#how can i turn this into a metaphor for ctommy.

[blissfali]

THEY DID NOT MAKE SKY ZONE FOR THE FAT PEOPLE

[snailsnfriends]

ctommy and his ability, or lack thereof, to "properly" articulate himself has changed so much since his story began. he called exile a "wiggly time of his life" and compared wilbur to a caterpillar that turns into a butterfly in people's heads, messing with their minds. he compared wilbur to a gun as a way of showing that wilbur can provide protection and care while also inflicting harm. now though, at least recently, he's been very direct about what he says. specifically, his line from inconsolable differences comes to mind: "every time you make what’s mine about you! you take it away from me and make it about you! you take my point and you make it about you! you fucking bastard. i hate you!" and although the way he says it might come off as childish or short, it's very direct. he's saying exactly what he means. there's no metaphor to convey his feelings, no complicated work arounds. it's repetitive and quick to the point; he's conveying a complicated emotion in a simple way. this change shows that he's familiar with what he feels towards his friends and his past experiences. he finally knows what to say about them now, even in high pressure situations. he's learned how to work with his own feelings, and I think that's a big step forward for him.

[bugflies00]

okay genuinely i have so many thoughts about this stream and idk if i have time to post them all but they are so overwhelmingly positive. 

like i dont know how to phrase the fact that this is the most dream smp a stream has felt in months. dyou know what i mean?? like this genuinely felt like what the server is, what it used to be before everyone distanced themselves for a bit. it was the perfect balance of humour and stupid bits with raw emotions, it was ccrimeboys being goofy and protective and caring and dumb and sad and it was utterly perfect. like it’s them. it’s genuinely them im so fucking happy. 

and the exile discussion like we have genuinely been waiting for that shit since 2020 its a year and a half and they did that fucking discussion and they blew it out of the park (i am Genuinely never recovering from tommy saying that sentence. saying, out loud, “this is where i went to kill myself.”) and cwilbur got metaphorically punched in the gut with the realisation that his idol did that to his brother, and of course he immediately turned around and dreamed of violence on dream because how could you possibly envision a world where wilbur does not care, first and foremost and above all else, about tommy? how can you?

and finally we’re getting the culmination of the suicidal ideation we’ve seen build up in cwilbur for months now, his self loathing and how it only increased when he saw what a man he used to revere did to his brother and how his first thought was to put himself on the line

and the parallels. oh my god the parallels im frothing at the mouth there were SO MANYYY. of course c!crime and their disastrous habit to threaten suicide to get cdream to do what they want (im clawing at the walls of my cage for that one), but also the beach party scene. the BEACH PARTY SCENE i am sobbing i am on the floor. last time tommy tried to hold a party he was still under cdream’s full control and no one showed up but dream and he was alone and depressed and suicidal and he thought no one loved him anymore. and now you have tommy, dancing and laughing with wilbur on that same fucking beach, joking that he’s holding that party again. like a second chance. like healing, almost. not really, because there’s still that plan of wilbur’s looming in the horizon, but a better shot at healing than he’s ever had in the past because he’s on that same fucking beach but wilbur is here.

and the DISCS FIASCO. c!crime and trust i would write an essay if i were a better analyst like genuinely . but TOMMY’S ACTING IM BLOWN AWAY EVERY TIME they are so incredible like ctommy was so close to tears there and i genuinely melted like this guy is just. holy fucking shit that was one of tommy’s best acting moment in my opinion. and DREAMMM fucking evil bitch as usual with his cheery voice talking about the prison lobby being his living room while ctommy’s a hair away from a full blown panic attack. Genuinely delightful. AND OBVIOUSLY WILBUR’S ACTING but i feel like this goes without saying

and the whole thing with the book. wilbur, proving over and over again how much of a fucking lie “i never cared about l’manberg” was. how much he loved that country. and once again proving all the lmanberg antis wrong Lmao get fucked losers it was always good at its core because it was the most tight knit community on that entire server. and c!crimeboys have always known that because they’re the ones who made it that way, that’s why they keep coming back to it. “independence or death” because they may have moved on from the country but they’re still the same people battling the same fucking prick in power, they’re still wilbur and tommy with nothing but an iron chestplate, a couple sticks and very little self preservation against the manipulative bastard that is dream with his power plays and mind games. that’s what it comes back to, at the end. and i fucking love that

this is perhaps my favourite lore stream since at least disc finale if not 2020. and goddamnit they did us right because of course they did it’s crimeboys and i always had faith in them