#hoo boy im just going to cry tmr morning

[blufox234isadumbname]

My own little vent regarding recent events (05/01/2020)

There’s a lot of things for me to say here that I guess has been said enough, but this is just things I’d rather have off my chest.

For clarity, this is about stuff happening in Danplan, or rather Stephen leaving Danplan. If you haven't known yet, link to the video where Stephen explains his side of the situation is here

Anyways prepare for a long post. Feel free to scroll past if needed.

I wasn’t a part of the fandom for a long time, only last year did I join. My first video from Danplan that I watched was “Can You Survive Birdbox”. Back then, I was attracted to the format of the video already, a casual playful discussion/quiz between three guys presented in an animated format. But that was not the only thing that brought me into liking the channel.

It was Stephen himself.

He was an instant favourite of mine once I watched that video. Chaotic, boisterous and entertaining. Whenever he talked, he was funny and always made the video a joy to watch. Don’t get me wrong, Hosuh and Dan were also contributing to my attraction to Danplan. But it was because I was interested in seeing more of Stephen’s personality in more videos, that I continued to watch the videos. Once I was a fan of the channel, Stephen became my favourite. Of course, Jay3 replaced him as my all-time favourite as time went on but he was still my 2nd favourite.

Even more so, once I started to see his streams on Actually Stephen, he became even more of my 2nd favourite. That was because of his real personality. He was mature, for the most part, sensible and knowledgable. It was nice to see that he was just a normal and sensible guy behind the mask of his “Stephen” character

And this was refreshing because, around that time, I was at a very low point in my life. It’s something I’d rather not talk about but to put it simply, Danplan was my therapy. My escape. The one thing I could depend on to make my days much better. And through Danplan, I found solace in friends that also enjoyed the channel, its members and its content.

Now, as you know, the fight between Daniel and Stephen was around March of 2019.

I discovered Danplan around the same time. March 2019.

So you can imagine the huge swing to my heart when I realised the whole time, the whole time I enjoyed Danplan’s content, the whole time while watching Stephen in those videos, he was trying to prove to Daniel he wasn't just an employee. He was pushing so hard to prove his point that he was an integral part of Danplan. As I laughed at his jokes and humour, enjoying what he brought to the videos, Stephen was trying to prove to Daniel of his place in Danplan as a founding member. And when I heard him say his efforts were in vain, my heart shattered. It hurt to know that Dan never acknowledged it yet I did. We all did. But Dan didn’t, as far as I know.

It hurt even more when I heard his tone throughout the whole video explaining the situation. It hurt so much the person I adored, the person I had to thank for bringing me here, sound so saddened, at the verge of crying. I will admit, I wanted to cry too. I only held back because my sister was around

Before, I looked up to Daniel, seeing as how he managed to create such a community with his friends. But now, I am holding back so much anger and frustration once I learned that he dared to tell his own childhood friend, that he was only an “employee”. I’m holding back for only two reasons. One, because I am respecting Stephen’s wishes and waiting for Dan’s side of the story. Two, because I really want to give him a chance to redeem himself. To see the errors of his ways and actually try to make it better. Because I don’t want the thing that made me happy, That found me friends, that helped bring worth to my life to fall apart.

Stephen is such an amazing person, through and through. It hurts to see him leave but it’s for the best he does. It wouldn’t be healthy for him to stay, to be subjected to being only a product to his friend. He was the main reason I wanted to see more Danplan content. so I wish him well after his departure from the channel. At least now, Dan might see how much he was important to Danplan, seeing the kickback of Stephen’s leave has created so far. Maybe now, he’ll learn

I don’t want Danplan to end in ruins because of this discourse. I’m holding onto that tiny bit of hope that it ends well and that Daniel learns from his mistakes. That hope that this will have a happy conclusion. Not just for the sake of Stephen but for Hosuh, Ann, Jay, the animators and everyone else involved.

I will continue to support the channel for their sakes and wait patiently for Daniel to bring his own statement to the table. I won’t give up on this channel, on this team. But for now, I will refrain from drawing Daniel and Stephen for the time being. 

I stand with Stephen, he deserved better than this

Stephen, goodbye. Fanplan wishes you well in your future ventures. Thank you, for everything

Thank you

-Ai / Blufox234