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mrsdobrik · 4 years

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CHAPTER 16:

A whole week had gone by since Y/n and David had talked about “it” and since that night David had been thinking about asking Y/n to officially be his girlfriend, nothing would change between them but he wanted to be sure they were both on the same page about their relationship.

They had been dating for almost two months at that point and every day they spent together was better than the previous one, if that was even possible. The past two weeks had been especially great, cuddling each other to sleep, reading Arabian Nights, eating chipotle, watching movies, eating chipotle again… life was simply perfect.

You might be wondering if everything was so perfect why hadn’t Dave pulled the trigger yet, well because... everything was perfect and he was scared that things might change or that Y/n wouldn’t be ready to commit.

Just to show you how amazing things were going… that Sunday David opened his eyes to a big tray filled to the brim with his favorite breakfast foods and Y/n showering him in kisses. David loved the way she looked in the mornings, with her hair all messed up and her sleepy face. She was wearing one of Dave’s hoodies, this time it was the pink clickbait one.

But that blissful moment was brief and in the blink of an eye Y/n was trying to escape David’s arms that were preventing her from leaving his bed.

“Nooo, I don’t want you to go!!!” David said still not letting her go.

“I know babe! But I need to leave or I am going to be late.”

“But I thought you said you weren’t working today.” He said pouting but finally freeing her.

“I don’t have work but I have another commitment…” she said as she threw on a pair of jeans and changed the hoodie for a light airy white blouse.

“Are you…” he started saying before stopping himself. “Nevermind.”

“What is it Dave? You know you can ask me whatever you want” she said looking puzzled at his attitude

“Are you seeing someone else?” He hesitated before asking.

“Awww… you are jealous? You are so cute… babe…” she said before jumping on top of him and covering his entire face in kisses “no, I am not seeing someone else.”

“Well, then why do you have to leave? If it’s not work or another guy then what could be better than staying here in bed with me?” He said, pulling her to his chest once again.

“Well… why don’t you come with me? Maybe I can show you where I go on Sunday mornings”

…

About 45 minutes later they had gotten off the bus (Y/n had insisted on them taking the bus) and arrived at an orphanage.

“Ok, so… this is where I come every sunday. I volunteer here. I help kids with their schoolwork, cook for them, try to make sure they are getting everything they need.” Y/n explained to David as they walked up to the door.

They hadn’t even rang when the door swung open and three kids that appeared to be between the ages of five and nine ran out and jumped on Y/n hugging her at the waist. She immediately bent down and hugged them all back.

“Hey guys! How has your week been? Tommy did you finish your homework on time? Lucy how is Mr. Cuddles doing, has he recovered from his surgery yet?”

“Yes I did, I got a B” Tommy said.

“He is better now, thanks for fixing him, Y/n.” Lucy answered.

“Who is he?” The other boy said pointing at David and eyeing him suspiciously.

“He is my friend David, he came here to spend some time with all of you today. And guess what, he loves superheroes too.” She said, still crouched down to meet his eyes and looking up at Dave for a bit.

“Cool, we needed someone to be Captain America…” the little boy said looking at David.

“I think I am more of an Iron Man” David said looking at the kid.

“No, I am Iron Man, you can be Captain America or Hulk” Tommy chimed in.

“Fine,” David gave in “I’ll be Cap.”

“Go brave heroes! I’ll get started on lunch so you can have enough energy to defeat all the evil guys.” Y/n said laughing at the kids that were already taking David to choose his weapon for the epic battle that was about to take place.

The house was old and run down, the kids didn’t have many toys or clothes from what David could tell but the place was clean and filled with drawings and art pieces made by the kids. He played with the little ones as he peered over to Y/n who was now making lunch.

“So you like… like Y/n don’t you?” Lucy, the girl from the door asked David when she caught him looking at her.

“I…” David said not knowing what to answer.

“Have you told her that you like her? Did you… kiss her?” She asked excitedly

“Puajj…” the two boys said in unison while making disgusted faces.

“Why don’t we go back to playing superheroes?” David suggested.

“Are you a prince? Are you here to take her to live happily ever after like in the movies?” Lucy kept asking.

“Look! Thanos is about to attack our supersecret lair!” David said, causing all the kids to go back into the game and forget about the question.

…

“Kids! Come to the table, lunch is ready!!” Y/n yelled from the kitchen.

All the kids run into the room taking their places at the dinner table. Everyone started devouring the food and an elderly lady came in carrying a baby in her arms. As soon as the baby laid eyes on Y/n she started stretching her little arms in her direction and Y/ gladly took her before introducing David and the lady.

“Dave this is Eleanor, Eleanor this is David. Eleanor is the house’s director.” Y/n said rocking the baby in her arms. “And this gorgeous little girl is Posy. Hi sweety! How was your nap?” Y/n said.

“It’s a pleasure to finally meet you, I’ve heard great things about you!” Eleanor said to David.

Y/n’s face was now blushing as they continued chatting.

A few minutes later Eleanor joined the kids at the table leaving David, Y/n and Posy alone.

“So this is where you were going every Sunday?” Dave asked, looking at the girl.

“What do you think…?” Y/n said

“I think it’s amazing. I mean the fact that you have not one but two jobs and still make time to volunteer is just… wow”

“You make it sound a lot cooler than it is.” She said blushing slightly and looking up at him.

“I just play superheroes but you truly are one! I just can’t believe my girlfriend is so amazing.” He said just letting the word slip.

“Girlfriend huh… I kind of like how that sounds.” Y/n said looking straight at his eyes.

“Is that a Yes, I’ll be your girlfriend?” Dave asked.

“Sure, I don’t have anything else to do today so why not?” She giggled. She wanted to kiss him badly but seeing the kids at the table behind them stopped her. Lucy was hugging a stuffed bear, presumably Mr. Cuddles and looking straight up at them.

“What are you looking at, young lady?” Y/n asked, smiling at the girl.

“Nothing!” the little one retorted giggling as she noticed she was caught.

Once lunch was over Y/n helped the kids with their homework and David played Cap a little bit more. They stayed there the whole day and even read the kids bedtime stories before heading out.

They made their way to Y/n’s apartment and David said

“Today was so amazing, thank you for bringing me along. It’s a great thing that you are doing by helping those kids. You are so wonderful, you never cease to amaze me.” while pulling her close to his chest and planting a kiss on the top of her head.

“You were amazing too! You even played Captain America, when it’s obvious you are more of an Iron Man.” she giggled. “I love going there, those kids are just so great and they just deserve someone to help them, play with them and read them stories”

“I don’t think there is anyone better than you to do that.” he said before leaning in for a kiss.

“My boyfriend is such a softie,” she said. Dave loooved his new title, he was ready for the adventure to continue.

#david dobrik #david dobrik x you #david dobrik x reader #david dobrik x y/n #david dobrik imagine

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bangtansfavwriter · 4 years

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🌷hobi having a crush on you 🌷

-hobi and you were inseparable, and when I say inseparable I mean it

-he introduced you to all of his friends and everyone knew you guys became a package deal

- he loooves spending time with you , which would already be a dead giveaway bc hobi's a really social guy, so him choosing to spend his time with you so often would already say a lot

-very playful and spontaneous, looots of laughter together

-you guys' favourite thing to do together would be karaoke and the two of you would put some singers to shame bc singing - check - dancing - audience wildin' and partying to you two - check bc the whole neighbourhood knew you by now and people would leave their own booth at the bar to come and watch you two (which would turn to spontaneous parties that would be absolutely legendary (and the place would be so packed that even dispatch would be like fuck no we ain't goin in))

-you'd come to watch bts' dance practices sometimes and just sit there and watch this completely different side of hobi come out

- he dances with such a passion that you can't do anything but watch him in awe, completely enthralled by the way he moves

-this was also something that made you fall for him slowly, you loved the fact that he was absolutely passionate about everything he does and puts his energy in

-and you admired him so much, bc he was still humble about his talent & also this innate ability to light up every room he walks in

- you almost felt like icarus trying to bask in the sun and sometimes felt like your feelings for him may get you too close and you would get hurt

-and whenever you would get into that mood, it would be hobi himself to snap you out of it, unknowingly

"hobi, there's no reason for me to come to the christmas party, you guys are like family, why would i be there?"

"nonsense, you're family, too. i want you to be there." ---and that's it, that's how he handled your moods, he always made you feel cherished and most importantly loved--

- he would play with your hair a lot and would be very touchy in general, the supreme method to shut down hobi.exe would be playing with his hair, he'd legit lay down and and go quiet, but chances are he's gonna fall asleep (and boy would he get cranky when you wake him up)

- he'd love to make you laugh and sing lil songs and do lil dances for you when you would make tea or something ("look it's y/n, making tea for mee, hobiii~, this sure looks like chamomile, chamomile is just my style, my legs are so sore, I'm gonna go lay on the floor..."*his voice fades* - "u ok there hobi?" - *weak* "no..") [btw chamomile tea helps with sore muscles ☺️]

- his spontaneous dances would be the best, he'd drop it to maluma and lowkey get emotional when you'd turn on some flamenco songs ("y/n, i should be a flamenco dancer, this music speaks to my soul" - "whatever you say, horacio" )

- he would sometimes give you very obvious signals:

"oh we're both wearing jean jackets, almost like a couple look hmmm~~~"

"you cooked for me ?? caring for me, like we're a couple hmmm~~~"

"look at us sharing our drinks like we're a couple hmmm~~~"

-and tbh, you guys would be the couple that has no idea that they're a couple bc you never truly established something along that lines

-but you truly liked him, after all, he's mr sunshine, with the most generous heart and boy's got the prettiest side profile you've ever seen (you knew you were whipped when you went for drinks with a friend and ended up being an emotional drunk who gushed about hobi's lil nose)

-hobi always gets shy when u praise him and you're like "BOI I CAN DO THIS ALL DAY LONG" and he'd go "noooo stop" and backflip to the other side of the room bc he got shy again but he secretly loves it (honestly, it would lift his entire mood, to a hyper extent.... one day you didn't have the time to stay for their dance practices and met hobi shortly before they started, to say bye and such, and you encouraged him to be strong, bc you knew how tough the new choreography was, and told him "you, horacio, dancing king of my heart, can do this, now go prove your title or I won't make you any pancakes for a week" and he SCREAMED in joy & spun you around like 3 times and sprinted to the practice room, you got one (1) single text from jin at 02.17 am, which you opened, confused at hell, it just said: "idk what you said to hobi before practice but you owe me a spa weekend for the muscle pain i have rn")

-but hobi is only human too, he also gets into low moods, which you help him through by simply not going anywhere even when he detaches himself from you and everyone else for that matter

-you knew he had to recharge and gave him some space without entirely distancing yourself from him ofc, you guys would still text tho from time to time

-you knew that he had practice again and one day you stopped by with some food you prepared for him and gave it to a staff member to pass it to hobi, bc you didn't want to intrude, and hobi would text you back a pic of the empty lunch boxes you packed for him with a caption like this: "👼🏻👼🏻👼🏻👼🏻💗💖💝💓💞💕🙇🏻‍♂️🙇🏻‍♂️🙇🏻‍♂️" (hobi talk for "you are and angeeeel, i loooove you & thank youuu") and you were happy with yourself and happy for hobi bc you knew this would cheer him up

-he came over to yours like 2 days later and your heart ached a little bc he was obviously exhausted but still shot you a smile when you opened the door

- you pulled him inside and hugged him, neither of you spoke a word, hobi just sighed and buried his face in your neck

- he came inside and you made tea for the two of you and prepared some snacks too and you caught him looking at you a few times, but his gaze was different... you couldn't quite pinpoint what it was and just thought that's it's probably just random and that he's tired, since he also didn't speak a lot that evening.. anyway you chilled in front of the tv and had a night in, which he gladly accepted because his legs were so sore he wasn't even sure if he could leave your place in first place

-so you spread out on one sofa, while hobi layed down on to the other one

-whenever you weren't looking, hobi stared at you with the most smitten look on his face, especially when you'd giggle about some scene in the movie you were watching, and unable to contain his feelings for himself, he'd flat out tell you:

"you know, if there wouldn't be a risk of me face-planting onto the floor, I'd be on that couch and kiss you"

- he couldn't quite tell if his words made your face go red or if it was bc of your near-death experience after choking on your nachos when korea's dancing king told u he wants to smooch

(-"you ok now ?"

"yeah, alive and kicking"

"good bc- don't eat that now- I have plans for us 👀"

"maybe I do too 👀👀"

" 👀👀👀")

however, you decided you should talk this out when both of you were less tired

- but you didn't... bc hobi was busy again

- days had passed and hobi didn't say a word which was really disheartening for you bc after that kiss-statement you really thought you would finally clarify what was going on between you two and talk about dating and stuff, so you mustered all your courage and texted him: "hey, i know ur busy and all, which is why im gonna keep it as short as possible.... hoseok, i wanna talk about what you said to me the other day and i know this could potentially change our friendship forever, but i liked you for a while now and I wanna now if you were just joking around back then or if u actually were serious"

-the next hours would be absolutely agonizing for you bc deep down you truly feared that this may ruin your friendship with him, but you needed clarity, even though it was really clear that he liked you, but you weren't sure how and asked yourself if you may have read too much into his actions and words.... you threw your phone on your bed and tried keeping yourself busy with something that would keep you from looking at your phone. you failed miserably tbh and you were contemplating deleting the text the entire time... "this is so stupid, I can't risk this..." you thought and were about to open the messenger to delete your text, when you saw that he texted back....: "you never call me hoseok" (you had to took deep breaths to calm yourself down or you would probably have stormed into bighit and throw your phone at him)

- you: "this is really all you have to say ???? "

and he texted back shortly after and you were like oohhh, im gonna grill jung hoseok now

him: "well you never call me hoseok, so I guess this is very serious to you"

you: "yeah NO SHIT sherlock, i confessed my feelings for you and this is how you answer me ?????

him: "im serious too, don't be like that!"

you: "well how tf should i know if you're serious or not??"

him: "you could open your door and find out"

-to use the word "dumbfounded" for how you felt the second you read that would be the understatement of the century, you threw your phone away and bolted to the door

-and there he was.. standing there and smiling at you as radiantly as ever

- he held a plush in one hand and playfully waved at you with the other the other, in which he was holding his phone. he gave you the plush and laughed at you bc you still were completely baffled, but you started laughing too

- you: mang beats any flower anyways.. (you took the mang plush and put it on a rack by the door)

him: yup! and why buy flowers when you have me? *does the flower pose*

- you: you're unbelievable, jung hoseok

him: ohh full name now, it's getting very serious ~

you: stop teasing!!

-you felt that you were blushing and turned away from him, still unable to hide your smile. hobi laughed while he quickly stepped through the doorway, just in time to grab your wrist and make you face him again. "look at us, y/n, playfully bickering like a couple hmm~~", he said and gave you a smirk that made your knees weak, but you'd be damned if you'd show him that. So you looked him straight into his eyes with a cocky smile and asked: "anything you wanna ask me, jung hoseok?"

"you don't even know what you do to me with that smile of yours, sweetheart..."

"answer the question, jung hoseok."

"look at us us, flirting like a couple hmm~~"

(you didn't even notice how close you two were standing until there were only a few inches between your lips and his)

"I'm waiting", you whispered.

"i really think... ", he began and gently cupped your face meanwhile... "i really think that we should be a couple" he said and finally closed the little space which had remained between your lips.

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mimi-sanisanidiot · 4 years

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Love is wild sometimes, ain't it?

Do you ever feel like you're in love with someone that you can't have?

I am, more often than I'd like to admit.

I'm in love with my best friend. And I can't have her. Because she's in love with our other best friend. And it hurts. So damn much.

Hi, my name's Mimi and I'm a fucking dumbass, welcome to my tedtalk!

For the sake of anonymity of my friends, I'll refer to them as Bean, and Mochi. We're all female so here we are.

I met both Bean and Mochi in my first year of highschool. I met them separately in mutual classes and I found out we're all mutal friends. Bean was in my art class and we were on opposite ends of the room, but always in the view of one another. When I first saw Bean, she confused me so much. Bean is rather tall for a girl and has a slim thick frame, due to her androgynous style of clothes and fluffy short hair, she's often confused as a boy. Which works for her style. At the time, me being a still blind lil gay in the making, couldn't tell if she was a boy or a girl due to being so far away. But honestly it never bothered me. Still Bean confused me so much!! One day she'd be in baggy male clothing and the next she was in a crop top with a skirt and knee high socks! Either way she made my heart race! I didn't care if she was a boy exploring her style and identity or a girl having fun with her outfits or anything in between. So one day, I gathered the courage to finally walk up to her and complimented her My Chemical Romance t-shirt that she wore often, after class. I was never the kind of girl who made friends easily but could make conversation with any stranger if I truly tried to.

So saying that, you can obviously see that I as a new freshman tried to become friends with this beautifully intimidating human being by pointing out the most teenager angsty thing a teenager can wear to show how angsty they are! The cliche of teenager angst, My Chemical Romance!!! That aside, this would be my first official real conversation with her, aside from the shy hi's and nervous excuse me's that we often exchanged when we passed by and bumped into each other during class in accident. So you can see where this is going. I obviously made a fool of myself trying to speak clearly and loud enough for her to hear me as I walked by her on the way out of class, keep in mind most kids were trying to leave and they were quite loud since the door was near her desk. She hadn't heard me so she asked me to repeat myself, while I was panicking on the INSIDE! I did repeat myself, while stuttering a bit and my subtle lisp wasn't so subtle anymore! I was dying.. I wanted to bolt out that door and hide in my corner and never emerge again. But she was so nice.. She just smiled so sweetly and so kindly at me seeing that I was freaking out about my inability to speak properly at the moment, it surprised me honestly. No one other than my parents had looked at me like that but my parents hadn't comforted me about my stuttering since I was a child. And here she was, this awkwardly shy giant was smiling at me, making me feel so much better and still making my heart race. I felt myself smile back a bit and nodded and turned to make my way out of class. But she stopped me, she had then complimented my Attack on Titan button and my Spirited Away button my backpack, which made me so happy! She knew who these characters were and she complimented me on them. No one, not even my friends, said anything about them. They never noticed them, nor did they like anime. So to have Bean notice them and say she liked them, made my day.

Soon after that, I asked her if she'd like to join me for lunch and she did.

We hit it off immediately! We're both dorks and nerds about different childhood shows and random nerd stuff. Not only that, we both looove food! And we also connected on the fact that we're huge romantics and are girls on the slightly heavier and tall side too. We became close friends and hung out at lunch almost everyday. Up to this point, I was always by myself at lunch since all my other friends had 1st lunch and Bean and I had 2nd lunch. I was alone and then, I wasn't. Bean had made me her friend and that made a difference in my life for the better. I had dealt with a traumatic incident in my last year of middle school so i don't doubt that Bean practically saved my life my freshman year, even if she doesn't realize that but that is a story for another time. She also introduced me to some of my closest friends now. So I have her to thank for that. I soon realized that I had a huge crush on her that I feel like was really obvious but not to either of us. But that doesn't matter, since I never confessed and she had her boyfriends and people she dated as we grew closer. Although it hurt me, it made me happy just seeing her happy. And I was there to help her feel better when things didn't work out in the end. And that made feel happy just knowing she was happy and that I made her feel comfortable enough to come to me for help. So I too had dated a few people and had my heart broken quite a few times but my heart had always beated a bit faster when I thought of her.

My love for Bean only grew as the years pasted. But as did the growing friend zone between us. So I pulled an Angelica Skylar and was just happy that I could keep her in my life.

My bond with Mochi had also grown throughout the years despite us being different in multiple ways. Mochi sometimes gets overly comfortable sometimes and it ticks me off sometimes but she means well. The three of us have late night adventures and loads of sleep overs and have fun gushing about music and cute people, both male and female and nonbinary peeps! It's fun.

Back to my main simp story and not my sad friendzone gay shit.

The three of us are quite open with our sexuality and feminine charms, ya know? We flirt with each other often, it's always been part of our banter. We also playfully grope/fondle each other when ever we're together. The fondling occurs more often than not when we're with Mochi. Sure we all initiate it at some point but when Mochi is hanging out with either of us, she's the main instigator. We're all chill about it cause titties are nice, and so are soft thighs and love handles! We all like the soft plush!! We all drink body appreciation in this household!!

Mochi is fantastic! I love her so much! But she also becomes unresponsive to group moments sometimes.. Like we would all be chilling watching a movie or something, like maybe having a conversation and then she'd be off by herself always on her phone and never reacts to anything we say. When she stays over, she sleeps way in, past what we decided, and is inconsiderate of if either one of us have any other plans that day. We plan to have a sleep over of one day and she stays for 3. I can never ask her to leave cause I was always raised with my home is open for those who need it but one can also overstay their welcome. And I absolutely despise confrontation. It makes me uncomfortable and makes me feel like I'm the dick, even when I know that I'm in the right.

But that's besides the point. I love them, I truly do. I'm just weak against my friends when it comes to my own comfort sometimes. That's something I'm working on currently.

So you see, these are my best friends, yes they are flawed but so am I. Yet I absolutely love them.

Mochi had invited both Bean and me to a whole weekend trip with some of her friends that she wanted to introduce to us. Sadly I couldn't attend having already used my day out of that week the day before she had asked. But Bean went. They had a blast, drinking and going out to the shopping district of the beach town they went to. Not in that order obviously. They were safe and locked themselves in their hotel room when they began drinking and hadn't went out once they began. I'm not going to lie here, it hurt not being able to go because I was excited to meet Mochi's friends and hang out and have drink to let loose for once, you know?

But when they came back, Bean had kinda went off the grid. She wasn't responding to group chats nor private messaging. At first I thought, oh she's busy and she'll get back to me later so no sweat right? Wrong.. She never did. And when I'd check out our messages, she only left me on seen and that's it. Then I'm like, did I do something wrong or is she doing okay? Turns out, she's fine. But I wouldn't have known that if it weren't for Mochi. Mochi had told me something that broke my heart more than it did finding out Bean was in love with a toxic manipulating piece of garbage with mommy issues and she was sacrificing her own mental well being to help a human dumpster fire. Again that's another story for another time.

So this is it, it hurts to know the person I've been in love with for almost 6 years, had kissed my best friend and has admitted to a stranger, while drunk, about how much she wants to get with said best friend. Never.. Never did it occur to me, that she ever felt that way towards Mochi, and that she also kissed Mochi while Mochi was and still is with her boyfriend.

I don't know what hurts more, the drunk confession to a stranger, the kiss or that she didn't tell me her feelings for Mochi.

I know that I'm not entitled to her feelings nor her explanation nor ever lil detail of her life. Because that's not healthy nor is it right. I know that the only person at fault here is my own toxic mentality. But I still worry sometimes okay..?

I was worried that she was having a bad time and she was by herself.

I was worried that something had happened to her.

I was worried that she had had enough of me, and was simply trying to figure out a way to end our friendship without trying to be mean about it..

I was worried that she simply hated me and wanted me out of her life for good and was simply ghosting me until I got the hint...

Maybe that I had done something to have upsetted her..

I just guess that Bean didn't need my prying and needed time to collect her thoughts.

But at the very least, she could have done was send me a message. Like "I'm fine, need time to collect myself, ttyl" or something...!

My own intrusive thoughts are bad enough, but worrying about whether or not, my best friend is alright is too much!!

I dont even know! Maybe I'm the ass in this scenario! With my own toxic pensive ideals and my overbearing personality. Maybe I shouldn't project my feelings towards my best friends and maybe just fucking grow up and move on from something that will clearly never happen!!!

Maybe I should simply get over it..

But it hurts, so much..

Because maybe I missed my shot at ever being able to confess to Bean.. Because I'll never know if she ever felt the same, that I'll never know if I had a chance at all... All because I was too scared to lose my best friend...

Now I might lose both of them if they don't work their feelings out... Maybe I'm just a pathetic piece of garbage.

I have no clue how I'm supposed to act anymore. Mochi is still with her boyfriend, Bean is in an emotional limbo and needs to collect herself and I'm an emotional mess.

If anyone has any advice on what I should do or how I should proceed, please let me know.

I have dinner with them in an hour, and I'm scared.

Thank you if you made it this far, I appreciate that you're willing to read a strangers love life or the lack of one and follow their rant. I hope you all have a great day, evening, or night, stay hydrated and tell your loved ones that you love them before it's too late.

Please learn from my own mistakes. If anyone likes this, then let me know and I'll tell you more about my pathetic love life stories and my pining over my best friend.

#serious talk #love life #sad lady hours #advice needed #pining #in love with my best friend #heartbreak #confused #emotional

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becomewings · 4 years

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hai lovely! Im sparkle and I’m going to be your secret bunny. I hope you’re having a good day or night. 🥰 -sparkle ✨💫

Hello Sparkle dear! Thank you for being my secret bunny. I hope you are having a good day/night too and enjoying this wonderful comeback.

I’m enjoying it too! It’s such a good comeback, and I honestly love it. This is like my second comeback with them. -sparkle 💫✨

This is my first comeback, eek! I was not at all prepared for how much I would be waiting on the edge of my seat, but it's been really exciting!

Yes! It's such a good comeback honestly. When did you first get into BTS? What drew you to them? I'm sorry I'm asking for many questions. Lol. -sparkle 💫✨

It's okay, ask away! ^^ I stumbled across BTS by accident...which may indicate just how much I live under a cultural rock. I actually don't usually listen to much pop music. I'm a classically trained composer and video game soundtracks and moody indie/rock are more my jam, but last year I heard the YouTube ad that uses part of DNA and it intrigued me. I didn't know which song it was so I ended up listening through quite a bit before finding it...and fell absolutely in love along the way! So I have a soft spot in my heart for DNA. How about you, Sparkle? What got you into BTS?

So first, I hope you're having a too day/night! It's been a very long and busy one for me. I'm so glad to be off. Alsooo, I've been into Kpop for around 10 years now, so I've always enjoyed and I have a soft spot for 2nd gen kpop groups. When BTS started to get popular I didn't like them at first. But I saw Dope after the FBE channel reacted to them and I'm like okay they seem interesting around 2018. Lol. And I went down the hole, and have been stuck since. Lol. They're amazing. -sparkle 💫✨

Thank you Sparkle, hope you enjoy your evening off! Mine was busy too (we’re prepping for a move, eep) but at least it was productive. Wow, you’ve been into Kpop for a long time! Dope is really catchy (and I love that honky sax haha), I’m not surprised it got you interested and then hooked. :) Do you have a favorite era? Mine is probablyyy Wings, but I love most of Love Yourself too, and HYYH is so wonderfully nostalgic even if I wasn’t a fan then... and I’m a big fan of this new era too

Moving sucks! I'm going to be moving in the next year or so, and I"m not read for it. And yes! I've been into it for so long. But HYYH is one of my favorites as well. I think mine may be LY because that was the era that I started stanning them. I forget which one, but it's the one with idol as their title song. Wings is super amazing, and one of those that I'll always listen to. MOTS is just GOD TIER. Lol. I love it. -sparkle 💫✨

Haha MoTS being god tier is accurate xD Sounds like your move is a little ways off, but I wish you the best of luck when it happens! Ours is on a fairly tight deadline so I really have to hustle this weekend with house preparations (we still need to sell ours). I hope you have a lovely weekend, dear Sparkle! 💫

It is a little ways off, but moving just sucks in general. The packing and unpacking and then trying to get everything ready. Especially in your case. But I hope everything works out for you. And I hope you have a beautiful weekend too. -sparkle 💫✨

Thank you, Sparkle! We made a lot of progress today so I feel a bit better (and extremely tired). When the time comes, I hope you have the opportunity to prepare ahead for your move so it doesn't stress you too much. :) Have a nice start to your week! ✨

Heyyy! It's me sparkle! It's been alright so far, let's how it stays that way. And I'm glad you've made more progress on your move! Hopefully your Monday was good. -sparkle 💫✨

Thank you, Sparkle! There's so much going on in the world right now, close to home and far away... I am trying to stay calm and positive, with varying degrees of success. Please take care of yourself! (And that goes to everyone... I know it is difficult because we all have our own obligations to school, work, family, etc., but please try to prioritize your health and stay safe 💜)

Yes! I hope you’re staying safe. I don’t know what area of the world you live in and I know the virus is hitting others harder than most. We have 8 reported cases here. And it’s a scary to me. I hope you are staying safe. I just said that twice. Lol. Happy Thursday! -sparkle ✨💫

Thank you, you too! I live in the US (California, to be somewhat specific) and so far there have been two confirmed cases in my county. I'm grateful the university I work at is (finally) taking precautionary measures by banning large gatherings and moving classes temporarily online, and that I can continue working unless there is a full campus closure... Trying not to be too anxious about things that are simply out of my control and hoping that things gradually work out and improve. I'm also grateful for the community here, even if I don't know anyone personally, it is nice to come online and see people being reassuring and encouraging to each other from all across the globe.

Music and BTS are a good distraction when needed... Now that their promotional period is done, do you have a favorite moment?

I'll repeat you too, please stay safe dear, you and everyone who happens to read this 💜

I truly wish that my job would take some measures, and they have yet. I work with the general public a lot as a secretary. So it's like seriously having me on edge. I know the schools year have temporally closed down and moving things to online since it was spring break here. As well as the public schools closing for a month. Honestly, I'm not sure if I have a favorite moment honestly. Lol. They were all good moments, but I did quite enjoy watching all the ON performances. What about you?

I truly hope your employer catches on soon and makes accommodations so that you can practice some social distancing and have a safe work environment. We were just informed today that we have to work from home two days next week, on rotation, to keep our department staffed but also reduce the number of people on the floor -- for next week only so far, but I won’t be surprised if it continues past that. I can’t fulfill all of my responsibilities from home, so I’m grateful that they are allowing us to complete online trainings and such in the meantime. I am also so glad it’s Friday. What a week it’s been.

Ahh, I love ON! As a former member of drumline and marching band, I have such a fondness for the drum corps elements they incorporated into the music and background choreography. I was excited for the Official MV version too, so beautiful and thought-provoking! I also looove Black Swan (JIMIN’S DANCING EEK). I haven’t been as excited about something in a long time as when I stayed up late to catch their first performance on James Corden. So while I’ve enjoyed all of the comeback (especially as it’s my first!), that was particularly memorable for me. The surprise MV drop was also lovely 🦢🖤

Sorry, I am really rambly tonight. Please take care and have a good weekend! Hope you can get lots of rest! 💗

It’s been a long couple days! Sorry I haven’t gotten back with you! I’ve been stressed about everything going on, and I do hope that they catch on soon too. I was very excited for this comeback and the art in their videos has been beautiful. Black Swan and Jimin dance break? Quality content honestly. Yes! The surprise MV was great. I prefer this version of Black Swan over the other, but both are good. I hope you had a good weekend! -sparkle 💫✨

Hi again Sparkle, thank you for checking in on me! Please don't apologize for messaging delays, there's no need! We all signed up for this event long before any of this started, so I'm grateful you can spare a little time to chat with me. 💜 I'm working from home for at least the next 3 weeks because my uni is now fully closed... But I'm very grateful I have that opportunity. (As much as sometimes I would just like to go to sleep and wake up when this is all over, hah!)

Please continue to take care of yourself! Hope you find some comfort in music or other personal hobbies!

How are you doing? Last week was so stressful for me. So I am quite happy to be working from home this week. I hope you are staying healthy and happy through all of this! How was your week last week? I hope your weekend was alright? I had a pretty decent one me and a couple close friends had game night, and that was the highlight of my weekend. -sparkle 💫✨

I missed hearing from you, Sparkle! (But totally understand, the world is upside down right now.) I’m sorry you had a stressful week and I hope this one is better for you as you transition to working from home. My days have just fluctuated between quiet/boring and a little stressful (mostly re: house stuff, but that’s out of my control at this point), but I suppose I’m glad it hasn’t been worse than that.

Ooh what are your favorite games?? I’ve been trying to keep up creative side work between writing and blog content, but… I might purchase Animal Crossing soon hehe. Do you have any other hobbies to help distract you from stress/everything that’s going on? Take care dear! 💗

I know! I let time get away from me honestly! I hadn't been meaning too. I miss talking to you! I love all kind of games. I'm not particularly picky, but i do like that Game of LIfe. I've had just about ever version they've made. We played this one called Blockbuster in reference to movies and it was fun because if you know a lot of movies it's somewhat easy but you have to act out some of hte titles. Lol. Animal crossing seems like fun, everyone talks about it. Lol. -sparkle 💫✨ 1/2

I’ve never played it before. I’ve been thinking of getting an Nintendo Switch, but I don’t know how often I would play it. I know that game comes on there. But I heard it’s also an app? I’m not entirely sure. Lol. Also, I’m planning on making you a gif set for the secret bunny exchange! I know you said you love Jimin (my bias wrecker and sweet baby), Kookie, and Tae. And you were right, it’s hard to pick just ONE. Is there any particular one you want to see in a gif set? -sparkle 💫✨ 2/2

Receiving messages from you makes me happy! ^^ I know life is strange right now though so completely understand if you don’t have time. I’ll be patiently waiting!

So you like tabletop games? Sounds fun! I gravitate toward video games more personally, but haven’t had too much time lately to play. There are definitely fun ones to try if you ever get a Switch! There’s Breath of the Wild of course, which I admit I am still holding off on finishing because I don’t want it to be over LOL, some Mario & friends party games if that’s your jam, as well as some really beautiful indie games (Gris for example!). ANYWAY I won’t ramble about that anymore haha. I’m not sure what the app is, if you were referring to Animal Crossing–might be a companion to the game? I saw a tweet referring to using an app for quicker messaging in AC lol, but I haven’t played the game myself yet.

Aw thank you so much for asking about the gift (and for making it in the future)!! Oh dear you want ME to pick one? If I’m honest, I think Jimin and Tae light up my heart the absolute most (any vmin content gives me life but totally understand if that’s not your thing) but… please don’t ask me to… choose between them HAHA. How about you go with whoever would give you the most joy to gif right now?? I will truly be happy to receive any gift from you, regardless of who is featured. :’)) thank you dear!!

(Edit: btw who is your bias??)

I love tabletop games, and I play a lot of video games too. So don't get me wrong, I am huge into video games, but I don't play them as often. my boyfriend uses his PS4 all the time. I'm still trying to get through SpiderMan, but that's also because I don't wanna end it. I'm almost finished though. And yes! It's so hard to choose just one honestly, so I get your dilemma. And I can do vmin content! I don't gif them much and I want too. I can't wait to work on something for you! -sparkle 💫✨

Yay!! Sounds like we might have that in common. I have a huge appreciation for video games (and video game soundtracks is one of my favorite ‘genres’ of music, recognizing that they’re incredibly diverse of course), but I spend more time watching videos of other people playing them than playing them myself haha. We have a PS4 too. SpiderMan looked fun but I never tried it! I loved watching my partner play FFXV and Death Stranding. Trying to remember what I’ve actually finished on PS4, it’s been awhile lol... Everybody’s Gone to the Rapture and Rime were beautiful. I started Last Guardian but didn’t get very far before life got too busy. :( Hope I can pick it up again some day! Do you have a favorite PS4 game?

Aww you’re too kind. I’m so excited to see what you create!! And to chat with you off-anon. :) Who is your favorite member to gif?

Yes, I also like watching other people play video games, but it's rare when I do. I always end up getting distract sometimes. I've played SpiderMan, Horizon Zero Dawn, which are my favorites as well as Tomb Raider. I do really like FFXV, but i haven't played it in so long though. I can't wait to talk to you off anon either. I be having to really make sure I press the anon button. adlfkjsl I"m bad at forgetting. And Yoongi is my favorite to gif. -sparkle 💫✨

Oo I forgot I watched some of Horizon Zero Dawn too! Very impressive game. It looks like a lot of fun and I might try to play it myself in the future.. but like you said, it’s easy to get distracted. Life just likes to get in the way huh. Have you seen/heard of Hellblade: Senua’s Sacrifice? Intennnnse. I’m an absolute coward when it comes to horror games (or movies) and somehow my partner tricked me into playing one of the scariest parts because he got too scared HAH. That being said, as much as I love really emotionally intense games, I love soft gentle ones too… especially chill co-ops! (I’m thinking of the one we played most recently, Pode… that was on Switch though.)

Yayy Yoongi! I really do love all of BTS, and while the maknae line ran off with my heart, I have a big soft spot for Yoongi. I was never really drawn to rap/hip-hop except maybe Linkin Park like in middle school am I dating myself until I met Yoongi and just… wow. ._. He’s so expressive in his delivery, his lyrics are heart-breakingly raw and honest, and he has extraordinary range between his gentlest material and the lines that come at you with a knife. Also I’m so proud of him for continuing to work as a producer and refine those skills on top of his life as an idol. What are your favorite things about Yoongi? If you can even choose haha 💗

Lol I know what you mean, I was really paranoid the first 2 weeks about sending anon messages to my other partners on mobile because the interface was different and I was really suspicious of the term ‘public’ vs ‘private.’ And every time I send the ask for about 5 seconds I question whether or not I clicked anon.

P.S. I should keep my mouth shut but … I have an itty bitty guess of who you may be. I won’t say any more than that and I guess I’ll find out in 2 weeks whether I’m right or wrong haha. xD take care sparkle dear!!

That game was really fun honestly. I still haven't finished. And sameeee! I am not into the horror games. The movies I can do, but the games I'm just too scared to really play them. I tried Resident Evil, and I was like this is a BIG FAT NO. Lol. And I haven't heard of that game though, but it sounds intense by the name of it. I also like soft gentle ones, or the ones were it's not a lot of challenging aspects to it. I really like Spyro. The original and the remake. -sparkle 💫✨ 1/2

Linkin Park is one of my favorite groups. I love them, and miss Chester so much. Also it sounds like we're maybe around the same age because that's when I got into them maybe? And I am so proud of him for everything that he's done. Yoongi originally wasn't my bias at first. I think maybe it was going to be Taehyung, but watching their variety shows made me fall in love with him. Outside of his hard exterior, he's so sweet and loving of the boys. It's so hard to just pick one! -sparkle 💫✨2/2

Okay, so one more. Lol. Because the ask limit is so short! I get paranoid all the time, and i have to like double check to make sure I Press it. alkdjfls NOW i'm curious as to who you think I am! But I do how you have a wonderful weekend. -sparkle 💫✨

Dying over your Resident Evil reaction because... SAME lol. However. I have enjoyed watching some playthroughs of 7 and the remake of 2, which is the closest I will ever come to watching a horror movie again. xD I have really fond memories of playing Spyro at my cousin’s house as a kid, but haven’t tried the remake yet! It looks like fun too. There are too many good games to choose from, not nearly enough time to play lol.

I only really listened to a couple of Linkin Park’s old albums, but I miss Chester too. \: We could be around the same age yeah! I’ll tell you when we’re messaging off-anon. :)

If I may tell a story, my discovery of BTS went like this: heard a music clip in a YouTube ad of all places (normally skip them lol but I got it a couple times at work and thought hmm this is catchy). Then had to dive into some compilation videos to figure out which heckin song it was (turned out to be DNA). But along the way I found more songs I liked. And then I fell HARD for the Mic Drop MV (again, a little strange for me, because it’s pretty hip-hoppy). Jungkook makes this super intense expression at one moment that made me go oh. hello. So then I slowly learned who the different members were, and since this was me mostly streaming YT in the background at work haha, I had to keep switching tabs to check who was singing. I loved Jungkook’s singing but then also realized that I loved Jimin’s sweet voice too (yes I admit when I was first getting to know them, I could not always tell them apart). And THEN mister baritone Tae with his unique falsetto and delicious low range (I really wish they featured his chest voice more but OH WELL I digress) snagged my attention and ANYWAY long story short that’s how I fell in love with BTS and also the entire maknae line I guess. :’)

Hehehe I’ll tell you after the event ends if I’m right or wrong, don’t worry. It might be almost over, but I hope you had a lovely weekend too! ♥♥♥

Yes, somehow my sister convinced me to get it like she was going to play the game too, and she did not. I ended up exchanging the game because I'm like this is a waste of money. haha. I usually always skipped them too, so I totally understand. Everyone I knew liked but I had stopped listening to kpop for a while after the members of Big Bang went into enlistment (sad sad times). I first heard Dope. The FBE Youtube channel reacted to them, and I'm like OKAY GUYS. 1/3 -sparkle 💫✨

When Jungkook hits that high note I was like COME THROUGH VOCALS. So then naturally I had to go and look a few more videos. This was during around the time they had appeared on the AMAs the first time. And then I listened to I Need U and Save Me (this is one of my favorites). And I was hooked. I went and watched their Ellen interviews, and they're so sweet. I ended up binge watching their variety show and Bon Voyage and I was hooked then. -sparkle 💫✨ 2/3

Run BTS was when I realized that Yoongi was my bias. Because I'll admit that I did not like him at first, but I said that already. And then I just realized how sweet and funny he actually his. And I think he's just shy at times. At least in the beginning, but he's so handsome and his stage presence is like a 360 from him being off stage. If that makes sense. I could go on for house about Yoongi. Lol. -sparkle 💫✨3/3

The high notes in Dope are pretty ridiculous because they’re at the start of the phrase so they get little to no preparation lol. Their vocal abilities are truly impressive... and then they do it all while dancing :’)

I agree that Yoongi’s stage presence is strikingly different from his real self! Or the self we get to see in their behind-the-scenes content lol. Possibly like a lot of people, I thought he was super intimidating and tough until I saw more of him offstage... and then went awww he’s a big softie who just doesn’t pull his punches when he’s rapping and producing.

Do you have any favorite Run BTS episodes? So far I’ve only watched a handful of the recent ones, but all the random gifs and clips of older content warms my heart or makes me laugh. I’d like to eventually watch them all from the beginning... some day lol. (see all previous mentions of being too busy to do anything fun outside of work haha)

They are ridiculous. I love when they hit high notes in songs. All the boys have such a beautiful range, and I love hearing them. Especially when they do their solo songs. Jimin's solos are normally my favorite because his voice is the type I tend to lean towards a lot His stage presence is so different! Just like Jhope's. It's always so different, but it's them all in a nutshell, if that makes sense. Lol. I was in Chorus for a while, and I liked it begin in a group. -sparkle 💫✨1/2

It's easier being in a group, but I could never do it by myself. And favorite Run episode? Hmmm, there are so many that I love. I prefer some of the older episodes to some of the new ones. I'll have to find them again, but there was one where they were doing like this haunted house type of thing and it had me dying of laughter. They're all so funny though. I'm still trying to catch up with some of the new ones they've been doing. -sparkle 💫✨2/2

The vocal line is so wonderful, but I’ve been increasingly impressed with the rap line’s singing too. I have always liked the beginning of Spring Day and I confess it took me an embarrassingly long time to wonder which one of them was singing, and I was surprised to learn that it’s Namjoon. Also his low line in Louder Than Bombs is wonderful... I don’t even care if it’s probably autotuned a little lolol. And I only recently found out about the song Sea, but Tae’s chest-range melody at the very end.. UGHGHGGH it’s too. good. (DEAR BIGHIT COMPOSERS, MORE BARI PLS.)

I had to sing in choir in grad school and ended up enjoying it way more than I thought I would. (I’m a composer/pianist and I needed ensemble credit.) I’ve always been really self conscious about my voice, and now... I would love to take vocal lessons some day. While I know that no two people will play an instrument exactly the same, it’s kind of magical that you don’t know what the true sound or full potential of your own singing voice will be until you train it. Do you play any instruments? :)

The vocal line is amazing. I love all of their voices for different reasons, and sometimes I'm in the mood for one, and then another time I'm in the mood for another. If that makes sense. I haven't listened to Sea that much, but it is such a beautiful song! And you're right. His chest tone HELLO VOCALS. Lol. I'd love to take vocal lessons one day, but not sure if I ever would. And I don't play any instruments, but I would love to learn guitar one day. Lol. It's a dream of mine. -sparkle 💫✨

Hii Sparkle. I’m sorry it took me a bit to get back to you, but it really makes me happy when I receive your messages! Yess Tae’s chest voice deserves all the shouty caps all the time hehe. I hope you have the opportunity to learn the guitar someday if that’s what your dream is! Everyone starts somewhere... I would love to learn the cello too :)) one day haha.

Do you have a favorite “underrated” bts song? Just curious! Take care dear, looking forward to finding out who you are soon~

Yay! I'm glad you like hearing from me! I really like talking to you. I don't talk to many people on here sometimes, but then other times I do. So this is nice just to be able to talk with a fellow army. One day I will learn it, I just have to learn how to read music first. Lol. Because I definitely don't know how to. Hmm honestly there are a few that I feel are underrated, that i Iove. Spring Day, Hold Me Tight, and Autumn Leaves. These songs are queens! What about you? -sparkle 💫✨

Music is a lifelong learning process but it’s worth it. :’) I believe in you!!

SPRING DAY!! 🌸🌸🌸 One of my all-time favorites. I honestly might not have a very good awareness of what is underrated and what isn’t, especially among older songs, but... I love Spring Day, The Truth Untold, Jamais Vu, and most recently Sea... lol hm I’m sensing a trend of bittersweet/melancholy songs. But also House of Cards (it’s just so delightfully WEIRD and dark and different??). On the other end of the spectrum (although not sure if it’s underrated?), Silver Spoon/Baepsae. What a jam. Love to tune out the world with that one at work on one of my walk breaks if I had a frustrating day. And maybe it’s too early to tell from MOTS 7, but I get the impression that I might love Louder Than Bombs way more than the average army. And that’s okay :)

I don’t talk to or know very many people on here yet too, probably because my blog is still relatively new. So I’m very glad to be getting to know you

I loved Spring Day as soon as I heard it. I still listen to it a lot when I'm in the mood for it. It's such a beautiful song. The Truth Untold IS A QUEEN. I love that one too. Jamais Vu, I think I have to be in the mood to listen to it sometimes, but it's growing on me. House of Cards, that one I heard last year sometime and I like that one too. I don't listen to it as much. And Silver Spoon is my go too song honestly on my way to work. Louder Than Bombs is really good. -sparkle 💫✨ 1/2

I listen to that one a lot myself. I think We Are Bulletproof 2.0 maybe one, but I'm not sure either. I absolutely adore that song so much. It's such a beautiful mad song honestly. And also you're right this update is kind of weird, but I don't mind the font so much. -sparkle 💫✨2/2

Yasss I’m glad you like Truth Untold too. It’s too beautiful. I practically cried when I heard for the first time a live performance video (somewhere in Japan) where he sang a higher note in the climax than in the studio recording auuughgghgh my heart.

We Are Bulletproof pt. 2 took awhile to grow on me but I was happy when it did. I can be a little odd about the order in which I listen to songs, and usually need to listen in album order, but for some reason I really like that one after No More Dream. Also, though it’s hardly underrated, I now know what all the fuss is about Cypher pt. 3. I’ve been gradually purchasing their older albums (kinda out of order) and finally got to Dark & Wild about a month ago haha. I’m listening to all these mad songs now. Been in a weird sad mood for a lot of today tbh and... mad bts is helping a little haha. So is chatting with you!

I’m probably overreacting about the dashboard, but something about that bubbly serif font is irritating haha. And I don’t see this mythical option to revert to the old dashboard that people are talking about in their settings. Boo. I’ll get over it... eventually haha.

The Truth Untold is one of my favorites, and I normally don't like ballads a lot. It takes me a while to get into them, but this one just caught my eye. I'm learning Korean, and it's one of the ones that I can sing along too while reading the lyrics! I am super proud of that accomplishment. When I was going through their albums after I got into them, I skipped the older ones at first. I wasn't sure if I really liked them. -sparkle 💫 1/2

I listen to a select few of them on their darker albums, but a lot of it isn’t really what I like hearing. Although, I think I may revisit the albums again. It’s been a while since I actually listened to them. haha if you go to settings > dashboard you’ll see it there. Just let it load for a second, adn then it pops up. -sparkle 💫✨ 2/2

(Ugh I typed an answer and then tried to drop in a screenshot and everything disappeared. Got it, tumblr. No dropping images. REDO.)

Oo that’s awesome that you’re learning Korean! Are you self-studying? How long have you been studying? I’ve been studying Japanese for several years (very slowly lol). Then a few months ago, thanks to BTS, I was suddenly really interested in learning Korean too. I worked on memorizing hangul for a week and then had a “lol what am I doing” moment when I realized I didn’t know nearly enough Japanese yet to realistically tackle two challenging languages at the same time. So Korean is on hold for now, but I really wish I could just… magically be fluent haha. It would be amazing to understand their lyrics or interviews/conversations on the spot without relying on translations. And English is stupidly difficult, so as much as I appreciate how much effort they’ve put into learning too… as an international fan, I wish I could return that effort too and learn their language so that they don’t feel like they need to learn English.

Love Yourself: Answer was my first album and I purchased that one specifically because it was a compilation and contained most of the individual songs I already knew I liked from YouTube haha. Then I expanded from there. To be honest, if I had found BTS when they were just getting started, or anytime before HYYH, I probably wouldn’t have connected with their music, sound-wise or thematically. But… they were exactly what I needed when I did finally find them. And now I have immense appreciation for their beginnings and how far they’ve come, even loving some older songs/styles that I never expected to. As I mentioned, I don’t usually listen to pop or rap/hip-hop… like ever haha. But something about them just reached into my heart and I’ll be forever grateful to them.

I tried what you suggested (waiting on the page) and… the text kinda jumped at one point as though something else had loaded, but nothing else displayed. Am I derping around on the wrong page? \:

edit: I see it in the source code, idk why the toggle isn’t displaying for me 🙃

Yes! I am self learning. I have been doing it on and off for like two years, but the last part of last year I've been doing it most often. However with everything that's going on, it's kind of slowed down and I've just been focusing on what's going on in the world right now. I feel the same. I think if I would have found them before, I don't think I would have liked them as much as I do now. I do have an appreciation for their older music even if I don't listen it to it much. 1/3 -sparkle 💫✨

Their first two albums I didn't like as much, but everything from then on I'm pretty sure I am obsessed with when I found them out. Lol. I do remember you say that previously that you don't listen to a lot of that style of music. What do you normally like to listen to? I listen to a lot of everything, so I'm not sure if I have a genre that i really stick too. Although, I think in the beginning i listened to a lot of hiphop/rap and alternative stuff. -sparkle 💫✨ 2/3

Then the older i got the more I got into pop music because I found kpop when I was about 17, and it's been stuck to me ever since. Lol. So I don't know I like a lot of music that makes me feel good and I can dance too or sing along with. I think maybe it depends on my mood. Lol . -sparkle 💫✨3/3

I think that’s awesome that you’re working on learning the language on your own! And I understand the challenges of keeping it up independently, especially in such strange and challenging times... I feel guilty that I stopped my daily kanji studying pretty much as soon as I started working from home. It was initially because I used my commute time to study (I’m in a vanpool) and... definitely lost some motivation once everything started changing. I know I shouldn’t be too hard on myself though for taking a break, and I hope you are not either. I’m hoping to get back into soon and reform some study time habits :)

Yeah it sounds like you’ve been listening to Kpop for a long time! ^^ Aside from my fairly recent BTS obsession, I gravitate toward moodier music in general haha. Evanescence was my instant favorite way back in middle school and... tbh I still listen to their albums sometimes! I tended to like anything indie-ish with piano or rock + orchestra. I loved this European band Within Temptation, their music is like a blend of rock and symphonic orchestra. Nowadays, I love video game music and that’s probably what I listen to the most... Nobuo Uematsu (Final Fantasyyy), who is probably one of my biggest inspirations for pursuing composition, Austin Wintory (Journey, Abzu, etc), and more recently Jessica Curry (everything the Chinese Room studio made lol). The past few days I’ve been streaming the songs from Death Stranding. I admit I don’t tend to have a lot of variety... I’m kind of picky and when I find something I love, I will listen to that obsessively over and over for months on end. Like BTS. xD No regrets haha! But I know I should broaden my horizons too...

I'm trying not to be so hard on myself, but I know I'll get back into it soon as I set a schedule for myself. Evanescence is amazing, that's all I got to say. I love them so much, so I totally get it. That's interesting though. I love learning about others music interest. It's always so different and diverse from mine. And also, I realized I didn't answer your question about the dash, and for some reason I don't know why it's not showing up. You were in the right place though. -sparkle 💫✨

Yayy glad you like Evanescence! Yes it is amazing and also wonderful that we all have unique tastes. I know I should make a better effort to try out new things, because finding something new that I connect with is amazing (see: BTS hehe).

I'm so excited to meet you next week!! Please take care and enjoy the rest of your weekend 💗

Sometimes it’s harder to really step out the box. So I totally understand, but I’ve always kind of had “weird” taste in different music so I like listening to whatever it is I like! And yes! I can’t to show you what I’m working on. I’m still searching for things for it! Lol. So I hope you like it. Also I hope you have an amazing week! And also a good day! -sparkle ✨💫

I woke up way earlier than planned thanks to this new isolation insomnia, but I was so happy to see your message. 💜 I’m so excited to meet you, but don’t feel like you have to rush on the gift! I know whatever you make will be wonderful. I hope you have a great week too. Do you have any ~weird~ music suggestions? I’ll give them a try!

I totally understand how that is. I hate waking up earlier than I want too because then you don't want to get up out of bed, but then you're too awake to go back to sleep. At least that's how i feel. Hmmm, weird music suggestions? I'm not entire sure. I like Florence and the Machine, FK Twigs (this might be an acquired taste), Panic at the Disco. There's so much I listen too, and my mind is going blank. Lol. -sparkle ✨💫

Yeah, that was my feeling exactly. :( At least I put in a couple extra hours of work, so I’ll get to take a shorter Friday. Or whichever day we try to brave a grocery run.

Thank you, I will check them out! Hehe due to your comment, I am intrigued by FK Twigs. For some reason I couldn’t really get into Panic at the Disco in high school, even though I had friends who loved them, but... I do appreciate that someone made an Emote! at the Location bot on twitter. xD

I hope you are having a good week so far! Tbh mine has been a little gloomy, but... I am really looking forward to meeting you! And finding out if my guess is right haha :’)) Take care dear!

And I loved Panic! They were so good, I still love them or Brendon Urie. Lol. FK Twigs is really good, but I know she's not for everyone. I really enjoy her music honestly. And honestly, I'm just about finished with your gif set. I have to find a few more videos and I'll post it probably tomorrow or later tonight depending on when I finish. And hmm, I don't know I don't think it is, but it shouldn't be long though. however, I'm really curious to know who you think I am. -sparkle ✨💫

EEek I’m so excited!! (Please don’t stay up late just for me though!)

As much as I am terrible at branching out, I do enjoy finding new music I like, so thank you again for the suggestions! I will try to listen with open ears and mind haha. Have you heard of Fleurie? I stumbled across her music when an artist I followed made a piece inspired by some of her lyrics. She might be quite a bit different than the artists you recommended though.

I’m going to feel a little silly if I’m wrong, but I’ll tell you after the reveal so I don’t make a fool of myself early. xD Can I ask you one question – do you know your Myer-Briggs type?

I'll probably go to bed soon. I'm actually in bed. I just got stuck on the tiktok app, and I really shouldn't. I've never heard of her, but I'll have to check her out tomorrow and see what she's about. And yes! I do know my Myers-Briggs type! -sparkle ✨💫

Oops you fell down the internet rabbit hole before bed :) Hope you didn’t stay up too late and got enough rest!

Love and War is the first song I found by Fleurie, and it’s also the title of one of her albums. It’s a little bit older but probably my favorite overall! I love the song Hurts Like Hell. It’s devastating but beautiful.

Have a great day, hope to talk to you more soon! 💜

p.s. I’m INFJ ✨

I did fall down the rabbit hole of the internet. It always happens. Also you should check out Kerli! she's really interesting, and I really like her music. Her music videos are also really nice. Intriguing at most. Lol. And I'm infj too! -sparkle ✨💫

I know the reveal has been made, but I didn’t want to leave this sitting all alone in my inbox.

Thank you, Ash, for taking the time not only to make me a beautiful gift but to talk with me this past month. Thank you for being a light and comfort in these uncertain times. I will miss your little surprise messages, but I hope we keep in touch. Now I will go back to liking your wonderful posts (because I confess I held back once I started to guess who you were, I didn’t want you to be suspicious either HAH). I’ve said it a lot but I really hope you stay safe, healthy, and happy!! 💗✨💫💗

#network events #secret bunny exchange #asks #sparkle #yoonqiful #this really made my march better :')

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madeleineandwilliam-ff · 6 years

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Chapter Nine

The rest of the month of November flew by once Madeleine returned home to London, where final exams and essays awaited her in the final weeks of her first semester of college. William kept himself equally as busy, but the pair managed to make time for phone calls, texts and AIMs during their class breaks and study sessions.

They welcomed December with harsh, bitter winds and lots and lots of snow. The month of December would also be the month of Madeleine’s first official engagement in London. Once she returned to London back in November, the Swedish Royal Court bombarded her with calls.

Over the last couple of months, the Swedish press had dubbed her “the absentee princess” as she hadn’t been on an official engagement since her move to London in August. Her parents had asked her to complete a joint engagement with her father’s older sisters, Princess Margaretha and Princess Birgitta. The engagement planned for the following week was a concert at the Royal Albert Hall for Swedish Pianist, Robert Hall. Louise was also set to accompany Madeleine and her aunts to the event, as a sort of comfort to Madeleine’s nerves.

“So what does one wear to see a pianist at the Royal Albert Hall anyways?” Louise asked Madeleine from her spot in Madeleine’s doorway of her bedroom.

Madeleine was curled up in her window seat with a fresh cup of coffee, engrossed in the second book from the Harry Potter series, The Chamber of Secrets as she briefly turned her attention to her best friend. “Your Sunday best?”

“My Sunday best, what are you eighty?” Louise replied, laughing. “That’s not nearly enough detail, Leni. Do I dress professional? Casual? Slutty?”

Madeleine was attempting to finish her current chapter in her book, but she sighed and rolled her eyes at Louise as she closed her book with a loud smack. Louise knew the word “slutty” would truly get Madeleine’s full attention. “Professional would be best, Lussan.”

“How about professional with a hint of slutty?” Louise asked with a devilish grin.

Madeleine chuckled. “Oh Birgitta and Margaretha would looove that.”

Louise rolled her eyes. “Are they prudes? Have I met them before? Your father’s sisters have a tendency to blur together after so many encounters, no offense.”

“Yes, you’ve met them a few times at birthday parties and at my graduation party. And they’re okay, the more proper of my dad’s four sisters as they’re the two eldest. Birgitta is more carefree, whereas Margaretha is more serious. They’ll like you, Margaretha is excited for the visit. She called briefly this morning.”

“Are they staying with us or has the Court arranged otherwise?” Louise asked, plopping herself down on Madeleine’s bed.

“They’re staying at a hotel about five minutes away. They’ll be over for tea on the eighth and then the concert is the evening of the ninth, then they’ll go home early on the morning of the tenth for the Nobel festivities.” Madeleine replied.

She was excited for her aunts to visit, but of course she was nervous. She didn’t grow up around them like she did her aunt and godmother, her father’s other sister, Princess Christina. She normally only saw Birgitta and Margaretha for special occasions like holidays, weddings, graduations and other big family events. They always got on well, but Madeleine was only ever comfortable with them when her parents were in the vicinity.

“Sounds good.” Louise replied as she began to flip through a gossip magazine on Madeleine’s bedside table.

“Hey Lussan?” Madeleine said, biting her lip.

“Yeah, Len?”

“Thank you again for coming with me. I know it's not your ideal way to spend a Friday night during finals week with me, and my aunts you hardly know. I normally wouldn’t ask but, I’m so freaked out about this event. The Court is worried the press may keep on me with the “absent princess” stuff if I don’t do well with this.”

“Ah, Leni. Of course, that is what best-friends are for. I know I could count on you if I was in the same situation. You’re going to kick that engagement square in the ass, if you ask me. Your aunts have done this before, they’ll be a good help for you. I’m just moral support.” Louise replied with a reassuring smile.

“Yeah, let’s hope so.”

The next day, Madeleine found herself sitting alone at a table at The Roasted Bean, a small, quaint coffee shop that was conveniently located down the road from her apartment. Over the last few months, Madeleine had grown to love the small hole in the wall coffee shop. It was very peaceful, as most people still preferred the Starbucks around the corner. But it worked out to Madeleine’s advantage as the shop was mostly a ghost town during her afternoon study sessions.

She was studying away for not one, but three of her finals that she was due to take the next day. However, her dyslexia had decided to kick in in the most convenient of moments, hindering her ability to concentrate on reading and note taking.

She had ordered her usual White Chocolate Mocha and chocolate croissant and instead of studying found herself people watching. The City of London was hustling and bustling around her with only weeks to go until Christmas. Many Londoners carried shopping bags that were filled with trinkets for their loved ones as they came and went. Snow was falling and the sun had long gone down with only the lights from Christmas decorations and street lights illuminating the sidewalks.

Since her move to London, Madeleine had found herself appreciating the art of people watching. It was more the art of normalcy she supposed she appreciated the most. Madeleine envied the random pedestrians as they passed her, they were the definition of normal - shopping as they pleased, going places without protection officers.

In Stockholm, she’d never had the pleasure of sitting in peace, just watching the world pass her by. But in London she had the glory of not being recognized around every street corner. That is, unless, she was being chased by the paparazzi, due to her own position and now the added plus of who her high profile boyfriend was.

Outside the window of the coffee shop, Madeleine spotted her protection officers, Olle and Ludvig, waiting for her in the parked Range Rover. This was another plus with London, she didn’t need them with her every second of every day - she only needed them on standby. It was nice to not feel watched by not only them, but by people she’d never met in her life. It was somewhat peaceful, especially since the press had otherwise become focused on things other than her relationship with William.

“Madde?”

Madeleine sprang to attention at the mention of her name. No. Someone had found her, or recognized her. This was her safe place, apparently not anymore. She turned to the voice, sighing as she looked up from her seat.

But this was no stranger to her, nor to her circle of friends back home in Sweden either. It was the boy who her friend, Emma Pernald, had wanted to set her up with just before she moved to London. Jonas Bergstrom.

Madeleine expected to see him in Stockholm, however not in London. She had no idea why he would be here as he was studying law back home in Sweden. Madeleine sighed as she turned to the tall, brunette with dazzling blue eyes. He was handsome, she would admit to that. But incredibly obnoxious, if you asked Madeleine.

“Jonas! Hi!” Madeleine exclaimed, trying to hide her surprise at seeing him in her city.

Jonas smiled at her, his blue eyes shining as he looked down at her. “So it is you! Emma mentioned that you were studying in London, but when I booked a trip here I never thought I’d actually see you!”

Madeleine shrugged her shoulders. “I supposed it really is a small world.”

“Indeed it is.” Jonas replied as he gestured to the empty seat at Madeleine’s table. “Can I sit?”

“Uhm, sure. Why not?” Madeleine replied, a polite smile on her face. She knew that Jonas had a thing for her, and he was a flirt anytime he saw her. He didn’t like not getting what his heart desired, however Madeleine clearly didn’t reciprocate these feelings.

Jonas took his seat, setting his coffee down. “I still can’t believe this. Princess Madeleine of Sweden! In London!”

“Uhh....yes. But if you wouldn’t mind saying that quite so loud, please?” Madeleine asked in a hushed tone. The last thing she wanted was for the baristas to know who she was, that would ruin this place for her altogether.

“Oh right, sorry.” Jonas replied, a slight flush coming to his cheeks.

“No don’t worry about it.” Madeleine replied, feeling a shift in the air. She’d made it awkward, of course. “So, what brings you to London anyways?”

Jonas perked up. “The opportunity has come up for me to study abroad here next summer. I’m just checking some places out and the college, of course.”

“Oh, what a great opportunity. Are you liking what you’ve seen so far?” Madeleine asked as she took a bite of chocolate croissant.

Jonas flashed her a smile and if Madeleine wasn’t mistaken he winked at her. Yes, winked at her. “Very much so. There are some great views in London.”

Madeleine had to refrain from rolling her eyes at him. Here he went with his flirting. The boy was so clueless it was painful. And apparently didn’t know, or care about the fact that she was publically dating William. However, Madeleine kept her cool. “There are some great places to visit as well.”

Jonas nodded in agreement. “Any place you’d suggest I visit?”

“Well, Big Ben is a must. Kensington and Buckingham Palaces are never a let down. And the London Eye is amazing.”

“Sounds like you’ve visited all the sights.” Jonas paused as he took a sip of his coffee. “Any chance you’d be available to show me around town? You might be able to sell me on London, more so than I already am.”

Madeleine tried not to display her displeasure on her face. He was a mutual friend, however he clearly wanted to be more than that in her life. There was just something she couldn’t quite pinpoint about him that she just didn’t like. Or maybe his blatantly obvious flirting was what it was. Whatever it was she did not want to show him around London.

“Normally, I could. But it's finals week for me and I’m slammed until I go home to Stockholm for Christmas.” Madeleine replied, gesturing to the several textbooks sitting in front of her. And she wasn’t lying, she didn’t have much free time. But what little free time she did have would be spent with William or on the phone with him, that was for certain.

“Ah, I see. You’re probably pretty busy with William too.” Jonas replied with a smirk.

Again, Madeleine had to stop herself from rolling her eyes. She could not figure out why her friend, Emma, liked this boy so much so that she wanted to set him up with her. He was the most annoying, conniving thing she’d ever met. There was clearly an ulterior motive to this conversation.

“Not really, we’re long distance.” Madeleine replied with narrowed eyes.

“Oh so, you’re not that serious I take it?” Jonas asked, taking another sip of his coffee.

Madeleine shifted uncomfortably in her chair. This conversation was going down hill. Quick.

“You know, we’re taking it one day at a time.” Madeleine replied with pursed lips.

“Gotcha. That William, though. He seems like a bit of a playboy, from what I’ve heard.” Jonas replied, casually.

He clearly only approached her to piss her off. That was painfully obvious. He was jealous of her relationship with William. And was still holding a torch for Madeleine ever since the failed setup that her friends had tried to organize.

“You know what Jonas, thank you.” Madeleine said, curtly. She was over this.

“Thank you? For what?” Jonas asked smiling.

“Thank you for proving to me of what a fantastic decision it was to...” Madeleine began, but forced herself to stop as Olle approached her.

He’d left his position from the Range Rover and came and whispered in her ear. “Isn’t it time you head to the library, Madeleine?”

Madeleine let out a sigh of relief after the save from Olle. She clearly would’ve said something she would later come to regret. Her hotheadedness once again got the best of her as she gathered her books and said a quick goodbye to Jonas.

On her way out to the car, beside Olle she turned to him. “Thanks for the save in there, Olle.”

“No problem, Madeleine. We remembered your dislike for him the last time, and he clearly wasn’t getting the message.” He replied, opening the back door of the Range Rover for her.

As she slid in the backseat, she smiled. “Jonas Bergstrom is clearly not a face you should forget. Please save me anytime you see him. He’s an asshole.”

Olle and Ludvig burst into laughter. “Whatever you say, Princess.”

A few hours later, Madeleine returned home to her flat. After her encounter with Jonas at The Roasted Bean, she studied at the university’s library for a bit and later went grocery shopping at Waitrose.

As she walked into the front doorway, she dropped her bookbag at the door and carried the groceries into the kitchen.

“Lussan! You here?” Madeleine yelled as she began to put the milk in the fridge.

“Ohhh, Leni! Yay!” Louise exclaimed as she popped in the doorway of the kitchen, a smile on her face.

“What’s got you so excited?” Madeleine asked, her brow furrowed as she continued to put their groceries away.

“Well, you’ll never believe who called me this afternoon...” Louise trailed off as the ringing of their doorbell trilled through the flat and she disappeared down the hall.

“Louise! Who is here? I didn’t invite anyone tonight...” Madeleine questioned as she followed Louise down the hall.

Madeleine stopped in her tracks as she rounded the corner in the hallway and saw who their guest was. Now this was no coincidence.

Here he was again.

Uninvited and unwanted. In her flat. Jonas Bergstrom.

As Madeleine turned to Louise to ask her to come to the other room for a quick chat, she couldn’t help but notice that this guest was very wanted and invited by her best friend. Wonderful.

Louise was all giggly and full of excitement as she smiled up at Jonas. “Jonas, I’m so glad you called. It’s been too long, honestly.”

“It has, sweet Lussan.” Jonas replied, wrapping Louise into a hug as his blue eyes met Madeleine’s.

“Jonas! My, my aren’t we full of surprises? For the second time today!” Madeleine exclaimed with her eyes narrowed as she observed him.

Jonas had since changed his outfit from jeans and a sweatshirt from earlier in the day, to a nice blue button down shirt that complimented his eyes and dark wash jeans. His hair was more styled and there was the hint of overbearing cologne coming from his direction. God, he was full of it.

Louise furrowed her brow and looked to Madeleine. “Wait you knew Jonas was in town, Leni? Why didn’t you tell me?!”

“I was just about to when I walked in but here he is!” Madeleine paused, turning to Jonas. “What brings you here tonight, Jonas?”

“Ah well, since you couldn’t show me around London, I rang Lussan and she gladly accepted the invitation to accompany me. I’m just here to pick her up.” Jonas replied with a sly smile.

Madeleine tried to stop herself from scowling in his direction. “I see. Where exactly are you two going?”

Louise replied this time. “Well I figured I’d take him to some of the places William took you to, Leni. I was thinking London Eye, London Dungeon, maybe Buckingham Palace if there’s time.”

Madeleine nodded. “Well, you two should go then. Before it's too late, don’t let me keep you.”

Louise waved her hand in the air. “Nonsense, I was actually going to invite you! Can’t you come?”

Jonas didn’t give Madeleine a chance to answer before he interjected and answered for her. “Didn’t you say you were studying tonight, Madeleine? Unless your plans have changed.”

Madeleine couldn’t believe she’d been put in this position with him for the second time today. Where were Olle and Ludvig to save the day this time? While Madeleine had gotten most of her studying out of the way, she still had zero interest in spending an evening with Jonas.

“You’re right, Jonas. I have a big paper due in English Lit tomorrow, so I better not. You two have fun though.” Madeleine replied, trying to urge him out of their flat as quickly as possible.

“Such a shame.” Jonas paused. “Maybe next time?”

“We’ll see.” Madeleine replied, shifting awkwardly.

Louise grabbed her coat from the hall closet. “Let’s head out and leave Madeleine to her studying. Come on Jonas.”

“Right. Have a good night, Madeleine.” Jonas replied, smiling with a glimmer in his eye.

“You as well.” Madeleine mumbled as she watched Louise close the door behind them.

But now, Madeleine would have anything but a “nice” night. She was in complete disbelief at Jonas. Louise was clearly under the impression that he had different intentions with his visit that night, but Madeleine saw right through him. This was Jonas’ way to her, and she wasn’t going to let him hurt her best friend in the process.

Author’s Note: Hey readers! Hope you enjoyed this chapter! And there was a new character introduction! What will Jonas Bergstrom’s (Madeleine’s ex-fiance in real life) role be in this story? ;)

#royal fanfic #royalfanficcollection #royalfanficcentral #princess madeleine ff #prince william ff

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siverwrites · 6 years

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Chapters: 1/1 Fandom: Ghost Trick: Phantom Detective Rating: Teen And Up Audiences Warnings: No Archive Warnings Apply Relationships: Alma/Jowd, Alma/Cabanela/Jowd Characters: Cabanela (Ghost Trick), Jowd (Ghost Trick), Alma (Ghost Trick) Additional Tags: Fluff, Wedding Fluff Word Count: 6244 Summary:

'The guests’ clapping rang distant in Cabanela’s ears as he watched the loving couple break apart, fingers still entwined. A warmth filled him, drowning the thoughts trying to seep out from their corner. His Jowd and Alma, a pair, a precious unit. Gods, they were beautiful.' Jowd and Alma's wedding. Chicken. A proud, pining peacock. Lots of fluff. An overhaul and greatly expanded version (approaching twice the length) of With this Ring with a new title (as the old one no longer fits)

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The day had come at last. In some ways it felt like a life time ago that they proposed, and in others it was as if hardly any time had passed at all. Now their wedding had arrived.

Alma had been sitting in her old room enjoying a moment of peace until the time came. Then Cabanela whirled in, beamed at her dress, frowned at her hair and promptly shooed her back to the mirror. What exactly it was that bothered him, she couldn’t say, but she’d always been better with the clothing side of things. And, as the past several weeks taught her, it was better to just let him get on with things.

She tried not to fidget as Cabanela’s fingers worked skillfully through her hair, tucking a tendril here, making small adjustments there. Honestly, she thought, he was fussier than any bridesmaid, stylist or possibly in this case even, though she would spare him that, her grandmother.

“Doesn’t Jowd need your help?” Alma asked.

“Not aaanymore unless his tie got the better of him again. He’s either impossible or easy. Not much to do either way.”

They caught each other’s eye in the mirror and his sparkled with amusement.

“Or?”

“I’ll pop by again and see!” Cabanela said cheerily.

Alma smiled and returned her attention to keeping her hands still and not wrinkling her dress. Cabanela backed up and with one last critical look, tossed himself onto the corner of the bed where he settled, crossing one leg over the other.

“What’s eatin’ you, baby?”

Ah. She should have known all her efforts would be in vain.

“Not really any one thing in particular.” She laughed. “I guess it just finally hit that this is happening now.”

After all the flurry of activity to think it was all down to this day and then it would be over. While she often felt she had little to do but agree or disagree with decisions, so many decisions, so many propositions, it was dizzying all the same. And, of course, keeping Cabanela and her grandmother from biting each other’s heads off was an exhausting task in itself.

And what of their other private plan?

“All of this and now it feels like it’s almost over before it’s begun. And I’m… I guess I am more nervous than I expected.”

“Only natural so I’ve been told,” Cabanela replied.

“Yes… And I am excited! Your work wasn’t in vain, but I’m looking forward to after as well.” She smiled fondly. “When we can move forward.”

“The looovely first step to a new life, nothing like it, baby!”

Did his gaze flicker away there? The briefest of falters in that smile? Or was she only letting worry colour her imagination? Perhaps they’d missed a clear fault in their plan.

One fluid motion carried Cabanela to his feet and now he stood over her. He took her hand in both of his and held her gaze.

“And I can’t imagine a more beautiful match.”

Almost, she thought to herself, but before she could say anything Cabanela released her.

“Best go make sure the groom isn’t in trouble!” he said and spun on his heel to leave the room.

Alma watched him saunter out. Astonishing – so candid in some ways, outrageously so, and yet so reserved in others.

Jowd stared out the living room window, the fancy clock above the mantle ticking uncomfortably loud in his ears. It would be time to go soon and an unusual tide of nerves quietly swelled below the surface. Nerves yes, however it would also be a relief to go (if his best man ever came back down from helping Alma). The odd combination of stiffness and fervent activity that occupied this room and the whole house only grew more difficult to deal with each passing day since they’d arrived three days prior.

It had been easier to stay with Alma’s family and they were far closer to both the park for the ceremony and hall for the party. He greatly looked forward to returning home. To get away from the last minute chaos of planning. It would be a great relief to bring Alma home, to sink back into their routine.

He smiled. A new routine just for them.

Naturally he was happy for this day. And, he appreciated Cabanela’s tireless efforts and keeping to their wishes for something smaller than grandiose with a skill well outside of Jowd’s understanding.

‘Are you sure being a cop is your calling?’

‘Detective, excuse youuu.’

‘My apologies, future detective.’

How he’d managed to pull it all off while also fending off certain relative’s demands on top of his duties was beyond him. And the thought of the immense sulk that would result from not going through with it was as unbearable as the preparations leading up to this day. But it truly was afterward he was looking forward to, building a life together, just being together.

“Yoo hooo. Oh Jooowd, wedding bells are callin’, baby!”

Speaking of their planner, Jowd pulled himself away from the window and found himself under the steady scrutiny of Cabanela.

“Well?” Jowd prompted when Cabanela’s gaze seemed to last a little too long. “Do I pass muster?”

“Loook at that,” Cabanela said, voice softer than Jowd expected. “Still in one piece.”

He twirled around to join Jowd at his side and slung an arm around his shoulder.

“Bein’ a rock does have its uses!” he said brightly. “I should tell Alma the good news. One dreeeary mess traded for something presentable!”

Jowd eyed the man beside him, tall, elegant in a long black tail coat adorned with silver buttons. Ever the proud peacock that one.

“Standing next to your sparkling self who would notice a crooked tie?”

Cabanela cocked his head, mock suspicion clear on his face. “That almost sounds like flattery. What’s the price?”

“I have to do something to make up for my absence. Maybe you’ll go easy on me!”

“Don’t wooorry, baby. I’ll catch a crook for you, hand out some parking tickets. Got you covered!”

Jowd chuckled and let Cabanela guide him out of the room.

Their arrival at the park showed them tidy rows of seats on the grass, a simple, elegant arch and it seemed to Jowd a few more flowers around than initial plans dictated.

The weather was holding out, warm and breezy without being too hot and they were further shaded under a large oak tree. As he adjusted his collar, while avoiding the looks of the guests, he prayed it would stay that way. He had been fine on their way over. Now he was here, with nothing to do but wait – there had been a great deal of waiting – he felt rather like an overdressed chicken on display.

At least, he thought, he had company, and with that thought he looked back at Cabanela. In body anyway. The man’s look was a million miles away and if it was one of plotting, it wasn’t any look Jowd had seen before.

“Hey,” he said in a low voice. Cabanela seemed to snap back into himself. Odd.

“Hmm?”

“How long?”

Cabanela smiled, looking more himself. “Couple minutes, baby.”

Jowd nodded and passed a last searching look over him. He was at ease once more as if nothing had happened and there were no answers to be found there.

Cabanela noted the searching look and waited until Jowd turned away before letting loose a small frown. He had more than enough time and practice pushing unwanted thoughts to the farthest corner of his mind where they wouldn’t be a bother to anyone, including himself. This was the last day for such thoughts. Not the time, never the time.

He couldn’t be happier for them. There was no arguing that point. It was only… it was just… he would be relieved when the wedding kicked off proper and he could slide back into his role. A good role. An easy role, over here in support for his best of friends.

Only a couple minutes more.

He flexed his fingers and carefully unleashed his tension one muscle at a time. Relax.

Something it appeared Jowd was now failing at, judging by the rigid back. He’d been doing so well too.

Cabanela leaned over to whisper in his ear. “Looosen up baby. You look ready to keel over. I don’t belieeeve Alma signed up to marry a stiff.”

Jowd shifted and dropped his shoulders. “She knows what she signed up for,” he murmured back.

Cabanela cast his gaze to the heavens. A victory was a victory no matter how small in a losing battle. A nervous rock was marginally better than a stunned rooster.

The music started and Cabanela and Jowd turned as one to see Alma at the opposite end of the aisle formed by the rows of seats.

Alma took a deep breath and proceeded to start her walk. She had to suppress a chuckle at the sight ahead of her: Jowd, his eyes fixed on her, but his nerves standing out clearly in his stiff posture, in perfect contrast to Cabanela’s beaming pride.

Her procession ended faster than she anticipated and she found herself standing opposite Jowd.

“Relax honey,” she whispered. “I don’t recall anything about a stiff on the papers.”

She blinked at Cabanela’s rather smug smirk and Jowd snorted into his beard, earning all three of them a raised eyebrow and a pointedly polite clearing of the throat from the officiant.

“We are gathered here…”

Alma let the officiant’s words wash over her as she found her attention drifting away to focus on her husband-to-be. Friend, husband, partner. It hadn’t always been easy getting to this point, but the result was more than worth every step of the journey.

It hit her at times how easy it would have been to miss this, how easy it would have been for this day to never happen. A chance meeting, the right timing, and somehow things seemed to flow from there. And before she knew it she had not just one wonderful friend, but two. Before she knew it life swept them up and friendship turned into so much more.

She couldn’t be happier.

“Now bring forth the rings,” the officiant announced, pulling Alma from her thoughts and reminiscence.

Cabanela stepped forward, both rings laid out on the palm of his hand. Alma took hers first and Jowd noticed how her fingers lingered over his and how his seemed to tighten before she pulled away.

Once Alma stepped back Jowd reached for his, watching Cabanela’s expression. His joy was clear in those glittering eyes and the curve of his lips, but there was something else there, something he couldn’t get a fix on. He thought he’d learned to read Cabanela’s moods, but this one was a firmly closed book.

As he took the ring he felt a muscle twitch in Cabanela’s hand, but his expression remained unchanged. Perhaps more than one relief would come after the end.

Cabanela stepped aside with a nod and a wink. This particular message was clear: Your turn.

Jowd nodded back. Message received. Unneeded, but read loud and clear.

He turned to face Alma, his breath catching. This was real. He took her hand, other thoughts sliding away as he drank in the sight of her. An exchange of rings and vows, the words falling out easily:

“I give you this ring, as a reminder, that I will love, honour, and cherish you. In all times, in all places. And in all ways, forever. For you, my beloved.”

“You may kiss the bride,” the officiant announced.

Jowd swooped Alma into his arms. Their surroundings faded as Alma filled Jowd’s world. He held her gently and poured every thought and care he could never put words to into that kiss and hoped she understood. When they parted, slightly breathless, after what felt like an eternity in the span of seconds, he saw in her shining eyes he had succeeded.

The guests’ clapping rang distant in Cabanela’s ears as he watched the loving couple break apart, fingers still entwined. A warmth filled him, drowning the thoughts trying to seep out from their corner. His Jowd and Alma, a pair, a precious unit. Gods, they were beautiful.

Alma met his gaze and Jowd followed suit. His breath caught in his throat. They wore a similar expression of warmth and care and… something he didn’t dare attempt to fathom. The moment passed quickly, leaving him stunned, while arms interlocked, the pair made their way back down the aisle to lead the party to the reception hall.

Cabanela lingered, overseeing the guests’ departure, until the last were gone, then followed after with every intention of slipping into the reception hall to take his place. Instead he found Alma and Jowd waiting outside the doors.

Alma caught his arm and pulled him to her.

“Thank you for everything,” she said before embracing him.

Cabanela returned the hug, possibly a little tighter than he intended, yet expecting to break if off at any moment. Instead Jowd wrapped his large arms around them both.

It was a perfect moment, a perfect fit, and one that ended much too soon even as his thoughts erupted into a whirlwind of rapidly denied hopes and possible meanings he couldn’t bring himself to entertain. They pulled away, hands lingering over one another.

“Weeell,” Cabanela announced brightly, covering his disappointment. Back to the corner, thoughts, back. He made a broad gesture at the door. “Shall I announce the entrance of our looovely bride and groom?”

Horror flashed across Jowd’s face and Alma laughed.

“I’d like a moment alone with Jowd,” she said. “Go on without us.”

“I can give you lovebirds some alone time, but don’t take too long or you’ll owe me for facin’ your grandmother’s wrath,” Cabanela said and he grinned at the wince from Jowd.

Alma watched Cabanela swing into the hall with a frown, and waited until the doors closed.

“I’m worried we’ve made a mistake,” she said softly. “I don’t think our brilliant detective gets it yet. I suppose after how busy everything has been I can’t blame him. I only thought he would have figured it out… even guessed at our plans by now.”

“He must know,” Jowd replied, but an edge of uncertainty hovered in his voice.

“Knowing and accepting aren’t always the same.” She folded her arms and looked worriedly at the door. “He’s always so… so present and certain, it never occurred to me that he would think he has any need for fear.”

“It’ll be over tonight,” Jowd said.

“I just… I want him to be happy today. He did so much for us.”

“He is,” Jowd said firmly. “I may not always know what’s going through that head of his, but I know when he’s being genuine.”

“Right…” Alma looked at the doors. “And I suppose we’d better get in there before he genuinely follows through on his threat.”

Jowd eyed the doors as well with a grimace and Alma laughed.

“Ready to go in, my brave husband?” her tease faded as she savoured the word.

“I suppose we’d better before your grandmother flays us all alive.”

Jowd offered Alma his arm and they entered together. Cabanela stood by their seats, leaning down a bit to chat amiably with Alma’s mother. Jowd found himself suddenly both starving and greatly looking forward to the more peaceful moment food and the guests’ occupation with it and each other would bring.

Of course dinner was a noisy affair and the hall filled with a cheerful hum. Sitting with Alma on one side and Cabanela on the other, Jowd realized he was perfectly content with it all.

He reached for his glass, his arm brushing against Cabanela. He felt more than saw Cabanela stiffen before he reached for his own glass with an overly casual air. Not fooling anyone here, partner.

Jowd frowned. Maybe Alma was right to worry. The number of off moments was growing through the day and he wondered how many slipped by in the previous chaos as well.

“Something wrooong with the chicken?” Cabanela drawled.

“Could use ketchup,” Jowd replied.

Alma wrinkled her nose and Cabanela leaned forward to look around at her with a jab of his fork at Jowd’s plate.

“You suuure this is what you wanna marry into, baby?”

“A burden I’ll just have to bear,” Alma said lightly with a mock sigh.

Jowd laughed and let their jests cover his concerns. Their conversation remained merry amidst the buzz of chatter and clinking of silverware until the meal was over and it was time for the speech and toast.

“It’s not too late to stop him,” Jowd said to Alma and chuckled at Cabanela’s show of haughtiness.

“Not too late for some last minute revisions either baby,” Cabanela replied as he rose from his seat and called for attention.

He knew his speech well and it tumbled out effortlessly: nods and smiles from the guests, growing confusion at comments meant only for Jowd and Alma, Alma snorting into her drink, Jowd’s beard quivering with a laugh, and an exchange of smiles until he brought it back around to its end.

“And I am proud and honoured to call Jowd and Alma my dear,” he hesitated and the pause seemed to stretch before him infinitely. Not a problem. Juggle the words, a dramatic pause in a deliberate grand gesture, “…and most valuable,” he placed a hand on each of their shoulders, “friends.”

He stepped back and retrieved his glass in a broad sweep. “And so, a toast to our beauuutiful bride and groom! Love,” he raised his glass, caught Jowd’s eye and finished in a softer tone, “nothing like it.”

When he returned to his seat, he spotted the exchanged knowing look between Alma and Jowd and he couldn’t help the feeling that while he may have fooled the guests there was one pair here who saw right through him. Alas, they’d always been best at it.

The sudden desire to fade and slip away seized him. See them off to the dance floor, see his part complete and make a retreat. He was done. They didn’t need him here. Returning to the solitude of home seemed, if not exactly appealing, a safer route.

It would be simple. He could make the quick jaunt to Alma’s family home, leave a message, and call a cab. It would be expensive at this distance, but it seemed of little relevance. It would be a relief, wouldn’t it? The crowded room suddenly felt too stifling. So easy to end, yet he was caught between choices, caught in a web of his own making and how long had he let this happen?

“Cabanela?”

Jowd’s voice. He looked up to find himself now pinned to his chair under the couple’s warm gazes.

He couldn’t leave them. How could he? On this night of nights? This final night before everything changed.

He was ready for that change. He was, he was.

No, there was nothing more to do now but continue the quick one-two step to cover his tracks.

“Are you all right?” Alma asked. Worry coloured her tone and expression.

No, no, that wouldn’t do at all. He was better than this and he would only give them the best. He leaned forward resting his chin on one hand and grinned at Jowd.

“Only eyein’ the time. Ready for that daaance?”

It was about time, thank the gods for that. If his speech stumble told him anything it was that the jubilant atmosphere, the combined scents of perfumes, flowers and champagne, and the luminous presence of his – the bride and groom – had become too heady even for him. Yes, only that. Convenient and logical. Best to lose it all to the simple rhythms of the dance floor.

Jowd shook his head. “I was until reminded.”

“Be kind,” Alma said. “My toes came away unscathed last time.”

Cabanela’s hand hesitated over his champagne before he quickly switched to his water. Any more alcohol held far too much risk now.

“And a miracle it was!” he chirped, raising his glass to Jowd. “Nooothing like a magical night to repeat it. And I do beliiieve…” He peered across the hall and spotted the signal that the band was prepared. “They are ready.”

He hopped up. This was the way. This was a dance he could dance without any effort at all.

“Laaadies and gentlemen! If you’ll kindly lend your attention to the dance floor, it’s time for our happy couple’s first dance!”

Jowd and Alma rose to their feet. Cabanela bowed low with a wide sweep of his arm as a guide to the dance floor. He peeked up at Jowd’s face where one message was written plain as day: Help me.

You’re fiiine.

The music began as Alma took Jowd’s arm and they moved out to the floor. Jowd let Alma take the lead and even he had to admit they were off to a smooth start. However, it wasn’t long before Jowd found himself casting his eyes in Cabanela’s direction for reassurance. He knew this; they’d practiced and yet it seemed the floor had drained all past knowledge and turned his feet to lead.

Cabanela only nodded in Alma’s direction. Follow her lead.

I’m doomed.

He only got clear amusement and a shake of his head in return. Very helpful.

He spun Alma and caught her, flowing into the next step of their dance.

“You’re doing well,” she murmured.

So he was until he realized she was going in a direction he wasn’t expecting. What was supposed to come next?

A slight head tilt from Cabanela. To the left. A raised eyebrow. Don’t make me come over there.

Please do.

Only a barely concealed laugh in reply. Thankfully other couples soon joined them and he relaxed a bit.

“There,” Alma said, her eyes sparkling, “not so bad was it?”

“I believe that depends on your definition of bad.”

Alma grinned. “In relative terms?”

“Ha!”

Alma kept Jowd for the second dance, which went better, and the third, and if it wasn’t for taking pity on him and the need to still give another her attention, she would have been most happy to keep him all night.

She let Jowd retreat back to the tables and glided after him to stop by Cabanela, who to her surprise still lingered there. Here she thought she’d have to steal him away from any number of other dance partners.

“I still owe you a dance.” She held out a hand. “May I?”

Cabanela took her hand with a bow and beamed at her. “It would be my pleasure.”

They moved as one across the dance floor, whirling in a heady embrace. He dipped her and she thought to herself that it was rather a good thing he held her so securely or she might melt to the floor in utter contentment.

Their eyes met. His mouth thinned, but before she could react she was upright once more, he was all smiles and their dance continued as if nothing happened. She tried to search his face for any clues toward his thoughts and found nothing.

The song faded. Before she let him depart she reached up to cup his cheek and kissed the other. The gesture wasn’t as much as she wanted. She hoped it would do for now. Cabanela blinked, but any further expression was covered by an elaborate bow before they parted to whisk away other partners.

Suspicions confirmed.

Oh sweetie, I’ve never known you to be so blind.

Jowd was perfectly content to sit back and watch as Alma and Cabanela danced across the floor. He noted the kiss and smiled into his drink. She always had been the more forward one. Something, Cabanela once pointed out, was a very good thing or they might never have gotten anywhere.

Even apart, it seemed to him, they still moved in sync. Though, he noted with a quiet laugh, Cabanela maintained his distance from Alma’s grandmother. No surprise there. She had arrived, a disapproving organizational force to be reckoned with, and then met Cabanela: a clear case of an unstoppable force meeting an immovable object. As to who was what was not a debate he was willing to engage in.

Thanks for taking the heat off my back. He knew she still didn’t approve of his marriage with her granddaughter (he privately wondered if there was anything the woman approved of), however Cabanela proved a difficult distraction to ignore.

He had thrown himself completely into the wedding planning right up to the last minute details of today. Jowd hadn’t given it much thought. When they settled on a date Cabanela offered his assistance and ‘no’ hadn’t been an option. He wasn’t one to do things in small measures – never had been, Jowd mused. A carefree demeanour wrapped around a fierce intensity from the day he met him.

He passed his drink an amused smile. It hadn’t been the most favourable of first impressions. The man whirled into the lecture hall, loudly greeted anyone who would listen and tossed himself into a seat with such force Jowd had been surprised it didn’t tip over. He found himself surprised the man didn’t put his feet up on the desk right then and there and he very quickly found himself irritated with his airy conversations rapidly flitting from person to person around him. Uncharitable he knew, but he wrote him off as someone unlikely to last, all flash and little substance.

Only to be proven wrong with a quick wit and knowledgeable answers as fast as the crack of a whip.

He was a force of nature around campus, getting into everything and seeming to know everyone. Yet for all his good cheer and friendliness he was like a whirlwind, sweeping people briefly into his wake without ever getting close to anyone. He found it… odd. Even stranger was how he got caught in that whirlwind and was never released.

He had no idea how it happened, from distaste, to the occasional conversation, from not seeing him much outside of class for days until he was suddenly at his side chatting amiably about some new restaurant he found and why not grab dinner? Until the time spent together grew more and more regular and he found himself in a close friendship he could never have imagined.

Then he met Alma and two quickly became three. Before he knew it, he and Alma were dating, egged on by Cabanela himself, Cabanela who had become and remained a fixture in their lives.

Now they were here.

No small measures. After today and Alma’s comments, he started to wonder if there was more to it. Between the organization and heading off the unwanted demands of certain members of the family combined with their regular police work, Cabanela kept himself extraordinarily busy. It was only in the quiet moments signs of any cracks showed. Those were kept few and far between until today. Jowd got the impression he was bracing himself for something and his own words echoed back to him: he must know. Didn’t he?

Whatever the case a conclusion would be reached tonight and Jowd greatly looked forward to getting their quiet lives back, for a certain measure of quiet where work and Cabanela were concerned.

Alma parted from the swirling dance and sunk into the seat beside Jowd. She leaned her head on his shoulder.

“Are you going to hide over here all night?” she teased.

He looked down at her affectionately and wrapped an arm around her shoulders. “Doesn’t seem like a bad idea.”

“You can get away with it for now I suppose,” she replied as she settled against him.

Together they watched the dance floor and shared a laugh as Cabanela continued to pirouette across it, leaving a trail of winded dancers in his wake.

Then he too broke away and waltzed over to the pair.

“We’re missin’ the staaars of the show!”

Alma still leaned on Jowd, eyes closed. She peeked an eye open with a half glance at Jowd. “What do you say? Can you manage a last dance?”

“I suppose if I must,” he replied, his feeble protest lost in a smile.

Alma and Jowd stood. Cabanela appeared ready to toss himself into a seat, but Alma gripped his arm.

“You’re coming too. You can’t leave me with Mr. Two Left Feet again.”

“Ah, no rest for the wicked. Still need a guiiide?”

Alma inwardly sighed. “With us,” she said firmly.

She took both their arms and dragged them to the floor.

Jowd and Alma started, mirrored by Cabanela. They went through a few steps before Jowd spun Alma away and Cabanela caught her with a twirl. She let him lead for a measure before she stepped around him and nudged him playfully toward Jowd. Without missing a beat Cabanela caught hold of Jowd and they flowed into the next steps.

Alma stepped back to watch them with a wide smile. She couldn’t help but notice Cabanela drawing closer to Jowd at their next step. Their hands rested easily at each other’s backs and his stare fixed on Jowd’s face. She could back right off, she thought. Let them have this. Would they even notice? Unfortunately, before she could decide, Cabanela pulled back, extended an arm and, still holding Jowd’s hand, pulled her back in to rejoin them.

Some of the other dancers started watching, unnoticed by the trio. They were immersed in their own bubble of joy, spinning here and there, linking hands, passing each other off to one another before coming back together in a circle.

Then the song faded, the last of the evening and the party wound down at last. Jowd and Alma saw to thanking and seeing their guests off. And before they all knew it, they stood outside Jowd’s car in the cool night air and it was over.

The car felt strangely quiet after the boisterous night. Alma had slid into the back with a vague mumble about space for her dress and after a brief pause Cabanela opted for the front where eyes would be focused on the road.

Streetlamps flashed by in the dark, a steady monotony and Cabanela let his thoughts wander. A beautiful day and he would hold onto those smiles for a long time to come. Now it was time to go home. He’d make a cup of tea, get some sleep, and take care of neglected errands tomorrow. Prepare for work. Business as usual.

Cabanela frowned at the familiar streets they passed through and shot a look at Jowd.

“Must be gettin’ tired. You missed the turn.”

“Going home first,” Jowd said.

Jowd’s eyes were fixed on the road and it was too dark to make out much in the way of an expression anyway. Cabanela felt some of the tension he thought he left on the dance floor sink in. This wasn’t the plan.

They were supposed to drop him off and he would see them off into the sunset… or moonlight as it were – the point still stood. He craved the privacy of his home where he could bask in the afterglow of a job well done and pull himself back together, reorganize without interference.

But they were planning something and he’d been willfully ignoring it all day, as if he’d ever had any reason to doubt himself or his instincts before.

Was it possible to play one’s roles too well?

They pulled up to the house. Jowd exited and circled around to help Alma out. Before Cabanela could question him, he marched off toward the house without a word leaving him with Alma.

“You’re runnin’ out of your speeecial night,” Cabanela commented. So what exactly was he doing here?

Alma hushed him, looped her arm around his and herded him through their front door and to the sofa, all while wearing a smile Cabanela couldn’t find meaning in.

He wouldn’t say no to those welcoming cushions. Cabanela folded into the sofa and the simple act of doing so and being here drained away some of his tension. However, it wasn’t long before a different sort of tension replaced it. What were they up to?

“Haaappy to help with the wedding,” he said, “but playin’ chaperone is goin’ a bit faaar, isn’t it?”

Alma only shook her head, still wearing that mysterious smile.

They were playing some sort of game. He may not know these particular rules yet, but he could play the waiting game. He leaned back into the couch cushions and silently tapped out a rhythm against his thigh. Alma remained standing near and silent.

It didn’t take long before Jowd re-entered, holding a small and elegant white box. He would appear most solemn if Cabanela didn’t recognise the spark in his eyes or the twitch of his beard. A private joke.

Alma and Jowd exchanged a nod – a private joke between them – before Jowd knelt in front of Cabanela, Alma at Jowd’s side with a hand on his shoulder.

A joke, or something so much more. This wasn’t… they weren’t…

“We talked about a ring,” Jowd said.

Cabanela froze.

“But we both thought it wasn’t really your style and I caught you eyeing this.”

Jowd held out the box and he and Alma spoke together. “For you, our beloved.”

The familiar line carried away the rest of his scattering thoughts with it. He reached out automatically to take the box. All else was forgotten (including his ability to breathe it seemed) as he lifted the lid revealing a silver locket. It had caught his eye, though he never expected Jowd to notice – he’d have to keep a closer eye on him.

He ran a finger across the disk, not trusting his voice.

“Open it,” Alma prompted.

He searched for the groove, hard to see, but there, while admiring the item’s craft as a whole. It opened easily and he wondered if he would ever be able to speak again for the rest of this strange night when he saw the picture within. The three of them, on a day out they’d taken, a wonderful, joyous day.

He closed it with a questioning look at the pair who nodded, and he lifted it out of its box completely, letting the lamp light glint off the silver disk. A pretty thing and if he could remember how to attach meaning to words, so much more.

He settled for simple, light words that would serve as an easy cover for encroaching deeper concerns.

“A looovely thing. Not quite sure it goes with this suit,” he said. Or this day, their day or…

“Oh I don’t know,” Alma said as she perched daintily on the arm of the sofa. She surveyed him, her eyes suddenly professional as if he was a client. “With the right adjustments I think we can make it work.”

She leaned over and ran a hand down his suit jacket before unbuttoning it and nudging it open. With far less professional, and far more tantalizing fingers, she slowly undid the top buttons of his shirt.

Jowd circled around the back and lifted the necklace from his fingers. His hands were warm in contrast to the cool metal as he fastened the chain around his neck. He remained, his thumb rubbing against tense muscles.

Alma exchanged a glance with Jowd before she passed a thoughtful look over Cabanela and nodded with satisfaction.

“Perfect.”

He couldn’t easily look back at Jowd as was and wasn’t about to shake off that touch just yet, but Alma was still in his sights.

“I wouldn’t want to…” Gods how had it become so difficult to finish a sentence?

Alma shook her head with a gentle smile and spoke in a soft voice. “You’re not. You belong with us, if you’ll have us.”

His fingers brushed over the locket – the source of this sudden upheaval, yet strangely grounding for it.

“Sure knooow how to make a surprise,” he managed.

Alma’s smile widened and she leaned closer, her face now close to his. The question in her eyes was clear and before he could think twice he nodded.

Her lips closed over his, gentle and more welcoming than any kiss he’d known. Let it never be said he couldn’t put up a good showing and he tried his best through his still whirling thoughts (this was happening, this was actually happening) to reciprocate, even while he was still acutely aware of Jowd’s hand at his back.

They parted and Alma returned to her previous position, settling more securely on the couch arm while Jowd leaned over.

“Is that a yes?” he asked.

Cabanela’s mouth curved, no longer able to hold back the spreading smile. He tugged at Jowd’s tie bringing him within reach where he could get a kiss to those pair of lips as well. His beard tickled in sharp contrast to Alma’s softness, glorious and no less welcome. The last of his concerns melted away leaving only a vague thought to add kissing to the list of unexpected things Jowd was good at.

They broke apart when the need for air won out and Cabanela looked between the couple, his couple.

“I’d saaay so, baby.”

First step to a new life indeed.

#ghost trick #alma #cabanela #jowd #alma/jowd #alma/cabanela/jowd #the ot3 #ghost trick fic #wedding #fic rewrite #now my longest one shot #how'd that happen

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1-92 for the make me admit stuff ask :3

1. Would you have sex with the last person you text messaged? I mean I already have soooo :P @calibratedcatnip

2. You talked to an ex today, correct? Nop

3. Have you taken someones virginity? Nop

4. Is trust a big issue for you? Not really, I do my best to trust people and usually succeed c:

5. Did you hang out with the person you like recently? No, it’s been four days since I last hung out with my love and that’s not recent at all and she left so long ago and I’m dying ;-;

6. What are you excited for? Seeing my love again, being done with finals, sleeping, and not being tired.

7. What happened tonight? I took a nap then woke up at like 11:30pm

8. Do you think it’s disgusting when girls get really wasted? It can be cute or just kinda sad depending on the girl. Not really disgusting though.

9. Is confidence cute? Depends.

10. What is the last beverage you had? SimplyTM Strawberry Lemonade

11. How many people of the opposite sex do you fully trust? My love, my mom, and my sister

12. Do you own a pair of skinny jeans? No lol

13. What are you gonna do Saturday night? I mean today is saturday night and I already slept a bunch and I’m gonna do homework so sleep and do homework.

14. What are you going to spend money on next? Probably food

15. Are you going out with the last person you kissed? Yesss!!!

16. Do you think you’ll change in the next 3 months? I hope so. I have a lot I need to improve about myself. I hope I can at least a little bit within the next three months. I’m not sure though.

17. Who do you feel most comfortable talking to about anything? My love and my friend Grant

18. The last time you felt broken? I always feel a little broken because of my sleep stuff, but mentally I haven’t in a while in a long time, so that’s good.

19. Have you had sex today? Nop

20. Are you starting to realize anything? uh. n-no? is something going on here? am I missing something?

21. Are you in a good mood? Yeah I’m in a pretty okay mood c:

22. Would you ever want to swim with sharks? Sharks swim in the ocean and the ocean is cold and I don’t like swimming in cold water so no

23. Are your eyes the same color as your dad’s? Yes! And my mom’s.

24. What do you want right this second? 3 naps laying with my love ;-;

25. What would you say if the person you love/like kissed another girl/boy? Idk, I’d be really surprised tbh because I trust her a lot. But I’d be really sad and curl up in a ball in bed then idk

26. Is your current hair color your natural hair color? Yup

27. Would you be able to date someone who doesn’t make you laugh? Nop

28. What was the last thing that made you laugh? Probably a meme about cats

29. Do you really, truly miss someone right now? My love ;-; a lot ;-;

30. Does everyone deserve a second chance? Depends

31. Honestly, do you hate the last boy you were talking to? That would’ve been uhhhhh. That guy I was playing warframe with. So no? I mean I think he’s a guy. probably. really don’t know for sure tbh.

32. Does the person you have feelings for right now, know you do? Yessss! My looooove!

33. Are you one of those people who never drinks soda? No I drink soda. Not super often, but I have nothing against it and do occasionally

34. Listening to? The white noise of my space heater

35. Do you ever write in pencil anymore? Ye, I never use pen, and I don’t take notes digitally or anything.

36. Do you know where the last person you kissed is? My love is at her house I think?

37. Do you believe in love at first sight? I mean the idea of it is cute, but idk. not really.

38. Who did you last call? My looooove! last night!! we talked for a while and it was so nice c:

39. Who was the last person you danced with? I’ve never danced with anyone I don’t think?

40. Why did you kiss the last person you kissed? Because my love is cute and wonderful and I love her :3

41. When was the last time you ate a cupcake? too long ago

42. Did you hug/kiss one of your parents today? nop

43. Ever embarrass yourself in front of a crush? evry day

44. Do you tan in the nude? No, I don’t tan

45. If you could, would you take back your last kiss? Nop. Never :3

46. Did you talk to someone until you fell asleep last night? Almost actually! I talked to my love on the phone until I was gonna sleep but then I couldn’t sleep so I stayed up for a bit :/

47. Who was the last person to call you? Dominos to open the gate so they could deliver me pizza.

48. Do you sing in the shower? nop

49. Do you dance in the car? is that physically possible?

50. Ever used a bow and arrow? like once at the fair! It was kinda fun I think?

51. Last time you got a portrait taken by a photographer? High school graduation lol

52. Do you think musicals are cheesy? Yes

53. Is Christmas stressful? It can be if there’s too much family

54. Ever eat a pierogi? wtf is that?

55. Favorite type of fruit pie? Apple!

56. Occupations you wanted to be when you were a kid? Astronaut when I was real small, then a paleontologist, then a roller coaster designer

57. Do you believe in ghosts? nop

58. Ever have a Deja-vu feeling? Ye

59. Take a vitamin daily? I did until I ran out a few weeks ago. I need to get more :V

60. Wear slippers? no, but I should!! that’s a good idea!

61. Wear a bath robe? Nop

62. What do you wear to bed? my birthday suit

63. First concert? Weird Al Yankovic. Not even joking.

64. Wal-Mart, Target or Kmart? Target

65. Nike or Adidas? Nike. I like their rly light running shoes.

66. Cheetos Or Fritos? cheetos

67. Peanuts or Sunflower seeds? Both

68. Favorite Taylor Swift song? Ew

69. Ever take dance lessons? When I was a small child I took hip hop lessons for like one day

70. Is there a profession you picture your future spouse doing? My love could probably be a great writer, or maybe I could see her being a therapist if she gets her mental stuff figured out to help people that went through a lot of hard stuff like she did c:

71. Can you curl your tongue? Yis

72. Ever won a spelling bee? Nop

73. Have you ever cried because you were so happy? Yes!

74. What is your favorite book? Probably Hitchhiker’s guide to the galaxy? Or maybe slaughterhouse 5?

75. Do you study better with or without music? Depends. I do both.

76. Regularly burn incense? I wish!

77. Ever been in love? Yessss!! with @calibratedcatnip c: my love.

78. Who would you like to see in concert? Caravan Palace and Deadmau5

79. What was the last concert you saw? Weird Al Yankovic lmao

80. Hot tea or cold tea? Cold, and sweetened too because I’m trash

81. Tea or coffee? Both

82. Favorite type of cookie? gingersnap

83. Can you swim well? I can swim alright. Could probably be better.

84. Can you hold your breath without holding your nose? Ye

85. Are you patient? No lol

86. DJ or band, at a wedding? A single man playing a banjo

87. Ever won a contest? Yes, I once won free surf lessons then proceeded to chafe my legs on my wetsuit over the course of the week until I was in extreme pain. Also the sand on that beach had very small red worms in it and it was really creepy

88. Ever have plastic surgery? Nop

89. Which are better black or green olives? I’ve never eaten an olive

90. Opinions on sex before marriage? Having sex before marriage is a Sin and if you do it you will go to Hell for eternity

91. Best room for a fireplace? All of them

92. Do you want to get married? Yesss. To my looove c:

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becomingbrave6 · 4 years

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Heartstrings

I’ve tried to write out this post more than once (I have multiple drafts...), but I haven’t really been able to find the words to express everything that has been on my heart over these past months. Sooo much. And while there have been so many things to say, I feel that I haven’t had much time to be still and just- process and find the words. You know how it goes. You just go and go and go, In your day-to-day routine.. For me- even when I get ‘down time’, it seems to get filled up in seconds with things on things to do. It’s hard to find time to pause, reflect, and process. So now that I’m on break, hopefully I can finally express what I’ve been wanting to say.

I’ll start with a general update. Right now, I am home in Georgia for Christmas for two weeks. This is the first time I’ve been home in 9 months, which is the longest I’ve ever been away. I’m relieved to be reunited with family and friends. This time has been much-needed. I have really been enjoying spending time off with loved ones, and I’m looking forward to catching up with friends in these next days before I return to Ecuador.

This upcoming February, I will have completed my two-year contract with the school I have been working at in Ecuador, Colegio Menor. I will have accomplished my original mission! It is absolutely crazy to think that those two years have almost come to an end. Time has flown by, and it’s surreal. If you had asked me a few years ago if I had thought that this would have been possible, I would have probably laughed and told you, “Not a chance”. I never would have envisioned making it to this point, but I am grateful to say that I have done so only by the goodness of God and the relentless support of my people.

Furthermore, I have decided not to renew my contract. My experience in Ecuador has been totally invaluable to my personal, spiritual, and professional growth. However, I know that it is time for me to begin a new chapter. People have been asking me what my plan is for what’s next.. The truth is that I don’t really have one all mapped out yet. I know that I definitely would like to spend some time being closer to family, and I have a few ideas in mind in relation to my profession. But still not a set plan, and if I’m being real, I don’t really like that I don’t have one. If you know me, you know that I like to have a plan and be in control (to a bit of a fault). I’d definitely never advise anyone to leave a job before finding another. However, I will be returning to the states towards the end of the school year, and so, the timing is not completely ideal for finding a teaching contract.

Nonetheless, despite my own worries and uncertainty, I completely and totally trust that God is going to show me what’s next in His good timing. He has always done so in my past, and He will now. My faith in Him helps me to dismiss those doubtful thoughts when they come- and that is what I’ll continue to hold on to. Mark 9:23 states, “..Everything is possible for one who believes.” I’m sure it won’t be an easy process, and there will be a lot of kinks to work out, but He will show me the way- I am sure. I know that teaching in Ecuador has already positioned me for my next job, whatever that will be. I think that God is uniquely equipping me and enabling me for wherever He has me next. I want to remain completely attentive to His plan for me. Sometimes He strips us down to nothing in order for us to depend on Him for everything. Sometimes that means a season of waiting. And if I must wait, so be it.

Naturally, I’ve been starting to process this change little by little before it has even begun. I’ve had to start telling people about it and doing some necessary tasks. Crazy how those moments solidify the decision and make it more and more real each day. I know that it’s going to be hard to transition back, and I’m already mentally and emotionally preparing. I’m starting to recognize the things I’m going to miss about Ecuador. People who I have grown to care deeply for. Places that I go frequently. Restaurants (the fooood in general). Things that have become my new normal. I keep thinking, “Wow, I’m gonna miss this.” It’s hard to grasp the fact that soon I won’t be near them anymore.

That being said, this year has been satiated with so much to be thankful for. Living on my own has shaped me immensely, embracing dependency on Christ in many ways. I’ve learned a lot- sometimes by failing, sometimes from the words of those wiser than me, sometimes by taking a risk. I’ve been working on being braver, stepping fully out of my comfort zone. I think that this required me detaching myself from what I had been used to in order to really push myself beyond what I knew I was capable of (with Christ, of course). In that, I’ve been learning to love who I am presently while recognizing that I still wish to refine myself in many ways: like seeing rest as imperative and non-negotiable, being more intentional about being kind, having compassion for others, letting go instead of over-analyzing; the list goes on. I’m blessed to have had the constant and consistent support of my family and friends, even though I’ve been away from them for far too long. I have worked through many challenges, and ultimately, I am especially proud of how I am evolving as an individual and as a professional. I know that I still have much to learn ahead of me, but this experience has shaped me and molded me in countless ways that I hope God will use in the near future. I’m so thankful for my family, my friends, my coworkers, my students, my growth as a 2nd-year teacher, my job, my country, living in Ecuador, the friendships I’ve developed, the opportunities of travel I’ve had, my accomplishments, and much more. To God be the glory.

One of the things that I love about teaching is that I also get to learn. Learning never stops, and I am passionate for learning about the world. Nelson Mandela said it well: “Education is the most powerful weapon which you can use to change the world.”I looove getting to learn from my students. Their little minds teach me so much about life and perspective. They keep me young and remind me to never lose my passion to explore. I have also loved having companions from other parts of the world. We often have thoughtful, authentic conversations about life that have brought insight and perspective from international points of view. I’ve fallen in love with the Ecuadorian culture, and have loved learning about other cultures that I’ve had glimpses of through traveling (Netherlands, England, Italy, Aruba).

My placement here has enabled me to experience a deep appreciation for my own country combined with the appreciation of other countries. I know that I have so much more to learn ahead of me, but I love expanding my perspective of the world and developing my own beliefs through it all. I know I’ve said this before, but it brings me a sense of closeness to God- seeing all that He’s created and how his love for us is woven through all of the intricate, complex fabrics of life. It’s also made me more intuitive, considerate, and confident in who I am than I was two years ago. I hope that I continue to become someone who makes changes, takes action, and stays brave. A powerful weapon is something that you use.. something that requires action to function properly. I want to put to use what I’m learning by being a contributor wherever I am; being someone who influences their surroundings through actions- demonstrating integrity and serving others, serving the community and environment to the best of my ability. I also hope that my story might inspire others to be brave, no matter the circumstances. You never know until you try and push yourself beyond your own self-constructed limits. I firmly believe that God blesses those who step out of their comfort zone. “Life begins at the end of your comfort zone.” From my own experience, I can testify that it has already blessed me in countless ways, and I believe it will continue to in my future. While it hasn’t always been easy, I know that it has been worth it.

I really strive to teach my students the importance of caring and respect for others. It’s not always an easy task, but it is important to me. Lately, I’ve been trying to teach them about being kind to others, even those they don’t know. We recently started a random acts of kindness project, and I loved seeing how they became so excited about being kind towards others; holding doors, complimenting others, helping someone who dropped their books, writing encouragements, etc. I hope that I can instill a mentality of compassion in them while they are young, care and respect for others, a desire to learn, and an aspiration to change the world through small actions. Showing each of them that they matter, have a voice, and can use it for good.

So, all of that to say that 2019 has truly been a year that I am proud of and will never forget. Yet, I am thrilled for what 2020 will hold. I know that this upcoming year will bring with it new challenges ahead, as well as new opportunities. I want to finish well in Ecuador, giving my very best and soaking up this experience in full. I hope that I can apply all that I have learned in these two years to whatever position God will lead me to next. I plan to further expand my understanding of this world, while serving others to the best of my ability. The 1920s had a pretty good reputation, so... let’s make the 2020s exceed expectations.

#2019 #2020 #newyear #ecuador #teacher #becomingbrave #girlbebrave #travel

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5hfanfiction · 7 years

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FROM AFAR - CHAPTER 13

Lauren (10:10 am): what time are you leaving?

Camila (10:25 am): i’ll probably have lunch at noon and go to class

Camila (10:26 am): should be leaving to the terminal by three

Lauren (10:31 am): got it

I would be going to New York again, but this time I was going alone. Weeks before we decided to go to Skrillex I had bought a ticket to a Sara Bareilles special concert in NY. It happens that she is literally the queen of my life and she was doing a special show for the releasing of her broadway show album that night. It was a one night thing only and I almost didn’t get to go. But hey, gotta enjoy everything the exchange was offering and that includes seeing your favorite artists too, even if it meant I was gonna be poor until my grant came in the next month. None of the girls really knew her and I don’t blame them really, so it was just me alone again, but I didn’t care. I was gonna see Sara Fucking Bareilles live when I thought I would never. I had everything planned, what time I should leave to catch the bus, and if I would be able to catch the last bus of the night back home after the concert. If nothing out of the ordinary happened, it should work just fine.

It was a weekday so I still had my classes to attend and it all went smooth when I got to the bus terminal in time as I had planned. But the problem came later on when New York City’s traffic sucked all the patience left in my body. It took almost double of the time to get there because of the traffic than it actually would in normal circumstances, I was running late. And on top of that my mom was bitching about it. I had told her that I was going to NY that night and would come back later, but maybe I didn’t tell her I was going alone though. Her overprotective personality was really getting to me that night like it always have, not that she could actually do anything about it. Also my dad teamed up with her and he was even crazier. That along with the traffic fucked me up bad.

Lauren (5:42 pm): baby

Lauren (5:42 pm): do you need something from the grocery store?

Camila (5:59 pm): not that i can remember

Camila (5:59 pm): thanks

Lauren (6:06 pm): no problem

Lauren (6:06 pm): are you close?

I was so stressed at this point that I decided right there and then that I would talk to her about what was happening between us that night. I had been thinking about it for a long time but it wasn’t an easy thing to do. In my state of mind that seemed the right thing to do, and I would be away from Lauren for the night, which only made it easier. I knew I should be having this conversation face to face but I didn’t care anymore, tonight we’d talk about it, period.

Camila (6:24 pm): Newark zzzZZZzz

Camila (6:26 pm): do you still have class today?

Lauren (6:28 pm): no!

Camila (6:32 pm): awesome

Lauren (6:33 pm): i bought so many healthy food

Lauren (6:33 pm): i’m so proud of myself haha

Camila (6:33 pm): that’s the spirit!

Camila (6:33 pm): can we talk today, later?

Lauren (6:36 pm): we need to

Camila (6:38 pm): after the show

Lauren (6:46 pm): okay

Lauren (6:46 pm): just text me

Camila (6:50 pm): sure

That was it, it was happening.

I finally hopped off of the bus and almost ran through the busy streets to make it in time to watch the freaking concert. It all worked in the end, fortunately I wouldn’t miss any of it. I was on my seat already when another text from Lauren showed up on my screen.

Lauren (8:03 pm): shit camz, i was supposed to wait till the concert was over but i just wanted to say something, i don’t want fuck up our friendship for anything in the world, i swear you’re too important to me and for everything you’ve done for me, i wish nothing has changed

Lauren (8:03 pm): but that’s all i wanted to say, you can tell me what you have to say later

Lauren (8:03 pm): enjoy the concert

Lauren (8:03 pm): talk to you later

Fuck you Lauren. Sara was literally stepping on the stage and how was I supposed to pay attention and enjoy the show when she said something like that right before it starts? That’s why I had said to her ‘after the show’. My heart was strumming in my chest and it was not because of my idol. I didn’t know what that meant, I had to agree with her about our friendship and about not wanting to ruin it, but I still had hope that something would come out of it. Sara’s voice wasn’t enough to get me out of my petrified state. I was worried and anxious, but forced myself to forget about it for just the time being.

When the concert was over I made my way back to the bus terminal. Surprisingly I managed to focus on the singer on stage for the next hour, the concert was amazing and that voice could melt anybody’s heart the way it did to me. If I missed the bus I’d have to spend the night at the terminal but this time I’d have to do it alone, but not before stopping to grab something to eat. I had been sitting on the floor eating my burger dreading the conversation that was to follow.

Camila (11:31 pm): are you there?

Lauren (11:32 pm): yes

Camila (11:33 pm): first of all i just wanted to say that you just don’t say that kind of stuff before a concert

Camila (11:34 pm): coz i can’t concentrate

Camila (11:34 pm): that’s why i asked you to talk later lol

Lauren (11:34 pm): my bad

Lauren (11:34 pm): i just can’t wait for certain things

Camila (11:35 pm): you’re forgiven

Camila (11:35 pm): because i’m in a good vibe rn

Lauren (11:35 pm): hahahaha

Camila (11:35 pm): i don’t want anything to change in our friendship either, that’s why i decided to talk to you now

Camila (11:36 pm): i don’t even know how to say

Lauren (11:36 pm): i was going to talk to you tomorrow too

Lauren (11:36 pm): just say whatever you wanna say haha

Camila (11:36 pm): that’s your excuse

Camila (11:37 pm): i don’t really know what was/is happening

Camila (11:37 pm): i didn’t even imagine that any of this would happen actually

Camila (11:37 pm): and then here we are

Camila (11:38 pm): i like you so much lauren, first of all as a friend

Camila (11:38 pm): and yes, i’m starting to feel more than that, but i want to stop it now because i don’t wanna hurt myself in the future, and like you said, i don’t want our friendship to change

Lauren (11:39 pm): i’m gonna let you say everything ok, and then i’ll talk

Camila (11:39 pm): i felt bad because you have a boyfriend and all, and you really like him and i think he likes you a lot, i was wrong from the beginning

Camila (11:39 pm): but i didn’t want to stop

Camila (11:40 pm): and probably your conscious is pretty heavy now

Camila (11:41 pm): say something

Camila (11:41 pm): so i can talk more

Camila (11:42 pm): i don’t know what’s going on in your mind, if you’re confused, if you just wanted to experiment

Camila (11:42 pm): it’s unknown to me

Camila (11:42 pm): and paul in the middle of everything

Lauren (11:43 pm): i don’t know what’s happening either and i’m really surprised (i don’t know if that’s the word) with everything that happened. because i’ve never felt attraction towards a girl and i don’t know, i feel good with you and i like you, these things don’t have an explanation

Lauren (11:45 pm): yes, of course my conscious is shaken, but i don’t regret being with you honestly, sure i doesn’t justify but you know what my relationship is like and a big part of it you don’t even know about yet, that’s not an excuse, but i truly don’t regret doing what i did

Lauren (11:45 pm): but i can’t deny that if we keep doing this i don’t know what’s going to happen

Lauren (11:45 pm): and of course is not just a joke to me

Lauren (11:46 pm): but my mind is full because i’m really confused, i feel so good when i’m with you and it’s gonna get out of control sometime

Lauren (11:47 pm): god, i looove you, we got along from the beginning, shit, your friendship is something i want for the rest of my life

Lauren (11:47 pm): i don’t want to do anything to jeopardize that

Camila (11:48 pm): i get it

Camila (11:48 pm): if you want someone to talk to about all this mess, just let me know

Camila (11:48 pm): someone from outside

Camila (11:48 pm): i can only imagine what it feels like

Lauren (11:49 pm): don’t worry about it

Camila (11:49 pm): i don’t wanna pressure you or anything like that

Camila (11:49 pm): don’t forget that this is all new to me too

Lauren (11:49 pm): yeah, i know that

Camila (11:49 pm): i’m really scared

Camila (11:49 pm): the only difference is that i know what i want/like

Camila (11:49 pm): if you want to stay away a little bit

Camila (11:49 pm): not as a friend

Camila (11:49 pm): but no dark room, no caresses

Camila (11:49 pm): if you want space to think and try to figure it out

Camila (11:49 pm): i don’t know

Lauren (11:50 pm): mhm

Camila (11:50 pm): i don’t want anything to get weird between us either

Lauren (11:51 pm): me too

Camila (11:51 pm): but i think space is gonna help you somehow

Lauren (11:51 pm): yes, i think it’s for the best

Lauren (11:51 pm): and i don’t want to upset you in any way

Lauren (11:52 pm): i’m really scared about that

Camila (11:52 pm): no, relax

Camila (11:52 pm): i’m the least important here

Lauren (11:52 pm): of course not

Camila (11:52 pm): if i get weird in the beginning don’t worry

Camila (11:52 pm):because i do that

Camila (11:52 pm): but all is going to be okay eventually

Camila (11:52 pm): it’s all good

Camila (11:53 pm): i just thought i didn’t have the right to force anything, first i want you to be okay with everything that happened

Camila (11:53 pm): and if you want to just stay friends, friends with benefits or just see where it goes

Camila (11:53 pm): is up to you

Lauren (11:54 pm): if you get weird i’m gonna kick your ass, because i’m like that, queen of paranoia when someone is weird with me haha

Lauren (11:54 pm): relax

Lauren (11:54 pm): you’re not forcing anything

Camila (11:55 pm): i don’t want to cross the limits, if i do something wrong just tell me

Camila (11:55 pm): hahahah

Camila (11:55 pm): but that’s my thing

Lauren (11:55 pm): i will

Camila (11:55 pm): but it’s just in the beginning

Camila (11:55 pm): i promise

Camila (11:55 pm): pinky swear

Lauren (11:55 pm): okaaay

Lauren (11:55 pm): jokes aside, i get really paranoid about that

Lauren (11:55 pm): but if you saying, ok

Lauren (11:58 pm): i’m gonna say it one more time, you’re not forcing anything, and we both matter in this story, i don’t wanna hurt you by any means, that’s why i’m afraid if we keep doing this and liking each other even more, you know what can happen

Lauren (11:58 pm): i swear i don’t know what i want for my life right now

Lauren (11:59 pm): about my relationship, everything, it hasn’t been easy lately

Lauren (11:59 pm): i need to find myself, you know

Camila (11:59pm): sure

Camila (11:59 pm): that’s why i wanted to clarify things

Camila (00:00 am): i don’t know what i want for my life either

Camila (00:00 am): i was just letting it happen

Camila (00:00 am): everything

Lauren (00:00 am): and me too

Camila (00:00 am): take this space to find yourself

Camila (00:00 am): and i’ll always be here as a friend, that’s for sure

Camila (00:00 am): and if there’s anything i can help, i’ve been through a lot, don’t be scared of talking to me

Camila (00:00 am): i know i’m not in a good position haha but i’m your friend

Lauren (00:01 am): hahaha i know you are

Lauren (00:02 am): yeah, i will

Lauren (00:02 am): please don’t be mad at me

Camila (00:02 am): no no

Lauren (00:02 am): i’m sorry if i made you more confused with everything

Lauren (00:02 am): idk

Camila (00:03 am): i was living knowing that this would happen

Camila (00:03 am): and it’s normal to happen

Camila (00:04 am): i get confused when picking which sandwich i want, soooo

Camila (00:04 am): no big deal

Lauren (00:04 am): we’re not stupid, we knew this was gonna happen

Lauren (00:05 am): but we’re never rational with these things

Lauren (00:05 am): soo

Camila (00:05 am): actually i was really confused from the beginning

Camila (00:05 am): and i don’t know when it changed from one thing to another

Camila (00:05 am): the exact moment

Lauren (00:06 am): yeahh

Lauren (00:06 am): like

Camila (00:06 am): halloween night was just the moment where it became true

Lauren (00:07 am): yes

Lauren (00:07 am): that’s what i meant

Camila (00:07 am): yeah, i’m talking about before that

Camila (00:07 am): did you like it, at least?

Lauren (00:07 am): no no

Lauren (00:08 am): i did it again because i hated it

Lauren (00:08 am): hahahhaha

Camila (00:08 am): asshole

Lauren (00:08 am): of course i liked it!

Camila (00:08 am): i’m so serious here

Lauren (00:08 am): i was so lightheaded when we came back

Lauren (00:08 am): i’m serious too

Lauren (00:08 am): it was just a joke to lighten the mood

Lauren (00:08 am): sorry

Camila (00:08 am): when we came back from ny?

Lauren (00:08 am): it’s pretty tense here

Lauren (00:08 am): haha

Lauren (00:09 am): yes

Camila (00:09 am): no it’s not

Lauren (00:09 am):wait, we came back on a sunday right?

Camila (00:09 am): yep

Lauren (00:09 am): until monday i was remembering it and i was like holy shit that was awesome

Lauren (00:10 am): but i’ve been thinking about everything since saturday, every day

Lauren (00:10 am): and i swear i was gonna talk to you

Lauren (00:10 am): but not today, because…

Camila (00:10 am): hahahha it’s complicated

Camila (00:11 am):no physical contact

Camila (00:11 am): that’s all i ask

Lauren (00:11 am):god, i just wanted something easier

Lauren (00:11 am): hahahah

Lauren (00:11 am):yes

Lauren (00:11 am): i got you

Camila (00:12 am): and don’t call me baby

Camila (00:12 am): and don’t get jealous

Lauren (00:12 am): shit

Camila (00:12 am): hahahah

Lauren (00:12 am): that’s too much haha

Camila (00:12 am): then don’t let me see it

Lauren (00:12 am):ok

Camila (00:13 am): because then i’m gonna get confused again

Lauren (00:13 am): yeah

Lauren (00:13 am): i know

Lauren (00:13 am): and me too

Lauren (00:13 am): it’s just for now it’s hard but we’re going to get our shit together

Lauren (00:14 am): camila, for god’s sake, if anything changes in our friendship

Lauren (00:14 am): i swear i’ll kill you

Lauren (00:14 am): i’m serious

Camila (00:14 am): i told you is gonna change in the beginning

Camila (00:14 am): idiot

Camila (00:14 am): but it’s not forever

Camila (00:14 am): i’ll get used to it

Lauren (00:15 am): okay okay

Camila (00:15 am): and nothing is easy, especially for me

Lauren (00:15 am): what do you mean?

Camila (00:16 am): that it always doesn’t work out for me

Lauren (00:16 am): don’t say that

Lauren (00:16 am): i feel so bad

Lauren (00:19 am): i’m sorry

Camila (00:20 am): don’t be

Camila (00:20 am):it’s really not your fault

Camila (00:20 am): i promise

Camila (00:20 am): please don’t be upset

Camila (00:20 am): what you’re going through is enough already

Lauren (00:24 am): you know i can’t help it, but i’m gonna be fine, i just want you to know that i want nothing but good things to you, i don’t wanna be the reason you get upset, much less hurt you

Camila (00:26 am): i already told you not to worry about it

Lauren (00:29 am): and i told you i can’t help it

Lauren (00:29 am): i just want you to feel better, that’s all

Lauren (00:29 am): the rest i figure out on my own

Camila (00:30 am): then i’m better

Camila (00:30 am):see

Camila (00:30 am): be fine

Camila (00:30 am): coz i’m fine

Lauren (00:30 am): hahaha liar

Lauren (00:30 am): but okay

Lauren (00:31 am): i’m glad we talked about this

Camila (00:33 am): yeah

Camila (00:33 am): i’ve been wanting to talk for a while

Camila (00:33 am): but i was scared

Camila (00:33 am): and i wanted to enjoy it a little longer

Lauren (00:35 am): :(

Lauren (00:35 am): i really liked everything, i swear

Lauren (00:36 am): that’s why i think i’m so confused

Lauren (00:36 am): i didn’t want to stop, just like i told you, i feel good with you

Lauren (00:36 am): but it’s better for me to understand all that’s happening

Camila (00:39 am): i understand

Camila (00:39 am): and i want to give you that

Camila (00:39 am): the least i can do

Lauren (00:40 am): mhm

Lauren (00:40 am): i just wanna thank you

Lauren (00:41 am): and i’m sorry, seriously

Lauren (00:41 am): i want you to be fine

Lauren (00:42 am): and of course i’m here for everything, whatever it is

Camila (00:42 am): <3<3

Camila (00:42 am): i know

Camila (00:43 am): did you say anything to the girls?

Lauren (00:43 am): no camz

Lauren (00:43 am): i didn’t know if i could/should

Camila (00:45 am): i thought the same thing, but i felt the need to talk to them

Camila (00:45 am): if i want to, can i?

Lauren (00:46 am): sure

Lauren (00:46 am): i trust them

Camila (00:48 am): me too

Camila (00:48 am): it would be good if talked too

Camila (00:48 am): it could help you understand something

Camila (00:48am): i recommend it

Camila (00:48am): after we get it all out it gets better

Camila (00:49am): especially with the girls that are awesome people

Lauren (00:50 am): mhm, i think i will

Lauren (00:51 am): i think it’s gonna help too

Camila (00:53 am): it sure will

Camila (00:53 am): trust me

Camila (00:53 am): life changes when we spill it

Camila (00:53 am): can i ask you what your best friend said?

Lauren (01:00 am): so, i told her briefly, because i wanted to see her reaction to see what i could tell her, lucy is not the most liberal person in the world, you know? i told her i made out with you and she was very surprised, then she asked the easiest question to answer: so now you’re bi?Then i told her no, i don’t know, we were at the party and whatever the she said: oh, what happens in america stays in america.I was gonna tell her everything, but by her feedback i don’t think she would end up helping me with whatever she was gonna say

Lauren (01:01 am): she’s very religious and everything, nothing against it, but she’s close minded

Lauren (01:02 am): i want to talk to my cousin, she’s like a sister and she’s knows shit about life

Camila (01:02 am): hahaha

Camila (01:02 am): i get it

Camila (01:02 am): i liked lucy, but not anymore

Camila (01:03 am): what about your brother, do you trust him?

Lauren (01:03 am): hahahah she’s a good friend, like a sister

Lauren (01:03 am): but she faults when it come to this stuff

Lauren (01:03 am): holy shit

Lauren (01:03 am): why do we think so alike my god

Lauren (01:03 am): i was just about to mention him

Camila (01:04 am): it’s the connection

Lauren (01:04 am): he was the first one i thought about

Lauren (01:04 am): i need to talk to him

Lauren (01:04 am): but this asshole is partying

Lauren (01:05 am): i called him today but he wasn’t home

Camila (01:06 am): oh i get it

Camila (01:06 am): he seems chill

Camila (01:06 am): i must say that my entire city was rooting for us

Lauren (01:06 am): he is

Lauren (01:07 am): i was going to ask, although i imagined the answer, if anybody there knew

Lauren (01:07 am): and now they’re gonna hate me

Camila (01:06 am): hahahahha

Camila (01:06 am): a lot of them know

Camila (01:08 am): and no, they won’t

Camila (01:08 am): they think you’re cute

Camila (01:09 am): and i’m never cute to them

Camila (01:09 am): but i had to tell

Camila (01:09 am): because being with a girl means a lot to me, to my life

Camila (01:10 am): you saw me desperate

Camila (01:10 am): i needed to share

Lauren (01:10 am): i know that

Lauren (01:10 am): there’s no problem in it

Camila (01:10 am): but even before everything, skrillex, i’ve been sharing with them my mental confusion

Camila (01:11 am): of not knowing what was happening

Camila (01:11 am): anyway

Lauren (01:13 am): i understand

Camila (01:16 am):and talk to the girls, you’ll see it’ll make you feel better

Camila (01:16 am): who knows that’s why you’re so confused, because you have nobody to share

Lauren (01:19 am):i agree, everything is better when we try to explain during a conversation

Lauren (01:19 am): i’m gonna talk to them

Lauren (01:19 am): it’s gonna be good

Camila (01:26 am): it will

Lauren (01:34 am): is it gonna take long for you to arrive?

Camila (01:35 am): i should be home around two

Camila (01:35 am): or more

Camila (01:35 am): you can sleep

Camila (01:35 am): i let you know when i get there and i’ll call if something happens

Lauren (01:36 am): i’m gonna take my phone off of silence mode

Lauren (01:36 am): then i’ll wake up and you text me

Lauren (01:36 am): be careful when you get here

Camila (01:36 am): ok

Camila (01:36 am): i got it

Camila (01:36 am): sleep tight, be okay

Camila (01:36 am): <3

Lauren (01:37 am): call me if anything

Lauren (01:37 am): you too, please

Lauren (01:37 am): see you tomorrow <3

Camila (01:38 am): okay

Camila (02:52 am): i’m here

Lauren (02:54 am): here at the dorms?

Lauren (02:55 am): never mind, i just saw in the group chat

#UPDATE #series #AU #slash #camren #angst drama #humour #romance fluff #submission #FROM AFAR

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