#i have subclinical traits soooo

[dead-core]

i know people love me but i am a black hole and it's just not enough. hope this helps!

[woman-respecter]

omg i know this is a couple days later but i found your post about the people id’ing as autistic now and THANK YOU. it legit makes me feel… i’m not sure i have words for the emotions? for context i was diagnosed with autistic disorder in the dsm-4(!) when i was a little kid (which was then updated to asd when the dsm-5 was released), so i am like, Certifiably autistic. and it’s making me feel shrimp emotions that the same people who have either outright bullied me for being autistic or who have said Incredibly ableist things if they weren’t outright bullying me (again, specifically about my autism) starting to id as autistic now. the thing is i really do think a lot of them are actually autistic but they’re so incredibly misinformed and taking up so much space online it’s making me feel uncomfortable. the amount of misinformation makes me angry—i can’t really engage with autistic communities anymore because so many of the “symptoms” and experiences described are just symptoms of adhd, or trauma, or a thing that some autistic people do but that isn’t specifically a trait or symptom of autism, and actual autistic symptoms and experiences are being uwu-ified to the point that they’re almost unrecognizable. for example, i don’t know how to explain to people that meltdowns aren’t minor episodes of mutism/crying/something you feel slightly embarrassed about having in public, they’re something where if you have one in public, there’s a good chance the cops will be called on you—they’re SCARY! and i feel guilty about saying and feeling this because i’m pro self-dx and like i said, i really do think a lot of these people are actually autistic and just subclinical or with almost negligible support needs. but i feel uncomfortable expressing this… because the same people who i’m concerned about are the same people who bullied me and i’m sure they will again if i say anything. 🙃 sorry for the rant but tl;dr thank you for making that post, it made me feel seen haha ❤️

ugh im sorry you’ve had to deal with that shit, it makes me soooo mad. and ur being so much nicer about it than i would be bc i legit do not feel like these normies have the right to id as autistic for these very Normal People traits after bullying the fuck out of us real weirldos. yes i know that thats a mean and irrational thing to say but its how i feel. and i hate the loss of community that its resulted in bc autistic spaces are now filled with these tiktok girlies i cannot relate to at all. anyways im glad that i could at least make u feel seen, sending u my love 🫶