#i don't really like the emphasis 1 and 3 put on giving lessons or whatever

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Author ask game

Tagged by @isabellebissonrouthier ! thanks :)

Tagging : @the-stray-storyteller, open tag bc idk who else would like to be tagged ^^

I'll be talking about Le Prix du Sang here.

1) What is the main lesson of your story (e.g. kindness, diversity, anti-war), and why did you choose it?

There isn't any that I'm currently planning on having. Whether I'll find one on the way or not is still up for debate. I'm not giving lessons, I'm just throwing awful people in the same general area and looking at what they do.

2) What did you use as inspiration for your worldbuilding (like real-life cultures, animals, famous media, websites, etc.)?

Uhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh [blanking]

There's definitely the. General european fantasy setting you'd expect from a european writer, i guess.

Although this place's worldbuilding is, specifically, based on a no-fun-allowed discussion I've had with my sister AGES ago when I was a teenager. What if it had magic, but was an awful fucking place ?

Idk. I tend to pick inspiration from a lot of places and it's hard for me to pinpoint one thing exactly. I can tell you when rereading that "ah, i probably picked that bit up from Ewilan" or "oh, this is absolutely because I hated X thing in les Chevaliers d'Emeraude", or even "oh okay this whole dye business is absolutely because of some of the classes i had".

Definitely, the fact that Monthaut is known for its high quality wool fabric is because of my classes.

3) What is your MC trying to achieve, and what are you, the writer, trying to achieve with them? Do you want to inspire others, teach forgiveness, help readers grow as a person?

She's trying to achieve having a stable life for once, and once she gets at she's trying to keep it no matter what it takes.

I'm trying to see how interesting I can make that while sometimes the secondary characters are doing most of the stuff.

I want readers to come watch those fucked up little guys with me. Again. I'm not going to teach you SHIT. Come look at my weirdoes. They're kind of awful. Wanna see how far they can take their bullshit ?

4) How many chapters is your story going to have?

I have no idea ! Several, definitely ! I've written, uh, 8 of them so far. We're not past the halfway point. So at least double that ?

5) Is it fanfiction or original content? Where do you plan to post it?

Original content. I don't plan on posting it, but on hopefully going the traditional publishing route.

6) When and why did you start writing?

Good question ! A long time ago is the best i can do.

I do think I used to write random snippets when i was a very young kid, just for fun, to entertain myself. Then it was writing stories with my younger sister, just for the both of us.

We'd always find ways to put links to each other's stuff in our writings. Were our main characters actually related ? Did they just know each other for whatever reason ? Etc.

7) Do you have any words of engagement for fellow writers of Writeblr? What other writers of Tumblr do you follow?

Uhh... I consider myself to be a little bit to the left from writeblr because this is just my personal blog, man. I just happen to be a writer and an artist.

A lot of my friends tend to be these things too, altho I'm not super sure they'd consider themselves part of writeblr (hi Mal my beloved, Jo, Zach!, Alren); so I'm not tagging them here. Again, don't know if that'd bother them.

For people who have writeblrs that I follow, well, there's Isabelle and Stray I've already tagged, and @holdmyteaplease (also, if you do want to do this tag game, feel free!i just don't know if you do tag games LMFAO); and I think that's about it.

[funkymbtifiction]

[...] I fear the fact I go through the grieving process and really put myself through it for a couple days before dusting myself off and carrying on is that maybe I'm not really learning lessons about the experience and growing from it. Looking back, these questions go through my head: Did I grieve too quickly? Am I truly healed or am I just repressing these emotions and bottling them up? Are these sad experiences subconsciously affecting my ability to live my life to the fullest and in the present and truly connect with others? How do I know if I truly became a better person because of these hard times, or if I'm just staying stagnant or maybe even regressing?

This is a profoundly mature way of thinking! It's seeking depth and balance. It also sounds head type based. "Am I moving on too fast? What did I learn?" Lots of thinking about grieving, thinking about your responses, thinking about how to learn from things, wondering if you did anything wrong in your process, if you should feel sad longer. I relate. Lots of super-ego here (the need to become a better person), so you must have a pretty strong super-ego influence in your tritype. Could be 6-1, since there's an emphasis on personal growth.

[...] However, that only lasted a few days and I felt healed. However, I wonder did I really heal? Even though I'm not sad anymore, I feel quite guilty that despite crying a river for him in the hospital, I moved on relatively quickly and I don't think about him that much anymore. I'm this way with other things. I can get really emotional for a few days, but the catharsis works on me, but what if I didn't want the catharsis to work that quickly? Am I not giving these human emotions the time and space they deserve? Am I keeping these lessons in mind and growing moving forward, or am I just going back to my old self without any noticeable change or growth?

More super-ego self-analyzing, focusing on self-growth. Am wondering if there's also a 3 here (613). That being said, I relate a lot as a 6w7 to what you have said about analyzing whether you have moved on too soon or whether something has not affected you deeply enough and not being sure if you have healed or not. I know for a fact that I have not healed from a lot of the losses in my life; that it will take time, and that me choosing not to look at them is not helping except as a way of putting "distance" between me and the event. Each year, I cry a little less. But there's nothing bad about healing and coping and moving forward; it doesn't mean I don't still love that person and miss them, or that I don't get tears in my eyes to talk or write about them. It just means that I am doing what I need to do, which is to keep going. (I sometimes wish I could just... stop. Be devastated. That it would somehow prove how much I cared about that person. But I keep going forward.) I also don't always know how much something bothers me at the time, unless it keeps hovering around the edges of my subconscious and nagging at me (but I am secondary Fi and don't have immediate emotional responses).

[...] Also, I feel like it wouldn't really even matter if I journaled or whatever because grief and loss is a universal experience, so anything I've felt has already been expressed and written down by someone else who's gone through this same thing. [...] It feels kinda weird because I don't like that because it makes what I felt less special in a way, but comforting in that if I'm going through something, I can just go online and see that what I'm feeling is normal and find that there are lots of tips for coping with grief (listening to music, picking up hobbies, spending more time with friends, reading books, basically distracting yourself and keeping yourself busy). Loss is hard, but having other people who know what it's like and can give advice makes it not so hard.

This also feels like attachment, 6ish stuff. "This is normal, and here's how to cope with it."