#i have a chalazion on my lower eyelid

[thevioletcaptain]

the next customer to ask me "what's wrong with your eye?" is getting thrown into the sea :)

[fandomfluffandfuck]

Guyssss I just came off of a medication that as a side effect of after getting off of it can cause styes/chalazia/infections in the eye to happen which... I have my second one. The first one I was chill with, it hurt whenever I blinked but whatever, no one could really tell it was there. Just lucky ol' me.

This fucking new one?

When I tell you it's Noticeable to strangers... I mean it. It lowkey looks like I got fucking decked in the right eye even though the chalazion is on the Inside of my lower eyelid. Like black-eye territory from the swelling/blocked blood and shit. Like painful even when I'm not blinking. Like I kinda wanna just die lmao.

Anyway- I'm feeling like a big baby for complaining but whatever.

[gayjunebug]

so i have chalazions in both of my lower eyelids and generally it makes me look like i haven't slept for weeks

[herenowbeing]

power

I happen to have this recurring eye chalazion problem 4 times in the past year. Today, I had to visit a doctor for the another episode, which involved a minor surgery, and some potential follow-up visits.

My experience in the last episode was not great as I had to visit the clinic again and again after the surgery to get more and more antibiotics. It seemed that the doctor can't stop asking me to have another follow-up visit. I decided to stop coming despite they suggesting 'a last one'.

This time I found another clinic by some online search. This is one of the few clinics that list their fees for consultation and other services on their website. In the consultation room, the doctor asked me if I need a surgery. I thought I was suppose to ask him that question. He suggested the eye stye surgery anyway, after commenting on my shortsightedness and casually mention the Lazik surgery, which costs about the median monthly salary where I am.

While I was waiting for the doctor to see other patients and the nurses to prepare the operation room, a nurse approached me asking if I need to go to the restroom before getting my eyelid cut. I said I was ready (meaning no restroom needed). I was not sure if she got it but anyway, she showed me the way to restroom, which I had to pass through their optic store first. This reminded me of the parks and recreational places where you always ended up at the gift stores before you can get out of the place.

Before the surgery, the doctor read out loud the consent form, which I had signed on earlier (after I signed, he actually checked if I missed any stroke or mark of my completed signature). The consent form waive their responsibilities in any events that cause damage to my visions, including completely blind. They reassured me that such events were very very rare though. After all I had one before and I know the procedure so I was not too worried about it. They also explained they would make the cut from the inside so I would not have any visible scar on my eye lid.

The doctor started with injecting the local anaesthesia to my eye lid and immediately, they informed me that just now they realised that they had two cuts, one from the inside, one from the outside because there were two styes. I am not a doctor but I can tell there are two styes by looking at me in the mirror. Did he just conveniently omit that point at the time of consent form signing and conveniently mention it after the injection? Was he afraid that mentioning 2 cuts plus the scar would lower the chance of me agreeing with the surgery? I sighed. The nurse was 'helpful' to mention that there would be extra charges for this cut, followed by a 'complain' by the doctor for mentioning this issue at this time. Was I in a position to stop this operation now? I sighed.

The surgery seemed to be successful. The fee was within the range I was informed earlier and aligned with their fee schedule on the website. It costed me more than my monthly expenses excluding the rent. Last time when I tried to claim these medical bills, the organisation I worked for did not reimbursed me. I got a lot of 'questions' from the HR personnel because 'my medical leave was on a weekend'?!? I decided to stop pursuing the claim in exchange for not having to communicate for such an absurd reason. This time I do not even intent to submit the claim.

I was not happy with the script they ran me through the whole experience (from the natural marketing of the optic store, to the plan to make sure I would do the cut). To make it worse, I was given a black umbrella as 'new year gift', the kind that would probably break after one season, which I refused. I already had a very good one and I do not want to have more stuffs that I do not need.

To finish off, before I got home, I received 2 text messages on my phones from 2 strangers advertising loan and gambling services, which I rarely got. The clinic assistants must have keyed in the information I put in on their patient form.

In this design of the society, everyone has their own 'power' in a certain area (simply speaking, it is a situation when they can cheat without/unlikely getting into troubles). Doctors have 'power' in hospitals; HR personnel have 'power' when it comes to employment and benefit matters; waiters have the 'power' at the restaurants when they have to bring your more food after being treated badly by diners; room maids have the 'power' when cleaning rooms in hotels.

I had the intention to have a surgery in the first place when I came in at the clinic today and the outcomes between them 'playing game' with me or not would not be so different, but I had played an unfair game. Even with wisdom and having your gut telling you what is really going one, if you are not the one holding power, it is unlikely that you can 'win over' a situation involving corrupted power.