#i kimda want more of this tho

[goops-art]

Watashi no chou fukisoku ni tobimawa-

In other words hope you may enjoy my bullshit and get to hate it as much as i do if i wasnt laughting my ass off.

[missbrunettebarbie]

Rush - initial thoughts

Rush dropped at 2 a.m. here and I def couldn't afford to listen to it when it came out, I needed to sleep. But at 3.30 or so I had a nightmare and I woke up. Since I couldn't go back to sleep immediately, I decided to listen to one new song from Rush, to see how the album is like. And one song turned into all seventeen, because this album is that good! Here are my initial ratings:

1. Own my mind -10/10 What a way to start the album! A banger! Probably in my top 5 (although this is so hard to figure out, there are a lot of choices!)

2. Gossip - 9/10 Gets a lot of points for the lyrics, but as fun as it is, it kinda pales in comparasion to other songs. Mostly because this album is banger after banger.

3. Timezone -10/10 Best ballad on the album, hands down. Honestly, this should have been the single instead of The Loneliest. It's honest, raw and gets stuck in your head.

4. Bla Bla Bla - 7/10. The intial spoiler made me think that would be a skip, but nope, it's actually pretty fun. Also, I saw its storyline and I have to say, I love that they are creating this fictional characters and writing from their perspective. (And not to overshare, but in this particular case, I feel like I knew some people that probably think like this narrator.) They still have a long way to go before these fictional characters are well-rounded, but everyone needs to start somewhere. I love how the music serves the lyrics, so I understand why it gets so repetitive, but yeah, it's still grating.

5. Baby Said - 10/10 SINGLE, SINGLE, SINGLE! I am gonna say it over and over again, until the universe makes it happen. As soon as the song ended, I felt the need to listent to it again! Def a top 3 for me! Oh, and of course, I almost forgot to mention how much I love the theme, and rn in this moment of my life, I kimda can't relate. (Which is a bit painful, yup)

6. Gasoline - 10/10 I waited a long time for the studio version, and it didn't disappoint! Is this my favorite of the entire album? Maybe, I don't know! But it's up there.

7. Feel -9/10 Mindless fun and I love it!

8. Don't wanna sleep - 10/10 A banger, and very relatable! What more can you want?

9. Kool Kids - 3/10 .....What the hell is this?! My one skip on this album, apparently. Honestly, if I it wasn't for the live versions -and I can't say I am fond of thos either- it would have an even lower score. You know how all these people were afraid Rush would all sound like Supermodel. Yeah, that was me with Kool Kids when it was first played live. And somehow this version is ten times worse.

10. If not for you - 7/10. The second half is overall the weaker half, and this ballad kinda sets the tone for it. It's not bad at all, it's just kinda forgettable.

11. Read your diary -9/10 Again, love that they write from a fictional character's persepctive. Better than Bla Bla Bla, but it still needs to be a bit...more.

12. Mark Chapman -10/10 When I listened to it in the middle of the night -without paying attention to the lyrics because my Italian is not that good when I am sleepy- I thought it was a great earworm of a melody. Then I put it again in the morning, planning to pay attention to the lyrics, but forgot to because the melody is that great! Then, as a last resort, I muted the video and read the lyrics. Thankfully my language skills were good enough to pick up almost everything and let me tell you, I got chills. I had planned to read the English translation after, in case I missed anything, but I couldn't! Because this song paints a very chilling and scary picture! Damn! The true masterpiece IMO.

13. La fine - 10/10 I mean, I knew this before, so I knew what I was getting aka Italian rock perfection.

14. Il dono della vita -7/10 Look, I love Italian too, but this is not the strongest ballad here! Damiano's vocals are beautiful and I like -not love- the instrumental, but they don't marry well together! (Pun intended xDD) I had to look up the lyrics because my Italian may have gotten better, but it's not that good, and idk if it's google translate or what, but even lyrically, this one doesn't feel as raw and interesting as say, Timezone. I know a lot of people love it because it sounds like Teatro D'Ira -and the band confirmed it was written for it - but to me it sounds like a TDI reject. Like they put it here to reach some quota of Italian songs.

15. Mammamia -10/10 I mean, at this point, this is iconic, so is there anything more to say about it?

16. Supermodel -8/10 I did say that the second side is the weakest -not overly so, but still- one, and sadly that's the side of the singles. And as much as I like Supermodel, it pales in comparasion to other songs here. Still, it's fun.

17. The Loneliest - 8/10 When it came out, the song left me cold. I mean, I loved that the band was experimenting, but for me it was meh. In the midtime, the song definitely grew on me. I wasn't sure if I should give it a 8 or 9, but it loses points for being the album closer. I mean, for me, it doesn't really feel like a closer at all. Idk how I would have ended the album, there don't seem to be any good choices available, but this one feels like a really ??? choice.

Overall score: 8,64

[ask-my-ocs-goldeneclipse]

idk anything about your ocs but please tell me about them (most notable ocs & how many you have) i want to get into the goldeneclipseverse

Originally I was gonna answer this with any but I decided that all asks directed to me instead of my ocs will just be. A text post. I will be answering asks to my blorbos with art tho

The most notable ocs have to be the main character, love interest, villain, and those badass side characters so I'll go over those :3

I have too many ocs to count btw

So of course the main character is one of the most notable characters, so let's talk about Devanna. Btw I have their names in color bc all the people I'm about to talk about use she/her pronouns.

Devanna is the main character, though being the second person to die in the whole friend group (they all have to die at some point) and of course has her love interests Uni/Allisa (2 names for her ig) and Angelica. She ends up marrying Angelica though falling for Uni first. Uni liked her back too but Angelica decided to be a fucking homewrecker an- ahem Angelica confessed before Uni could :3. In the end Angelica marrying Devanna is what caused her demise (if you think hard enough). So uhh Angelica was a homewrecker and killed the main character yippee

The love interests! (I talked about them above but I'll go more in depth)

So Uni was the one that showed Devanna around the school, taught her some life lessons, was her mental support and like kimda her therapist. Yeah they were like. Totally crushing on each other (doomed yuri teehee) but Angelica her other love interest had to go ahead and try to take her away from her. Even Ginger tried to stop them from getting together but nope :/

After Angelica started dating Devanna, Uni had nobody to help her in her mental state and with no relatives or friends she got crippling depression. Self harmed herself too :(

After Devanna died she tried to kill Ginger (everyone thought he killed Devanna) but ended up not being able to bring herself to do it. Then they became friends. Eventually dead Devanna learned that Uni loved her and uh. It gets complicated

Da villians 🔥🔥

We have Ginger, The Almighty, King of Oozlings, and The Puppeteer with their right hand woman. Ginger cursed (it allowed him to take-over Devanna',s body btw) Devanna in an attempt to make her and Angelica break up cuz he still loved Angelica. But the dumbass forgot to read the fine print and The Almighty took over his body instead. Then The Almighty killed Devanna <3 (dw that's the very end of the story)

Really Ginger just wanted his lover back. He didn't want to kill her. And The Almighty just wanted his mom back.

The King of Oozlings basically controlled all the oozlings. Oozlings are basically zombies but they have this black ooze coming out of their mouth and eyes. He really just wanted to fiz humanity though. The world was shit so he decided to become this very powerful being to make it not shit. He failed.

The Puppeteer controlls everyone. Every villain was made by him. Every terrible thing that happened to people was because of her. Every thing is under their control. They have no excuse (he goes by all pronouns btw) and her right hand woman just wanted free will.

I don't want to ramble anymore so some cool side characters are Ponnie, Magmar, Radianta, Frost, and Luna. Send em an ask!

Anyways I'd prefer if you send asks directed to the ocs instead of me but uh I'll do posts like these sometimes :3

Bai!!

[vampireskull]

thinking about how the relationship w two of my best friends is completely broken

[ellewords]

Hi Elle! It's been quite awhile since I dropped by. Uni has been so hectic 😩 There are so many writers too who aren't as active now due to uni workload. Well anyhow, I saw you have another written on the margins abt first dates, and I hope youre doing well! Here goes Ushijima on your first date

▪︎Let's be real, awkward as heck, but you see him trying tho 🥺

▪︎Prior to your date, he asks you to dress up✨ (gives you a hint that it'll be prddy fancy 😬)

▪︎Fetches you at your house, and you see him all lookin a little more dashing than the usual 🥵

▪︎When you finally settle in his car, he reaches for the back seat and brings out a beautiful boquet of roses surrounded by carnations 💐

▪︎Gives it to you with a small, nervous smile 😩 but ofc you love it! So you thank him, and see him exhale through his mouth, all relieved and has a soft smile as he starts the car engine and holds the steering wheel. Then he looks back at your blushing face and gives you a reassuring smile

▪︎He brings you to the restaurant of a 4 star hotel because our man's a heck of a spoiler 😌

▪︎You knew you needed to break the ice more since the guy is kimda clueless but still he still would want you to have a good time nevertheless,. So he tries to answer your questions and attempts to ask things about you as well. There's something about his little awkwardness that makes him more charming <3 he tries real good okay 🥺

▪︎You had a great dinner but, even a greater drive home. The both of you were more comfortable in the car, rather in that fancy place. So there were a number of jokes, giggling, soft laughters, and ice breakers.

▪︎He steps at the break pedal and you're now infront of your house, both peeking at your home.

▪︎You look back at him but he was already looking at you. "Thank you so much for tonight, Toshi" you say with a soft genuine smile. "I really had a great time, and these flowers are beautiful. Thank you."

▪︎Still holding your gaze, he responds "Thank you for allowing me to take you out y/n. I had a wonderful night..." His smile grew just a tad bigger "...with a wonderful girl."

▪︎You couldn't hold his gaze anymore and eyes wondering at the ground and other psrts of the car since you got so flustered. You just give him a shy smile, looking at him under you lashes, while he's still looking and admiring your beautiful face.

▪︎He pecks your forehead "Good night, beautiful." 💜

▪︎You gracefully get out of his car, and when you're inside your house, you practically run to your room bec you're basically screaming inside and loosing all your screws 🥴😫😵

-👒

— from elle ! okay you can’t keep making me imagine ushi in those outfits because i will actually scream >_< i just know he would look so so good ugh what do i have to do to get an ushijima in my life ??? literally what ?? because i will actually do it :<< anyways, thoughts + additions ( i’m picking up where you left off for this one ) under the cut as usual :)) tysm for sending this in and i hope you are having a lovely day and uni isn’t treating you too terribly <33

notes : timeskip!ushijima x f!reader, headcanons, pure fluff, wc: ~0.5k

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okay so while you are screaming into a pillow, dancing around your room, trying to find a vase for the bouquet he gave you, ushijima is freaking out just as much, though not exactly outwardly or directly

like the true gentleman he is, ushijima waits for you to enter your home before actually leaves your street ; baby boy just wants to make sure you get back inside okay

anyways, ushijima doesn’t strike me as the type to go up to a stranger, or someone he’d only just met, and ask them out on a date. no, he has to have liked you for a while now. so him asking you out on that date is the culmination of months of pent up emotions and trying to convince himself that what he felt towards you didn’t go beyond friendship.

which is why he spent the entirety of his drive home with a small smile on his face, replaying the events of the night in his head : the way you looked in that dress, the conversations the two of you had, the way you smiled when he kissed your forehead

for a while, he never really got what the phrase “butterflies in the stomach” could possibly mean. but after your first date, he understood it perfectly ; the way you made him feel like he was floating on air, the way his heart fluttered.

ushijima would be the type to turn his phone off during the date, wanting all of his attention on you alone. so when he finally gets home and turns it on for the first time that night, he’s immediately greeted with tons of text messages.

a lot of which were from the adlers’ groupchat, his teammates asking how his date went. ushijima never really told them directly that he was interested in you, his teammates kind of just knew every time you would come and watch them practice or go to one of their games that you were basically off limits ; hoshiumi tried flirting with you once and oooof—-

anyways, he texts the team back with that same giddy smile he wore on the drive home but now it’s coupled with a light blush on his cheeks as he recounted the general details of the date ; he uses emojis (that isn’t the smiley face or the thumbs up) for the first time and that’s how the team knew his night went well.

even as he prepares for bed, he’s still thinking of you, already preparing on how he’s going to ask for a second date. listen, it would break his heart if this was just a one time thing :(

but luckily for him, it isn’t. you text him just before he goes to sleep, inviting him out on a second date, maybe something more casual or just a nice, quiet night in. a grin spreads across his face, immediately agreeing

needless to say, his dreams that night were the sweetest — all of them filled with you <3

tldr; ushijima date me challenge.

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[onabikaa]

Anyway CHECK 7 PART TWO, a summary @fugoukeiji-blog

Holy shit this is just. Ryo. Pining ex shenanigans, holy shit.

It starts off with two mobs discussing the rumour of Haru Kato flying to America apparently

“So he’s like, quitting? The MCPTF??”

“I heard he was recruited by some head of the fbi there or something..”

“that’s too bad..he really was my type,, so i was totally shocked”

And i quote, the other replied, “i know right?? I totally get that..”

These bitches simp for Haru. *scribbles down in the list of Haru’s Harem Members* the more the merrier i guess

Anyway

“You think it’s because of the money? It can’t be helped then..”

Cue Hoshino enters, who was eavesdropping happened to listen to a part of the convo

Hoshino: Kato-senpai..who refused to transfer back to 1st Division,,NO WAY WOULD HE QUIT THE POLICE BECAUSE OF MONEY”

And then he’s like telling himself, “no, no. This has nothing to do with you. Stop, Hoshino.”

Then kamei walks in, who attempts to ask whats wrong, and is immediately pounced on by ryo for more info on kato-san

Kamei says that it’d be bad if he revealed anything and then proceeds to run

Ryo lures him out by messaging him under Sacchan’s name , telling him to come meet

And theyre in some restaurant i think?? Some bar??

And ryo says, and i quote

“This is just simply confirmation/verification of the facts. It’s not like I’m especially interested in Kato-san or anything!! >//~///<“

“It’s just that-Kambe and Kato-san- - - - the two of them...”

Kamei: Flying all around the world together in search of adollium as usual, right?

Kamei: oop im saying way too much

And then Ryo proceeds to get him drunk to get more info (bro pls tone down the stalkerish overtones you’re serious creeping me out-jk jk)

And then Kamei makes a comment abt how Haru has to go to America due to bad luck, or like, fix something that he caused

And then Ryo loses it at this point and orders six more bottles of alcohol -wheeze-

And kamei’s trying to leave and ryo is like “sit your ass down and listen to my woes or i tell on your skinny ass to Sacchan”

And this point, while Ryo is rambling about “how kato-san has no business going to America! What America! What FBI! Don’t underestimate the Metropolitan police!”

And he starts crying......

Haru shows up like “ wow man how’d you get so drunk??”

Ryo: holy shit Senpai?? Why are you here??

Haru: youre being bothersome is why. Whats up??

Kamei: He’s been persistently asking why you’re going to go to such a place like America, Kato-san. Well, I leave the rest up to you~!

Haru: Eh-...Ah….That’s not really anything special….It’s not a big deal.

Ryo: It is a big deal! You’re quitting being a police officer, aren’t you!? What is all this talk about being an FBI Academy lecturer?

Haru: Um, Hoshino?

Ryo: Is it because of money?! Do you want money so much that you would even refuse to transfer to the First Division!?

Haru: Hoshino, listen-

Ryo: And here I thought that we could work together again! With this...don’t I….seem like a complete idiot! Uuuuuuuuh (tn: I think this is him crying)

Haru: Geez, you really are an idiot

Ryo: Who’s an idiot! Kato-san is the idiot!

THESE ARE ALL DIRECT TRANSLATIONS

(Lmao tsun tsun ryo)

Haru: jesus christ

So it turns out haru has aunt who lives in america that was saved by a woman who works in the fbi, and now his aunt has taken a liking to her and wants him to come over for a formal marriage interview, but since she’s the niece of the head, the rumour spread around in REALLY weird ways.

Omg that is peak asian culture

So now he’s going to America even tho he doesn’t have money

Holy shit does that mean kambe paid for his trip?? Holy shit imagine the pain of having to fund a blind date for the love of your life and YOURE NOT EVEN THERE oof

...I may have tricked myself into rlly believing daisuke is in love with haru

Anyway haru was kimda embarassed abt the whole date thing so he just. Didn’t tell ryo

But Ryo’s already asleep. Has been since the start of his explanation

So he’s missed all that

Haru: are you rlly gonna sleep like that??

Haru: hah,,what am i gonna do with this guy (fondly)

And then the moment is ruined because Haru has to pay for all their alcohol. Total is 30,800 yen.

And now i think he has to drag back ryo to his home

Haru, your kindness really knows no bounds. Please marry me

[thisisanude]

i genuinely don’t understand the purpose of living like i feel like every single year of my life i get less and less happy and it’s usually the worst during the fall/winter season (do i have seasonal depression i mean that’s extremely possible) but something about this year feels so different like every single episode i’ve had in my life where i wanted to die i ended up getting over it in a few weeks or months at most or so but like it never completely went away and the lengths to which i hate myself and everything about me is just like astronomical even tho i will most likely never get into the details of that as they can be triggering for people (also i don’t like talking about my feelings i mean ig im doing that rn but like this is a broad statement ya kno like nothing specific i’m just saying i wanna die) but this year it just feels so much worse so so so much worse than any past years Funk i’ve been in and like. my cat ALWAYSSSSS made me feel so much better he was there for me every single time i was sad like idk he could just sense it and that kimda kept me goin but now i don’t have that and i don’t feel comfortable sharing my true feelings with anyone and sometimes i share them with my bf but feel immense immense guilt afterwards because i know it makes him very upset to see me upset. and it’s just like i was alwyas scared about my future but tried not to think about it because like it was a Pronlem For Later but now i am engulfed in the Future and i feel so stupid for taking all the past years of my life for granted bc even tho i wasn’t happy all of the time, it was easier to be. likethen even if i was upset or going through something i got distracted pretty easily and was able to feel happy still way more often than i do now.but with each year it is being taken away from me and i just feel more and more upset and after my cat died it just felt like everything exploded like all those years that i was able to push that feeling away? have all exploded on me for not dealing with it then and now it’s like i’m dealing with them all at once. and everything i do pisses me the fuck off i get more and more sensitive every year to the point that it’s gotten absolutely ridiculous how little of things can upset me so immensely. i am constantly angry at myself and want to die so badly and not to be like hehe “triggered” but like so many things trigger me like i’ll never say anything about it of course never ever ever but like genuinely ridiculous how many things trigger me into feeling bad bad it’s just like.

[irlyloveweed420]

just ramble lmao

i wanna stop smoking weed to help maintain my fasting but my mom will most likely notice & question it. she's already suspicious about my sating habbits, i think its just mother insintic. we have a really strong connection(my phone is at 69% rn). i hate saying i'm ugly bc people say i look like my mom & my mom is the most beautiful women in history, so it just doesnt feel right. i feel like my weight makes me look uglier. i also love weed too much to just quit tbh. a dispensary in aj was sealing $60 OUNCES guys. i got one ounce to myself B) i'm at work rn & im high af& have nothing to do lol so i'll probably delete this later. if anyone is even reading this lmao. i feel like when i eat i fail & i'm "bad at my eating disorder". i've told a few ppl about my problems & i even let one of my coworkers follow me & everytime i eat around them i feel like they don't believe me. i'm at a normal weight, people say im skinny. idk how. it makes me sad in a way, i'm siting here hungry as fuck trying to see what everyone else easily sees. thinking about college again & i cant ever focus so yikes lmao. also i like this girl but im not confident at all so nothing will be done about it lol. maybe when i lose more weight i'll get the confidence.liittyyy.i literally went on a drive to phoenix & asu to my house in east mesa to aviod the family dinner. only to come home & binge. wasted so much gas but at least i know how to get to asu now lmao. i still magaed to lose 2lbs which is nice but i feel so shitty when i eat. i like being in control of food, there was so many things i couldn't control in my adolescence years but now as an adult im being in control of my eating habbits, other things too like i'm able to control my finances i've gotten good at not overspending.the trick is to not shop high. hot topic doesnt have a lot of scene shit & im upset. scene is dead & im having a hard time accepting it. its like im a slave to food. saying that realized that im getting worse lol like yeah we're slaves to food bc we need it??? i miss not feeling guilty everytime i eat. i really want a boyfriend or girlfriend but i feel like im too fat & im not pretty enough. the person i like is bigger than me & i still think she's beautiful but i can't apply that to myself. i feel like i'll only be pretty if i was thin& so many people around me are beautiful despite weight. i guess i just hate myself that much. i lost my juul already smh. i cant stop drinking diet coke like 1- its cheap 2- i hate tea & black coffee too much to physically swallow. i think its preventing me from losing weight as fast but it helps w cravings & saved me from binging a few times:) i just need taste, the juul really helps. i love the cram brulee (idk how to spell... i was so bad at spelling bees in elementary school in 6th grade i just spelt the first word wrong on purpose bc i didnt wanna waste my time)(also one time in 8th grade we had to run a mile around the school & i walked the entire way i was the last one ppl were waiting for me when i got back lol i'm still kimda proud of that)(when my older brother was im high school he straight up calculated how much he was to do to get a c i love him lmao) anyways i love mint anything starving make the breath stank tbh. it nice. this post is everywhere . its so cold put i fucking hate winter. i miss being a lifeguard i hope they rehire me lol maybe not but for now i can just believe. my coworkers were bitches tho it made the job harder. my boss was the sweetest & understanding person. her dad pasted away the summer of 2k17& her sister died im the summer of 2k18& one of her kittens died. she doesn't deserve that. i love her. i cant see myself dying from anyother cause than suicide. i've done coke like 7 or 8 times i lost track. i once took molly at a rave from someone i didnt know. i got in two car accidents literally 3 weeks apart. the 1st one was a butterfly effect type of thing, my friends car has a faulty airbag& was braking for a red light so she only hit this old dude going about 20mp & he just came out of nowhere out of a lot.