#i feel like i sound bitter idk

[adhderall]

no the "omg ur just a lesbian bc u can't get a man!!!1" thing is SO wild because it's incredibly easy to get a man meanwhile getting a woman (as a woman) is INSANELY difficult. despite what everyone says is2g ~wlw~ have higher standards (with women) than men do with women or women do with men

[fallowtail]

i love when other autistic people throw those of us who do genuinely lack/struggle with empathy and struggle with having/understanding human emotions under the bus because everyone's so fundamentally disgusted by us. maybe they're right to be idk anymore

[gophergal]

I always hate the pity I get when I say "I don't have much of a family"

Like, fuck you dude. My family is very small, but my parents distanced themselves from their relatives for a good fucking reason and so have I

[bunnihearted]

🐁☁️🌫️

[acedavestrider]

does anyone have any advice on how to feel alive again

[run-down-that-dream]

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[goldensunset]

re: the music rant I tagged you in I am so sorry for tagging you in my double-dose caffeine fueled haterism explosion post. truly was off the shits and did not realize how much random garbage talking points I was ready to spill on the first person to ask

but i love haterism…..

[nsfwitchy2]

People gotta stop calling the salon and asking for directions

Because I’m the one most likely to pick up the phone as the person here 5 days a week who’s job is partially to answer the phone

and lemme tell you. I do not know shit. I can tell you the city we are located in and some nearby landmarks and that is IT. Unless you also know the location of these landmarks, I cannot help u. I am sorry.

[femmefaggot]

its like not even a problem except for if i think too hard bc logically yeah i wouldnt keep me around if i wasnt useful either but also man aside from being essentially a tool its not. listen. i get it. will if you ever exist here i get it i do i got mad last night but now im just like at least be smart about it. you can let me die after but hes given up too much. idk. man. i know you can live without me. not sure about him. and i understand that. but itd at least be more useful if you listened to match and let me take care of it. as i fucking do.

[stormyoceans]

of course ofc people started to hate aof when he's going to make js series I'm not panicking I'm nooooot

I KNOW HOW YOU FEEL ANON THE FIRST TIME I SAW PEOPLE BASHING P'AOF I WAS LIKE OH SURE OF COURSE Y'ALL START DOING THAT /NOW/ OF ALL TIMES

but the entire situation is also kinda funny to me, mostly because all the critics im seeing aren't even things that may depend on him (like not getting an age appropriate actor to play jim in moonlight chicken) or that are intrinsically problematic, they're just stuff people don't like because of their personal preferences (like the bb and atots crossover). it's just interesting to see how one year ago people were putting him on a pedestal and thinking of him as a god because everyone was into bad buddy, and now the same people are treating him like he's the devil incarnated and are jumping to other directors (who are just as questionable imho) for no real reason (at least that i know of)

sadly last twilight always had the biggest disadvantage out of all the BL series that are supposed to air this year, so i don't think p'aof not being as appreciated as before is gonna make much difference, which i know isn't exactly comforting but as long as p'aof will treat it with the same maturity and respect he used to tell all his other stories, then i think we're gonna be okay. of course i would love for last twilight to become incredibly popular and for jimmysea to finally be recognized, but honestly popularity doesn't always equal quality, and i know which one i'd rather have!!!

[kurthorton-moving]

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[xamaxenta]

It’s difficult to not feel discouraged sometimes when your partner is also an artist and happens to be faster than you in every conceivable way

This doesn’t bother me often because everyone is different and comparing production time and skill against each other or anyone is detrimental mostly and its ok to have your own workflow

but it does weigh on me vaguely sometimes sometimes that she can finish 2-3 full coloured pieces within a week and ive been painfully scratching out the same number but theyre only sketches that ill never revisit within a month

None of this actually matters in the long run, it just makes me feel bad on occasion

[mcl38]

new lando article just dropped! its fun that hes not following a strict schedule, writing (or dictating - jury’s still out) this column before the singapore gp means this is less of a race report and more of a fun update of his life. it also means that he spends a decent portion of it talking about pissing his pants (hypothetical, never happened). make of that what you will. anyways as always i am reminding you not to subscribe to the telegraph or even give them ad money by visiting their website, because i will be posting every single article in full as soon as it drops. u can find them all under the hashtag ‘lando’s columns’. this one (as always) will be under the cut, enjoy the read!

[photo of lando looking at some telemetry, jose and will blurry on either side of him. he’s wearing the black singapore fireproofs] 

Imagine a street circuit like Monaco where one little mistake can put you in the wall. Now add speed. Marina Bay may not be the fastest street circuit in the world. But it’s bumpy. And hot – 30C plus and over 90 per cent humidity, meaning a tropical downpour is never far from turning the track into an ice rink.

Yep, for overall toll on the body and all-round intensity, I would say Singapore is right up there as the toughest race on the calendar. It’s not as hard on your neck or your core as, say, Miami. But it’s just so energy-sapping. So intense under those lights.

I have actually only ever raced here once, in my rookie season back in 2019. So I’m by no means an expert. But I well remember just how draining it was. Literally. You have to drink so much before the race that you begin it 2 per cent heavier than normal. Then you sweat so much during the race you not only lose that 2 per cent but at least another 2 per cent on top of that.

It’s brutal. Taking on so much fluid, and constantly topping up the levels, leads me to a question we’re sometimes asked as F1 drivers: do we ever pee in our race suits?

I can honestly tell you I never have. I love my race crew too much to do that to them! I wouldn’t be surprised if it has happened in the past, though. 

[photo of the special livery MCL36 looking soooo sexy in pink guys i love this car so much u dont get it]

Sometimes, particularly in a race which involves a safety car, we can be out there for well over two hours. I was absolutely desperate for a wee at the end of the last race at Monza for instance. But I haven’t yet been so desperate that I’ve just gone in my race suit.

Most of the time, you are so focused on the race itself you don’t actually notice that you need to go. It’s only when you finish, or like I say, when a safety car comes out, that you sometimes realise how desperate you are.

To be honest, in Singapore pretty much all of the fluid you take on is secreted out through sweat. It is so hot inside your suit and helmet that one driver said he used to put a woman's sanitary towel inside his helmet to try to soak up the sweat while he was racing, so that it wouldn’t drip into his eyes.

I have never gone that far, but I do prepare a little differently for the race at Marina Bay. I train on an indoor bike wearing extra layers of clothes: a hoodie, a jacket, a hat. It’s horrible but it makes a big difference when you come here. I even have a couple of electric heaters which I put in the room with me while I’m cycling to try to get me really cooking.

The other thing I’m going to do this weekend, and which I don’t do anywhere else, is drive with a drinks bottle. 

Generally I don’t tend to drink during a race. It’s just not something I’ve ever felt the need to do. I think Barcelona in May this year, when I had tonsillitis and needed to keep drinking on every lap to stop myself from going downhill, was the only other occasion I’ve needed a drinks bottle. But as I say, taking on fluids in Singapore is just a non-negotiable so I have asked my mechanics to put one in the car for me. 

I’m looking forward to the weekend though. I’m feeling good and ready to go. I arrived out here quite early this week and I feel as if I’ve acclimatised pretty well. I’m a night-owl anyway so staying on European time is not a problem for me. It’s what I would choose to do. I’ve also had a lot of fun this week with my new toy: a digital camera which I bought out here on the recommendation of my photographer (who is now very jealous of it).

[photo of beloved with his face covered by a digital camera. this camera has been the bane of my existence and also a source of constant entertainment, much like this column. much like lando himself]

I’ve had a lot of fun exploring Singapore and experimenting with what it can do. I’m not very good with it yet, but I’m really enjoying it.

I just love documenting my life to be honest. I’d have someone with me documenting it all if I could stand for that person to be following me around all the time. Which I cannot. Hence why I’ve got myself a camera I suppose! I just like to look back and record cool things. My summer golf trip for instance. It would have been really cool to have a digital record of that. I like to throw myself into new things generally. 

You might notice that I’m wearing a slightly different helmet this weekend. It’s actually one inspired by Master Chief’s helmet from the Halo games to celebrate my esports team announcing we’re joining the Halo Championship Series [HSC] partner programme.  Quadrant, my team, is something I’m very excited about. So far Halo is our only esports title, but we have big plans to grow the Quadrant brand and expand into other titles. Watch this space! 

For the next few weeks, all my focus is on Formula One. I finished P7 here in 2019. I’d love to go better this weekend. It will not be easy at the toughest race in the world. But we’ll give it everything. Now, where’s my drinks bottle?

[praisethelamps]

Do people not see my Tumblr posts ?

[shojoboy]

Rest In Peace, Henry Berg-Brousseau

Haven’t seen any posts about him here so I’ll make one. Henry Berg-Brousseau was a transgender rights advocate in Kentucky who died on December 16th, 2022, of suicide. You can read a short article about this here https://www.them.us/story/trans-activist-henry-berg-brousseau-has-died-at-age-24 

I didn’t know about this man until I heard this news today, and both those things make me quite sad. All my love & respect to Henry and to all other trans activists and advocates out there, humbly chugging away at work that is difficult and deeply emotionally taxing. It’s hard to have to wake up every day and fight on the front lines for your own right to exist. I am so so grateful to those who do. Henry was an activist from as early as his high school days and did so much to help his community, from organizing protests and community space to speaking to the senate and working with The Fairness Campaign and The Human Rights Campaign. 

If you would like to make a financial contribution to honor his legacy, his family has asked that donations be sent to The Fairness Campaign or The Trevor Project. 

[sodrippy]

i love dnd for the "omg i want to be a cool guy and have cool friends and have cool adventures with my cool magic" of it all and how it fosters creativity and fun but unfortunately it does also tap into the inexorable escapist fantasy mindset i lived in as a kid and i have to separate the two out lest i become overcome a misplaced sadness from ten year old val who wants to have magic powers so so badly