#i really really want to do an adventure from the meta-knights pov fic but every time i pick up my draft again i drop it for like six months

[purble-gaymer]

mmm just wanted to say that i really love your writing and i'm really excited to see what you make in the future! your gsa stuff is so pleasant and angsty and i've really been enjoying wwtmk <3 that's not even getting into how much i liked the cannibalism fic.... now you'll be a part of me forever !! i'm such a sucker for that kind of thing.

actually, i was kind of wondering what you were plotting for the future so i could look forward to it! i've loved following your work so farrrr

waa hello thank you!! yknow i don't hear much about the beast in the walls but i really love that one so good to know! i can share some of my prospective calendar (though everything i say is subject to change)

once wwtmk is done, i probably won't be posting much for a bit. i might do something sword/blade/mk related for valentine's day if i can think of an idea before then. after that though, i have another little project focused on the knights at the time they first met. it's a continuation of a fateful encounter. at the moment it's sitting at about 23k, and i think i'm a little past halfway through it. ideally i'll start publishing it sometime in late february or march, but winter is usually the busiest and most stressful term so it'll be later rather than sooner. plus i'd like to have a majority of it written out first. i don't exactly have a surplus of time or energy this time of year so it'll be a while still.

most ship content will probably end up on my other pseud for the foreseeable future (excluding the potential valentine's thing) to avoid like...cluttering things, i guess? so for that there's always more knights, maybe metamorpho in a normal context, maybe arthur/nonsurat for the two people who care because i love them a lot. oh and also falspar and dragato doing whatever the hell they're doing because i would die for them.

absolutely there will be more gsa one-shots. i've had some ideas floating around but no energy to really get into them. plus my usual strategy for the gsa is to sit down and write for three straight hours because they sort of automatically put me in a flow state, and i can't do that at school cause i have other things to do. there might be some stuff about their history. i don't really know where to begin with all that, plus there's ocs i'd have to deal with, so we'll see. galacta knight related stuff is also a possibility, especially more about him and mk when they were working for nme. check out how much galactadad angst i can make

overall this year i wanna write more out of my comfort zone honestly. writing things like the beast in the walls or know your place was weird but it was also really really fun. so if i ever jump on any out-there ideas, i might actually do something with them. OH THIS INCLUDES AN ARTHUR AND MK BEING FAMILY THING I'VE BEEN SITTING ON. i completely forgot about that. i should polish it up and publish it for my birthday because it is so self-indulgent and silly. so that is now happening next week. metamorphosed one-shot is also happening later this week (tomorrow or thursday) because i'm normal about that au.

so that's a lot, and most of it is very up in the air because i'm always doing things...but you can 100% expect more knights content in the near future. wwtmk is like standing on the edge of a canyon peeking into my kirby interpretations. i have to write or i will explode

[qqueenofhades]

There it is! I've been trying to figure out what Gabriel is being jealous about since c.11/12. If he's jealous of Flynn because Gabriel's also falling for Lucy; or if he's jealous of Flynn for having someone who adores him in spite of everything; or if he's jealous of Lucy because she has Flynn's love & devotion. I feel like it's a tumultuous mix of everything. But if I were Gabriel, estranged from my brother and denying missing him for centuries, I'd be incensed if some newbie shows up in my

my ancestral domain, and effortlessly commandeers my brother’s attention and loyalties. Yeah, that’ll definitely cause some existential crisis, wrestling with multipronged jealousy! Hope we’ll get to see a Gabriel POV somehow. Why are you making these trashy vampires so relatable?! I feel their pain! And that goodbye hug he gave Flynn?! Oh, Gabriel, Flynn misses you, too! I can’t wait to see how you’re going to fix things between the brothers! Thanks for gifting the fandom with this gem!

Ahahaha. So, uh, who wants a shit ton of Gabriel meta, because I have Many Feelings about this trash man and his Feelings and his general Mess-ness? Which we could probably have seen coming, but anyway?

So…. yes. We learned more about Gabriel’s human life this past chapter, which was that he had a wife, but he was a really crappy husband and wasn’t there for her when their children died and only cared that she hadn’t given him an heir and (like most Roman aristocratic men) was not in the least faithful to her. And he now realizes just how lonely she was and what he put her through, and still feels guilty about that, because he himself is so lonely that he can’t stand it and has been that way since 1762 (when his son was murdered and the Matej disaster happened and he was permanently estranged from Flynn). Gabriel clings to his mask and persona of being super successful and rich and cultured and living in Paris and working as an art dealer with billionaires and museums and so on, and he speaks tons of languages and does charity work and makes everyone else feel inadequate about themselves. So to the outside, everyone thinks he’s perfect and successful and great, but…. this man has been a solitary, heartbroken, bereaved mess who barely speaks to his family for 250+ years, lost his son, lost his brother, lost his father, and is completely unable to fix that and just isolates more. His only real company has been Houdini, who lives with him in Paris and works as his butler, and he’s had… half a relationship with his niece Jiya, which is fraught for various reasons (I wrote them in this fic prompt). But really. That’s it. He’s very, very alone despite the glitz and glamour and money.

Then he goes to Sept-Tours because Garcia has brought a goddamn witch home, because Maria called him in a panic, since the family blames witches for preventing them from rescuing Asher from the Nazis, and it’s just this…. mess of things that have never been resolved and which brings out the most painful parts of their pasts. Because we’ve also learned that turning his son Christian in the 9th century was a) when Gabriel finally understood the loss of Iris and the pain that was driving Flynn to get revenge, and b) when Flynn himself became human again and stopped being this violent bloodthirsty out-of-control force of chaos, who until that point had required all of Asher and Gabriel’s efforts to hold back. So Christian was this thing that healed their family and he was in some ways Flynn’s son too, even if he couldn’t face up to actually being a father right thing or really having it or anything else after losing Iris. And that was when Gabriel saw something different in him and they bonded very quickly and it was literally almost overnight after centuries of Flynn being, well, the height of Garbage Flynn and acting like a wrecking ball.

And after that came Gabriel and Garcia’s medieval knight days, where they were super close and together all the time and fighting together and having adventures and whatever else and… they loved each other so much and Garcia gave up his chance of finishing Michael Temple in 1307, after they killed Gerbert of Aurillac, in order to save Gabriel’s life. Even if Garcia never agreed to Gabriel’s threesome shenanigan suggestions (except for a memorable few times) because he is a turtle allergic to getting laid, they were each other’s everything – as Gabriel calls him, “my companion and my soul.” They resented Wyatt joining the family in 1179 because they felt that they were fine as they were, they didn’t need anyone else, and Wyatt never really felt accepted by them or included in their activities (which was why he became bros with Christian instead). That of course still plays out now when they’re all estranged from each other, because they never made a proper effort to include Wyatt or tell him anything, and it’s biting them in the butt.

Then of course came the eighteenth century, and the Matej tragedy, which Gabriel blames himself viciously because he chose Garcia and Garcia’s lover and committing active treason for seven years, over the entire rest of the family, and it got his son killed as a result. There are just so many layers to that betrayal and to that heartbreak and the way he feels it can’t ever be mended. Because Garcia still tried to save Matej after he was shot, and turned him into a monster because the siring went wrong, and Gabriel had to kill him as a result. After that, Gabriel and Garcia had an almighty battle where they almost killed each other for real (it’s noted that they both still have scars from that fight) and their relationship just… absolutely never recovered. They went from being together every waking moment to barely seeing each other for decades at a time, because they couldn’t face or come to terms with the scale of the emotional and physical damage. Then Flynn turned Jiya in 1888, and Gabriel is like “well that’s nice you get to have a child again when you’re the reason I lost mine,” and then Asher gets murdered by the Nazis in 1944, which is the last straw for this poor family since Asher held them together through most of this, and….yeah.

So by the time Lucy gets there, Gabriel is being forced to face his darkest deja-vu (because the last time Garcia brought a lover to Sept-Tours, obviously everything went to hell) and is exasperated with Flynn for doing it again and afraid that it’s going to be a repeat of last time.  But then, because he is a Trash Tragedy Boy and they have a type, he can’t help falling for Lucy too, and yet she has marched into their house and effortlessly wrapped Flynn around her finger, and he has resentful feelings about that. Like, why does she get to have that when I can’t? Why does this outsider, this witch, get this and bring this danger and we’re still going along with it? Because Gabriel misses Flynn until he can’t stand it, but he also just can’t forgive everything that happened with Matej, and they’re both so terrible at talking about their feelings and they are both so hurt that they just can’t fix these cumulative decades/centuries of estrangement and solitude and pain. Gabriel loves Flynn to distraction and he has for 1100+ years, but that’s also why he can’t just handwave away the consequences of what happened – even while realizing that he’s about to do it again, he’s about to pick Flynn’s side and Flynn’s war over all the more sensible options, even after what it cost him last time. And he just… can’t deal with that. And he’s been hurt by Temple, and he’s bitterly jealous of Flynn and Lucy getting together, and… yeah.

So the answer to your question is definitely “all of the above.” He’s jealous of Flynn and he’s jealous of Lucy and he’s jealous of them together and he’s heartbroken over what he’s lost and the way he feels he’s the biggest failure in the whole family, because he’s the oldest son and the head of the family and the grandmaster of the Knights of Lazarus and he has so many talents and so much money and yet…. he has still let this happen. He has no one to turn to, he can’t fix things with his brother who he loves more than anyone in the world, he is exasperated at said bonehead brother for starting this mess with the witch, he has feelings for the witch that he did not expect at all, he just lost it when she was kidnapped and was willing to do anything to save her, he’s been badly hurt by Temple, and it is just So Many Degrees of Nuclear Mess. So Many.

…anyway. Yes. My Gabriel Feelings are legion, and he has acquired quite a fan club, which pleases me. We will have to see what the hell these idiots do now.