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yutaslaugh · 8 months

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YUTASLAUGH'S 5K AND PARKGOWONIE'S 1K FOLLOWER CELEBRATION!

YAY i can't believe my main reached 5k+ followers and 1k on my sideblog (even though i've barely been active there). thank you everyone and bots <3 to celebrate, i'm taking gif requests for both my blogs ♡ my faves are nct 127, wayv, blackpink, red velvet, and the new loona groups/soloists but feel free to also request for other groups (e.g. svt, riize, sf9, twice) - i will try my best to do all requests!

requests can be made for:

single video (mv/stage/content video/etc.) of a member (include timestamp)

idol x hair colour/style

idol/era x fancam compilation

group x outfit compilatons

any other compilations/ideas

special shout out/thank you to some of my faves @stepmom @sunghanbin @awek-s @possession1981 @bethereforme @soonhoonsol @lloveorloved @leemarkies @hvangrenjvns @naptimed @jentlemahae @yunogf @renjunniez @jsuh @rainbowrenjun @jwooyoung (and many others but i can't remember what everyone changed their users to 😭)

#i really didnt think i would continue content creating (or even posting lol) for a while last year so ahhhh #i cant believe im actually still here #thank you everyone again <333 #pls send through requests hehe they will keep me occupied and hopefully make me more motivated to continue giffing #LOVE YOU ALL #n e ways nobody is online at this hour but im gonna post and go to bed 😁😁

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flufflecat · 7 days

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this is STILL not my beautiful wife

#gravity falls #bill cipher #stanford pines #animation #im just posting all my wips here over and over. enjoy.#i procrastinated so hard on drawing his tie or trench coat #that i instead animated the entire second ford for the background. and then put a tie and trench coat on that one.#turns out fabric animation isnt quite as scary as i imagined so im a lot more confident about animating it for bord prime #then its just a matter of tweening the background ford #tweaking the timing #doing the actual cleanup and linework #and coloring #and im done!#animation is so time consuming. i cant believe no one has ever realized this before #im getting quicker though!#the fact that im rotoscoping this both helps and hinders my speed #im also still drawing all of this on my touchscreen laptop with my fingertip bc i have yet to plug my tablet in #my wrist brace is getting more use this week than it has in years #fluffle art

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theposhperyton · 5 months

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All evidence suggests yes

#starting a new power scaling system for the warlords of the sea but im rating them based on whether i think theyre an ally or homophobic #kuma is an ally because photos dont lie and hes clearly wearing an ally pin #also you cant spend that much time around somebody with the title “Queen of the Queers” and somehow be homophobic afterwards #unless youre sanji but hes still on his internalized homophobia growth arc. i believe in you buddy you can beat this #crocodile is trans and baroque works is the alphabet mafia in a literal form #with that said. he has the energy of “im not homophobic yall are just annoying”#doffy has the energy of a homophobic homosexual #like hed kiss a guy and then call him a f*g and throw him out a nearby window #jimbei joins the strawhats so ofc HES an ally #blackbeard sucks but i dont think hes homophobic #hes one of those people you meet and theyre just the worst all around and youre like “man this guy has gotta be homophobic”#somebody mentions their partner and you go “oh boy here it is” but he just has no reaction whatsoever #hes such a problem but at least hes not homophobic on top of everything else #Gecko Moria is such a virgin that i dont think he knows being gay exists any more than he knows being straight does #Typa MFer who thinks “sex” is just a synonym for gender #also hed see your top scars and get excited because he thinks youre a zombie #gecko moria probably thinks LGBT is an acronym for some branch of the navy that he doesnt know (or care) about #Because Boa lives on Sapphic island i would jump the gun and immediately say she's an ally but i feel that its more complicated than that #not unlike moria. she also doesnt actually have a real strong grasp on being straight vs being queer #but thats just because shes used to everybody being whipped for her equally #somebody tries to explain it to her and shes just like “??? but theyre all obsessed with me?”#if she ever encounters a gay man it will be a reality shifting event for her #id say itd be the same if she met a sex/romance indifferent aroace but like #monkey d luffy #its already happened #mihawk is probably both an ally and queer himself but he just minds his own business so much that we may never know #one piece #seven warlords #warlords of the sea #bartholomew kuma

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carcarrot · 10 months

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'Spark-ling Russ Writes To You': A collection of writings from Russell Mael's weekly column in Mirabelle magazine, 1974, pt. 1 (pt. 2)

#thanks to the person in the sparks fb group who posted these from her scrapbook #i thought to collect them all in a little post. much to discuss #also the first pic is killing me he looks so silly #the second to last one another russell recipe!!!!!! his burgers actually seem ok. unlike that weird tomato dish <3 #was he really for real writing these. a fascinating glimpse into his mind if true #i love the one (i think its the 5th one here) where hes talking abt vibrating w excitement before a show like we know. we get it.#im studying him. im literally taking notes and observing #this was a wild era in the sparks career that i still cant believe happened #spars #russ #russell mael #sparks #sparks band

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sukugo · 3 months

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i started watching jjk without knowing anything other than what i knew from your blog, and i never realized sukuna and gojo was a RAREPARE OF THE HIGHEST KIND. wym these dudes have only interacted like four time???

in conclusion: you conditioned me into shipping a rarepare i didn't know was rare.

GSJDGSJSGDJDHSJDHDJHD WE GOT ANOTHER ONE BOYS

and it's not even 4, they interact 1.5 times in literally the SECOND episode and then NEVER again. like literally never ever ever again GDJDHDKDHD im not even kidding

well. ok later they do have their promised Fight, but that's only happened in the manga, and for the anime.... it's a WHILE until we get there

(but also the fight and everything related to it was so fucking gay i don't even know what to tell u. just that it makes it all worth it)

but also, no worries my beloved claudia, u've come at a good time fandom wise hahah. u don't have to go through the drought i went through. sukugo has risen from the rarepair trenches and are doing pretty okay i feel (downside being obv with greater popularity comes more Shit) (and well, hella spoilers if u're watching the anime the fight is pretty much the only proper interaction they have fgsjdhfkf)

BUTTT GGSHRGRHE HELL YEAH LET'S GO SUKUGOOOOOOOOO THEY MAY NEVER INTERACT BUT THEY ARE VERY SEXY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

in conclusion: teehee :3 im sorry but also am i really? (no)

#shhhhhh no conditioning here. u shipping sukugo just means u have Taste ok. dont let anyone tell u otherwise.#they are so sexy. like so sexy #but yeah with the anime it's crazy crazy fr.#sukuna mentioned gojo's name once to another character and i was screaming crying it made my entire day GDJSHFHDH (crumbs are still food!)#but ANYWAYS FORGET ALL THAT how have u been liking jjk!!!!!!!!! who's ur fave!!!!!! i need to know everything!!!!!!!!!#AAAAAA cant believe u actually ended up watching it 🥺🥺💖💖💖💖💖#where have u reached!!!#jjk #sukugo #f.ask #actually now that u say it. it IS exactly 4 interactions they have in the entirety of the story.#2 in the anime. and then in the manga their meetup before the fight (3). and finally their Fight (4).#like ok we kinda starving comoared to others.... but we also eating good. somehow. it's crazy (not gonna get too spoilery. tho i feel u mus #have seen Enough anyways)#sgfjdhkshfkfjf im also so curious to know what has been ur expectation vs reality LMAOOO #my blog must have given u very very skewed idea of what jjk actually is like..................#well i mean. other than the skg being nonexistent in canon GDJDHAKDH #(sowwy.......... but also not)

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storywestistrash · 7 days

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i am actually so tired of the way westerners treat eastern europeans

#fair warning for. a very very long ramble and rant in the tags. apologies #westerner or russian. no other option #westerner because the only thought they ever have is 'but they had universal housing so if you oppose ussr you oppose that'#(which is stupid becuse you can believe in that WITHOUT WANTING LIKE 6 COUNTRIES TO BE FORCED TO BE RULED OVER BY RUSSIA)#(SORRY FOR WANTING TO LIVE IN MY COUNTRY WITH MY HISTORY AND MY CULTURE AND NOT RUSSIA!!) (poland was a sattelite state but GOD)#or russian because they have a victim complex and are convinced that they deserve to rule over the entire damn world #'well you had universal housing so you had it easy' right yeah. okay. forget about like. everything else that happened #to eastern europeans during that time #forget about the things that are STILL issues all these years later not only in poland but like the more eastern countries too #its not about. the fact that the houses 'didnt have 3 bedrooms and a jacuzzi' in them. you DUMB SACK OF SHIT #god sorry. sorry. i also know so very little but like god damn i fucking live here. i didnt sit thru all that modern history #for some dumbfuck to say that 'ohhh only rich and american middle class people are happy the ussr was dissolved'#'oooh the dissolving of the ussr was illegal and the countries within it actually liked being there'#im just so fucking tired man i need to. i need to start killing people #and this is all not to mention that theyll say this stupid shit and then deny eastern europeans the things they actually did that were good #FUCK french people for trying to claim maria skłodowska. fuck americans for trying to claim the witcher as their own fantasy world #fuck the way the west is allowed to claim and destroy eastern european culture without any consequence because we dont matter enough #vaguely related but ill throw this in here since anyone finding it is unlikely and im scared of having this opinion #i think one underappreciated aspect of DE (which might be underappreciated because its not actually there and im stupid)#is that its pro-communist while still also giving some criticism to how it was handled and acknowledging that its still not perfect #which makes the writers much better communists than any self-proclaimed one ive ever met in my life who just worships the idea #perhaps its because the writers of the game were not white upper middle-class americans living in the suburbs. among other things #idk de is a game for people far smarter than me and i only played it once and im sure anyone who played it well can clock me as a bad perso #horrible horrible person even which is why im scared of mentioning it. but its an interesting thing. to me #the main thing is that im just not. im not far left enough i suppose. i agree communism in theory is a great idea. as far as i know it #(which isnt very far)#but chances of implementing it correctly in a way that doesnt take away from peoples happiness in other areas is. low. very low #i wrote a short essay about how utopias are inherently contradictory ideas once it wasnt very deep or good but like #you cant have universal happiness without restricting certain freedoms. and when those freedoms are resticted not everyone #will be happy. and then theyre unhappy they will have to be somehow removed or ignored

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chrisbangs · 4 months

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i finished thesis, won an award, and have graduated.. hello 👋🥸

#i'm not coming back but :') hello #i forgot i even had tumblr still on my phone djdkdkdkdk #i just opened it for the first time in ??? 5 months or smth i think idk for sure #life is weird :')#remember when i said i wanna drop out every day of my life :') bc i suck at design #welp i won an award for my design thesis :')#jsjdjdkdkdkdj #turns out having friends kinda changes your life 🫂#having friends at school has actually :') made me a happier more normal person lol #i haven't been miserable?? i haven't wanted to kms ... i have been so happy and yes school was shitty but i wanted to go and try hard bc #my friends motivated me to stay and try and that's crazy :') idk #felt really loved and like i belonged somewhere for the first time in my life 🫨 like woah ppl like me and wanna be my friend? me??#:') i'm really happy... isn't that weird #i used to want to kms every other day hsjdndkdkdks lol 😭#now i'm like 😭 every day i look forward to waking up bc i'm happy and i have ppl who love me and i wanna see them again and i wanna spend #time with them again and play games with them again :')#literally stayed up till ??? 4 am yesterday talking to one of them like #😭#god jm djjdkdkdkd idk :')#my life is good...#???? IM NOT MISERABLE IDK GUYS #wild af #even winning the award was such a shock like 🥲 damn . who ? me?#ppl from like :') this big design thing in toronto we're praising it too like djdjdodjdkdj #:') it's kinda crazy.. i was super !#man.. i cant believe how 5 months ago i was gonna kms 🥸👆 and now i'm like erm actually maybe we do need to live #:') anyway #i hope ppl on here are doing good 🫨🔨#it is sad to not be here as much but also 👋😌 i'm happy to be free at the same time so ✨

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ranatic · 15 days

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soooo it has certainly been a while since I’ve last posted here…but ive recently got back to reading this insanely good webcomic based on the jekyll and hyde story, and wanted to make fanart of it cause i love these characters so much 😭👏👏

And i highly recommend it if you’re into gothic psychological horror/mystery! It’s called the search for henry jekyll !

#the search for henry jekyll #tsfhj #fan art #i still cant believe its actually ending ahhhh im so glad i read it again after all these years #god bless you midori this was such a good read 😭🙏#myart #traditional art #just realized this is my first tradional art post here lol

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deus-ex-mona · 2 months

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*pays for mona merch with the one and only chozetsu kawaii credit card*

#o n the other hand though it’d be a great way to control your spending #pov: you have to pay for your family’s fancy steak dinner with your mona credit card #i fear that i’ll lose face forever if it ever came to that lol (<-the type who hates sharing interests with family members)#but. man. wasn’t the last hw credit card released forever ago around the time of one of the gen 1 anime/movies?#cant rem if it was the nacchan movie or the harucouple anime though…#anyways!!!!! mona album soon™️ can’t wait~~~~~~~~#speaking of the mona album though. uh. does anyone here actually believe that you need the card from the first album to get the photobook?#bc as far as i can tell the photobook comes with every single limited edition album b u t i keep seeing people say that you need the card…#and. like. y’know. logically speaking who even has the time to selectively package photobooks only with the albums of those with the cards?#but the more people i see circulating this belief the more i begin to doubt if im even reading the album announcement correctly and. lol #ig we’ll have to wait for the crossfade to find out…#from past trends i think the crossfade will come out on august 14? since crossfades usually drop 2 weeks before the official release #11 more days till we get a c-kun hint ig lmaooooooooo #i wonder who’ll be the illustrator for zakenna’s mv though… maybe it’ll be another 1-3 image mv?#still manifesting mona’s outfit from the cover of idol sengen vol 5 to be her zakenna mv outfit (delusional)#bc i think it’s kind of a waste to have such a pretty outfit be used only once without even appearing in an mv…#though. well. it doesn’t hurt to be a little delusional about it… right…?#it’s almost as delusional as hoping that sora.maru of niconii fame gets to voice asuna frusu. but. like. a cretin can ✨dream✨#ok that’s enough delusions for one afternoon now back to the pkm bw grind

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grahamkennedy · 2 months

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All of my Twitter rn is about Tenacious D breaking up, and yet here it is hilariously silent. Like it seems like the sort of god awful mess that people on here would be invested in, and yet.

#flood warning #essentially kyle gass made a trump assassination joke during one of his gigs #a right wing australian senator who no one here actually takes seriously made a press statement saying they should be deported #and jack black took this extremely seriously and cancelled the tour and broke up the band #and was like 'wow kyle i cant believe you'd say something like that on stage :/'#and uh. yeah broke up the band after 30 years #and then kyle gass was like 'im sowwy trump im sowwy australian government' and walked back the joke as well #but the band is still broken up and i have a feeling its going to get messier

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monachopism · 5 months

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being jewish with zero affiliation to israel and rather a generational line of activists for palestine is a hard line to walk and sometimes i wish i could just fall off

#i hate zionist jews i hate i stand with israel signs in my neighborhood i hate leftists who write and speak and act like theyve never met an #actual jewish person in their life and believe that were all genocidal monsters (in spite of our own genocide which i assume will eventuall #flip around to leftist holocaust denial) i hate that people are blaming israeli civilians for the faults of their deeply corrupt government #i hate that i cant say zionism is inherently antsemitic without getting fucking maimed i fucking hate it here the world is on fire just #fucking let me burn #anyways #sorry #free palestine #any other #jumblr #girlies (gn) relating to my vent #bc im started to feel ashamed of myself my culture and my people #and its such a fucking shitty feeling #like i can barely look in palestine / gaza / etc. tag without seeing blindingly blatant antisemitism coming from left right and center #like just say you hate jews and fuck off #i cant look at this shit anymore fuck #idk why im so worked up about this rn i just. btwn weeding out all the zionist blogs i didnt know i followed and just being so fucking-#and weeding out all the antisemitic leftist blogs i didnt know i was supporting its all just crashing down #im so fucking tired #and im so fucking tired of having to defend myself any time i talk about the jewish experience in any of this #and im so fucking tired of people equating judaism with religion only #and im so fucking tired of the double standard of also equating with only one race #like there arent jews of every race #the reason you cant see any of this shit is because nearly a century later were still dealing with the aftermath of the 6mil person murder #were always at the cross roads of some ridiculous double standard or the scapegoat for when things are going badly #like fuck i just #dont want to have this fucking identity anymore it makes me a walking talking breathing living fucking target #idk what to do I'm just #desolate

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sengenism · 5 months

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just realised how i usually dislike or feel indifferent about shounen mcs but senku and gon hxh are the only ones who actually manage to enter my top fave characters of their respective fandoms... they're so well written

#like i dont consider every other character in dcst well written tbh theyre quite one dimensional #but it doesnt affect their likeability to me i still enjoy their characters v much #me being a danganronpa fan might play a part actually dcst characters r all talent based like them #but senkus the only dcst character who has rly good writing imo and im so glad for that #hes so hopeful but not in a way that i find annoying idk #he has such a deep trust in humanity despite his character being all like ughhh affection ugghh i only care abt science #but he loves humanity so much and i just RAHHGHHH cant relate but it makes me want to believe in it too #i wanna reread dr stone but i dont rly have time but i wanna re-experience that hope #senku's relationship with his dad.... the way his dad struggled for the future bc he believed in his son #and as for gon i could never be a gon haterrrrr #like ppl hate him for his selfish tendancies but that just makes him more unique to me #he is like. 10 and now 12. dudes a child he does things based on his emotions yeah #the way he lacks the gift of discernment bc of his childlike manner and all #just makes him better #rant post ig bc i rmbr i have this acc and now instead of annoying my irls w my talks and i can speak to the void here #what prompted this was seeing one of those x > y twt post involving senku #LIKE DO NOT SPEAK ON HIMMMM

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apathyfairy · 20 days

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me at 13: by the time im 30 i will probably be married and maybe have a kid but for sure i will be living in my dream city and have my dream job. and also a lot of money

me at almost 30: i think i will treat myself to a corn dog this weekend

#i want a corn dog so bad rn #ngl u guys im actually really struggling with turning 30 at the end of the year lmao #not lmao bc it really is bothering me which is so stupid i know I Know #but. and i know we're All struggling with this. but it's like god i have done nothing with my life #like fr. everyone says that but i literally have done nothing. ive never had a real 9-5 ive been freelancing since college #and tbh i guess that's not a bad thing? but self worth wise i feel like a complete loser.#but ive just made one mistake after another and i know that's what your 20s are for and u know what this is my tags and im not going #to keep contradicting myself i feel like shit bc i feel like shit and ive wasted my whole life thats that #i just feel like such a sham like i cant believe this is what 30 is like i on god feel like im still a teenager #not in a carefree kind of way OBVIOUSLY. which i never was anyway. but i just ?? feel like that #scary fucking episode of rugrats where tommy and chuckie become their dads and they go to work and theyre so fucked up bc #well theyre babies and they dont know anything. and even the fact that i just referenced rugrats to explain how i feel lmaooooo #relationship wise well u guys know how that is. and i truly couldnt care less about what people think about me not being in a relationship #ever and tbqh i dont give a fuck anymore either like. and here i go bringing this up again. but after my ex im like ok life truly is so #short fr i dont even care like anyway. anyway. the point is there is just no reality whatsoever where i pictured my life where i am now #once again living with the abusive relative i moved across the ocean to get away from.#no love life to speak of. fr dont care but god wouldnt it be nice to be loved fr.....#no career. living in a state i hate with all my heart. barely surviving money wise. which is everyone rn but #if i had known 10 years ago this would be my life i would have honestly killed myself.#like if i knew it would all turn out like this i wouldnt have moved i wouldve just fr killed myself and i wish i did lol #to be fair. i didnt see myself living past 18 but like. i just thought something would have saved me by now

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piplupod · 29 days

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screaming. me getting something akin to triggered by a line in the chorus of a song and then thinking abt how its the same shit my mother has been telling me to some degree my entire life and. i just immediately am like "well that shit is stupid lol like its just. really stupid. why am i getting Scared over this when its so wrong and silly" and then. i remember. ah right. the abuse. that's why this rly stupid sentiment makes me genuinely Frightened BROOOO GET ME OUTTA HEREEEE

#im going to strangle either myself or someone else DBFHDML im so irritated that this goofy shit makes me Scared wtf 😭#if anyone else heard someone say it they'd be like. either mildly irritated by it or laugh at it bc its so fucking dumb #but im over here like. feeling pain in my chest and adrenaline starting to make me shake fhfkdl getting so so so scared #STUPID !!! THIS IS RIDICULOUS !!! ARGH !!!#i just. forget sometimes. that this is abuse dbfjsl #its only been three years of actually recognizing it fully so i guess it makes sense that i still struggle w it #but goddamn i cant believe thats smth my brain is able to just. forcibly and sneakily forget. tuck away out of sight from me.#this isnt making sense anymore im losing track of my thoughts but. gestures vaguely in annoyance. argh!#pippen needs 2nd breakfast #abuse cw

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stuck-in-the-ghost-zone · 1 year

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its so painfully obvious that a lot of these people have genuinely never experienced a better piece of media. it makes me sad fr. like. guy who has only ever seen the dream smp "getting a lot of dream smp vibes from this" im begging you to please go watch a horror movie from the 80s. go read a goosebumps book or a creepypasta for gods sake .

#the joke here is like. everything ive mentioned is cheesy and bad . but its still way fucking better than genloss.#im sorry yall were lied to for two years and are such blind ranboo stans that you cant process anything else but like. its not good #im soooo fucking tired #if anyone ever uses the excuse of 'its intentionally bad!!11!1' again im gonna have a fucking aneurysm #if you have to justify your bad thing as being intentionally bad well. its just not very good then is it.#im genuinely sorry u guys have only ever experienced media put together by 19yr old millionaires #who have no prior experience at writing a plot #and believe me!!! i liked the dsmp!!! i was way into jse for a long time before that!!! ive been there!!!!#but sometimes youbhave to take a step back #and go read an actual book or watch an actual tv show or movie made by people who know what theyre doing.#seeing bastardized horror tropes that are strung together with zero consistency being toted as the greatest #horror series on the internet today is making me irrationally upset.#stop putting down other actually competent horror creators for your dsmp nepo baby . theyre not worth it .#i could fr make a list of every fucking trope ranboo tried and failed to copy in genloss #and give you multiple examples of things that did those tropes better #genloss neg #genloss crit

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toastsnaffler · 2 months

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was gonna say smth else but this turned into a vent sorry everyone just ignore. typical weekend post on this blog u know how it is here we go👍

#wild ik so many ppl getting married meanwhile im over here struggling to convince myself my friends even care abt me or want me around #pathetic to admit but i cant even fantasise abt someone loving me bc im too insecure n emotionally unstable #my mind just shoots the idea down like whoa. unrealistic. ur incapable of expressing or receiving affection in any way that matters #no matter how badly u want to... and even if someone did well u wouldnt believe them most of the time #gotta get out of the fucking labyrinth first i couldnt inflict this shit on anyone i cared abt #but it makes me so desperately sad sometimes i dont know how im ever going to get out of this ive been trying for years and years #and im a little better at it snd i dont feel like this all of the time i know it just comes around and itll pass again #but im tired of being in so much emotional pain so frequently. and shouldering it so alone. theres such a disconnect between myself and #others and i dont know how to bridge that i don't know how to stop feeling so isolated and unwanted !!!!!! im trying so hard #it doesnt even bother me w relative strangers in my life like i dont get insecure at all around them i like meeting new ppl #bc theres like. no expectations i guess. like ik they dont care abt me personally and idk them well enough to do that either #and its fun but it doesnt satisfy needs that i have like i need to feel close + connected to ppl i need to care abt them + feel cared for #but as soon as i do start to care abt ppl it gets all tangled and i end up getting rly badly hurt over and over. thru no fault but my own #bc im constantly alienating myself and bc i struggle so much w shit like physical affection which is frustratingly rly critical for me!!!!#it wouldnt fucking matter if i didnt like or want affection ik some ppl are fine without i wish it worked like that for me #but nope instead i have to be constantly messed up over my complete fucking inability to express myself in any form #and ik it makes everyone around me so uncomfortable so it just becomes self reinforcing and eventually they drift and leave me behind #and i just do that over and over and over and every time ill tell myself ill do better ill try harder and itll get easier and someone will #and it happens again and right now im at the stage where the abandonment fear is starting to kick in which is awful n paralysing #and usually a precursor to actually being abandoned ehich is always my own fault bc i start behaving so erratically out of fear or defense #its self fulfilling and im trying. im trying so hard not to let it overwhelm me again and not to start acting out and freaking ppl out #and im coping with it okay i think but just hurts me a lot its all internal my rejection sensitivity is gradually ticking up and up #and argh!!!!!!!!! and some days im okay and some days its like this and i dont know what todo when its like this im so tired and in pain #its not even that bad today tbf. once im done typing this to get it out ill be able to do smth else and distract mysrlf for a bit #and then calling friends later too so exposure therapy innit. but itll be fun and i love them but i will probably also feel very bad after #or even possibly during but thats okay ill still manage fine im not going to let it interfere i dont want it controlling my fucking life #i am going to have a nice time and be okay despite it all. even if i do have to fucking battle this every day forever #and even if it stops me living my life to the extent i want and feeling as ok as i want i just have to come to terms with and be ok w it #and im not going to be!!! a fucking asshole abt it!!! i dont want to hurt anyone else thats the most important thing no matter how i feel #thr rest is all secondary and ik i cant help a few little bumps here and there but trying hardest to keep it separate its not negotiable

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