#i literally have no one to hang out w for the whole summer like 😭 there’s my one roommate i’d feel comfortable w hanging out w one on one

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[venuscnjunctpluto]

My first astrology observation

Credit: @venuscnjunctpluto

(Pls excuse the book at the end y’all I’m just sick of straight men)

*Black men w virgo rising either have dreads that they let hang in front of their eyes or they want dreads that they let hang in front of their eyes😭

*actors with mars-pluto aspects or Scorpio mars can play convincing psychopaths and villians (dacre Montgomery, drew starkey, ethan cutkosky)

*Saweetie and Mariah the scientist are Unconfirmed Taurus risings idgaf

*I have Pisces and Neptune in my 11th and when I tell you pisces can be so manipulative. I’ve been friends w all types of Pisces placements. Esp when Aries in is in mix they know exactly how to act like children and therefore literally be seen as children (zero accountability). For example chrisean rock whose a Pisces w an Aries mars.

* the biggest players are Scorpio/libra placement men by FARRR. They’ll flirt with anybody and they’ll befriend people who they know for a fact are interested in them romantically. You’ll know that they like when you they never “leave” you in any way, when they try to help you anyway they can, and when they change themselves for you (as terrible as that is that’s the truth). Lemme say after a break-up or any situation they feel wronged their hoe phase is terrible. They don’t gaf at ALL and my friend even got caught up (he spent the whole summer flirting w her after his gf dumped him and then ignored her once we got back to campus) she still doesn’t want to believe he was playing her.

*Im sorry but any prominent sag + Scorpio placements scare tf out of me. I had a stalker with a sag rising Scorpio Venus and mars and my cousin had an obsessive fwb w a sag rising Scorpio moon. Ted Bundy had hella sag and Scorpio on his chart. They have the humor and impulsiveness of a Sagittarius mixed with the intensity and passion of a Scorpio. I think it’s hard for people to realize how insane they are because they’re too busy cracking jokes😫

* 8h stellium natives we see the REAL in people like they come around us and act a mf fool

*women w Lilith inspecting ascendant🤝 Venus-Lilith aspects

*Me w an Aries rising 🤝 men w mars ruled venuses (Aries and Scorpio)

*Can we talk about why a lot of gemini Venuses have race fetishes😭 they’ll literally seek out certain races usually a group they’re not apart of

*8th house synastry is very strange to me. From my experience staring is very real, manipulative, and a lot of push-pull dynamics no thank you😮‍💨

*One really weird thing is I notice men who date younger women always have a cap mars like wtf. They seem to really like the power dynamics involved.

*Ok so me and my friend whose a female both have Venus conjunct pluto at like 2 degrees. I met a guy born a day after me and so did she (so they had Venus Pluto as well) We were intrigued because I’ve had my share of strange relationships but i noticed how light his energy was (the guys whose birthday was near mine). He didn’t really give off the same energy. i truly think it represents a guy’s relationship with women not necessarily him. I have seen women obsess over them but the women always had Scorpio energy in their natal chart already. also have a Madonna whore complex real mf bad so watch out. The WOMEN around them have Plutonian energy already and that’s why 8/10 they’re involved w Scorpio women. I’ve seen the same thing with women w mars-pluto (my mom has this conjunction and my step-dad is a Scorpio). Venus-Pluto men are not magnetic but with the way women (usually Scorpio influenced) act around them makes them think they are and they can become addicted to this attention. Yes other men can be jealous of how women act around them but sometimes they see the Venus-pluto man’s thirsty ways. I’ve seen men w this placement cross their friends for attention from girls. I met this guy w Venus square pluto and he seemed funny at first but he was so sleazy and childish when it came to talking to women I didn’t even wanna be around him. They also have a “type” usually. I’ve seen two men with this placements date girls who look like they could be sisters it’s very weird. I also believe Venus-Pluto men usually end up w women who have money *coughs* city boys or come from better financial situations than them while Venus-pluto women usually have the money they had before a relationship (even if through family). Ex: Beyoncé, Nicola Peltz, Ryan Destiny. You wanna see some real magnetism (and transformative chaos) find a woman w Venus Pluto and a man w mars Pluto🫦

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OKAY im finally alone so TW for anyone reading this, i will be mentioning rape & knives/scars.

i'll try to make this short but the summer before i went into 10th grade, i had hung out w this guy and i really did just wanna hang out and go for a drive, but he thought i wanted to hook up. i definitely did not because i was a virgin and never done anything with a guy at all. he was a senior and a lot bigger than me and forced me into having sex w him, i kept saying no and stop and take me home but he just kept getting angrier and eventually held a knife to my like pubic bone? pelvis? just down there idk. so i caved. i hated every second and cried but i stopped fighting. i haven't had sex since then, im 20 years old now and i haven't even been fingered by a guy, never given or received head, and never given a handjob. and im honestly really embarrassed about it and wanna have sex with someone SO BADLY but im scared.

the main reason i'm scared isn't because i'm scared i'll be forced into it again, although that is absolutely in the back of my mind. i'm completely fine now and over the situation, but it does worry me that i could get overwhelmed and the guy im with wouldn't wanna stop. but my bigger fear which im 100x more embarrassed of, is what a guy is gonna think when he sees my pussy. now hear me out bc i know that sounds weird😭 but all throughout high school i always heard guys make comments about how ugly this girls pussy is or how gross this girls is and it terrified me. but now i'm even more scared because of what that guy did to me, he literally cut into my skin and left scars. what is a guy gonna think when he sees that? how am i supposed to explain all this? i just i have a lot of questions and concerns but i'm a fucking 20 year old "virgin" if i can even call myself that, i've technically had sex but i didn't want it so idk if i even count that as a body. i just have been panicking over this for forever and have no idea what to do, if you have any advice at all i'd really appreciate it so so much

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Oh baby :-(. Im so sorry this happened to you. You were really young and you didn’t deserve that whatsoever, if you can feel it im giving you a hug thru the phone. Im so so so sorry and i hope that man is dead in a ditch somewhere 🤍

On the other hand, i promise you you have nothing to worry about at all. Im telling you rn and i know it sounds so corny and lame and everybody always says this but its true, the right person is not going to judge you for anything and im so Fr when i say that. Trust when i was in high school guys would say all kinda stupid shit like that about girls in the school and it never bothered me because i knew there was at least one person out there who wouldn’t care about anything other people would talk shit about, and i was right 🤷🏻‍♀️ There’s so many people out there who would find u beautiful the way u are and just because some guys in the past thought in that immature goofy ass way doesn’t mean every guy will you know what i mean?

Babe, my only advice for you is to stay the way you are, hang out w ur frennies and the right person is gon come trust. It’ll come when you aren’t looking for it or worrying about it, when you least expect it to be honest. What you went through was horrible and it might be the worlds way of saying you gotta give yourself time before exploring that area of your life yanno. There’s NOTHINGGG wrong with being a virgin at any age let alone 20. You’re still young and you have ur whole life ahead of you. Don’t worry about this, when it happens it’s gonna be fine you’ll see it

Thank you so much for trusting me to be vulnerable with, im sorry if im treating you too delicately im just speaking thru the soul rn 😭 And again im sorry this happened to you. Even if i dont know u i love u a lot and im proud of you for moving past the situation despite how hard it might’ve been

Also im sorry for taking awhile to get back to you, i just scrolled through my inbox and finally found this

[sexyandhedonistic]

hey queen!! just wanted to share a sp success story :)

so i’ve been into loassumption for a few years now (got into manifesting back on tiktok in 2020) but i kept doing stuff wrong and not really understanding it. i accidentally manifested this guy i wanted to like me to STALK me, which was not fun 😭 bc i was writing “blah blah is obsessed with me” 300 times a day and not making up any other nice new parts to the story (our relationship to one another was already complicated) but that’s not my success that’s an example of how confused i was and how wrong i was doing things lol. i’ve known since i was 17 (21 now) that our perceptions create our reality but i had a hard time creating new perceptions or understanding why that worked. so after struggling with my circumstances and the 3D and failed manifestations, this summer i decided i was going to take a serious approach to it and now i actually understand that everything we assume is true becomes true no matter how frivolous. SO my success story - after messing up so bad with the last guy i liked (the stalker guy) in 2020, i manifested a new guy into my life in 2021 but yk back then i was unnecessarily complicating things for myself so i made our circumstances sooo complicated 😭 and for the last year and a half i’ve gone back and forth on manifesting him liking me back bc i didn’t realize until this summer that i literally have full control and no one has free will in my reality. he goes to school in another state (im okay with this bc im manifesting getting a job offer and moving there in a few months) and he wasn’t supposed to be in our hometown in august at the same time i would be, but since may (the last time i saw him) i’d been saying to myself “i don’t care, i will see him in august, he will be home in august” so since this is my reality i did see him in august when i said i would!! but that’s not all!! all summer i’ve been manifesting that he’s in love with me etc etc, and the whole time i’ve known him i’ve been manifesting him having a crush on me just by genuinely believing and even seeing in the 3D (tho for some time i was using the 3D as confirmation which i know now is a biiiig NO) that he had feelings for me too. last december i had a total manifestation fail with him bc although i’ve manifested him to be my dream guy and treat me so well, i will just randomly switch up on myself bc i had abusive parents so sometimes i have a hard time wrapping my mind around that someone can love me lol, so he’d get close and then i’d push it all away! i’d start spiraling and telling myself he didn’t like me and things were too complicated with him, so then of course in the 3D he’d start pulling away 😭 like i just self sabotaged to the max and didn’t realize it until it was too late and he’d gone back to school again. and i like when he goes back to school bc it’s easier for me to see the situation clearly when i’m not so hyperfocused on him if that makes sense. so anyway back to seeing him recently, we were hanging in a group and we got even more close and he was talking about wanting to see me one on one before he goes back to school and wanting me to visit him at school! so i was like okay yes! so the other day i texted him, but IMMEDIATELY started self sabotaging that he didn’t like me and he wouldn’t text me back bc he didn’t really wanna hang out w me etc etc. for almost a whole day after texting him i was just despairing and wallowing and crying over it, just bc he didn’t text me back lol. the next day he still hadnt replied and i was sooo upset, (look at me reacting to the 3D and putting his ass on a pedestal 🥴 goofy) like i could not stop thinking about it and being negative. after a few more hours of wallowing i was like “girl what are you doing?? YOURE the one screwing it up. remember who you are bitch you are GOD and you get to choose if he texts you back!!” and i persisted in that i am that bitch and he’ll text me back soon for like not even two hours and then he texted me back 😭😭 and now we have plans to hang out this week 🤪 just wanted to share in case anyone else is forgetting their power today 😌💜

“girl what are you doing?? YOURE the one screwing it up. remember who you are bitch you are GOD and you get to choose if he texts you back!!”

You were SO right for that! You wavered but decided to take matters into your own hands and persisted anyway, THAT'S how you do it! Congratulations, angel! I'm so so proud of you!