#i hate inviting them over bc interactions are so fucking shallow with me and they clearly care more for everyone else | Explore Tumblr Posts and Blogs

lavend3r-stardust · 8 months

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Idk i just wanna be held and comforted or some sappy shit. I just wanna feel worthy of affection and know that people actually want me for who I am instead of what I do for them, i don't wanna the back-up friend anymore. I don't wanna reach for shit that isnt even there anymore, like i'm trying to hold onto nothing. And i keep embarrasing myself by trying to start talking with them and they just sit there like . . . They don't care. They're not looking at me, they're just working and waiting for someone else. That's all they do. Tolerate me and always talk with other people. They never fucking needed me and that's ok. I'll cut them off for my sake. I can't keep going back to people who don't care for me when i could have better conversations with gravedirt.

#hurts to cut them off because you thought they could be everything you wanted in a friend . . . but you forget about them after a few weeks #they were just an obsession i had for 5 years because i thought they could fill in the gap my old friend left behind when she moved away #clearly they have priorities and i'm not one of them that's fine #i hate inviting them over bc interactions are so fucking shallow with me and they clearly care more for everyone else #it's always those ppl in their circle and i dont feel like i part of them yk? i'm not in the group i just follow them around like a dog #if they can't reach out to me i won't waste my time on them . . . because it's always me who starts conversations and they never do #shira talks #vent post #tw vent #venting #rant post #personal rant

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