jandek "houston tuesday" [cd] + jandek "san francisco friday" [cd] jah wobble "the butterfly effect" [cd] + jah wobble "dream world" [cd] john zorn "in a convex mirror" [cd] + john zorn "the urmuz epigrams" [cd] jon spencer "spencer sings the hits" [lp] kinky friedman "circus of life" [cd]                         kleistwahr "acceptance is not respect" [cd]

lajoie-tuttle "american primate" [k7]                           lee 'scratch' perry "the black album" [cd] + lee perry & diggory kenrick "the antisnake" [10"] lo carmen "gold guns and silver" [dl] l.o.x. "l.o.x. time" [k7] low "double negative" [cd] lydia lunch "marchesa" [cd] mad professor "elctro dubclubbing" [cd] + mad professor "ariwa 2018 riddim series" [dl] marianne faithfull "negative capability" [cd] marissa nadler "for my crimes" [cd] martin & bell "roman totale's death song [a tribute]" (040218) [dl] mary gauthier "rifles & rosary beads" [cd] -max rubadub "style & passion" [cd] mayuko hino "lunisolar" [cd] michael morley "blessed high regency" [dl] + michael morley "reverse bondage k.o." [dl] + michael morley "zéro de conduite" [dl] + michael morley "call back your dogs" [dl] + michael morley "here today gone tomorrow" [dl] + michael morley "rise above" [dl] + michael morley "we are here because of you" [dl] + gate "winter songs" [dl] + the righteous yeah "goodbye forever" [dl] + the righteous yeah "unknown album" [dl] + the righteous yeah "history of love" [dl] + the righteous yeah "game changer" [dl] + the righteous yeah "oiseau de paradis" [dl] mick harvey & christopher r. barker  "the fall & rise of edgar bourchier & the horrors of war" [cd] minami deutsch "with dim light" [lp] ml wah & herbcraft "no slack" [k7] + ml wah "big air" [k7] more klementines "more klementines" [lp]

nagual & stefan christensen "third" [7"] + nagual "florida" [cdr] nww / artaud [mini cd] + nww "nerve junction" [cd] + nww "changez les blockeurs and" [cd] + nww "experimente [personal archive mixes]" [cdr] + nww "experimente II [son of trippin' music]" [cdr] + stapleton, ka-spel, potter & rollet    "the man who floated away b/w the closer... etc" [cd] ocre "ocre" [7"] øjerum "selv i drømme lyser den første sne" [lp] + øjerum "a certain grief" [k7] okkyung lee "speckled stones & dissonant green dots" [dl] pama international meets manasseh "trojan sessions in dub" [cd] peter zummo "frame loop" [lp] [rec 1984] philip marino "chasing ghosts" [cd] philippe petit & friends "on top" [12"] phosphorescent "ç'est la vie" [cd] pierre vervloesem & alinovsky "invisible quality" [cd]           pigs pigs pigs pigs pigs pigs "king of cowards" [cd] pinch points "mechanical injury" [k7] platinum boys "we don't dance (anymore)" [7"] pumice "platelets" [7"] r stevie moore, alan jenkins & the kettering vampires "the embodiment of progressive ideals" [cd] razen "the night receptionist" [cd] rie fukuda & tabata misuru "precog" [cd] roy montgomery "jesus saves country boys too" [cd] ryan porter "the optimist" [cdx2] ryley walker "deafman glance" [cd] + ryley walker, z mark duo & extended fractures duo "lb 067" [k7]

sarry "oppidum desertum" [cd] + sarry "exspiravit planeta" [dl] scientist meets hempress sativa "in dub" [lp] seez mics "live long enough to learn" [cdr] sheku kanneh-mason "inspiration" [cd] shilpa ray "nihilism" [k7] sigur rós "route one" [lp] sleaford mods "sleaford mods" [12"] sleep "the sciences" [cd] + sleep "leagues beneath" [s/sided 12"] sly & robbie meet nils petter molvaer ft eivind aarset & vladislav delay  "nordub" [cd] + sly & robbie meet dubmatix "overdubbed" [cd] sly & the family drone & dead neanderthals / mai mai mai  "flesh logics b/w anatole" [7"] snakes don't belaong in alaska "interstellar harvester" [cdr] + snakes don't belong in alaska "radar ocean reconnaissance satellite" [cdr] + snakes don't belong in alaska II "astral audit" [dl] somesurprises "alt" [k7] stefan neville & hermione johnson "7/10/17" [dl] stoned earth "psycho city" [dl] + stoned earth "sonic planet" [dl] sundays & cybele "on the grass" [lp] suns of arqa "pressure drop: a tribute to the great lizard logan" [dl] tanz mein herz "une autre version de territory" [lp] tender crust "the earth's axis & hare" [k7] "the black book" [lpx3] the black vomit "black dada nihilismus" [dl]                   the limiñanas "remix" [12"] the oscillation "wasted space" [lp] + the oscillation "uef" [lp] thurston moore "mx liberty b/w panik" [7"] unknown artist "ijzeren rots" [12"]                         wild billy childish & ctmf "something's missing inside" [7"]   young gods "figure sans nom" [dl]

-akira sakata, chikamorachi ft masahiko satoh "proton pump" [cd]   -balmorhea "clear language: reworked" [lp]                         -bongripper "terminal" [lp]                                         -charalambides "tom and christina carter" [lpx2]                   -chris butler "got it togehter!" [cd] -cinchel "a sad study in temporal dissonance" [k7]  + cinchel "at once pleasant [live]" [dl] -cowboy junkies "all that reckoning" [cd]                       -dead valley girls "darkness rains" [cd]                           -dmbq "keeenly" [cd]                                           -earthless "black heaven" [cd]                                    + earthless "from the west" [cd]                                           -foudre! "kami 神" [lp] -guiguisuisui & emerge "enchanted garden" [k7] -haley heynderickx & max garcía conover "among horses III" [cd] -idles "joy as an act of resistance" [cd] -james greer & neil luck "we all emerge some hours later baffled" [cd] -jfk "weapon design" [lp] -jochen arbeit & friends "jochen arbeit & friends webcast" [dl] + jochen arbeit, gerd beßler & hopek quirin "abq" [dl] + jochen arbeit, munsha & hopek quirin "live at roter salon" [dl] + jochen arbeit, martina bertoni, munsha & hopek quirin    "live at volksbühne berlin" [dl] + jochen arbeit & hopek quinn "live at white rabbit" [dl] + jochen arbeit & paolo spaccamonti "cln" [lp] -kathryn joseph "from when i wake the want is" [cd]                   -keir vine "instance" [lp] -ktl "the pyre: versions distilled to stereo" [lp] -kyle bobby dunn & wayne robert thomas "kbd / wrt" [12"] -laurie anderson & kronos quartet "landfall" [cd] -lunar grace "the sunstruck forest" [dl] -randall dunn "beloved" [lp] -scot jenerik "drifting ash" [dl] -soundwalk collective "what we leave behind jean-luc godard archives" [lp]  -sterile garden "concrete maze" [k7]   -tales from the sleeping land "III" [cd]                             

the longest list:

6majik9 ritual "zero / monk nun" [cdrx2] a place to bury strangers "pinned" [cd] + a place to bury strangers "frustrated operator [slowdive remix]" [dl] aesop rock "klutz" [7"] airway "live at moca" [cd] alejandro escovedo & don antonio "the crossing" [cd] amen dunes "freedom" [cd] ana da silva & phew "island" [cd] anton mobin, kris limbach & hopek quirin "live" [dl] antony milton "unrealised films" [dl] årabrot "who do you move" [cd] archie & the bunkers "songs from the lodge" [lp] + archie & the bunkers "play the damned" [7"] aries mond "come on let's wait" [cdr] asbest "driven" [cd] ashtray navigations "zoom up" [cdr] + ashtray navigations "neon eating stationary planes" [cdr] asian women on the telephone "so wot" [k7] awkward geisha & gx jupitter-larsen "final destination" [k7] bandulu dub & dub dillah "disconnect" [dl] bart de paepe "verdronken land" [lp]                       + bart de paepe "pagus wasiae" [lp] bas van huizen "kulverzuchter" [cd] bazuingeschal "bazuingeschal" [lp] beak> ">>>" [cd] bear bones, lay low "atlantean encrypted message" [12"] + bear bones, lay low  & don't dj "plafond 3" [lp] blacklab "under the strawberry moon" [dl] black moon circle "psychedelic spacelord " [cd]                     black rainbows "pandaemonium" [cd] blóm "powerfrau" [k7] blood quartet "until my darkness goes" [k7] blue chelise "daughters of time" [lp] bras mort "give her this, she takes that" [lp] "braublff [materie und laut]" [7"x2] brecht ameel "polygraph heartbeat" [lp] bruce gilbert "ex nihilo" bruxa maria & casual nun "bruxa maria & casual nun" [lp] bryan's magic tears "4 am" [lp] bvdub "drowning in daylight" [lpx2] + bvdub "a different definition of love" [cd] + bvdub "nights of nine vigils" [dl]

camera "emotional detox" [cd] celer "malaria" [dl] + celer "a chance isn't really a chance at all" [dl] + celer "advert subversion" [dl] + celer "arc eye" [dl] + celer "something cathartic" [k7] + celer "plays ravel" [dl] + celer & forest management "landmarks" [k7] ceremony "east coast" [dl] + ceremony "darling" [k7] chaines "the king" [lp] chaos echoes & mats gustafsson "sustain" [lp] + chaos echoes "mouvement" [cd] charalambides "out of place" [k7] charlemagne palestine "interrvallissphereee" [lp] + charlemagne palestine "ttuunneesszz duh rruunneesszz" [lp] charlotte de witte "brussels" [12"] chihei hatakeyama "scene" [k7] + chihei hatakeyama "void XV" [dl] + chihei hatakeyama "void XVI" [dl] + chihei hatakeyama "butterfly's summer and vanished" [cd] + chihei hatakeyama "afterimage" [cd] + eraldo bernocchi, chihei hatakeyama "solitary universe" [cd] + vida voji´c, chihei hatakeyama "fts002" [12"] child's pose "child's pose" [7"] chlorine "the wanting seed" [dl] chris butler & ralph carney "songs for unsung holidays" [cd] chris carter "chemistry lessons volume I" [cd] church of cash "thank you sir" [cd] circuit breaker "hands return to shake" [lp] circuit des yeux ft moon bros "sœur de race [catherine ribeiro]" [dl] cocaine piss "my cake" [s-sided 12"] cold meat "pork sword fever" [7"] commodo "dyrge" [ep] connan mockasin "jassbusters" [cd] consumer electronics "the weight b/w hostility blues" [7"] coolies / the futurians "u. cs-01" [k7] cosmic ground "IV" [cd] craig gerdes "smokin', drinkin' & gamblin'" [cd] crash toto "crash toto" [dl] crayon sun "crayon sun" [cd] crazy doberman "lungs of carbon or urban paranoia without a tonal center" [k7] + crazy doberman "rust clatter for the midwest sun" [7"] + crazy doberman "confused debris from slow dreams" [k7] + crazy doberman "2038" [k7] + crazy doberman "acid gallery 3am empty bottle blow out" [cdr] + crazy doberman "live @ wfmu" [dl] + crazy doberman "live fall 2017" [k7] + crazy doberman "this land god has abandoned" [dl] + crazy doberman "get lost pens of baldwin particle one" [k7] + crazy doberman "th'basement mother 2" [k7] creep show "mr dynamite" [cd] cruel diagonals "disambiguation" [lp] current 93 "the stars on their horsies" [cd] + current 93 "the light is leaving us all" [cd] cyril cyril "certaine ruines" [cd]

d.u.d.s. "immediate" [lp] dagger moths & philippe petit "ovaries" [12"] dandelion "every other day" [7"] dark sun "innerspace astronauts rare & unreleased" [k7] datashock "banana spleen" [k7 ep] david eugene edwards & alaxander hacke "risha" [cd] dead meadow "the nothing they need" [cd] dead neanderthals "life" [cd] + dead neanderthals "birth" [dl] dead otter "bridge of weird" [lp] dead vibrations "dead vibrations" [cd]                          deafheaven "ordinary corrupt human love" [cd] deafkids "espiral da loucura" [dl] dean ween group "rock2" [cd] delacave "window has no glass" [lp] delaney davidson "shining day" [cd] delgres "mo jodi" [cd] deludium skies "aspirations" [cdr] dirk serries "epitaph" [cdx2] + n(52) & dirk serries "scatterwound" [cd] + dirk serries & colin webster "gargoyles" [cd] + dikeman, hadow, serries, verhoeven, vicente "ideal principle" [cd] dirk wachtelaer, jürgen de blonde, alec ilyine, gert de meester  "tales from the hellhole" [dl] dj klakke "black thursday in luxemburg" [dl] dogs in reverse "drella" [k7] donkey bugs ancient chinese secrets [12"] downward spiral galaxy "dsg spacebarn bootleg live 2018" [dl] + downward spiral galaxy "remembering the sunshine on a rainy day" [dl] drew mcdowall & hiro kone "the ghost of georges bataille" [12"] drew's theory "future vintage" [dl] drinks "hippo lite" [cd] drudkh "they often see dreams about the spring" [cd] dub foundation "the good the bad and the dubby" [dl]

è-lg "vu du dôme" [lp] earthling society "mo - the demon" [lp] echotourist soundsystem "naomi" [k7] eiko ishibashi & darin gray "ichida" [lp] electric moon "live 2015 zeiss planetarium bochum aka kosmos" [dl/lpx3] eleh "home age 2" [cd] + caterina barbieri & eleh "bestie infinite b/w wear patterns" [lp] elephant9 "greatest show on earth" [cd] emma ruth rundle "on dark horses" [cd] ergo phizmiz "boîte - the end of music" [k7x3] + ergo phizmiz "fstarstark mstarn winkyface" [dl] eric arn & margaret unknown "paranza corta" [lp] eugene chadbourne "29.10.17" [cd] fermata "salvaged space" [k7] fire down below "hymn of the cosmic man" [cd] flowers must die "där blommor dör" [lpx2] forest management "21st century man" [12"] + forest management "rotating angle" [k7] + forest management "biqui" [k7] + forest management & v i c i m "arid fragments" [dl] former selves "forgiveness circles" [k7] free/slope "abracadabra" [lp] frustration "midlife crisis b/w sad face" [7"] fuc lerrari & nean jégroni "souvenirs uchroniques" [k7]              futur.s mort.s "futur.s mort.s II" [dl] gallery six "kazemakase" [cdr] + gallery six "bansyun" [dl] + gallery six "geisyun" [dl] garcia peoples "cosmic cash" [lp] + garcia peoples "suite" [dl] gareth sager & the hungry ghosts "juicy rivers" [cd] gas "rausch" [cd] gashrat "rock on [do it for me]" [dl] ggallan partridge "eyesore" [8"] glasseyelashes "jellyfish" [k7] gnaw their tongues "genocidal majesty" [cd] + golden ashes "the desolation" [dl] goat "double date"  [10"] goat bath eternity "downers" [k7] goatman "rhythms" [lp] gøggs "pre strike sweep" [cd] graham day & the forefathers "emmaretta b/w love help me" [7"] gudrun gut "moment" [lp] guerilla toss "twisted crystal" [cd] guru guru "rotate!" [cd]

hairbone "earth to momma" [lp] hank wood & the hammerheads "hank wood & the hammerheads" [lp] harutaka mochizuki & makoto kawashima "free wind mood" [lp] hawthonn "red goddess [of this men shall know nothing]" [cd] herman de vries & the eschenau chaos band "idem" [lp] hermann nitsch "traubenfleisch" [cdx2] high aura'd "if i'm walking in the dark, i'm whispering" [k7] + high aura'd & asama "oil pourer" [k7] holy motors "slow sundown" [cd] holy wave "adult fear" [cd] hookworms "microshift" [cd] hopek quirin "live at chateau gorilla" [dl] howlin' rain "the alligaor bride" [cd] i am johnny cash "i am johnny cash" [cd] iguana death cult "femme fatale b/w faster faster" [7"] ilsantobevitore "realm of consciousness" [k7] ilyas ahmed "closer to stranger" [lp]   international observer "free from the dungeons of dub" [cd] j c satàn "centaur desire" [lp] j gallagher "unknown cowboy [demos]" [dl] james carothers "still country, still king: a tribute to george jones" [cd] jarboe "the cut of the warrior" [cd] jay glass dubs "plegnic" [lp] + jay glass dubs & bokeh edwards "earth two² [mixtape]" [k7] + jay glass dubs "the safest dub" [12"] + leslie winner & jay glass dubs "ymfees" [12"] jean grae x quelle chris "everything's fine" [lpx2] jeffrey lewis & the deposit returners "works by tuli kupferberg [1923-2010]" [cd] jem-one "endless days" [12"] jess williamson "cosmic wink" [cd] jessica93 "en public [live] in rennes" [dl] jim o'rourke "sleep like it's winter" [cd] + jim o'rourke "steamroom 38" [dl] + jim o'rourke "steamroom 39" [dl] + jim o'rourke "steamroom 40" [dl] + jim o'rourke "steamroom 41" [dl] + jim o'rourke "steamroom 42" [dl] jimi tenor& tony allen "oto live series" [12"] joanne cash "unbroken" [cd] joe talia "tint" [lp] jóhann jóhannsson "mandy" [ost] [cd] + jóhann jóhannsson & hildur gudnadóttir "mary magdalene [ost]" [cd] + jóhann jóhannsson "the mercy [ost]" [cd] john carter cash "we must believe in magic" [cd] john krausbauer & david kendall "pdrm" [cd] john parish "bird dog dante" [cd] john tilbury, keith rowe, & kjell bjorgeengen "sissel" [cd] jon porras "voices of the air" [cd] josh pearson "straight hits" [cd] joujou jaguar "cheap life" [7"] jsm "sound system" [12"] junkpile jimmy "wants you dead" [lp] just mustard "wednesday" [12"] julian cope "skellington III" [cd]

kapital & richard pinhas "flux" [cd] kawabata makoto "live @ akihabara goodman 281118" [dl]             kikagaku moyo "masana temples" [cd]                             killing flies "killing flies" [cd]                               king bong "beekse bergen vol I old school cool" [dl] + king bong "beekse bergen vol II electric boogaloo" [dl] + king bong "beekse bergen vol III bong sulfur sax magick" [dl] + king bong "beekse bergen vol IV dreadful gate" [dl] + king bong "beekse bergen vol V to infinity & between" [dl] + king bong "dickus pickus live at circolo gagarin" [dl] klara lewis & simon fisher turner "care" [lp] kosmischer läufer  "secret cosmic music of the east german olympic program '72-'83 vol IV" [dl] la muerte "la muerte" [cd] lärmschutz "dons" [k7] langham research centre "tics & ampersands" [k7] + langham research centre "gateshead multi-storey car park" [dl] + langham research centre "tape reworks vol I" [7"] lawrence wasser "the garden" [k7] lay llamas "thuban" [cd] + lay llamas "thuban dub ep vol I" [dl]                            lea bertucci "metal aether" [12"] leather jacuzzi "the whole hog" [lp] lee ranaldo "electric trim live @ rough trade east" [lp/dl] leroy "leroy" [12"]                                                 les horribles travailleurs, mechanical ape "collaborative soundworks" [k7] lincoln durham "and into heaven came the night" [cd] little wings & maher shalal hash baz "share" [12"] louise landes, bart de paepe, & paul labrecque "collodial love" [10"] + louise landes levi "ikiru or the wanderer" [dl] "losing today" [dl] ludo mich with jennifer walshe & w ravenveer  "ludo mich with jennifer walshe & w ravenveer" k7] luke mawdsley "luke mawdsley" [dl] lumerians "call of the void" [cd] make flames ft gavin laird "a map is not the territory it portrays" [dl] mamuthones "fear on the corner" [lp] marianne schuppe "nosongs" [cd] marie davidson "working class woman" [cd] + marie davidson & lamusa II "la ecstase" [dl] mary bell "histrion" [12"] mary halvorson with bill frisell "the maid with the flaxen hair" [cd] mats gstafson & didi kern "marvel motor" [lp] matt lajoie "the fountain [k7] + matt lajoie "free to be.." [k7] maurizio abate "the maadi sessions" [lp] + maurizio abate "standing waters" [cd] + riccardo sinigaglia & maurzio abate "dialoghi nel vuoto" [lp] maze & lindholm "where the wolf has been seen" [lp] meg baird & mary lattimore "ghost forests" [cd]     melvins "pinkus abortion technician" [cd] + melvins cock & bull bw reedy creek roast [7"] merzbow, balázs pándi, mats gustafsson, thurston moore  "cuts up cuts out" [lp] [rsd] + merzbow "monoakuma" [cd] mésange "gyspy moth" [lp] meteor vortex "absorb / implode" [k7]     mick jenkins "pieces of a man" [dl] miss red "k.o." [cd] + miss red "dagga b/w one shot killer" [12"] mythic sunship "another shape of psychedelic music" [cd] + mythic sunship "upheaval" [cd]

nathan salsburg "third" [cd] neneh cherry "broken politics" [cd] nickk dropkick "der club de faust" [dl] + nickk dropkick "sweet, sweet jazz for the soul" [dl] neil campbell "i must have my manias" [dl] neko case "hell-on" [cd] nerve beats "nerve beats" [lp] newaxeyes "black fax" [lp] nhung nguyen "illumination [piano day '18]" [dl] + nhung nguyen "oblivion" [dl]   nordvargr "mx.tape.rn" [dl]   no joy & sonic boom "no joy & sonic boom" [12"] obnox "templo del sonido" [lp] + obnox "bang messiah" [lp] olan mill "variations on the letter h" [k7] + olan mill "sounds of a new father" [cd] + olan mill "curves" [cdr] olympus "band on the gum" [dl] one eleven heavy "everything's better" [lp] øresund space collective "live in berlin '18" [cdx2] + øresund space collective "chatoyant breath" [cdx2] + øresund space collective "kybalion" [cd] + øresund space collective "space jam 160 live @ urban spree" [dl] orgue agnès "à une gorge" [lp] otherworld ensemble "live at malmitalo" [cd] oulu space jam collective "intergalactic spy music redux" [dl] + oulu space jam collective "the lotus-eaters" [dl] p j philipson "distante" [dl] + p j philipson "linotopia" [cd] p wits "blonde on blonde" [k7x2] + p wits "feel-be" [ep] [dl] + p wits "i will fall" [single] [dl] paint "paint" [cd] papa m "a broke moon rises" [cd] parquet courts "wide awake" [cd] + parquet courts "wide awake remixes" [12"] pausal "volume flow" [cd] perhaps "hexagon" [lp] + perhaps "hexagain" [cdr] + perhaps "excerpts" [dl] peter broderick "two balloons" [10"] peter strickmann "mellow toes" [lp]                                 pharaoh overlord "chewing gum live" [lp] + pharaoh overlord "zero" [cd] pheek "returning home" [dl] pierre bastien, cabo san roque, anna homler, adrian northover, & dave tucker "fts003" [lp] pink fairies "resident reptiles" [cd] posset "another forever tomorrow" [cdr] prana crafter "enter the stream" [k7] + prana crafter "bodhi cheetah's choice" [k7] preening "greasetrap frisbee" [7"] primitive knot "thee opener of the way" [k7] pullout kings "sweat crimes" [k7] questions and answers "tell us the truth" [7"]   

               radar men from the moon & 10.000 russos "rmftm & 10.000 russos" [lp] rafael anton irisarri "el ferrocarril desvaneciente" [k7] + rafael anton irisarri "sirimiri" [k7] rainbow grave "sex threat b/w you are nowhere" [7"] + rainbow grave & orthodox "death pyramid b/w spain is the place"[7"] rainforest spiritual enslavement "red ants genesis" [k7] ras g "ras g meets moresounds" [12"] red lama "motions" [lp] richard youngs "endless futures" [lp] + richard youngs "belief" [lp] + richard youngs "fierce years etc." [dl] + richard youngs "six panels for dissolution" [dl] + richard youngs "foot guitar vol VI" [dl] + richard youngs "foot guitar vol VII" [dl] + richard youngs "arrow" [dl] + richard youngs "daybreak" [dl] rosanne cash "she remembers everything [deluxe]" sasha grey & pig "that's the way [i like it] remixed by youth" [10″] + sasha grey & pig "that's the way [i like it]" [12″]                samara lubelski "flickers at the station" [lp] + samara lubelski / bill nace "samara lubelski / bill nace" [cd] sarah davachi "let night come on bells end the day" [cd] + sarah davachi "gave in rest" [cd] savage grounds "let your love groan" [7"] scarab "erect in the garden of grace" [dl] schwund "technik und gefühl" [lp] set and setting "tabula rasa" [lp] shame "songs of praise" [cd] + shame "all the hits" [12"] + shame "tasteless" [dl] shit & shine "bad vibes" [lp] + shit & shine "very high" [12"] simon felice "the projector" [cd] sister iodine "venom" [lpx2] snapped ankles "violations" [12"] sneers "heaven will rescue us, we're the scum, we're in the sun" [lp] sons of kemet "your queen is a reptile" [lpx2] sound awakener "duskiness" [dl] spaceslug "eye the tide" [cd] spiral galaxy with plastic crimewave "d machine" [dl] + spiral galaxy with plastic crimewave "celestial omen" [dl] spiritualized "and nothing hurt" [cd] starbirthed "citrine dreams" [2017] [k7] + starbirthed "starbirthed" [lp] + starbirthed "the dweller on the treshold" [k7] + starbirthed" messages from..." [dl] sterile garden "night loops III" [dl] + sterile garden "wandering in circles" [dl] + sterile garden "city corridors: sound & the city" [dl] + sterile garden "live recordings" [dl] steve ignorant & paranoid visions "1977220174u" [cd] stuart a staples "arrhythmia" [cd] sudden infant "buddhist nihilism" [cd] sugar pills bone "slack babbath plays peep durple" [k7] sutcliffe jugend "the hunger" [cdx2] + sutcliffe jugend "live at maschinenfest 2017" [k7]

the bleak engineers "introspecto b/w indiscriminate" [7"] the buckshot boys "perform the ultimate survival machine" [7"] the cool greenhouse "london b/w the end of the world" [7"] the dead brothers "angst" [cd] the dwarfs of east agouza "rats don't eat synthesizers" [lp] the ex "27 passports" [cd] the fadeaways "transworld 60's punk nuggets" [lp] the heartwood institute "secret rites" [lp]                         the staches "the great depression" [7"] trust "dans le même sang" [cd] uk subs "subversions" [cd] underworld & iggy pop "teatime dub encounters" [cd] vintage cucumber "arabische nächte II" [dl] vomir & discipline "split" [k7x6] wicked shimmies exile on 5th street [k7] °debris related (2018)° william shatner & jeff cook "why not me" [cd]                        + william shatner "shatner claus" [cd]

-adderall canyonly "museum of fire" [lp] -allen ravenstine "waiting for the bomb" [cd] -alpha steppa & nai-jah "the great elephant" [cdx2] -armonite "and the stars above" [cd] -arp "zebra" [cd] -atomonaut "inner space vol I" [dl]                                 -axelle red "exil" [cd]                                             -azusa "heavy yoke" [cd]                                             -bebe buell "baring it all" [lp] -bitchin bajas & dsr lines "encyclopedia of civilizations vol II atlantis" [lp] -black space riders "amoretum vol I" [cd]   + black space riders "amoretum vol II" [cd] -bonnacons of doom "bonnacons of doom" [lp] -brix and the extricated "breaking state" [cd] -brother jt "tornado juice" [cd] -catherine britt & the cold cold hearts "idem" [cd] -cave story "punk academics" [cd] -cavern of anti-matter "hormone lemonade" [cd] -charlotte gainsbourg "a-ring o'roses [sebastian on the beat remix]" [dl] -chris dooks joppa waves [dl] -christophe clébard on va crever [dl]   + christophe clébard & carrageenan "split" [7"] -connorparty "flying colors!" [dl] -damo suzuki & jelly planet "damo suzki & jelly planet" [cd] -deniz tek "lost for words" [cd] -die wilde jagd "uhrwald orange" [cd] -dungen & woods "myths 003" [lp] -easy life "creature habits mixtape" [10"] -echo & the bunnymen "the stars, the oceans & the moon" cd] -eddy mitchell "le meme tribu vol II" [cd] -exitmusic "the recognitions" [cd] -glenn matlock "good to go" [cd] -grant-lee phillips "widdershins" [cd] -hatis noit "illogical dance" [cd] -hilary woods "colt" [cd] -ida sofar "mind" [cd] -jack ladder & the dreamlanders "blue poles" [cd] -jenny hval "the long sleep" [12"] -john grant "love is magic" [cd] -johnny jewel "themes for television" [cd] -juan d'oultremont "je pense donc je fuis" [dl]   + juan d'oultremont "ma fiancée" [dl]   + juan d'oultremont "otages b/w invisible" [dl]   + juan d'oultremont "avant l'incident" [dl] -khalab "black noise 2084" [cd] -king dude "music to make war to" [cd] -kode9 & burial "fabriclive" [cd]

-la race "drancy ostinato" [lp] -laraaji, arji oceananda, dallas acid "arrive without leaving" [12"] -larry heard "heaven dub" [12"] -len leise & jura soundsystem "for adrian b/w udaberri blues" ]12"] -life education "earth tones" [cd] -malcolm middleton "bananas" [cd] -matthew "doc" dunn "lightbourn" [lp] -nurgul jones "carcosa" [dl] -okkervil river "in the rainbow rain" [cd] -oneohtrix point never "age of" [cd]   + oneohtrix point never "love in the time of lexapro" [dl]   + oneohtrix point never "the station" [dl] -open mike eagle "the dark dark purple tape" [k7]   + open mike eagle "what happens when i try to relax" [12"] -orchestre tout puissant marcel duchamp "sauvage formes" [cd] -paolo conte "live in caracalla 50 years of azzurro" [cd] -peter hammill "x/ten" [cd] -protomartyr & spray paint "irony prompts a party rat" [7"] -ramble tamble "outlaw overtones" [k7] -rimjob texas "buttleg jan18" [dl]   + rimjob texas "plačilni nalog" [dl] -ruby karinto "ruby karinto" [lp] -silencaeon  "dead channel (music inspired by william gibson's neuromancer)" [dl] -sink ya teeth "sink ya teeth" [cd] -slightly stoopid "everyday life, everyday people" [cd] -stephen inglis "cut the dead some slack" [cd] -suishou no fune "moonlight" [k7x2] -territorial gobbing "circle of dads" [k7] -thalia zedek band "fighting season" [cd] -the decemberists "I'll be your girl" [cd]   + the decemberists "traveling on" [10"] -the lumineers "c-sides" [dl]   + the lumineers "live tracks" [dl] -"veterans in dub [deluxe version]" [cd] -zacht automaat "memory of the world" [12"]   + zacht automaat "commercial waste" [dl] -zola jesus "wiseblood (johnny jewel remixes)" [12"]   + zola jesus "okovi: additions" [dl] -тпсб "sekundenschlaf" [lp] - bevis frond "we're your friends, man" [cd]

- bevis frond "we're your friends, man" [cd] - bloody hell "my boss ross" [7"] - bobby body "rock on" [7"] - chocolat billy "délicat déni" [cd] - colin self "siblings" [lp] - dita von teese "dita von teese" [cd] - father john misty "god's favorite customer" [cd]   + father john misty "live at third man records" [12"] - gary war "gaz forth" [cdr] - jennifer warnes "another time, another place" [cd] - jonathan richman "sa" [cd] - marc ribot "songs of resistance 1942-2018" [cd] - meghan patrick "country music made me do it" [cd] - no age "snares like a haircut" [cd] - nytt land "odal" [cd] - pablo raster "dub addicted" [dl] - pascal comelade & ivette nadal "arquitectura primera" [7"] - piloot "recuerda tu futuro" [k7] - rosali "trouble anyway" [lp] - ry cooder "the prodigal son" [cd] - salad boys "this is glue" [cd] - sarah shook & the disarmers "years" [cd] - satis "saturnalivm" [dl]  + satis "planetarivm" [dl] - simon love "sincerely, s. love x" [cd] - spain "mandala brush" [cd] - spiny normen "spiny normen" [cd] - the johnny clash project "the johnny clash project" [cd] - the mountain goats "hex of infinite binding" [dl] - vanessa paradis "les sources" [cd] - weiland "perruche b/w vakbond" [7"]

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[prayandbelieve]

Beautiful ‘Roller Coaster’ Friendship

Hay! Pengen cerita hal2 yg ngga bisa aku ceritain di platform media sosial lainnya krn I always keep my life as private as possible HEHEHE.

Ceritanya dimulai tahun 2018 dimana aku saat itu berada pada tahap ‘trauma dgn laki2’ krn aku pernah ditinggal menikah oleh orang yg kuanggap akan menjalani hbgn serius dgnku. Setelah 1 tahun berlalu dgn trauma tsb, aku dkt dgn banyak cowo tp ngga berani pacaran. Even aku srg meng-cut hubungan tanpa ada aba2 krn aku memang tdk tertarik sama sekali, tdk berani, dan takut sakit lagi.

Sampai akhirnya sekitar Bulan April 2018, someone I know before a.k.a my high school friend, tiba2 ngajak ngobrol lewat Instagram. Aku yg mmg tdk berniat apa2, menanggapi biasa aja. Dan saat itupun aku lg menjalin hubungan dkt dengan orang lain. Singkat cerita hbgnku dgn org lain tsb rusak, ancur, berantakan, dan (lagi2) aku hampir gila krn laki2.

Saat itu hbgnku dgn si high school friend (panggil aja Temanku) sudah semakin dekat dan di sinilah ceritanya dimulai.

Agustus 2018.

Aku yg bekerja di Kota Pekanbaru saat itu mendapatkan tugas ke Kota Medan, tempat Temanku tinggal. Tidak menyia2kan kesempatan, Temanku mengajak makan siang saat break kantor dan mengantarkanku pulang ke rumah saat malam hari seusia bekerja. Ohya, kita sama2 sudah bekerja.

Dalam perjalanan pulang ke rumah, kita ngobrol banyak hal sampai akhirnya kita tiba di Jalan Sei Selayang Medan (I remember every detail part of us). Saat itu Temanku mengungkapkan perasaan dan keinginannya dr hubungan ini. Dia mengatakan tidak ingin hubungan yg main2 lg, dia tidak mencari pacar bercandaan lg, dan dia menjelaskan banyak hal yang hrs kumengerti serta pahami. Aku diam. Aku bingung. Aku senang. Aku takut. Aku ngga paham. Aku hanya meresponnya dengan “iya” dan diam. Seperti yg kukatakan, aku saat ini berada pada keadaan ‘I’m done with man’. Aku sebenci itu dengan laki2. Singkat cerita, kami sampai ke rumahku. Saat itu mamaku keluar dan bertemu Temanku. Dengan segala keberanian mrk berkenalan seadanya. Lalu berakhir.

Keesokan subuh aku harus kembali ke Pekanbaru untuk bekerja. Hubungan kami msh berjalan, sampai akhirnya aku berpikir untuk merespon statement Temanku saat di Medan. Oh ya, sblmnya Temanku mengungkapkan seluruh aibnya, kesibukannya, dan menyerahkan padaku ‘mau terima atau ngga’. Dia realistis dgn keinginannya berhubungan serius, sehingga dr awal sudah mengungkapkan semuanya.

Oke, aku sampai di tahap merespon statementnya. Aku tanya ke sahabat2ku, aku hrs apa. Aku ngga siap utk sakit ketiga kalinya. Aku ngga berani. Tapi di sisi lain, scr tiba2 Temanku dtg seolah tdk pernah kupikirkan namun dr dulu aku suka dgn ‘last name’ org tsb. Akhirnya aku memutuskan untuk ‘nyoba 1 kali lagi’. Aku berharap ini menjadi yang terakhir. Aku berharap tidak akan ada kehancuran ketiga kali.

Akupun menjelaskan padanya bahwa aku sefrekuensi dgn dirinya. Aku tidak mencari pacar, aku tdk mau bercandaan, aku tdk mau pcrn kalo hny untuk main2 tp tunjukin komitmen. Akupun minta Temanku menunjukkan keseriusan dgn menyelesaikan studinya. Intinya kita sudah sefrekuensi saat itu.

Ternyata, itulah awal mula roller coaster hbgn ini. Aku bertanya kepada rekanku apakah Temanku sudah free tdk terikat hbgn dgn siapapun dan rekanku menjawab “ya”. Akupun memantapkan langkah. TERNYATA... rekanku membocorkan hbgn ini kepada mantan Temanku yg blm bisa menerima smuanya. His REALLY CRAZY girlfriend pun beraksi.

Mungkin org2 mengira ah biasa aja, namanya jg mantan yg tergila2 biarin aja. Ngga, ini di luar akal sehat hehehe. Singkatnya Temanku meminta maaf dan memberikan keputusan padaku mau mundur atau maju. Karena dia telah jujur sebelumnya, aku jadi tdk kaget. Dia memintaku ngalah utk kebaikan. Dan aku saat itu, jujur, benci dgn keadaan namun I DID IT. Karena aku sudah komitmen dr awal.

Fase pertama, terlewati. Kita masih bisa mempertahankan semuanya walaupun sulitnya HANYA KITALAH YG TAU. Gimana tiap hari nahan air mata hehehe.

Oktober 2018

Komitmenku untuk serius dengan Temanku memaksaku untuk menceritakan aib masa laluku. Temanku telah menceritakan versi dirinya sejak awal dan aku bs menerima Temanku sepaket dengan masa lalunya. Akupun ingin tahu dia bs menerima sepaket atau tidak, yg tdk bisa kupaksakan.

Saat kuceritakan, dia terdiam.... sungguh diam.... aku tau dia tidak terima krn semuanya di luar harapannya. Dia yang selalu ngebanggain aku mendadak down dan sungguh kecewa akan smuanya. Aku? Luar biasa lbh merasa bersalah saat itu....

Ajaibnya, HE NEVER BLAME ME saat itu dan sampai hari ini. Singkatnya, dia bs terima SAAT ITU namun terdapat perubahan sikap yg dingin dari hr ke hari. Sampai akhirnya dia jujur kalo sulit utknya menerima, bukan menyalahkanku namun dia blm bisa meyakinkan dirinya akan smua kenyataan. Dia memohon waktu. Dia....pergi... saat itu HEHEHE KEHANCURAN KETIGAKU. Reaksiku? I tried to kill myself. For many times. Aku melukai diriku dgn berbagai cara, aku merasa aku sudah tidak berguna. I KEEP IT MYSELF.

Desember 2018

Titik balik hidupku selama 23 tahun. Akupun kembali lahir baru sesuai agamaku, menyerahkan semua pergumulanku ke Tuhan, sepenuhnya berserah sama Tuhan, DAN AKU SEDEKAT ITU SAMA TUHANKU. Apapun yg kurasakan, selalu kubawa dlm doa. Aku menangis padanya, aku rutin beribadah, aku rutin ke gereja, hidupku berbalik sepenuhnya ke Tuhan.

Sampai akhirnya aku memutuskan utk bercerita kepada 2 sahabat kepercayaanku. Respon mrk? Kaget. Namun, tidak ada unsur menyalahkan. Sedikit pun tidak ada. Mereka menguatkanku utk semangat dan menghadapi kenyataan.

24 Desember 2018

Keajaiban pun terjadi. Malam natal yg menjadi momen berkumpulnya keluarga, Temanku menelfonku mengucapkan selamat natal. Saat itu aku sdg bersama keluarga besarku, dia pun demikian. Aku kaget. Sekaget itu.

Kami pun sempat berkomunikasi sampai awal tahun 2019 dan dia sepertinya blm bisa menerima sepenuhnya. He took his time. Again. For the second time. Tapi saat itu aku sudah lbh kuat dan menerima. Kesembuhan dan kekuatan yg dari Tuhanlah yg bisa membuatku berdiri tegak saat itu.

2019

Awal tahun ini aku berkomitmen utk NOTHING TO LOSE dan TULUS akan smua hal yg terjadi. Aku tidak mau mengandalkan kekuatanku, aku hanya berharap dan mengandalkan Tuhanku. Aku mempercayakan smua padaNya krn Dialah yg akan berperang untukku. Hanya itu imanku saat memasuki 2019. Aku hanya memohon kekuatan melewati tahun yg tidaklah mudah ini.

Akupun memutuskan untuk berlibur ke Hongkong bersama kakak senior yg sudah kuanggap seperti kakak sendiri. Aku ingin melepaskan penatku secara duniawi. Aku mengajukan cuti, aku meninggalkan smua kesibukan di Indonesia.

5 Februari 2019

Aku tiba di Hongkong. Aku langsung menuju Macau dan kembali pada malam harinya. Saat tiba di hotel dan sudah bersiap tidur, nama yg tidak asing menelfonku. Nama yg sudah hampir 2 bulan tidak menghubungi.

Aku angkat namun kujelaskan bahwa aku sedang di Hongkong. Aku blg dia akan kena roaming namun dia tdk peduli. Dia mengajakku ngobrol, dia menjelaskan perkembangan studinya, dan banyak hal. Aku saat itu hanya meladeni dan tdk ingin bertanya lbh lanjut krn aku tdk mau merusak liburanku.

Ohya, pada situasi ini aku dikenalkan dgn byk lelaki. Namun, tdk ada yg berhasil krn lagi2 aku tidak tertarik. Ntahlah, akupun tidak tahu. Seolah Tuhan berperan penuh membolak-balik hati dan perasaanku.

Sekembalinya dr Hongkong, aku amat sangat senang. Hidupku seperti ‘segar’ kembali. Akupun siap menghadapi beragam realita kehidupan. Dan Temanku.....kami kembali in touch.

Akupun akhirnya bertanya kenapa dia kembali lg? Apalagi yg dia mau hancurkan dari aku? Dia pun meminta maaf untuk semuanya. Satu hal yg sangat aku ingat dan menjadi pedomanku dlm menjalani hbgn hingga saat ini adalah : “Tuhan saja bisa mengampuni, aku siapa?”

Ups and downs masih terus berjalan sejak saat itu, tapi kekuatan dr Tuhanlah yang membuat kami dapat selalu menemukan ‘way back to each other’. Dia yang selalu mengajarkanku utk berserah sama Tuhan.

2020

Hingga tahun ini, kami masih bersama dengan cara kami yg banyak org kira tidak masuk akal. But THIS IS US. Akupun tdk percaya bagaimana bisa melewati smuanya sampai pada titik ini. Satu yg kutau, INI SEMUA PEKERJAAN TUHAN. Makanya aku biarkan Tuhan bekerja hingga akhir yang memang dikehendakiNya.

Kami masing2 punya kesibukan, namun ntah mengapa selalu ada malam hari yg membuat kami bersatu kembali. Tidak jarang kami hingga tertidur melalui video call krn inilah quality time yang dpt kami lakukan. Apapun itu, satu sama lain selalu mengingatkan utk tetap bersyukur.

Ohya, kami tidak percaya akan Media Sosial. Bukan pasangan ‘publik’. We don’t follow each other lho. Pastinya krn satu dan lain hal hehehe but wait... you can see our happiness? We are living our real life hehehe. Media sosial itu PENIPU.

Ayat yang selalu dia ingatkan padaku adalah AMSAL 3 : 5-6 dan MAZMUR 37 : 5. Ayat yg menguatkanku sampai hari ini.

Sekarang kami sedang punya kesibukan yg ‘sama’. Bekerja dan kuliah, dua hal yg amat sangat merebut waktu kami. Trus kok bs bertahan? Ngga tau jg, Temanku pun bingung kenapa aku bs bertahan. Dia bahkan blg cewe2 lain udh caw dluan ngadepin dia.

Hahahahaha akupun ngga tau. Mungkin krn aku udh ‘sekebal’ itu kalik yaaa. Aku udh males heboh2, ribut2, berantem2. Akupun bukan manusia sempurna, jadi aku berusaha memahami Temanku dr berbagai sisi. Aku sabar bgt untuk semuanya, ngga mau marah dan nuntut macem2. Capek. Mending doa ajah.

Dan sedikit demi sedikit aku menuai hasilnya sekarang. Ups and downs yg terjadi melatih aku utk lebih kuat menghadapi byk cobaan skg. Aku jadi srg mikir “ah gini doang, kmrn aja yg begitu bisa. Ini mah gampaanggg, doa aja ke Tuhan yg kematian pun dia kalahlan”. Sesimple itu hehehe

Dari sisi keluarga jg kita udah saling tahu, namun kt belum melangkah sejauh itu. Belom berani. Msh ada hal2 yg hrs kt capai. Msh ada studi yg hrs kt selesaikan. Till the time I will say to all of you that “ANOTHER MIRACLE IS REAL”. AMEEEENNN!

I love you, My Late Night Soulmate. I love you 3000. I really love you.

I’m ready for the next phase. Eumm, another roller coaster trip? xoxo