#i don’t feel like making another batch but i cant put it off bc i got this commission like 30 hours before i had to have them done 😭

[fleshdyke]

50+ cupcakes for tomorrow morning. yawl

[ciaossu-imagines]

Eric Surt Headcanons? Like any form? Also bc i am on mobile and cant read up on rules that well, do you do general hc or specific things?

I can definitely do these up for you, my lovely anon! Where you gave me complete freedom, I stuck to mostly general headcanons! But I do understand how hard it is to find the rules on mobile (and honestly, I need to update those anyway)! Thank you so much for thinking to ask.

It’s probably easier to say what I won’t do for headcanons, anyway, since I accept most requests. I won’t do canon character x canon character shipping, since I’m pretty much the antithesis to a shipper, but will write for canon character ships or polyships with canon characters and a reader/reader’s OC. And I’m always happy to accept canon character platonic headcanons or deep dive into the relationships and interactions between characters in a non-romantic sense. If headcanon requests are for smut, it’s a female reader because it’s what I feel comfortable writing, and I won’t publicly make my headcanons on character’s gender identities or sexual orientations known; and I don’t answer requests like ‘what would character think of a gay/transgender/non-binary partner’ because like, they’d adore them, just as they would any other type of person! And I don’t write yandere headcanons or headcanons where any character is abusing another or straight up toxic where it’s expected for me to treat it as okay or romantic. Other than that, please feel free to ask because I love seeing the ideas people come up with!

Moving on to the headcanons, I hope you’ll enjoy them!

So, carrying along with something I mentioned in my last batch of headcanons for Eric, he’s a lightweight when it comes to alcohol and gets drunk really quick. But he’s not a violent asshole of a drunk, like you might think he would be. Nope, drunk Eric will still be kind of irritable and he’ll definitely still insult people but overall, drunk Eric is a happier drunk than sober Eric. He gets really giggly too. Like, this boy will straight up insult someone and then straight up giggle over whatever insult he came up with because he’s suddenly grown a sense of humour and his sense of humour is that he’s fucking hilarious. He even just randomly giggles because something popped into his head that he finds really funny, and he thinks he said it out loud, but he didn’t and nobody quite understands why he’s laughing. It’s probably one of the few times people hear him full out laugh too, by the way.

Because of his light colouring, Eric blushes pretty easily and pretty noticeably and it embarrasses the fuck out of him. He hates it. When he blushes, it’s not just his cheeks either. His whole face gets really red and his neck and upper chest flush red too. It’s not just embarrassment that makes him blush either, since he gets really red if he over-exercises or gets really angry too.

Eric doesn’t like socks. He’ll only wear them if he absolutely has to and takes them off the moment he’s able to. He doesn’t even really like wearing shoes that much, to be honest, and enjoys walking around barefoot whenever he’s able to. Weird headcanons, but I feel his feet have a pretty big gap in between his big toe and the rest of his toes, which are all close together. Doesn’t affect him any, but his feet look kind of weird because of it.

Eric’s definitely the kind of guy who wears his pants more than once before washing them. He doesn’t do laundry often and probably even does this with his shirts. The only things he won’t re-wear and that he puts in the dirty laundry to be washed right away are his underwear and even then, there are times (mostly when he just doesn’t have a spare pair clean) that he might re-wear those too.

Eric has tried smoking, but it tasted disgusting to him, and he honestly doesn’t get how people smoke or enjoy cigarettes. He can’t even describe the taste, but it’s worse than food he’s been forced to eat out of the garbage in his past, so that is saying something major.

Eric calls himself a dog sometimes, but he doesn’t really like the animals. He doesn’t hate them or anything. He won’t push one away from him or be mean to one and he’s okay with sitting around while Kousuke feeds the strays dogs that he looks after. There are even certain dogs that he can be pretty cool with. It’s just that they’re definitely not his favourite animal and there are a good number of other animals he’d rather have as pets. I personally see him as having fish as a starter pet and really enjoying them. He gets along well with fish too but his dream pet, and the one that makes him happiest…He wants one of those mini, tea-cup pigs.

[seijch]

ANNOUNCEMENT: NOT A HELLO, BUT NOT A GOODBYE EITHER

omg hi ... im like . ashamed to come back after saying brief hiatus in october and then disappearing off the face of the earth til FEBRUARY but under the cut i will be explaining myself and the following, if youre interested (and a tl;dr at the very bottom if you don’t wanna scroll thru this obnoxiously long post):

the reason(s) i was gone for so long

what i was doing during that time (its just a personal account yall can scroll past this idrc)

the status of those um . halloween requests

the future of this account

i. so . Hiatus .

i know. i know . i probably mentioned it when i made the announcement post, but my mental health likes to go on one of those rides. yknow the ones where you go like up rlly fast then down maybe and then up then DOWN .... its like that. i needed a break and every time i wanted to come back or thought about it, something would happen and i would get stuck in my own head.

a big reason for getting stuck in my head was (and i hate to admit this ... i hate to admit that i have Insecurities On The Internet) my feelings of inadequacy regarding my writing. i love to plot fics, i love concepts and characters and making little headcanons but i dont ... know if i love writing rn. and i thought for the longest time that like . whatever ill just push thru it its fine ill be fine but it kinda wasnt lmao you can kinda see it in my halloween reqs and what become of them when i get to that but i began to feel like nothing i had put out or would put out would hold up prose wise (and normally i dont feel like this im much more “idc its my life im living it” but thats not a rant for tumblr LMAO). i still feel like that -- like im better as a reader than a writer. but . You Know :-)

tl;dr: mental state go brrrrr

ii. anywhere here’s wonderwall

when i left, i was in a steadily decreasing mental and emotional state, made worse by a situation at work that really was a case of petty jealousy on my end and rlly isnt very consequential now despite how much pain and resentment it gave me when it Was a problem so i wont get into it. the tl;dr of november and december was me using work as an crutch and distraction -- i know my job, i do it well, it helped me not think about my responsibilities and obligations and inadequacies. of course, as the holiday season grew busier n busier i was scheduled so often that i moved 88 or so miles��(according to my apple watch, which i ONLY wear at work since im never anywhere else outside my house) and fell into a cycle of showering n sleeping at my house before going back the next day. (theres definitely something to be said abt capitalism and “grind culture” here but once again its not the time or place snsjkdfds)

at the turn of the new year, i happened to remember a birthday card i hadnt filed away for safekeeping from a friend of mine that id been horribly out of touch with til that point. i started crying because i realized how out of touch id been in general up until that point. the month of january was great for me: i was focused, happy, and in a much better place than i had been before. the end of it brought me down focus wise and im hoping that enough time away from my distractions will refocus me bc i ... need it LMAO and though ive burned out from that level of productivity and gotten distracted again im ... trying to stay positive which i think is the most i can do 😁👍🏼

media wise, i got real into stardew valley (but burned out bc i played it extensively as a way to wind down after work), the pokemon platinum romhack renegade platinum (still havent finished it bc of school n i played it w the intent to see if i could nuzlocke it ... bitch its so hard but its so fun bc of it), briefly assassins creed: odyssey (im one of those ppl who completes an entire region before i move to the next so you can tell i burned out of that one + wouldnt have the time to properly devote to it even if i didnt), got back into genshin impact after pulling for xiao (after not touching it for like . months), and danganronpa. yes . danganronpa 😐 i Know. i stopped playing it after the second trial of the first game bc i was so hurt by the outcome and picked it up in late january only to get sucked in (thank god i had the foresight to buy the second and third games during the steam winter sale). rn im at the start of chapter 4 if anyone wants to come in my asks and um . talk to me abt danganronpa

tl;dr: I’m Into Danganronpa Now

iii. you realize halloween was three months ago right

i mentioned this in the first section, but i love to plot things. every request is plotted or at least has a solid foundation. i had fun detailing what concept i wanted to go with considering what i was given, and there were some bangers i might touch up in the future. but heres whats going to happen to the requests themselves:

there are two finished requests. one will be posted tomorrow and the other will be touched up (just bc i finished it doesnt mean its good 🧍‍♂️) and scheduled for next saturday. as for the ones i never got around to ...

i will not be finishing those requests. i hate to be That Person, but i feel like we all expected this 🧍‍♂️ what i will do is post all of my notes for each request in batches -- requests that have an @ to go with them will be mentioned in the post proper, but anon asks will be pictured. (there are some asks that came from blogs who are now deactivated but i wrote down all the prompts and remember most of those askers so ill cross that bridge when i get there) there will most likely be an excerpt or two simply bc i think i mightve written a few plot points or interactions in the form of bullet points. i rlly am sorry about doing this but i remember looking at my notion doc with all the prompts and feeling ... like i wasnt measuring up n it wasnt just to myself or to some intangible concept of “other” id constructed but it was instead to those who requested n actually WANTED to see and hear and read my writing and i ...... im gonna admit thats another big reason i avoided this site.

regardless, youll definitely get what i have (and likely more than just my bullet points and illegible handwriting).

tl;dr: im sorry. what i have in terms of plot, concept, and interaction for every request will be posted, but i cant say ill ever complete them and mean it.

iv. so what now?

well i mean . im not entirely sure how sold i am on haikyuu in the content creation department (as a creator n to a lesser extent, as a consumer). as mentioned previously, its no longer my primary focus. it doesnt mean im not into haikyuu anymore; i have a lot of love for those boys but i cant rlly say im even caught up w recent fandom activity and also havent even finished s4 pt2 LMAO thats on my to do list

and despite all that, i still want to share my plots n concepts and snippets and maybe even fics. it wont happen anytime soon. it might not even happen. but i mean . its better than me saying i wont write ever again shjdkfs but either way ill probably use this blog as a personal blog w the occasional ask game for dialogue prompts (those are always so fun i love making up aus to fit like . the most mundane prompts)

as for my works (past and any potential future), ive opened an ao3 acc here n ill be editing n possibly expanding on my old works to post there. tumblr, to me, is The x reader hub, but i figure more x reader fics on ao3 is never a bad thing.

ill be deleting/posting drafted posts to the queue since they were all meant to be queued anyway as well as (sorry again 🧍‍♂️) deleting or answering asks in the inbox. (moots if you get a notif from me saying i rbed your post from months ago ... mind your business) im very hard to get ahold of and its ... a problem. expect an overhaul of the nav n shit to reflect my new direction n also because i feel like i cant tell if my passion for carrd is shared by the majority HSDKLFS maybe its better to read my info in a normal post ykwim .......

and of course . if youve read all this n decided im no longer worth the follow, i sure as hell cant stop you. thank you for wanting to, at some point, hear what i have to say -- it means more than you think.

tl;dr: writing will be edited and reposted to ao3, this blog will be a personal blog with a hint of writing (sometimes)

the tl;dr to end all tl;drs:

im back! i wont be as active as i used to due to a lessened interest in haikyuu in general, but i have an ao3 acc now where all my past work will be edited, possibly expanded, and reposted. any future work will also find itself there. my halloween requests will be posted in batches as incomplete concepts, plots, and snippets of scenes; i wont be promising to finish any of them.

there are still fic concepts im attached to and want to finish, but i cant promise any more writing on my end. this blog will be a personal blog with maybe writing, not a writing blog with my personal thoughts all over it.

regardless if you stick around or not, its been crazy sexy cool (equal emphasis) being on haikyuu tumblr even tho i wasnt around for long ... even tho its not my main focus anymore, im still excited to see what the future might hold 🤝

love, ari 💌

[pepperpaprika]

Sheith AU Concept: Assassin!Keith and Retiree!Shiro, a romcom with death threats.

Even if Shiro died, it would change nothing about how he changed keiths life xD 

sob i really want super gritty keith being changed because he met shiro too 

like utter human wreck, thief/mugger, sometimes hooker, actual killer Keith and he meets Shiro and it's just WHO IS THIS GUY?? and shiro would be That Guy who gives this total stranger a bed and food, dresses his wounds, etc. so i guess assassin keith who grew up on the streets Shiro is an educated guy but not soft like Keith expected and the fact is, Shiro has a lot of martial arts/military training and he actually manages to pin Keith which is both hot and alarming to Keith He tries to stab him but Shiro blocks with his metal arm he is basically hugged into submission Keith: /cant move bc shiros on top of him Keith: /growls softly Shiro: I think you need another five minutes, don't you? Shiro: /keeps scrolling twitter on his phone before he leaves, the next morning after the snowstorm, he considers slitting shiro's throat in his bed he almost does it too but he reaches for Shiro and he touches his face instead, drifting his fingers over the hollow of his throat it disturbs him more and he flees out the window from a 3 story building bc when is keith not extra

SC: GAAAAAAAAYYYYYYY

SO GAY HE DOESNT UNDERSTAND THIS LOTOR HITS ON HIM ALL THE TIME BUT HE NEVER FELT THIS WAY BEFORE??

SC:  tfw you try to slit a homie's throat but you brush your fingers over his face instead no homo

YEP NO BROMO but naturally keith gets busted up again and he's desperate so he goes back to shiros house as a safehouse he doesnt actually intend to go inside just crash in his garage but of course shiro finds him and he's like "next time you could ring the doorbell" cos shiro's had an early retirement and now he spends all day in his house  Keith: *hiss* Shiro: I have food. I hope you like mac and cheese. Keith: ...Mac and cheese. As in the same mac and cheese you fed me two weeks ago? Shiro: Well. It's a fresh batch. Keith: ...Do you own anything else edible besides prepacked macaroni? Shiro: ....I think there's a campbell soup somewhere. Keith: ...Move over. Keith: *banging pots and pans as he makes dinner* I can't believe you graduated from some Ivy League university Keith: So much for the sweet life. *aggressively stirs*

SC: shiro: The school had a mealplan! I didnt have to learn how to cook.

Shiro: *watches attentively* I didn't know i had a chopping knife. Keith: You don't. This is mine. Shiro:...You carry a cleaver with you, too? Keith: *pauses, smirks up at Shiro* Wouldn't you like to know? Shiro: I just don't want you tearing up my sheets in that. Keith: Mm, don't worry if Im' tearing up our sheets, I'll be naked for it. Shiro: *slow blink* You're... different from before.

SC: soooo why's keith hitting on shiro now?

well hes not sex adverse just ??? bc hes never been INTERESTED in it before and he figures this weird feeling must be sexy feelings (its not but hey) Shiro is like "no thankyou, I don't date axe murderers" Keith:I'm not asking for a date. Shiro: And I don't put out without dinner first. Shiro: I'm classy like that. *raises eyebrows* Keith: *holds pan of bubbling sauce* Dinner. Shiro: Three dinners.  eventually of course, people find out where keiths been holing up Lotor barges in and helps himself to everything like he worst houseguest ever then promptly tries to kill shiro Keith is Displeased they have a catfight in the living room and Shiro is just. WHY. TALK LIKE PEOPLE. USE WORDS. Lotor: *has a hand down keiths pants* You certainly picked a strange one. Keith: *shoves him off and knots his belt around Lotor's neck* 

Keith: Back off. Keith: Or I kill you. Right now. Lotor: Temper, and you wonder why mother loves me more. Shiro: ??? mother is their boss but ofc Shiro is just confused bc... WHY IS YOUR HAND DOWN HIS PANTS? but yes eventually actually dangerous people (Keith’s enemies) come for Keith at Shiro's place and probably kidnap him not that Lotor isn't dangerous but he's... flexible Lotor and Keith are probably at the top of their respective fields tbh If you want it done fast, get Keith If you want it done subtly, get Lotor Keith goes after them with the vengeance of a thousand suns only to find his not-boyfriend has successfully dismantled the entire operation "Sorry. I forgot to mention I'm actually reserve CIA" Keith: ...*tries to flee* Shiro: *grabs by the scruff of his clothes* Let's try this again, shall we?

Bonus, lotor was secretly a double agent all along hitting on keith was his way of deflecting, but also it was fun

SC: ohhh double agent for who?

hmm good question i would say the government but i think itd be more interesting if altea and galra were two separate crime factions and shiro is from the neutral party, the government altea is on better terms with gov than galra and lotor was aware of shiro's past career Shiro: you tried to kill me. Lotor: I wanted to see if you'd lost your edge. Champion. Shiro: And traumatizing Keith was? Lotor: He makes the best faces. Keith: HEY Lotor: Do get me some pictures when you actually shag him. Shiro: ..People like you is why I left the life...

SC: so how far did lotor get with keith?

....not very? probably just molesting him he was never very serous about it that would ruin The Game I mean, he'd probably go for it if Keith ever showed any reciprocation or curiosity but Keith just cusses him out and threatens to kill him again I think Lotor plays up the campy flirty gay persona a bit too maybe he's bi, I think. not that it matters xD but yeah Keith retires and lives a peaceful and happy life with Shiro except for when Lotor or Allura or Lance or Pidge or Hunk visits and Coran. Coran most of all Coran brings Shiro food and reminds him why he took up mac and cheese thankfully, Hunk more than makes up for it anyway thats not a street gang AU xD and I already have 2 freaking mafia AUs but hey

[viatirz]

I want to try to blog as much as I can so here it is~ 

Let’s talk about my Easter break and review how productive I’ve been heh. I feel like my life atm contained excuses, some more excuses and more excuses. I unfortunately couldn’t meet with my friends during the holidays which is a shame because I have not seen them for ages but busy sched is busy :( I’m slowly becoming a workaholic and its kinda frightening ?? 

Throughout my 2 weeks holidays I only had 4 days off which I’m very grateful as I had time to relax at least. So what happened in those 2 weeks, here’s some bullets ;

I picked up a lot of shifts at work! Which I’m proud and ashamed of at the same time (reason why I was unable to meet up with friends) 

but aye im just a simple girl who wants to save up for my parent’s holiday ok 

I was bored and cut my fringeeee and put some layers on my hair?? rip to all hairdressers who might cringe if they saw me cutting my hair 

Actually, I told myself sternly before not to cut myself fringe but I’m so weak and I gave in to the current trend. opppss.. 

But hey, my mom said I suit the fringe look? So im not complaining

idk if it was stress or the face mask I got from lush but I suddenly had such a bad break out :( which I wasn’t happy about.. and made me stress more!! So I stopped the face mask and trying to drink as much water as possible 

Kinda slacking on exercising thoooo, I think I was only able to exercise a few times during the 2 weeks break? so im low key counting work as exercise because I use a lot of man muscle and I often run between rooms and corridors so that counts right?

SWDBS finished! :( and I was on a slump. I just suddenly felt empty inside because other than work I only look forward to a new SWDBS episode but now its finished I don’t have anything interesting in my life 

during this slump it got me thinking how im so distant to my friends and it just made me feel worst. now im lowkey scared to meet up with anyone bc how? to socialise? you know? :( The only thing I could fit in my day atm is a 40 minute k drama. 

and it really got me thinking how I want to change

I want to become more /interesting/ and fun and sociable

I want to be more positive! I feel like I need to join some sort of support group to find what im looking for or maybe travel on my own?

I want to become more independent but happy and contented even if I dont have someone next to me all the time. 

I want to be able to make friends and not be afraid to talk you know. like I want to be able to have a small on talk with a stranger at the bus stop without being socially anxious

anyway as a way to get myself away from the slump I wanted to do something productive 

aka bake because I can totally cook an okay stir fry but I cant bake??? 

in a span of 2 days? I actually baked 2 things which I’m v proud of even though they kinda suck? 

I mean theyre still edible but the first batch I baked which was cheese roll, was eh. not what I hoped for tbh. and it got hard once I left it out so... 

the second batch, chocolate crinkles where a little bit better since it does not require kneading but holy smokes, was it dry 😅😅 im getting there a few more practice! 

oh i also took my theory test

i failed

i couldve passed if I got 1 more answer right 

i missed passing by one point. it was so frustrating!! 

but you know what. I booked another test on May and I’m going to make sure I pass this one. I feel more determined this time around mainly because when I booked my test the first time I just booked it because why not. I didnt really revise except the night before. so it was my fault. and now I know what I did wrong im going to nail the next one. 

I think that’s it? nothing really interesting happened during my break, exam season is right around the corner so im gonna try to start revising because i dont want tears on result day so byeeee

I’m gonna be living in the library for a few weeks