#i am not radqueer but tagging for visibility

[dyspunktional-leviathan]

Hey, here’s a transabled positivity post from your local Certified Cripple — I’ve been thinking about how saying like, well I fit your standards and I still think they are shit devalues self-advocacy and frankly invalidates at least half the point, but I realized, and heard from others, that validation of your trans identity from those who are cis in that identity might be a huge support, so 💖

And this is also very much just a transability positivity post in general, regardless of my own disabilities, too.

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Your identity is not ableist.

For those who

Are trans in the direction of ability loss: you wanting things that are suffering for others is not invalidation of that suffering.

Are trans in the direction of ability acquisition: it does not mean that you think others are lesser for their disability.

Use, or want to get, mobility aids they “don’t physically need”: you are not stealing resources. There are literally posts within the disabled community about how mobility aids are *not* a limited resource, everyone who needs or wants them should get them if they can, and more demand actually creates more supply.

Present as their identity in any way: you are not faking, not any more than I “fake” when I deepen my voice as a transmasculine and otherwise transvoice person. That *is* real, that is the real you, even if it’s not in your body factory settings.

Can’t present as their identity: hugs, if you want them, or any other display of affection that you would prefer.

Have happily transitioned, or had acquired those changes unintentionally and were happy: congratulations!!

Have transitioned, or had acquired those changes unintentionally, and aren’t happy with them: that does not mean that your past desires were ableist, and that does not mean that your present suffering is your fault.

Are currently transitioning or looking for ways of transition: good luck!

Can’t transition: a display of affection and support of your preference

Don’t want to transition: your identity is valid, and your identity is not ableist, regardless.

And support for all other transabled experiences, all of them, all of you! I will post this now because if I save this into drafts I might not go back to it in a long time.

And happy Disability Pride Month.

It *is* for you too, whatever your experience is.

I am so sorry that transphobia is currently so high.

Your life and identity and experiences are about you, not about others. Their experiences are about them and not about you as well.

[autism-shaped]

Hello! I'm Quill.

[EDITED 12/5/2023]

Greetings! I made this blog to explore certain aspects of my identity and experience, primarily around disability and atypical dysphoria, and hopefully find community. I'll also engage with fandom and other interests. Asks are encouraged!

In this house we prioritize disability liberation, equity, and pride. I aim to respect and uplift comrades with diverse disabilities. Disability rights and dignity should be a priority for everyone, regardless of ability status.

I reserve the right to block people for any reason. Disagreement is fair game, but disrespect and hate are not. If your blog is blank, I will block you, as will most of Tumblr. Put something there.

TAGGING: I plan to tag stuff thoroughly and may update this post with key tags to search (ha) or block. This post is tagged for visibility.

MORE INFO BELOW! Content warning for self harm, medical talk, and ableism. If you spot a mistake, let me know!

I originally made this blog to learn more about BIID and "transabled" identity. The aim was, and still is, to engage in open, respectful discussion with people of both experiences. Everyone is welcome to learn. That said, I am not a radqueer and do not ID as transabled.

What is BIID?

BIID stands for Body Integrity Identity Disorder, also known as Body Integrity Dysphoria (BID). People with BIID experience distress, discomfort, and/or a feeling of wrongness—dysphoria—related to their lack of a certain disability. For example, many feel that a particular limb should be gone, or that they should be paralyzed, or that they should be blind.

The distress and dysphoria can lead people to try to create the disability they feel they should have, either by finding a doctor who is willing to disable them or by harming themselves. This is deeply controversial. Some people feel that disabling oneself in this way is a form of self harm, which should be stopped; others feel that the right to bodily autonomy includes the right to modify one's body in non-normative ways, including disabling ways.

What is being "transabled"?

Some people with BIID call themselves transabled. More prominently, people ID as transabled because they...

identify as having a particular disability (without meeting the diagnostic criteria)

want a particular disability

feel that they should have a particular disability

have a particular disability, but want it to be/feel that it should be more or less severe

Some of these people may have BIID, with or without knowing it, while others do not. BIID is primarily associated with specific physical disabilities (missing limbs, paralysis, and sensory disabilities like blindness), whereas transabled people identify with a broader range, including mental illnesses, disabled neurotypes such as autism, and even just the need to use particular disability aids.

Transabled identity without BIID is highly controversial. Because disability is a lived experience with material realities for disabled people, many people find it offensive or flippant for abled people to claim disability identity or want to be disabled. Others suspect that transabled people are actually subconsciously perceiving disabilities that they really have, but misidentifying them or not realizing that their experiences are not universal.

What does predisabled mean? How about temporarily able-bodied?

Both terms acknowledge that a person can become disabled at any time in their lives.

Personally, I use them because they help to express that I am disabled while also being able-bodied. It is important to me to acknowledge both my disabled identity and my able-bodied privilege. Additionally, my family history suggests that I will probably gradually acquire a physical disability before I am elderly, so these terms help me to express that lack of a hard boundary between total able-bodiedness and clear physical disability.

Why are you, Quill, interested in this?

I have been fascinated by disability, medical topics, and mobility aids for as long as I can remember. At some point, I also developed atypical dysphoria that does not fit typical narratives of BIID. Some of this mess can be explained by my diagnosed disabilities, but some of it is a total mystery, and I'd like to find community.

I am also an adult with a degree and extensive experience with disability scholarship, so there's that.

Thank you for reading all of this! I hope you find what you're looking for here.

[forget-the-feeling]

—> Pro recovery

—> DNI TERFS, Incels, Homestucks, if you post pics of real self harm or gore, "irl yanderes", proship, if you post or share thinspo or fatspo / proana, anti recovery, visible Danganronpa fan, kink / NSFW centred blogs, MOGAI radqueer / pro-paraphilia, Nicole Dollanganger fans (she’s a creep)

—> Don’t tag my posts with the names of fictional characters. I am a real person who experienced real trauma

—> Many post are scheduled so don’t always accurately reflect my current mental state

—> If there’s a gap in my posting, I’m okay

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—> Traumacore side blog, the contents are triggering

—> I tag content warnings, if I miss some or you want something tagged, tell me

—> I rb things I relate to, if I rb something of yours and you don’t want me to, tell me and I’ll delete

—> Everything is okay to rb, unless stated otherwise

—> Tagging is okay too, within reason of course

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—> Almonds, 22

—> She/Her, Lesbian

—> British, White

—> Autistic, Anxiety, Depression, insomnia

—> Involuntary Age Regressor (7 - 18)

—> Pursuing a PTSD / c-PTSD diagnosis ( it is not going well)

—> I have a history of violence throughout my childhood

—> 4 years clean from cutting

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—> Childhood Trauma

—> Academic / School Trauma

—> Physical, Verbal, Emotional, Sexual and Prejudicial bullying

—> Multiple suicide attempts

—> Religious Trauma (I don’t have any beliefs but I am traumatised from Catholic school)

—> parental, teacher and peer abuse / generational trauma

—> medical trauma