#i believe in emu with freckles

[murmurmurl]

appearance/identity headcanons for myself to reference because I wanna be more consistent heehee

can you tell how much I'm projecting onto Rui,,,,,

[thedandelionthief]

okay project sekai appearance headcanons time. friendly reminder that i’m always right and if you have any complaints, you should reevaluate yourself. also this is a Long post

ichika looks. mostly how she does in canon to me. i do think she’s a bit gangly, just without the height. the way she carries herself is pretty awkward, and she has bad posture.

saki is a part-time mobility aid user. i’m not sure which one specifically she would use, but either way it’s decked out in all kinds of stickers. also i don’t like how ambiguous her being a gyaru is in canon, but she is one. also all three tenmas have dimples and yes i’m including toya

honami is fat why is she not fat in canon. also, she straightens her bangs, but stops doing that going into her 2nd year once she’s gained more confidence in herself. her hair is naturally super wavy. freckle haver

shiho has really broad shoulders, and also she has a septum piercing and a bunch of ear piercings.

minori has So Many Freckles, and her teeth are a bit crooked. she’s mixed japanese-mexican

haruka also looks mostly how she does in canon, but i think she starts to dress a lot more masc over time, and gets her hair cut shorter too. a big reason she dresses so plain and feminine is because she thinks it’s how she should dress as an idol

airi’s hair is thick in the like. getting the brush stuck in it way, and is also a lot wavier than it is in canon to me. mixed hispanic/japanese, but i don’t have a specific ethnicity i headcanon her as

shizuku, like shiho, has broad shoulders. she’s also 5’10 because tall girls pretty and she deserves to be taller. has more moles than in canon

kohane is mixed korean-japanese, and she is freckly. good for her. also chubby. good for her

an is filipino-japanese. ken is my favorite filipino single dad of all time (i am ignoring the fact that an has a mother. ken is a single father). also maybe she’s taller than she is in canon because i think it’d be funny if she was taller than akito in heels

akito is hispanic/japanese and shorter than he is in canon (he’s like 5’5) and he eventually grows his hair out into a mullet and he has piercings and his hair is not naturally orange. i will not accept it until they show shinomom on-screen and she is a ginger. my good mutual zip has converted me to fat akito as well so there’s that. i’ve just been playing dress up with him and now canon akito looks wrong to me

toya… i decided this just now he is a person with albinism. good for him. and dimples because tenma

tsukasa like i said earlier also has dimples. also he should be allowed to grow out his hair but he has not yet.

i confess i have nothing for emu. i tend to draw her with freckles though sometimes. and actually i take that back i like the hc of her being blasian. she has beaded braids a lot. i can see her getting wxs colors :)

nene is blasian as well. also chubby. why is there no body type variation in proseka (i know why don’t try to explain it to me) make some of them fat i’m begging you

rui has the most fucked up teeth. his canines are like fangs vampire style. had braces as a kid and they did not work. also has heterochromia. one blue eye and one yellow. he is so extremely lanky and i don’t believe for a second he is 5’10 this guy is like 6’0

kanade is so frail and i don’t know why she is drawn like almost the same as the others when she is literally like ghostly pale and sickly but that’s besides the point. the worst eyebags you’ve ever seen.

mafuyu is like. i think she starts to lose weight during her 2nd year at the height of all her stress, but begins to gain back what she lost in her 3rd. she is fat. also cuts her hair shorter

ena is mixed hispanic/japanese obvi and she has naturally wavier hair. also has horrible dark circles. is naturally chubbier and she is once she gains a healthier relationship with food. it’s the good ending guys gaining weight as a sign of healing.

mizuki mizuki mizuki. taller than she is in canon by kind of a lot. like 5’7-5’8. mostly because mizuena height difference is good. also has streaks of lighter and darker pink throughout her hair because it’s natural and that’s how hair works (it’s especially prominent with her though).

all 4 of them get gray hairs early because of stress. ena and mizuki dye them and the other two do not care enough.

[thrilling-oneway]

Tsukasa 1 2 3 10 and 12 maybe?

1. because i don't think the writing team knows what his deal is, i don't think he knows what his deal is either. this is just an excuse for me to say i don't have a specific hc again Although I am a firm believer that he is somewhere on the aroace spectrum (probably demi). oh also this i posted the other day.

2. adhd. idk does anyone remember the adhd vs autism rap battle meme from like a year or so ago. that's wxs (tsukasa emu adhd vs nene rui autism). Also hard of hearing (this one is based on someone i went to high school with who always spoke really loudly because they were deaf in one ear and didn’t realise how loud they were actually being. tsukasa kinda reminds me of them)

3. Once again darker skin than in canon and also freckles! I also imagine that his hair is a bit more wavy like Saki’s but it’s only noticeable when he hasn’t cut it for a while and it gets slightly longer (alternatively he straightens it bc that contrasts with Saki curling her hair)

10.

Rpg set my beloved

12.

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[ghostly-quest]

Get to know me :3

Got Tagged by @a-piece-of-that-kitkate-bar <3 <3

Rules: Bold everything that applies to you & tag 10 people you’d like to get to know better.

APPEARANCE:

I’m over 5’5”. I wear glasses/contacts. I have blond hair. I prefer loose clothing to tight clothing. I have one or more piercings( I have two sets but im planning for more).  I have at least one tattoo(No but I want one). I have blue/green eyes. I have dyed or highlighted my hair(Not currently but I have before and again I am planning too soon).  I have gotten plastic surgery. I have or had braces.  I sunburn easily. I have freckles. I paint my nails(occasionally).  I typically wear makeup. I don’t often smile. I am pleased with how I look. I prefer Nike to Adidas. I wear baseball hats backwards.

HOBBIES AND TALENTS

I play a sport. I can play an instrument. I am artistic. I know more than one language(Kinda I know some asl but im not fluent and I am currently learning German). I have won a trophy in some sort of competition(so many choir awards).  I can cook or bake without a recipe.  I know how to swim. I enjoy writing. I can do origami. I prefer movies to tv shows. I can execute a perfect somersault. I enjoy singing(see above lol). I could survive in the wild on my own(I like to think so but I haven't had the chance to test that theory). I have read a new book series this year(does fanfiction count lol). I enjoy spending time with friends. I travel during school or work breaks. I can do a handstand. 

RELATIONSHIPS

I am in a relationship. I have been single for over a year(make that 19 years). I have a crush. I have a best friend I have known for ten years. My parents are together. I have dated my best friend. I am adopted. My crush has confessed to me. I have a long distance relationship. I am an only child. I give advice to my friends(relationship advice or just normal advice because its the later). I have made an online friend. I met up with someone I have met online.

AESTHETICS

I have heard the ocean in a conch shell. I have watched the sunrise. I enjoy rainy days. I have slept under the stars. I meditate outside. The sound of chirping calms me. I enjoy the smell of the beach. I know what snow tastes like. I listen to music to fall asleep. I enjoy thunderstorms. I enjoy cloud watching. I have attended a bonfire. I pay close attention to colors. I find mystery in the ocean. I enjoy hiking on nature paths. Autumn is my favorite season. 

MISCELLANEOUS

I can fall asleep in a moving vehicle. I am the mom friend. I live by a certain quote. I like the smell of sharpies. I am involved in extracurricular activities. I enjoy Mexican food. I can drive a stick-shift. I believe in true love(maybe??). I make up scenarios to fall asleep. I sing in the shower. I wish I lived in a video game. I have a canopy above my bed. I am multiracial. I am a redhead. I own at least three dogs.

Well that was fun I can’t think of ten people but

*edit, spelling errors sorry bout that

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[liizardwiizard]

Rules: Bold everything that applies to you and tag people that you’d like to get to know better.

Tagged by @martialwriter​ 

APPEARANCE

I’m over 5’5” // I wear glasses // I have blonde hair // I prefer loose clothing to tight clothing // I have one or more piercings // I have at least one tattoo // I have blue eyes // I have dyed or highlighted my hair // I have gotten plastic surgery  // I have or had braces // I sunburn easily // I have freckles // I paint my nails // I typically wear makeup // I don’t often smile // I am pleased with how I look // I prefer Nike to Adidas  // I wear baseball hats backward

HOBBIES AND TALENTS

I play a sport // I can play an instrument // I am artistic // I know more than one language // I have won a trophy in some sort of competition // I can cook or bake without a recipe // I know how to swim // I enjoy writing // I can do origami // I prefer movies to TV shows // I can execute a perfect somersault // I enjoy singing // I could survive in the wild on my own // I have read a new book series this year // I enjoy spending time with friends // I travel during school or work breaks // I can do a handstand

RELATIONSHIPS

I am in a relationship // I have been single for over a year// I have a crush // I have a best friend I have known for ten years // My parents are together // I have dated my best friend // I am adopted // My crush has confessed to me // I have a long-distance relationship // I am an only child // I give advice to my friends // I have made an online friend // I met up with someone I have met online

AESTHETICS

I have heard the ocean in a conch shell // I have watched the sunrise // I enjoy rainy days // I have slept under the stars // I meditate outside // The sound of chirping calms me // I enjoy the smell of the beach // I know what snow tastes like // I listen to music to fall asleep // I enjoy thunderstorms // I enjoy cloud watching // I have attended a bonfire // I pay close attention to colors // I find mystery in the ocean // I enjoy hiking on nature paths // autumn is my favorite season

MISCELLANEOUS

I can fall asleep in a moving vehicle // I am the mom friend // I live by a certain quote // I like the smell of sharpies // I am involved in extracurricular activities // I enjoy Mexican food // I can drive a stick-shift // I believe in true love // I make up scenarios to fall asleep // I sing in the shower // I wish I lived in a video game // I have a canopy above my bed // I am multiracial // I am a redhead // I own at least three dogs

Tagging @quarterdollar @emus-blog @just-passing-bi

[lilredfaerie]

Rules: Bold everything that applies to you and tag people that you’d like to get to know better.

Tagged by @emus-blog

APPEARANCE

I’m over 5’5” // I wear glasses // I have blonde hair // I prefer loose clothing to tight clothing // I have one or more piercings // I have at least one tattoo // I have blue eyes // I have dyed or highlighted my hair // I have gotten plastic surgery  // I have or had braces // I sunburn easily // I have freckles // I paint my nails // I typically wear makeup // I don’t often smile // I am pleased with how I look // I prefer Nike to Adidas  // I wear baseball hats backward

HOBBIES AND TALENTS

I play a sport // I can play an instrument // I am artistic // I know more than one language // I have won a trophy in some sort of competition // I can cook or bake without a recipe // I know how to swim // I enjoy writing // I can do origami // I prefer movies to TV shows // I can execute a perfect somersault // I enjoy singing // I could survive in the wild on my own // I have read a new book series this year // I enjoy spending time with friends // I travel during school or work breaks // I can do a handstand

RELATIONSHIPS

I am in a relationship // I have been single for over a year// I have a crush // I have a best friend I have known for ten years // My parents are together // I have dated my best friend // I am adopted // My crush has confessed to me // I have a long-distance relationship // I am an only child // I give advice to my friends // I have made an online friend // I met up with someone I have met online

AESTHETICS

I have heard the ocean in a conch shell // I have watched the sunrise // I enjoy rainy days // I have slept under the stars // I meditate outside // The sound of chirping calms me // I enjoy the smell of the beach // I know what snow tastes like // I listen to music to fall asleep // I enjoy thunderstorms // I enjoy cloud watching // I have attended a bonfire // I pay close attention to colors // I find mystery in the ocean // I enjoy hiking on nature paths // autumn is my favorite season

MISCELLANEOUS

I can fall asleep in a moving vehicle // I am the mom friend // I live by a certain quote // I like the smell of sharpies // I am involved in extracurricular activities // I enjoy Mexican food // I can drive a stick-shift // I believe in true love // I make up scenarios to fall asleep // I sing in the shower // I wish I lived in a video game // I have a canopy above my bed // I am multiracial // I am a redhead // I own at least three dogs

Tagging @tpixi @gengarpup and @orangeiswarm

[uutpoetry]

If Donald Trump Wasn’t A Dugong My Sex Life Would Be Ten Times Better

B.T. Joy 

I like to think that ten times zero is at least ten. Fuck the facts and mathematics. I like to think that Samuel Beckett taking a break in the middle of one shit long sentence didn’t go far enough or phoned it home when he said that bit about boots and the faults of our feet. I like to think of fear as seven mirrors joined in a circle with a blind-spot where we can stand and fear nothing except the fear that we are standing in a blind-spot in a circle of seven joined mirrors. Purple heather stretched like twine between two rival towns and the hopping antigravity of too-tall emus in an imagined landscape. The pumice-coiled ouroboros of a house-dog complete with teeth and collar is only an impression of the pain of burning.     I like to think if the wrong song could become the right opening in a cave-floor like a door of hopeful light; if hammerheads or hogs or the pilfered fig trees of the novels of Spain could stand up and walk like Shakespeare's dreams or Christ’s prerogatives; if living problems revolving around vertical planes never always nearly conjured up the brown collieries of the valley towns of Wales; if Naples, Tirana, time and a freckled girl were not all foreign cities; if macaws were not all pencilling the sky in random colours; if Donald Trump was not a dugong, my sex life would be ten times better. I like to think it because it isn’t true, and I believe it because it can’t be. I pull it like a gun, and treat it as though it were an alibi.

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[omgpoindexter]

I NEED more of dexs family do you have any headcanons?

oh honey believe me i have so many thoughts about this dumb family so here’s some random ass poindexter kid headcanons (you can find my original post outlining them generally here)

aubrey’s daughter is called sunny and the whole family think this is cruel because of her red hair but aubrey will defend this name to the death

she has an $800 violin that she won in a contest

guards it with her life

aubrey is the family’s Advice Queen because she doesn’t get all excited like their mom does but stays calm and collected at all times

the best at piggybacks

lucas knows the binomial name for, like, everything

“emu” “Dromaius novaehollandiae, at least make it hard”

he’s the only brunette in the family and florence always jokes that he’s adopted

doodles all over his notebooks

people keep asking him on dates and he just gives them a Look

why would he want to date when he has science

matilda has freckles. goddamn. everywhere

she’s so freckly it’s mental

speaks basically fluent french so she and nursey have Secret Bitch Sessions whilst dex glares at them

has qualified for the zone championships and is well on her way to the nationals competition in the 100m butterfly

scarily good at reading people

catherine is nuts basically

she’s so stubborn there is no chance anyone will win a fight against her

if anyone’s close to winning she just holds her breath until her face goes red so they panic and let her win

the loudest person you will ever meet don’t stand next to her at a hockey game and your eardrums will thank you

has hair down to her butt which aubrey loves to plait

but she always jokes that she can strangle people with it which is,, slightly worrying,,

last but not least rory

tried ice hockey twice and hated it both times but saw some people figure skating afterwards and cried until he got to try it

calls himself a “babe magnet”

has two girlfriends and two boyfriends and made a rota for skating partners so nobody has to “fight over him”

matilda and catherine take turns painting his nails different colours

he’s really into biology and likes to listen to lucas explain his notes

[rockinthebeastmode]

Bad Apple X (Final)

A/N: This is the end of the line, y’all. I wrote this mess in two and a half weeks and loved every second of it. If this one (and the last couple) feel rushed at all, I apologize. I had the ending in mind and needed to get to it somehow--couldn’t drag it on forever after all. This is longer than all the other parts so I hope that makes up for it. Hope you enjoy!

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Bad Apple X

All Rae could think or feel was Finn. The taste of chocolate and vodka from his tongue was intoxicating, the weight of his body on hers dizzying her mind. She fought against his grip, trying to touch him, and he grinned into the kiss, pressing her wrists down harder. Her moan was muffled as her tongue wrestled with his. He pulled away a moment later, catching his breath and looking her over.

“What is it?” Rae said quietly, impatience bleeding through. He shook his head, licking his lips.

“Nothing, I...I don’t wanna force you into anything.” At her confused stare, he sighed and rolled off of her, propping himself up by his elbow next to her.

“You said you wanted to stop yesterday and I said you should think on it and now this is happening,” he rushed out, Rae’s smile appearing and growing. She sat up and shrugged slightly.

“It’s like you said...it’s no one’s business. It’s just us here,” she replied, glancing around the room. She leaned into him and when his back hit the floor, she kissed him.

“You sure?” he whispered, humming deeply when she ran her tongue over his Adam’s apple. She nodded, mumbling an affirmation before straddling his waist.

“Wanna take this upstairs?” he murmured into her neck, sucking at the side.

“Do we have to?” she answered, rubbing against him. He groaned, his fingers digging into her thighs at his sides.

“The condoms are up there.” Rae pulled away and pouted.

“If we must,” she started, kissing him as she started to stand. He followed her mouth, looking up at her as she knelt in front of him.

“I’ll race you,” she said, biting back a grin. Finn raised his brows, moving to get up as she began backing away.

***

Rae tsked and shook her head when Finn immediately lit up after they separated.

“You should quit smoking,” she said, her lips quirking at the look he gave her, “It’s bad for you.”

“You’re bad for me,” Finn smirked and leaned forward, biting her neck. She leaned into him, tracing shapes into his forearm.

“What are you gonna do about Simmy?”

“I dunno,” he sighed, looking up at the ceiling and exhaling.

“What are your options?” she asked, kissing his shoulder. He sat silently for a moment like he was thinking.

“I could go to Dixon--but a college principal can’t do much in this situation,” he ashed his cigarette and continued, “I could go to Evans, but he doesn’t trust me as it is--I’m sure he’d side with Simmy anyways.”

He sucked at the rollie, his eyes squinting from the smoke.

“My dad won’t come home long enough to do anything...he’s either working or with Nan,” he said, shaking his head, “We barely cross paths at the hospital… I think he avoids me to be honest.” Rae’s brow furrowed.

“Why do you say that?”

Finn was silent, looking off to the side. Rae took his hand, entwining their fingers. He tilted his head at the wall.

“You’ve seen the pictures over there, yeah?” When she nodded, he smiled bitterly, “He looks at me and sees her,” he paused, rolling his eyes, “It’s the eyes, nose, mouth--even the fucking freckles.” Rae leaned in and kissed his nose, cheeks and lips slowly and he smiled against her mouth.

“I could leave town,” he said suddenly, Rae pulling back and looking at him.

“Where would you go?” Finn stubbed out his smoke and faced Rae more.

“I’ve got an uncle in Leeds, could work for him,” he started, scoffing a bit, “Go from boosting cars and dealing to scaffolding.” He waved his hands in mock excitement and Rae snorted.

“Why do honest hard work when you could break the law instead,” she teased, Finn smirking and narrowing his eyes at her.

“I’m crap at hard work,” he retorted, his smirk turning sharp, “Should stick with what I’m good at.”

“I don’t wanna see you get locked up.”

“Better me than you,” he said softly, Rae biting her lip. He held both of her hands and went on, “Rae...I would do whatever it took to keep you outta trouble for this--it’s my fault you’re in this mess to begin with.” Rae shook her head.

“Don’t say that...I’m just as much to blame,” she said, squeezing his hands, “I should’ve ended things right away but I…” She trailed off and Finn cocked his head, a smile playing on his lips.

“You fancy me a little, huh?” he finished, smiling wider when she scrunched her nose and pinched her index finger and thumb together.

“Maybe a little.” She gave him a cheeky smile and Finn kissed her, slowly pushing her to the bed.

***

“Finn, we have to go,” Rae laughed, pulling at his arms around her, “I have to go home and get ready for school,” she bit his lip and continued, a warning in her voice, “as do you.”

Finn groaned and squeezed her around the waist once more before opening the door. Rae glanced around and rushed to his scooter, urging him along as he locked the door and walked to her.

“Don’t get your knickers in a twist, we’re going,” he grumbled, taking out his helmet and the spare. When he faced her, she raised her brows at him.

“What knickers?” she asked, smiling innocently. He growled, his hand going to her arse and pulling her closer. He put her helmet on, his sour look making her grin. He put on his helmet and got on the bike. She climbed on behind him as he revved the engine and he took off the moment her arms closed around him.

***

Rae arrived at the school with ten minutes to spare and rushed to her classroom. Her brow furrowed when she saw the lights already on despite the door being locked.

“How’d he beat me here,” she mumbled, shaking her head as she entered the room, closing the door behind her. She gasped when she turned to the side.

“Morning, Ms. Earl,” Simmy greeted contemptuously. Her expression hardened but her breath shortened.

“Simon,” she answered, moving to her desk and putting her bag down, “Breaking and entering’s a crime, y’know.” She gulped when he laughed and stepped over to slightly block the door.

“You can talk,” he taunted, Rae’s heart starting to pound.

“Sorry?” she inquired, her voice warbling.

“Funny thing, teach. I stopped by my mate’s place this morning on my way here,” he began, pacing the side of the room with his gaze on her, “Y’know, just to see if Finn was coming to school...saw something real interesting.”

“Simon, listen--” Rae sputtered, her eyes widening. His expression darkened.

“No, you listen--ever since you came around, Finn’s been acting different. Come to find out, he’s under the spell of your magic fanny and forgetting who he is,” he approached her as he spoke, “Now, I don’t give a fuck who he’s shagging, but if you’re messing with him, you’re messing with me,” he got in her face, sneering, “And I am not one you wanna mess with, Ms. Earl.”

Rae met his eyes, trying to keep a strong facade. He stepped out of her face but crossed his arms, inclining his head to her.

“You get in my way again and I’ll have to have a little chat with Dixon,” he cocked his head to the side, a threatening smile forming, “Or better yet, this’ll make for nice dinner conversation with my dad--you’re familiar with police chief Evans, yeah?”

Rae nodded stiffly, quelling her growing nausea. Simmy smirked and backed up to the door.

“Just stay away from him and you’re golden,” he grinned, saluting her, “Laters, teach.”

The door slammed behind him and she dropped to the floor, squeezing her eyes shut.

fuckfuckfuckfuckfuck

***

It wasn’t completely impossible to avoid Finn at school. During class, she could focus on teaching but once lunch came around, she nervously glanced out the door’s window, waiting on Finn to walk by. She’d put a note on the door that tutoring was cancelled but she was almost positive he wouldn’t take that as an answer. She stepped away from the door when she heard boots coming down the hall, moving out of the window’s view. She held her breath as there was a beat of silence before the knob shook slightly and the lock clicked open.

The door opened slowly, revealing Finn kneeling, a pocket knife in his hand. She ran a hand over her face.

“How’d I know you’d do that,” she said wryly, shaking her head at Finn’s sheepish smile.

“Believe me, I’d jump at the chance to skip, but this Kubla Khan fucker is doing my head in--how am I supposed to understand something he wrote while on opium,” he teased, standing and coming inside, closing the door behind him. Rae smiled but bit her lip, glancing at the door. Finn went in front of her, holding her upper arms.

“What’s wrong?” he asked, frowning when she forced a smile and shook her head.

“Nothing...it’s nothing,” she mumbled. She hung a poster over the window and locked the door, ignoring Finn’s curious look. She went to get her Coleridge notes from her desk and waved him towards a desk.

***

Rae kept Finn busy going over the poem and successfully diverted every attempt he made to change the subject. She knew he could tell something was up but she was terrified of what Simmy would do if he found out they were still meeting up.

When the last bell rang, she led the group of students and faculty out the door and got to her car right before Finn emerged. She watched him light a rollie, waving at Macca, and look towards the lot. She drove away as his gaze reached the car.

She rushed home, stumbling up the stairs past Chloe and dropping to her bed. Chloe came in, Rae worrying her lip and clasping her hands.

“Whoa, what’s the emergency?” she asked, her hands going to her hips. Rae dropped backward, her hands going to her face.

“My entire life is an emergency,” she moaned, glaring at Chloe through her fingers when she scoffed. She sat up and continued, “I’m being blackmailed. I have to stay away from Finn or he’ll tell everyone.” Chloe raised her brows, inhaling and nodding. She exhaled and her mouth twisted.

“I’m not seeing the problem, Rae.”

“The problem is I don’t want to!” she snapped, her hands waving frantically, “I’m not even sure I can trust this guy to not tell everyone anyways.” Rae ran a hand through her hair and took a deep breath. Chloe sat next to her and linked their arms.

“What are you gonna do?”

“Stay away from him,” Rae laughed humorlessly, “Hope Finn backs off on his own.” Chloe bit her lip and Rae shrugged hopelessly, closing her eyes.

“I think I have to leave.” Chloe nodded, leaning her head against Rae’s.

“Might be for the best, babes.”

***

She’d almost packed everything by nightfall and she laid on the bed, staring at the ceiling. A metal clanging made her jump but she shook her head, blaming the wind. She sat up when she heard a knock on her window. She opened it, glaring at Finn.

“What the bloody hell are you thinking?” she hissed, looking at him precariously gripping the drainpipe and window sill. He rolled his eyes.

“I wanted to see you,” he said, glancing down, “Can I come in? This isn’t exactly sturdy.”

She stepped back, helping him climb inside and brushing off his front.

“Tell me what’s going on,” he demanded, holding her elbows. Rae avoided his eyes.

“I don’t know what--”

“Bullshit,” he snapped, stepping closer, “This morning we were fine,” his voice softened as he put his hand to her cheek, “What happened?”

Rae’s bottom lip shook and he ran his thumb over it and looked her face over.

“Someone saw us,” she lamented, her throat burning. Finn’s eyes widened.

“Shit...who was it?”

“That’s not important,” she said hastily, waving a hand, “The point is, we can’t see each other anymore,” she bit her lip as Finn shook his head, “Promise you’ll stay away from me.”

“I won’t,” he asserted, kissing her hard. She pulled away, a tear falling.

“I’m leaving.” Finn’s brow wrinkled.

“The school?”

“No, Stamford--I’m going back to Bristol,” she finished, breaking away from him.

“Why?” he countered, “We just have to be more careful.”

“Our secret will get out whether we’re separated or not,” she insisted, holding back more tears, “It’s better that I go.” Finn looked away, gritting his teeth.

“Tell me who saw us and I’ll handle it.”

“No, Finn. You can’t do anything,” she argued sternly, “Act like everything’s normal and it’ll be like I was never here.” His eyes were shining when he turned back to her.

“Rae,” he broke off, his voice cracking slightly. She brought her arms around him, kissing his cheek and he held her closer, his face buried in her hair. Her tears finally fell and he faced her, wiping them away before kissing her. When he ran his tongue over her lips and grasped her hips tightly, she pulled away and sighed his name.

“We shouldn’t,” she whispered, closing her eyes when his lips went to her neck.

“I need you,” he breathed against her neck. He brought his face to hers, their lips brushing, “One last time.” Rae nodded, smiling as he wiped away a final tear.

“To say goodbye,” she murmured, kissing him, pushing him towards the bed.

***

Finn was gone when she woke the next morning and she rubbed her reddened and puffy eyes. Her vision cleared and she spotted a note next to her bag on the table.

Morning, girl

Had to duck out to meet Macca to practice

Guess he’s finally taking some advice from a pro

See you at school Ms. Earl

She smiled at the hastily drawn heart at the bottom and bit her lip when she turned and saw her nearly packed bags to the side. She put the note back and got up to get ready.

She went straight to Principal Dixon’s office when she got to the school, quickly giving her a bullshit excuse for needing to leave.

“Are you sure?” the principal asked, slight disappointment on her face. Rae nodded, attempting a smile.

“We’ll be sad to see you go, Rae. It’s a big loss for the students--they do like your class.”

A genuine smile came over her face and she opened her mouth to reply when the office door banged open.

“Principal Dixon, there’s an emergency out front!”

They rushed outside and Rae started to feel sick when she saw the large huddle of students, Finn and Simmy in the middle being held back from each other. There was pained rage on Simmy’s face behind the growing bruises, as well as darkening marks on his throat, while Finn’s lip was split and his knuckles bloody and bruised.

“What is the meaning of this?” Dixon questioned harshly, looking between them. The silence continued and she huffed, turning to Simmy, “Evans? Answer me.”

Simmy opened his mouth to speak but nothing more than a croak emerged, his face twisting in anger. Finn gave him an unsettling grin.

“Cat got your tongue, Simon?” he mocked, his grin widening when Simmy jumped toward him, the teacher increasing his hold.

“That’s enough, Nelson.” Before she could say anything else, the cops and an ambulance arrived, the police chief exiting the first car and rushing towards the group.

“Where’s my son?” he barked, his eyes finding Simmy and Finn quickly. He gestured for an officer to take Simmy towards the ambulance before turning to Finn with a glare. He waved for an officer to cuff him.

“Wait, you can’t--” Rae started, before she could think about it, and Finn’s eyes went to her, barely smiling. Evans held up a hand to cut her off.

“There’s no use defending him, ma’am,” he said gruffly, his eyes boring into Finn’s, “Should’ve been locked up ages ago.” Finn laughed, his grin back full force.

“You got me there, Evans,” he jeered, the officer pulling his arms back roughly. He met Rae’s eyes as he was dragged away, losing his cocky grin and nodding slightly at her. She suppressed her tears the best she could, slowly backed up and walked away from the group towards her car.

***

Rae tapped her fingers on the counter impatiently, the man behind it meandering his way to her.

“Can I help you?”

“I’m here to see Finn Nelson.”

“Nelson’s not allowed visitors, ma’am.” Rae levelled a glare at him.

“I’m his lawyer, wanker,” she barked, the man raising his brows at her.

“Follow me.”

He led her to a small conference room down the hall, telling her to sit while he went for Finn. A few minutes later, she heard voices coming.

“Your lawyer’s here, Nelson.”

“I don’t have a goddamn lawyer--” Finn stopped short when he saw her and turned to the officer, “My dad must’ve called her. Cheers, mate.” He waved the officer off the best he could with his hands bound in front of him and he rolled his eyes, leaving them alone. Finn sat across from her and she took his hands, her fingers running over his knuckles.

“How’s it feel?” she asked, flattening her lips. Finn shrugged, his mouth twisting.

“I’ll live,” he replied, looking her face over, “You mad at me?” She shook her head, a tear dripping onto the table.

“Why’d you do it?” Finn looked away and Rae leaned forward, “Finn…”

“I was finishing up with Macca and getting a change of clothes from my bike when Simmy found me. He told me about a new job coming up and how I’d better step up since he’d warned you away,” he explained, slightly fuming, “We started arguing and he said he was gonna tell everyone anyways, make it sound worse than it was. He said it would teach you a lesson.” Finn shook his head, huffing a short laugh, “He provoked me...guess he thought I wouldn’t hit first.”

“You could’ve killed him,” she said quietly, Finn immediately shaking his head.

“I knew what I was doing,” he replied just as quietly. Rae rolled her eyes, releasing his hands.

“You damaged his vocal chords, Finn!”

“That was the fucking point, Rae,” he quipped, his eyes flashing, “He can’t say shit now.”

“And that just solves everything, right? No one will find out but a boy is severely injured and you’re in cuffs!” she answered hotly. Finn shook his head again.

“No, you’re safe to finish the semester and get your degree,” he said before holding his hands up, “I was destined for this from the start.”

“What makes you think I’d stay here without you?” she replied, her voice cracking. He smirked and half shrugged.

“School’s important,” he replied, biting back a grin when she rolled her eyes, “Besides...I think I’m gonna be here awhile.”

Rae looked down at the table, tears falling unabated. He took her hands, leaning closer.

“Rae, look at me,” he whispered, looking into her eyes intensely when she lifted her head, “Meeting you was one of the best things that could’ve happened to me in this town. You are world class, I mean that,” he insisted, his eyes glazing, “I would do it all again in a second.” Footsteps sounded outside the door and he looked up, frowning deeply.

“Think our time’s up, girl,” he said, trying to smile. She leaned forward and kissed him desperately, feeling a tear slide down his face as he squeezed her hands. She pulled back when the door opened, her lips brushing his.

“Goodbye, Finn,” she murmured, standing quickly and going to the door, wiping her eyes. She didn’t hear his voice until she stepped out.

“Laters, Rae.”

Epilogue

Rae rolled her eyes as she held the phone to her ear, looking down at the stack of ungraded papers in front of her.

“Mum, I dunno why you insist on calling me to gossip about Stamford, we haven’t been there in three bloody years.” Linda’s voice continued, carping at Rae and she cut her off, “Look, I’ve gotta go, I’m busy. Love you!”

Rae hung up the phone, pinching the bridge of her nose. Three years since she’d left Stamford.

She finished her degree in Bristol, subbing at a local middle school and had decided to stay when they offered a full-time spot. She tried not to think about what happened the first go around with subbing but it still came to mind here and again.

She had no idea where Finn ended up after she’d left. She knew not to keep ties--if she was to get over him, they needed the clean break. She’d cared about him so much but the timing was shit and hurt them both in the end. His being underage paled in comparison to how they felt but it was still wrong. She was glad to have ended it but god, if she didn’t miss him at first. Nowadays, he barely crossed her mind.

She shook her head to clear it, turning her attention back to the papers. She’d just gotten back to her place on the page when the doorbell rang. She jumped at the sound, holding her chest. She wasn’t expecting anyone but it could’ve been any one of her neighbors or some delivery she’d forgotten about. She stood and went for the front door, cursing when it rang again. She threw open the door, a glare in place.

“I heard ya, tosser, what is--” she froze when Finn raised a brow, a rollie hanging from his lips. He was an inch or two taller than when she’d saw him last, his jaw stronger and light stubble over his face. His fringe was gone, his hair considerably shorter. His leather jacket was tighter around his shoulders and arms and he adjusted his stance, converse scuffing on the pavement.  Her eyes widened and she stepped back a step, completely at a loss for words. He smirked and threw his cigarette, leaning on the doorframe.

“Hiya, Ms. Earl.”

And that’s all she wrote, folks! Might be a little break before I post something else--I’m worn tf out from this--but keep an eye out for a one-off or two! Thank you SO much for reading and giving it such an amazing response. I never thought this would be started or finished, let alone actually liked 😅😂 Catch ya at the next one!