#i can't even think about wilbur right now i think my brain will explode

[faebriel]

Ur rainduo hunger games au is just chef’s kiss. It’s so good!!!

Like niki and wilbur being friends and then wilbur disappears and she thinks he’s dead but he’s not?? And then she’s like I need to win I need to get him out of here. She’s like I am so angry but I can not show it. Like????? And her burning the forest down really suits her (I’m thinking of her burning down l’mantree) and then she hates fire but her branding is now fire +girlboss and she’s just like noooo no thank u. I’ve seen enough fire in my lifetime.

And wilbur is like a shaken up soda bottle. The lid is on tight but that does not mean that the liquid is calm. All u need is to take the lid off and it will explode everywhere. Yeah.

Anyways i love this au it is so cool!!!!

YEAH niki is such a straightforward character and she doesn't suffer the timewasting and arrogance of politics compared to so many other characters and so when her name gets pulled, she knows her odds of making it are just too low and she can't be bothered bullshitting that. she's not going to get up there and prance around for the cameras and pretend that everything is okay. it's not okay. she's not even a good liar in the first place. she has her parents presumably back home and a few friends in 12 so there's not much she can do, but there's a certain point where she just can't bring herself to participate. and then she finds wilbur, and the entire situation flips.

he is depending on her!! niki made peace with the idea of her own death as soon as her name was called at the reaping but this is an entire tidal wave of emotions that she already cannot compute. like the worst kind of grief and anger and survivors guilt. and if she loses, no one will rescue him. no one will even know he's there. and then that too, that's gonna be her fault. and even then, she gets these flashes of absolute rage...

she's so fucking lucky she has jack as a mentor to remind her of exactly the right way to smile so they can't see how tightly you clench your jaw. hbomb giving her these intricate hand braces so she can't visibly clench her fists when she talks so sweetly about winning the games and going home to her friends and making her district proud. and then she gets back to the tribute living spaces and tears her room apart in a whirlwind of burning anger, and then stays up late putting every stupid knick knack back together in case rumours spread because she needs to keep her reputation as the Sweet, Kind, Nicey Nice Girl from district 12 intact to win over sponsors.

and yea the forest fire is fucking traumatising. i can't remember if this is a canon hunger games thing or if my brain saw some fanon eight years ago and is running with it but i imagine once you win the games they slap all that megahealing shit into you so she wakes up in some private capitol hospital room and, beyond what she even thought was possible, the burns are gone. and she doesn't even know how that works but they must have done a pretty shit job because she can still fucking feel the fire beneath her skin.

you won and you got out! she gets wilbur out. maybe. but it's only really after the games that she realises she's never gonna be able to go home again. she should feel relieved to be alive at least, but all she feels is burning and a miserable, endless pit in her chest instead.

A SHAKEN UP SODA BOTTLE..... you're so fucking right KSHKDHDKD. wilbur is v interesting to me because like.... i think there's a bitter and hurting part of him that still blames himself above anyone else for getting caught. but he's been here for seven years. he has seen some horrible shit happen. wilbur has a tendency for self-hatred but he's not massively easily manipulated until someone is pushing him towards something he already wanted (thinking of how dream treated him in pogtopia.)

i think niki being reaped is a tipping point for him. like, he's not stupid. he's walked into the last seven years of reapings going not niki, and then not niki, not fundy, and then not niki not fundy please god not tommy and so on. and then the worst outcome happens, and niki barely manages to survive but only by swallowing her own voice and going through some terrible shit. wilbur saw that, he got to see it on live TV while pouring wine and retrieving stupidly rich food for stupidly rich people while he remembers arguing with tommy about whether they could eat a possum because at the time, that was their best option. it is one thing for him to be here. he has accepted that as his own fault (even if he probably shouldn't). but shoving niki through the meatgrinder? his kind, clever niki, who (in wilbur's eyes) has done nothing wrong in her entire fucking life? something needs to change, and he will bend steel with his bare fucking hands to make it happen.

now, to figure out how to do all that and actually stay alive.

the thing with wilbur that always stands out to me is that he's a character in motion. he doesn't stop. i think after being captured and having his tongue cut out and being tortured, he would obviously suffer greatly - but he wouldn't stop. his voice meant everything to him, and even though it's physically gone, part of him so venerates its absence that he cannot stop himself from trying to sustain it, to "bring it back", even if it sounds different now. even if it's all locked away in his mind. now, that is where he keeps everything he wants to say. he keeps his mind sharp over those years - reciting the names and birthdays of his friends in 12 so he doesn't forget them, tracing words across the wall when he's supposed to be sleeping so his handwriting stays neat enough to read. he's waiting, he just doesn't know for what.

and then niki is reaped. that's what.

[megablade]

in a server where everything from homes to entire nations regularly ends up being blown up with tnt, something about quackity destroying el rapids, a mostly forgotten faction that quackity used to lead with his closest friends, block by block by hand is so symbolic

[fandomcrazy6226]

Right well i took my psat today, my feet are cold and wet, LETS REACT TO THE NEW LOVEJOY EP!!!

Oh yeah, you gonna cry?: OK I already listened to this one in the car but second time around! Really different style this time, very much like it. WOW that is one Hell Of A Singing Voice!! Can understand about 2/3 of the words. Lotta drums, really good. Head-boppable. "I thought you knew her better than me" LIVING for the sass here! OK I'm understanding more words which is good.

Model busses: Oh boy that is an INTRO. Noticing the drums more in this one. Something about the structure of this one is just clicking my brain the right way. Oh boy and off go the stims! More sass? Love it. *long silence* "wait" and for some reason that made me tip over laughing. "you're just scared of the future" yeah SO AM I BUDDY.

Concrete: DRUMS. MUCH DRUMS. more stimming! count-in, classic move. Pubs empty? Sounding familiar methinks... good gods are all of these songs just showing off Wilbur's ability to sing sarcasm?? You know, these are gonna be real interesting songs to memorize. quite structure-different. ohhhh i just heard the "sleep on the concrete" bit. dunno how i missed that in the first chorus

Perfume (aka the Tommyinnit song): Let's see if I can rationalize this being Tommy's favorite! I mean I like it so far, although I'm probably biased. OH THIS ONE!!! "i dont like their haircut, they look like a prick" wow yup i was right these are all just wilbur being sassy. "why must you be so nice" and i now have leo-jason in TLH vibes. Yeah i can see why tommy likes this one. THAT was one heck of an interlude!

You'll understand when you're older: Long title! I can hear... i think that's trombone, which is interesting. only reason i can tell what it is is because my dad plays trombone. i like this starting guitar bit. oh well THAT line was quarantine vibes!!! and more sass! i think ive heard a bit of this on tiktok before. oh wait is that what this is about? oh boy... I can't tell who the "you" in this is meant to be... is it a love interest or a different guy or girl or what? WOW THAT WAS DRUMS

The fall: sad-ist vibes just from the title! might've been intentional. probably was. random fact: i've never broken a bone! This one's really guitar-y. oh THATS new. very accent. should i know who "the ramblers" are? Oh WOW thats guitar! oh this sounds really cool. and that kicked off my stims. this is just. hitting my brain correctly.

It's all futile! It's all pointless!: last one! oh man that first line is a hecking mood. was that a freaking sextant joke? of course it was. wow this whole thing is a mood. is that sad? no. STOP WITH THE SEXTANT. i like the words even though i cant hear some of them. marriage huh? wow i need to be in a relationship right now. oh THATS what those lyrics are... ENOUGH WITH THE SEXTANT MY GODS.

Conclusion: WOW i liked that!!! very excited to see the tiktok explode. probably already is. im gonna have to give these a few more listens before i start understanding some of the words, but honestly i'll take any excuse to listen to these songs on repeat. Should i memorize these now or should i work on my lines for the play i'm in? hm..... (i think you all know what im gonna do) this was actually pretty fun, and im not proofreading any of it!