#i am biased tho bc I didn't even have my first kiss until i was 21 so I'm hella projecting lmfao

[the-cookie-of-doom]

currently plagued with thoughts of BabyGayPanic!Kim doing some research re: all the smut. Because liking Chay is swiftly turning into liking Chay, and wondering what other things he might like. After burying himself in 4 different VPNs and a burner phone, and checking his security three times before finally locking himself up in his recording booth (later considers maybe he could have done this in his room? In bed? That would be more normal, right? Except the room is Soundproofed and Safe and he's so embarrassed he forgets to get horny about it)

He's not a stranger to porn, okay? He's watched it before. Infrequently, because he's spent too much of his life on camera not to be a very harsh critic, and it all rings very false for him. (He does like amateur videos when he bothers, though. The angles are never good, and the sound/lighting are usually worse, but it's real at least)

This is different, though. Because it's all men, and it's for research, and it's something he might actually do? someday? hopefully? with Chay?

And nope, he can't do this, absolutely not. exits right out of that tab before the dicks even come out because his brain just turns itself off.

next time he sees Chay, though... Kim can't stop thinking about kissing him, and touching him, and wanting him, more than he's ever wanted anyone else before. He's kissed women, sure, mostly for the sake of music videos, had a couple dates. But none of those times made him feel half of what he does just thinking about kissing Chay, and it's kind of overwhelming.

It's really overwhelming. So much so that he just. Does it. In the studio. Because Chay is telling him he likes Kim and it's so cute and sweet and Kim's heart is hammering in his chest, and he's been starting at Chay's mouth nonstop whenever they're together, but pretending like he wasn't, but Chay has to know, and now he's confessing, and Kim's heard a lot of confessions before but never like this, and. yeah. it's a lot. So Kim has to kiss him about it. Except he's terrified about what will happen to him if he actually kisses Chay, so he kisses his cheek instead, for the sake of his own sanity. (Chay doesn't return it. Kim really wishes he would, but the hug he gets is good, too, pressing Chay's whole body against his own, soft and warm and it makes Kim feel soft and warm and wow, can they stay like this forever, maybe? Obviously not, but maybe?)

[neonwizardheehee]

ok since you've said you have something to say about The Penguin go right ahead xD I enjoyed you talking about The Riddler

This totally made my weekend for I've been thinking a lot about this (and also went to the cinema again to check if Penguin is wearing purple socks or not) and that's why it took me a few to answer :)

Okay firstly I gotta say that I'm pretty biased with dear Ozzie and with me rewatching Gotham over and over I def got used to his looks there. (fun fact: I didn't really care for the Penguin in Gotham at first bc I couldn't get my head around him looking pretty suddenly and now I'm simping over him bc he's so pretty XDDDD)

Onto the new movie now: (minor spoiler warning about characters and places) At first I wasn't too put off my his looks per se since it seemed they were going for a more "comic-accurate" appearance with the scarred face and disformed nose and such. It confuses me a bit why they took Colin Farell and made him look like this tho. That's why I watched Total Recall with him to have a bit more knowledge and views on him and boi he does he serve! Now, I'm even more confused why they took an actor with a vibe of a very handsome and charismatic guy to play Pengy XD

Nevertheless during the movie I was mostly confused by his height. in most of the media where Penguin shows up, he's tiny if not super-tiny. And in the current one, he's actually tall? Why? :'') Tbh during my first viewing of the movie I just put it aside like "okay maybe they are just going for a new Penguin thingy now. Kinda like going pretty with Gotham or going feral like with Batman Returns" since I was mostly just hyped to see my boi. During my second time viewing tho it bothered me quite a bit since I felt as if Oswald has been put as a brute - judging by his tall appearance and slightly "unnecessary" comments sometimes.

But the best things imo was seeing the Iceberg Loung! Sure it was totally new and different from previous ones but WOW it blew my mind and I didn't know I needed Techno(?) playing in the Iceberg Lounge until this movie!! That was AMAZING! This is a new route I def like and didn'T expect. Also Oz being SO SO smooth and cool in that scene just *chef's kiss* mans knows how to run a club and that's what I love him for. (him addressing Batman as "sweetheart" or smth makes me wanna go feral ;P)

In the end I was originally a bit sad that he wasn't the main villain of the story BUT since Riddler did it SO SO well I take that and I'm not mad at all bc they all deserve their limelight and it was SO well made. That's a cool thing about the Batman Universe that it's just reaccuring characters and places and they aren't necessarily main focus of the plotline but make a viewer feel like they are really in Gotham and not some random city bc ofc is the Iceberg Lounge on of THE places to be and ofc Pengy is involved when it's a story about Mafia and corruption.

A little background info I checked was that I (after one year) got my hands on the Penguin Pain & Prejudice comic which said on the back was an inspiration for the new movie - unfortunately I couldn't find any besides the penguin's facial appearance :(. It does make sense tho since the movie doesn't focus on Pengy at all while that's the whole purpose of the comic XD

Oz felt a bit too one-dimensional in the movie for me bc I am super used to his long development (in Gotham or Pain & Prejudice) and backstories. When I asked my sis she said she didn't mind the new Penguin at all and sees this movie as his start of climbing up the criminal ladder while I assumed he was already pretty high up. So ig we have to wait for more content (maybe the next movie?) for he's been clearly set up to be major crime boss from now on.

In the end I have to say that my happiness about seeing him on the big big screen again after so so many years outweighs pretty much everything but that fangirl in me def misses some of his iconic traits and his tiny appearance ;P

[johobi]

Ok ok ok so this is way overdue but I was in a little denial yesterday and got caught up in some work. But! I am here now to theorize. So I've seen some of the other theories floating around on your blog and I have to say that whole having an arranged marriage that Jungkook wanted no part of thing seems really interesting but I find a couple problems with that. One being, why would he continue to see his fiance if he didn't want anything to do with it? Also considering he has a terse -SK (1/?)

relationship with his parents why would he agree to the marriage at all? The second problem I see is that when OC caught JK and mystery gal (I’m gonna refer to her as MG for now) canoodling JK apparently was smiling at her in a loving manner? He seems to love her just as mush as he loves the OC. And yes I do believe he loves them both (not sure about equally though). I think it’s plausible considering at one point OC was really in love with Tae but at the same time liked JK. Damn this -SK (2/?)

a long ass theory and I haven’t even touched the tip of the iceberg?? This?? Is what you do to me?? Seriously though here’s a brief intermission to praise your writing skills because OH MAN HOLY SHIT is it good. I legitimately felt emotional pain when I read that ending. I haven’t been this invested in fictional characters in a while now. Anyways I digress. Even if JK loves OC what he did was shit. No way around that. Keeping your fucking engagement a secret is a hella no. Honestly I -SK (4/?)

team JK in the beginning and now. i just. I’m on neither team? I think OC just needs a little time by herself. If she tries to rebound with Tae she could feel the same way she did when she began dating JK? And like i guess she probably wouldn’t wanna be reminded of the traitor bc she’s hurting? And I’m afraid her self-esteem may have taken a hit during this whole debacle which is like shitty bc she was literally just saying how JK made her feel confident and sexy? OK hold up I just -SK (5/?)

of something. Assuming JK and MG are like most couples wouldn’t JK have an engagement ring? Maybe not because not ALL couples have engagement rings must MOST do. Why has OC never seen it? Honestly the more i think about the more i start rooting for Tae. Maybe I’m biased because lying is my #1 pet peeve and Tae is no saint but at least he gave OC space. And when he kissed her he seemed like he wanted to tell her something but instead asked if she liked JK. Did he maybe want to tell her -SK(6/?)

that the kiss meant more to him but seeing as OC was genuinely happy he let her have that peace? Is that why he broke it off with Tara? Am I thinking about everything too much? Also I saw on your Ask My Muse post you have two unidentified characters under WYLEI? ASDFGHJ is MG Candy or Dorothy?? Did I miss something or do you really have another character we’ve yet to meet in the story? also WHY IS DOROTHY IN QUOTATION MARKS!! What does it all mean?? I feel like I’m really all over the -SK (7/?)

place with these asks so I’m sorry for that. Your brain must hurt from the constant subject change. Speaking of subject change I just skimmed through chp. 9 and I see that when talking about his relationship with his parents, his parents pressured him into “business stuff.” And while I don’t think this is the case, such a scenario could mean that JK’s parents tried to force him into marrying MG? Anyways that’s really all I have for now (lol ALL). I’d just like to say I really like your -SK (7/?)

inclusion of background characters in the story. I feel like most writers forget that there is a world and life outside of the main characters. Also I’m living for Sope. I’m hyped for what’s to come but will be patient until you feel the time is right. I think most people feel the same way lol. Don’t stress yourself hun. You’re an amazing writer and deserve rest. Anyways I’m really sorry this was so long and messy. Im p sure I messed up the numbering at some point.Take care! -SK (8/8)

Hi SK!! This is probably the longest ask I’ve ever received and y’know what, I was so freakin happy reading each message as it came in. ^^ I loved hearing you go from confusion, to doubt, to revelation and everything in between LOL. 

I’ll answer what I’m able to and probably only confuse/frustrate you more with the stuff I can’t really answer yet.😂😂

Everything you mention at the beginning are, indeed, notable discrepancies if we’re to go with the ‘Jungkook has a fiance that’s been forced on him’ theory. So either there are details about that that will come to the surface and explain these contradictions, or it’s not correct. Or I’ve come up with something with a million plot holes. Which I can (hopefully) confidently say isn’t the case, considering I made this completely unnecessary beast of a mind map just to ensure the explanations behind what just happened are all accounted for: 

You’re actually the first person to suggest that Jungkook is also in love with his fiance, as well as Y/N. This is a really cool angle! Like you said, it’s totally possible, considering Y/N is also struggling with the love for two men (though the longer she’s with Kook, the more Tae’s diminishes).

What is a popular thought, though, is that Y/N shouldn’t be with either of them right now. She’s pretty damn damaged and could probably do with a holiday with Yoonseok somewhere sunny and sandy lol. Thing is, because she’s fleeing like a prey animal now and her emotions are all over the place, Y/N is going to be quite volatile. She’s never really been pushed into this place before. She’s fallen for someone before, obviously, but not had that rejected in such a humiliating and traumatising manner. So her behaviour in the next chapter is going to reflect how she deals with it.

Good spot on the engagement ring thing. Maybe Jungkook doesn’t have one. Maybe he does, but doesn’t wear it. Maybe he wears it only when he meets with his fiance? Maybe she isn’t his fiance at all? After all, we only ever heard that word from the woman’s lips, not his. 

You’re definitely not thinking about things too much. These things were all woven into the story to get your cogs turning. ^^ Tae hesitated when Y/N asked why he kissed her (or something along those lines) and instead answered her with another question: “Are you happy with Jungkook?” And that is, perhaps, the most important line he’s had so far, as to revealing his inner workings. If you can come to a conclusion as to why he would ask that, his succeeding actions will begin to make sense.

Haha, Candy is actually Jimin’s girlfriend from chapter 4, she’s not a huge character but I thought some people might want to ask her questions of the more humorous variety, especially about Jimin (who will be back for ch. 12) ^^ ‘Dorothy’ is in quotation marks because it’s all we have to identify Jungkook’s ‘fiance’, or MG as you call her, so far. It’s what Y/N coined her in the elevator.

Yes, the ‘business stuff’ is central to many things where Jungkook is concerned. Like, all of it. You’ll find out more about that in 12, too. 

And thank you!!!!! I wanted the background characters to have life, too. I mean, they’re the protags of their own stories, too, and that’s why I wanted it to feel like things happened even when Y/N wasn’t in the picture. Yoonseok began something with each other, but you don’t know when or how it happened; it’s their business, and you find out with Y/N as you would with any of your other friends. Like, this stuff doesn’t just not happen, or only around Y/N. 

Don’t apologise for your asks tho!! They were so interesting to read through and consider, you got me thinking more about the next chapter, too!! Thank you for sharing your thoughts with me!

[fluffi]

so should i reply in tiny font or just regular font?

hybe should do better in spreading out the comebacks of the groups under them :/ they're already at a huge advantage, might as well use it strategically. AHA streaming mvs is so convenient for a multi. the filler vids i could use in between could be mvs from the other groups that i stan. also you know what, i still haven't watched a single final performance bc im waiting for a friend to watch with me :D

i have a chinese movie recommendation in case you want something to cry over. i still love its ost and it's been months since i watched it. i'm not sure if you watched it already but more than blue. i've never cried over a movie as much as i cried for that one. the angst *chef's kiss*. i'd do anything to wipe my memory of it and watch it again for the first time.

also sungchan is mc-ing in inkigayo every sunday! and honestly, what the hell is nct hollywood :D but a part of me thinks it's just going to be a bunch of asians living in america like johnny that'll be a part of it. just a hunch tho. imagine having all 4 units coming back in a year with like 1 unit per quarter of the year. i'm not sure if sm even has the money to do this, especially when they filed bankruptcy recently.

and i've seen a lot of twitter memes saying taro's ghosted stans T_T alexa play ghosting by txt T_T sm come on give him smth to do, you're wasting talent.

the mall didn't burn down entirely (like from the outside it looked fine). the ventilation system caught fire so it was more internal—ceilings and all that. covered things with soot(?) and ashes so the entire mall was closed for nearly 2 years. and hey, i've experienced a school fire too back when i was younger. i, too, thought it was nothing but a fire drill until i saw the charred remains of the buildings behind our school : D thankfully, no one died.

the new nct track is for a samsung commercial AHAHA it's funny because nearly everyone uses apple TT_TT and the mv screams neo culture tech tho (well as it should lmao). yes, i was talking about that part in hot sauce but yes, it grew on me too.

ateez really know how to do a performance. they put the standard so high for me when it came to performing. their facial expressions and overall stage presence just impresses me. it's been a while since i've seen idols draw me to them by those standards.

ah, the long stan list! good luck in getting through it and i hope you do have fun as you go :] (also you can check out aurora by ateez and whiplash by tbz. the songs popped up in my head as i was typing this reply, you might like them)

ohhhh, what was the pd48 scandal? i don't watch survival shows so i don't know any of the stuff going on. would you care to elaborate? about their disbandment :(( i hope you're okay now tho! are the other girls still debuting in new groups? anyone eyeing an acting career instead of being an idol?

YES, A PATTERN IN THE BIASES (if you count an analysis of two ppl as a pattern, that is.) because it's the same pattern i have for my biaswreckers :D jake & seungmin, not only do they have the same animal to represent them, they have the same 'golden retriever' type of personality that just makes you go all soft. ygwim ;n; i wish i could elaborate but both boys just devastate me in the same level and my friends pointed out that they were quite similar in some aspects.

jaemin used to send really long bbl messages :< like if there was anything he loved most it was nctzens and it was obv in his messages. speaking of dream, album repackage news today! idk what to feel bc my hot sauce albums haven't even arrived yet :D + i'm dead br0ke.

how do you even manage to read 30k TT__TT i cant handle long fics bc of my attention span :D also, yes, i found the user now, i'll check if i'll like their works soon. <33

YES YOU SHOULDVE BEEN THERE T_T what a day that was. i think seungmin is still sweet and active in bbl. not a single cent goes to waste with him. also i think i'll post the drabble some time this month.

and oml seungmin vs jake :o let's see how that goes O.O XDD

clickity-clackity AHAH do you have a mechanical keyboard? :c i wanted one too but i haven't got around to saving up for one. but yes indeed, typing asmr v relaxing \m/

sunny hyuck day, fullsun sunday, fullsunday T_T feels were very strong that day. i kept seeing edits on my twt tl and i would just s o b : D i've only stanned nct for a year but i've seen him grow so much i just wanted to crie i love him sm :') yk my mom didn't cook spaghetti for my birthday, but she cooked for hyuck's? : D

and i checked ur recs blog and indeed, full of nct T_T

also have i mentioned that your desktop thing amuses me so much HAHAH i got confused for a sec if i had twt opened or tumblr. plus, i've been wanting to mention that i noticed that our mobile themes are opposites. black and red, white and blue. it's cute XDD <3

help, people have been telling me that our asks are long but i highkey love it. i added a ‘keep reading’ for the mobile users though, sorry in advance hh.

honestly, both works. tiny font saves space but regular font does more justice for my poor eyes haha. its your call!

hybe comebacks :( yeah enhypen got lucky because they came back right before cb season so they got three wins (yay)! on the bright side, txt just got their first win and bts has six wins, so it all works out i guess. omg yes, the streaming thing is perfect. i stan like 20 groups so i have a never-ending cycle of filler mvs and its always so helpful. ooh for the final performances - you wont regret watching any of them! literally wild, kingdom's budget and talent are wild.

ooh, I don't watch any cdramas lmao. i want to but i can barely finish kdramas. if its a movie ill watch it! ive never heard of more than blue but ill check it out <3 where can i watch it?

yes yes i have just realized that sungchan is yujin's co-mc! i watched their special stage (which is literally adorable) and was today years old when i realized that the dude is sungchan pls. nct hollywood was so unexpected and i still have mixed feelings about it now. LMAO JUST ASIANS LIVING IN AMERICA...help. that would be interesting (?) but the concept reminds me of those horrendous awesomeness tv shows. lets hope sm pulls this off well and proves me wrong. lmao all 4 units coming back would probably happen, but i hope none of them get overworked :( i constantly feel like mork lee has four clones :'( also...sm filed bankcruptcy??? dang, what happened?

ugh omg yeah shotaros talent is seriously being wasted in the basement right now. as for fires, scary T-T i wasnt that fazed by them until the australia wildfires happened, and i learned about the consequences of fire and got really scared. its good that the entire mall didnt burn down though! although its weird that no one is opening it :( schools really need to tell us the difference between drills though, it might be dangerous for those rebellious kids.

yeah i just realized that the nct track is an endorsement which partly explains why i cant listen to it. the mv's visuals are stunning!! the set and people are so gorgeous aa i cant

oh yeah im not an atiny but i have acknowledged since 2020 that they have one of the best, if not the best stage presence and expressions on stage for 4th gen. i think their only worthy competitor would be stray kids actually. theyre truly one of a kind and all of them are cute especially that yeosang guy. i will definitely check out your song recommendations though!

oof the pd48 scandal is extremely complicated. to condense it in a few statements: all of the girls' rankings have been rigged since the very beginning and it was rumored that they already had their end group before the show even started. it was like this for pf48 and pdx101 (group x1) which was why x1 disbanded within a month of debuting, and izone were on hiatus for like 4 months. im not the best at explaining stuff like this haha, but i think you get it. you can check out yt or search up 'pd48 scandal', a ton of articles and videos. as for new groups, nothing has been made clear yet. theyve only made instagram handles for now and appeared on variety shows haha. as for acting career, hyewon was supposed to do acting but was forced to join pd48 so maybe she'll continue acting afterwards? nothing is confirmed yet!

lmao two similarities, its okay it counts. ah, true, i can see their similarities now that youve mentioned it, as well as how jeno is kind of like that. however, i am currently attached to jaemin so we'll see what happens from there hehe. i swerve easily.

jaemin on bubble grr, that would be a whole experience. from the bare minimum of vidoes ive seen for him wbk jaemin is so whipped for czennies. ah yes repackage! i saw the post on instagram and went to the comments to see everything screaming ‘iM bROke!’ and it was lowkey hilarious lmao. kpop is really trying to suck our money T-T.

ope the longest fic ive read is like...40k words i think? and it was by jeonginks. ill read anything eiko produces lmao, theres always so much substance in her work. ooh, tell me what you think of luvdsc’s stuff, i just finished binging their entire masterlist lmao.

seungmin vs jake yeah, i havent been catching up on skz enha content because im still obsessing over the dreamies but when that saga is over then im going to focus on my ults lmao (which might include dream soon, hehe).

yes yes i have a mechanical bluetooth keyboard that i use to connect to my computer! it literally sounds amazing lmao, its only 10am here but i feel like im going to doze off from the clickity clackitys already. i cant wait for you to get one! tell me when you do, we can match hehe.

hyuck is an aodrable brat please. hes like the best comedian of nct at this point, so hilarious and filled with variety i love him. he rose up my bias list pretty fast too. LMAO YOUR MOM IS SO COOL I LOVE HER ALREADY. if only my mom would cook for my ults’ borndays.

yes my rec blog is a mess right now, ill organize it soon haha.

omg thank you and yes my website theme is one-of-a-kind. even i get confused when i open it or edit it, and i constantly get comments about it. also i just realized our opposing theme colors and i love it! its adorable.