#i might not have money to buy it rn but it wont stop me from watching every video and stream there is of it out there.

[esuooh]

guess my new favorite game

[sylvanianfamiliez]

resinsoul

[letstalkaboutfandomsbaby]

H-hold on, hold up hold the FUCK UP-

Self indulgent shit under the cut skskks

Ok but im imagining Nanami (who gets joy from taking care of his partner and letting them use his money however they pls) and me (somone who feels immense guilt when anyone spends even $10 on me)

So maybe Nanami and I are just dating, maybe we're married, BUT we're living together in his apartment and i already feel shitty bc i dont pay rent or utilities (he won't let me no matter how many times i ask to help).

Anyways, it's my birthday and Nanami gives me his credit card and tells me to go out and spend as much money as i want for my birthday and i try to explain that i dont want anything but he wont hear any of it and sends me on my way.

So i go out and im like 🧍‍♀️ idk what to do bc i dont feel comfortable spending his money but he was getting kind of agitated when i kept refusing his card so i dont wanna come back empty handed yk? So i just go to a department store and check out the earrings and i find a pair i like that are like $15 (they're faux gold hoops) and i get em

So i go home and Nanami wants to see what i got myself and i show the earrings all proud and junk like arent they so cute?? :3 and he's like yes they are now where's the rest? And im like 😀 whaddya mean the rest, this is all i got and he just stares at me silently for a moment with this blank expression and then he quietly leads me to the couch and makes me sit down. He takes off his jacket and harness and tie, rolls up his sleeves and im like 😳 what're ya doin baby? And he stays quiet as he pushes up my dress and pulls down my underwear. Then, without warning, he starts fingering me mercilessly. Im talking rapid speed, slapping my pussy, the whole shebang. And im so confused but i let him finger me and i cum in minutes but he doesnt stop, he keeps going. And im whimpering and trying to push his arm away so i can have a break but he just grabs my wrists and holds them above my head and just keeps going. He makes me cum again and again, overstimulating me until im crying and begging him to stop. He'll lean down and kiss my tears away before pressing his forehead to mine.

"Look at me, Sunny."

And im barely conscious but i look at him anyways and he proceeds to tell me in a calm but firm voice that i am to go back out tomorrow and buy myself clothes, jewelry, shoes, nails, etc.

"If you don't spend at least $1000 tomorrow, I will not hesitate to do this again."

Also says that if i dont buy what i want, he's just gonna punish me again and buy things for me, so i might as well do what he says and get stuff i actually want. Then he cuddles up to me for aftercare and im like 🙃 wtf am i gonna do?

ANYWAYS i go out the next day and i buy a bunch of stuff but i feel super duper guilty the whole time. Then i come home with all this shit and Nanami is pleased and kisses my forehead and says "good girl" and i just 🥺 and then he has me go through all the stuff i bought and model it and explain why i picked it out and he's got this small smile on his face the whole time im explaining why i HAD to get little dinosaur earrings sksksk. He praises me again and then says that he bought some things for me just in case i chickened out again and didnt get anything and im like 👀 wait whaddya get? And this bastard would bring out these sleek boxes and each one is filled with lingerie and im blushing so much rn and he leans in to my ear and says:

"Well? Aren't you going to model them for me? I need to know if they fit properly or not, so you might as well try them on now."

Anyways, then i get railed over the couch sksksk

[forestbeam]

its still a rape right if the perceived consent to sex is based on the informed comprehension that "no" means absolutely nothing to ones partner?

my husband wanted, about couple of weeks ago, i cant tell how long ago it was. i didnt mark down the day. the only one i didn't mark down in my calendar, so far. i decided not to allow him in my life, my skin, my temple anymore.

im still sore and sickly and needing to take pain medicine daily, more than the instructions allow. cuz i dont have it on recipe for bigger amounts. he called couple nights ago and i decided to block his number. i didnt answer his calls, cuz it was night, he was drunk, and he wanted sex. he would have talked me over if i had answered. i think it would have landed me in a hospital for sexual injury, tbf.

the time before last time, he had me meet someone and told me to have sex with that man, i refused and im glad he didnt force things to happen. but i had just finished bleeding that night and that same morning, after cuddling for couple hours, i age regress, so i was little age. he hurt me more than i thought when i last wrote about that.

i couldnt age up fast enough for his actions.

i know its probably unusual to be sore for this long, couple weeks. the pains started after, the next day. but i cant go have a physical exam. its incredibly emotionally instabilizing for me to be medically examined for certain things. i can handle a female, informative, consent asking, ob gyn for the female parts/issues. but the other is traumatizing and i feel traumatized enough, both physically and emotionally as it is. so i cant have myself checked. i just hope it stops soon. i dont have elevated temps rn, i might have had earlier, but ive been medicating myself so i havent taken my temps, cuz it would be low/normal with medication.

few nights ago, i could hardly fall asleep, i fell asleep in the morning i think, bc i ran out of meds and i had no money to buy any. i had to ask for a small loan. and then i walked around the town to pick cans and bottles and found little money on the ground so i was able to buy a 20 piece pain med pack, but now i have only 4 left. i get money on Friday. :/ i wont do the rounds around the town again, i could hardly stay on my feet after all that walking until the meds kicked in. ive been home all day, aside getting an energy drink from the store. it has been raining most of the day.

[sadiiomane10]

hi nothing against you i think your blog is cool! Buttt I just hate how everyone is saying ''óohh racism'' ''the fifa is racist they allow more european teams through in the qualifiers and sabotage the other ones during the world cup'' There is a reason why more europeans go through, first it is a continent with the most countries who have historically more popular leagues. How many people watch the champions league? How many people watch la libertadores (south america)?

does central america even have a championship among the concacaf teams? Maybe nowadays the rest of the world is catching up to the european powerhouses but as of now that is how it goes, the fifa is a business and it has to meet certain ratings. Blame it all on capitalism i guess not racism… Even though I understand how good it feels to support your little team in a big event (my case) i don’t see how uganda vs laos is gonna be something the world looks forward to. (2/2)

There is a reason why more europeans go through, first it is a continent with the most countries who have historically more popular leagues. -

ok no  How many players from Africa asia and south America do these European leagues have

it shouldn’t just be about Europe, which is full of south american, African, and asian players btw, they arent all european dont ever forget that, if these players didnt play in europe, european football wouldnt be shit, but here fifa is fogetting who lights up the cl

we cant use the African and Asian players in our Europeans leagues, to make Europe seem nice and fancy and then screw them over cus only Europe matters, they deserve way more than that. so yh it is racism a

africa and asia has many countries too but yet theyre only 9 spots between them tell me how thats fair

take a wild guess as to why europe are given more spots when africa and asia are also big, 

How many people watch la libertadores (south america)? does central america even have a championship among the concacaf teams?

america has the mls mate, might not be as popular but still exists

plenty of people watch south american football, European football is full of south american players who come up thru these youth systems

we cant watch them make our leagues good and dismiss the league they come from at the same time

that’s just exploiting their talent and dismissing the country that made them while you all sit there thinking Europe is elite

hmmm i wonder why that is too

fifa is a business and it has to meet certain ratings. Blame it all on capitalism i guess not racism…

yes its a business but screwing people over shouldn’t be a part of it,

money is a huge part of football i get it, but these countries and leagues are screwed over by racism too

5 african teams, 4 asian teams, 14 europeans teams, look at the difference, barely any chances for asia and africa to rep themselves, thats racism,  

fifa doesn’t help them with equipment, boots (read about iran its racism at its finest),

and the amount of decisions that went again the smaller teams, that was bullshit, penalties weren’t called which meant most of them would be thru rn but they weren’t reviewed cus fifa wouldn’t make a lot of money their progress which is both racism and capitalism

its way too frequent to be a mistake, u dont just overlook this many decisions of these teams by mistake

fifa circles its money around the countries that will bring them money but screw over the rest of the world, the small teams play purely on passion, they dont have the funds cus once again fifa screwed them over- capitalism

Isnt it convenient how all the small teams are poc countries that every institute refuses to help. Fifa wont give them more money or help their youth. Take a wild guess as to why. If they had the means they would have a chance but here we are.

fifa isnt a v good business if u ask me cus if they cared they would help but they dont ,

dont even get me started on qatar and how theyre killing millions to build their stadiums, in a poc country, tell me again how its nothing to do w racism, hella convenient how its being held in a poor country w people who dont get paid and are being killed for their labour

i don’t see how uganda vs laos is gonna be something the world looks forward to

i would care about uganda. We’ve found some awesome countries thru the wc , but fifa make it impossible for them to compete, So saying u dont care about the smaller teams is buying right into capitalist ideologies so pls stop

fifa dont want these countries competing cus they dont bring in the money, ur blaming capitalism while also saying u wouldn’t watch these teams bc they aren’t big enough for you, ur practically supporting it, and like i said above most of the small teams are poc w no money, which also buys into racism

the smaller teams make this world cup better cus otherwise its just a big dick comp between Europe and a few south american teams, these teams deserve to here just as much as anyone else, and i for one look forward to them

, fifa will do just about anything to make money, and they make more off the so called big teams so they keep them in the comp, but systematically getting rid of the small teams is disadvantaging them and seems planned out, u cant say its not racist bc its not tru whether or not money plays a part it in, none of these factors are helping these teams and its quite frankly full of shit

its always poc countries that are poorer and dont have the means to show their talent cus they have weaker squads and lower values, its not all racism and money does affect them but theres a reason they dont get that money too, we cant overlook that, fifa could help build them strong youth systems to help their talent but they dont distribute their money correctly or fairly which also screws them over, so yes ur right its capitalism but u can never say its not racism too

[mejomonster]

i hate myself so much lol how am i gonna act or even pursue anything i like to any degree for that matter

im buying time just doing something i can marginally functionally do while hiding panic attacks

like i know my brain knows that 1 dumb simple mistake is gonna beat me to death and then i’ll end up losing a job or just needing surgery again for scar tissue who knows where that causes my body to stop working and hahaha i cant even talk to myself without wanting to kill myself howm i gonna talk to someone else and then i upset them saying somehing stupid like how are u cause i couldnt just shut up and not speak ever

and like lol my dumb self thinks i can ever find love??? aaaaaahahaha that is so funny 

thats so funny

iaahahahahaha

like how can that possibly happen when so afraid to be me that no one can 1 meet the real me and 2 regardless of how shallow love is the second i feel i may inconvienience them ill be hurting myself anyway and trying to get them asap to someone they might like better if they dont just throw me away themselves so really like. its just a tiny miniscule second i let myself bother someone’s life before its over and ive bothered them and need to kill myself for it lol

lol the idea i can pursue anything i love. when just looking up how to do it makes me wanna destroy myself since im too dumb to figure out where video auditions are. im too panicked to understand how a new format of a cover letter’s supposed to look or how ur supposed to act Before the audition like what u say to them and what u bring as prep cause most guides dont give that info since they expect ur dumbass already can wing the basics ahahaha

i remember applyin for 1 game concept art job just to see if i could n i tried to beat myself to death like 4 times just cause i got on their sucky not user friendly submission applicant site, got so mad i didnt understand how the web pages worked, and wanted to instantly anihilate myself and beat myself til i stopped crying since i was too panicky to figure out a stupid site

like im lucky im alive wtf. im just lucky i managed 2 keep myself alive this long. idk how!!! cause every instinct likes to tell me i dont deserve to be here, and just bother everything i might care about by being here. i know im gonna live a life thats okay, if im really really really lucky and keep myself alive for it. and that could be enough. it could be. i dont think ill ever do anything i really love, cause i think i’ll just panick and hurt myself and then i might not have a life. i think i probably wont get close to too many people, cause i feel so bad when i bother i just dont want those people annoyed. i just. i know my happiest life is probably somewhere i can just be in the background, and be alone most of the time, and maybe hug and cuddle myself and convince myself to forgive myself if i made a mistake that day. i know its not much but like. i could still read things i liked. and eat food i like. and i could maybe sometimes write. and i could think up and draw characters even tho i wont use them for much. and i could call friends or see them sometimes, an amount to have fun but not bother them. and i could visit my family and help them, but still be able to leave if i feel bad for upsetting them. if i made just a little more money. i could make that my life. it wouldnt be every dream ever lol, but i could probably keep myself alive. i could probably keep myself from getting too panicked and hating myself so much i was in danger. i could probably last quite a while if i just tried to live like that. i just need to move up eventually, get a job with a little more money. 

sorry lol i am. in panic mode. i know its irrational maybe it will pass and i will get hopeful again soon. for rn my brain is just like well u can die for being unable to function u useless waste or, you can try to be productive and plan a way to be isolated enough to not have too many situations in which u have a chance to mess up and deserve to die

woohhhhh love my bastard brain, will love once it calms the fuck down

[shaddy-bee]

I KNOW ITS BEEN LIKE 300 YEARS BUT-

5 things you’ll find in my bag

Right now theres uhh Notebooks, both school and 1 art. Drink mix ins, with such great flavors as sour apple jolly rancher and crush pineapple (tm) Two packs of cards, one of which steam punk themed and the other your regular ol bicycle. A calculator. Its a shitty old one but its for tests, i have google and shit for anything i need myself.

5 things you’ll find in my bedroom

A roommate. Idk if he is gay or what but he isnt straight, name’s will. Chill dude. Sleepin rn, what a fella MY SICK ASS COMPUTER IM MISSING OUT ON BECAUSE MY ROOMMATE IS ASLEEP AAAAAAAAAAAAAA I WANNA PLAY ROCKET LEAGUE WITHOUT LAGGING TO HELL also programming my mods. Need to upload that shit. Shit what number we on, 3? Okay cool. A bed. Wow really a bed in your bedrooM? yeah its pretty fuckin spectacular i know. I dont have posters n shit so like i gotta be creative you feel. A microfridge. Now i know what youre thinking, “ah a small fridge whats the big deal?” but no you dont understand, its a microwave fucking bolted onto the top of a fridge. They gave zero fucks attaching these two together and apparently the name is the same way, WHY NOT A FRIDGEWAVE EVEN LIKE MICROFRIDGE JUST SOUNDS LIKE A SMALL FRI- Last but not least, im tempted to just say my wallet here tbh, cuz its old but like, youd EXPECT that now would you? Something boring and mundane for me to fill out the word count with making everything super exciting so nah man, fuck it. Theres air in my bedroom. Fight me.

5 things I’ve always wanted to do in my life

Make a videogame. Like okay, a lot of stuff on this list is jokes and stuff, and I know im going into too much detail and my followers will probably murder me in cold blood for this shit, but im serious about this one like - i have some ideas, but i never have the motivation alone to like work whole-heartedly and finish one but like, at some point in the future id love to sit down and just go at it and make a game. Doesnt matter if its popular or big or small just i wanna make something that i love ya feel? I wanna like, go to newark, delaware. I know, its delaware and all, no one lives there, but ive met a bunch of cool people there and i was promised a donut run sometime, so lookin forward to that. Yknow that post awhile back that was like “i dont wanna be rich and like buy shit, i just wanna have enough money to throw at kickstarters whenever i want without having to strain on my food and rent costs” thats me. 100% Like i wanna have just enough money to be able to donate to cool people and watch them do cool shit - it wont always work out but thats fine, I just love shit. I wanna be able to donate like the high prize and fly out to meet these game studios for coffee and shit and just talk with em and see their passion and ideas. I love it. Im not actually really sure besides those. Like idk. I think itd be cool to enter a game tournament with my brother and win, but i doubt thatll happen and its not super like on my desires just itd be cool cuz we named ourselves Sora and Shiro after NGNL and to see that like, have us win would be great. Yeah. Ill make my fifth to think of a fifth one.

5 things on my to do list

FLOPPY DICKS i mean disks. Floppy disks. I do binding of isaac ab+ modding shit, and im currently working (its mostly done for what i want it to do) which adds a new consumable called floppy disks, effects are based on viruses, bugs, and just computer based shit. Like BSOD for instance, which makes the screen literately bluescreen. Or atleast look like it. Cant wait to watch people play with it. I gotta work on the programming class project too but honestly i dont waannnaaa. Like its cool as shit. Recreate a card game using c++ code. But man, i just love Apocrypha and Floppies so much more. Eat today???? Please. Dining hall opens in 3 hours. Its goddamn 4 am. I want my food. Dunno if ill get it - if ill stay awake till then. But i want it. Probably draw some stuff? Like i posted one drawing already (check it out if u wanna ;) kay?) but like theres wacom tablets here i can just kinda use whenever???? its great. I love being able to just draw stuff on em. Even if i suck at drawing, even if it took 10 hours to make the one i posted here, still love. Probably play more rocket league. Sleep first, soon as i get that food im CRASHIN BOI IM OUTTIE HA but uhh, rocket league has a halloween thing rn and i like playing it. Was playing earlier today and i matchd with a dude in 2v2 that had the same car, skin, AND colors set up as mine. Totaly random. We kicked some major ass together. I kept thinking of the same hat comic the entire time. (also my card was superior because it had furry ears on it ;))

5 things that make me happy

Getting an idea for a thing and working at said thing until like boom it went from this abstract idea to now it has a physical form and it works! And its fun and its great and i can share it with other people and they can have fun too!!!! that feeling is wonderful.  Obviously friends man. Just doing shit with people can be so great sometimes - like not all the time sure but like man. Its nice to talk to people and share experiences and just smile and tell bad jokes and have them groan but like it anyway like thats the shit. Going out at 2 am and walking to a nearby run down schoolyard and swinging on the swingsets and watching shooting stars burn up. Thats the good shit. Getting tents and setting em up in your friends back yard when your friend from far away comes up for a few days, and playing ridiculous games in a group like kick the can or fuckin zombie screaming your lungs out in the dark to freak em out, or just talkin around a fire about fuckin life man. The people make life great. Shits worth living for. I realize that last answer covered a LOT of shit but like, im just gonna add here videogames. Would be amiss if i didnt mention that, considering the rocket league rant above lmao. Yeah i better not make this category any longer.

5 things I’m (currently) into

Isaac modding, probably will be for awhile. Its good shit. As a suggestion from one of the people I work with (we also fuck around its a good time) i have started watching space dandy. Its a slow progress through lol like an episode or two a day but god man like its pretty ridiculous and the main character is pretty much everything i was expecting from seeing him everywhere. Rocket league again. It comes and goes with various different games to tide me over, give me a break from working. Bout 2 months ago or so said relaxing time was dominated by anime - i suddenly went on like a massive streak of watching shit. By that i mean, i watched all of hunter x hunter in like 2 weeks, among other shows prior to it. But yeah. Fuck man HXH I LOVED THE KING WHYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA. I have too many emotions about that. I wrote a rant to the Groupchat (tm) about the fucking battle and how everything is in slow motion but it fucking like makes it like foreshadowed and have so much of an impact and still so much fucking happens even while everything runs at super slow mo just GOD KLASFJBHUGHASFIUHIPJASK anyway. Yeah. Music, as always im listening to like constantly. Wireless headphones are a wonder for this, but uhh....i cant say im especially into any specific thing rn right? Like a bit ago i was super into joywave and then that faded out and now im just listening to whatever random shit, yknow? But I am into music in general. Its good. Art! A lot of times i dont do shit like for drawing right, like especially not in like pencil in notebooks but like, i sorta started doing a lot more art stuff? Like i had a period awhile back last year where i stopped using pencils and used only pens and i just loved the aesthetic of the ink like how it looked (funny how im doing the opposite of the fucking inktober though, huh?) but yeah im back into using pencils to draw shit occasionally. Im still terrible at drawing people (which is what i see mostly everyone drawing on tumblr lmao RIP) but its fun to sketch stuff out and just let my thoughts run and bounce to some music and shit right? Also the tablets. Especially with the tablets.

5 things people may not know about me (at least on tumblr)

I basically constantly wear sweatshirts, and they all have like earbuds where the strings go. All the earbud shits are broken pretty much, like occasionally they work (the one i have rn does) but like, i dont ever really use them? i have wireless headphones for my phone and a headset (because i need the mic for my computer) for said computer so like, idk. But yeah. I rarely take em off when im not home, and sometimes even when i am i just kinda keep em anyway? (also just now i realized i talked in the section for room shit about all the stuff in my current dorm, my room at home has all KINDS of wierd fucking shit in it. Really missed an opportunity there.) Like many people i like to stay hydrated and shit, but drinking water all the time seemed like a chore more than anything so i got like drink mix ins and shit, mio’s or whatever offbrand version you can find at your local SUPERSTORE CONGLOMERATE. I drink em like all the time pretty much so atleast im health in one way :P. Also gummy vitamins. I dont excercise but you can only ask for so much. Idk, its hard to think of things for this section because tumblr knows so little about me yknow? Like i never make my own posts or shit like its SUPER rare so im pretty much just tryna find random facts but that might not be interesting? Like i have a bad habbit of like talking way too loud when im excited about something right? Not quite yelling but like getting there and like idk. See? Thats not super interesting but it is something no one online would be able to really know ya feel? Idk. I mean physically im kinda fat as you do, but im also like wierdly strong? Like for someone who never works out i sure do have arm strength if nothing else lmao. My endurance is shit tho. Honestly? I can only blame it on osu and groceries. Osu is just a game i like where you mash buttons to the beat of weaboo shit tier music. The groceries is just because like, well, my policy is Least Trips Possible which means carrying in 13 bags at a time if need be it, fuck it milk too? And a watermellon? Bring it. 

Who am I tagging? Idk man. Just for shits and stuff tho i do wanna tag @theoriginalyami just to see what all’s changed in teh long time since i actually went to fill it out :P Dont feel like you have to add as much as me tho omg @milkchocolateowl because honestly? love you. Think about you a lot, just like glad im mutuals with that ray of sunshine. Good. @fantaledfish <3 (this is the friend i mentioned earlier, runs a QUALITY blog i guarantee it, better than mine for sure) @dragonfucker-supreme always top in my notes, a silent bond, like two guards assigned to watch back to back in the early dawn. Birds gather round. I can only tag so many people (i set myself a limit of 5 because...idk why i just mentally it felt right) so for my last trick gotta go with @ask-oncies-jizz like cmon man name changes for the win, also has quality icons and quality shitposts tbh, supreme top meme. Have fun yall.

[angel-nero]

I was tagged by @wonderseverythingabove @glaspaladin and @kageyama-tobiyo sorta idk

Five Things You’ll Find In My Bag

phone


napkins

Money


lipstick

mints/halls (i drink too much Coke to be eating mints and I bought two packages and… oh god)

Five Things In My Bedroom:

computer

books

huge ass scary wardrobe

clothes everywhere

a lot of lamps cus I like to draw and I am super blind.

no posters cus they never keep there. old 14 years old me wasnt happy about it 

Five Things I’ve Always Wanted To Do In My Life:

play piano

learn more languages

travel a lot


dance ballet

art

Five Things That Make Me Happy:

food

art supplies

good education

my dog! Fuck! I love my dog!

buying things I want

Five Things On My To-Do List:

enter uni

chill


study for uni

recovery

laundry yeah same

Five Things People May Not Know About Me:

I get anxious a motherfucking lot about everything and no one irl knows besides my bffs. And family last year.

I eat a lot but can’t win weight and i am super skinny and look sick all the fucking time but…..

I might actually be v sick lmao. Im doing studies rn 

apparently I have french accent LMAO 🤠💦 some mx pals even asked me if I’m french and im like???? No??? i just cant focken speak right, okay? 

Im a coastal who doesnt likes seafood and old ppl constantly tell me shit about how i am missing the joy of life or how i am actually not a resident. yea, u rite, i am an alien 

Name?: Gabriela

Nicknames?: Bowie in school 🤠💦 gab, gabs, babe (gabe), uh, gabalooney toones? Idk dawn is nuts. dont call me gaby pls that's my mom 

Zodiac?: aries, constantly annoyed and an annoyance

Sexual Orientation?: Fuck this question honestly

Ethnicity?: mexican/Spanish but born in México, you get? Mexican

Favorite Fruit?: grapes

Favorite Season?: Summer. im a sucker for summer, find me in the beach, its too fucking hot so everyone wants to die

Favorite Flower?: idk i dont frikin care leave them alone

Favorite Scent?: scents that ain’t too strong. I rather breathe fresh air for all my life cus sometimes, no matter what smell, get me nervous 🤠💦 just… never food. any food

Favorite Animal?: all animals are cute I don’t play favorites

Coffee, Tea, or Hot Chocolate?: Hot chocolate even if it kills me. then coffee and kill tea. The only i’ve had is fuze tea lmao. tea i believe is fucking bad in here and this city is too hot to actually care. i love frappes

Cat or dog?: dogs

Dream Trip?: idk, bex’s ufo spots is actually a good one but i wouldn’t like to go to merica. Also… i wanna go to yucatán and see the place where the meteorito crashed and killed the fucking dinosaurs. and i think yucatán has a beach w pink water!!!! but nvm i checked and apparently you cant see shit. just take me somewhere idc

Number of Followers?: never will tell u

What do I post about?: i have two blogs. I used to post Queen/beatles pics and gifs and shitposts. In this one i was sooo quiet for like, 2 and a half years, I barely followed anyone and stopped entering once cus all i saw was su and v0ltr0n i was so lost in my dash 🤠💦 came back this year and its good 😎 and…… idk just texts i tag under bullshit.txt if u wanna block em. i wont b posting jaaaackshit

Do I get asks on a regular basis?: blep? Sometimes. I laugh cus when I was so quiet I answered em all on private. Look, that experience is fuckin hilarious to me cus i didnt have hopes of the anime fandoms or whatever   

Favorite Band?: queen. But i love a lot of music bruh. Queen was my first fav band so shut the fuck up and eat dirt if you say something

Aesthetic?: bleeeh bleh bleeeh bru the sun, keith, the desert, the beach, the sky, the universe, fight club and trainspotting, big buildings, parties, cool stories, me dyin

Fictional Character I’d Date?:  Eren 🤠💦. Listen…. I love him, and i knew about him when we were both 15… it’s special….. and now we are both 19….. and we’re so alike. I picked him so we could b friends actually he a little motherfuck

Hogwarts House?: gryffindor 

Rules: BOLD the statements that are true for you!

APPEARANCE:

I am 5'7" or taller

I wear glasses (all the fucking time)

I have at least one tattoo

I have at least one piercing

I have blonde hair

I have brown eyes

I have short hair

My abs are at least somewhat defined (i didnt even kno about this i checked a birthday pics w my friends and i had a croptop an suddenly i had abs. its from laughing probably)

I have or have had braces

PERSONALITY:

I love meeting new people

People tell me that I’m funny

Helping others with their problems is a big priority for me

I enjoy physical challenges

I enjoy mental challenges

I’m playfully rude with people I know well

I started saying something ironically and now I can’t stop saying it

There is something I would change about my personality

ABILITY:

I can sing well (my throat is super fucked fam i barely can speak :/)

I can play an instrument

I can do over 30 pushups without stopping

I’m a fast runner

I can draw well

I have a good memory

I’m good at doing math in my head

I can hold my breath underwater for under a minute

I have beaten at least 2 people in arm wrestling 

I know how to cook at least 3 meals from scratch

I know how to throw a proper punch

HOBBIES:

I enjoy playing sports (bleeh sometimes)

I’m on a sports team at my school or somewhere else

I’m in an orchestra or choir at my school or somewhere else

I have learned a new song in the past week

I work out at least once a week

I’ve gone for runs at least once a week in the warmer months

I have drawn something in the past month

I enjoy writing

FANDOMS ARE MY #1 PASSION

I do or have done martial arts

EXPERIENCES:

I have had my first kiss

I have had alcohol

I have scored the winning goal in a sports game

I have watched an entire season of a TV show in one sitting

I have been at an overnight event

I have been in a taxi

I have been in the hospital or ER in the past year

I have beaten a video game in one day

I have visited another country

I have been to one of my favorite band’s concerts

RELATIONSHIPS:

I’m in a relationship

I have a crush on a celebrity

I have a crush on someone I know

I have been in at least 3 relationships 

I have never been in a relationship (almost v close actually)

I have asked someone out or admitted my feelings to them

I get crushes easily

I have had a crush on someone for over a year

I have been in a relationship for at least a year

I have had feelings for a friend

MY LIFE:

I have at least one person I consider a “best friend”

I live close at my school

My parents are still together

I have at least one sibling

I live in the united states

There is snow right now where I live

I have hung out with a friend in the past month

I have a smartphone

I have at least 15 CD’s

I share my room with someone

RANDOM SHIT:

I have breakdanced

I know a person named Jamie

I have had a teacher with a last name that’s hard to pronounce (axayactl but its easy tho and whe called him axa!)

I have dyed my hair

I’m listening to one song on repeat right now

I have punched someone in the past week

I know someone who has gone to jail

I have broken a bone

I have eaten a waffle today

I know what I want to do with my life (yah whatever who care)

I speak at least 2 languages

I have made a new friend in the past year

i dont kno who to tag, idk who is down for this lm but if you see this and wanna do it…………… bbbbleaaassseeeee consider yourselfie tagged ily we dont have to b mutuals. tag me tho so i can read it!!!!!!!! i‘d love to 

[kuroimochikun]

can i just talk about my 'hoarding' for a second. im sure many many people have talked about this but its messin me up rn. So im not really hoarding but i have a habit of like i need a pen so i buy pens but i MUST keep them In my room instead of just putting them with the pens in the house for everyone. So a lot of thIs comes from beIng poor for a long time, like if someone else uses these i might npt be able to get more mindset. But those days are long over and its time i get used to that, i CAN replace things if i need them years later, which i couldnt always say growing up. The other part is from That Time A Scitzo Lived In My House And My Mother Took Her Word Over Mine. That was BAD...like it came down to i remember trying (and failing) to justify if shes literally stealing money out of my purse IN MY OWN HOME then the answer is get rid of her not just say "oh well you left it out! you cant expect It to still be there! thats ridiculous just keep it in your room!"...that argument came even down to me BEGGING to keep a single box of tea bags downstairs in the kitchen so i didnt have to go all the way up to my bedroom if i wanted some tea. I mean its not like she was related she was just dating my brother and thought our house was more fun than hers so she basicaly just moved in and nobody stopped her. like she had a rich kind old grandma to live with (and she really was a good person she tried her damnedest) but nope she wanted to be in our house. So that all ended about 4 years ago but the toll it took on my family will never really leave. And i feel terrible now because as my boyfriend tries to help me clean like 'okay you dont need this in here lets put the cups in the kitchen' and I think youre right! but honestly if i tried to put them in there i know it would just be 'me trying to take over the house' all over again. So i sit here terrified that my boyfriend is slowly losing faith in me but at the same time im glad hes never had to understand why im like this and i pray he never will. I want to get rid of this crap I hate haveing it all stuffed in this room (honestly its not THAT much) but i just get so scared of the bullshit that comes with putting it where it belongs. because everytime i do put anything out there my mother thinks im taking over or just railroading over her stuff or what have you. if she dosent then anything she decides is 'my stuff' goes in some obscure out of the way corner thats 'stuff to back to the bedroom'. yes i hate the clutter but the process of getting rid of it is almost worse and thats what scares me. If you want me to call this home then why wont you let me call this home. If you expect me to do most of the cooking/shopping/groceries/clothes/yardwork/etc then you cant expect me to be okay being basically confined to one room. this got really long sorry for rambleing kudos if anyone actuially read this