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silverislander · 3 months

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idk if it's genuine excitement or the energy drink i had earlier that's actually letting me focus and work but dude. i am CRUSHING this essay. this is Fun To Write. i think i'm actually doing a really good job here. wtf. i love my major man

#i am a LITTLE bit sad i cant do grad school bc like. im going to miss writing essays and researching and all once i graduate #i do genuinely like doing it. call me a nerd or whatever but i love it esp when its on smth fun and interesting like this #now im not sad enough to actually DO grad school lmao #unless i got offered a scholarship or smth idk. wont happen but. hm. if it did.#seriously tho. i would think more seriously abt it if it werent for my adhd. i just dont think its realistic for me #as much as i like my field i dont think i have the ability to focus well enough to complete the work id need to complete #i went to the meeting abt grad school i learned abt what it requires/why people do it and all. i just dont think i can do that #and bc i ultimately cant get diagnosed -> cannot get help/medication thats not going to improve any time soon #after years of learning how to adapt and work with my brain this is probably the best i can do without medical/institutional intervention #its not worth paying a shitload of money and possibly setting my career back by years only to fail out yk?#im not too torn up abt it. ill give it more thought if it becomes relevant but rn its not really on my radar #ive done an excellent job in school! im getting an honours degree (hopefully)! most people dont even get that far #a lot of people with my condition dont even get into university let alone graduate. im incredibly lucky to be able to do what i can #levi.txt #this is all over the place but takeaway is im having a good time! things are coming together i feel confident in my work #im gathering theorists and sources for the section on night of the living dead and having a blast #ive got my examples all lined up my arguments make sense in my head i know where to look for applicable theories etc etc #i just need supporting quotes and im working on that rn!! it hasnt even been that hard #ok. back to work. i need to harness the power of caffeine once more (made my brain quiet) (no longer full of bees) (im in charge)

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