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[paper-mario-wiki]

Hey I know your clown days are behind you and everything, but I'm still curious if you've got any opinions on The Amazing Digital Circus?

same thing everyone else does i suppose, that its fun and well made.

to be additive to the discussion instead of just saying positive stuff you've already heard, i'll levy a little critique against it, bearing in mind that i do so with positive, constructive intent.

i feel as though in recent times we've been oversaturated with stories and media with too grand a focus on the characters instead of interesting concepts. i think that the character design in the amazing digital circus is colorful and neat, but in the past 3 years how many "it's cutesy looking, but it's actually about existential terror and the cute characters go through trauma, oh no!" gimmicks have you seen in stories? personally ive seen quite a few.

i feel as though creatives are pushed too much to make a marketable face first and foremost, because lingering eyes are in high demand for artwork online these days. if someone is going to move on quick, which is going to be the case with the majority of people, it's much more likely that someone will find it easier to remember a cool design for a character instead of an entire unique sequence of events. that means story-driven things are either made to be more shallow to give more space for character moments, or have a much smaller chance for having their work succeed.

i do not think this is indicative of some mass decline in creative originality, or even the fault of the creatives who make the work. like i said, i thought it was a lot of fun and gave it a small positive review on twitter a few days ago. Gooseworx, as well as the rest of the team who made it, clearly cared for this project. what im talking about is a symptom of the larger issue that is the black-box algorithms that have desolated social networks, and create bad media consumption habits in people. though i wont lie to you and say i havent grown to resent the symptom too.

so to answer your question more succinctly, i dont really think of it that much at all. ive seen this one already.

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Okay, this is me trying not to care too much about Brighter by Wingit on Ao3 or @wing--it on tumblr (and failing miserably)

DISCLAIMER: Everything is my opinion and is in no way attempting to bash other fic writers because writing is hard and everyone that put their personal time into doing this and sharing fics with people over the internet deserves praise and to feel proud of what they’ve written. For this reason I won’t be naming any other fics aside from Brighter because that’s the focus and #Boost Ur Fandom Writers ya feel

DISCLAIMER 2.0: I realized I told @wing--it  that i’d have a meta done for their fic except I realized I’m not entirely sure what Meta is so I’m probably not good at it wow this is long im sorry okay let’s do this thing

Actually as I’m writing this, I realize it’s just going to turn into a giant ass review for Brighter and I don’t know how I feel about that but @wing--it hi, i love your fic, we’ve been over this right? Under the cut this goes. (contains mild spoilers for Brighter but I’m trying not to say everything outright)

Brighter is a Victuri fanfic that is by far one of the best I’ve read in terms of storyline, characterization, conflict, and angst revolving around that conflict.

Starting with storyline, Brighter is a godsend fic that gives that good ass almost immediately after the GPF life for Victuri. So the two of them figuring out their relationship and working out how to live together in a more intimate sense (that being on their own and not constantly surrounded by Yuuri’s family and the patrons of Yu-Topia). Now, there are some other good ass fics that also have the lives in St. Petersburg and that do this shit well (actually, I appreciate every fic out there, shout out to all fic writers yall are doing gods work) BUT something different that stands out about Brighter is how the storyline isn't just focused on Yuuri Katsuki.

Honestly, at the most current point (10 chapters in, updated last on the 8th of June) the two main characters are NOT Victor and Yuuri, but Yuuri and Yuri which is??? Possibly one of the few fics I’ve seen where these two are the main focus while still having the fic be Victuri centered. Like without getting too much into Yuri’s storyline for the sake of spoilers (though it’s kind of revealed in chapter 3 or 4 i think, pretty early on) This fic, by far, has some of the best characterization of Yuri P that I’ve ever seen.

Which is saying a lot because I will often stop reading a fic because of how they characterize Yura (especially if he’s a major recurring character in the fic). Yura does play a huge part in this fic in terms of his own character development and conflict (godddd I just really fucking love his story line) and Tash!!!!!! Gives a solid reason why Yura would be “”angsty”” 24/7 and h*ck!!! It’s just ugh!!! Everyone knows, if you’ve gone through your angry teenager phase, it’s so incredibly difficult to stay mad 24/7 unless something’s happened or something’s happening (mental illness notwithstanding) and like just godddd. Okay??? Okay. So Anyways, Yura opens up to Yuuri (eventually) and friendship happens and honestly out of this entire fic Yuuri and Yuri’s friendship is my favorite. Like yes, this includes Victor and Yuuri’s relationship or Victor and anyone else or any of the characters combines. I just think Tash did such an amazing job working with Yuri in the fic and I’m already emotional this is a mess I’m sorry.

Okay, So that’s Yuri’s character. On to Victor’s. I think Tash does a beautiful job having Victor adjust to life loving someone. Like here, we have a guy who’s spent his entire life trying to please and surprise so many people, like aside from splurge stuff, what has Victor done for himself? When going off that logic (and like the 50 in depth tumblr posts about this) Brighter is so beautiful in his characterization. Because it starts with Victor and Yuuri being soooo in love and everything’s perfect!!! For exactly .2 seconds

Because everyone knows that’s not how relationship work and people have to work together and have conflicts and allow room for being human together. (And dont get me wrong, I am just as likely to read a 50k coffee shop au with 0 conflict because I enjoy not hurting). Anyways, Victor’s characterization is essentially him trying to figure out how to be genuine (and failing on multiple occasions) and just him trying to teach himself that he doesn’t have to do what he thinks Yuuri would like to get him to stay because Yuuri loves him and they’re in this for the long run but still Victor  IS STRUGGLING to figure this out.  Tash just. God. Tash just does this so well.

And Victor. He’s also subject to his own anxieties but in a different way from Yuuri and??? Like the fact that he’s throwing himself back into his career after a year break and to go back to his way of surprising people and then coaching Yuuri and choreographing short programs for him, yuuri, and yuri too (i think he was doing 3 short programs anyways). The ice skating portion of this fic is so fucking important, which of course it is, in an anime about ice skating of course it’s fucking important but what I mostly mean is that it doesn’t necessarily take second to the romance in the fic with is easy to do. The Ice skating and the romance are like on par with each other with the only vaguely second plot line being Yuri’s story line which is :,,,) still

Anyways  I just fucking love this okay I’m so sorry this got off track I’m not even done yet but please, read Brighter.

Last on characterization is of course, the main character, Yuuri Katsuki. Alright, I just h*cking love Yuuri in this fic. Like?? He’s so understanding and doesn’t deserve half the shit he’s gone through because if!!! SOME PEOPLE just TALKED IT OUT1!!!!!! Maybe. But no. Tash’s way of writing Yuuri is one of the ones that I appreciate the most. His way of dealing with things (which is to overthink then not solve anything) or his way of sherlocking through other people’s problems (see: Yuri P see: Victor N) His insecurities are all #relatable and just, Idk how to talk about this because i really can only say how perf i think tash did with him and that’s nonsensical imo anyways yuuri in brighter is like best yuuri hi i would die for him to be happy

For Brighter, the conflict and the angst go hand in hand (though tash has been hinting at things getting more painful in the next update and i’m not ready but :,,,) ya kno) and so without spoiling anything I just want to say that the conflict/angst is different in a way that it’s something that doesn’t seem improbable and is just 100% believable like past the characterization in the fic, I could almost 100% see this happening in canon which is a weird feeling and idk if the movie turns out to have any of these problems I’m gonna pay Tash like $20 or something (so open ur paypal now cause I have a feeling). Specifically here I’m talking about the conflict between Victor and Yuuri (not necessarily Yura’s because that’s something I definitely don’t want to happen but god it makes for some really good ass story telling and background on a character).

For Victor and Yuuri, it’s a matter of being honest about one’s feelings and just you know, um, telling the truth and not saying what you think someone else wants to hear. Which doesn’t really sound hard or difficult at all but here we have Victor who’s done everything for other people up to recently in his career and has probably never been so deeply in love as he is with Yuuri right now so he’s confused and I’ll give him that. HOWEVER, sometimes, Victor just needs to have a little more faith in Yuuri’s feelings for him.

The same goes for Yuuri though, the conflict isn’t 100% Victor’s fault. Some of the blame is deff Yuuri’s and Yuuri’s anxiety (which is essentially a whole nother Yuuri except darker with idk maybe a goatee and constant bad ideas). But also you can’t blame a character for being anxious and stuff and really I’m not ragging on Victor for this but I also don’t think Yuuri’s entirely to blame here? Like I’m so bad at meta okay I’m sorry buT I think to a degree they both have insecurities and doubts that are straining the relationship. They really do try to work through things but on Yuuri’s side, he almost always links the problems back to himself and in term him not being able to satisfy Victor like sexually and emotionally I THINK. Like…….. Okay I can’t go into it because I’m not sure how to put what I’m thinking into words

Another point I cannot stress enough and can’t actually find a good place to put in even tho this was number 1 on the list of things I wanted to talk about in here is This conflict is seriously all good conflict. Brighter has character’s growing and developing and just. Nothing seems forced or out of place?? Like it wasn’t just put there in order for there to be something wrong. Actually I think i did mention this but I cannot stress enough how much the conflict in brighter just fucking makes sense!!!!! I’m actually repeating myself I know but seriously my favorite part…. Second favorite part after Yuri’s characterization is how good the conflict and problems Yuuri and Victor have are. Like they’re honest to god relationship things and fuck!!!!!!!!! It’s so good!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

But essentially, Yuuri and Victor need to have a good oldfashioned talk but that’s not going to happen because Tash is about to rip out our hearts and I’m ready for once.

Alright, that’s been my not meta. I’m sorry @wing--it if you’re on mobile and cant read under the cut, it exists and also I’m sorry that this got so long……. But you know i told you!!!! It was gonna be long I just really fucking love brighter and i cannot express that enough. I tried to be coherent here in talking about all the things I enjoyed and I definitely missed something like the JJ conflict but this is almost 2k in length and I’m really embarrassed bcos of how passionate I am about this.

tl;dr: just read Brighter for fucks sakes, that’s all I want. More people to read brighter and scream about the character(ization)s and just heck!!!!!

[ange1kth]

1-5, 7-19, 21, 23, 26, 28-32, 34-43, 45, 48-53, 56, 60(u better nOT YOUNG LADY), 63, 71, 75-77, 87-95

lol sorry this took so long to answer alpha bean

(1) Do You Sleep With Your Closet Doors Open Or Closed?closet doors closed cuz i have a small room

(2) Do You Have Freckles?yus but only rlly smol ones on my nose

(3) Can You Whistle?lol no probs never will

(4) Last Song You Listened To.listenin to on melancholy hill by gorillaz rn

(5) What Is Your Favourite Colour?rlly rlly light pastel pink

(7) What Is The Temperature Right Now?77 degrees (fahrenheit)

(8) Did You Wake Up Cranky?nooo, i woke up sad

(9) How Many Followers?36 (thx all u peoples who followed me even tho I’m not popular)!!

(10) Zodiac Sign.gemini!! im a ram if ur talking chinese zodiac!!

(11) What Is Your Eye Colour?hazel unlike anybody in ma family

(12) Take A Vitamin Daily? noooo lol what’s health??

(13) Do You Sing In The Shower? ya when im listening to some good bops

(14) What Books Are You Reading?i just finished the color purple and something bout suffragettes, now im on a percy jackson one

(15) Grab The Book Nearest To You, Turn To Page 64, Give Me Line 14.specific, here it is!! “‘But you did doooo it,’ the spirit growled.” - The Trials of Apollo

(16) Favourite Anime?yuri on ice im ur classic gay, hxh tho too i cant decide

(17) Last Person You Cried In Front Of? mmmmm, probs my older sister (last time i cried tho was this morning lmao)

(18) Do You Collect Anything?nah, i have a few old timey cameras but that’s about it

(19) What Did You Have For Lunch?a sandwich lol, just with some lettuce and tomato on it

(21) Favourite Animal?pupper cuz im basic as heck

(23) What Time Do You Usually Go To Bed?like 11 now my schedule’s messed up

(26) Favourite Tumblr Blog?probs my sister’s @kohoa even tho i don’t go through it often lol

(28) What Makes You Happy?ma dad, ma sisters, rabbits, video games, puppers, reading sometimes, etc etc

(29) Post A Gif Of What You’re Currently Feeling Right Now.she would but she’s on mobile rn •-•

(30) Do You Study Better With Or Without Music? what’s studying lmao, probs with music anyways

(31) Dogs or Cats?i did say dogs are ma favorite animal but tbh depends on ma mood, dogs when im happy, cats when im sad and i need a pet to cuddle

(32) If You Were A Crayon What Colour Would You Be? i think a light green?? or grey lol im boring and sad

(34) Would You Swim In The Lake Or Ocean? ocean, i live right next to a lake in michigan, ocean 100%

(35) Do You Believe In Magic? i want toooo, but there’s no proof of it in ma sad life so far, so nah

(36) What Colour Shirt Are You Wearing?not wearing a shirt, a dress, guess you dont get to know!! :3

(37) Can You Curl Your Tongue? NO U ARE WEIRD IF U CAN

(38) Do You Save Money Or Spend It? save it for a bit, then spend it on something stupid like pizza

(39) Is There Anything Pink Within 10 Feet Of You? my teeshirt that I have to wear to Chicago tomorrow for end of the year field trip, ma socks and ma purse in ma closet

(40) Do You Have Any Obsessions Right Now? don’t think so, if anything video games cuz she is a nerd

(41) Have You Ever Caught A Butterfly? i don’t think so???

(42) Are You Easily Influenced By Other People? ya ya ya

(43) Do You Have Strange Dreams? not any i remember!!

(45) Name One Movie That Made You Cry. hope, it’s the worst and best movie I’ve ever watched it’s on netflix if ur feelin sad, (might not want to tho if u have triggers about sexual and/or child abuse)

(48) Are You A Picky Eater? sometimes??? idk

(49) Are You A Heavy Sleeper? yea when im sleepin in a comfy place

(50) Do You Fear Thunder / Lightning? noooo

(51) Do You Like To Read / Write?reading yea, writing when it’s not for an assignment

(52) Do You Like Your Music Loud? if it’s music that’s better listened to loud!!

(53) Would You Rather Carve Pumpkins Or Wrap Presents? idk, wrap presents since i always cut myself when i carve??? i like both tho tbh

(56) What Are You Craving Right Now? egg rOllS

(60) Do You Have Any Homework Right Now? If So, What Is It About?heh heh, exams studying all that jazz

(63) Favourite Pokemon?leafeon probs?? i havent played pokémon in forever

(71) Whats The Next Movie You Want To See In Theaters? uhhh, idk that one cute kids movie bout the bull

(75) Did You Like Swinging As A Child? Do You Still Get Excited When You See A Swing Set? yea, and nah

(76) What Was The Last Thing You Ate? a sandwich at lunch lol

(77) What Games Do You Have On Your Phone?choices which is one of those choose ur own story things cuz i like my gf in it, she’s cute, and a magikarp thing cuz my sister thinks it’s good, i haven’t played it at all rlly

(87) Are You A Day Or Night Person?night??? and day????

(88) List All Of Your Video Games On Your Phone, Console Etc.everything in question 77, overwatch, the last of us, fallout 4, rise of the tomb raider, until dawn, minecraft (what a nerd), just dance, the last guardian, uncharted 4, life is strange, idk if there’s others I forgot

(89) Tell Me About A Dream That You Had And When It Happened.ooo a while ago when I was rlly smol is the last time I remember having a dream!! k so if ur my age u should remember the kids show yo gabba gabba, and I freakin hated that it was so spooky to my smol 8 yr old mind. so, I had a nightmare I lived in a town and went to see the orange one, and then I somehow accidentally stabbed him with a needle??? and purple juice exploded from him flooding the whole town and i cried after I killed everyone!! what a dream lmao

(90) Favourite Soda Drink?pepsi or coka cola idk

(91) What Sounds Are Your Favourite?waves at the beach, soft wind, other stuff too but i dont remember

(92) Do You Wear Jeans Or Sweats More?sweats what are jEAns??

(93) How Do You Look Right Now?the same way i looked when i got home from school?? ma hair’s pulled up, glasses on, pretty basic stuff

(94) Name Something That Relaxes You.BEING AWAY FROM MY MOTHER LMAO

(95) What Tattoo Do You Want?probably just two small female signs crossed together on my wrist cuz im gay as heck

this was fun, feel free to send me some others that I didn’t already answer!!

[1-800-i-ship-it]

Uriel is basically a kpop girl: western girl shipping two ultrafamous, attractive Korean media stars together and not having any boundaries.

Lol it seems fine in the webcomic rn but I've heard she gets weirder about it. I hope not for their sake but it sounds really funny. - bi panik YJH anon

hi anon!

sidenote/ramble: ok tbh i keep forgetting i can save my asks as drafts on desktop now + be able to add tags so i keep goingn to mobile, foorgetting what iw as going to do, getting distracted, lookiing up at my laptop, rememberinng, forgettinng, repeat cycle a few times xDD thank god tho BC I USED TO ALWAYS HAVE TO GO TO MOBILE TO ADD TAGS jskadlf bless

ok anyways ahaha

JKJSKDLAFJLAEF sjdahdhlhawehfklhkhksdfnljxdfkladd well, thats not wrong i suppose LMAO omg i swear how do u put things so funnily i cant xD i havent read a lot but just a few interactions in which she donates coins haha and i can see that; i do wish though that in general ppl would be more aware of boundaries, and like remember they r real people? i feel like its really easy to forget that and idolize them too much (well ig they r called idols for a reason lmao) but yea; i suppose its more acceptable(?) for Uriel cause diff circumstances? not that the whole premise is a bit messed up in the first place lmao reminds me a bit of thg and tributes for entertainment, but idk that much yet bc i havent finished reading, we will see

fun fact, this guy who went to the same middle and high school as me was also named Uriel, so like, i keep having to switch the image that pops up in my brain xD

ajsddfhjkf yea for now i think it sounds fine in webcomic cause theres barely much xDD but YEA IT IS REALLY FUNNY akljsdf like i got to this one scene (wait i forget how much youve read- remind me again? i wont say it for now cause idk spoiler, im sorry my memory is ilke rlly bad LMAO) and i was like uriel i think u should take my url xDD i look forward to the rest

thanks for the ask! its always a pleasure to read ur asks xD

[harryisntstraight]

Sorry that was so long i just am feeling very confused about how i identify and i thought maybe you would have some advice or be able to help me out a little? You're always so sweet and kind and im feeling very lost atm. Sorry about only 2 of the asks going through tumblr didnt eat them my phone was just not letting me send them so i had to switch to my computer. You can just read all the asks and reply to just this one on your blog if thats ok? :)

aaww hey i’ll post the rest under a readmore so it doesnt clog ppl dash (soz if ur reading this on mobile jfhsdjh) also i posted the rest of ur ask just bc i feel like there might be ppl who resonate w the whole thing yanno

I've known I liked girls for a few years now and I've always labeled myself as bisexual and I have dated one guy and it was a pretty eh relationship. Didn't feel much so I broke it off. I recently have been really questioning my attraction to men. I feel sexually attracted to some men but not that many. I'll see the occasional guy I find attractive irl but that's pretty rare mostly I find some celebrity men hot but even that is very few when compared to the amount of women I find attractive I just feel like I find all women so beautiful and am attracted to them in this whole different way to men? Like it takes a lot for me to find a guy hot and when I do it's almost never to the degree that I feel for women. And when I think about men romantically it does nothing for me all the cute stuff you're supposed to want I don't? I can think about sex with certain men and find it very appealing and that's it. But when I think about dating a woman and doing really cute mushy stuff with her it feels so right and makes me feel like its all i want? And I can see myself having a wife and being with a woman forever but men just dont really appeal to me in that way i just cant see it? Thing is I've never actually dated a girl so i keep telling myself im kind of making it up in my head how much i want it or how it could be but idk. And i feel sexually attracted to some guys so i think oh but maybe there will be a guy you want all that with? and i just dont know anymore?

firstly hiiii i relate so much to so many things u said here and i feel like this such common experience for women that are into other women. i think for me personally, i’ve always kind of been quite into the idea of not labelling my sexuality specifically. i feel really comfortable with using labels like gay or lgbt or queer as umbrella terms when talking about myself, but referring to myself as bisexual or lesbian never really feels 100% right for me. like you said, i know that i’m attracted to women romantically and sexually so i definitely identify as being lgbt i just always find it difficult to point to one precise label thats more specific. i think in a way, a lot of what your describing is probably down to heteronormativity and a degree of internalised homophobia, like its something that we all have to battle with and deal with daily even on a subconscious level. when being same gender attracted is still seen as ‘abnormal’ i think its only natural to feel weird about that part of yourself and want to repress it slightly. i think being a woman as well we’re so defined by our supposed attraction to men that its hard to get over that and accept that it’s something you dont feel. even if you know if ur heart that loving women is a natural and beautiful thing, when ur constantly surrounded by a society thats so focused on heterosexuality it can be so difficult to accept that part of you no matter how much you want to. i cant tell you how you identify or what the right label is for you but i think just being open and not pressuring yourself into fitting one specific label can actually be really helpful and take a lot of the stress and anxiety away. i think once you stop frantically trying to put a name to what you feel, it gets easier to just....Feel(tm) what youre feeling and sort of go with the flow. not second guessing and analysing my attraction has honestly helped me a lot, if i feel something for someone i sort of just feel it. i try not to get caught up in putting a name on my sexuality, but instead just experience it as it happens. i think its a really natural thing to want to understand yourself and figure out who you are but honestly, you have so much time to do that that if you cant figure it out right now then its not that important. i think as long as you acknowledge your attraction to women and are open to exploring it then not knowing for sure whether or not you also like men isn’t a big deal. i definitely think that experience is helpful to understanding yourself better, once you have that experience it does help solidify things in your mind and i know for myself that once i started being with girls i became 100000% more sure that i wasnt ‘faking’ anything and that i was into them. that being said, it isnt mandatory and not having experience with the same sex doesnt by any means devalue your feelings or sexuality. long story short just give it time, dont stress yourself out too much with forcing a label that you’re unsure about. things will get clearer for eventually and maybe someday you’ll find a label that fits you. and maybe you wont and honestly thats okay too. sexuality is complex as hell and understanding yourself is genuinely a journey, it’s totally okay if you’re only just getting started. hope this helped a bit, love you 💖