#i absolutely have omicron im sure of it

[millennialzadr]

TAK HCS!!!

I realized I never put together my hcs for SHE!!!! SO HERE THEY ARE!

- the most psychotic, even more than zim

- does not still have mimi, she never fixed it after disassembling it (seems the type to throw away any piece of equipment that fails or hinders her)

- would probably be confused by gir (why is it talking like its a person???)

- gets banished and ends up in a somewhat similar situation to zim, ends up staying with gaz (what are the odds??? (its lazy writing))

- she/they, 5'10" and slightly older than zim

- goth femme leaning enby presentation, demisexual lesbian

- NO BOOBS!!!!

- major anger issues

- gaz allows tak to get her anger out by playing online games (games are like simulated combat, plus the horrible assholes in chat are satisfying to destroy)

- maybe they play fight!!! one of the best ways to deal with anger issues is to get into a sport, so maybe gaz has some experience with sparring/grappling)

- i can imagine the siblings getting together for alien playfights; they have to moderate closely but zim and tak being able to use their full strength is very fun for them

- does not fucking like zim still but she warms up to him over time (i love the idea of tak being zims psycho best friend)

- dib is okay i guess. whatever (he's taller than her and she knows he's important to gaz)

- once she gets attached to gaz she shows affection by guarding her

- has probably bitten a man's fingers off for touching gaz (gaz was delighted but did have a conversation about earth laws and risky behavior with her)

- surprisingly, she purrs a lot more often than zim does (but only for gaz)

tak is basically how zim would have turned out had he continued to be isolated and had more rage and spite built up, it is now tak's turn to learn how to relax. when zim breaks down he becomes a depressed heap, when tak breaks down she screams and destroys anything in her sight, she is very VERY angry and violent. gaz can easily spot anger issues since she has dealt with them herself, and this is part of the reason she decides to help tak. plus, she's bored, and hasn't made any in-person friends at college yet, so tak's company gives her something to do. gaz, tak, dib and zim all eventually become a chaotic friend group; the siblings relate about essentially being handlers for their unhinged (but adorable) aliens, and zim and tak enjoy being extremely feral and destructive together (where appropriate).

[roseband]

i have never been grateful for a class to be moved more than today bc i played clarinet probably way more than i should have yesterday and my two fingers that are curving towards each other r fucking twitching and they're on my drawing hand lmao

[deepdeepjoyandpain]

Saturday updates, brought to you from my cozy bed.

1. Covid: omicron was gracious to us. Lou was down for a day. I have a lingering cough at night and it was a mild cold during the duration. Thank you vaccines.

2. Dance: today is the big showcase production. Lou is excited, I am too. She works hard and loves this. Historically it is hard for her to retain all of their steps. Im very curious to see how she does today. We volunteered yesterday at set up and had a lot of fun together on our tasks. Dance is a Black space and Lou can get hostile towards me when I am there. Seeing the relationship I have with her teacher helps and I’m glad Lou can accept me there now. Hard to believe it has only been three years that this has been a part of our world. I’m so grateful she has it.

3. Therapy: amazing. We have three: we see an adoption specialist (fellow adoptive parent also) once monthly. Lou has one kind of through the school system, but she usually comes here. Because we border on qualifying or not, it isn’t always the best program for us but we absolutely love her. The program has crisis components which means she cancels occasionally. In our deep crises I don’t reach out to them because I have the skills and informal supports.  two weeks ago was a really hard week. Aggression two of the mornings. She came over and we just had the very best session, and it’s been better since. I see mine virtually about once a month. And we had a super session also this week really processing how much things and relationship with my mom have changed, my radical acceptance of that as well as my firm commitment to my daughter through the hard and good.

4. Boys: hormones: almost a teen. Gaaaaah. It’s real and hard and hilarious all at the same time. So glad she is telling me these things, I sure did not talk to my mom as openly.

5. I had a FUN week. She had dance rehearsals three nights. One night I went out with three friends for our favorite pizza and beer. Another night I did solo errands: Target, aldi, Costco and Trader Joe’s!!! Man those week night crowds are amazing. And the last night I had a massage. Best ever. I also had lunch with a coworker and breakfast with a friend. More social fun than the last two months! And I feel it deep in me. So needed. These last two years have changed me and I have a greater peace and enjoyment being alone but that extrovert in me is still alive!

6. Spring break: we’re headed out west! Grand Canyon, Sedona, antelope canyon, Bryce, Zion and Vegas. It’s getting closer and feeling like it will happen. This was the plan for the last two years. I’m so excited. And have more planning to do! Any tips please send them my way!