Note
i adore ur engie having a chord tail so re: requests how does spy feel about/interact with it
he'd mostly think it's endearing, part of Dell's silly charm. sort of like when you see a puppy
sometimes Dell uses it to get Spy' attention, or to make sure he's still with him and Spy sometimes uses it to make sure Dell doesn't impulse buy a set of power drills or a tablesaw
though, no matter how much spy thinks the tail is cute, he knows it was designed out a desperation.
things rarely go without complications when dealing with amputation and prostetics - things like phantom pain or conectivity issues and basically an every day issue Dell will be forever insecure about the fact he can't just engineer it all away, he definitely regrets cutting half his arm off.
so he designed the tail as a way to counter his weakness. but what if Dell doesn't just stop at the tail? what if he tries to mess with his anatomy further? what if he ends up doing something that irreversably destroys his body? sure he's an engineer, but not a medical proffesional.
what if the pain becomes unbearable for Dell though? what if further modifications are necessary for him to live in peace? will Dell know when to stop? Will Spy know when to draw the line? when to put his foot down?
what if Dell loses himself to the idea that he can elliminate all that is wrong with him with mods like this? what if this is just the beginning?
for now it's probably fine. probably
#ummmm#i kinda blacked out at the end there#my bad#anyways waouw look at this cute engiespy guys what no theres nothing under the cut dont worry#tf2#tf2 fanart#doodle dump#engineer tf2#spy tf2#engiespy#gunslinger#chord tail#practical espionage#napoleon complex#it's kinde cringe because its hashtag deep and angsty#but i just like the theme of losing yourself to the fascination of upgrading yourself to the point of no return#like when do you stop being human you know#or when do you draw the line of “i'm at my best” and “this is enough for me”#or do you not draw one at all and do you strive for perfection#something something theme of flesh weak machine stronk#anyways im gonna go grab some food because i forgot to eat all day cus i got a little fixated on this idea#have fun#also snail i made all this angst just fir you because you seem like the type of person to like angst#also no beta we die like men
108 notes
·
View notes
Text
#angle under their big hat under the cut#here's a good question. why does the top of their head look like a normal modern poké ball instead of a hisuian ancient poké ball#if they're from the ancient past… or whatever… then… shouldn't it be an ancient poké ball…#this somewhat implies that the modern design of poké balls was based off the way brute bonnet and its later form as amoonguss's heads look#kinda hilarious. pokéball corporation or whatever they're called. silph co i think. literally just “what if we allowed amoonguss to torture#children thinking they found poké balls on the street for fun”#that's funny. i like it now. fuck hisuian poké balls#hi me from the future i forgot to tag this one#brute bonnet#still don't like the multiple-word names#ahem.#paradox amoonguss#← protest
71 notes
·
View notes
Text
sadfrin! my take on him!! a special guy!! definitely not posting this for any suspicious reasons! no fic related reasons! on a totally unrelated note did you know i have an ao3? under the same name as my tumblr??
#snickart#no id#in stars and time#siffrin isat#teehee. i made a fic#after i post this ill be posting it there. so#fic should be under the name joys of a sadness#which is also what im going to tag this au with !#joys of a sadness au#^_^#you can send me asks about this weird dog. if you want. you should.#edit im going to in stars and kill myself i forgot to remove the ramblings under cut thing when i didnt have any ramblingsSKDHDK
71 notes
·
View notes
Text
More clothing studies, this time from my fic Axis. I was aiming for authenticity while also trying to have each of their personalities show a little bit in their clothing choices. Two for Nicky, to show his layers.
#tog#the old guard#for reference the fic takes place in 1625 in iceland. i still don't think they're bundled enough though lol.#nicolo di genova#yusuf al kaysani#andromache of scythia#no quynh :(#these were a n i g t m a r e to crop correctly. tumblr why are you like this.#hence the cropping might look a little weird#siggy draws#i think these sketches took a month and a half lol. now i will be quiet about this fic and focus on writing something else.#what do we think about this style? the differently coloured lineart and the slight lighting? and the rough colours?#also i forgot my siggynature on ALL of these but that's ok. you know who i am sdfghf#my new obsession is clothing details i guess!! could always make it more detailed though! with lots of practice i can try.#no real director's commentary on these drawings like i usually write for my sketches asdsfgfd#just that this is mostly what they wear in the fic. add a coat for andy maybe and some mitts for joe.#and more weapons and bags and stuff#can't really see nicky's braids but he's got one big french braid and a few tiny ones on the sides of his head connecting to it.#his hair is like shoulder-blade length. it's about the symbolism!! of not making a change for a long time!! until he does cut it!!#and andy is wearing quynh's necklace under her shirt of course </3#joe rolls his pantaloons above the knee for maximum movement (horseriding) and fashion (gay)#i have a crush on the first nicky sketch like he's so cunty for no reason#well. he's possibly supposed to be having a serious conversation/argument with andy#kudos to the ref picture i used of luca just standing Like That
248 notes
·
View notes
Text
[ID: a piece of digital art depicting Luz, Willow, Amity and Vee from the owl house at Luz's quinceñera. The piece takes place outside the owl house at night with the characters all dancing. Willow's dress is blue with yellow and pink flowers as decoration. Luz's outfit is based on the good witch azura with a white and purple colour scheme. Amity wears a pink dress shirt and a dark blue skirt with transparent fabric both on the skirt and acting as the sleeves. Vee wears a yellow dress with white trim on the bottom. Light glyphs float in the air, the dancefloor lights the scene from below, and Hooty extends across the background. End ID]
on today's episode of "pieces I put way too much work into realistically!". Since it's unlikely we'll get a quinceñera for Luz at this stage of the show, I wanted to draw a cute scene of it, which slowly turned into posing and lighting practice
(Small disclaimer: I'm not a part of a culture that does quinceñeras! I hope that there's no glaringly inaccurate details here. As far as I know there isn't hard and fast rules for the dresses or dance floor? so hopefully everything here is plausible. Feel free to let me know if there's any egregious errors here. There's some doodles under the cut that are slightly more detailed, so same goes for those)
[ID: black and white digital doodles of owl house characters at Luz's quinceñera. The first doodle shows luz, Gus, Hunter and king, and is labeled "Gus, king & hunter = chambelands". The next shows willow, Vee, and Lilith with Luz and is labeled "Lilith, Willow and Vee = damas". There's a doodle of amity where's she's labeled "escort". There's a small full body doodle of Luz in a suit labeled "she gets a costume change!". The last doodle is Luz and hunter dancing together, labeled "Luz + hunter sibling dance". The background is purple. End ID]
#the owl house#toh#luz noceda#EDIT: I FORGOT THE FUCKING TAGS#willow park#amity blight#vee noceda#sigh. i won't tag anyone under the cut#lumity#okay that's good#feel like the id might not be up to scratch? if anyone has any suggestions I'll edit it!#same if the small text proves inaccessible#i know some screen readers pick it up and others don't but that no matter what it's hard for visually impaired people to read#if it proves troublesome i won't do it again#anyway in case you're wondering where eda is (bc realistically she should be here)- i like to think she'd get her own role in the ceremony?#not sure where though because I'm not sure which roles are/can be performed by family vs family friends vs a priest/professional#and thus i don't know what would be fitting for eda#i also know that father/daughter dances are traditional at quinceñeras and I've seen a few suggestions for who luz might dance with#since obviously her father's passed away#while the idea of dell (as her surrogate grampa) or one of her friends dads filling in is sweet#part of me thinks luz would go very non traditional and dance with eda? as a parent figure alternate to her mother?#i don't know if that's like. totally out of whack for a quinceñera/where the line between non-traditional and inaccurate is#since the tradition has obviously evolved a lot over the years and I'm just an outside observer#if anyone has hcs or suggestions feel free to let me know#(tho you'd probably prefer to discuss them with fans who have a bit more knowledge on the subject/are actually latino)#i should do more reading on this I'm just swamped rn (I. should really do some research for art class soon)#uhh i think that's everything i had to add??? yeah m#just reiterating the disclaimer uptop. please tell me if I've been silly or insensitive i do not want to be either
582 notes
·
View notes
Text
going crazy. goobbye.
#the scanner really shows off how bad this paper smudgesss#got a moleskine from the op shop and am very excited about the storyboard page layout and paper thickness. but its a smudgey guy.#anyway. what#i KNOW ppl ship them i know you're out there come party with me. and get them to double digits on ao3.#ive seen a couple ship names but i just keep calling them jo'shea in my head...#which is arguably a terrible ship name when two of the main guys names start with j but also who is out here shipping john and molly.#anyway. they could've fixed each other#i mean obviously they DIDN'T#but y'know. under better circumstances. maybe#karen jones#molly o'shea#rdr2#red dead redemption 2#i literally actually don't know what ship name we use in tags lads. jo'shea it is#jo'shea#goes crazy goes insane. they kiss each other.#also btw btw it's cut off very slightly at the bottom but molly is standing on a thing okay she's not taller than karen. there's a thing#my art lol#click for quality PLEASE it's 600 dpi i promise#WAIT#mary beth gaskill#abigail marston#i forgot. they were there. got so caught up......
23 notes
·
View notes
Text
metal_pipe_falling.mp4
under the cut is more doodles of arakawa in his coat(s) and sawashiro doodles cause Lol
#rgg#ryu ga gotoku#ryu ga gotoku 7#yakuza like a dragon#yakuza series#yakuza 7#masumi arakawa#jo sawashiro#snap sketches#ive been telling myself for months to make color palette refs for these knuckleheads#and while waiting for The Time I Should Leave For Class i started doodling the arakawa sheet#and then i finished that and was like 'oh hes a bit lonely now aint he' so i went and did sawashiro#great opportunity for me to fix some colors too... ill prob revisit this thing like 90 times just to update colors down the line#its what i do with my other chara ref sheets#the art old as hell on those but i keep the colors up to date.. lol#also can i legally bully myself on this post. speaking of colors. i really forgot jo's tie is more of a pink than a red. STUPID ASS#i love makin refs like these... makea me feel like im workin on a show or somethin.. teehee..#also Dress-Up-Doll kinda vibes... teehee 2x#i prob wont post any art that actually fts sawashiro's body moles but i mean. might as well share the refs#just so its not Arakawa And His Fifty Coats And Pinkyless Hand under the cut LOL#abt arakawas coats tho im debating on mixing in which ones i draw yk.. like the scarf look will be like. early 90's#then the coat we see him with in y7 is mid-90's onward. to be cute yk. we'll see how i feel down the line we know me im fickle lol#also yeah i purposefully left the tail of sawashiro's tattoo: its just supposed to be a ref of how his tattoo is positioned#and while adjusting the tattoo i remembered an ask someone sent me bout ichis tattoo... lol..#cant believe anon didnt have to send me that reddit link we coulda just waited until this summer to see ichi's '''''full tatt''''''' HELP#STILL NOT OVER IT ok im done here. bye#an aside though for some reason arakawa's jawline feels diff compared to his 20's onward#idk if its cause of the ref image i use's lighting that makes 20's arakawa's chin more squared compared to the rounder shape he gets#mysterious.... oh well was tryin not to think too hard bout it since these arent supposed to be super detailed#just colors and whatever
64 notes
·
View notes
Text
hmm…………
#TAKES DEEP BREATH ok posting something self indulgent i am shy about HELEBSQJ#rough doodle but i really like how it looked#jerms art#traditional art#doodle#sketch#do i tag this as ttyd um#ttyd#ou……#i still wanna draw her with colour one day#might be a little self indulgent but this is how i always imagined her for some reason#second doodle under the cut cus its more simple but i still wanted to include it bcus#WHAT ELSE WASNI GONNA SAY I . forgot im posting this late
8 notes
·
View notes
Text
Sweets
#len'en#ooama no ake no mitori#ate some cake and started thinking about how Mitori likes sweets#under cut is the outfit they're wearing#it's meant to be a more casual looking dress influenced by what's described as Devanagara fashion#or rather that the outfit is what's influencing the fashion in the first place#sorry for not making anything for Christmas i forgot about it until the day of#mysterious origin “ink and silver”
17 notes
·
View notes
Note
I HEARD WE’RE TALKING ABOUT KC USED AS CHARACTER HERE CUZ BOI FO I HAVE LOT IN MY MIND ABOUT THAT (a bit of a rant so uh yeah)
I feel like such, and I mean SUCH a wasted opportunity and potential for KC as a character. Multiple times where I felt like it just so off about how he’s been handle and how it ended. You mean to tell me, this man right here has just gotten his redemption to being good, gone for a few months away from us to see how he’s doing only for us to see one last time before he got straight kill by his own Bloody Son? I mean yeah sure, Im driven for angst but the way they did it for his death just felt not earn, i dont know how to explain it. Im glad that KC at least acknowledge about Bloodmoon’s whole issue but to just die afterwards?? And that’s it?? Yeah ok, he’s a pacifist now and a good guy, but he’s still can defend himself. Maybe came out injured from the fight but still alive. But no…. He just die. Thats it
I cant help but feel like they have been just like, throwing KC’s character around. They either dont know what to do or have other plans for him, but just the way it’s been handle it just. I dont know I gotten a whole rant about this.
I remember when they said that Moon will give KC a proper body but apparently Moon never made that happen. Now, I wanna give the showrunner the benefit of a doubt and cut them some slack cuz Im sure they have other things to do beside the show to even remember that
Idk what else to say. I know for sure there are a lot more in my mind abt this but I cant type it all out atm so take it as you will
Oh yeah no I do feel they didn't know what to do with him other than have him come in once a while and felt the death necessary rather than use him more. (The two voice actors for Sun and Moon have like three channels.) I do feel they haven't been too consistent anyway with KC (the rush of a redemption, no seeming closure for somethings, etc. I could be missing something but yeah) They could've had him for the current astral plot (Given he has star knowledge and *harnessing its power*) PLUS Earth's situation about her feelings about the Creator (I'll keep bringing it up, but Deliberately MADE to be a killing machine is right in her face. I know she has Forgor but once again her whole Need to know and uncomfortable with being out of loop. Her entire encounter with KC would be such a haze to her it'd definitely bother her enough.) KC isn't the first example of not using a character to its full (Solar Flare and Even first Bloodmoon. Literally... literally was taught magic and thats never brought up again). It's also just how numbers work on the channel too. They take most review from youtube and discord from what I understand and from what I see there is a difference with majority and what we're saying most of the time. Lunar was brought back cause he was rather popular already (also he wasn't fully killed either in the same episode).
#But also i love lunar so#genuinely after some time u get to recognize they ARE adopting some fan things and review since theyre under a company.#its a youtube channel and they didnt really stick with killcode too much (if u think about it around that time a lot of people complained-#they introduced too many characters)#i forgot where i was going but im not surprised they cut back on characters they arent using or lose popularity vote#BUT REGARDLESS I STILL THINK... actually i know with enough people we could try asking for kc back#(of course they would. they made an earth and lunar show because of feedback i think same with monty!)#its just pestering enough#but small percentage on tumblr that they DONT check isnt gonna change their minds too much#unless they do they check but havent seen any activity that they do#twitter at most really#ANYWAY NUMBERS GAME THATS WHY BUT ALSO A WASTE OF KCS CHARACTER IN WHAT THEY COULDVE UTILIZED HIM MORE#EVEN AFTER HE DIED THEY KINDA... STILL IGNORED HIM????#lunar doesnt even know the guy is dead???? OR EARHT???#unless it was an offscreen thing then yeah thats yeah#sams killcode#words. rants everywhree
22 notes
·
View notes
Text
ok i originally just wanted to think of something w obagiyuu but then it went to obamitsugiyuu but then sabiuzui happened and now its a full on everyone lives au with everyone hugging the last 3 ubuyashiki kids just after kiriya announces the demon slayer corps disbanded and im Crying
#kny manga spoilers#kny spoilers#<just bc its an original post#mitsuri got so emotional she had to hug him but she forgot she lost both her arms.#obanai cant see whats going on so giyuu pulls him over with his remaining arm and they act as her arms for her :)#everyone else joins in very soon after pulling in the other 2 with them#some kakushi sprinted to bring a camera to document the last moment of the demon slayer corps as something joyous#finally get to unveil my sabito lives au idea- in the final battle sabito & giyuu were fighting together and sabito saw an attack coming#before giyuu did so he shoved giyuu out of the way- muzan's attack still got most of giyuu's arm and the end of sabito's forearm#sabito was horrified for a moment bc. that was far to close to losing giyuu in a fuckin *instant*#something something even earlier genya & muichiro live because sanemi stopped koku from fully cutting genya in half & genya regenerated#enough to chomp through the sword going through his mouth. made him more monstrous like how koku was about to do and it had the same 'is#that what i become? what im becoming? and for what- power? life? this isnt worth it' and explodes himself#all 4 of them patch up and recover as much as they can before joining everyone else w muzan#sanemi telling genya that under NO CIRCUMSTANCE is he to eat part of muzan. kokushibo was already pushing it the demon king himself? FUCK n#anyways it all started at an inn on a joint mission with sabito & giyuu and obanai#giyuu & obanai were kinda just chilling while sabito was out and about doing who knows what#'im bored' 'what do you expect me to do about that?.' 'wanna check out the onsen with me?' 'wh.' 'do you think kaburamaru would like the#warmth?' '..i dont know' 'onsen?' 'fine.' que giyuu giving him a towelette to tie over his nose & tying his hair up with an extra he brough#obanai thinks hes weird but is very touched by the gestures nonetheless. they speak sparsely until sabito joins (giyuu left a note) &#starts up a bit more conversation. it gets quiet after a while and sabito looks over and notices giyuu's little smile as hes laying his hea#back on his folded towel on the edge. 'what are you so happy about?' obanai looks over and sees it too 'hanging out with my friends is nice#'plural?' both of them look @ him 'yeah- we're friends right? ..can we be friends?' obanai doesnt answer and focuses back on kaburamaru#swimming around his arms. he glances over at them chatting between themselves about some minor thing- (either theyll scorn me or... or)#he takes off the towel covering his face- neither of them mention it immediately even if he catches them giving a glance or two#'do your scars make it hard to move your face? i think mine cut through the muscle. cant smile as much on this side' he looks at#sabito tapping his scarred cheek. giyuu's back to trying to sleep in the water 'not.. much.. its only deep near my mouth' said quieter#towards the end as he focused back on kabu (his prime excuse to avoid eye contact) sabito nodded and kept chatting about whatever- giyuu#quietly enjoying listening to them. kabu got too hot for the water and curled up next to giyuu's head on the towel. obanai actually enjoyin#himself around other people (than sanemi) its nice :) +theyre still on a mission together for a few more days so its not a one-off thing
46 notes
·
View notes
Text
People need to stop putting Batman in everything this is painful
#also doing my math correctly guy would actually be in second place here#or maybe third#wait gimme a sec#okay this is mostly accurate but guy should actually be third behind hal here#because its counting hals parallax appearances and guys red lantern ones under different characters#and also i forgot to log some of the gl/ga i read#lucky number 11 was jess btw 💔#rip jess she got cut off#this was both surprising to me and expected#like guy hal and cass i totally expected in the top 5 bc ive read a good amount of them#whereas batman as no 1 was unexpected but makes sense considering THEY PUT HIM IN EVERYTHING#ben as no 3 really surprised me but it makes sense when i think about it as ive read 2 books with him as a main and a cameo or two#also i love how top 10 is all dc and then you have anakin. the batman of star wars (they put him in everythinggg)#and also ive admittedly read a good amount of darth vader#wait omg i forgot something#i literally keep doing this istg#im exposing myself for only having read a small to medium amount of comics so far#which is smth crazy to say about like 650 issues 'small to medium' but its true#most of it is pretty spread out too#like 650 in one subfandom is pretty good esp depending on what it is but#when you break it down that way ive probably read like 160 ish lantern comics as my biggest subsection#with bats following behind that at like idk 75#which isnt very much compared to the amount out there#blah
10 notes
·
View notes
Text
#primeape#sniffer#and a bonus under the cut. i actually forgot about this one when i was making the polls but thank fuck someone reminded me#hopefully those folks will continue ensuring i don't. forget anybody. like i seem to have a tendency to do#i was too excited for what comes after this guy. and i do not care about this circular ape
44 notes
·
View notes
Text
trying to summarize honeybee for an oc zine character booklet thing and. augh
#it's not bad bc i'm not like. coming up with anything on the fly i'm just fighting the urge to Elaborate#i'm trying to get this done tonight bc i forgot the deadline was tomorrow (i've had literal months)#BUT once it's done i'll have a handy summary of what the fuck is going on for anyone who wants an intro to The Bullshit without being#directed to a post that's so long i had to put it under a cut#behind the scenes
3 notes
·
View notes
Text
Just a drawing of my third ever Deleth :v
Lore under the cut as always:
Well, befoe lore, some links:
Her first ref sheet (verly lacking, I need to make her a new one someday) is here: Deleth - Forgotten Queen/The Mad One
For more info about what are Deleths look here: Deleths - what are they?
Some lore of hers is in her sheet, but because I feel so much cringe looking at it I didn't read the description, so I have no idea what is written there. I'll probanly repeat a lot if it here, and maybe even give some more info here.
So... she's a Deleth. She once was a human with ability called "Guiding light", told that with it's help she would bring her kingdom glory, etc. She was also a Princess/Queen of this kingdom called Astoria.
She was supposed to mary a king of neighbouring country (without a name for now), but for some reason (I don't have a reason though up) the king decided to just erase her kingdom from existence. They destroyed everything and killed everyone and made sure any mention of this kingdom from history was also destroyed. They kinda didn't expect her to becoma a Deleth, but since she was a bit (a lot actually) traumatized from everything she didn't do anything at the beggining. The king just went with his plan to erase everything and kill eveyone who managed to surviwe just to make it harder for her to fix everything later.
Well, unfortuantely for her the most loyal knight of this king (this guy, who also need a new sheet, because man, he's ugly) also became a Deleth (which was a big suprise to have two people become Deleths so close to each other). He decided to follow kings order to keep Astoria forgotten many years after the king died and she just wasn't able to go against a knight who literally killed her.
The scar on her neck is her death scar (the only scar that deleths have). The cloth around her waist is the last flag of her kingdom she managed to retrieve from castle's rubble. It's the one and only important thing for her, so you better not even thing of touching it.
She just went and became mad from all of this. You can look at her the wrong way and she might kill you if she's in a bad mood. But if you help her (ex. let her live for free) she will protect you.
She lives in the country that attacked her, mostly because it's absorbed her country inside. And the knight wanted to have an eye on her, so he wouldn't let her leave so easly anyway.
The only records of Astoria are in the Library (the one protected by a harpy deleth), but in a section that isn't open to the public, so no one except the owner can't access them (the kingh basically forced the harpy to make it like that). As for the traveling historian (from one of the ealrier posts), she was basically threatened into signing a pact to keep info about it hidden (She's just waiting for the knight to forget to renew this pact, so she can sneak some information about it into history books again).
I guess that's it for her lore. It was mostly about her country, so I guess it's world lore more than a character lore.
#big wall of text under the cut#so expand at your own risk#also why was it so hard to find a good reference for this pose#there are so many references of people sitting on stairs but nothing like this one (from what i could find)#forgotten queen#mad one#deleth#gamborgia universum#my art#my post#blood#tw. blood#gore#tw. gore#forgot about trigger warnings at first but friend reminded me
2 notes
·
View notes
Text
hometown hypocrisy
and the bloods beating down in the city tonight and no-one will ever sympathize with our plight try to get up, but we just fall down trying to escape this damn hometown
and we got fires burning in our souls and the scars to prove it, what do you know but the rains putting us out drowning our sparks and our shouts
and the fogs setting in rain against my skin and the sky's beating me down wandering my hometown and the roads gotten twisted the old life's gone, i missed it guess it is true, you can never go home again
and the bloods beating down in the city tonight and no-one will ever sympathize with our plight try to get up, but we just fall down trying to escape this damn hometown
and blood seeping through our clothes violence begets violence, don't ya know but these fists are my hometown pride gritted teeth and bloodshot eyes
and the fogs setting in rain against my skin and the sky's beating me down wandering my hometown and the roads gotten twisted the old life's gone, i missed it guess it is true, you can never go home again
'and the bloods beating down' is the 2nd chorus/prechorus [look i changed the structure but im not editing my analysis i dont want it to get longer]
'and the fogs setting in' is the [main]chorus [planned to use a diffrent tone to musicaly distinguish it from teh verses and pre/2nd chorus][is in italics]
and 'we got fires' is teh 1st verse and 'blood seeping thru our clothes' is the second
NOTE: should be spoken or sung for optimal beat with contractions, but for readability has been mostly uncontracted. also idk how to spell what do you know contracted right.
the chorus is much later in the singers life than the pre chorus & the two verses, the hypocrisy is that the singer wants to both escape and go back to his hometown.
the younger singer always uses plural, to symbolize community, until 'these fists are my hometown pride' almost at the end. he refutes the cycle of violence by owning his violence as part of himself- his link to his hometown.
in addition, he has become the active perpetrator of violence, [previous references were 'we all fall down' [something else to him] and 'we got the scars to prove it' which is implied to be violence perpetrated unknowingly to each other because of 'fires burning in our souls'- when they get close, they hurt each other unintentionally] he now links his sense of self to violence, and thus when he loses his ability to do violence, he loses his self, and his link to his hometown, becoming the older singer
but by doing this he also will inevitably refute his hometown, by linking it intrinsically to violence, becoming the older singer who sings the chorus when he can no longer have that link to his self or his hometown because he can no longer do violence [his inability shown by him being 'beaten down' by the rain/oppressive atmosphere], i did want to expand on this, writing more verses to show the fall and how he ended up as the chorus person but it didnt work. heres the scrapped third verse
but soon those fists turned weak what do you know? you aint at your peak stress and violence aint good for your heart and you find that your bodys now falling apart
it can also be seen as by growing up to become a perpetrator and someone with power, he is now distant from his people and community, the solidarity is formed from their shared victimhood so when he steps out of that/rejects it, he loses the community [also becoming part of the violent cycle means getting rejected] [also the chorus says 'twisted road' we dont know what happened to make him fall, thats up to the readers interpretation] [transmasc journey of realizing your masculinity then becoming ostracised][or disability]
"guess its true, you can never go home again" is the only exception to the rhyming scheme, and it gives it emphasis, it was more noticeable before the chorus was squished together [previously each half line was its own line until 'guess its true'] fuck it it can take up space on yalls dashboards its getting split again
'bloodshot eyes' can be interpreted many different ways, from crying to injury to rage, each suggesting different meanings and affecting the text in diffrent ways
#thebirdwrites#poetry#almost 500 words of self analysis under the cut!!!!#this is gonna be in the limbo of song/poem until i cut my nails and get out my guitar#i forgot how much i love poetry#[whats song writing if not sung poetry]#anyway this has been loads of fun#if i plagiarized its country/folk its the genre for it#crow be normal about hometowns and citys and violence and belonging and the loss thereof challenges 2k23 all lost#i do have the beat/tune p solid in my head#but ive never put words to chords and my guitar skills are more its fun to sing along to but my voice is carrying the sound#so we will see if i can replicate whats in my head#but i try not to dictate the way ppl read my works or the meanings the get from it#i like the acceptance of violence as acceptance of masculinity leading to ostrasisation from the comminity of victimhood personaly#or how when victims react 'wrong' in this case violently they are rejected from society#but also the thread of once your self realize you can never go back/home
7 notes
·
View notes