#i need to write a fic where mccoy is sad and kirk's there as a sounding board. i can't have all my fics be sad kirk lol

[lenievi]

things that get repeated in my spones fics: spock catching mccoy’s wrist (peak romance! - seriously, it’s like in 80% of my spones fics)

things that get repeated in my mckirk fics: bringing each other meals (mostly mccoy, but I had that one short scene where kirk made soup)

[muirmarie]

mcspirk month mYEAR planning post

idk if anyone likes these (these being planning posts), but here, it feels weird to have it tucked away in my notes when my BTHB and mcspirk bingo planning posts are on here, so. anywho. you know the drill: this is just me rambling, feel free to ignore!!

the bolded are those i still don't have a plan for <3 - as per my usual these are all tos unless otherwise noted

Day 1: Forced Proximity (“this isn’t a blessing,” mccoy hisses. “one day,” the king says, “you’ll see that is it.” - the one where spock and kirk cannot get more than an arm's length away from mccoy for 30 days w/o causing him debilitating pain)

Day 2: Touch-starved (spock and kirk cuddle mccoy out of touch starvation - this is like 75% done, I just need to finish it)

Day 3: Only One Bed (established mckirk to mcspirk. um. very nsfw. by far the most nsfw i’ve ever even considered writing lmao. currently sitting at almost 12k, probably will be around 15-17k all told. i don't even know how to describe this. kirk aggressively helping spock play gay chicken with mccoy until mccoy finally believes spock wants both of them, idk.)

Day 4: Hand Holding (maybe the one where spock & kirk slowly gaslight mccoy into holding hands with them - yes the tags are spones but i am very certain kirk would be very happy to gaslight mccoy into hand-holding as well)

Day 5: [hurt comfort or against a wall (no story planned)]

Day 6: Protective McCoy (no story planned *eta - actually i think i am going to take the one elian assigned me w/o even asking me lmao, where mccoy drinks the poison meant for kirk, but don't tell him that)

Day 7: Hand Kink (the one where spock is cucked w/ hand sex lmao)

Day 8: Public Display of Affection (would you still love and/or employ me if i was a worm?)

Day 9: Spock is a Hopeless Romantic (the flirty spock one probably?)

Day 10: [Hands or a bonus (no story planned)]

Day 11: Fuck or Die (vulcan sex magic hanahaki, this is, like. I have elements of it, but it’s not nailed down yet quite how it works. it's a vulcan disease but naturally mccoy's the one who gets it.)

Day 12: Aliens Made them Do It (the plato’s stepchildren one - i've been poking at this one since. like. january lmao. it's maybe 30% done, but it's not gonna be super long, i'm just slow with it. it is. hm. not a fluffy story. the platonians decide that mccoy simply needs to learn to say yes to them. how helpful they have spock and kirk around to help underscore the point.)

Day 13: [time loop or sex in a three way body swap or a bonus (no story planned, BUT do I really wanna write another time loop fic and/or can I really handle writing another smut fic lmao. If I did do time loop tho it would be the one where Kirk refuses to leave the time loop until he can solve the no-win scenario, i just don’t know how that goes yet. The sex in a three way body swap would be the AOS mcspirkura one, probably. Or the tos spones to mcspirk one. idk idk.)]

Day 14: Tarsus IV (kirk: i always knew i’d die alone. this is....jim character study, i think? I do need to come up w/ a happy (or at least: not sad) ending for it tho. So I’m still Thinking about this one.)

Day 15: Fake Dating (the one where the royal is trying to marry mccoy in order to keep him, and spock and kirk independently decide to fake date him to save him. also sarek loves trashy romance books. background uhura/scotty.)

Day 16: Lost the Ability to Speak (bones and uhura signing in federation common sign language - yes that's vague but all i need is something to center around tbh)

Day 17: McCoy Hurt w/ Spock & Kirk Comfort (this is like 95% of what i write lmao but i don’t have a specific plot yet)

Day 18: [Jealous Bones OR Oral Fixation (no story planned but it it’s jealousy it’s not gonna be traditional jealousy, bc I’m generally not a fan of jealousy storylines (unless all parties are unaware that they’re jealous - those I find VERY funny)]

Day 19: [Kirk is Missing, Presumed Dead or a bonus - probably a bonus (no story planned)]

Day 20: Accidental Voyeurism (okay the one where mccoy wakes up and his arm is trapped underneath kirk’s head and spock’s holding that hand as he’s laying on top of kirk and making out with him. I will have to find a plot tho. a reason. a Reason. It’s not established spirk either)

Day 21: Bondage (heh established spirk discovering mccoy’s penchant for getting tied up and/or tying others up and then literally not able to shut up about their platonic friends private habits for like a solid three months. they only care platonically of course. you don’t need those other ppl to tie you up bones you’ve got us. this one’s about 10% started.)

Day 22: Mirrorverse (mirrorverse katra sharing, it’s a whole thing, this is out of my wheelhouse but i have some Ideas, but this one isn’t going to be anytime soon)

Day 23: [reunion or teasing or a bonus (no story planned) - *eta actually for teasing i could maybe do the one where spock conducts an "experiment" in a private lab where he has mccoy & kirk work on a project for him while he gets extremely handsy w/ them - he's doing a study ("study" - they're all aware this is just spock's ideal version of foreplay) about human arousal in a working environment, and they're supposed to not let him distract them*]

Day 24: Temporary Blindness (this is going to be such a long messy mccoy whump story tbh. orpheus and eurydice part two. before i can even really start it tho i have to decide on pov, because that….really affects things for this one. but i mostly know how the story goes. also not anytime soon tho, maybe not even this year)

Day 25: Praise Kink (i COULD go temporary awkward ability if i don’t want to write anything too sexy, but the planned version is, like, kirk blossoms like a bashful babe and spock is genuinely moved when it comes to praise, but mccoy turns bright red and wants them to stop? BUT they like so much the way he flushes and struggles to accept the praise that they ask him to be good for them because THEY like it, and so he’s absolutely mortified but still? allows it for them? and they of course like it because they want to make him accept it.)

Day 26: Expectations vs Reality (counseling fic! The one where spock and kirk are dating but still somehow drag mccoy to their relationship counseling.)

Day 27: Vacation Gone Awry (no story planned) (*eta actually i think i'm changing this to Voyeurism and stretching that to make it work for the spirk - they keep coming up w/ weird sex injuries until they can finally convince mccoy to come over to help them figure out what they're doing wrong....he probably needs to watch....actually maybe hands on is better....actually maybe he just needs to stay forever*)

Day 28: Awkward Spock (checking for pulse over the liver instead of the wrist because he forgets where human hearts are when jim or leonard is hurt)

Day 29: Getting Interrupted (mcspirk sexy 3d chess - that’s right they’re interrupting mccoy’s WORK lmao)

Day 30: Desperate Measures (the enemy within one that’s 80% finished where kirk’s wolf and sheep sides both have to have sex w/ mccoy while spock melds with them both, all for very important science reasons - don’t worry about it.)

Day 31: Insecurity (*eta - mccoy gets out of a LDR and is bummed, and kirk tries to cheer him up by putting his name up for the underground "sexiest starfleet officer" bracket that scotty & uhura are running, to prove to mccoy that ppl find him attractive. unfortunately it turns out the crew finds him VERY attractive, kirk is having some jealously-related revelations, spock is gonna kill jim if he has to watch mccoy get asked out one more time, and mcco is yay close to having a nervous breakdown from being turned into a sex symbol*)

Bonus 1: nightmares (look this is fucked, just trust me this is a very messy thing and it is very fucked and i have to make all my maths fit together before i write it or it will feel too flimsy and fall apart, but. kirk's trapped in a nightmare by a parasite that bleeds into the waking world (there are reasons for it) that cause physical damage to mccoy. spock melds w/ kirk to try to change the dream. this has unexpected side effects. - this one WILL be written for mcspirk month i just don't know what day i'm replacing yet.)

Bonus 2: pet names (i think i might be able to fit the kiss me/fuck me fic into this prompt but i’m not 100% sure yet - aka the one where mccoy & kirk use “kiss me” as a SFW swear for “fuck me” and “don’t make me kiss you” as a SFW swear for “fuck you” and annoy everyone around them w/ this silly in joke until one time mccoy says “kiss me” w/o thinking to spock, and spock’s just. hmm. don’t mind if i do. and kirk thinks it’s so funny he starts kissing mccoy all the time as WELL. very pre-them even realizing they want a relationship (except for spock, spock has Plans, thank you). this will be written at SOME point, it depends if i need another bonus/if it fits the prompt enough.)

Other bonuses i’d consider if i need them, but no stories planned: blindfolds, misuse of the bond, uhura helps them out.

Other vague stories i have that i could rotate until they might fit a prompt: pacific rim au, space forgetties, [number]+1 of mccoy getting kissed awake/the +1 getting kissed to shut him up, spock going through the wringer re: mccoy getting hurt (that was written spones but could easily by mcspirk), empath era katra au, post-empath spock won't stop touching mccoy, katra transfer requires a kiss, this isn’t even all of them, it genuinely is absurd how many tag spirals i’ve written like this lmaoooo /sigh 

[trashquisitor-shirozora]

Fic authors self rec! When you get this, reply with your favorite five fics that you've written, then pass on to at least five other writers. Let’s spread the self-love 🤍

Aww, thank you for dropping this off in my askbox! Also oh god, I have so many favorite fics that I wrote, how will I ever choose just five? Anyway, these are arguably my favorite five fics that I wrote.

We Are Pilots (Tron Legacy, Sam/Tron, 90k words) changed my life. I answered a Tron Kink Meme fill with the kind of insane fervor that I later felt when writing another fic on this short list, and the response was phenomenal and overwhelming. This fic was the confidence booster of a lifetime and made me feel that actually, I am capable of writing stories on an epic scale. This fic went through several full rewrites and the final one is my favorite because this was where I really learned to let a story breathe and to make the environment as immersive as possible.

Wishing Well (Captain America: The First Avenger, 10k words) was a capkinkmeme fill (I was really big on LJ anon kink memes and I miss those so much for the unhinged communal vibes) and I love this short tragic tale of all the love that couldn't be. If I need something sad and cathartic, I read this fic. I need to feel the tragedy. I committed so hard to the bit that I deleted a fourth chapter set during Iron Man 2 and replaced it with a ficmix playlist.

born in a thunderstorm (Star Trek AOS/Guardians of the Galaxy/Thor Ragnarok/Captain Mavel, Kirk/McCoy, 68k) is the most unhinged thing I thought up since I was a middle schooler daydreaming a crossover of a bunch of Saturday morning cartoons and interestingly dubbed anime, and since I was a high schooler who went all out on a Kingdom Hearts fic by printing the screenplays for several Disney movies so that I can mimic the actual game as closely as possible. To think that this is the STXI fic I ended up writing after years of wanting to and never doing so out of fear I'd fuck up and get gatekept out of Star Trek.

Sweather Weather (Star Wars, Din/Luke, 22k) won the fight with Gravity Well because fall is here and the cozy vibes are strong in this one. Years back, I tried to write a cozy vibes fic and flamed out because I was a fool and didn't stick to the "slice of life" mentality. Anyway, this is my slice of life/cozy vibes fic and I adore it.

The Storm (Star Wars, Din/Luke, 45k) is the story I wrote in a fever dream, fueled by the song "Dangerous Dreams" by Lebrock, and my life has not been the same since then. This story is still so vivid to me. I still think about the claustrophic setting, the old stone temple on a forgotten world ravaged by weeks-long thunderstorms, and how that forged a curiosity and connection between two people whose cultures and ways of life were destroyed by the Empire yet still survived. I still think about this fic the way I think about stories that just seared themselves into my brain and won't go away (like the other fics on this list, Peter Jackson's LOTR trilogy, and Andor). It's all fucking insane. How the fuck did I write that?

Anyway, appreciate getting this ask! Now back to writing the next chapter of the 4th story of the series spun out of The Storm.

[werewolves-are-real]

Thank you so much! Super excited to see where this goes.

I still have the optimist intentions of some day* writing a post-Genesis fic myself where Spock gets together with a Vulcan OC (who is kind, intellectually curious and more open minded than the average Vulcan) with Bones as wing man, but aside from that, the plot I have in my head will probably diverge from whatever you come up with, so hopefully that is ok! I figure fanfic can retread the same premise over and over anyways.

*some day realistically is far in the future in terms of when I will have time, so happy someone as good at sad Spock is doing this gap in the Spock timeline justice!

Oh I would love to read that too! Though I understand why it's not a common fic topic. I usually don't read fics where anyone is perm-dead either lol. Hope you get the time one day!

I'm already very attached to my OC in my drafts so I hope everyone else likes him too :)

But yeah, I do think a lot about how tragic it would be to have their kind of relationship - friendship or romantic or whatever you want - just for a few years. Then Kirk is dead, and Spock lives another century+.

I need to imagine how he deals with that, how he grieves and accepts a long long life ahead without Kirk. And hopefully not alone the whole time!

...Although apparently he still has McCoy, who is still alive in TNG. I'm half convinced McCoy is just immortal. We never DO get a confirmed date of death for him!

[nautilicious]

fic love

Fanfic has gotten me through These Trying Times (tm). Hope this fic brings you joy.

K'diwa: A Steamy Novel of Interspecies Romance, by Jim Kirk by @branwyn-says

Since the story is set at the Academy, before the events shown in the recent movies, it does not require much canon knowledge.

Jim Kirk writes a Human/Vulcan romance novel, and then it gets anonymously leaked. Most Vulcans who read it suddenly have ideas about wooing humans. Spock, however, responds differently. He relates strongly to the events and emotions presented in the novel, feeling seen and understood in that way that one does when engaging with powerful stories. He also gains insight into the mystery author. Spock is captivated, and desperately wants to find and befriend whoever wrote this book.

This story is funny, in a number of places (McCoy is done especially well) but it's not a humor fic. The release of the smutty novel begins the action in an amusing way, but then events unfold which rapidly and profoundly impact both Kirk and Spock.

@branwyn-says uses the tastiest parts of Kirk's AOS backstory and then expands on it with some of my favorite Kirk tropes, including Tarsus IV trauma and an extra shitty childhood (none of which is shown explicitly). Kirk has Survived Some Shit and really, he Don't Need No Man. Yet he keeps finding himself in trouble and needing help. At one point he actually does swoon! -- and Spock, of course, is there to catch him. (Spock is just lovely in this fic. Also, very protective. Not controlling, but like, Gold Star, I will protecc)

I love the way that Kirk gets taken care of in this story. Not just by Spock, who treats him with wisdom and gentleness, but by everyone else who cares about him, as well. So we get Pike as a mentor, and Bones as a devoted bestie, and Gaila as a soul-sister/fellow survivor and Uhura as a smart and staunch friend. Kirk is loved by these people, despite his certainty that he doesn't deserve it (because we recognize that brainweasel, don't we?) You can't love someone out of their trauma, but gosh darn it, it sure helps.

Another thing I loved is that Kirk has a familiarity with Vulcan language and culture that works great in this story (and which is one of my favorite things in Star Trek fic, full stop -- rec me your faves!! (Yes, I've read Graduate Vulcan for Fun and Profit, and Linguistic Ambiguities in Vulcan Ethical Codes -- I could read Vulcan-influenced Kirk all day)).

Speaking of Vulcan business going on, there's also cool telepathy, worldbuilding about bonding and courtship, and a delightful look at Vulcan society. Not to mention the moments of Surprise Competence when a characters reveals hitherto unknown skills or baddassery -- that, too, is my jam.

Overall, this is a gentle story where Kirk comes to a place of comfort and healing through his unexpected connection with Spock. It's a fantastic read for when you want a plot that moves along nicely but doesn't cliffhanger you at every turn, to see hurt people find caring, and lonely people find connection.

Ship: Kirk/Spock

Word Count: 103,987

AO3 tags under the cut.

secret romance author Jim Kirk

Smart James T. Kirk

Possessive Behavior

Non-Consensual Drug Use

Past Abuse

fanboy Spock

Academy Era

Secret Identity

fake novel excerpts

Vulcan Language

Vulcan Culture

Protective Spock (Star Trek)

Post-Traumatic Stress Disorder - PTSD

Jim is a sweet sad bottom and Spock can't stand it

Past Rape/Non-con

Vulcan foster family

Chris "Captain Dad" Pike

BAMF Gaila (Star Trek: Alternate Original Series)

BAMF Leonard "Bones" McCoy

telepathic assault

black Vulcans

Adoption

past intimate partner abuse

[jerakeenc]

many kidfics i’ve read and loved

look who’s reccing a million year old fics now. kidfics, very many. posted to dw for snowflake, thought I’d copy here as well. will be reading most, if not all. if you don’t hear from me again, this list is the culprit.

101 Ways To Get Lucky (In Love) by lenore

18,200 words | SGA, McKay/Sheppard

Rodney McKay is rich, gorgeous and at the top of his game—except someone just moved the goalposts! Now Rodney realizes he is sorely lacking the one status symbol that everybody seems to have…the perfect family. Rodney needs help, so he hires a relationship coach. Single-dad John Sheppard may be an expert, but not when it comes to his own relationships! And every day he spends with Rodney makes him wish that he could be the one to fill the vacancy in Rodney's life…

A Beautiful Lifetime Event by astolat

29,000 words | SGA, McKay/Sheppard

Life is what happens when you're busy making other plans.

An Earlier Heaven by regann

67,400 words | X-Men, Erik/Charles

In the wake of Cuba, Charles and his students are ready to pick up the pieces and work toward achieving Charles's dream of a safe haven for young mutants. Those plans, however, take a surprising turn thanks to a very unexpected complication. As he slowly builds a future for his students and for his child, Charles struggles with the loss of Erik and the secrets he's willing to keep to protect his family, but those strides are shattered when Erik makes a startling reappearance into his life. [mpreg, kidfic, ensemble]

And everything nice by noelia_g

30,200 words | Social Network, Mark/Eduardo

The one where Mark somehow ends up with a child and of course needs a nanny for the amount of time he spends at the office. Only problem is a string of nannys keep trying to get into his pants for what he assumes is his money. Cue Mark's assistant hiring a male nanny, enter Eduardo.

asking to be born by longtime_lurker

26,500 words | Bandom, Pete/Patrick

"Don't worry, it's probably just his big gay freakout," Andy yells cheerfully and unhelpfully into Patrick's ear as they're hustling Pete over to the nearest private clinic.

Better with You by harriet_vane

38,100 words | 1D, Liam/Louis

Based on this prompt at the kinkmeme:

Single parent and solo artist Liam Payne hires Louis Tomlinson to be a full time nanny to his four year old son Sammy. Although the two men don't quite click from the start it's love at first sight between Sammy and Louis. Eventually Louis and Liam warm up to each other and get on like a house on fire, in fact the two become a little too fond of each other.

I refuse to apologize for how sweet this ended up, okay? It's kidfic, I am forever writing kidfic, and this one is even kid-fic-ier than usual.

Can't Get Enough of You (Baby) by eternalbreath

22,100 words | Inception, Arthur/Eames

Eames vanishes from dreamshare and Arthur goes a little crazy looking for him until he stumbles across him -- with a baby.

Chelsea, Chelsea, I Believe by empathapathique

300,800 words | Hockey, Kane/Toews

Patrick meets a girl his rookie year.

Don't You Shake Alone by dsudis

62,180 words | Generation Kill, Brad/Nate

Nate looked exactly like Brad always pictured him: exhausted in the full life-in-a-combat-zone sense of the word.

Dude, what's a bulwark? by kellifer_fic

12,150 words | Teen Wolf, Derek/Stiles

Beacon Hills is the kind of small town where everybody knows everybody, and what everybody knows is that surly diner owner Derek Hale and free spirited single dad Stiles Stilinski have been in love with each other for years. If only they knew it too.

Every Other Beautiful World by rhiannonhero

43,280 words | SGA, McKay/Sheppard

Some things are unexpected but still inevitable in every beautiful world.

Forever, Now by harriet_vane

227,100 words | Bandom, Frank/Gerard, Jon/Spencer, Brendon/Ryan, Brian/Greta

Brian rescues kid!Gerard and Mikey from life on the streets, and eventually everyone finds a family.

here comes the sun by oflights

56,600 words | Social Network, Mark/Eduardo

This is a story about growing up, sad 70's rock songs, too much hair gel, "Maxwell's Silver Hammer", a baby with curly hair, a Geiger counter, a dog that isn't named Max, the Chicken Dance, Cheerios, pepper-spray, drugs, sex, and a stuffed chicken named Cluckerberg, nicknamed Cluck. or: Mark raises Sean's accidental baby, and I write the fluffiest thing ever.

I Got a Love (That Keeps Me Waiting) by svmadelyn

163,700 words | Hockey, Kane/Toews

There's a lot of different ways this summary could go, like:

Patrick Kane gets more than a gold medal in Sochi.

Or, the classic: It's too late to pull out now.

Or: Patrick Kane continues to thrive in high pressure situations.

Or: Patrick Kane gets knocked up, goes to White Castle, and finds love, not necessarily in that order.

But, ultimately, all that really matters is this: Patrick Kane is keeping his baby.

I Would Be by cathalin

20,290 words | American Idol, Kris/Adam

AU. Adam and Kris meet a few years down the road, when down-on-his-luck Kris and his young daughter Katherine show up to rent a room from Adam, who never made it to an Idol audition.

Ice Ice Baby by uraneia

51,340 words | Hockey, Claude/Danny

A gold medal isn't the only souvenir Claude brings home from Prague.

OR: The one where Claude gets drunk, gets pregnant, and gets convinced to move in with Danny, whom he's been secretly in love with for years. What could possibly go wrong?

my heart is bigger than the distance in between us by estrella30

15,000 words | 1D, Nick/Harry

Nick chuckles quietly but grabs the remote and follows Emma, Aimee coming up close behind him. It’s indeed Harry on the telly, singing along to his latest radio hit and smiling slowly into the camera far too seductively for half eight on a Friday morning, if you ask Nick. He presses the volume just in time to catch the crowd’s roaring applause and see the pink flush Harry’s cheeks. Nick watches him duck his head as he gives a small wave to the audience, and it hits Nick that Harry is still the most humble and appreciative billionaire Nick’s ever met.

Good job, popstar, Nick thinks to himself.

or, Nick is a single dad and Harry is his bff and it's a bunch of years into the future and they fall in love

Once Upon a Furry Octopus by skoosiepants

11,270 words | SGA, McKay/Sheppard

He was an intelligent, intuitive pet, but he wasn’t going to start sniffing out ZPMs or hidden Ancient weaponry or detailed instructions on how to kill a Wraith with a common household item. A pen, for instance.

Reconcilable Differences by astolat

40,000 words | Smallville, Clark/Lex

Luthor Family Values.

Shelter by harriet_vane

63,500 words | Social Network, Jesse/Andrew

From the kinkmeme prompt: Some sort of AU vaguely based on Shelter! For whatever reason, Jesse has to take care of Hallie and give up his dream of being an actor. He ends up working in a dead end job when former, now successful friend (Andrew) returns home. They fall in love, etc, only Jesse can't go away with him because he has a responsibility to his family. CUE ANGST.

Show Me The Way Back Home Baby by stilinskisparkles

15,000 words | Teen Wolf, Derek/Stiles

In which Lydia and Jackson produce the world's cutest baby, and the pack goes crazy-- the good kind of crazy. Except for Derek, who is afraid of tiny cute babies and Stiles who plans to be the best Uncle ever. Even if Danny called dibs on Godfather.

Skybird by windsweptfic

33,785 words | Inception/White Collar, Arthur/Eames

Arthur and Eames adopt a kid and raise that kid into Neal Caffrey.

Small Cells and Fibers by sevenfists

7,830 words | Bandom, Frank/Gerard

Tuesdays were finger-painting days. Frank made sure to wear his oldest pair of jeans, because even with his full-length apron and his constant reminders that paint belongs on paper and not on clothing, he always ended up with tiny, multi-colored handprints all over his clothes. There wasn't a thing he could do about it, so he just wore pants from 1995.

Small Primes and Square Roots by liviapenn

12,500 words | SGA, McKay/Sheppard

"I hope you picked someone really intelligent, otherwise it seems like it would be kind of a waste. Of incubation time, if nothing else."

So Wise We Grow by deastar

81,250 words | Star Trek Reboot, Kirk/Spock

"Commander Spock, we have located your son," the Vulcan lady on the screen says, which would be great, except Jim can tell by the look on Spock's face that he's never heard of this kid before in his life. "If it is expedient, the child will be sent to join you on the Enterprise within the week."

Something Better by lovelypoet

18,350 words | Bandom, Frank/Gerard

"We all have to take jobs we don't like sometimes, you know?"

The Next Time You Say Forever by Thistlerose

27,300 words | Star Trek Reboot, Kirk/McCoy

After his ex-wife's death, McCoy is forced to leave the Enterprise to look after his teenage daughter. Under normal circumstances, this would be the end of…whatever it is he has with Kirk that's more than friendship, but less than what he wants. But the universe has other intentions.

The Reeducation of Misters Kane and Toews by jezziejay

15,900 words | Hockey, Kane/Toews

In which Kaner sort of has a kid, and Mr. Toews doesn't know which of them is the bigger brat.

AU featuring teacher!Jon and hockey-player!Kaner. With bonus 'Hawks characters, love notes, pasta jewelry, Be Better Pizzas, pirouettes, a sprinke of angst and guest appearance by Derek Jeter.

The Road Delivered Us Home by keelywolfe

117,430 words | Hobbit, Thorin/Bilbo

In the years since Bilbo left Erebor, he has lost his respectability, gained a nephew, and gotten on with life at Bag End.

He'd left aside adventure for the comforts and peace of his little Hobbit hole, and for the love of a child who needed him. Though perhaps, adventures can yet find him.

This Story Was Brought to You by Our Sponsors by scaramouche

29,500 words | Supernatural, Dean/Castiel

Dean's post-apocalyptic life is a friggin' soap opera. Romance! Angst! Separations! Reunions! Pizza Dinners! A Child Dean Never Knew He Had! It's all very dramatic.

throw a little sparkle all over it by etben

26,000 words | Bandom, Frank/Gerard

"Hey, Ma," Mikey says. "No, everything's fine—well, I mean, Gerard accidentally adopted a baby—no, he's changing her now, he can't talk."

Tiny Houses by ohmyjetsabel

77,130 words | Teen Wolf, Derek/Stiles

"So this is what Stiles does. He lies in Scott’s bed and waits for Melissa to say she’s found someone to get it out of him, to cure him of the wrongness and the bad, and he dreams.

God, he dreams.

He dreams of fire and swollen bellies and that scene in Alien, of giving birth to jackals through his urethra, the whole horrific nine yards. His head is a terrible place to be, he can’t imagine his stomach is much better, why anyone would want to put a thing inside of it."

Tip, Slide, Tumble by j_s_cavalcante

42,900 words | due South, Fraser/Kowalski

Ray knew when he found the body in the alley it was going to change someone's life. He just didn't expect that life would be his.

Turn by saras_girl

306,000 words | Harry Potter, Harry/Draco

One good turn always deserves another. Apparently.

Unless it's lies or it's love by sprat

25,300 words | American Idol, Kris/Adam

In which Adam (a rock star) meets Kris (a single dad) at an Emergency Room in Arkansas at the end of a particularly shitty night. Also features: San Francisco, fresh starts, baked goods, OCs, cameo appearances by Matt and Megan, pirates, monsters with garbage heads and a recording studio.

What Child Is This by lamardeuse

30,150 words | Merlin, Arthur/Merlin

A modern AU with Merlin, Arthur, mayhem, a baby and a jingly elf hat.

What to Expect by arsenic

29,200 words | Bandom, Bob/Mikey

Mikey has his band, and his little girl, and that's enough. Really, it is.

Winter's Children by neery

66,890 words | Marvel, Bucky/Steve

When their attempts to recreate the super soldier serum failed, Hydra started trying to breed Captain America clones from his genetic samples. Unfortunately, the serum's effects aren't passed down genetically, so instead of an army of tiny Captain Americas, they get a bunch of tow-headed, asthmatic, allergic, immuno-compromised little Steves.

And then the Winter Soldier stumbles across Hydra's failed experiment...

With Six You Get Eggroll by speranza

31,000 words | due South, Fraser/Kowalski

"Kick 'em In The Head: A Guide To Parenting."

ETA: Bonus! Because I apparently lost my bookmark for this one but have the memory of an elephant for kidfic, so it came to me eventually. :D

A Farm in Iowa 'Verse by sheafrotherdon

166,000 words | SGA, McKay/Sheppard

John inherits a farm, Rodney ends up entirely out of his element, and there is much ado about baseball.

[kinetic-elaboration]

September 1: 3x06 Spectre of the Gun

Okay so, it might be a little early to declare myself a S3 apologist, since there are still a lot of eps I’ve never seen, but I feel like I’m pretty close..

This ep was so good!! Honestly I think it’s one of my faves. And perfect to usher in Spooky Season.

Honestly, this show really is my happy place. Just all the characters together on the bridge, on some kinda adventure, looking at weird space buoys and investigating stuff.

Again, this buoy looks like a Windows 98 screensaver.

Kirk keeps referring to Spock as “Science Officer.” Is he mad at him? Full of some particularly intense longing that requires him to put extra distance between them?

Excuse me, you address US as aliens? YOU’RE the aliens.

Hmmm, so it seems they’re not friendly.

It’s addressing them in different languages!!! I love it. Love the reminder that Uhura’s first language is not English,also.

“True telepaths are dangerous.” As opposed to fake telepaths like Vulcans lol?

The Melkotians withdrew immediately. They invented space travel, they saw space, and they said “not for us” and they turned around and left. McCoy would like them; they’d have a lot to gripe about together.

The welcome mat is NOT out.

“Unlike Mr. Scott’s transporter, this unit is not functioning.”

It legit looked like Spock put his hand on Kirk’s back there. Like he clearly raises it, but not far enough to be seen above Kirk, so like.. what was the point? Where did it go?

LEE CRONIN--oh no, flashbacks lol.

“We come in peace”--immediately pulls out gun.

I should have watched this when writing my Western fic.

Just bits and pieces of a Western town... and a completely red sky...

The guns are “crude but dangerous.” If only Sulu were here; he’d love this.

An announcement with a specific time and place on it--that’s a very precise detail to just pull from their minds. Must have come from Kirk’s, that nerd. Maybe Spock. But probably Kirk.

“Because my ancestors pioneered the American frontier.” I mean did they really get to the frontier? Or just... the Midwest?

Maybe it’s actually because he’s a cowboy at heart?

Aliens using his own ancestral sins as the pattern for his own death for breaking their law IS a great (possibly partially unintended) idea. Oh also, if they think that Kirk and co. are here to ‘tame’ or colonize them, then the Western setting makes even more sense--you’re no different from your ancestors, you came somewhere new and brought lawlessness and violence and death, but not this time!

Can you believe Kirk knows all of these details about the OK Corral? NERD.

Spock is so proud of himself for knowing the phrase “had it out.” Look, I used slang correctly!

These are some creative aliens.

“We know death is real here.” Or is it? They’re literally telepaths guys.

Hmmm, this building doesn’t need a roof I think. - The aliens probably

Can’t believe Scotty thinks his usual is his actual usual lol. You’re going to drink bourbon and like it!

Kirk and Spock look so good together.

They’re obviously Chekov’s disapproving parents.

“The day is still young, Ensign.” I don’t remember the exact context of this but Spock is SO judgmental.

What is Kirk doing? This guy is a hallucination; he won’t be convinced by touching some cloth. There’s nothing to convince! He’s only a Concept.

“Have you seen clothes like this?” / “Yes.” / “Where?” / “On the Claytons!” Comedy gold.

Kirk really thinks he can charm his way out of anything. Hmmm, maybe if I just talk nicely to the Earps, they won’t kill us.

“In small amounts, it [bourbon] was considered medicinal.” Lol.

Scotty is becoming a bourbon guy!

“Mr. Chekov is inVOLVed” lol. Is that what the kids are calling it these days?

“A lot of people and things have tried to kill me.” No need to brag.

THAT’S how you make a city limits sign. Put a dead animal skull on top. I live quite close to a city limits sign and I think it could use a cow skull.

Western Cossacks!!

Poisonous snakes and cactus plants. That really distills the Aesthetic down to its core.

This is a good Kirk episode. He’s really being a good Captain: coming up with different ideas, being creative, pushing his crew to brainstorm.

Bones and his tranqs again.

Bones meets his old nemesis: Old Timey Medicine.

Why was Doc Holiday just...chilling in his own dentist chair? (My mom suggested: power nap. Let’s go with that. Power nap + ability for optimally dramatic entrance.)

Also I can’t believe McCoy just goes into this guy’s practice and starts helping himself to all the serious drugs.

Chekov definitely isn’t the marrying kind.

RIP Chekov.

Bones does not sound very sympathetic here. Jim, get over it, he just died, whatever.

And then two seconds later he turns around and tells Spock he’s not sad enough! You can’t win.

“We all knew the risk when we joined the service.”

“My feelings are not a subject for discussion.” !!!!!!! This line!!

“You worked closely with him.” Yes! Chekov is his protege!

“Bones, Scotty, stop bullying Spock.” <-- not an actual quote but it might as well be.

If this were AOS, Spock would already be choking Bones out.

Whoops, no one told Chekov he wasn’t supposed to die!

“Let’s organize! Let’s form an anti-Earp union!”

“I can’t kill them!” he says in a mad rage.

I mean, it is important, though. That’s not what he does.

Kirk is /disgusted/ by lawlessness and frontier justice. What a Rebel TM.

I feel like Bones was waiting for the gotcha moment when Spock compliments him. “Saying nice things about me? That’s not how this relationship works!”

“Nothing can go wrong.” / “Up to now, everything has gone wrong.” He has a point.

That pause before Spock admitted it hasn’t been tested lol--they don’t want to admit it.

“[The bourbon’s] for the pain.” / “But this is painless.” / “You should have told me that before.” The unexpected comedy stylings of Scotty and Spock.

It doesn’t work--guess Spock’s got to take back that compliment now.

“Captain, you don’t understand--they’ve been telepaths the whole time which we already knew!”

“We’re not going to move from the spot.” * is immediately in a different spot * Well I mean at least he’s trying. He’s doing his best!

Love the OK Corral sign also. Weirdly creepy. With its accompanying horse.

Spock doesn’t have any hips for the holster to rest on.

“What did Chekov die of?” / “A piece of lead in his body.” That would do it.

If the tranquilizer should have been effective, does that mean Scotty is actually passed out right now?

Honestly, this is all so spooky. TRUE Western Horror Ghost Vibes.

Also very trippy. If you don’t believe it... it’s not real... some kinda weird chicken and the egg argument regarding our belief in the truth of physical laws idk but it sounds good. Spock brings it home.

Even with the wind whipping around him, Kirk is SO in love. His absolutely adoring expression... So soft...

“Very well, Sir, I’ll meld with you again. Not that I particularly want to. It will be a sacrifice. But I’ll manage. Even though you’re such a dynamic individual haha ha I’m fine I’m cool.”

I feel like Scotty is NOT into the mind meld. He looks terrified. Maybe he should have saved the bourbon for this occasion.

I know the mind meld is supposed to be a replacement for on screen hypnotism...but is this not hypnotism? Like even more than past uses? In this case, Spock is leaving them with suggestions that he wants to continue AFTER the meld, as opposed to, like, efficiently sharing information or giving immediate suggestions. And the scenes themselves are very creepy and...hypnotic.

Kirk’s patented move: WHOLE BODY ATTACK.

Well, we wrapped that up right quick.

Did they... never actually leave the bridge? Or even navigate past the buoy? This actually brings up a lot of questions as to when the aliens started the hallucinations, what their bodies looked like to the rest of the crew, and how they woke up--since there’s obviously been a bit of a time skip, as Bones is already examining Chekov.

Lol at Chekov, saved by horniness. “Nothing but the girl was real to him.”

“A vast alliance of fellow creatures who all believe in the same thing...”

Kirk’s vision of the utopian future is so powerful, he’s effectively gotten the welcome mat put back out.

A personal question? Kirk is intrigued.

Ah, but it’s just another excuse for Spock to be a hypocrite--how did humans survive? How did VULCANS survive? And for the show to remind us of its utopian vision of the future... we will move past violence, we will prove ourselves attractive to and worth of new alien friends.

Then McCoy walks out so Kirk and Spock can have their Moment. He undoubtedly knows what’s up.

So this ep was shown one day before the anniversary of the shootout at the OK Corral AND on Halloween week. It is very much a spooky season episode. So surreal and strange. Ghostly.

I know using sets rather than on location shoots, and not even building whole sets, was a budgetary issue but tbqh I think it worked in the ep’s favor. It added to the alien feeling of it and was an accidentally creative way of showing that these images were pulled from Kirk’s mind.

This felt like a very Classic S1-ish ep to me. I think it’s because Kirk was foregrounded as the Captain/hero and we get to see not just his intelligence and creativity and leadership but also his compassion and his moral core. He IS the values of the series, personified, and that was clear here.

But we also got to see lots of him and Spock, casually working as a pair, and the use of the rest of the landing party crew was very deft also. I loved that there was time to mock Chekov’s horniness, to talk about Spock and Chekov’s professional relationship, to joke around with Scotty, to show more of the Spock and Bones dynamic.

Again, great sci fi concept. I think this would have been another possible inspo for my Pirate AU if I’d seen it in time (although I think I picked a good mission-concept ultimately). I’m fascinated by the Melkotians: who are they? What do they really look like? Do they communicate any other way but telepathically? Are they corporeal? What is their planet like? And most importantly, what experience lead them to be so isolationist? They specifically refer to the aliens as “disease” coming into their home. And it’s when Kirk shows himself to be fundamentally nonviolent even in the face of his own death, they let the Enterprise through.

Basically, I always enjoy hints of alien societies that bring up more questions for me than answers. I love speculating about it.

The next two eps I’ve seen and remember well and I know they’re classics. I’m really looking forward to them!

[megers67]

Had kind of a cool dream last night that came out of nowhere.

So it is Star Trek (AOS) and at some point Dr. McCoy had come across a small child alone and in need. One that clearly didn't belong in the place she was at. So he convinced Kirk to let him rescue her and take her aboard the ship until they found where she really belonged. They bonded super hard, but they finally found her people and returned her there (Bones being a bit reluctant to do so because he was reminded of his own daughter, but knew it wa was the right thing to do). The ship is in the area a few years later so they visit. They find the girl and Bones is a little sad she is calling someone else her dad, he knew it was for the best.

But then shit starts getting real interesting. The girl excitedly shows off that she is learning to read (and translates) and Uhura is surprised that it isn't in the universal translator's system. The girl reads the passage and Kirk was like "this sounds a lot like the Atlantis myth." So there is a bit of intrigue around that. There are differences that I can't recall for the most part but I remember "... and the flood waters shall remain silent unless royal blood is spilled on the ancient ground."

It's really nice when I get dreams that have enough narrative structure for foreshadowing.

Anyway, some stuff happens, the scene cuts to the caretaker being threatened and then threatened by some really weird old dude who isn't quite of this world, though it isn't incredibly unheard of. Just apparently there aren't a lot of people going in and out of this world. So while they are technically space faring, Humans are still a novelty (though the people here look very Human, all things considered).

I digress. He gets spooked, the Enterprise crew figure out something is wrong, but in the night, the guy sneaks out to try to take care of things, but is killed instead. They don't find out until the next morning. Some crew (Kirk, Spock, and Chekov) try to investigate while others (Bones, Uhura, and Sulu) try to find a new home for the girl. The group with the girl gets ambushed and she gets hurt. Not by a lot, but enough so she bleeds gold. Her eyes begin to glow and apparently some freak series of coincidences cause a super ancient and important dam to burst. Planetary flood. Total devastation.

Turns out the girl is descendants of the original royals. Shocker.

The Enterprise saves who they can, but it's not a lot. They drop off who they can on a nearby planet who offered to take in the refugees, but the survivors refuse to take in the girl. Apparently in this culture, the royals (and so the girl by extension) were seen as a curse. Both for being the blame for the initial flood and then for the prophecy of it returning again. That's why the royals were banished in the first place a long long time ago (hence why the girl was on some random planet).

Anyway, Bones takes her on again and I only have vague allusions that the guy who killed the girl's adoptive father (who knew the girl was a royal descendant the whole time but didn't care) is convinced the girl is the key to some great and vague treasure. So he is hunting her down.

Damn, I wish I had the writing skill to do that kind of story justice as a fic. I need the rest. Like right now.

[spirkpride]

My Fave Spirk Fics

(!) = Smut

(*) = I love this fic and have gone back to re-read multiple times

(-) = Short fic

(|) = Long Fic

Listening Skills by Aelimir (-)

K/S. Spock has concluded that the Captain doesn't listen to him. Uhura, as the communications officer, disagrees. What is the real problem? AU set before "Into Darkness." Rating changed due to reviewer suggestion. :)

Thy Soul, Alight In The Dark by Aerlalaith (|)

When disgraced former Starfleet captain and current salvage runner James T. Kirk stumbles upon what appears to be an abandoned Vulcan research vessel on the edge of Federation Space, he thinks he’s finally found some luck. The state of the ship and the fate of her original crew however, turn what was supposed to have been a standard day’s work into something quite a bit stranger. As Kirk and his crew debate if they can—or should—wake a sleeping survivor, it soon becomes clear that the nightmare is just beginning.

In Another World by ashayamspirk (!)

Starfleet believed Jim Kirk was destined for command. Jim Kirk would prefer to leave his father's long Starfleet reputation behind him and dedicate himself to xeno-botany. Offered a position to work on hybrid plants on Vulcan, Jim is put into contact with a tutor, the blind xenolinguistics professor, Spock. It's only after meeting him that Jim realizes how he and Spock are connected, and why the Vulcan hates him so much.But then fate has other ideas, and long after Jim leaves earth for Vulcan, they're thrown into each other's paths once again.

Designated by ashayamspirk (!)

“I would like you to read over the contract and consider what you are agreeing to before you sign,” Spock says, and reaches for the PADD on the table.And because Jim is an absolute dipshit who thinks nothing through ever at all, he just shrugs and uses his fingers to scroll to the bottom, signs, and hits send. Amok Time AU

Vulcan Keeping and Other Problems by t_3po (*)

Where's the manual for raising nerdy young Vulcans chasing after local bad boys when you actually need it?

I Will Have This by ashayamspirk (!) (series has been discontinued, consider the first story in the series a one shot)

Just as she finished adding a small box of sweets to her items, she felt a tug on the sleeve of her robe. Turning, she had a smile prepared, and a praise on the tip of her tongue for whatever item her son had chosen. That turned into a sharp gasp when she realized that carefully ensconced in her son’s arms was not any item for sale in the shop, but a very human baby. “Mother, I will have this.”

Something Smart To To by kianspo (|) (!)

In which Jim finds himself fake-married to his first officer every other month. It's not his fault. Mostly. Dowries and Klingons are involved. Starfleet is decidedly not amused.

When You’re Making Other Plans by lah_mrh

Jim always thought the absence of a soulmark on his arm meant he didn't have a soulmate. When he and Spock team up to take down Nero, he discovers how wrong he was.

Somewhere to Begin by jouissant (|)

Everything's fine between Jim and Spock at the end of the first five year mission, or so Jim thinks. But then Spock up and leaves San Francisco without so much as a goodbye, and Jim's suddenly faced with the prospect of life without his first officer...unless he can go to New York and win Spock back.

Of Spocks and Socks by gentleau (-) (*)

The giving of gifts is a most illogical practice, Spock doesn’t know how to be in a human relationship, and no one ever talks to Jim about anything.

My Soul, Reflected, or Mirror Kirk Sucks at Wooing by Nicnac (-) (*)

Five times Kirk tried to win his soulmate over, and one time Spock succeeded without really trying.

Star Trek: T-Shirts, Jackets, and Kisses by IBegToDreamAndDiffer

Or, how Jim outed them to the crew, how Spock outed them to the Academy, and how they outed themselves to Earth at large.

Everything’s Alright by VicBaylies (-) (!)

Set sometime after Amok Time. Spock suffers a relapse of Pon Farr, and Kirk is there to help him out. Somewhat established relationship

Spaceships, Private Jets, and Minivans: How to Start a Global Incident in 5 Minutes Flat by Scientia_Fantasia (|)

One early summer morning in Riverside, Iowa, a spacecraft crash lands into the backyard of a highschooler by the name of James T. Kirk.Earth history is changed forever.

To Catch A Fish by Darksknight (!) (*)

Spock’s realized that while he treasures his deep friendship with Jim, he’s come to desire more. He sets out to tell Jim of his feelings, but finds the task... considerably more difficult than he'd first imagined it to be.

Plucked by cembular (!)

Spock loses his virginity to his captain and boyfriend. PWP

This is Bumbles by PurpleFluffyCat (!) (-) (*)

This porny, fluffy, slightly-cracky(!) fic was written for a Star Trek kink meme. The prompt suggested subverting the usual trope of Vulcans in pon farr as aggressive and uber-dominant, and read as follows:"Spock's in pon farr. Jim finds out and offers to help him out! Instead of being aggressive in pon farr, Spock is super loving, emotional and sweet. Bonus if it takes Jim off guard!"

In Any Language by Enterprisingly (!) (-)

A love story in 10 parts. Based on a tumblr post about relationship words that do not translate to English.

Aubade by jouissant (-) (*)

In which a child is born, and nobody is ever going to sleep ever again.

Sudden Insight by falsepremise (!) (|)

Jim experiences a sudden insight- he is in love with Spock. Fortunately, Spock Prime foresaw this eventuality and has ensured that Jim will have access to the knowledge that he needs to seduce his t'hy'la.

Another Way Jim and Spock Could Meet as Kids by Seasnake (-)

Your heart’s sudden but inevitable betrayal by WhatIfImaMermaid (-)

Every once in while, when he’s feeling the perfect combination of nostalgic and impish, he asks Spock about that night. Most times Spock just smiles that non-smile of his into the curve of Jim's neck, and says nothing.

Or:

They first meet in a bar. In San Francisco. After one of Jim’s epic brawls.

Blue Fields by WerewolvesAreReal (|) (*)

In his thirteenth year James Kirk ends up on Tarsus IV with his aunt and uncle. During the famine he takes refuge with a six year-old named Kevin Riley and a young half-Vulcan.

Missing Pieces by IchabodNasty (Effulgent) (*)

Spock is very young when he loses his leg, he feels like he is incomplete until he meets one James T. Kirk.

The Stars Seem Familiar by lallyloo (-) (*)

After a transporter incident, de-aged Spock Prime is left in the care of Jim Kirk. Nu Spock becomes illogically jealous of Spock Prime. De-aged fluff fic.

Bragging Rights by Ragdoll (Keshka) (!) (*) (|)

AU. Two and a half years into his time at Starfleet Academy, Cadet Jim Kirk meets Lieutenant-Commander Spock, and the sparks begin to fly.

Dynamic by coffee666

Jim is tired of the crew assuming he and Spock don't work well together just because they happen to disagree a lot. To prove them wrong, Jim convinces Spock they should start dating.

Playing up their romantic relationship in front of the crew for spite should be fun. The hard part is that they're both secretly crushing on each other.

Ardor by ThereBeWhalesHere (!)

AU where everything is the same, but when Vulcans find their soulmate they sense it through their pheromones. These pheromones are, well, incredibly insistent. Spock's pretty sure he's immune to them until he meets one James T. Kirk. Really this is just an excuse to write sexually-frustrated!Spock who's pretty much DTF from the get-go.

cast out fear by s0mmerspr0ssen (|) (*)

Kirk saves Vulcan from Nero at high cost to himself. It falls to Spock to pick up the pieces.

A Theoretical Novelty by FallacyFallacy (!) (|)

So, it turned out that Jim's skill at chess was the hottest thing Spock had ever experienced. He only wished he hadn't found that out in the middle of the rec room. Repeatedly. Written for Kink_Bingo for 'Humiliation (In Public)'.

Some Cupid by summerofspock (-) (!)

Tired of their childish fighting, McCoy sets out to set up Jim and Spock. Antics ensue. (i.e. that time i wrote Much Ado About Nothing using Kirk and Spock)

Devil’s Bargain by Rhaegal (RhaegalKS) (!)

Set after TMP. Spock’s impending pon farr makes him wary of agreeing to a second five-year mission, so Kirk agrees to lend a hand (so to speak) should the situation arise. What could possibly go wrong?

Written for the KiScon 2012 zine. Beta-read by jaylee_g with additional editing by arminaa.

That One Time When Jim and Spock Met Their Daughter From the Future by pristineungift

You know your day is going to be weird when some kid you’ve never seen before calls you ‘Papa.’

The level of human emotional and physical sexual satisfaction as determined by one’s partner; an examination of the accuracy of the tiered interpretation as applied to male, homosexual couples by Aerlalaith (-)

Or, in which Kirk and Spock have sex for science.

Searching for Everything by notboldly (!)

Spock never expected his youthful indiscretions to affect his future. Fortunately, Jim is too stubborn to let that happen.

Santa, Baby by rabidchild67

Spock is a department store Santa. Hilarity ensues.

Reasons We Should Date: A Logical Approach by iknewaman (*) (-)

Jim really wants to get across to Spock how well they are together, but he's not sure how to go about it.

Eventually he decides fuck it, the simplest way to get Spock to understand is to walk him through it, and he does so using the wonderful medium of digital presentations.

What We Don't Say (or The Epic Wedding of Jim and Spock) museaway (-)

The first time Jim proposes, they’re naked.

Bang a Gong by waketosleep (|) (!) (*)

The chronicles of the Sad Bastards Club (Enterprise Chapter).

It was just the two of us by sinking_m (-)

Again, everyone knows except for Jim

Measure of Happiness by writeonclara (|)

When Spock chose Starfleet over the Vulcan Science Academy, he had not anticipated cohabiting with the most illogical, irrational, emotional human he ever met.

On the flip side, Jim never asked for a Vulcan chaperone, especially one as snotty as Spock, son of Sarek.

A Starfleet Academy AU in which Spock adapts to human life, Jim learns very, very quickly never to play a prank on a Vulcan, and there are far too many people after Jim Kirk's life.

No-Win Scenario by CateAdams (!)

A split-second decision changes Jim’s life forever, as a desperate bid for survival results in a bond with Spock. As Jim tries to understand their new connection, he must contend with his own inner struggles. Surprising new enemies are revealed and unexpected threats emerge, and Jim must come to terms with the true significance of their bond before it is too late.

Through Chekov's Eyes by littlebirdtold (!)

In which Mr. Spock hates Chekov and terrorizes the crew, Captain Kirk has the best poker face on the ship, Chekov never means to eavesdrop, Uhura gets some curves, Kirk gets cock-blocked, Spock gets off, McCoy pulls rank, Spock pulls Kirk's pigtails, and love sucks.

Friends With Benefits For Idiots by yaoichan12 (|) (!)

Spock loves Jim but won't tell him. Jim loves Spock but won't tell him. They get to talking about friends with benefits and end up agreeing to start that type of relationship. Both think that's all they'll ever get to have with one another, so they keep their mouth shut about their feelings and just have sex.

Chess, and other Aphrodisiacs by obsidienne (!) (*) (|)

When Jim is brought up on charges of academic dishonesty, he decides to find out who his accuser is.

As You Wish by writeonclara (|) (*)

It's probably a phenomenally bad idea to let someone named Lucifer grant you seven wishes, but, well, why the hell not? Maybe then Jim can finally have that perfect command team from the other universe he so desperately wants.

Then again, wishing that Spock would loosen up a bit shouldn't land him in pre-Reform Vulcan.

Maybe he'll get it right next time.

Sure Thing by FagurFiskur (!) (-) (*)

Based on this prompt:

Because of his reputation (which initally came from nowhere) men have always assumed Kirk is a sure thing and have never tried to seduced Kirk... just used the old wham, bam thank you ma'am (or sir in this case)and have rarely bothed about his pleasure. (...)

(...)So suddenly Kirk finds himself being courted by Spock... at first Kirk thinks it is Spock trying to mess with his mind because Spock is still pissed about the 'cheating' incident but is soon disabused of that notion and he finds himself in his first loving, committed relationship in his life.

Echolocation by Darksknight (-)

Kirk and Spock don’t realize that they’ve bonded right away. The rest of the crew is a different story.

Eavesdropping by coffee666 (-) (!) (*)

Jim knows for a fact that Spock and Uhura and talking about him when they start whispering in Vulcan. He has no idea what they're saying, until he takes it upon himself to learn the language.

___

Spock gushes about his crush on Jim, having no idea that Jim can understand him

Subtext by noodleinabarrel (*)

Texting your Vulcan first officer in the middle of the night is never a good idea. Especially when you have an obsessive crush on said Vulcan.

The holidays are approaching and Jim is left entirely Spockless aboard the Enterprise when his First takes shore leave on New Vulcan. After some midnight pining, Jim sends a text he instantly regrets. That is, until Spock responds and willingly continues their textual communications to an inevitable conclusion.

Pyromania by sinestrated (-) (!)

Jim has been burning bridges since childhood. The Enterprise and Spock eventually change that.

Limits of Interpretation, or: So You Want to Date a Vulcan by druxykexy (*)

Kirk learns that, when it comes to the cultural habits of Vulcans, it's not a good idea to trust other people's research. Spock gets to see a different side of his captain (that may or may not exist). There's a reboot of the TOS episode "Shore Leave" somewhere in the middle of all this.

Note: The McCoy/Barrows relationship is fairly background, and is included due to its presence in the episode.

Armchair Psychology bigmamag (-)

McCoy forces Kirk and Spock to write an ongoing list of things they like about each other. Kirk doesn’t know if he’ll be able to make his weekly quota. At least, not at first.

Blind Date by Aelimir (-) (*)

McCoy convinces Jim to go on a blind date. Only, things don't go as planned.

Abrams-style, except for that fact that George lived.

Perception by Aelimir (-)

Everything happened like it did in 2009, except the Narada never attacked Vulcan. After several missions, Pike retires and Jim is appointed in his place. The downside? He's required to have Spock, that bastard who tried to get him kicked out of Starfleet, as his First Officer.

Jim soon learns that perception is everything, and not all is as it seems.

So Wise We Grow by Deastar (|) (*)

"Commander Spock, we have located your son," the Vulcan lady on the screen says, which would be great, except Jim can tell by the look on Spock's face that he's never heard of this kid before in his life. "If it is expedient, the child will be sent to join you on the Enterprise within the week."

Looking to the Stars (Like They've Got All the Answers) by shards_of_divinity (!) (|)

Jim and Spock's relationship is on the edge of something deeper than friendship. When their kidnapper's ship crashes to an uncharted and uninhabited planet, Jim and Spock have to fight to stay alive, and the strength of their uncertain relationship is tested when Spock enters Pon Farr...

we have not touched the stars by prouvairing (-) (*)

Sometimes they’ll also ask him why he hasn’t gone out and chased his soulbond yet.

Jim will point to the sky, and say, “The moon’s always there, babe. Don’t need to go chasin’ after her.”

It is January, year 2063. Humanity has quietly achieved interstellar travel, and Jim Kirk’s soulbond stretches into the stars.

These things tend to get messy by WhatIfImaMermaid (!) (-)

A lot, Jim tells himself. A lot of heartbreak.

Or:

It begins because aliens make them do it, and then it becomes one of those things.

[randomwritingss]

Fall often, Captain?

Requested: Nooopppppeeee, just thought I'd give a full length writing for my earlier imagine.

Warnings: Cute Jim? Sad and heartbroken Jim. And a sad reader.

You had been apart of the Enterprise crew for about three years now. Every turn you made, her Captain, James Tiberius Kirk, was right there. Or so it seemed. You couldn't go anywhere without seeing his face. The first couple months that you were apart of the crew, you chalked it up to coincidences. Then, after that, you got more and more suspicious about it; but, continued to brush it off.

You had spoke to your CMO, Leonard McCoy, about it; but, he only brushed it off as "normal" Jim. You had raised an eyebrow at him, before he shooed you away. And that was the end of that conversation. You never brought it up to him again.

No one seemed to notice Jim's actions but you. You were getting frustrated with him. You wanted to know why he was treating you like he was. Unbeknownst to you, Jim was head over heels, hopelessly in love with you. Leonard knew it, too, he just wouldn't tell you.

It's not that you didn't find the man attractive, you did. You thought he was the most handsome man to walk all of the planets. He was sweet, nice, and funny. The type of guy all the girls fall for. He would always request you in Medbay; Leonard was grateful for it, he finally wasn't running from his physicals.

Things came to a head when you were walking through engineering one day. It was your day off and you were curious. Scotty loved seeing you, made his day a bit brighter seeing a different face. You were minding your own business when Jim comes falling from a platform above you. You gasp and looking the Captain up and down, raising an eyebrow, before speaking, "Is everything okay, Captain?"

He looks at you, face bright red and clears his throat while he dusts himself off, "Yes, Y/N. Just a little fall."

"Do you fall often, Captain?" You ask, giggling and taking a step to him.

The smile he gives you makes butterflies erupt in your stomach, the kind when you know you're in way over your head. You're brought back to the present when he places a hand on your arm, "You can call me Jim, you know."

That's when you notice how close you two are. You take a step back and smile at the man, "I'll remember that, Jim." You reply, obviously flirting back with him. You walk off before he could reply; your plans for learning about engineering would be put on hold for a couple more days. You go to your quarters and smile and dance when you get inside.

The next couple days in Medbay were slow, Leonard made a comment on your mood; but, you just made up an excuse for it. You wouldn't dream telling your CMO about your little encounter with the captain. He would probably think you were crazy, with how you grumbled about him, previously.

The next time you saw the captain was on your lunch a couple days after Leonard made his comment. You and Nyota were sitting talking about the latest gossip around the ship. Nothing too enthralling was going on at the moment. You felt a presence sit beside you on your left. Spock sat beside Nyota, you smiled when she kissed his cheek. Leonard sat on the other side of you. You look to your left and see Jim, smiling warmly at you, "Jim." You say, sarcastically, making sure to hold the "m" on his name.

"Y/N." He replies after a second.

"So, word around ship is you have a crush." Nyota says, pointedly at Jim.

He laughs and replies, "Maybe." He looks from you to her.

You raise an eyebrow at her silently asking her what she's doing. "Take anymore falls lately?" You ask, turning your attention back to Jim.

He chuckles and is about to reply when Leonard says, "You took a fall from where?"

"A platform in engineering." You reply, laughing. Jim pouts at you making you smile.

Nyota pipes up, "Hey, Spock and Leonard, let me show you this..... thing." She takes both men's hands and pulls them with her.

"Wanna take a walk?" You ask, standing up and smoothing your uniform. He nods and smiles at you, making you smile and turn your head.

The two of you were walking through the halls talking about everything. "I beat the Kobayashi Maru." Jim says, proudly.

"I know that story, Captain." You say, nudging him softly.

"I'm sorry." He says, stopping you both. He sighs and runs his fingers through his hair before speaking again, "Y/N, I'm-" he stops as an ensign walks by. You let out a breath you didn't know you were holding. When everyone clears, Jim speaks again, "Come to my quarters, please." You nod and he takes your hand, sending electricity through your body. He starts running through the halls.

"Jim, please slow down."

He chuckles; but, soon you both stop in front of his door. He quickly punches his code in and you both step inside. He motions to his couch, once you both are inside. You sit and look up at him expectantly. "Y/N, I'm completely in love with you." It comes spilling out of his mouth that you almost didn't understand.

When it clicks, "Oh," was all you could manage. Jim looks at you like a lost puppy. The look in his eyes is heartbreaking. You quickly stand up, "Jim, you're a great guy.." you trail off trying to find the right words. You knew how you felt about him, you just couldn't put it into words.

"I think you need to go." His voice is barely over a whisper; but, you hear it and it breaks your heart.

"Jim-"

"Please."

You nod and walk out of his quarters; when the door shuts, you slide down it and whisper, "I love you, too."

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[lenievi]

001 for both mckirk and spones please!

This is gonna be long :D I'm gonna have to use read more

001 | send me a ship and I will tell you: mckirk

when I started shipping it if I did: so when the lockdown in 2020 started, I had nothing to do and just watched stuff. I have this favourite dubber and I was looking at the list of stuff he dubbed, and saw Star Trek AOS on that list. This guy is the voice of 2000s Alan Rickman, Tom Hanks, Tony Stark, he also apparently dubbed Garak in that one Star Trek series, and so seeing the reboot films on the list and his name next to McCoy, I was like, gotta check how he sounds. The fact that Kirk was also dubbed by a guy I generally like was a plus. (funnily enough Captain America/Iron Man and Kirk/McCoy are dubbed by the same guys here, which is funny to me). So I checked youtube and the scene I saw was the scene in Beyond where Kirk and McCoy are alone and are having a drink. And that scene did something to my brain, and I was like this is the dynamic I want, I wanna read fics, so before that I had to watch the films. So I watched AOS, basically through McCoy (Kirk/McCoy) lenses and started to read fics. Three weeks later, I decided to watch TOS because a lot of the fics referenced Kirk's backstory, so I wanted to know about it. The three weeks reading fics and looking through livejournal, kind of made me think that McCoy wasn't really an important character in TOS and that AOS made up the mckirk relationship (such a lie), so when I started watching TOS, I only planned to watch episodes heavy on McCoy. Which like... were most of them at the beginning lol I kinda decided not to trust the fandom after like three episodes or something. I binged the three seasons of TOS in like three weeks. I've had a hard time seeing tos!Kirk with men for a long time (I've had a complicated "relationship" with tos!Kirk for so long), so my interest in tos!mckirk was primarily as a platonic relationship [but it was always my fave relationship, I liked it even more than spones, actually] (but romantic in aos), but I started to insert Kirk into my spones fics, wrote a part from his POV, and then one day I just woke up and decided to write a tos!mckirk fic (it was actually because I started to read aos fics again, getting back into aos!mckirk, but... the tos version has been calling me) and just embraced the romantic (and sexual lol) aspect of their relationship.

my thoughts: I love their friendship so much. It's very important to me. I like that McCoy knows what to say to pull Kirk back on the right path, I like that Kirk can be vulnerable around McCoy. In AOS I like that McCoy is the only one Kirk shares stuff with about his mother and his insecurities (in Beyond it looked like he never even allowed the other crew to acknowledge his birthday... until McCoy finally decided to give him a party, after 5 years on the Enterprise...)

What makes me happy about them: we see both of them the most at ease around each other. They can forget who they are around each other, for a moment, at least. McCoy gives Kirk some of his most brightest smiles; McCoy can make Kirk genuinely laugh. Kirk needs him. badly.

What makes me sad about them: I eat angst for breakfast, so uhm...

things done in fanfic that annoys me: the lack of their friendship even in gen fics T_T (we all know what annoys me in aos fic, we don't need a rehash)

things I look for in fanfic: having more fics would be fun lol You know, just a genuine intimacy they show in the the show. Jim's sense of duty being the cause of angst.

Who I’d be comfortable them ending up with, if not each other:  McCoy with Spock (I do like the idea of mckirk to spones after the movie era, more or less). tos movie era Kirk? Actually, no one.

My happily ever after for them: buying a cabin in the mountains and getting two dogs (one big and one small) post TUC (then we can stop time lol or not...)

who is the big spoon/little spoon: idk haven't thought about their sleeping position. It would probably change based on what kind of story I'd wanna tell

what is their favorite non-sexual activity: .... you know, they're happy when they find the time to have sex...

spones under the cut

001 | send me a ship and I will tell you: spones

when I started shipping it if I did: so above I said that I started to watch TOS because of mckirk, right? Mainly because of The Conscience of the King and Tarsus IV, right? Well... I finished that episode shipping spones LMAO It really was quite quick for me.

my thoughts: the most engaging dynamic in TOS imho

What makes me happy about them: The loyalty, the trust. They were in each other's lives for 100 years. 100 years. That they're more similar than different. That they actually understand each other, but would never admit it. "I don't think I could stand to lose you again." < what is that? so real to have McCoy say that

What makes me sad about them: that they would leave the other one behind and die if it meant to save Kirk (this isn't meant negatively, I'm not really explicit about it or talk about it, but my spones know that Kirk's life is a priority, sometimes even just to show that no, we're not emotionally compromised, we know what our duty is kinda way. I just think it'd be great to explore that in a fic)

things done in fanfic that annoys me: uhm (I'm speaking in general, it is just my opinion based on my taste; I believe that everyone should write what makes them happy, we can't ever please every single person) McCoy using hobgoblin, elf, jackrabbit (the last two are terms that Kirk used to make Spock angry) as a form of affection/endearment, or at all tbh. McCoy being insecure because of Kirk. (give me Spock being insecure because of McCoy-Kirk friendship) Some people feeling guilty about writing spones and therefore still making kirk-spock have the specialest bond *rolls eyes* I just don't get the need to quantify relationships, I guess. Any kind of pet names.

things I look for in fanfic: balanced relationship, mature arguments that don't rely on pettiness, trying to combine the different world views, not needing to express love in a traditional way, but a way that works for the two of them and their two differing cultures.

Who I’d be comfortable them ending up with, if not each other: McCoy with Kirk, obviously. Spock with Chapel or T'Pring (even during the movie era, yes).

My happily ever after for them: 100 years. What more do you want? LOL My personal hc is that when McCoy dies, and Spock goes to Romulus, McCoy's spirit is always there because a part of his soul stayed inside Spock's katra. So Spock is just haunted by McCoy's spirit until he dies on New Vulcan, and then they're put into the katra stone. Together forever.

who is the big spoon/little spoon: I imagine them more as Spock sleeping on his back and McCoy's head on his arm/chest.

what is their favorite non-sexual activity: banter (they especially enjoy if it makes Kirk exasperated)

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[thesoftdumbass]

Another Time, Another Place: Part 2

John Kennex x reader, Leonard McCoy x reader

Star Trek / Almost Human Crossover

Word Count: 2.3 K

Warnings: mild electric shock, transporter malfunction, mugging, slight attempted assault, jealousy

Summary: Thanks to a transporter malfunction, you end up in the past with a familiar face, but what do you do when it turns out he’s a completely different person?

A/N- This is my second installment of @goingknowherewastaken Star Trek Crossover Challenge! I think there will only be one more part, as I am not very good at writing long things. I hope you guys enjoy it! ( And yes, I did get the title from RENT)

Tagging: @musikat18 @annathewitch @feelmyroarrrr @deanxfuckingadorablexwinchester @mad-girl-without-a-box  @chook007 @bookcaseninja

Series Masterlist - Fic Masterlist 

“I told you that solar flares are trouble, kid, now we have a crewman missing and no clue how to get her back.”

Leonard has grown more irritable over the past two days, and Jim can’t do anything about it. Tensions are running a little high trying to get Lieutenant Y/L/N back onto the ship safely. Scotty thinks he may have a general idea of where she was sent, but it’s taking a little longer than everyone would like to get her back.

“I know, we all want Y/N back. Scotty’s working as quickly as he can to fix the transporter pad to send us to where she is and bring us all back home. She’s safe. We’ll get her, Bones.”

A few minutes pass in silence as Leonard looks down at his lunch, thinking of all the ways that Y/N could be hurt or worse, and Jim takes this time to evaluate his friend’s attitude. Bones has never gotten so bent out of shape over a situation like this before, and Jim can’t help but think that there’s more to it.

Scotty sits a tray down at their table in the commissary, startling them back to the present. “Scotty? How’s the search for Y/N going?” Leonard questions immediately.

The engineer looks up from his plate in surprise, not expecting to be questioned over lunch, and his mouth draws into a tight smile. “Well, I can’t say much has changed from the last two hours, doctor. We’ve narrowed her location down, she’s on Earth in the year 2048. I just need to figure out where exactly she is, so that we’re not wandering around attracting attention when we go and get her.”

“How did she end up 215 years in the past?” Kirk’s brows draw together, his head shaking slightly.

“I dinnae know, sir. It’s not the first time something like this has happened, though. Remember the time the transporter brought your evil twin onboard?” Jim’s face scrunches up at the memory.

“Scotty, do you think you can fix the transporter to bring her back,” Leonard asks.

“Yes, it’ll take some time though. I’ve got to reconfigure the targeting scanners to work for time as well as space, as well as a couple other adjustments.” Scotty shrugs nonchalantly and turns back to his food.

“Right, if you need me, I’ll be in my office.” Leonard grumbles standing from his seat, making his way onto the turbolift.

His friends watch him leave, glancing at each other with a brow raised. “You ever think he’s got more than platonic feelings for our Y/N?” Scotty suggests.

“All the time,” Jim nods. “Every time he sees her either in medbay or in the rec room, he’s pretty chipper afterward.”

“Right! Whenever she comes back from being treated, she’s all smiles and actin’ like nothing is wrong in the world. I swear, either she’s just that happy a person or he doesn’t treat her like the rest of his patients. Don’ get me wrong Len’s my friend and a good doctor, but any other engineer that goes to see him talks as though he’s grumpier than a Klingon.”

Kirk chuckles, knowing what it’s like to come face to face with a hypo-wielding McCoy, on multiple occasions. “We’ve gotta get him to cool down and let you work, or else we’ll never get Y/N back. Just do what you need to and I’ll try to keep him distracted.”

“Thank ya, Jim. I’ll try to get it done as soon as possible. I need my second in command back to keep this ship runnin’ smoothly.”

Jim and Scotty finish lunch and then continue on with their day.

You wake up and get dressed for the day, a pair of black jeans and a v-neck top, and make sure your appearance is presentable before making your way out of Kennex’s spare bedroom where you have been staying. You pour two cups of coffee; one for you and one for John, and sit at the kitchen island sipping yours while you wait for him to get out of the shower and get dressed.

You have been in the city for three days, sticking around Dorian and John while trying to figure out how to get back to your own time. Captain Maldonado is allowing you to stay with John so you don’t have to stay in the lock-up at the police station, and you spend a lot of time at Rudy’s lab trying to fix the comm that was beamed here along with you.

By the time John is ready for work, you are finished with your coffee and already thinking of ways that you can try and repair the broken communicator.

“You know we’re late,” you crow as he walks over to his cup, picking it up.

John takes a sip and frowns down at the mug. “This coffee is cold.”

“It was warm when I poured it for you. Now let’s go, Dorian will be annoyed with you.”

You sit in John’s police car, fiddling with the dials and trying to find a channel to listen to music. He gives you an amused look and you settle on an old radio station playing classics like Journey. When you get to the church you step out of the car, making your way inside and down the steps while John follows. Dorian looks up when Kennex reaches the bottom of the stairs, his lips pressed together in disapproval.

“Hey, don’t give me that look. I had to go to a drive-through ‘cause I didn’t have my coffee heater with me.”

You roll your eyes at their good-natured bickering and move past them to the work table containing your defective communications device and any tools you might need to repair it. Rudy is already standing there, examining different pieces of the tech.

“Hey Rudy, any progress?”

“I’m not sure...I’m not very familiar with technology this advanced, but I think I’m making strides,” Rudy looks up at you, almost forgetting to remove his headgear and smiling at you when he almost drops it.

“I don’t blame you, Rudy, I barely know how to fix these. I’m no communications officer,” you chuckle, moving over to his side and taking a look at what he’s been doing. The scientist had disconnected the wires in the device and was in the middle of re-attaching them, all of the connections seemed accurate. “This is good work! I can try to fix it from here, I know you have other things to do.”

“Oh no, please, it’s not every day that I get to help a lady fix her futuristic space phone,” he says.

You giggle before assenting. “Alright, but I don’t want to get in trouble with Dorian or Captain Maldonado if you fall behind.”

At the mention of his name, Dorian comes strolling over, having not left after you got there like you thought. He examines the device in your hands, scanning it for working frequencies. “Y/N, I think I can help you. If you relay this into my mainframe, I could send a transmission that may be picked up by your ship.”

“Are you kidding me?” you squeal happily, “Dorian, that’s awesome! Let’s try it.”

John watches you with a smile, amused by your excitement. It’s bittersweet knowing that you may leave soon. He’s happy for you, you’ve had conversations about your chosen family, and he knows that you miss them. On the other hand, he’s sad to see you go. John has spent three days with you, teasing Dorian together, going out for noodles, and learning about each other’s time period and friends. Kennex brings himself out of his own thoughts to find Dorian looking at him with his eyes narrowed and a crooked smile on his face.

“Why are you looking at me like that?” he grumbles.

“You’re over-thinking things, John. I can tell from here.”

“Will you be quiet,” Kennex hisses at his partner, rolling his eyes annoyed. “I’m not over-thinking anything.”

“Is this about Y/N leaving?” John’s silence only confirms Dorian’s suspicions. “You know that she can’t stay here forever. Even if she wanted to, her prime directive requires that she returns to the 23rd century. I’m sorry, man.” Dorian claps a hand on his shoulder and returns to your side, tweaking the frequencies on your communicator with you guiding him.

You watch John talk with Dorian, his expression one you had seen before, but you couldn’t figure out where, and then realization hit. You had seen that look many times on Leonard’s face, and the thought made you yearn for home. Sure, you love spending time with the people you’ve met here, but you miss your daily life on the Enterprise and want to go home. You think of all of your friends, drinking with Chekov and Sulu, working every day with Scotty, watching holovids with Uhura, discussing books with Jim... but what’s at the forefront of your mind is your banter with Len.

Sure, you and Bones flirt sometimes when you go to medbay, but so far he hasn’t taken it further and you wonder why. From what you’ve heard from your friends he is a Class A grump, and sure you had seen that side of him before, but nothing compared to the stories bouncing around engineering.

You find yourself wondering about the future, and not just your time. What if you don’t make it back home? Will you work here in the lab with Rudy, fixing rudimentary technology and re-learning Earth’s own history? Would Kennex continue to let you stay with him, or would you be left to fend for yourself? And if the Enterprise does find you, will your new friends forget you? You are brought out of your pessimistic thoughts when your name is called.

“Yeah?” you shake your head, trying to clear your thoughts.

“I think we’re close, I figured out how to configure the frequency to fit Dorian’s, he should be able to get a message out” Rudy informs you, and it’s time to call home.

“We’re being hailed, Sir,” Uhura informs Jim who turns around in the chair casually.

“By who?”

“I’m not sure, Captain. It’s not a very strong signal,” her voice hesitant.

“Play it please, Uhura.” Nyota follows her order and relays the transmission over the speakers. The voice that plays has everybody freezing.

“Enterprise, this is Lieutenant Y/N Y/L/N speaking.”

As soon as the sentence is out of your mouth, Jim stands up straight, eyes wide.

“This is Kirk. We’ve been searching for you, Y/N. Are you alright?”

“I’m okay, just glad I haven’t been forgotten, sir. I’m ready to come home” you chuckle, trying to disguise the emotion in your voice at having made contact.

“We’re on our way to get you, Y/N. Hold tight and we can lock on to your exact position. We’ll be there soon, I promise.” Jim presses a button on his chair console, asking Scotty to track your communicator and make sure the ship orbits Earth in the time warp. “How are you able to talk to us right now?” he asks curiously.

“Y/N I apologize but you won’t be able to speak for much longer, my energy levels are draining quickly and I need to re-charge,” Dorian interrupts.

“Um, I’ll explain later. I’m sorry Jim, I have to go.”

“We’ll see you soon, Y/L/N,” Jim says as a sign-off, the call ending. “Bones will be happy that she’s coming home,” he mutters with a small smile, sitting back in his chair.

John watches as you close your comm, a bright smile gracing your features, and stands up as Dorian plugs himself up to charge.

“I’ll call Maldonado and let her know what’s happening,” he excuses himself.

After updating the Captain, John makes his way back into the basement of the church a few minutes later. When he gets there, he finds you waiting for him at the base of the stairs. “Hey,” his eyebrows draw up, wondering what you were doing out of the lab.

“Hey, John. I figure we have a few hours until my friends get here. Would you want to maybe go get some noodles? One last time? Rudy and Dorian have to stay here, but I thought maybe you and me could go,” you ask, wanting to spend a little more time with him before you leave.

“Of course we can,” he replies enthusiastically, the corners of his mouth lifting. You smile yourself, taking off back up the stairs with him.

Getting out of John’s patrol car in the Koln Avenue District where it all began, you can finally see it fully. It seems dingier without the cover of night and bright lights, your eyes being drawn to the same alleyway that you were held up in, the memory replaying in your mind.

You’re brought back to the present by a hand on your arm. You look up and your eyes are drawn to John’s, the familiar hazel looking at you with concern. “Y/N, you okay?”

You shake your head to clear your mind, “Yeah, I’m fine. Sorry. Just thinking…”

Kennex follows your gaze and understands immediately where your thoughts are. “Look at me,” he pleads softly, placing a finger underneath your chin and bringing your face around to his. “You’re okay now. You’re here with me.”

“I know, John. It’s just hard to think of what could have happened if you hadn’t been there.”

Your eyes are wet with unshed tears, and John’s heart breaks a little. “But I was there. I’m just glad I was going for dinner, or me and Dorian would’ve never heard your call for help. You’re so brave, Y/N.”

It’s silent for a few moments as you try to decipher the feelings behind his voice, but after a minute your stomach rumbles loudly, making you both laugh softly. “Come on, darlin’, let’s get you some food,” he chuckles, putting his arm around your shoulders and gently leading you into his favorite restaurant.

[musikat18]

Bubbling Over (Bones x Reader)

Pairing: AOS Dr. Leonard “Bones” McCoy/Reader

For: Anon

Request: can you write a fic where reader gets really anxious really fast and somehow always has bubblewrap to play with to hold panic attacks at bay, until bones starts getting confused about where the heck she keeps getting this bubblewrap from, and ends up telling her that he'd always be willing to hold her during an attack? tysm ❤

Summary: Your fear of blood was something you felt crippled your career change to nursing, so you’ve been eternally grateful to Chapel for introducing you to bubble wrap. However, your quest to keep your anxiety under wraps has led to some confusion with your attractive boss...one that may come back to bite you in the butt.

Warnings: Anxiety, panic attacks, descriptions of bloody injuries, moments of physical distress, language, self-loathing, but also I promise mild fluff at the end

A/N: I don’t normally take extra care to warn about panic attacks, but I wrote these as similar to attacks I have had before and tried to be as accurate as possible. Please, please do not read if you feel as though this may cause you distress-- fanfic is supposed to be an escape, not a trigger. On that note, this fic may feel a bit disjointed, but I think hope it suffices for your request! Please enjoy!

You had absolutely no idea how you would have made it without Christine’s help. It hadn’t been the nursing part you were nervous about when you entered Starfleet...your history of pharmaceutical research had been helpful in that area of training.

No, what made you so nervous was your anxiety over blood.

In hindsight, you should have requested for a transfer the moment you were assigned to the USS Enterprise, but you had qualms in the question itself; you didn’t want to look like a slacker.

So, you accepted your assignment and hoped for the best.

The first time you had an incident on board, it was just during a (what you would later learn was quite common) engineering accident-- one of the newer engineers had managed a nasty slice on his arm with a rusted piece of metal. Christine grew confused when she saw you disappearing into an exam room, trembling like the hands of the ensign before her, when the engineer came in with the oozing red gash instead of looking for gauze and disinfectant.

“Y/N?” she had asked gently, the door opening with a rush of air. You had your knees curled up to your chest, eyes shut tightly, and breaths shallow. In an instant, she was by your side, hands at the ready to calm you if you would allow it.

“Are you feeling okay?” her steady voice prodded ever so carefully.

“I...I don’t...blood….”

You didn’t have to try and make yourself speak anymore-- she understood what you meant.

“Is it okay if I touch you?”

You shook your head no, and Christine chewed on her lip in thought. With an almost audible ding from the idea popping into her head, she quickly moved to one of the storage closets, hoping to find her new plan to bring you back to reality.

When she returned, the pounding in your ears just barely allowed you to detect a faint popping noise. Your eyes opened to see Christine’s face filling your vision, giving you a warm look and holding a roll of bubble wrap.

“Can you hear it?” she asked softly, continuing to pop. Your breathing still far outpaced a resting pace, but your trembling slowed as you latched onto the sound like a lifeline. “Just focus on that...that’s good, you’re doing great. Here, try popping it yourself.”

You forced your hands to steady as you gingerly grasped the roll in your hands, the ringing in your ears slowly being replaced by your decelerating breath and a gentle, steady popping.

“Are you feeling better?”

You nodded wordlessly, still catching your breath.

“Do you want me to ask Doctor McCoy to move you to low-priority assessments only?”

You flushed with mortification at her words, which she mistook for a sudden relapse of panic; if your boss (not to mention, hopeless crush) knew about the condition you perceived as weakness, you were almost certain you’d have to transfer out of sheer embarrassment.

“Okay, okay, I’m sorry...just keep popping.”

Your fingers continued to move across the roll, and you waited a few minutes to be certain your voice had been found again.

“I don’t want him to know about this. My weakness shouldn’t get in the way of his work.”

She looked almost sad that you would see yourself that way, but she didn’t comment on it.

Christine mused, “It isn’t often that we keep bubble wrap in the medbay. Honestly, I think this roll is more than a year’s worth of supply shipments old...but, if you wanted me to add it to our regular order, I’d be happy to keep you some in supply if you feel like it helps you.

“It does,” you gave her a small smile of appreciation. “Thank you, Chris...please...keep this quiet?”

When she felt certain you had come down from your panic attack, she gave your shoulder a gentle squeeze.

“Of course. It’ll stay between us.”

-

“Nurse Y/L/N?” Leonard called with a frown, not even looking up from the ensign at the biobed. “Is there any disinfectant in the storage closet?”

“Um…”

You didn’t respond right away, which he’d discovered was out of the ordinary for you. Prompt, diligent, and knowledgeable about medicines, you were fast reaching the Chapel-tier in his ranking of ‘how much do I appreciate this nurse’.

(He hadn’t said it aloud, of course, but it certainly helped that you were sweet and kind and exceedingly pretty.)

Leonard turned his head to see that you had disappeared from your station but had left one of your lower desk drawers open. Curiously, there were no medicines or files-- only popped rolls of bubble wrap.

When you returned, you had a vial of disinfectant in one hand and a square of bubble wrap in the other, crackling and popping the sheet as you tried not to look at the sanguine coating on his examination gloves.

“Here it is,” you said.

“Thank you,” he tried to meet your eye, but you were adamant to keep your eyes on your desk. “Are you feeling okay?”

“I’m alright,” you insisted quickly. “Thank you….” Without another word, you delicately moved around him, working to keep your breath steady as you gathered the bubble wrap from your open drawer and disappeared back towards the medbay storage closet.

Berating himself for having scared you off, he returned to his patient, not knowing that the opposite was true.

-

“I’m sure we’re almost there, Bones! Don’t be so grumpy,” the captain cheerfully suggested.

It had been three hours since you, Dr. McCoy, and Captain Kirk had started towards the rendez-vous point, so both you and the doctor were feeling less than confident in the captain’s navigational skills.

“That was what you said an hour and a half ago,” Leonard griped. “If I don’t get back on that ship and out of this heat, I’m gonna fix your face five ways from Sunday.”

“How can you stand to work with him all day, Y/L/N?” Kirk nudged you with a false whisper. “You’re braver than I am.”

“Grit, determination, and a secret stash of chocolate, sir,” you played along. McCoy tried not to feel even a bit slighted (you were only joking, he supposed) at your comment, though he suddenly spotted a much bigger issue.

“Y/N!” he barked, pulling you aside as a large leaf firmed up by you and the captain and slashed Jim across the chest, narrowly missing you. Even in the strong arms of your clearly concerned crush, you felt your stomach knot and your lungs tighten at the sight of red liquid starting to gush from the captain’s wound.

“Dammit, Jim!” McCoy gently squeezed your arms and rushed to the captain’s side, the blond sliding himself across the ground to move out of harm’s way. Your fingers quaked as you began rifling through your medpack. She had promised to pack some before you left, but--

A ragged breath left your throat at the sight of a folded-over piece of bubble wrap sitting at the bottom of your medkit, marked by a small note of encouragement in Christine’s neat handwriting. As you began to press into the bubbles, releasing a refreshing snap of air from each one, you started to be able to focus on McCoy’s frantic cries for assistance in finding bandaging to suffice until the dermal regenerator on board could be reached.

His hazel eyes flitted between your face and your bubble wrap, brow wrinkling in concern and confusion. You turned your eyes to your medkit in shame, finding the roll of bandages and wordlessly passing it to him.

He had meant to ask you about it upon your return, but his shoulders sank when he saw you moving far ahead of the doctor and the captain, keeping your eyes on the pristine floor as you went.

-

“Hey, Chris?”

The head nurse poked her head in McCoy’s office, where the man himself was going over medical supply receipts.

“What is it?” she leaned on the open doorway.

“What’s with all the bubble wrap? We don’t need that.”

“We do, actually,” Chris picked her words carefully. “It’s...supplemental material.”

“Supplemental material?” Bones frowned. “How so?”

“It’s not my story to tell,” Christine said firmly.

“So you’re not going to tell me why Nurse Y/L/N has rolls of it all over the medbay?”

You were quietly approaching the door, hoping to retain the courage you’d mustered up to offer the CMO a companion over lunch break, though you couldn’t tell what Christine had to say to the statement that stopped you in your tracks.

He knew. Of course he knew; you couldn’t, after all, go forever without him looking through the supply request logs.

“Dammit, Christine,” you heard Bones sigh. “We can’t just let people have things without explanation. She’s got it in her desk, in her medkit, in space where she needs to have medical supplies. Either let me know what it’s for or I’m going to have to discuss it with her directly.”

Embarrassed, you tried not to let out a squeak of shame, but Christine became alerted to your presence, whirling a glare on the CMO before wordlessly walking off. Leonard had no idea what had set her off until her departure revealed your reserved form, and suddenly, he felt like the biggest ass in the Alpha Quadrant.

Dammit, Leonard, he cursed himself. You fucked it all up again. Stop ruining things for her.

“Do you need something, Nurse Y/L/N?” he did his best to look friendly, approachable. Your nerves did not seem to back down.

“I…” you suddenly felt sheepish, foolish about your anxiety and your damn bubble wrap and your stupid crush on this man. “I was just wondering if I could be moved to Beta shift...um, under Doctor M’Benga.”

His heart broke for you and scolded his assholery, but having no way to plausibly convince you to stay short of falling to his knees and begging you not to leave his shift if only for his selfish need to see your smile, he simply prompted, “Are you sure? Is it one of the nurses? Is someone bothering you?”

“I’m sure,” you nodded. “I just...think it’s better that way.”

Shit, he thought. You knew. You had figured out his damned stupid crush on you and wanted to run as far away as possible, which he didn’t blame you for.

Leonard would have run from his messed-up ass, too.

“Sure...can you wait until next week when we get our new batch of Academy graduates?”

You nodded in response, not giving any indication about your true feelings on the matter.

He felt a little less empty when you faked him a smile and headed to the mess.

-

It could have waited one more week. Just one more week, and you could have survived it.

Instead, there just had to be an incident that McCoy required your assistance for.

You scrubbed in and tugged on your gloves, ready to jump into action, but your own blood froze at the sight of the security ensign with one leg missing and blood gushing from the hole.

“Y/L/N, are you ready?”

McCoy’s voice felt far away, lost from the ringing in your ears. Your surgical mask felt suffocating, but your hands were too weak to tear it off. You tried to make your mind make sense of where you were, but there was so much red in your vision...too much red. The edges of your vision were growing fuzzy, and you grasped the closest thing that felt like it could have been your bubble wrap to desperately ground you.

Instead, you felt the slick fabric of McCoy’s scrubs, your breaths shortening as the doctor looked confused and scared, though your pounding head couldn’t fathom why, anymore.

You didn’t even feel your knees when they gave out and white enveloped your vision.

There was a faint beeping at your side when consciousness began to swirl in your head. For a brief moment, you felt a surge of panic when you remembered what had happened to you prior to your awakening, but you quickly realized your surroundings were very different; instead of an operating room, you were in recovery, lying on a biobed with your very upset boss sitting nearby.

A wave of memory washed over you, and you suddenly felt very sheepish.

“Doctor McCoy,” you said quietly. “Um...I’m sorry. I can ex-”

“No, it’s not your fault, darlin’,” he said quickly. “I...it’s my fault. I should’ve asked you about your hemophobia sooner...though, I had no idea about it until I asked Chris.”

“It was about time I told you, anyway,” you shrugged. “It was dangerous of me to keep it from you.”

“I shouldn’t have said what I said, though, about your bubble wrap...I’m assuming you heard that, based on your shift change request.”

You wanted to badly to deflect his kindness, “...I might have heard part of it.”

“If you ever need anything,” he sobered even more from his serious tone, “just tell me. Please. I don’t want anything like this to happen to you, again...especially when it was my fault for letting it happen in the first place.”

“But I was afraid to tell you,” you said quickly. “I just wanted you to not worry about me.”

“Darlin’, I want worry about you every day, if I can...you deserve the world, and I’ve just fucked it up for you,” he said, catching you by surprise.

“I...I’m sorry?”

His brow furrowed in confusion.

“I thought you knew. Isn’t that the other reason why you wanted to change shifts?”

You decided honesty was the best policy, “I..have no idea what you mean.”

He scrubbed a hand over his face. There was no avoiding it now.

“I...I like you,” he said, trying to explain in a way that didn’t make him sound like a complete idiot. “More than a co-worker. I just assumed you were offended, so you wanted to get away.”

Your infinite wisdom prompted you to blurt out, “Why would I want to go away from you? I like you back!”

Neither of you looked at each other for a long time, before you both looked at each other at the same time.

“Well, I guess we both benefitted from this whole debacle,” he said with an easy smile. “...If you’ll still have me. I’ve been an ass, I understand if you’ve changed your mind.”

You smiled and gently took his hand.

“If I didn’t like you at this point, you’d feel it,” you quipped. Beaming like you’d never seen, he lifted your fingers to his lips.

“I promise bubble wrap at every supply drop and coffee every morning to make it up to you.”

“I think that sounds like a nice arrangement,” you agreed.

There was nothing to hide, now, after all. Perhaps that was the way it was always supposed to be.

Perhaps that would be your first step to making every day better.

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Monsters In The Dark

Hello! Sorry for the lack of writing, for over a month now? I’ve been taking a small break from it for my sanity(which there really isn’t any left anyway) But, here is a small little fic that popped into my head last night and wouldn’t leave(mainly because of @imoutofmyvulcanmind ‘s relentless badgering) Hope you enjoy :)

Leonard and Joanna Mccoy(NOT a pairing), guest appearance by Jim Kirk

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2,038 word(s): of daddy Len

Warnings: Loss of a parent

Leonard sat on the couch with his feet propped up on the ottoman, staring blankly at the flickering TV. His hand was gently running across a small head, through thin wisps of dark brown hair that flowed down his thigh and leg. Leonard glanced down and smiled slightly at the small sleeping figure.

Two weeks. Two weeks since Jocelyn had passed away suddenly and two weeks it's been him getting used to having Jo in his life constantly. It had been a hard thing for them both to get used to at first, but they were getting there.

Leonard had taken the loss mostly in stride. It had been years since him and Jocelyn had even some sort of semblance of a relationship, but his heart broke for Jo. Yet she seemed to be handling and understanding it as well as a six year old could.

With his hospital schedule and Jim being here and helping him through this, this was the first night he and Jo were by themselves. Jim had been called away to work earlier in the evening. They had settled on pizza for dinner, a quiet game of Candy Land and Jo's favorite movie.

Leonard sighed softly and yawned as he turned off the tv. He went over in his head how best to get them off the couch without waking Jo. He slipped his arms slowly and carefully under Jo’s tiny frame and lifted her gently. He brought her to his chest as he padded quietly down the hall.

Leonard laid Jo down on her bed softly and he pulled the covers up and tucked her in. He leaned over to her nightstand and flicked on a small lava lamp Jo liked to use as a night light, letting the faint glow dance across the walls.

Leonard walked back over and gave Jo a small kiss on her forehead, then slowly stood up and turned to leave. Leonard got to the doorway and was getting ready to close the door behind him when a tiny voice stopped him.

“Daddy?” Jo’s tiny, sleep riddled voice drifted through her room. Leonard opened Jo’s door wide and stepped back into her room.

“What is it pumpkin?” Leonard asked as he walked back over and sat down on the edge of her bed, looking to Jo with concern.

“Did you check under my bed and in my closet for monsters? Uncle Jim usually does, but he isn't here.” Jo asked quietly as she glanced over to her closet nervously.

“Sweetheart, there's no such thing as monsters.” Leonard stated as he placed his hand on Jo's tiny cheek, moving her face away from the closet to look him in the eyes.

“Can… can you please just check?” Jo asked again, giving Leonard the saddest eyes she could manage, and giving her lip a tiny tremble.

“You’ve been hanging around Jim too much, kiddo. Put away the eyes and I’ll check for you and show you there's nothing to be afraid of.” Leonard said as he got up off Jo’s bed and walked over and flicked on the room light, making them both squint at the sudden brightness.

Leonard walked back to Jo’s bed and lowered himself to the floor and took a look underneath.

“No monsters, and for good reason.” Leonard said with a small frown in his voice. “Come see for yourself Jo.” Leonard added in.

“Nooo, daddy..” Jo protested with a small whine as she pulled the blankets a little higher.

“It's perfectly safe Jo, come see.” Leonard encouraged as he tickled Jo's foot softly, making her giggle. Jo plucked up the courage and slid off the bed and plopped down next to Leonard.

“Look at this mess Jo, there's no way a monster could even fit under here if it wanted to with all these boxes.” Leonard exclaimed and he stared at all the boxes stuffed underneath the bed that they still had to go through.

“I guess. But… but what about the closet?” Jo whispered as she scrambled up in bed, her courage all used up.

“I'm telling you Jo, there's nothing in here that will hurt you.” Leonard said as he got up from the floor and walked over to the closet.

Leonard turned the handle slowly and opened the door with a creak. A large object fell out of the closet and onto his feet. Leonard jumped about ten feet in the air, clutching his chest as he tried to calm his heart.

“Daddy, what is it?” Jo asked alarmed as she watched Leonard jump, pulling the blankets up around herself.

“Nothing to be afraid of Jo, it's just Teddy.” Leonard replied as he shoved Teddy back into the closet. “Yet again Jo, there's absolutely no way that a monster can fit in here, you’re perfectly safe.” Leonard added while closing the closet door. “I know a little girl whose room needs a good cleaning this weekend.” Leonard added in jest.

“Aww daddy, no fair!” Jo gave a small cry and a pout as she plopped down fully on her bed.

“I know Jo, I’m sorry, I’m just a big old meanie, huh?” Leonard asked as he stalked over to Jo’s bed, wiggling his fingers.

“Daddy, no!” Jo protested as she tried to climb out of bed and away from Leonard, but she wasn’t quite fast enough. Leonard snatched Jo up in his arms and began to tickle her fiercely.

“Little girls who don’t listen to their fathers get tickles Jo, thems the rules.” Leonard said with a laugh, in between Jo’s own shrieks of laughter.

“Okay daddy, okay!” Jo wheezed out in between giggles as Leonard finally relented his tickle assault.

“That’s more like it.” Leonard said as he gave Jo a sloppy, over dramatic kiss on her cheek and laid her back in bed. “Now get some sleep Jo. In the morning we’ll make pancakes.” Leonard added in with a wink

“Yay! Thank you daddy. I love you.” Jo said sleepily as she laid her head back on the pillows and pulled the blankets up.

“I love you too baby girl.” Leonard said softly, with a small smile on his face, as he walked over and gave Jo another gentle kiss on the top if her head.

Leonard walked back to the door and turned the lights off as he carefully pulled Jo's door halfway shut. He sighed softly to himself as he walked down the hall and got ready for bed himself, he was exhausted.

Leonard pulled off his hospital scrubs that Jo had refused to let him change out of, having pounced on him as soon as he stepped into the house, eager to show him a picture she drew earlier of Leonard, Jim, and her.

Leonard groaned quietly as he collapsed into bed, the mattress sinking slightly from the weight. Leonard grabbed a pillow and tucked it under his head, let out a sigh, and that's the last thing he remembered. Until he heard a small scream coming from down the hallway.

“Daddy!” The small voice cried, drifting through his open door. Leonard's eyes shot open and immediately went into doctor mode before his brain was even fully awake to comprehend what was going on. He jumped out of bed and ran down the hallway, going through different possibilities in his head.

Leonard threw Jo’s door open and turned on the light. Leonard's heart sank as his eyes fell on Jo and her tear stained pillow.

“Daddy.” Jo whimpered out as she choked back a sob, holding out her small arms towards Leonard. Leonard let out a relieved sigh that she was in one piece, as he hurried toward Jo and took her into his arms.

“There, there baby girl, it's okay, daddy's here. Are you hurt?” Leonard asked as he pulled back slightly to see Jo’s small head shake as she continued to sob. Leonard took her into his arms and let her cry. When she calmed down some, Leonard pulled back again.

“What’s wrong sweetheart?” Leonard asked quietly as he rocked Jo in his arms gently, rubbing her back.

“I… I was dreaming, and mommy was there but she was asleep in the hospital, and I couldn't wake her up, no matter how much I asked her to, just like last time. Why wouldn't she wake up daddy?” Jo choked out as tears continued to stream down her small face.

“I don't know baby girl, but everything is going to be okay. I've got you and I'm not going anywhere, I promise.” Leonard said quietly, trying to reign in his own emotions for Jo’s sake, his heart breaking all over again that his precious Jo is having to go through this aftermath.

“Promise?” Jo asked as she gazed up at Leonard's face, tears glistening in her eyes. Leonard could see Jo pleading with her eyes. The sadness behind them of losing a parent, was all too familiar with Leonard as his heart constricted.

“I promise, Jo. I'm right here.” Leonard said, hugging Jo tight. He knew he couldn't truly promise Jo that, but he couldn't bear to give her any other answer.

Jo gave a small nod and buried herself into Leonard's chest, crying herself sleepy as Leonard continued to rub her back and sing her the lullaby that he used to sing to her as a baby to get her to sleep.

“I promised I would never leave you. Then you should always know. Wherever you may go, no matter where you are. I never will be far away.” Leonard sang softly in Jo’s ear as her crying quieted and her breathing shallowed.

Leonard pulled himself from Jo slightly, trying to lay her back down, but Jo wasn't completely asleep just yet.

“No, daddy. Don't leave me.” Jo cried as she clung tighter to Leonard, making his heart ache once more.

“Alright sweetheart, I'm right here. What do you say we go lay down in my bed? Daddy has a hard time fitting in your bed.” Leonard said softly, remembering all the nights he'd come lay in here with Jo, his feet and legs dangling off the edge of the small bed. He winced slightly, remembering the back ache he had after the first night.

Jo gave a tiny nod as she reached her arms around Leonard's neck. Leonard wrapped his arms around Jo and lifted her out of bed gently. Jo laid her head on Leonard’s shoulder, sniffling softly in his ear. Leonard held her close and kissed her cheek softly as he walked around her room, turning the lights off and padded back down the hallway to his room.

Leonard sat Jo down on his bed and she scrambled under the blankets and got herself comfy in the middle. Leonard laid down and got settled, and immediately Jo curled into him. Leonard wrapped himself around Jo and they both quickly found themselves asleep once more.

Leonard's eyes cracked open as the sun shone into the bedroom just right, shining on his face. He let out a small grumble before his eyes fell on the two sleeping figures in front of him.

Jim had come home sometime after him and Jo had fallen asleep. Jo had managed to crawl over to Jim and was now laying across his chest, with Jim's arms wrapped around Jo protectively, even in his sleep. Leonard couldn't help the smile that crept along his face as he scooted closer to the two of them.

Jim gave a small sigh and a mumble as he moved one of his arms off of Jo's back and wrapped it around Leonard, pulling him close. Leonard sighed contentedly as he laid his head on Jim's shoulder and wrapped his own arm around little Jo.

He knew they had a long way to go, especially poor Jo, but he knew that they'd get there eventually, and everything would get better. It was going to take some time, and that was okay with him. He'd be there for Jo, no matter what it took, Jim too.

In the end, everything was going to be just fine, he'd make sure of it. Those were his final thoughts, he promised himself, as sleep overcame him once more.

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Update. Explanation. Story.

So here’s the update that you can skip if you just want to read the story. Jen got into a really really dark place and withdrew from tumblr and from life and from everything. And no one even seemed to notice and that just made things even worse and some... stuff happened. Stuff that isn’t good. And I took solace in writing. Because I had to, because I had nothing else. And I wrote more words than I think I’ve written in my life. It kinda all came out in this huge long story that I never figured I could write so much about Spock and me. And it took all my thoughts and feelings and put them on paper. This is just a tiny snippet of it, the fic is kinda a collection of these short stories as Spock kinda guided me through my thoughts and helped me make sense of them and keep me from making bad choices. 

This one that isn’t as triggery as most of the fic, which gets really dark at points. I wanted to post the whole thing but I didn’t feel anyone wants to read it because its LONG and it definitely READS as personal and its a lot of my thoughts which I know people but if anyone is interested I really still want to post it? If anyone would even want? Because I still am proud of it, but I know it deals with a lot of things. And I mean a lot. So... idk

But explanation: This chapter (?) was my favorite and one of the least painful ones. And one that I love. And one with a good ending. And one I’m proud of. So I changed up this.  I put it in second person and figured maybe this one was worth something to someone.

Warning: Even as the most mild part in this, this is still triggery. It’s got mentions of suicidal thoughts and guns and stuff. I don’t know how to tag it.

It’s about 2000 words, I didn’t check since it was part of a bigger thing. And it’s definitely not checked. I mostly just ran over it with a vague sweep when I changed it to you’s and your’s.

It also reads very.... TOS Kirk when its out of context like this. They’re meant to be AOS? But if you want to read it as TOS that’s fine.

The stolen phaser had put the ship on red alert while the crew searched to find it. Floors had been locked down, every nonessential crewman confined to quarters. Which left you terrified, hiding in one of the back supply closets, with the phaser tucked against your chest as you climbed one of the cabinets in the back to settle on top of it where there was more room. You curled your knees to your chest and took several unsteady breaths, glancing down at the gun you’d stolen. This wasn’t like you, but it wouldn’t matter in a few moments.

The door handled juttered and the gun immediately went from facing my own chest to aimed at the doorway. The lock held and you heard the voices on the other side.

“Come on Jim, why am I coming along with you to locate an intruder?”

You heard the sound of a sigh as he pressed the buttons into the panel to unlock the door. “Because Bones, there’s no ships in the vicinity. No planets. This was someone already on board. And no one in their right mind on my ship would steal a weapon for any purpose. So it’s gotta be someone in their wrong mind. And /that’s/ what you’re here for.”

You heard a groan as the door opened and you immediately saw the small team that must have been searching the deserted hallways. The captain was there with the CMO on his heels and a security with a phaser trained into the room. Spock trailed behind them, barely visible from the doorway.

“Y/n…” Kirk said, taking the entire situation in hand. You clearly were holding the stolen weapon, hidden in a room. He sounded like he didn’t want to believe the situation in front of him. He grabbed his communicator. “Bridge, put the ship on yellow alert.” The alarms went quiet and you saw his jaw set as his voice took on what you could only call his captain’s voice.

“Y/l/n, what are you doing in here with the stolen weapon?”

You shook your head and tried to pull the phaser closer to you, but the security saw the movement and jumped. Startled, you pulled the trigger without thinking and he collapsed to the ground in the room. Your eyes went wide as saucers and you shook your head repeatedly, trying to understand what you’d just done.

“Dammit! Let me see him” McCoy pushed Jim aside into the hall but was caught by Jim’s arm before he entered. “She’s still armed, Bones.”

McCoy held up his hands, tricorder in one. “Y/n, I need to look at him, can I step in.”

You nodded even though the phaser was still aimed in your shaking hands. McCoy moved slowy and knelt next to the guard, running a quick scan. “He was only hit with a stun but at this proximity, I better check him.” He glanced to Jim who nodded and McCoy carefully picked up the passed out guard and slipped out, heading to medbay.

Your eyes went to Spock now that he wasn’t blocked and you saw a mixture of disbelief and betrayal in them. He didn’t understand, you weren’t trying to hurt anyone. He didn’t understand that you just meant to make things better, this wasn’t supposed to involve anyone else. He must have thought you were a monster.

“I didn’t mean to shoot him,” you whispered loud enough Jim could hear.

“Y/n, what are you doing with that phaser.” He stepped into the doorway with his hands in front of him, making sure he wasn’t a threat.

“I didn’t mean to shoot him,” you repeated. There were tears clouding the edge of your vision.

“And I believe you, y/n. But I need you to lower your weapon and talk to us.”

You realized the phaser was still pointed at the doorways and you lowered it, watching some of the tension of the captain disappear now that you were listening.

“Hand over the gun, y/n.” Your eyes were locked on Spock though, who was still looking like he didn’t want to believe the mess in front of him.

You couldn’t hand it over. You knew if you did, you’d be charged with the assault of an officer and the theft of a weapon. They’d throw you in the brig and then you’d never be able to continue with this. You shook your head and tightened your grip.

“I don’t want to have to order you to hand it over. This can be resolved peacefully, y/n.”

You shook your head harder and felt the tears finally break through, and fly from your eyes. “I can’t,” you said through a cracked voice. “I messed up. I can’t go back now, I can’t…”

“Yes you can,” he insisted firmly. Your eyes hadn’t left Spock’s and now he glanced back at the first officer behind him. “Spock, we need her to come down peacefully. I know she’ll listen to you.”

You saw him step into the doorway, face completely stoic but his eyes betrayed his uncertainty. You knew he’d made a promise once to never order you into a situation that made you uncomfortable, and now you could see him trying to figure out how to get your down without breaking that vow.

“Ashayam,” he said slowly, “why did you take it?”

“I needed to go.”

“Go-?” Jim started but Spock shook his head to indicate this wasn’t the time.

“I need to go Spock. I can’t do anything here. I’m useless, and no one cares.”

“You are mistaken if you believe-”

“Am I?” you countered and slumped slightly. “Last week I didn’t show up for three shifts in a row. You know who noticed? No one. I wasn’t even reprimanded. I could have been dead and no one would have even realized. No one cares about me, Spock. No one notices when I’m gone. No one sees when I suffer. I’m better off gone.”

Jim looked like he was going to say something but Spock held up a hand and let you continue your rant. You needed to get this out.

“It wasn’t supposed to go like this. I was gonna take the weapon and then I’d be gone before they could notice and the phaser would take care of the body. They’d find the missing item in a back closet and no one would think twice about it. No one was going to get hurt, Spock. But now I have to do it. I can’t even try to live a life I’ve just screwed up beyond repair. If this goes on my record I’d be pulled from the ship and the only thing that was anchoring me this long. Don’t you understand? I have to do this Spock.”

“Y/n,” Jim said carefully. “If this is about the charges, I can make you a deal. Ericson was only hit on stun, and from your own story, you didn’t steal the weapon for malicious purposes. You hand over the phaser and come down, and I’ll drop both charges.”

It sounded almost too perfect but you glanced to Spock and he knew your apology from your eyes without it being said. You shook your head slowly. You came here to disappear, you didn’t want to stay on the ship like this. “I can’t. No one cares. No one noticed I was gone before. No one will even know but you two.”

You’d learned to read Spock well and his eyes seemed to almost chuckle. It was a sad chuckle but you saw it. “K’diwa. Jim noticed the minute you were late to shift. I asked him not to take any action. I wished to check on you, but your doors were locked and it would have been an invasion to override your quarters. After several crewman expressed worry that you had not showed up to the dining hall, I asked Doctor McCoy to check that you were eating. Once I was assured that you were, I knew you would come to me if you needed. I apologize that I did not make my presence more available to you.”

You tried to process the words, but you couldn’t seem to decide it he was truthful or exaggerating the story to make you come down.

“If dropping the charges won’t make you give me the phaser, what will?” Kirk tried.

“Nothing,” you said shifting your gaze to the tool. You knew you could just end this now but you felt something was stopping you. Perhaps the way Spock was watching you, the disgust now replaced with fear and worry.

“There must be something,” he pressed. “We can get you help once you come down. What is it you want?”

“A kiss,” you shot snarkily before you could think. You needed to think. This was all too much and he was interrupting your thoughts.

Jim chuckled. “You know, I’m flattered. If you really insist on one…”

“Not…. Not from you,” you tried to amend, realizing what you’d said.

“From Spock?” he asked with a chuckle, and you glanced down. You hadn’t kissed Spock yet. Your relationship was new and you knew he enjoyed your company but now after everything you doubted he’d want to kiss you. He probably would want to terminate the relationship of someone so unstable.

“I’ll accept.” He broke your thoughts. When you blinked hard and looked up he nodded softly. “Come down and hand me the phaser and I will kiss you.”

“I’ll even do you one better,” Jim offered. “After you get your kiss, head down to medical with me. If we get you set up with Doctor McCoy, I’ll drop those charges anyways. This doesn’t have to be the end of a good officer. This needs to be the beginning of a healing.”

Glancing between the two of them, you finally slid down and Jim stepped aside as you walked over to Spock. He held out his hand and you hesitantly set it in it, knowing that was your chance. He locked it on his belt out of reach and instantly pulled you into familiar arms. You instinctively pressed your head into his chest. A finger guided your head up to look at him and your eyes locked only a moment before you were caught in the kiss.

His lips were warmer than you’d expected despite his naturally cool temperature. They were soft and gentle as he guided you in the motions you were almost to nervous to think about. You felt yourself dissolve against him until he finally parted and rested his forehead to yours.”

“I don’t ever want you to feel this way again. We will get you help, y/n. I won’t lose you.”

You nodded silently against him and when you looked back up, Jim was offering his hand. “I won’t force you to come with me. But I have a feeling you want to.”

You took his hand carefully, and glanced back at Spock. “Can he come with us?”

Jim nodded. “Of course he can.”

You felt Spock’s arm wrap around your back. You leaned into him as Jim took the lead and guided to you medbay. For the moment you didn’t feel so ignored.

[yourthyla]

[STAR TREK] FANFICTION REC LIST

Phew! I’ve been reading a lot of fics so I’ve been doing this rec-list of my favourites for you. trust me it’s from MANY sources and depths of the internet. I’m gonna try to keep it clearly organized and updated. 

Also, these fics are really various, but the pairings are only combinatinos of Spock, Kirk and McCoy. I warn you I have a huge thing for AUs.

I used AO3 ratings and sometimes included author’s description.

This is also a thanks to my nearly 400 followers, I LOVE YOU all! I hope this comes any useful to you!

TOS

Spock/Kirk

E// Hours of Freedom is a both-sided amnesia fic but the best I’ve read. Kirk and Spock in forest, surviving, fluffing around and eventually smutting.

E// Got You is a Mirror-verse PWP where Spock and Kirk do it right on the bridge. Yes, you heard me, in front of everyone. One of the hottest PWPs ever.

E// The Friend Awesome in-character fic taking place on Vulcan, exploring Kirk’s jealousy and sexuality

E// The power of suggestion Under an unfortunate influence of a drug, Kirk starts temporarily believing he and Spock have been lovers. One of the best get/together fics and solutions of long secret crush I’ve read!

M// Communication A  wonderful epistolary fic (I love these) Being at war, Spock is separated from his crew before the end of 5YM and they miss each other immensely. They quite maturely handle their affections for each other and start writing between the lines.

T// A means to an end A morning-after fic with an interesting twist! Kirk and Spock shyly & slyly taking their friendship to ‘the next level’ :D

E// Turbo Tale This story is from Turbo lift’s POINT OF VIEW. No, trust me. This is too wonderful and I’ve never read a blowjob scene used so strangely appropriately and affectionately like here. .

G// The Game Very entertaining and originally handled challenge by the author.  The crew plays a game in a bar. I love this too much.

E// The Berries One of the best ‘we’re in forest, you’re drunk and we’re too surprised we’ve both loved and craved each other all along so let’s get it finally over with’ I’ve EVER read.

E// Personal Effects Spock received a personal android, he likes him a lot. Kirk is furiously jealous. 

M// Shall We? This one is different and so weird? It has plot but a humorous one and somehow this kept me entertained and I appreciate it in a strange way. Such an original view of K/S development!

E// Absolution The author truly spoiled me with this fic. It is a fuel to my hurt/comfort love, there is nothing like nasty abduction and then (most of the fic) soothing the character (Kirk) delicately with love while every single sentence of it is PERFECTLY in character that it awes me. The thing is very real. (However I only enjoyed the first half as much, I’m not sure if I ever finished the second.)

G// First comes love AU. Kirk is a single parent and Spock is a child doctor. Why you should read this? 1) PUREST THING EVER. 2) REALISTIC PURE CHILD’S (David) POV. 3) His daddy is falling in love with his doctor?!! 4)OhgodpleasejustREADit... I just wish this was longer *cries*

E// At a glance Teenage!AU. Ok I just realized I read this as AOS? It totally worked? Anyway, I only read 2 chapters because it felt satisfying enough the other day but I was IN LOVE with the first kissing scene, one of the most powerful I’ve EVER read. Love at first sight. Epic. I’m gonna finish it one day and update my opinion. 

E// Surrender PWP. Warning for dub-con and dom/sub elements. Normally I’m not so into this and if yes I don’t bother rec-ing it BUT I am doing so for the massage scene because hot damn, that was the hottest stuff ever. Simply well-written Spock seducing Kirk. (wth was this published in year 1997?!?)

E// Master and Commander A satisfying first-time PWP, awkward shower sharing, pleasant switching of the roles.

E// Getting What You Wished For Having any wish on a planet that creates anything for you, Spock (very logically) summons copy of Captain Kirk to deal with his oh so suppressed sexual and romantic feelings toward him. It doesn’t work but it might give him a push to finally confess.

E// Ardor Amazing PWP which just didn’t feel too cliché for my taste. Features gym red pants and very nice foreplay and resolved sexual tension wohoo.

G// in love with my captain This is just a drabble to warm your heart. It’s just the last sentence...is everything good in the world.

T// An Impossible Smile “ Captain Kirk has a seductive smile that no man or woman can stand up to. He uses this against Spock.” THIS IS SO GOOD because nobody ever portrays Spock as ‘one of Kirk’s conquests’ (sorry for that) but this one does and IT HURTS SO BAD but it’s short enough so you won’t die but..wow..

E//  Rose Hips and Vulcan Lips PWP with FLUFF, married Spirk, Spock is cold, there’s Kirk’s mom in the house while the two dorks go warm up in the shower and do nasty things, anyway: "Spock...Only you could stand there, naked, in the shower, with soapy water running down your chest and that big, thick hard-on poking out at me, talking about plants with vitamin C. And I love you for it." :>> i want marriage like that.

Spock/McCoy

T// Questions, Questions Brilliantly in-character fic about Spock being forced to answer very personal questions to McCoy as a part of the physical. M// The Sample is a sequel to Questions, Questions, where Spock must deliver semen sample for McCoy. He is failing, and asks for help. I will read these for the rest of my life.

E// Aegri Somnia Spock and McCoy are stranded on a planet and fight for their life. PERFECT food for hurt/comfort lovers. Contains horror atmosphere, very naturalistic description, love confessions & cuddles. What’s not to love.

E// I have enough Huge hurt/comfort. I have a thing for depressed!Bones and this one suffers all included (alcohol, secret love for Spock, self-harm..) But don’t worry, he gets the comfort he deserves.

T// Nothing By Halves This is mostly for the nice idea. All I can tell you is copy the description and my favourite quote summing it up: “McCoy wishes he could talk to Spock's human half. After a transporter malfunction, he can.” And: “It wasn't your human half I needed to get through to, or the Vulcan. It was just you.” I’m crying.

E// What happens in Vegas Can be AOS too. Crack-ish. This was lot of fun. Well, the first part looked more promising. Somehow I thought it would be better if they slept together sooner, when it was still kind of taboo, you know what I mean? It turned too sugary for me which seems to by my frequent problem but still adorable and fun fic!

Spock/Kirk/McCoy

E// Always watching You - “An asexual but not aromantic Spock contemplates his relationship with Jim and Leonard.” Exceptional fic.

E// Unbearable “As McCoy struggles with holding Spock’s katra, he finds himself stuck in the middle of a relationship between his best friend and a dead man.” How bittersweet.

E// Get the party started (if it works for all parties involved) PWP-ish. “Jim caught Bones calling Jim's and Spock's name in his 'self-loving' time. Jim's solution? Phone Spock. While Bones's still at it so Spock could hear it first-hand, of course.” Wohoooo! Voyeurism is my weakness trope.

E// Beautiful Liar “McCoy reveals hidden feelings for Spock after accidental contact with his mind. He doesn't know Kirk and Spock are lovers, so Jim lies to him.” This is actually kinda sad? But not exactly angsty. 

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AOS

Spock/Kirk

M// The Exchange Student Teenage Spirk AU. Jim is abused by his step-father, Spock, the exchange student comes to his rescue. Hurt/comfort, so fluffy, SO beautiful!

E// Gift An AU, takes place on xenophoibic Vulcan; Spock finds a young human and decides to keep him. I love how they grow up together and develop an unhealthy addiction to each other. However it gets a bit angsty at the end and I’m unsure how the ending makes me feel. 

E// Papers in the Roadside AU. Jim owns a bar and Spock is a mysterious journalist who makes him lose his mind. This story has flawless atmosphere and slow development. It is essential.

E// Educated Differences A standard 21. century university AU where Jim and Spock are put as roommates and I don’t think I even need to comment this.

T// Mayday, My Darling Very realistic fic about Spock getting drug-addicted. I don’t usually enjoy established relationship but THIS is perfection! Tags speak for it all. 

T// Subtext Jim has a crush on Spock, he misses him and regrettably end up trying to pick him through texting. Very enjoyable ‘texting’ fic (mostly.) Also funny and fluffy!

E// Tray Tables and Seatbelt Signs AU. You ever heard of Mile High Club? No? You will now. Spock is hot flight attendant and Jim a very annoying and needy passenger. Bonus: best description of Bones&Jim friendship ever.

E// In time AU. Kirk’s mother leaves to space for years and emplys Spock as her son’s ‘caretaker.’ Now, I know how difficult it is to characterise a child/teenager well but this author took my breath away. Jim's development feels 110% real and the relationship of him and Spock over THE YEARS is developing perfectly, it's balanced, flowing ideally fast. Lot of mutual pinning, slow-build, hurty comforty this is SO GOOOOOD and pure.

T// Stacks AU. Librarian!Jim and cadet!Spock. What I liked about this one is that Kirk was so pure, contrary to other AOS fics. As a librarian, interested in a regular Vulcan guest, he has this really nice character vibe. And he doesn't think it's creepy when Spock makes awkward sexual propositions and just goes with it because he actually respects him for once. 

E// The third wheel Academy AU. Awh yes, another fandiction that I simply devoured at once. Spock is a professor who calmly dates around with cadet Uhura but Jim is an annoying bastard who decides to steal Uhura from him, however he ends up falling in love with Spock and stealing him instead. Spock is succumbing hopelessly and adorably, god. 

M// The Fountain AU. “Somehow, Jim thought the brothel would be different—big and beautiful. Not like this, with just one broken Vulcan.” What can I say? Jim rescues Spock from where he certainly doesn’t belong. Hurt/comfort is my oxygen. Bones making important and appreciated appearance as well!

M// A Kingdom to Come Fairy-tale AU.  “Jim has been ordered by his mother, Queen Winona of Terra, to marry crown princess T'Pring of Vulcan. He intends to do no such thing.” Who doesn’t need a kingdom-set fic once in their life? I tell you, this is better than you think, do give it a try. I could not stop until I finished. Pure gold.

T// Mother, why Kirk is a waiter and Spock was arranged an outrageous blind date with Gary Mitchell in the restaurant. Jim manages to be the only pleasant thing on the date. Pity for the happy but open ending.

E// Muddy Waters Uni AU. I’m not sure about this one. I know I really loved the beginning, or half of it and then again I was deeply disappointed and dropped it. But in this fic Spock is a human but has ‘Vulcan syndrome’ or something so he looks like a vulcan so that was pretty cool I think.

E// Creep College AU. I wasn’t sure if I wanted to read this at first but I am glad I did!! It was very good! The characters were given their names because their parents were Star Trek fans and stuff?? So they are in the Star Trek fandom?  Kirk is in love with a ff writer while dealing with this creepy classmate at school. Well, as the author says:  “ One story, two storylines, one love.”

Spock/Kirk/McCoy

E// Called You Friend This is not a fanfiction, this is PURE ART. This is so imaginative, various, makes you feel things. You have to read bit between the lines to follow the plot but this is just beautiful.

McKirk

E// Life is Just a Bowl Full of Peaches ??? AU. I don’t even know why I saved this one but I knew I could regret it?? Crack-ish, maybe? McCoy is a single parent countryman and he is online dating Jim, thinking he's a GIRL. I don't know. Just. It’s fun but it’s also like nice? I don’t know if I finished but I definitelly enjoyed the beginning.

T// Subtlety Cute Cofee shop AU! Too bad it isn’t longer.