#i am alresdy good tho

[slayingandserving]

everyday I just make my little do to lists and check off my things and hope I’m doing good.

[bonethievery]

the idea of dying 2 covid is scary and thid seems really pathetic but personally the idea of permanently losing/fucking up my sense of taste and then NOT dying is terrifying

[baebaejooheon]

Corpse husband x cottagecore! Reader headcanon

Just a cottagecore esque thing where it’s readers birthday and they throw a big meet up/sleepover thing.

Fem reader just bc. Mentions wearing a dress/skirt

A/N: uhhh leave me alone Ik I have a series in the works that I haven’t written for in months. Leave me alone 😎 not edited pls it’s rlly not good , as well as written at 6 am. Based on a maladaptive daydream I had for like a week straight. I could turn this into a real fic if anyone wants it but like ahaha I can barely write once a year 😌🤚🏻 I will probably reread it and fix it later but as of now you get what you get. I literally just typed this on my phone with no sleep so like 🤗🤪

Originally posted by datchidatchi

A little background, Y/N lives in a medium sized cottage esque house. She has a small garden in her back yard, as well as a free roam fluffy brown cow named dellie, and a big chicken coop. As well as a duck that roams the property and a couple of other animals. As well as a huge flower field a little off the premises. (All of this is infact important.)

It’s Your 23rd birthday, and for this big occasion you decided to invite over all your friends, even those who live outside of the country, to your small home in the middle of nowhere. This would be the meetup that would break the internet.

Many people were invited. The typical among us group:Jack, Felix, Rae, Sykunno, Toast, Poki, and even Corpse who was given the option even tho the likelihood was low given the situation.

A few SMP friends you had made through association were also invited: Karl, Alex, Nick etc.

Many people, lots of fun.

The morning of your birthday, You awoke to many messages and posts for your birthday. Lots of bomb selfies on the feed as well as #HAPPYBDAYY/N trending on Twitter. Along with this, you were greeted with a few texts from your non American friends stating that they arrived safely or that they were checking into the hotel rooms they had booked for the weekend.

When the time came for the party, most of the people had managed to show up. The party was in full swing, everyone had a drink in hand, posting pictures, celebrating being together as well as it being your birthday.

Filling the trending tab on Twitter with so many hashtags

Around 10 pm you got a call from corpse and decided to head upstairs to get some peace and quiet from the loud music in your living room.

Answering the phone the conversation wasn’t anything special, corpse wishing you the fourth happy birthday for that day, as well as asking how everything was going. It was a normal conversation, that was, until his breath hitched and his voice started to quiver as he grew quiet, barely mumbling. Asking what was wrong, corpse went on a small tangent about how he wished he was more confident with his looks, how he wished it wasn’t scary showing his closest friends what he looked like etc. and how he wished he could be there at the party with everyone.

“Corpse I’ve told you 100 times. I understand your situation and it’s ok that you couldn’t show up. I don’t hold it against you, but I didn’t want you to feel left out :))”

“What would you say if I said I just pulled up in an Uber and I’m absolutely terrified of what’s gonna happen?”

Sneaking out of the back door as quickly as possible and running to the front lawn preparing herself. Corpse steps out of the car and You just jump in his arms. like full on koala grip on this man.

Holding his face and just showering him with compliments. Lots of reassurance and sweet nothings.

Heading to the back porch in order to allow him to calm down and prepare. The two end up sitting outside in the dark talking for like 30 minutes.

Finally working up the courage to head inside. You hold his hand the whole time and you see his hands start to shake.

Stepping into the living room, Jack noticing corpse was there, smiling but not saying anything after realizing he’s nervous. Meeting eveyone for the first time really being hard on him. No one else knowing what he looks like so no one really has a reaction

“Look who I found”

“Oh Y/N!! We were wondering where you ran off too. Who’s your friend?”

Corpse just hits them with a “uhh, hi 🤗”

Everyone freaking out as soon as they realize who it is and trying to talk to him.

Phones were put away for most of the night in fear of leaking anything.

You going the extra step to check everyone’s camera rolls (with consent of course) just incase and deleting any photo with any form of corpes face.

A group selfie with just corpse’s hand doing a peace sign

Many drunk escapades

Everyone finding a place to crash for the night. Some staying awake on their phones, some heading to hotels, some alresdy passed out for the night.

You check in on corpse before you head to bed, knowing today was a lot for him.

“Surprisingly? One of the best nights I’ve had in awhile :))”

Heading off to bed.

6 am rolls around and ms Y/N is up at the crack of dawn to do morning chores for the small farm.

Cute hobbit esque dress. Brown skirt, off the shoulder white flowy shirt tucked in, white frilly apron, brown corset belt Etc. you know the fit

Walking down the stairs, you see corpse on his phone in the dark sitting at her dining room table. Everyone was still asleep and it seemed like corpse hadn’t even slept a wink. You know, his insomnia and all.

“What are you doing awake? It’s only 6 am and you partied pretty hard last night?”

“Farm life doesn’t stop for a hangover, but I could ask you the same thing mister :) come on you can help me out”

Corpse is 100% not dressed to do anything outside, especially not any farm work.

Tells him to wait on the back porch while she gathers some stuff from the house. coming out with a messenger bag as well as a basket and a blanket.

Sets everything down and continues to feed the animals with corpse, asking him to grab the big bucket of feed. showing him the ropes, filling up everyone’s water dishes. Collecting eggs etc.

Corpse just watching you with a smile on his face. Your just talking to all your animals, yelling at fiesty hens for pecking at your legs and/or talking to Gerald the duck for getting in the way.

Corpse lowkey obsessed with dellie the cow. Pets her and coos for like 5 minutes straight.

When they finish the sun is barely rising everything still looks like a silhouette from far enough away. putting what needs to go inside away, and then grabbing the messenger bag off the porch.

Dragging corpse to the flower field just down the hill at the edge of the property.

Laying out the blanket and sitting just talking for hours.

You plays music from your phone through a small speaker, dancing around and twirling, lost in your own world.

Corpse’s Instagram story is just full of videos and pictures of you in the sunrise, small captions like happy birthweek to the most amazing person Ik. Or damn who knew farm girl had moves.

Literally 30+ story posts at 7 am.

Corpse takes a picture of you making a flower crown. Shadows cast across your skin, the small bit of sunrise light casting a soft golden glow. The field of flowers all around. Literally goddess worthy.

Fans going crazy reposting the pictures, spamming Twitter etc.

His camera roll is FULL of pictures of her.

Giving corpse A flower crown full of an array of wild flowers

Dancing together. Just twirling and laughing.

City boy corpse loving the farm life

Secretly of course

Relaxing and just sitting with eachother as it slowly reaches 10 am.

“Uh, thanks for this morning, I had a lot of fun.” A small sleepy smile on his face. The flower crown crooked on his messy curls as he just stares into your eyes.

You both end up leaning in for a kiss bumping noses as you gently pull away

Definitely the best birthday gift you could have asked for

Heading back inside to see how everyone’s doing.

Rae being one of the few awake asking where the two of you had been seeing it was already around noon

“Those of us awake took it upon ourselves to raid your kitchen sorry not sorry”

Corpse getting sleepy wanting to take a nap seeing as it was noon and he was running on little to no sleep.

You let him rest in your bed as you occupy everyone downstairs

Everyone leaving around 3 pm, corpse is still asleep so you go outside to check on all the animals once again.

Letting Gerald in the house bc he’s being a pain in the ass.

When you come into the house you see corpse coming down the stairs rubbing his eyes and streatching. His shirt twisted and raising slightly, the jewelry and chains he was wearing now gone.

Giving him a good “morning” kiss.

The day is filled with you cooking for him. Making fun of his foil troubles, watching movies, laughing and overall joking.

Spending the rest of the night cuddling together and making the most of the time you had together.

Making things between you official

✨Extra✨

When you post about eachother to tell the fans that the two of you have been dating for like 6 months the captions are wild.

Corpse is like “ugh look at my gorgeous girlfriend, so pretty, so nice and kind, the most amazing person ever” just full on simp. The pictures he uses are from the morning after your birthday.

Your picture is just you guys holding hands. His usual chains and jewelry. Caption just “eww a city boy 🤮, gotta take all the love I can get tho”

[mycomori]

nothing keeps me goi g very long anymore. today was kinda hard i really tried but i felt p shitty last night and this morning. watching su cheered me up and o really tried to do some good shit today at least i got a lot explained and shit but i also kinda like told my therapist why i find it so hard to recover because i literally have nothing to do it for like i just straight up have nothing in my life that’s mine like i don’t have anything to live for really except just to survive and it really tired of jjst doing this if this is gonna be the rest of my life and i’m just like...i gave everything up because of mental illness. i lost fucking everything. i try not to think about it but i can’t not when my life is empty. and it’s not like i haven’t benetryibg. that’s the problem i have totry every fucking day but it never gets better. everything i try either doesn’t work out or just doesn’t work at all like i just am so exhausted by this shit every day being in program is so much i hate it so much really i want to say fuck i want to be free but deep down i know i wouldn’t be out do i g anything important like i have nothing all i had was my job and now that’s been gone over a month now and i still don’t know what to do really. i don’t have school, i don’t even have the ability to go to school. even if i did have the mental health to do it i don’t have the money for anywhere close to where in trying to move like i would have to commute and live at home and like i’ve alresdy been trying to get out for years. i’m just so fuckibg hopeless. i don’t think anything is actually going to work. i’m so tired. i don’t want to die like i don’t wnat to loose my life but i can’t do this anymore. it’s horrible that i wish so bad i could just kill myself but i know i can’t. like there’s just that force stopping me even tho i really just do not want to live. i just have no real way to do it. i know whatever i do would fail. and there’s really only one thing i would ever try but i mean i’ve basically done that already by accident and its very horrifying to overdose and probably wouldn’t work anyway or fuck me up permanently. i just really have no viable way to kill myself so i just wish to die. like i walk out in the street and willthe cars to hit me but they never do. i don’t know anymore. i want to do this but i don’t have enough energy in realky tryibg and it’s killing me because it’s just not enough it’s not good enough it never will be no matter what u do my mental health is never going to change i’m always going to have depression and anxiety and ocd and probably some form of disordered eating and oh also ptsd i guess even tho i am currently violently torn inside over if i accept that or not and i cabt bri g myself to talk about it i just don’t trust myself i don’t but howelse can i explain how i react to shot like i just don’t want to believe it i don’t but i know it’s true to some extent but it just DOESNT MAKE SENSE. like. my “””trauma””” or whatever was barely fuckig anything! it barely qualifies as emotional and physical abuse. i have no sexual abuse and i’m thankful for that but also terrified of it. and i feel like because i know so many people who went through that who went through much worse i jjst. i can’t have the same cptsd as them. i mean i know i don’t but like i just i don’t deserve to have this not that it’s a good thing it’s not it’s fucking horirbke i wish no one had it but like at least other people have a legit reason like an understabke explainable reason i jsut don’t haha

[hummingbird-goddess]

Are you pale or tan or kind of an in-betweener?:

i am very white but thos summer ive gotten some color  

What do you think of the word ‘wiener’?: its funny but meh.

Do you have long or short nails? (why): i keep cutting my nails short because my old job theyd get caught and break all the time soni just ever since kept them short  but i may start growing them out  

Do you ever wear anything with sequins?: not me at all

Have you ever considered growing a mustache/dating someone with a mustache?: I’m dating someone with some scruff, i love it. im not too far from my own seems like

Do you like wine? (what kind particularly):

i love wine  ill drink it all but the moscato is the best because it tastes like juice  

Do you prefer skinny people or people with a bit of meat on the bones?: either way, im not picky  

Does the idea of death scare you?: No, mine’s more of a fear of the unknown…

Do you believe you’re going to heaven?: no idea if thats even real or not tbh. i kinda believe in reincarnation .

What type of bottled water do you prefer?:

i dont think i prefer one.

Do you like to wear anything in your hair? (feathers, hairbands, barrettes):

nah. 

Do you like to cook? (if so, what’s your fav. thing to cook): i dont cook a lot but ill cook anything with pasta.

What is your favorite magazine to read?: architectural digest .  

What religion do you follow if any? If you don’t follow any, why not?: i dont follow any becäuse there are too many and i dont know what to believe

Do you have a digital camera? (what kind): not a workingbone unfortunately .

What do you mostly like to take pictures of?: my cat 

Who are your best friends? List from youngest to oldest: mehhhhhh

Do you like to wear fancy hats?: uh no

Do you think Jessica Alba is pretty/hot?: She’s pretty.

Are you familiar with the brand ‘Valentino’?: No.

How tall are you exactly?: I am 5′5″

Have you ever seen Desperate Housewives?: here and there

What color is your hair?: Naturally it’s dark brown.

Have you ever dyed your hair with store bought dye?: Yes and i regret it 

Do you ever wear gloves/mittens during cold weather?: yeah its a neccessity in CO

How do you feel in detail RIGHT AT THIS SECOND?: meh

What’s better, Thai or Chinese Cuisine?: very similar, either really.  

Do you think high heels make girls look more attractive?: when they know how to wear them its cute

Is it gross to not shave your legs if you’re a girl?: It doesn’t bother me honestly…

Do you own more t-shirts or jeans?: T-shirts by far!

Between Macy’s and Nordstroms, what do you prefer?: neither tbh

Does your hair ever get in the way of your eyes?: yeah usually

What does the texture of your skin feel like?: It’s smooth

Do you spend more time smiling or frowning?: I have resting bitch face so neither.. lol.

Do you like to go garage sale scavenging?: yeah sometimes theres good treasures 

What’s better, something new and modern or something old and vintage?: i like both

Are you photogenic according to others?: i dont think so 

Describe your favorite pair of shoesies: mm, i like my brown combat boots  comfy and fit the foot sobthey dont look dumb and chunky.

Do you own a credit card? (if so, do you use it often): Nope…

Do you follow trends? (be honest): i dont think so, i dont actually py attention 

Angelina Jolie, Jennifer Aniston, J-Lo, Gwyneth Paltrow?: Jennifer Aniston  

How often do you regret your actions?: sometimes, but cant let that control my current svtions

Do you ever watch or read the weekly news?: i watch it when my mom does

Do you think ‘Bridgette Jones’ Diary is a good movie?: Never seen it…

What do people usually say to you regarding your appearance?: usually my eyes or hair when ive had a funky colour but usually eyes

Do you ALWAYS make your bed in the morning before you start the day?: Not really ever 

How many hours of sleep do you get per night usually? is it enough?: a lot now that i eork normal hours lol 

How old you act/feel/look?: i act 30, feel old af, look 12 probs

How old are you in reality?: I’m 22

What is your favorite book genre?:

mystery

Do you like spicy food? What’s your favorite spicy food?: its not my favoritebwhen incorporated appropriately  

Do you have sensitive teeth?: no

Do you like receiving beauty tips from other people?: uh i dont think ive ever gotten any 

Would you consider yourself amazing?: Ha..umm no..

Do you think every individual human being matters?: I mean, rapists, murderers, molesters, and bullies can GTFO… everyone else mattes..  

Is life pointless?: No I don’t think so

What was the best thing you bought this month?: i homestly dont think kve bought much fun stuff

How much money do you spend on average weekly?: Honestly it varies…  

How often do you clean up?: every week on my daysnoff

What are you most excited about in life to come?: mm the eclipse right nowmlol.

Would you ever spy on a boyfriend/girlfriend if you were suspicious?: meh kinda do alresdy but i dont care tbh haha  

Do you completely trust your current boyfriend/girlfriend or best friend?: I certainly do.

The most interesting job you’ve had in your lifetime was?:

walmart employee.

Do you own anything designer label? What?: not thatbi know of t

Do you think the renaissance age was interesting?: mehhhhh not ,y cup of tea

Do you like the subject of history or not at all?: I honestly hated history more than any other subjevtnin svjool  sorry it was god awful. maybe just the teacgers and the books  idk