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𝐩𝐫𝐨𝐱𝐢𝐦𝐢𝐭𝐲 𝐜𝐡𝐞𝐜𝐤.

┊ 𝐬𝐲𝐧𝐨𝐩𝐬𝐢𝐬: when a mission goes sideways, you and john are forced to hide together in a utility closet.
𝐩𝐚𝐢𝐫𝐢𝐧𝐠: john walker x fem!reader.
𝐰𝐨𝐫𝐝 𝐜𝐨𝐮𝐧𝐭: 5.4K.
𝐰𝐚𝐫𝐧𝐢𝐧𝐠𝐬: smut (mdni), porn with little plot, forced proximity, semi-public sex, rough sex, hair pulling, mild dirty talk, lots of banter/arguing, grinding, john wants that cookie so bad, making out, john walker’s praise kink, unprotected p in v sex.
𝐚𝐮𝐭𝐡𝐨𝐫’𝐬 𝐧𝐨𝐭𝐞: this has been rotting away in my brain so I needed to get it out !! lowkey enjoyed writing this so much and I really hope that you guys like it, too! 🫶
The plan begins to crumble when reinforcements arrive, mercenaries funded by H.Y.D.R.A remnants, a generous benefactor hellbent on weapons acquisitions in Copenhagen.
It’s another mission that tests the cohesiveness of the team, and with each one, you’re all improving. Everything seemed to go sideways, comms were static with silence, and you weren’t sure where everyone else was.
Shadowed corridors flood with foot soldiers, and you narrowly avoid getting pierced with a high-caliber bullet, thanks to Walker’s shield.
“We need to move — now.” He gruffs, roughly grabbing at the back of your shoulder, hauling you further into the bunker’s underground labyrinth. He’s strong, sure, but not enough to take on ten.
“We’re cornered, Walker. If we don’t find somewhere to hide, we’re pinned down.” Insistent, you’re clamoring to find some momentary reprieve from the chaos, chest burning from exertion.
“And we’re pinned down if we hide,” John grits, clearly facing some moral dilemma. He’s typically talented at navigating these high-stress situations — or so he thinks, jaw twitching as he concedes to your idea. “Shit.”
John Walker wasn’t your first choice as a mission partner — he was hotheaded, bullish, and abrasive. His demeanor was a foil to yours; calm, level-headed, optimistic.
He knew what he was doing in a fight, but there was often a risk involved, an impulsivity that he was attempting to curb. You weren’t sworn enemies, but you weren’t exactly the best of friends, either.
Footsteps clash through the hallways, and you’re tugging on his arm, urging him to follow you as you make a mad dash for what appears to be a utility storage closet. It’s a terrible spot to cower in, but you aren’t left with many options.
John seems visibly agitated, but he follows you anyway, jogging after you before slamming the metal door shut behind the both of you. He realizes very quickly that there’s barely any room to fit the both of you.
Wedged into your side, distance becomes nonexistent, but it’s better than being caught out in the open. As if to reinforce your position, he jams the handle of a broom beneath the door latch, labored breathing beginning to steady.
Boots thud outside of the door, footfalls urgent before tapering off into mere echoes. Catching your breath, your body rattles beside his, hands poised against the metal wall, eyes fluttering shut.
“Genius.” John grouses, frustrated with the entire scenario. Something went wrong — they were sloppy and overestimated themselves.
With little patience for his short-fuse and sardonicism, you bite back. “What do you expect?” You huff, brows furrowing together. ��Fighting our way out wouldn’t have worked.”
“Beats being locked in here,” He grunts, bracing himself against the wall. The forced proximity he’s now cornered into with you isn’t the worst thing he’s endured, but it’s far from optimal. “You need to move.”
“Move where?” Keeping your voice low, you’re entirely unhappy with him, unwilling to put up with his attitude. The circumstances only enhance the shared irritation that bristles between the both of you, coupled with his smart mouth.
John’s brows furrow together, attempting to navigate through his frustration. “If you face me and stop sprawling, it’ll create more space.” He proposes, but it sounds ridiculous.
“I’m not sprawling,” With an indignant sigh, you shake your head, conceding to him anyway. Shuffling forward, you stand with him, chest to chest, discomforted by the slim amount of space. “I think this is worse.”
“We’re out of options.” John tries to placate your irritation, but it doesn’t seem to work. His countenance is contorted into a look of perpetual grumpiness, mouth turned downward.
It isn’t uncomfortable, this position — it’s awkward. This is the closest you’ve been to him, save during training lessons, where he’s crouched over you or his hands have somehow ended up on your hips.
Admittedly, there is tension present — you’ve never been fully able to discern the reasoning behind it, but it’s there, festering beneath the surface. A muscle in John’s neck strains, taut as he rolls his shoulder.
Annoyance is certainly one feeling to describe John, but it wanes whenever you look at him. Maybe there’s something more, maybe there isn’t. Either way, your current predicament isn’t ideal.
Using the closet’s rigid metal surface as a brace, the unsightly corners dig into your back, prompting you to squirm. Silence lingers between, curling around heavier sighs and fleeting glances.
You don’t want to admit that listening to John and running might’ve been the easier option, knowing that you won’t hear the end of it if you give him that satisfaction.
Through flared nostrils, John exhales, posture coiled and taut, as if he’s a bowstring, prepared to snap in two. Even though his helmet, he’s clenching his jaw, cerulean hues blazing with an amalgamation of emotions.
“What’s our next move?” Broaching the silence, you’re making an attempt at relieving the tension, face angled away from him. One step forward, and you’d be flush against his body.
“I had a next move, if you didn’t lead us in here,” John murmurs, and you’re quick to glare at him, agitation flaring again. “What? This was your idea.” He quips, holding one hand up in faux surrender; it makes you angry.
“You’re kidding me,” With a mirthless laugh, your brows furrow together, chin jutting out in defiance as you glare past him. “We would’ve been ambushed or worse if I didn’t think of hiding, John.” His name tumbles from your mouth like a scornful parent.
It’s exceedingly rare that you ever call him by his first name; some sliver of him likes it, wants to hear you say it again. He doesn’t fully understand why, but he likes you — likes your fire, your kindness.
John scoffs, mouth curling into a smug smirk, eyes rolling as if to dismiss your streak of ire. “Now look at us,” He remarks, pushing the limits, prodding. “Snug together in some closet.”
Aggrieved, your disdain is visible, scrawled onto your features as you stare elsewhere, finding the chipped paint behind his shoulder to be fascinating. “You can be such an asshole sometimes, you know that? I wanted to keep us both safe.”
There’s a softer inflection laced into your words, as if you’re upset that he’s mocking your choices. Admittedly, it wasn’t the right move, his unwarranted jabs — you did do the smart thing by hiding.
He’s watching you closely, gaze flickering over the creased brows and downward curve of your mouth, across the wisps of hair that dust your temples. You’re pretty when you’re frustrated with him — more so when you aren’t, too.
John doesn’t want to admit defeat, but it’s getting under your skin; he begrudgingly concedes. “Fine,” He gruffs, tongue wetting his bottom lip. “It wasn’t the worst idea in the book.”
A humorless scoff rips from your throat, followed by a nonplussed expression. “Is that supposed to make me feel better?” You mumble, still neglecting to look him in the eyes.
“Yeah,” He placates, shoulders jostling in a shrug. “It could’ve been worse.” Leveling with you, his smirk wavers when you scoff, finding some sliver of amusement in the whole situation.
John Walker wasn’t the worst person to be trapped in a utility closet with — the company could’ve been completely sour. Instead, you were forced to endure his scathing banter and smug mouth, two things that you could navigate; mostly.
The discomfort of your current position only seems to grow, metal digging into your spine, enhanced by the uneven junctures of your suit. You wince when you shift, trying to relax whilst simultaneously avoiding bumping into him.
He notices, observant; he might’ve been ogling you for longer than what was deemed appropriate, but he kept that close to the chest. John has an idea, but he knows that you won’t bite.
“You okay?” He inquires, peering down at you with an innocuous expression. It gives you pause, makes you realize how much taller he is than you, his musculature; you try to shut your thoughts off.
“I’m fine, just … This wall is digging into my back. I think you got the comfortable side.” With a grousing huff, you wriggle again, attempting to shift your body enough to make a slight difference.
His jaw clenches, tongue tracing over his teeth, and to his own chagrin, he wants to alleviate whatever discomfort he can. “Why don’t you lean against me?” John suggests, as if it’s something commonplace.
Bewildered, you almost think he’s joking, teasing you to make light of the situation. With a sarcastic laugh, you shake your head, dismissing his idea as preposterous. “That’s a nice joke, John.” You grumble, aggravated.
“I’m serious,” John quips, clipped, mildly offended that you believed him to be insincere. “If we’re going to be stuck here, might as well make sure you’re comfortable.” He shrugs nonchalantly, tone somewhat gritty.
“Since when have you cared about my comfort?” It’s a genuine question, spoken with curiosity instead of something accusatory. You catch him off-guard, gaze finally meeting his own, and he almost seems shy.
John exhales; a long, drawn-out noise that signifies surprise, coupled with understanding. He hasn't exactly given you the impression that he likes you — in the traditional sense, anyway.
He isn’t known for his emotional intelligence or his sense of vulnerability.
“Since now,” He retorts, groveling to himself before shaking his head. “Jesus, do you want to stop being miserable or what?” John gruffs, his cadence seemingly cross with you, but it lacks malice.
Surprised, your jaw loosens, lips agape as you scramble for some halfhearted comeback. Coming up empty-handed, you decide to accept the offer, instead. “Alright.” You sigh, and take one step forward.
Proximity becomes nonexistent, the sliver of distance closed as your body presses firmly against his, and the heat crackles instantaneously. He’s broad-shouldered, firm when the both of you are wedged together.
He’s being nice, you think, which is mildly unexpected. The harsh, metal bite of the wall no longer protrudes into your back, offering you some relief. John is formidable, sturdy; better than the wall, at least.
Warmth spreads like wildfire over the back of your neck, snaking over your throat, causing you to look away again. You’re flush, chest-to-chest, tactical gear intermingling.
Fortunately for you, the discomfort that had gripped your spine dissipates, but it’s cost you your sanity. John unclasps the buckle beneath his chin, offering his jaw some momentary relief.
Maybe this was a bad idea.
It’s as if his own body is actively rebelling against him; from the moment your chest comes into contact with his, he’s fighting against baser instincts. You’re pretty — beautiful beyond compare, even with your curled lip and furrowed brows.
A gap of silence settles between, and he notices the inkling of tension that bleeds from your shoulders, using him as a brace. He’s much more comfortable than the wall, but it doesn’t make things any less awkward.
“Should we try comms?” Your voice is somewhat strained, flustered as you make a feeble attempt at distracting yourself from this. John bites, thankfully, head jostling with a nod.
“Couldn’t hurt.” He utters, clicking his tongue as he reaches for the device strapped to his wrist. The positioning is somewhat clumsy, and he fumbles with you pressed against him.
Static crackles on the other end — nothing, a dead end. Knowing that it’s off the table, he switches it back off, arm dropping back to his side. He shifts his stance, the both of you accidentally grinding over the other.
“Sorry.” You blurt, and he’s nodding to alleviate the potential tension that comes with it. Still, you’re intentionally avoiding eye contact — he’s close enough to kiss, heat of his breath pluming over your crown.
“S’fine.” John mumbles, neck tight with tension when your bodies brush over one another. It’s rousing feelings that feel horribly inappropriate for the time and place, and he can’t help it.
A hush falls over the both of you again, and when he glances away, you’re staring at him, instead. Eyelashes kiss the soft skin beneath your eyes, gaze catching on the shadow of his blonde beard, the scar on his right cheek, cerulean eyes.
He’s stupidly handsome, pleasant to behold despite his temperament, which seems unusually subdued, even now. You swallow the growing lump within your throat, teeth grinding together.
Even with his helmet, you find him attractive — you find John Walker attractive. When you repeat that fact in the back of your mind, it makes you contemplate quite a bit.
“Hanging in there?” Again, you shatter the silence with a droning question, relinquishing the tension and derailing your thoughts. It’s cheeky, but it gets him to laugh, even if the sound is dry.
“I’m not exactly hating this,” John utters, and he happens to look down at you, only to find that you’re staring, too. His heartbeat quickens, muscles tightening as he clears his throat. “You?”
“I’m great,” There’s a drop of sarcasm that lingers within your tone, but it seems to fade away. “You are definitely more comfortable than the wall.” You confirm, mouth twitching into a threadbare smile.
With a huff, John’s mouth curls into a faint smile, teetering along the fringes of sincerity. “Good to know.” He muses, cadence wrought with a twinge of insolence.
Everything goes quiet again, he’s staring — he notices details about your countenance that he never realized before. Your beauty is marrow-deep, and he knows it, knows that he’s screwed.
John becomes attractive to you like this — stripped down of his bravado, the arrogance clipped. You don’t know where to put your hands, but you prop one against his chest; he blushes.
He can’t help himself now, and his feelings are threatening to burst through the surface in more ways than one.
A groan nearly rips through his diaphragm when you writhe again, body pressing into his, your thigh ghosting over his groin. You don’t seem to notice anything, much to his relief.
Uncertain of how long you’ll be glued together for, John moves again, aiming to find better purchase along the wall, hand momentarily hovering over your waist. He steadies you when your balance wavers, causing you to shiver.
This should’ve been off-putting to you �� and it wasn’t. Instead, you’re left burning from where he touched you, imagining that hand groping your body or tangled into your hair.
When you adjust again, you feel something firm against your navel, able to hear the subtle hitch in the back of his throat. He inhales — a sharp, poignant sound that seems wrought with stress.
It’s through his tactical pants, and you realize what exactly it is, causing you to bite at the inside of your cheek. Disbelief coupled with shock etched itself onto your features.
There’s a look of brief panic that settles onto his visage; you’re stunned, gaze widening when your eyes lock together. He doesn’t need any further prompting.
“Christ, I’m sorry.” John grovels, embarrassed that he’s gotten hard from having you pressed against him. It’s pathetic that he let himself get riled up from it, and he pinches the bridge of his nose.
In the spirit of transparency, you aren’t upset.
In fact, it’s the opposite — you’re left stunned that he’s gotten hard for you. Some depraved sliver within you festers, wanting to torment him further, act on this tension that’s been brewing long before you went into the storage closet.
“Don’t be.” You whisper, hoarse as you attempt to scramble for a scrap of composure. The sensation of his erection bleeding heat into your navel makes you writhe, coiled with excitement.
John shakes his head, clinging to threadbare restraint, wanting nothing more than a sense of relief from it all. “We can switch places.” He offers, a feeble attempt at squashing the coyness.
“No,” The answer you give is too quick, but you don’t want to pretend like you aren’t interested. Instead, your gaze becomes somewhat half-lidded, tempting. “If I didn’t know any better, I’d say that you actually like me.”
Caught, there is little room to refute your claim, and John is left looking increasingly tortured. He wants you so bad that it hurts, cock throbbing beneath his tactical pants, feeling your body shift again.
“Stop it.” John warns, nearly groaning when you sluggishly move against his body, teasing the growing tent in his pants.
Abashed yet enticed, you lean forward, stretching up onto your toes to plant a kiss against his jaw. It’s slow, methodical — John looks as if he’s about to explode. “I want to if you do.” You utter, tone permeated by desire.
Jesus Christ, he’s fucked; he knows he’s fucked, and you aren’t helping anything. He’s thought about this more times than he can count, and with the reality presented to him, he isn’t sure if he can resist.
“I don’t know if I can stop.” John husks, cadence pitched to a half-growl that sends shivers down your spine. He was contemplating going through with it — here, in a storage closet in the underbelly of a warehouse.
“I don’t think I want you to,” Breathy, your confession hits him like an aphrodisiac, spiking his system, striking him into overdrive. The setting isn’t entirely ideal, but you’re desperate. “Are you sure?”
Too late; John’s mouth is crashing into yours with the force of a battering ram, dropping his still-bent shield, hands flying to seize your hips. He’s manhandling you, turning to pin you against the wall, instead.
It’s all teeth, tongue, want — the banter was only a precursor to festering feelings that were now boiling over into an explosion of heat. You kiss him back, kiss him until your lungs are ragged.
The tenacity of his mouth makes your head spin, body screaming, every fiber of your being set aflame when he kisses you. Teeth catch your bottom lip, and he’s needy.
“Don’t care,” John gruffs in-between fervent kisses, grinding against your body, prepared to rip his belt off and sink into you. “I need you.” His breathy confession makes your knees buckle.
John isn’t too boastful to admit to wanting you, needing you; it feels good to be desired in the way he covets you. Lips clash, collide — you’re kissing him as if it’s the last thing you’ll ever do.
Beneath your sternum, your chest grows tight, burning with a stinging neediness, hands flying to clasp at the nape of his neck. He’s still wearing his helmet, but it doesn’t seem to hinder anything at all.
Despite the amount of tactical gear that sits between flesh, he’s eager to make do with what he’s got, hand dropping to grope at your ass through your suit.
“John,” A breathy moan slips from your mouth, intentionally hushed so as to not give away your position. “Need you.” It’s clipped, rushed, but he’s hanging onto those words as if they’re an anchor.
Slotting a thigh between your legs, he brushes it over your clothed core, pulling another whine from your lips. A twinge of satisfaction ripples through him, but he’s driven by instinct now, with you in his crosshairs.
“Gotta make it quick,” John rumbles, even if every fiber of his being wants to fuck you properly, take his time with you. You’re in the middle of a mission — time isn’t a luxury for either of you. “Jesus, you’re so pretty.” He murmurs.
The compliment surprises you, but it isn’t unwelcome, rousing a fire within the pit of your belly. Needy, you rock yourself against his thigh, gaining scraps of friction that blossom between the both of you.
Mouths claw for one another, connecting in a heated frenzy, both ravenous for contact. John can’t recall the last time he’d done something like this, but he’s craving it, craving you.
Each kiss blisters through the both of you, his lips rugged, beard scratching ragged over your skin. The prickling sensation is a pleasant one, something you cling to, hands flying to the nape of his neck.
In a surprising move, your tongue floods into his mouth, and he stifles a groan, tasting you with enthusiasm. Reciprocating your heated kiss, he follows suit, hearing the whine that catches in your throat.
When your lips untether from one another, his mouth drops to your jaw, teeth grazing across sensitive flesh, causing you to moan. A sigh of ecstasy drags through your chest, wanton.
This is John Walker — the same John that you were grousing with earlier, the same John that had a smug mouth and abrasive temper.
John, whose mouth is disarmingly tender when he kisses your jaw. John, whose hands are kneading into your haunches as if it’s something he’s done a thousand times. John, who tastes like metal and something intimately familiar.
You don’t know what’s gotten into you, gotten into him, but you’re enjoying yourself — you want him, need him, starving for touch.
Hands relocate to your waist, finding your belt with ease, unclasping it in order to unzip your pants. Your breathing picks up, eager, fingers hooking into his tactical gear to do the very same.
It’s all labored sighs, grunts, moaning — the both of you have become insatiable, frenzied. “John, please.” You mumble, chewing at your bottom lip when his hand brusquely shoves at your pants.
His belt noisily clatters when you’re unbuckling it, and he’s desperate to be inside of you. “You need it that bad?” John grunts beside your ear, hot breath feathering over your jaw.
“Yes,” Unable to withhold your excitement, you’re willing to give him what he wants; but not without consequence. Your palm darts to the swell in his pants, massaging over his erection. “So do you.”
John’s brain hums with static when you touch him, tendrils of ecstasy shooting through his body. A low, husky groan tears through his throat, and he’s huffing like a bull. “Christ, e—easy,” He sighs. “Please.”
Satisfied with his answer, you withdraw your hand, the both of you pushing fabric aside, scrambling together. His hand flies to the spandex of your underwear, pushing it aside as his hips urge forward, flushed head prodding against your cunt.
By no means is John small, either; he’s infuriatingly well-endowed, thick and oozing heat as he ruts himself into you. Using one thigh to keep your legs parted, he’s kissing you again, rough and needy.
Both of your hands find their perch against his shoulders, over kevlar and body armor, attempting to make it work. The positioning is slightly awkward, but neither of you care — it’s all desperation at this point, all desire.
Reciprocating his kiss, you’re clinging to him, using his body as an anchor, back flat against the wall. The space is nonexistent, bodies wedged together, flush and tight; he needs you like he needs air.
John exhales; a drawn-out, sharper sound that releases coils of tension from his shoulders. With a nod of consent, you let yourself get comfortable. He drags his cock over your cunt again, biting back a stifled growl.
His forehead nudges beside your temple, hotly grunting into your ear, sending waves of ecstasy through your belly. “Ready?” He gruffs, still nudging his cock against your folds, restraint threadbare.
With an exaggerated nod, you’re steeling yourself, biting at your bottom lip, faces flush together. His hips slowly urge forward, flushed head of his cock pushing into you with mild resistance.
It’s slow, at first; he’s a dam trying not to splinter and shatter, exuding tension, attempting to let you adjust first before devolving into debauchery.
You make it difficult, sighing his name as if it’s branded on your tongue, kissing his mouth. The both of you are caught in the middle of some lust-ridden haze.
The tightness of your cunt drives him to the brink of madness, huffing beside your ear, teeth grazing over your jaw. He’s growling, panting, his sounds mirroring a feral dog instead of a man.
Proximity no longer exists — it’s lost to tangled bodies and groping hands, to teeth and tongue, to baser instincts. As his hips sink into you, a cry splits your mouth, and he fills you up.
Muscles coil around you, and he’s caging you in between his body and the wall, grunting when your cunt clenched around him. A string of breathy expletives escape him, hands firm against your hips.
Everything feels hot — the lack of space in the storage closet closes in around you, leaving just him, bleeding heat into your body. His jaw is locked, brows pinched together, attempting to cling to some composure.
As his cock ruts into you, your throat snares with a gasp, hands wrangled into his shoulders. You can only imagine what it’s like to see him, flesh to flesh, leaving marks against his skin.
A shadow passes over his stare, cerulean hues eclipsed by desire as he shifts his thigh, muscle keeping your legs spread apart. Sluggishness leaves him entirely — he’s fucking you, now.
The pace he sets is quick, needy, desperate; he’s all bite and no bark, manhandling you as each drag of his hips pins you into the wall. It’s rougher, sure, but he’s not hurting you in the slightest.
John shudders at the feeling of your cunt, tight and warm around him, clenching around his cock with each roll of your hips. You took him perfectly, as if you were made for him, molded together.
“Christ, you’re tight,” John grits, exhaling heat beside your ear, mouth pressing against the side of your face. You turn, your forehead firm against his helmet, nails digging into his nape. “Goddamn perfect.”
Heat prevailed, licking along your spine as his thrusts grew with haste. A low whine rippled through you, countenance screwed up into a look of pleasure, thighs beginning to shake.
“John,” Through a strangled moan, you’re taking each thrust of his hips, the force akin to a battering ram. “So good at this, you’re s—Fuck, so perfect.” Never in your wildest imagination did you think you’d be calling John perfect, but it slips out.
When it does, it’s as if you’ve reached deep inside of him and flipped a switch; a primal glaze settles into his eyes.
His grip upon your thigh had only strengthened, fingertips threatening to leave bruises in the wake of your crass escapades. His cock throbs within you, hitting new depths, nearly kissing your cervix.
“Say it again.” John growls, the noise sharp enough to send goosebumps cascading over your spine. Your body is wracked with ecstasy, a muted buzz soaring through your nerves, now set ablaze.
Some loathsome part of him craves the praise, your validation — when it slips from your mouth, he’s chasing after it like some feral animal.
“Good at this, you’re — Shit, you’re fucking me so well,” The words that clamor from your lips sound foreign; you cringe at yourself despite it, but he seems to preen beneath the praise. “Don’t stop.”
It’s as if a fervor spikes within him, something buried and gnawing. He doubles his efforts, desperate to please you, ripping off his helmet as if it’s gotten too snug.
Blonde tresses sweep over his forehead, perfectly disheveled, messy; your fingers slip from his nape to his hair, grabbing it in fistfuls. The sharp sensation pulls a groan from his chest, a rumble that makes you shiver.
A husky, throaty groan pierces through his chest, the noise making you shiver, arousal slick and warm between your thighs. It makes each snap of his hips easier, cock sinking into you over and over again.
Each snap of his hips drags you further towards the edge, cock spearing into you without an ounce of hesitation. It’s borderline animalistic, all pent-up and shoved down, now boiling over in waves.
He’s handsome like this — handsome when he’s all over your mouth, when he’s pounding away at your cunt, brows pinched together in concentration.
One arm cages you in against him, the other pressed beside your head, palm grinding against metal. It groans in protest, bending to his inhuman strength, and the noise makes your belly churn with molten heat.
Every thrust is sharp, precise — he’s gritty, perspiration glittering along his neck, muscles pulled taut.
A low moan left you as he snapped forward, letting passion and want pour into his actions, cock sheathing itself inside of your aching cunt.
John ruts into you again, again, again — a pattern of rhythmic thrusts that jostle your body. Grunts tear through his chest, spilled beside your ear in warm huffs, pluming across your jaw.
“Walker?”
Bucky’s voice sizzles through the wave of static on the comms, and you don’t want him to stop. While he’s pounding away at you still, his movements begin to stutter at the noise, but you’re pulling him away.
“Don’t answer,” You moan, friction blossoming between the both of you, feverish and scalding. Every fiber of your being feels like it’s set ablaze, cunt clenching around his cock with each drag of his hips. “Please, John.”
John doesn’t relent, subservient to your breathy plea, hips urging forward as he’s bucking up into you with urgency. He’s close too, hand roughing your hip, grasp bruising as he kisses you.
His cock aches, throbbing inside of you, flesh crawling with heat beneath his body armor. Everything feels snug — he imagines what it’d be like to have you somewhere else, naked.
The fantasy ripples at the fringes of his mind, something lascivious and hazy, spurring him on. He fucks you hard, somewhere between rough and worshipful, as if you’re something to covet.
A breathy ‘fuck’ tears through his mouth, cock repeatedly pistoning in and out of you, listening to your pleasured whines and sighs. “Jesus,” John gruffs, feeling your lips press over his jaw. “That’s it, s’good.” He groans.
With another urge of his hips, you’re unraveling around him, driven to the brink by an amalgamation of friction and want. A buzz swarms through your body, legs rattling, shaking from your orgasm.
Grunts continued to spill beside your ear as he reached his peak, but you were already there. It was a perfect storm of sensations, ones that made you delirious with desire, sobbing with ecstasy.
John fucked you through your release, cock steadily rutting into your cunt, pressing a messy kiss against your mouth. You reciprocate, teeth catching on his bottom lip, sighing into his maw.
Everything is white-hot, dizzying; John offers a strained warning of his encroaching release, cumming inside of you in a half-frenzy. He says your name, and it makes you shiver.
“Walker, what’s your twenty?”
Again, Bucky’s voice is cutting through at the worst possible moment, and John snarls with frustration. His forehead tilts against yours, brow creased, countenance unfurling with half-bliss, half-agitation.
Each breath stings your lungs as you attempt to compose yourself, realizing that you’re still on the job. Cerulean hues burn into yours, and you kiss him slowly, as if to tell him that it’s okay.
Blonde lashes kiss the skin beneath his eyes, sluggish, as if he’s readjusting to his surroundings. As the fog begins to clear, John huffs, tongue sweeping over his teeth.
“You okay?” He asks, cadence hoarse and pitched with a still-lingering desire. He withdraws, untethering himself from you with a strenuous grunt, moving to buckle his pants up.
“Yeah,” Through a soft whisper, your gaze falls across him, smitten when you realize the gravity of what’s happened. “We should answer Bucky and try to regroup.”
With a nod, John concedes, hands gingerly shifting toward your hips, wordless as he helps to clasp your belt back together. “You know, we could try this again, with more space.” He states, matter-of-factly.
Incredulous, you’re making sure your suit is back into place, visibly flustered as you clear your throat. “When we get back to the Watchtower, come and find me.” You reply, attempting to seem disinterested.
John’s mouth twitches into a smug grin, lifting the communicator to his mouth. “Barnes, we copy.”
Suddenly, the door to the utility closet caves in, a metal arm ripping it from the hinges. John is still in the middle of helping you with your belt, digits stilling along your waist.
“Good hiding spot.” Bucky scoffs, doing little to suppress his smirk. The both of you look like deer in the headlights, and you’re quick to step away, brusquely clearing your throat.
You’re never going to hear the end of this.
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Birds need a flock, after all! Part 38
masterpost nooooooo editing *flops over in migraine land*
“Danny, can I talked to you for a moment.”
Danny closed his eyes and took a slow breath before turning to face Jason. He tucked his hands into his pockets. “Jason, sure. I hope yesterday went well?”
“Long but well, yeah,” Jason said. He looked away from Danny and shifted his weight in a way that seemed almost nervous. “I owe you an apology.”
Danny blinked. “I—pardon?”
“For yesterday,” Jason said. “I hurt you, which wasn’t what I meant to do. I was in a rush and didn’t stop to think about what what I was saying and what I did say I said badly. I’m sorry about that.”
“Oh.” Danny resisted the urge to reach up and rub at the back of his neck. “That’s okay Jason, apology accepted.”
“That’s—” Jason cut himself off with a frown. “It doesn’t have to be okay, I know I fucked up.”
“I don’t want to fight with you, Jason,” Danny said with a little shake of his head.
“So, what? You’ll just let yourself be hurt and roll over and pretend it’s okay?”
Danny shrugged. “That’s how I’ve survived.”
Which maybe was a bit sad, but it was true. Go along with his parent’s work, die in the portal, die again, try to keep the peace, lose everything for cheating, be punished for not liking a holiday, for being too nerdy too curious too much. He’d been rolling over and playing dead all his life.
Jason rubbed at his face. “You don’t.. you don’t have to do that, and I’m sorry that I made you feel like you have to here. A lot of us… we’re bad at saying things. Alfred and Bruce says too little, I say the wrong thing. Dick pretends to be happy and Tim wants to make everyone else happy. Cass struggles with words and Damian his emotions. Duke might be the only competent one in the house. But you shouldn’t have to just give in for any of us.”
Danny glanced away.
“You shouldn’t,” Jason insisted, “because if nothing else we’re all trying to be better and if we’re going to get better we have to be called on our bullshit. Yesterday I fucked up. I am scared of you being alone with Lian, but because you’re still mostly a stranger to me. That just means I’d prefer, to start, if Alfred or Bruce were with you two. I didn’t mean to make you feel like you had to hide or… or that there’s something wrong with you.”
“Isn’t there?”
“Fuck no!” Jason said with such earnest fervor that Danny was left looking at him in surprise. “There’s nothing wrong with you being a meta and the changes that you’re going through. And me being wary of you with Lian has nothing to do with that. It’s just my own fears and need to make sure she’s safe. And if you’re fine with it, and I mean really fine with it, I’d like to get to know you better, so I can get rid of that fear.” Jason stepped forward and offered his hand. “So, sorry for being a raging asshole, I didn’t mean to be, not that it makes it much better. But hi, I’m Jason Todd, and I’d like to get to know you better so that you’re not a stranger, is that okay?”
Danny gave a little snort of amusement at the theatrics, but he reached out and took Jason’s hand with his own. His own had that was almost normal again, save a scattering of soft, downy feathers. “Danny Fenton, and I’d like that.”
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“mr.park,” you force a smile at your boss. you watch, through your smiling eyes, your colleagues slowly vanishing the more the closer the man gets. he seems obviously not interested in anyone but you. “i left a note on your desk telling you that i was taking my break early, didn’t you—”
with a barely controlled tone that resonates in the now empty hall, jay cuts you in your sentence, “why are you avoiding me?”
your fake smile drops immediately. you want to slam your hand in front of his mouth and tell him to shut up because there might be people around. you want to yell and tell him to not be an indiscreet idiot.
but you know how to be discreet, so you just hush; “can’t you be anymore loud?” you wish you could say something more, but someone passes by and, under jay’s amused eyes, you force a smile yet again. “listen,” you start, quietly. “i don’t have time for this, okay?”
your boss obviously wants to say something back. you turn around before he can speak, “see you later, mr. park.”
to be frank, your mistake is to underestimate the man that park jongeseong is. if he is your boss today, if he is controlling the company you work in, if he works above you, it’s definitely not because he is used to giving up. his persistence is off the roof. the admiration he receives comes from the way he always gets what he wants.
therefore, he does watch you leave him behind. and he thinks about letting you leave, but he refuses the idea. he could yell your name across the hall, speak so loudly that the message would not only reach you but the entire building. he decides that he doesn’t want to use his authority on you just yet.
jay’s steps follow yours quickly. although, you do everything in your power to get away from him as quickly as possible, your heels are nothing against his long legs. his large steps reach you in a few seconds, his big hand grips onto your forearm tightly and he pulls you into the janitor’s closet as if you weigh nothing.
behind the closed door, he pins you against the wall as he usually does, “you haven’t answered my calls nor my texts, why is that?”
you don’t answer just yet. your eyes drags over his white button up, guessing he took off his suit’s vest, your gaze stays focused on his black cravat for a while. you speak before the urge to pull it so your lips can meet becomes too strong, “mr. park, i already told—”
“don’t call me that unless we are kissing, princess” he speaks over you again.
you decide to ignore both him and the warmth that creeps on your face at the call of the petname, “���you, i am busy.”
jay falls silent, his eyes burning holes through your soul. you look at the wall behind him, carefully ignoring how intense his stare is getting. “hey,” you ignore him, still not deciding locking eyes with him. you sigh when he holds your chin between his thumb and index finger to tilt your head up, “look at me.”
without forgetting to heavy sigh, you do as you were told. your heartbeat goes ridiculously faster when you look at the one you call ‘mr. park’ in the eyes. it’s stupid how your mouth is quick to get dry, how your hands get sweaty, how your entire body tickles because of how close is his.
you always end up acting like a teenager in heat around him, “what?”
“i really want to kiss you,” he smirks, leaning closer but he stops before your mouths touch. he looks at your lips without shame, touching your lower lip with his thumb, “but i know you won’t let me, so stop being a brat and tell me what’s wrong.”
your bottled up frustration gets the best of you. this added to how nervous he makes you feel, you just sigh, “i can’t do it anymore.”
“what?” you notice faint worry in his voice, “you want to stop?” he furrows his brow, clearly confused, “is that why are you are telling me?”
“no! i mean—yes!” you groan, weakly pushing him away from you. you can’t think with him so close to you, “i don’t know!”
you take in huge care in not running your hand down your face to not ruin your makeup. but you run your fingers through your hair instead, then cup your own face gently to calm your blushing skin down. even your hands are hot, so it doesn’t really help.
“can you talk to me, please?”
“jay, i can’t do this anymore,” you rush out. “i am not a teenager, i can’t spend my entire day kissing my whatevership in the janitor closet as if i’m hiding from my parents while i’m supposed to do my actual job!”
you do admit that it was very fun at the start. when your company’s executive called you in his office one late night, begging you to give him a reason to not pin you against his desk and kiss you senseless. you didn’t give him any, so you let him do as he promised.
the giggles, the hiding, the whispers; they were all fun at the start. dizzingly exciting for a few weeks. but it got old. “that’s–that’s not what i want.”
“and what do you want?” you wipe his face to his direction. jay looks at you, his hands in his pocket, head slightly titled to the side and he looks so helpless. he steps when you stay quiet for too long, “tell me what you wish for and i will give it to you, in a heartbeat.”
your mouth is open. you take a big breath, looking for the words you need, “i want something real,” your hands fall to your side. “i–i want dates, i want to sleep with each other’s, i want going to work together, i want–i want a relationship, jay.”
your boss, the man you hide once hid in the restroom to make out with, looks speechless. he seems surprised and defeated, “have you even read my messages?” he asks. you didn’t, neither did you listen to his ten voicemails. “i have been begging for your attention for over a week now.”
he takes a step closer to you, jailing you between his tall figure and the wall once again. “do you think i would do all of this if i didn’t want dates, sleeping at each other’s, going to work together?” your mouth falls agape. “i can cook for you, i can help you put on your shoes, i can buy you everything that you want; if only you let me and talk to me.”
it’s your turn to be defeated and slightly embarrassed for your bratty behavior. your take time to understand the new information thay got shared with you. you feel ashamed for being so in your head, forgetting to hear him out and making him chase after you. you were being mean. “o–oh.”
jay chuckles, taking his hands off his pocket to hold your hips. fortunately for you, if he is this rich it’s because he learnt how to be patient with his desires. he doesn’t seem to take your behavior at heart with his he pulls you closer to him. “but enough talking for now, hm?” he leans in.
“mr. park,” you wrap his arms around his neck, giggling against his lips.
he groans, “shit, i love when you call me that, baby.”
he sighs in your mouth when your lips touch. jay has an habit of letting his hands wander all over your body, which made your knees weak the very first time you kissed. his hands moves from your hips to your waist, then back to your hips as he tongue slides into your mouth.
you can feel his heart beating faster when he ends up embracing your form, his body pressed against yours. you hug his neck tighter, in the utmost need of being closer to him. desperately more than you already are.
as jay steals your breath away, you feel the ground under you getting further from your feet. jay lifts you up to kiss you better— to break the passionate kiss into a few pecks on your lips as you smile and multiple kisses all over your face.
“i’ll pick you up for our date tonight at nine,” he tells you after putting you down. he kisses your cheek, “okay, princess?”
a huge smile creeps on your face, you bite it down, “okay.”
exactly what you wanted.
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JUST THIS… TWICE? | JJK
summary. when you complain to jungkook about your lack of action in the past year, you're not really asking for a solution. but when he casually offers to help, you just can't seem to bring yourself to say no.
after all, what's the worst that could happen in hooking up just this once?
pairing: jeon jungkook x f!reader
genre: friends to lovers, smut, fluff
word count: 8.3k
warnings: more porn but with a tiny bit more plot :0, swearing, explicit sexual content, car sex, kissing, making out, oral (f. receiving), again he’s very cocky but can we blame him, breast play, multiple orgasms, banter and teasing as dirty talk, petnames (baby), jk's actually a menace but lowkey down bad, the ending deserves a warning (i’m sorryy), let me know if i missed anything!
notes: thank you SAURR much to my bae j @tranquilreign for beta reading!! (i’m still giggling at all ur comments pls :3) likes, comments, reblogs, asks and feedback are so so appreciated. enjoy reading my angelss <3
ps. READ PART ONE HERE!!
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You wake up to the dull throb of sunlight pressing through your curtains and the sharper ache between your legs.
It's not unpleasant — just a lingering reminder. A hum under your skin, like a bruise you don’t mind touching again and again.
You blink slowly, your eyes gritty from sleep, mouth dry, brain hazy in that half-dream state where everything feels like it could be made up. The heavy comforter is kicked down to your hips, your legs tangled in each other, and for a second — just one — you think maybe it was a dream.
But then you shift, and your thighs protest, and it all comes back.
The couch. His fingers. His mouth. The way he looked at you like he’d already had you a thousand times in his head. The things he said — low, teasing, mean. The things you said back. Your stomach tightens, breath hitching as your body tries to replay it too fast, too much.
You squeeze your eyes shut and will your brain to shut up.
You don’t usually let people sleep over. Not like this. Not in your bed, under your sheets, in your space.
But Jungkook’s always been the exception to things. It’s not new, waking up with him in your apartment. He’s been here for movie nights that turned into sleepovers, for hangovers that turned into late mornings, for heartbreaks that turned into shared pints of ice cream and shit talk.
You’ve seen him in your space more times than you can count. But never like this.
You breathe in slow and exhale even slower, eyes fluttering open. The room is still, the air thick with the kind of silence that begs to be broken but doesn’t quite want to be. You shift again, turning onto your side, and your eyes land on the shape beside you.
He’s lying on his stomach, one arm thrown across your pillow, the other tucked under his chest. The blanket’s halfway down his back, exposing the mess of tattoos curling across his shoulder and the dip of his spine. His hair’s a wreck — pushed off his forehead, flattened in the back — and his lips are parted, soft. He looks young like this. Calm. A little too good for your peace of mind.
You stare at him a moment too long.
And then you very, very carefully roll onto your back again.
You feel like you’re in a minefield. Like one wrong move will detonate something you're not ready to name.
You slept with your best friend.
Not just slept. Fucked.
Fucked him like you meant it. Like you’ve wanted to for longer than you’re willing to admit, even to yourself.
You exhale again. A sharp, quiet puff of air through your nose. Maybe if you stay still long enough, he’ll just keep sleeping. And you can sneak to the bathroom. Or back in time. Whichever’s easier.
You’re not panicking. Not technically. You’re just… thinking. Overthinking. Remembering how you sounded begging him not to stop. Remembering how he looked at you like you were the only thing he’d ever wanted. Remembering how, when it was over, he held you like it meant something.
You feel his warmth next to you, steady and real. His leg brushes yours, his knee nudging slightly against your calf, and your whole body goes still again.
You wonder what he's going to say when he wakes up; if he'll still smile at you like he did last night — like nothing about this is complicated. Like your world didn’t tilt just a little off its axis the second he kissed you back, like he wasn't allowed to and never planned on stopping.
You should feel weird. You should feel guilty. Or ashamed. Or something more than this weird, electric calm.
But mostly, you just feel like you don’t want to move.
His breathing shifts — subtle, but enough that you know he’s starting to wake up.
Your heart trips a little.
He shifts, and the arm he’d slung over your pillow curls slightly in, fingers brushing the back of your hand. He lets out a groggy hum, the noise half in his throat.
You freeze, eyes still closed.
“Mm,” he mumbles, voice thick with sleep. “What time is it?”
You swallow. Your voice doesn’t come right away, caught somewhere behind your tongue. When it does, it’s soft, a rasp. “No idea.”
He exhales. Shuffles a little closer. You can feel the heat of him now, bleeding through the sliver of space that still separates you. A moment passes. Then another. You brace for it — for the tension, the shift, the stammered joke to smooth over the jagged memory of last night.
But all he says is, “Damn. My back hurts.”
You blink, startled by the normalcy of it. “You’re not supposed to sleep like that. You looked like a crime scene victim.”
“Sexy,” he mutters, eyes still closed. “That’s what I was going for.”
You huff a quiet laugh. And weirdly, the knot in your stomach loosens just a little.
Another silence stretches. But it’s not bad. Not heavy. He makes a small sound as he shifts again, propping himself up just slightly on one elbow. You don’t look at him, not yet, but you can feel his eyes on you.
“How do you feel?”
You hesitate.
He waits.
You turn your head slowly toward him, and finally meet his gaze. His hair’s a mess, his eyes still sleep-warm, but there’s something sharper under the surface. Not regret. Not even nerves. Just… attention. He’s watching you the way he did last night — carefully. Like you matter.
You chew your lip for a second. "Sore," you eventually say, voice quiet.
He smiles. “Good sore or bad sore?”
You raise an eyebrow. “You want a Yelp review?”
He shrugs, still smiling. “I mean, if you’re offering. I’d love a star rating.”
You stare at him for another second. Then you snort, burying your face in the pillow. “You’re such a dick.”
“You didn’t mind last night.”
You groan, muffled. “Please don't. It's too early for this.”
He laughs — really laughs — and you feel it wash over you like a warm breeze. He’s not weird about it. Not cagey or distant. And maybe it’s a little disarming how himself he still is. Like nothing’s changed.
Like everything has, but it’s fine.
He shifts again, flops onto his back beside you with a loud sigh and an arm flung dramatically over his eyes. “I don’t think I’ve ever been this hungover and this smug at the same time. It’s honestly kind of impressive.”
You glance at him, lips twitching. “Your ego’s going to explode.”
He peeks at you from under his arm. “Can you blame me? I mean, damn.”
You roll your eyes and toss a corner of the blanket over his face.
But your heart’s still racing.
You don’t know what you were expecting — some awkward shuffle out of bed, a strained goodbye, maybe even him pretending it hadn’t happened. But he’s still here. In your bed. In your space. Making you laugh.
Just like always.
Your fingers brush against his under the covers. Neither of you pull away.
You stare at the ceiling for a moment, letting yourself breathe. Letting the silence settle between you again. It feels different now, not loud with questions or demanding anything from you.
It feels like… him.
And maybe you’re not ready to ask what it means yet.
But for now?
This doesn’t feel like a mistake. Not even a little.
You’re standing outside your office building, arms crossed and scowling.
The sidewalk’s sticky with the leftover heat of the day, and there’s a cluster of your co-workers behind you laughing about something you’re not a part of. Their voices blur into the honks and hum of Friday traffic, and all you can focus on is the time.
Jungkook is two minutes late.
You know how stupid it is — two minutes. But today, even two seconds of anything feels like too much.
You shift your weight from one foot to the other, the back of your neck damp with sweat, the strap of your bag digging into your shoulder in just the wrong way. Your phone sits heavy in your palm. No new messages. No “almost there.” No “sorry, traffic’s ass.”
Nothing.
The week has wrung you out like a wet towel. Every day, some new tiny disaster: deadlines moving without warning, your boss micromanaging you like you’re an intern again, and a meeting yesterday where a client talked over you so many times you wanted to crawl under the table and scream.
You’ve barely slept. Your eyes are scratchy. You snapped at someone in the break room this morning because they made a passive-aggressive joke about your “resting bitch face.” And now, Jungkook is late. On your day. Friday. The one consistent thing in your life.
Every Friday, he picks you up from work.
It started almost a year ago, after a breakup left you crying into your salad at your desk. When Jungkook had texted you to come down that day, you'd expected takeout and tissues. But instead, he’d cranked up the music in his car and driven you to a late-night ramen spot where you ended up laughing so hard you nearly choked on your noodles.
It became tradition. No matter what kind of week you’d had, no matter what mood either of you were in — Friday nights belonged to you two. You didn’t even have to plan anything. Sometimes it was tacos in the car and talking shit about your co-workers. Sometimes it was video games at his place or walking around the city until your legs ached and your cheeks hurt from laughing.
He always showed up. Early, even.
But today, the sun is setting in your eyes, and he’s late.
You tap your foot. Then stop, because that’s annoying. Then sigh loud enough to get a look from a passing stranger.
You grip your phone tighter, squinting down the street. Still no sign of his car. Your thumb hovers over the call button.
Three minutes late now.
Your stomach twists — not from worry, but frustration. Because this — this quiet, unnecessary delay — is the cherry on top of the shit sundae that has been your entire week. And you hate that it’s him. That even Jungkook gets to be a part of the unravelling now.
You lean against the metal pole of the bus sign, letting it bite into your spine. A bead of sweat slips down your back. The sun is way too bright for this hour.
Your phone buzzes.
Finally.
You snatch it up like you’ve been waiting for a lifeline, and there it is:
Kook 🍜: here in a min
You glare at the screen. Then type:
You: You’re late.
Kook 🍜: exactly 3 min. that’s barely anything
You: You’re lucky I’m too exhausted to castrate you.
Kook 🍜: bet you'll still get in the car
You don’t respond.
You just shove your phone back in your bag and take a breath that doesn’t do anything to help.
Jungkook’s car pulls up slow, music low, window already halfway down. He’s in that stupid black bucket hat he always wears, curls pushed out from under the brim. You catch the grin he’s wearing before he even says anything — wide, lazy, like he’s proud just to have found parking.
He leans over and calls out through the window, “Damn. Which poor intern did you kill today?”
You glare at him.
His smile falters a little, but he keeps going, still trying to crack you open like usual. “I mean, you’re kinda glowing with hate. It’s kinda hot. Very—”
“Jungkook,” you cut in, sharp.
His eyes snap up to yours.
You immediately hate how sharp your voice came out. You look away, fingers curling around the strap of your bag.
“Sorry,” you mutter after a beat. “I just… I’ve had a fucking awful week, and I’m really not in the mood for jokes right now.”
There’s a pause. Just the hum of the engine and a soft beat coming from the speakers — some song with a lazy bassline and breathy vocals.
Then he shifts. You hear the click of the lock before he leans over to push the door open for you. “Get in.”
You do. Without arguing.
The cool air hits your face the second the door closes, and you let your head lean back against the seat. He doesn’t say anything right away. Just starts driving, hands loose on the wheel, his bottom lip tugged between his teeth like he’s thinking.
“You wanna talk about it?” he asks eventually, softer this time.
You shake your head. “Not really. Just one of those weeks where everything goes to shit in slow motion. Work, people, the world. My brain. I think I hate everyone.”
He hums. “Cool. We can start a club.”
You huff a laugh, just barely. But it’s something.
He glances at you sideways, like he’s measuring how far he can push. “So when do I get to punch your boss?”
“I’m serious, Kook.”
“I'm serious too! I’ve been doing push-ups.”
You snort, against your will. “You do three push-ups and call it training.”
“First of all, way more than three. Second, the form was perfect. Don’t disrespect me in my own car.”
You smile — tiny, fleeting — but it’s the first time today you’ve felt even remotely human.
“Thanks for picking me up,” you murmur after a second. “Even if you were late.”
“Exactly three minutes,” he says, defensive. “And I was texting you while driving, which is dedication. Illegal, but dedication.”
You glance over at him. He’s wearing his usual all-black like he’s trying to look tough, but the corners of his mouth are soft. His grip on the wheel is loose. Familiar. Like this is just another Friday, like nothing’s changed since last week.
But something has. You feel it.
You clear your throat. “Can we just go back to mine? I kind of want to curl into a blanket and pretend I don’t exist.”
“Nope,” he says instantly.
You blink. “What?”
“I have a plan.”
“A plan?”
“Yep.”
“What kind of plan?”
He just grins, eyes still on the road. “You’ll see.”
You narrow your eyes. “I swear to god, if this ends with me getting roped into karaoke—”
“No karaoke,” he says with a laugh, holding up one hand solemnly. “I promise. You’ve suffered enough.”
You sigh and let your head fall against the window. The glass is cool against your temple, and you let your eyes slip closed for a second. “I’m serious though, Kook. I really don’t think I have the energy to be around people right now.”
“No people,” he assures you. “Just us. Little detour. Nothing dramatic.”
You peek one eye open at him. “You’re being weird.”
“I’m being nice.”
“That’s what’s weird.”
He smirks. “Okay, that’s fair.”
You fall quiet again. The road noise fills the silence, the gentle whir of tires and the low pulse of the bass. It’s soothing in a way, the way riding with him always is.
Your fingers drift to your lap, fidgeting with the hem of your shirt. He doesn’t ask again about your week. He just drives, one hand on the wheel, the other resting casually near the gearshift, fingers tapping to the beat of the music.
You glance at him again.
He looks good when he’s focused but relaxed. The way he hums along to the music without realising. The way the light paints the side of his face gold as it streams through the windshield. You feel it crawl up your chest: that annoying, warm pressure. That thing you haven’t named yet.
That thing you’re starting to feel more often when he’s near you.
And it’s so stupid. So inconvenient.
You stare out the window, try to shake it off.
He turns down a street you don’t recognise.
“Seriously,” you say, finally. “Where are we going?”
He just grins again, eyes still forward.
“You’ll see.”
You’re parked at the top of a hill you didn’t know existed.
Below you, the city stretches out — tiny glints of light catching on glass and metal, and cars threading through the streets like slow-moving ants. It’s not some tourist lookout spot. There’s no crowds, no fences or coin-operated telescopes. Just a dusty turnout on the side of a winding road and a view that makes you feel like the world finally shut up for a minute.
It’s quiet up here. Real quiet. Even the music in the car has been turned down to a soft background hum — just instrumental now.
You’ve got a milkshake in your hands, condensation slipping down the side and catching on your fingers. It’s thick and rich, the kind that takes actual effort to sip through a straw. The sweetness coats your tongue, dulls the bitter edge that’s been living in your chest all week. In your lap is the discarded wrapping of a burger so good you had to ask where the hell it came from.
“I’ve literally never heard of this place,” you say around a mouthful of fries. “Is this one of those ‘secret menu, don’t tell anyone or they’ll kill you’ joints?”
Jungkook grins around his own bite, sauce already on the corner of his mouth. “Maybe. The guy who owns it doesn’t even do social media. Total off-the-grid.”
You nod like that explains the magic burger. “They probably sold their soul to the devil for the recipes or something.”
He laughs, mouth full, and leans over to wipe the sauce off with the back of his hand. “You okay now?”
You pause.
The question isn’t heavy. He doesn’t even look at you when he says it — just stares out at the view like he’s asking casually. But you hear the real version underneath. You always hear it with him.
You take a slow sip of your milkshake before answering.
“Yeah,” you say. “I think I am.”
And for once, it’s not a lie. Your body still feels wrung out, your muscles sore from being tense for too many days in a row, but something about this — about being here, with him, with real food and fake silence and a breeze that smells like clean air and french fries settles something in you.
You glance over. He’s sitting back against the driver’s side door, one knee propped up. His hat’s on the floor somewhere — he'd thrown it off after complaining about the heat — and the curve of his neck is exposed just enough to distract you when you look too long.
Which you are. Looking too long, again.
“So,” you say, casually. “How many women have you brought up here to seduce with mystery burgers and pretty views?”
He snorts. “You’re the first. Most of my dates prefer the classic ‘come over and watch a movie, but don���t actually watch the movie’ route.”
You raise an eyebrow. “Wow. Such effort.”
“Right? I’m kind of romantic like that.”
You toss a fry at him. It bounces off his chest and lands in his tray.
He doesn’t flinch. Just picks it up and eats it. “Thanks.”
You roll your eyes, but you can't help the smile that tugs on your lips.
The air settles into a rhythm again. You chew slowly, the kind of silence between you that doesn’t need filling. It's never been hard, being around him. Even now — after everything — you find yourself slipping back into the easy groove of just existing next to him.
Your phone buzzes in your bag, but you don’t reach for it. You don’t even want to know.
You glance over at him again.
He’s still working on his burger, brows furrowed like he’s trying to solve it. Like he’s mad at how good it tastes.
It should be funny.
It is funny. But your heart stutters instead.
You don’t laugh. You just watch.
The way his lips press together before each bite. The little crease between his eyebrows. His jaw, flexing with each chew. The thick column of his throat when he swallows.
You’ve seen him eat a thousand things in a thousand places. Messy tacos. Gas station snacks. Instant noodles straight from the pot. But somehow, this moment feels different.
Or maybe you do.
Something in you has been tilting all week.
You’ve been tired, angry, brittle with exhaustion. But under it — every time he texts you, looks at you, shows up — there’s something else rising. Warm and low.
You’re not sure when being around him stopped feeling simple.
Maybe it was that night. Maybe it’s been creeping in longer. But it’s louder now. Clearer. It fills your throat and sits behind your ribs and presses up against the edges of your self-control.
He licks ketchup from his thumb.
And you can’t stop staring at his mouth.
He glances up and catches you looking, raising an eyebrow. “What?”
You blink. Swallow. Try to think of something else, anything else, but your body’s already too aware. Too wired.
“Would you hate me if I did something?” you ask, voice low.
His head tilts. “What kind of something?”
“Would you?” you repeat, ignoring his question.
He puts his empty milkshake cup and spare tissues into the paper bag you got the food in, then puts it on to the dashboard of the car before meeting your gaze again.
“You know I could never hate you,” he says, voice casual.
Your pulse stutters.
And before you can talk yourself out of it, your fingers fist in the front of his shirt and you’re moving across your seat, crashing your mouth into his.
It’s not sweet or delicate.
You kiss him like you’ve been holding it back for weeks. Like you’ve hit your limit and there’s nowhere else for the feeling to go. Your teeth scrape his lip. Your noses bump.
He makes a startled sound, hands finding your waist instinctively. You pull back a bit, heart hammering in your chest, and for a beat, neither of you move. He just stares at you — wide-eyed, lips parted — like he’s trying to memorise this exact second.
His mouth opens and closes for a second before his lips are on yours again, chasing your mouth like he needs you to breathe.
Fuck. You weren't actually expecting him to reciprocate.
Then again, you hadn't been thinking at all.
"This is a horrible idea," you mumble.
Jungkook smiles into the kiss. "Mhm. Terrible."
But neither of you stop. You're not sure you could even if you tried. Jungkook's an addicting man, especially when he's kissing you like this.
You grunt into his mouth when your knee hits the centre console, frustrated — not at him, not at this, but at the fucking layout of his stupid car.
You pull back just far enough to say, breathless, “This car is the worst possible place for this.”
He’s panting a little, lips flushed. “You’re the one who launched yourself at me.”
You roll your eyes, shifting your position to try and get comfortable, but your impatience only grows with every second that your lips aren't on his.
“Fuck,” you mutter, pushing your hair out of your face. “This is so—”
“Hot,” Jungkook cuts in, his hand sliding under your shirt to palm your waist. His touch is warm. Steady. “It’s hot.”
You pause. Look at him.
His gaze is on your mouth again and his hand flexes against your skin like he’s trying to stay in control. But you see it — how much effort it’s taking.
And that…
Yeah, that does something to you.
With the help of his hands, your weight sinks down into his lap, both knees straddling his thighs.
The position isn’t comfortable — your head almost knocks the ceiling — but it’s better than before. Your mouths press together again, desperate.
Your tongue slides against his, your teeth catch on his bottom lip, and he pulls you tighter like you might disappear if he lets go.
One of his hands snakes up your back, under your shirt, fingers splaying across your spine like he wants to map it. You grind down against him, slow and deliberate, and his breath stutters.
“Fuck,” he mutters into your mouth. “Do that again.”
You do.
He tilts his head and deepens the kiss, like he’s trying to taste everything you’ve never said out loud. You lose your balance for a second, your body leaning into him, your chest flush with his. His hand slips up to your jaw, thumb brushing along your cheekbone.
You roll your hips again, slower this time, and he breaks the kiss with a gasp, resting his forehead against yours.
“Shit,” he says, voice wrecked. “We can’t do this here.”
“Why not?” you murmur, mouth still grazing his.
He laughs — short, breathless. “Because I’m gonna break the gearshift with my dick if we keep going.”
You laugh too, the sound getting lost between the kisses you press to his jaw, his neck, the line of his throat.
His fingers dig into your waist. “You’re evil.”
You bite his earlobe gently. “You like it.”
He groans, the sound full and needy, and his hands are on your ass, dragging you harder into him, his hips rolling up to meet yours.
You both freeze at the contact.
Your breath catches. His does too.
You pull back to look at him. His eyes are blown wide. His lips are red. His chest rises and falls like he’s run a mile.
His mouth breaks from yours, breath ragged, lips swollen.
“Backseat,” he says, voice a little raspy.
You blink, still breathless. “What?”
He grabs your waist again, eyes dark with lust pooling in his pupils. “Backseat. Now.”
You don’t question him this time.
You clamber into the back with far less grace than you’d like — knees catching on leather, thigh knocking the steering wheel hard enough to make the horn let out a pathetic chirp. Jungkook laughs behind you, but it’s breathless and reverent, the kind of sound that makes you feel seen. Wanted.
You fall into the back seat, legs tangled, heart hammering, your skin hot beneath your clothes. Before you can even fix your hair or adjust your position, he’s climbing in after you.
His body slots over yours, knee between your thighs, hands bracing on either side of your head as he dives back in.
You fist his shirt, tugging him impossibly closer as his mouth breaks from yours and moves lower — along your jaw, down your neck. His lips are soft but relentless, nipping at the skin just below your ear before sucking hard enough to make your hips buck into him.
“Fuck,” you whisper, head falling back. “You’re—god—”
“Still not tired of me?” he murmurs against your throat.
You grip his shoulders, legs falling open to make room for him between them. “Shut up.”
He huffs a laugh against your skin, but he listens. Fingers move to your buttons, surprisingly nimble despite how wrecked he looks. He doesn’t tear anything. Doesn’t rush it. He undoes each one slowly, as if he’s unwrapping a gift he’s been waiting way too long to open.
As each button pops free, his mouth follows — kissing down the newly exposed skin between your breasts, over the curve of your ribs. His hands slide beneath the fabric, pushing it open until your chest is bared, and hooks a finger beneath the centre of your bra, tugging it down and out of the way until you're fully exposed beneath him.
He pulls back to look.
And when he does, he breathes your name.
Low. Like a prayer.
You watch his eyes drag over you, dark and worshipful. One hand cups your breast, his thumb brushing over your nipple in slow, lazy circles while the other grips your waist, holding you steady as your back arches into him.
He leans down again, tongue flicking over your nipple before his mouth closes around it — sucking just hard enough to make your toes curl. Your fingers fly to his hair, anchoring yourself in him as his teeth graze sensitive skin and his free hand teases the other side, drawing a sharp gasp from your throat.
“Kook—” you breathe, hips shifting beneath him, desperate for friction.
His mouth drags away with a wet sound. “Yeah, baby?”
The pet name sounds dangerous in his voice. Too natural. Like it belongs.
You don’t even call it out. You just say, “Need more.”
That’s all he needs to hear.
He drops one hand between your thighs, pressing it there over your pants with firm, maddening pressure. Just enough to make your breath stutter. His mouth is back on your chest, and his fingers start moving — slow at first, then harder, more purposeful, dragging against the seam of the fabric like he knows exactly how to push you to the edge.
He does.
And you’re already spiralling, body burning under his touch, chest heaving, lips swollen, the back seat of his car too cramped, too humid, too perfectly wrong for what’s happening.
But you’ve never wanted anything more.
Your head drops back against the seat, a soft moan catching in your throat as Jungkook keeps working you over through your pants, his fingers circling you like he has all the time in the world and none of the patience to waste it.
“I swear to god,” you pant, “if you don’t get these off me right now, I’m gonna lose my fucking mind.”
He laughs, still panting himself. His mouth presses hot and open to your neck, teeth grazing skin that’s already buzzing. “Bossy tonight, huh?”
“You started this.”
“And I’m gonna finish it,” he mutters, breath warm against your collarbone.
He shifts down your body and you feel him fumble with the button of your pants, tongue poking at the corner of his mouth in concentration.
“I can do it,” you say, breathless. “You’re slow.”
He blinks up at you, eyebrows raised. “Oh? I’m slow?”
You undo the button in one motion, zipper halfway down, and shoot him a sarcastic smile. “There. Congrats.”
He smiles, wide and wicked, and in the next second, he’s got your pants halfway down your thighs, your panties bunched right after. “Cool. I’ll just use my mouth then.”
That wipes the smugness off your face in an instant.
You freeze.
“Kook— wait, no—”
He pauses, glancing up at you from where he’s knelt between your legs, hair falling into his eyes, hands gripping your thighs with intent. “Did you just try and say no to that?”
“I mean…” You squirm, thighs twitching under his touch. “Last time was already— like, I came. A lot. You don’t have to do the whole… y’know…”
“The whole what?” he asks, voice dangerously innocent. “The part where I make you forget your own name with my tongue?”
You glare at him. “Don’t say it like that.”
He smirks, leaning in until his nose brushes your inner thigh. “Say what? That I’m gonna eat you out until you’re dripping into the seat?”
Your whole body jerks. “Jesus— Kook.”
“That’s not a no.”
He presses a kiss to your inner thigh, slow and warm. Then another. And another. Higher. Closer.
“Didn't get to do it last time,” he murmurs. “And I’ve been thinking about it. All fucking week.”
“You think about this?” you ask, trying for teasing, but your voice wavers as his mouth brushes closer to your core.
“Every night.”
Your breath catches.
“Every time I jerked off, it was to the sound you made when I had my fingers in you. You remember that?” he asks, dragging his mouth up until he’s just hovering over you, warm breath ghosting across your heat.
You nod, because you can’t speak. Your fingers are curled tight into the edge of the seat. Your thighs twitch.
“You remember what you said? ‘Please, don’t stop,’” he mimics, voice low and mocking. “But now you wanna tell me to stop this?”
You open your mouth to fire back some bratty reply — but then he presses a single, firm kiss against your cunt.
Your brain blanks.
Your hips buck.
“Fuck— okay,” you gasp, voice breaking.
He grins like he’s won a bet. “Knew you’d cave.”
Then his mouth is on you.
Hot and slow at first — just one long lick from bottom to top that has your eyes rolling back. His hands pin your thighs apart, anchoring you in place as he buries his face between your legs.
His tongue is obscene. Soft and firm in perfect rhythm, flicking over your clit before sealing his mouth around it and sucking hard enough to make your vision blur.
You cry out, hips stuttering up into his face, but he just groans against you.
“Fuck, you’re so messy already,” he mumbles against you. “Is that for me?”
You’re beyond words.
Your fingers snake into his hair, anchoring yourself as he eats you out like a man with something to prove. He moves with precision and hunger, memorising your every twitch, every gasp, every breathless curse.
“God, Kook—” you pant, eyes squeezed shut. “You’re such a fucking overachiever.”
He pulls back just enough to look up at you, chin slick, pupils blown. “You gonna dock my grade if I make you come too fast?”
You glare down at him, chest heaving. “You’re insufferable.”
He presses a kiss to your clit, slow and sharp. “As if it doesn't turn you on."
You can’t argue. Not when he dives back in, tongue sliding over you with maddening confidence, his nose bumping against your clit as he hums.
The pressure builds fast.
Too fast.
And you know it’s coming — the kind of orgasm that starts at your toes and climbs like a fuse to the rest of you — but you don’t care.
You come hard, shaking through it, barely aware of the sounds leaving your mouth. Everything goes white-hot for a second — your grip in his hair, the tremble in your thighs, the pleasure that pulses through you.
You’re still gasping, thighs trembling, when he finally pulls back. His lips are slick, his chin wet with you, and he looks fucking wrecked.
He wipes his mouth with the back of his hand.
“You good?” he asks, cocky and a little breathless.
You shoot him a look. “Do I look good?”
He smirks. “You look like I just rocked your shit.”
You scoff, weak but grinning. “You’re so full of yourself.”
He kisses your inner thigh, then leans up, mouth dragging over your ribs as he moves back over you. “Just calling it like I see it.”
Your hands slide under his shirt as he settles above you again, dragging it up over his toned stomach until he gets the hint and peels it off. You press your palms to his chest, warm and solid and slick with sweat.
Then your hand starts moving lower.
Jungkook freezes above you, eyes flicking down to where your fingers are tugging at his waistband. You smirk up at him.
“My turn?”
“Your turn to what?” he asks, voice already hoarse.
You shift, nudging his hips up so you can start pulling his jeans open. “You think I’m gonna let you have all the fun?”
He groans — actual, full-bodied groan — as you work the zipper down and slide your hand beneath the waistband of his boxers.
But the second your fingers wrap around him, he grabs your wrist.
You look up, surprised. “What?”
He’s panting now, jaw tight, brow furrowed like he’s holding on by a thread.
“I can’t.”
You blink. “Can’t what?”
“I— fuck, if you put your mouth on me, I’m not gonna last.” He grips your wrist tighter, not pulling away but not letting you move either. “And I need to be in you first.”
You raise a brow, amused. “What happened to all that stamina you brag about during Mario Kart?”
He glares, cheeks flushed. “That’s different. You don’t suck me off during Mario Kart.”
“Maybe I should.”
“Don’t joke right now,” he grits out, pushing your hand out of his boxers with an almost painful kind of restraint. “I’m serious. I’m already dying.”
You pout, dragging your nails lightly down his stomach just to be a brat. “So needy.”
His eyes narrow, before moving back onto you.
You squeal as he pins your hands above your head, his body crashing into yours, mouth crashing against your neck.
“I’ll show you needy,” he growls, voice thick and dark.
Your heart kicks hard in your chest, and you’re smiling — giddy, wrecked, turned on beyond belief.
“You promise?” you whisper, voice almost mocking.
His hips roll down into yours.
“Oh, baby. I promise.”
The second his hips grind down again, dragging against your soaked heat, you feel your breath punch out of your lungs.
He lets go of your wrists and shoves his jeans and boxers down just far enough to free himself, cock flushed and heavy, already leaking at the tip. You reach for it instinctively, wanting to feel him, stroke him slow just to tease — but he swats your hand away like it’s nothing.
“No,” he growls, leaning in to press a kiss to your collarbone, rough and reverent all at once. “You had your chance.”
You open your mouth to argue, to push his buttons just a little more — but the head of his cock nudges your entrance, and whatever snark you had queued up melts into a gasp.
Jungkook groans under his breath, burying his face in the crook of your neck like the restraint is killing him. “Fuck, you’re so wet.”
“Yeah,” you rasp, gripping his shoulders, nails digging in. “Wonder why.”
He shifts his hips, just a little, dragging the thick head through your folds. Not pushing in yet, but slicking himself up with you. You moan despite yourself, arching into him, your body desperate to be filled.
“You ready?” he mutters, voice ragged.
You look at him — really look at him. His hair’s a mess, stuck to his forehead. His lips are kiss-bruised and red. His abs flex as he holds himself up over you, barely restraining the shake in his arms.
And you’ve never wanted anything so badly in your life.
“Yeah,” you whisper. “Please.”
He doesn’t need to be told twice.
He pushes in slow, thick and stretching, and your breath catches at the burn. Your back arches. One hand flies to the window for leverage, the other fists in the back of his neck.
“Jesus,” Jungkook groans, barely halfway in. “You feel— fuck— you feel insane.”
You laugh, short and winded. “That’s what you said last time.”
“Yeah, and I meant it.”
He bottoms out with a curse, hips flush to yours. For a moment, you both just breathe — heavy and ragged, bodies locked together, the air thick with sweat and want.
His movements are slow at first — just a shallow roll of his hips that drags his cock along every nerve ending inside you. You moan, legs tightening around his waist, heels digging into the backs of his thighs.
“Faster,” you breathe, already twitching around him.
He leans back just enough to watch your face, eyes locked on yours like he’s chasing every reaction. Then he picks up the pace — slamming into you with long, deep strokes that have the car rocking.
You cry out, snapping your hand up to press against your mouth. “Kook— fuck, don’t stop.”
He laughs — laughs, breathless and wrecked. “You think I could?”
Every thrust punches a gasp from your lungs. You can’t think. You can’t do anything but hold on.
He shifts, bracing one knee on the seat and angling his hips just right — and when he hits that spot inside you, your whole body jerks.
“Oh my god,” you moan.
“Right there?” he grits out, sweat dripping down his jaw. “Fuck, I feel it— your pussy’s so fucking tight, you’re gonna— shit— you’re gonna make me come.”
“Thought you said I’d be the one begging.”
He groans, pulls out almost all the way, then slams back in so hard you scream.
“Still wanna be a brat?” he growls, panting.
You nod, grinning through the moans. “Always.”
“Fine.” He grabs both your wrists again and pins them above your head, his body pressing into you harder now, relentless, sweat slicking your skin. “Then you can take it.”
And fuck, you do.
Your second orgasm creeps up on you fast — your whole body tensing as his thrusts get rougher, deeper, desperate. You cry out his name, high and wrecked, and the sound makes him snap.
His rhythm falters. His mouth crashes against yours, sloppy and hot, all teeth and tongue as he chases his own edge.
“I’m gonna—” he gasps, pulling back to look at you, eyes wild. “Fuck— can I—?”
You nod fast, moaning. “Inside. Just do it.”
That’s all it takes.
He buries himself one last time and shatters — groaning low in your ear as he spills into you, body shaking, arms trembling with effort as he holds himself up.
For a moment, it’s just the sound of breathing. Wind through cracked windows. The slow drip of sweat down your temples. The burn in your thighs. The mess between your legs.
Jungkook lets out a choked laugh and slumps down, burying his face in your neck. “Okay,” he mumbles. “That might’ve been the best sex I’ve had in a fucking car.”
You laugh, dazed. “You say that like it’s a long list.”
“Give me some credit,” he says, voice muffled against your skin. “I’m not that trashy.”
You stroke your fingers through his hair, still catching your breath. “We just fogged up every window in your car.”
“Worth it.”
He doesn’t move.
You’re still tangled together, his weight heavy on you, his softening cock still inside.
After a moment, he shifts slightly and lets out a low, satisfied sigh. You can feel the smile against your neck before he presses another kiss there. Then another. And another.
You squirm, half-laughing, half-exasperated. “You’re clingy as fuck after sex.”
“Mm-hmm,” Jungkook hums, completely unashamed. “Deal with it.”
You roll your eyes, still grinning. “You’re like a weighted blanket.”
He lifts his head just enough to look at you, sweaty curls falling into his eyes. “You love it.”
“Debatable.”
He snorts, then finally pulls out, slow and careful. You both groan at the feeling, and you feel it immediately: his cum, warm and slick, already starting to slide out of you.
You shift to reach for your underwear, cringing at the sticky feeling.
“I’ll clean you up,” he says, voice quiet but certain. “When we get home.”
You blink at him. “You don’t have to. Just drop me off—”
“No.” His tone is firmer now, jaw set. “I’m not just dropping you off.”
You stare at him for a beat, surprised by the sharp edge in his voice. Then you glance down pull up your bra and button up your shirt, suddenly very aware of your heartbeat again.
He watches you the whole time, his eyes dragging over your skin like he’s memorising every inch of it before covering it back up. And when you finish with the last button and reach for your jeans, he leans forward and kisses your jaw — soft, almost reverent.
“I mean it,” he murmurs. “Let me take care of you.”
And for some reason, you don’t fight it.
You’re lying in his bed, hair still damp from the shower, the curve of his hoodie soft against your bare thighs. The sheets smell like fabric softener and his cologne, and the room is dim — just the small lamp by the closet casting a low amber glow. There’s a bowl of ramen on the nightstand, still steaming. You’re not hungry, but he made it for you, so you took a few bites anyway.
Outside, the city hums. A car passes on the street below. Somewhere down the hall, the radiator clicks.
It should feel normal. Comfortable. It did feel normal — until maybe twenty minutes ago.
Things were fine when you got here. He’d pulled you toward the bathroom and handed you a towel, that stupid grin still half on his face. He even said something about making noodles if you promised not to pass out in his bed again. You’d laughed. Called him a housewife. Everything felt fine.
But when you came out of the shower, something was different.
He was sitting on the edge of the bed, scrolling his phone like he didn’t hear you walk in. And when he looked up, the smile was there, yeah — but it didn’t fully reach his eyes. You shrugged it off. Maybe you imagined it. Maybe he was just zoning out.
But then it kept going.
Quiet, too quiet. He’d made the ramen without talking. Brought it to you, set it down, and just... sat on the floor for a while, scrolling again, saying nothing. When you asked what he was doing, he just said, “Checking something,” and didn’t elaborate. Eventually he stood, turned on a random playlist, and flopped into the chair in the corner with a bottle of water.
Now he’s across the room, scrolling again, leg bouncing slightly like he’s keyed up and trying to burn it off. He hasn’t looked at you in a few minutes. You watch the light from his phone flicker across his face, the way his brow furrows every now and then, and something in your chest tugs.
It’s not dramatic. He’s not being rude or distant. He’s not treating you like a stranger. But he’s not treating you like you, either — not the way he usually does.
You know him too well not to notice. The way he’s moving isn’t right. Like he’s stuck in his own head. Like there’s something he wants to say but doesn’t know how to bring up.
Or maybe he’s trying not to say something. Either way, it sits in the air between you, subtle but heavy.
You pull your knees up under the hoodie and wrap your arms around them, resting your chin there. Watching him. Waiting, maybe, for him to snap out of it. Say something dumb. Make fun of your hair. Crawl into bed next to you like it’s nothing.
But he doesn’t.
You shift slightly, tugging the hoodie down over your thighs even though it’s already covering you. The ramen’s gone lukewarm on the nightstand.
“Kook?”
His head lifts just a little. “Hmm?”
You hesitate. “What’s going on?”
He blinks, finally looking at you. His eyes are soft. Tired, maybe. Or just dimmer than usual. “What do you mean?”
“You just feel…” You trail off, unsure how to word it without sounding dramatic. “I don’t know. A little off.”
He smiles, and it’s almost convincing. “I’m good. Just tired.”
You don’t push. Not really. You know him. If he doesn’t want to talk, he won’t. And whatever this is — it doesn’t feel sharp enough to cut yet. It just feels strange.
“Okay,” you say quietly.
He glances down, then back at you. “Eat your noodles before they go gross.”
You glance at the bowl, then back at him. “You eat yet?”
He nods. “Earlier.”
You don’t believe him, but you let it slide.
He shifts in the chair, stretching his legs out and resting his head back for a second before sitting up again, like he was about to let himself relax and then thought better of it.
“I’m gonna get some work done before bed,” he says, standing up slowly. “Couple things I need to catch up on.”
You watch him move toward the door, half expecting him to stop, change his mind, come back and say something dumb like he always does. But he just opens it, hand braced against the frame.
His voice is gentle when he adds, “Don’t stay up too late, alright?”
You nod. “Yeah. I won’t.”
He gives you a small smile — soft, careful — and then he’s gone.
The door clicks shut behind him.
You stare at it for a long moment. The hoodie sleeves are pulled over your hands now. The ramen sits untouched. The playlist keeps playing, quiet and aimless in the background.
You let out a soft sigh before reaching over to flick off the lamp.
The room goes dark, soft shadows stretching over the walls. The sheets rustle as you shift down into them, tugging the comforter over your legs, the warmth doing nothing to quiet the noise in your head.
Maybe this is why people don’t sleep with their best friends.
Maybe this is exactly why those lines exist — because crossing them means risking everything else. And maybe you knew that. Maybe you ignored it anyway.
Because it was him.
Because part of you has been circling this for longer than you want to admit.
You close your eyes, breathing slow and steady. The scent of him still clings to the sheets. Still wraps around you like he should be here. But he’s not.
Regret settles low in your chest, dull and heavy. You hate the way it sits there, thick in your ribs, twisting slow in your stomach. You’ve always hated how it creeps in after the fact, when it’s already too late to take anything back.
You shift onto your side and pull the blanket up to your chin. Try to sleep. Try to stop thinking.
He said everything was fine.
You just wish you believed him.
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❝ i don't look good in this dress... ❞ ˚₊· ͟͟͞͞➳❥
♥︎ featuring: sylus, zayne, rafayel, xavier, caleb x fem!reader | prompt
— ༉‧₊ᐟ premise: you don't think this dress looks good on you... he begs to differ. 「i really don't see what you're seeing, babe.」
— ༉‧₊ᐟ tags/cws: fluff, shopping date, reader tries on a dress that hugs her curves and doesn't like how it looks, mentions of weight loss, insecurity, reassurance, he's whipped and worships the ground you walk on
— ♫₊ᐟ soundtrack: lipstick – charlie puth
✧ a/n: requested work that i rushed to complete because i wanted all of u to know that u are GORGEOUS. do us all a favor and wear that dress girl ♡(>ᴗ•)
Nothing makes you happier than a shopping date with the love of your life. The way he’d been so eager to plan this day—to put a smile on your pretty face as if your happiness were his own… Well, it is.
You’d made preparations of your own, too. You had a rough idea of what you wanted to try on, and you’re determined not to leave empty-handed today. All that’s left is to slip into the dresses you’ve picked.
But when you finally zip this one up, it’s… not what you’d hoped for. And deep down, part of you knows—it’s not the dress’s fault.
“Babe, I don’t look good in this dress…”
Sylus lounges on the fitting room couch, one arm stretched out on top of the backrest. He’s been sitting here this whole time, thoroughly enjoying the view each time you emerge from behind the curtains.
He’s cleared out the store today for you to shop “in peace,” so it’s just you, him, and two store assistants in the room.
He frowns at your words, raking his piercing eyes up and down the length of your body once more. A disbelieving smirk curls his lips as he drawls, “Don’t be ridiculous, sweetie. You look ravishing in this dress—in fact, I’ll have them ring it up for us right now—”
“I-I don’t think I want this one, babe…” You sigh as you gaze at your reflection in the mirror, the dress cinching your body in all the wrong places. It just looks…unflattering.
Sylus waves the assistants away and studies your expression once more, realization dawning. He’s always thought you pulled off everything you’ve ever worn—to him, this dress is no different. But he knows about your insecurities…
“…I’ve made my opinion clear, Kitten, but you can’t seem to get it in that head of yours that you are unreasonably beautiful.”
You smile at his words, though it doesn’t quite meet your eyes. You’ve heard him compliment your looks a thousand times now, but insecurities aren’t so easily vanquished. They start and end with… well, you. No one else can touch them.
“I love you for that, Sy—but it’s not that simple. I’ve lived with these thoughts my whole life.”
His arrogant stance softens, and though the sureness in his voice remains. To him, your beauty is fact—an indisputable one.
“I don’t mean to undermine what you’ve been through. I only mean to highlight my perspective.” He stands up and twirls you around like you’re dandelions waltzing through a ballroom of wind, his hands memorizing every curve, every dip of your body. “If you could only see yourself the way I do… I’d squander the world for just another glimpse.”
Zayne leans against a wall, your leather purse in hand. He waits patiently while you try on each piece of clothing, occasionally pulling out his phone to skim through articles on cardiothoracic surgery training in Japan.
You step out of the fitting room wearing a form-fitting black dress, unsure what to think of it. It feels a little tight around your hips, and though you’ve been eager to try it on for days, you can’t help but feel disappointed. You glance at your reflection in the mirror and fight the urge to retreat into the fitting room before anyone else sees you.
Zayne catches the panic in your eyes. “What’s wrong?” he asks.
“It’s just… This dress makes me look chubbier, don’t you think?”
He tilts his head and pushes his glasses up the bridge of his nose. “It accentuates your curves, which is hardly something to be upset about. You look beautiful—as always.”
His words warm you, but the tightness in your chest remains, your insecurities gripping your ribcage like a clawed hand. “I should lose some weight…” you mutter.
His brows knit together as he steps closer, concern softening his features. “Don’t sacrifice your health and wellbeing for the sake of meeting society’s so-called 'beauty standards. They’re unrealistic, fabricated, and frankly, unattainable. Your natural body is perfect just the way it is, and I mean that." He presses a kiss to your forehead. "This dress is gorgeous because you’re wearing it.”
He cups your cheek in his palm, and you smile up at him. Sensitive, adoring Zayne. While it’ll take more than an ultra-romantic speech to quiet the voice inside your head, his reassurance soothes the ache you’ve carried for years.
What once was a scar is now a patch of healing tissue—thanks in part to Zayne’s unwavering affirmations, and in part to your own efforts to love and accept yourself.
A group of girls are parading their outfits a few booths down from yours, giggling and squealing as they pose for photos. They’re stunning—slim and toned in all the right places, with flawless skin and sculpted jawlines.
You glance down at the dress you’re wearing, and it feels like a punch to the gut. How can you ever compete with girls like that? How do you look next to them? A nauseating wave of envy and self-doubt crashes over you, and your eyes instinctively seek out Rafayel for reassurance.
He’s staring at you with wide, hazy eyes, lips slightly parted as his gaze roams over your body. You blush, self-conscious, crossing your arms over your torso.
He jolts back to reality, the misty look on his face evaporating. “What was that for? I was enjoying the view.”
“You don’t have to lie, you know. This dress isn’t for me…”
He shakes his head, clearly baffled, and closes the distance between you in two strides. A half-smirk pulls at his lips as he says, “You’re kidding me, right? You look fuckin’ hot.” His hands trail down your thighs, raising goosebumps in their wake. “Can we get this one? Please?” he murmurs into your ear.
You gently push him away. “...Nah. It’s unflattering on me.”
Rafayel scoffs, but there’s a surprising tenderness in his eyes when he says, “Listen, babe, you’re the most drop-dead gorgeous woman on earth, and the fact that you can’t see that? It genuinely breaks my heart. Tragic, really—”
You smack his arm and chuckle, the heaviness in your chest already starting to lift. Bless Rafayel and his ability to pull you from the depths of your own mind. Turning back to the mirror, you glance at your reflection again and think… It does make your ass look amazing. “…Maybe I will get it.”
“That’s my girl.” His grin turns wicked. “I can’t wait to take it off you…”
Xavier is dozing off on the couch, his head drooping and his eyelids fluttering. It’s an adorable sight—one that nearly distracts you from the reflection in the dressing room mirror.
Your hands smooth over the fabric of the blue cocktail dress, its fit on your body…disappointing. This isn’t how it looked on the mannequin, you think, heat blooming in your cheeks. All at once, your insecurities come crashing down, suffocating you with reminders that you’re “less than”, that you’ll never feel truly comfortable in your own skin—
“I like that dress. You look good.”
You spin around to see Xavier now sitting upright, his gaze fixed on your back. “You think so?”
He nods, a shy smile tugging at his lips. “Yeah. But then again, everything looks good on you. It’s you.”
You bite your lip, hesitant to turn around. “You don’t think it makes me look… I don’t know…bigger?”
“Uhh…?” He frowns, confused. “What do you mean? Turn around. I want to see it.”
Slowly, you turn to face him, baring the gentle curve of your breasts and the mound of your tummy. You avert your gaze, fidgeting under the weight of his stare.
“Oh.”
“You don’t like it?” your voice wavers, your heart freezing as the blood drains from your face.
He shakes his head rapidly and shifts in his seat. “N-No, it’s not that… I just— I—” He quickly folds his arms over his lap, and you understand immediately.
A laugh escapes your lips.
He glares at you. “Don’t.”
“I’m sorry! You’ve just really boosted my confidence today, that’s all,” you say between giggles. Suddenly, the mirror doesn’t seem so cruel. If this turns him on just by looking at it…
“Yeah, yeah, you’re hot. We get it…” he mutters, still throwing you dirty looks on the car ride home.
You spin around in the yellow sundress, the fabric hugging your curves and accentuating your hips. It looked different when the model wore it online…
Caleb is gawking at you from outside the fitting booth, arms crossed over his chest. “That dress looks so sexy on you, Pips. Let me get it for you—”
“Wait! I, uh… I don’t know how I feel about it…” You try not to betray your emotions, shoving the knot of insecurity down your throat. You’ve always struggled with body image, but you don’t want to worry Caleb by bringing it up.
Or worse—put those ideas into his head.
He steps forward, placing his hands gently on your waist as he takes in the way the fabric cascades down your legs, how it emphasizes your soft curves and full breasts. The very sight of you in it steals the breath from his lungs.
“Is this about your body?” he asks carefully, clearly afraid of striking a nerve.
You look down at your feet and shift uneasily, the nagging feeling intensifying beneath the weight of his gaze.
Caleb leans in and tilts your face up to meet his. “...Hey. I’ve traveled the world, and you’re the most beautiful girl I’ve ever laid eyes on, okay?” His thumbs stroke your cheeks with the softness of a summer breeze. “Why else would I be dating you—your personality?”
You glare at him, fighting to suppress a smile.
He wraps you in his arms before you can argue, and you melt into his embrace, allowing yourself—for once—to believe him.
You’re strong, funny, determined, and kind; and let’s not forget the fact that you pulled Caleb, the hottest pilot in any airport and the only man who sees you for exactly who you are.
“You’re the eighth wonder of the world, babe. Inside and out.”
— ⋆˙⟡ ©berrryparfait
《 please do not copy / plagiarize / translate my works or publish them on any other platforms. 》
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˖ ֹ੭୧ CIRCUS LIFE ⊹ ࣪ ⑅
ˋ°•*⁀➷ batboys react to reader leaving them for the circus life !
ˋ°•*⁀➷CHARACTERS: Bruce Wayne, Dick Grayson, Jason Todd, Tim Drake, Aged up!Damian Wayne
NOTES: this was requested by anon, this was a fun one to write, i feel like i say that for every mini-fic or post ive made but LOL <3 also can yall tell who my fav batboy is LMAOOO
BRUCE WAYNE:
The Batcave was quiet. Suspiciously so. Which meant something was definitely about to go wrong.
Bruce looked up from his monitor, brows tightening just slightly. “You’ve been standing there for exactly forty-two seconds without speaking. Out with it.”
You inhaled dramatically, squaring your shoulders like you were announcing you’d enlisted for war. “I’m leaving.”
He didn’t flinch. Didn’t even blink.
So you added, “I’ve decided to join the circus.”
A pause. A full second. Two.
Bruce stared at you, dead silent, expression unreadable. The only sound was the whirr of the Batcomputer.
“…No.”
You blinked. “No?”
He stood. Slow. Controlled. The Batcape flared behind him like a storm cloud preparing to smother the sun.
“You’re not joining a circus.”
“That’s not really your call.”
“You live in a billion-dollar mansion. You have three degrees. Why would you need to—?”
“I just think the trapeze is calling me—”
“Dick can teach you trapeze. You don't have to run away to do it.”
“It’s not just about trapeze, Bruce. It’s about finding myself. Under the Big Top.”
He folded his arms.
“No.”
You shrugged. “Too late. I already bought stilts.”
Bruce reached into a pocket of his belt. Without breaking eye contact, he slapped a business card down on the Batcomputer keyboard. It read:
WAYNE ENTERPRISES – THREAT INTERVENTION DIVISION With a handwritten note underneath: ‘Reader joining circus – stop by any means necessary.’
You squinted. “Did you just pre-make that?”
“Preparedness is the difference between life and death.”
“…You are so dramatic.”
“Coming from the person abandoning their billionaire partner to live in a tent and walk on stilts.”
DICK GRAYSON:
You found him upside down—hanging by his knees from the pull-up bar in the Titans’ auxiliary training room, lazily doing sit-ups while humming September by Earth, Wind & Fire under his breath. His hair flopped perfectly with each motion, because of course it did.
You stood in the doorway, arms crossed. “Dick. I’ve made a life decision.”
“Okay, shoot.” Another sit-up.
“I’m leaving you.”
Mid-crunch. Pause. Then he tilted his head toward you, upside down, with a puzzled smile.
“Wait, you’re what now?”
“I’m leaving. For the circus.”
His legs slipped.
Dick landed in a tangle of limbs on the mat below with a very un-Nightwing-like grunt. He popped up a second later, looking wounded—but not physically.
“…You’re leaving me. For the circus.” He repeated it like it was a foreign language. “The circus? Like… with tents? And elephants?”
You nodded solemnly. “I feel like I was born for it.”
“You know I was actually born for it, right?! I came out of the womb flipping through fire hoops. I probably did somersaults in the ultrasound.”
“Exactly. It’s in your blood. I want to understand you better. I want to… walk your path.”
“Oh my god,” he whispered, devastated. “Is this some weird poetic thing about connecting to my roots?”
You nodded again. Slowly. Dramatically. “I’ve already packed a leotard.”
He looked like you’d kicked a puppy. “Do you even know how to catch someone mid-air with your legs?”
“I’ll learn.”
“I COULD HAVE TAUGHT YOU THAT.”
A beat. He inhaled deeply, pacing now.
“You want cotton candy, fine. You want a trapeze? Done. You want to be in a sparkly unitard suspended fifty feet in the air with no net? Great! But you don’t have to run away to do it. You have me. I am the circus!”
“…That might be the most dramatic thing you’ve ever said.”
“You literally just staged a breakup to test my reaction!”
You grinned. “So you’re saying you’d miss me?”
He exhaled through his nose. Then he pointed at you, still fake offended. “I’m showing up opening night. And if your aerialist partner drops you, I will suplex him into the popcorn stand.”
You saluted. “Deal, baby.”
JASON TODD:
You found him in his usual spot: lounging on the fire escape of his Gotham apartment, legs up on the railing, reading The Count of Monte Cristo like he wasn’t a crime lord with unresolved issues and a soft spot the size of a truck.
You slid the window open behind him. “Jay?”
“Hm?” he called over his shoulder, not looking up from the book.
“I’ve decided to leave.”
Still reading. “Cool. You want me to order pizza before you go?”
“I’m joining the circus.”
Page flip.
Pause.
Slow head turn.
“…The what?”
You climbed out next to him, sitting on the railing like you had not just dropped a grenade into the conversation. “I’ve thought long and hard about it. It’s my calling. I’m leaving the vigilante life to become a professional tightrope walker-slash-fire breather.”
Jason stared at you like you’d grown a second head. “Are you concussed?”
“No.”
“Is this a midlife crisis?”
“Maybe.”
He closed the book and stood up slowly, jaw clenching. “Tell me. Right now. Who put you up to this. Was it Dick?”
“No—”
“Is this some kind of Bat Family hazing? Are you gonna tell me Alfred signed off on you turning into a goddamn clown?”
“Jason, I bought a unicycle.”
His eye twitched. “You’re kidding.”
“I have the outfit.”
“You’re joking.”
“Jay, I—”
“I SWEAR TO GOD IF THIS IS ABOUT JOINING THE GOTHAM CARNIVAL BECAUSE OF THAT STUPID FLYER I LEFT ON THE COUNTER—”
“It was a good flyer.”
He was already moving, dragging a hand down his face. “I have bullet wounds older than this decision. You’re not built for circus life. You cry when someone honks a clown horn too loud.”
“Growth, babe. Character development.”
“No. No character. No development. You’re staying here, or I’m burning that tent down and threatening the ringmaster.”
You leaned your head against his arm, grinning. “You’re hot when you’re protective.”
Jason didn’t move for a second.
Then:
“…Is this a prank?”
“Yep.”
He exhaled, leaned back against the wall, and muttered, “I swear, one of these days, I’m putting you in a bubble wrap suit and making you watch normal people do normal things. Like grocery shopping. Or jury duty.”
You kissed his cheek. “But then you’d miss my chaos.”
“…Unfortunately.”
TIM DRAKE:
You found him exactly where you expected: hunched in front of his triple-monitor setup, wearing the same Gotham U hoodie he’d had on for three days, sipping coffee like it was oxygen. The Batcave glowed around him like a NASA launch center built by someone who hadn’t slept since 2012.
“Tim.”
“Mm?” he said without looking, fingers flying across the keyboard. “Be with you in one sec—trying to hack into a GCPD data vault. Montoya gave me partial access but their firewall’s been upgraded.”
You leaned on the desk. “I’m leaving.”
“Cool. Be back by nine?”
“No. Like... leaving leaving.”
Tim paused. Then turned to face you slowly, blinking through the fog of caffeinated genius. “…Define.”
“I’m joining the circus.”
Nothing.
Just staring.
Blank.
Then: He stood up.
“Okay. Who got to you?” His tone was serious. Clinical. Eyes darting.
You blinked. “What?”
“Was it Joker? Penguin? Scarecrow? No—wait. Balloon-themed mind control? Harley? I knew her last tweet was sus—”
“Tim—”
“Are you sending me a message in code? Because if this is code, I can decode it. Just blink twice if you’re being held hostage by carnies.”
“I’m not being held—Tim. I’m not being blackmailed. I’m not brainwashed. I just feel like the Big Top is calling me.”
He squinted. “You flinch when balloons pop. You called cotton candy ‘a clown’s fever dream.’ You ranked ‘circus peanuts’ below ‘poison’ on your snack tier list.”
“I’ve changed.”
Tim sat back down, opened a new browser tab, and muttered, “Clearly.”
You left for five minutes.
When you came back, he had 40 tabs open and a Google Slides deck titled: “Why You Should Not Join the Circus: A Tim Drake Analysis™”
He gestured for you to sit beside him.
“Slide one: disease rates in circus communities. Slide two: unregulated fire hazards. Slide three: emotional damage from prolonged exposure to calliope music. Slide eight—you’re going to like this one—makes a strong case for joining a cult being statistically less dangerous than your current plan.”
You tried so hard not to laugh.
“Tim—”
“Slide twelve has an exit strategy if you insist on going through with this. It involves me disguising myself as a bearded lady to infiltrate the premises.”
You blinked. “You already have a disguise plan?!”
“I always have a disguise plan.”
You smiled. “You love me.”
He sighed through his nose, typing again. “Unfortunately.”
AGED UP!DAMIAN WAYNE:
He was in the manor’s greenhouse, pruning one of his more violent bonsai trees when you dropped the bomb.
You leaned against the doorframe, smirking. “Hey, Dami?”
“Hm?” he answered without looking, delicately trimming a rogue branch with surgical precision.
“I’ve made a decision.”
His hands paused. “Go on.”
“I’m leaving. For the circus.”
Snip. Silence. Snip.
He turned slowly, one eyebrow raised. “You’re joking.”
You crossed your arms. “No. I’ve found my purpose. I want to juggle flaming knives and walk tightropes blindfolded.”
He stared at you, then looked down at the miniature bonsai in his hands.
“…This is about Grayson, isn’t it.”
“What? No—”
“You’ve been watching old footage of his trapeze routines again. I knew it.”
“Okay, but that’s not the point.”
“The point is that you—” He dropped the scissors with a soft clink and straightened up, looking you dead in the eye. “—are not leaving me to become a half-rate clown in a traveling freak show.”
You gasped dramatically. “Damian!”
“They will feed you terrible food, make you sleep in a mold-infested trailer, and laugh as you’re attacked by a poorly trained monkey.”
You tried so hard not to burst out laughing. “You’re being dramatic.”
“I am being realistic. You barely survived a weekend in Blüdhaven without air conditioning.”
“That was Blüdhaven, Dami. This is the circus.”
He scowled, storming past you. “I will not allow this.”
“You can’t stop me!”
“I can outbid them!”
“What?!”
“I’ll buy the circus! I’ll hire you myself. You can practice throwing knives at Todd.”
You broke. “Oh my god—”
He whipped around again, eyes fierce, chest rising with exasperated breath. “You are mine. I will not have you gallivanting around with balloon animals and trust falls while I sit here wondering if some idiot ringmaster is going to exploit your obvious lack of spatial awareness.”
“…You think I have no spatial awareness?”
“You walk into every doorframe in the manor. Every. One.”
You laughed until you cried. And still—he didn’t smile.
Finally, you wiped your eyes and stepped close, brushing your fingers under his jaw.
“You’d really buy a circus to keep me from leaving?”
He looked down at you, jaw clenched. “If it meant keeping you safe? I would raze it to ash before I let it take you from me.”
Your heart did a thing.
“…You’re so dramatic, my little knife boy.”
“And you are insufferable.”
You kissed his cheek. “Love you too.”
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“you’re so horny” ok so fuck me -S.R
Spencer Reid x coworker!reader
The BAU jet touched down at Quantico well past midnight. Another case, another town, another stack of horrific photos left behind. But your mind wasn’t on the unsub, not really. It was on the man sitting across from you on the jet, chewing thoughtfully on the inside of his cheek while he typed something into his tablet. Spencer Reid. Resident genius. Your favorite pain in the ass.
You stretched, deliberately arching your back just a little more than necessary, letting out a soft sigh.
Spencer didn’t even look up.
“You’re doing it again,” he said dryly, not missing a beat.
“Doing what?” you asked, all faux innocence as you leaned toward him, elbows on your knees, voice just above a whisper. “Trying to distract you?”
His gaze flicked to you then, sharp as ever, but with that annoyingly unreadable smile tugging at the corner of his mouth. “No. Being painfully obvious.”
You let out a scoff, crossing your arms. “You’re so annoying.”
“And you’re so horny,” he muttered under his breath, almost like a reflex.
You blinked. “Excuse me?”
He looked up again, eyes wide—mock innocent. “I said you're clearly suffering from a state of increased sexual arousal due to prolonged exposure to unresolved stimuli, which—statistically—is more common among high-stress professionals who have limited opportunities for consistent release. There’s actually a 2017 study out of Sweden—”
“Okay, stop.” You groaned, heat creeping into your cheeks. “You can’t just…diagnose me with being horny.”
“I think you diagnosed yourself,” he said smugly, leaning back and crossing his legs, ankle over knee like he was enjoying a private show.
You glared at him, flustered, squirming in your seat. “You're such a smug little shit.”
The engines of the jet were still winding down when Spencer stood up and slung his go-bag over his shoulder, stretching his arms with an audible pop of his spine. You followed him off the plane, resisting the urge to stare at the line of his back through his Henley.
“You know,” he said as you both stepped into the transport van, “if you’re going to keep using your sexuality as a weapon, you might want to fine-tune your aim. That stretch was a bit theatrical.”
You narrowed your eyes. “It worked, didn’t it?”
He smirked as he slid into the seat beside you. “Oh, it absolutely did. I’ve just built an immunity to your dramatics.”
Your voice dropped, words curling around your desire like smoke. “Funny, because I think if I put my hand in your lap right now, I’d find out just how immune you really are.”
Your glare lingered as the transport van rolled through the near-empty streets of Quantico, the dim cabin lights casting a glow on Spencer’s annoyingly perfect face. He was still smirking, arms crossed, legs spread just wide enough to be suggestive without technically doing anything wrong.
You shifted again, heat pooling lower in your belly. He knew what he was doing to you. Bastard.
“You keep squirming like that,” he murmured, voice low and conspiratorial, “I’m going to start thinking you want me to do something about it.”
“I do want you to do something about it,” you hissed under your breath. “But you’re too busy quoting Sweden and pretending you’re not hard right now.”
Spencer didn’t even blink. “Statistically speaking, I could be hard just from the friction of my jeans alone. But sure—blame your thighs.”
Your jaw dropped. “You’re such an asshole.”
“And you’re insatiable,” he countered easily, glancing at the driver before leaning close enough that his breath tickled your ear. “You know what turns me on more than that little act you put on back there?”
You swallowed hard. “What?”
“That right now, I could tell you not to touch yourself when you get home. And you’d listen. You’d hate it—whine about it—but you'd do it. Because the idea of me telling you when and how you get to come turns you on more than anything else.”
Your thighs clenched together involuntarily.
He smirked, satisfied. “You didn’t deny it.”
You wanted to rip his shirt off with your teeth. But instead, you clenched your jaw and stared out the window, muttering, “Fucking hate you.”
“No, you don’t.”
You swallowed hard. It wasn’t fair when he did that—when he flipped the switch from awkward genius to calculated menace. It was like watching Dr. Jekyll smirk knowingly as he turned into Hyde.
The worst part? He was right. You’d been half-crazed all week. The case had been long, your hotel room had been cold and lonely, and Spencer had spent every day teasing you.
You barely made it through the front door of your apartment before Spencer had you pinned against it, go-bag forgotten on the floor. His hands gripped your waist like he couldn’t stand the idea of not touching you, his mouth hot and searching against yours, tongue sliding over yours with a groan that vibrated straight through your chest.
You gasped into his mouth, hands tangled in his curls before you could even think. Spencer—your Spencer—wasn’t like this at work. There, he was all long-winded explanations and nervous fidgeting, avoiding eye contact if you so much as leaned too close during a briefing. But here, in the privacy of your apartment, the door slamming shut behind you with the force of his need, he was starving.
You whimper as he curses under his breath. His hands traveled to your waistband, slipping inside with a groan as he felt how wet you already were.
“You’re fucking soaked,” he muttered against your neck, voice ragged and full of something darker than usual. “From what? A few words in a van?”
“From you,” you breathed, nails dragging down his back. “Fuck, Spencer—”
He huffed a laugh, pulling back just far enough to look at you—eyes wild, curls falling in his face, glasses fogging a little from the heat between you. “God, you’re shameless.”
You rolled your eyes. “And you like it.”
His fingers slipped between your folds and you moaned—high, helpless, already unraveling. He pressed his forehead against yours. “Yeah,” he whispered, “I fucking love it.”
He pushed his fingers into you in one slow, deliberate motion. You cried out, grabbing at his shirt like it could anchor you. He hissed through his teeth as he felt how tight you were around him, hips bucking slightly like the feel of you did something to his control.
His mouth met you with a groan, tongue laving through your folds like he was reading you in a language only he understood. You braced yourself against the wall, knees trembling, fingers tangled in his curls as he moaned like your pleasure belonged to him.
“God—fuck, please—”
“Already?” he teased, pulling back with a slick smirk. “That was fast. Almost like you’re really horny or something.”
You didn’t get to snark back before two fingers pressed into you and his mouth returned with vengeance. Every flick of his tongue, every curl of his fingers was deliberate, like he was cataloging every sound you made, every twitch of your body. You were unraveling, spiraling—and he knew it.
“You gonna come already, sweetheart?” he murmured between strokes. “Can’t even last five minutes when I’ve got my mouth on you?”
You wanted to hate him. Instead, you came with a cry, thighs clenching around his head, your whole body shaking against the door. He held you through it, still licking, still tasting like he couldn’t help himself.
When he finally stood, his lips were wet, his eyes blown wide with lust and mischief.
“You know what’s cute?” he asked, guiding you toward the bedroom, already unbuttoning his shirt.
“You?”
He grinned. “You thinking this was enough.”
He carried you to the bedroom, one hand splayed wide across your ass while the other fumbled with your shirt, tugging it over your head the second your back hit the mattress. He followed, mouth already on your chest, sucking a bruise into the soft skin above your bra before pulling it down to flick his tongue over your nipple.
“Jesus, Spence—”
He hummed. “Statistically speaking, women with high sex drives have a stronger response to nipple stimulation—”
You slapped his shoulder. “If you start quoting studies while your mouth is on my tits I swear to god—”
“You’ll come anyway,” he interrupted smugly, already sliding down your body, fingers catching in the waistband of your pants.
“You gonna be good for me now?” he asked, voice thick and low, you nodded, still breathless. “Please. Please, just fuck me.”
He kissed you again, slower this time, dragging it out, letting you feel how hard he was against your stomach. You reached for his belt, fumbling with urgency, but he caught your wrist.
“I said,” he growled against your mouth, “be good.”
You whimpered, nodding frantically. “I will. I’ll be good, I promise.”
He knelt between your legs, dragging the head of his cock through your folds with a hiss of restraint. “Look at you,” he murmured. “So needy. So wet. And all because I didn’t touch you for three days.”
You clawed at the sheets. “You tormented me for three days.”
He grinned, smug and breathless, as he rocked his hips forward just enough to tease your entrance without pushing in. “Correction,” he whispered, licking into your open mouth like he was savoring every whimper, “I watched you torment yourself. That’s different.”
You let out a shaky moan, bucking your hips up, desperate for friction. “Spencer—”
Your back arched, nails digging into his shoulders as he filled you, thick and aching and slow—deliberately slow. His forehead pressed against yours, curls falling into your face as he began to move, hips drawing tight, torturous circles that made you cry out.
“Shh,” he whispers, pressing a kiss to your cheek. “You’re doing so good for me now. Look at you.”
You don’t even realize you’re crying until he slows, brushing them away with his thumbs. “That good, huh?”
You choke on a laugh. “Fuck you.”
“Already am.” He grins and grinds into you, hard.
He reached around to rub your clit, the combination of pressure and fullness tipping you over the edge with a scream. Your whole body clenched, trembling around him, and he groaned your name as he came inside you, hips twitching as he emptied himself with a groan.
For a long moment, all you could hear was the frantic rhythm of your heartbeats, his weight heavy and grounding over you. Then he shifted, brushing damp hair from your face, kissing your temple with a softness that made your chest ache.
He pulled out slowly, making you whine, then settled beside you, gathering you against his chest.
“You okay?” he murmured, all sweetness again, his thumb softly caressing your cheek.
You nodded, dazed and glowing. “Better than okay.”
He smiled—that smile—and kissed you gently. “Good. Because you’re going to be late to work tomorrow.”
You blinked at him. “Why?”
His eyes gleamed.
“Because I’m going to fuck you again the second I get hard.”
You laughed, breathless, already aching in the best way.
“God, you’re such a nerd.”
“And you,” he said, flipping you back beneath him, “are so horny.”
a/n: im going to hell lmao
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she's mine
paige bueckers x fem!reader
summary: paige is starting to crash out a little before one of her games, and you decide to help her relax.
warnings: oral + fingering, dirty talk of course, just gentle stuff
word count: 1.6k
notes: i'm in a major slump bc i've had a migraine for 4 days and i think this lowkey doesn't match my usual style but i wanted to get something out
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paige wasn’t used to losing; that much was obvious.
she was used to being the best of the best and running her team to make sure they were. she was a leader, playmaker, and facilitator, and she usually had no problems getting her team to play along with what she wanted to run. she knew the professional league would be much different than she was used to and that the whole point of being the number one pick meant going to the worst team from the previous season, but she was struggling.
not only was she struggling to find a place where her team could work together, but she was exhausted. she had basically been on the go constantly since winning the national championship without any breaks between dallas and other media events. the losing games over stupid mistakes definitely didn’t help. she would put on a brave face and act like nothing was wrong, but you could see right through it. you knew her better than she knew herself, it felt like, so she couldn’t hide anything from you.
the morning before a home game, she had woken up at five in the morning. it was much, much earlier than she needed to be awake for her pre-game practice, let alone her game at seven that night. she managed to slip out to get some extra work in the weight room and gym before you woke up, but honestly, you weren’t that shocked when you woke up to find the spot next to you empty. you didn’t have to wonder anyway, she had sent you a text about where she was, like always.
you decided to send her a quick text of acknowledgement, then leave her to practice as you went about your morning. it really wasn’t worth saying anything about burning herself out because you knew she could handle herself and that nothing would stop her.
usually before home games, you two would go out to lunch now that you were in dallas and had many, many new places to try. today, though, you just texted her to come home because you had already ordered. you ordered jimmy john’s delivery with her favorite pre-game sandwich–a number one with no tomatoes–to hopefully put a smile on her face.
and it did. you were standing in the kitchen when she walked through the door and saw the sandwich sitting there on the coffee table in front of the couch. she smiled fondly, but you could tell it didn’t quite reach her eyes.
“i gotta eat quickly,” she said. “i gotta get back for extra practice.”
you furrowed your eyebrows in confusion, watching as she kicked her shoes off then sat down on the couch with her elbows resting on her knees as she unwrapped her sandwich. as much as she loved basketball, she never cut spending time with you short if she could help it. and you knew she didn’t have to today.
“paige, don’t you think you should rest?” you ask gently. you try to make sure it doesn’t sound malicious or snarky, but you don’t know if she took it that way. admittedly, you were a little frustrated with her about it, but only because she was beating herself up and not giving herself grace over something she didn’t really have control over.
“no,” she said sharply. “i was shooting like shit this morning.”
you sighed at her tone, but didn’t take it personally. you walked over to where she was sitting and grabbed the sandwich from her hand, setting it down on the table in front of her. she threw her hands up and gave you a confused look at the action.
“paige,” you scolded. though, you only said her name, she knew what you meant by it.
“i’m just a little overwhelmed. everyone expects so much from me. my field goal percentage has been terrible, like why can’t i just make them?” she confessed, letting her head drop.
you dropped to your knees in front of her, cupping her face in your hands to force her to lift her head back up. it wasn’t much of a fight and she immediately held eye contact–you were just glad her eyes weren’t glassy like she was about to cry.
“overworking yourself isn’t going to help,” you whispered.
she nodded in response. she knew that. she knew rest was as important as the work that went in–that unrested, sloppy work equals a bad performance, but this was uncharted territory for her. she was used to her effort being translated into wins, not almosts.
you leaned forward to press a slow kiss against her forehead, then another one on the tip of her nose, then finally her lips. you fully intended it to be nothing more than a soft peck, but when you tried to pull away, she chased you. and you let her. of course, who were you to pull away from your beautiful girlfriend like that?
she placed her hands on either side of your neck and kissed you slowly, yet desperately like it could cure everything that she was stressed about. it was so sensual, whether she intended it to be or not, that you had to admit that you were starting to get a little turned on. you knew that it was probably a bad idea before a game, sure, and maybe if your mind wasn’t swirling with desire, you would’ve just pulled away with some excuse about how you can pick up later.
you didn’t, though. you merely pulled away to place open-mouthed kisses to her neck, making her sigh. she let her head fall to the side and into your hand, giving you a better angle. you used your weight to gently push her back so she was leaning against the couch, making you pull your hands and mouth away from her due to your position on the floor.
“i need to be getting back soon,” she mumbled, but you could tell she wasn’t committed to you stopping.
“come on, you’ve been so stressed lately,” you whispered, running your hands over her thighs through her warm-up pants. “let me take care of you, baby.”
you almost expected her to reject you, but she just nodded her head and lifted her hips up in a silent invitation for you to pull her pants off. which you did, obviously, hooking your hands on the waistband of her pants and underwear so you could pull them off at the same time. you smiled when she was sitting there on display for you in nothing but the black tank top the league had provided for–you were so grateful for whoever gave those the okay.
you thought about teasing her, making her wait and beg for it, but you knew this wasn’t the time. instead, you just leaned forward and placed a soft kiss to her clit, causing her hand to move to rest on the back of your head with a sigh. you used one of your hands to grab her leg and lift it to give you a better angle. you licked a stripe from her entrance to her clit, then wrapped your lips around it and sucked gently.
she moaned softly, letting her head fall back on the couch, but you kept your gaze trained on her–watching the expressions she made with intensity. your tongue moved through her folds slowly, then circled her clit at the same pace.
“you always know what i need,” she said breathlessly.
you smile against her, loving the praise. “i love making you feel good.”
honestly, it was pretty easy to get paige off, but she would always say it’s because she loves you and you’re hot. maybe it was true, because all you would have to do is the simplest touches and talk to her, and she was a goner.
you sped up your pace on her clit, using your fingers to trace through her folds and then finally trace circles over her entrance.
“so pretty like this, baby. spread open for me,” you said.
your words made her moan a little louder this time and her hips ground forward. you used the opportunity to push two fingers inside, making her gasp at the intrusion. you tried not to moan at the way she clenched around them, but honestly, you just loved pleasing her like this. knowing you were the one causing her body to react like this.
you curled your fingers once. then pumped them in and out, curling them each time you pushed them back in. her hips involuntarily ground against you in time with every thrust, subconsciously trying to chase her high at the feeling of your tongue and fingers working together.
“shit, just like that. ‘m gonna come,” she moaned, gripping your head to keep your head in place.
if this were any other situation, you would immediately pull away and leave her to beg, but you knew this wasn’t the time for that. you were just trying to help her blow off some steam before her game so she can relax. if you wanted her to beg for it, you could just wait until after and she would be willing. not that she wouldn’t right now, but you were feeling nice.
“that’s it. let me see you come.”
she clenched hard around your fingers and flexed her thighs as she unraveled beneath you, coming with a loud moan. you slowed your pace slightly to gently work her through it. when she came down, you stopped and pulled your fingers out, placing soft kisses along her thighs.
“thank you,” she said, ruffling the hair on top of your head playfully.
“i’m always here for you, paige.”
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I sincerely believe that a decent chunk of my current AAAAAAAA!!!!! is just that my hobby space(s) are too messy and unorganized and mid move to use and I haven't done anything artistic off a computer in months. ...and I don't have the spoons to move, clean, and organize because I haven't done any pure muck around art in months.
People who think people won't work if nobody HAS to work have never really experienced no work. They've maybe had the opportunity to laze around for a few weeks but that's not the same thing at all.
Really having nothing to do makes people lose their marbles. It makes people eject their marbles at hyperbolic speeds. We are not meant for that environment. It is as alien as a poisonous atmosphere fluorescing beneath the dim glow of a death-bloating red giant. People start THROWING those marbles in an attempt at just... anything.
People FIND bat-shit insano things to do if they don't have enough to do. They'll push buttons that give them electric shocks. They'll read the comments! They'll start following the links to profiles so they can hate read everything that the person who commented WRONG™, has ever written.
Seriously, do something. Anything that requires physical motion Literally just pick some vaguely interesting hobby thing up and fuck around with it just to find out.
And if you happen to observe me NOT following said advice, please throw things at me so I will at least be playing dodgeball. I hate dodgeball... all sports, really, but... AAAAAAAA!!!!!
I don’t think I can stress enough how many people on here need a hobby like 95% of what people refer to as jobless behavior is actually just hobbyless behavior. Take up watercolors or tabletop or join a hiking group or something you probably won’t feel as much of an incessant need to freak out on the internet every day
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the stupid one
pairing: ex-bf!bucky barnes x reader
summary: your breakup with bucky had all been his fault. he got scared and called it quits. and he regretted more than you knew. but he’d never admit that to you. at least, not while sober.
inspired this lyric ~~ “i know i’m the stupid one who ended it. now i’m the stupid one regretting it. it took me a couple drinks to admit it” (“moving along” by 5sos)
a/n: we’re ignoring the super soldiers can’t get drunk plot point just fyi
word count: 2.3k
warnings: alcohol, mentions of smut
Fuck— Bucky was drunk. When he’d walked into the bar an hour earlier, he told himself he would only have a drink or two.
And he stuck to that promise…until he got a jarring notification on his phone.
1 year ago today, look back at your memories, from his photos app. As soon as he opened it, he knew it was a mistake.
It was photos from one of his date nights with you, at a fancy Italian restaurant he picked out.
The first photo was a selfie of the two of you, Bucky pressing a kiss against your cheek. The second photo was a picture he’d taken of you showing off the specialty cocktail you’d ordered— which you’d only ordered because it came in a glow in the dark glass. When it came out and was the side of your head, Bucky couldn’t stop laughing.
Before he knew it, Bucky felt that tight feeling in his gut. The one that couldn’t help but pop up when he thought about you.
When Bucky broke up with you, it was like he cut off his air supply, and he’d been struggling to survive ever since.
He still wasn’t entirely sure why he did it. All his friends asked him, and he never had a good answer.
All he knew is that if he’d kept dating you, he probably would’ve married you. He didn’t know why that scared him so much. Probably because he’d lost everyone he ever loved. He thought if he could break up with you before he fell deeper in love with you that somehow he’d be spared the heartbreak.
He knew now that wasn’t true.
All of sudden, he’d been at the bar for hours and scrolling through pictures of you the whole time.
His fingers were shaking as he clicked your contact and pressed call.
The decision was entirely fueled by the alcohol swimming through his system and not his brain. He didn’t know what he was going to say, only that he wanted to hear your voice.
On the other side of town, you nearly jumped out of your skin when Bucky’s name popped up on your screen. It rang and rang and rang, all while you were frozen still.
Bucky was starting to think you wouldn’t answer. I mean, hell— he wouldn’t even blame you.
Then he heard a quiet “hello?”
“I uhh— oh, hi. I’m surprised you answer.” He mumbled, stunned.
“Bucky, what’s wrong?” You asked, noticing the obvious slurring in his words.
Bucky felt a tear slip down his cheek. Hearing your voice again was like magic. His heart swelled in ways it hadn’t in months. “I just really miss you, doll.” His voice broke in the middle of the sentence.
He waited for you to say something anything. He’d even let you yell at him if it meant he could hear your voice for a little longer.
“Have you been drinking?” You asked.
He stalled. “Just because I have doesn’t mean I don’t mean it. I messed up, doll. I don’t know why it’s taken me so long to realize.” He told you, nervously.
“Do you need a ride home? You shouldn’t drive.” You breezed over the confession.
It pained you to talk to Bucky. He’d broken your heart and never really given you a reason for the breakup. You knew he was scared of getting hurt, but he hurt you in the process.
Despite the aching in your chest from hearing his voice, you still wanted to make sure he was safe.
“You always take such good care of me. I don’t know why I threw that away. God, I’m such an idiot.” He mumbled.
You focused on taking deep breaths. The emotion in his voice tugged on your heart. It’d been so long since you’d seen that side of Bucky. The side that adored you.
“Bucky, promise me that you’ll ask someone for a ride or call a cab?” You asked, feeling your voice get caught in your throat.
“Yeah, I promise I’ll—” his voice got cut off by his phone dying.
Bucky stumbled aimlessly through the bar. All he wanted was you. He wanted to feel the way you clung to him when you slept. He wanted to taste the peach lipgloss on your lips. He wanted to hear you tell him you loved him.
The pit in his stomach only got deeper as he hopped in a cab and headed towards his empty apartment.
He tried to pretend he was heading home to you— that he’d somehow never screwed things up and you were at home waiting for him.
By the time the cab pulled up outside his door, heavy raindrops were thudding against the windows.
He chucked a few loose bills in the driver’s hand before stumbling out of the car.
The rain instantly soaked his body— a cold freezing rain. It coated every inch of his skin and clothing.
He stood there, eyes closed. The cab drove away, and he just stood. Wanting the rain to wash away this nightmare.
His shirt clung to his chest as he felt the cold seep into his bones.
He opened his eyes, slowly— and they landed on you, sitting on his doorstep.
Had he done it? Had his prayers actually been answered? Had he gone back in time?
The familiar warmth of your eyes pulled him in. He felt like he was walking in slow motion as he crossed the sidewalk towards you.
“What’re you doing here?” He yelled over the rain. You stood before him in a rain jacket with your hood up. You’d been standing in the rain waiting for him to get home.
“I wanted to make sure you got home safe.” You told him.
Relief washed over him. He felt around his pocket, searching for his house key. Noticing the look of panic on his face, you grabbed the spare key from under the doormat and unlocked the door for him.
He stumbled inside. Instinctively, you held onto his hips to steady him. “Don’t worry, I’ve got it.” He slurred, failing to instill any confidence in you.
“C’mere, Bucky.” You said, simply. You wrapped your arm around his waist and led him up the stairs.
He threw his flesh arm around your shoulders, leaning into your touch. “I love you s’much, sweets.” He mumbled into your neck. He nuzzled his nose against your neck, softly kissing your skin.
You fought every ounce of your nature that wanted to melt into his touch.
He was drunk. He wasn’t thinking straight. You reminded yourself.
“Let’s just get you up to bed.” You redirected his affection.
He wasn’t so easily distracted. His hot breath blew against your neck. Reminding you of quickies together in his car. Or even sleepy mornings in bed when you’d both been too tired to do anything. So, he’d just perfectly jut his hips against yours, both of you still completely clothed as he would groan and whine in your ear.
“Perfect, you’re jus’ perfect,” he mumbled, continuing to kiss your collarbone.
You lowered him down onto his bed. You wanted to run out the door. To never see him again. It was certainly preferable to the specific torture of having your ex-boyfriend, who you still had feelings for, drunkenly profess his feelings for you.
But, you saw him lying on his bed in soaking wet clothes from the rain. And you saw the hurt in his eyes. The same one you often saw when you looked in the mirror.
Before you could change your mind, you peeled his wet shirt off of him. Next, you took off his shoes, socks, and jeans.
He watched silently as you ventured into his closet and emerged with a pair of sweatpants and a dry shirt.
“Thanks, sweetheart,” he mumbled, as you pulled the dry clothes onto his body.
After you’d finished, he leapt towards you, clinging to your frame. Your arms were pinned to your side as he hugged you. “Can you stay tonight?” He mumbled against your skin.
You wanted really wanted to. To curl into his side under the sheets and drown in the smell of his citrus cologne. To forget about the lonely nights and tears shed.
“I shouldn’t.” You said, trying to pull out of his grasp. But, he was still a super soldier and much stronger than you. “I’m a mess without ya, sweets.” He said, looking into your eyes.
Those damn eyes.
You gave in immediately. “I’ll sleep on the couch, but only to make sure you’re okay.” You resigned. He pressed a chaste kiss to your temple before whispering goodnight.
After he got into bed, you retreated downstairs to the couch. Part of you was hoping that when you woke up, it would be a dream.
You woke up to the smell of fresh coffee brewing. You sat up, stretching the sleep out of your muscles.
“Morning,” Bucky entered the room holding two cups of coffee.
“Good morning,” you mumbled, the events of last night coming flooding back to you.
He sat down beside you, this thigh brushing up against yours. He handed you one of the mugs. His fingers brushed against yours in a way that made you jump and nearly spill your coffee.
“I only remember bits of last night, but I feel like we should talk.” He said, nervously.
“I should probably go.” You tried to excuse yourself.
Bucky placed his hand on your knee. “Please, stay,” he begged softly.
“This is too much for me, Bucky. I can’t go through all this again.” You said, looking up at the ceiling trying to will away the tears.
As soon as a tear rolled down your cheek, he brushed it away with his thumb. “Please, don’t cry, doll.” He whispered. Heartbreak was written all over both your faces.
“I need to apologize for last night. I crossed a line, but I want you to know that everything I said last night was true. I meant it all. It wasn’t drunk nonsense, I swear. But I know that I shouldn’t have dumped that all on you. I’m really sorry.” He said, genuinely.
His eyes were trained on your face— watching for any reaction. Any hint of a smile or a frown.
You felt a chill run down your spine. You didn't know what to say. Of course you still loved him, but getting hurt again haunted you.
He sensed a rejection coming. He leaned his head slowly onto your shoulder. It took everything in his power to not fall apart. “I know it’s not fair, but I just need to know, doll. Have you missed me the way I miss you?” His voice creaked.
“Why should you be allowed to miss me? You called it off. Cause yeah I’ve missed you like hell, but that’s because you decided you didn’t want me in your life anymore.” You finally snapped.
“I swear on my life, that’s not why I ended things. Of course I wanted you in my life and of course I loved you. That’s not why,” he defended. As much as you didn’t want to, you believed him.
“Then why? Please just tell me because you’ve never given me a straight answer.” You begged him for the closure you’d chased for months. You couldn’t even grieve your relationship because you still didn’t know why it ended.
Bucky’s eyes turned glassy, and he bit the inside of his cheek. You could see how much these past few months had weighed on him.
He reached over— slowly, hesitantly— and interlaced his fingers with yours. “I don’t know how to be a husband— or, a dad. I barely knew how to be a good boyfriend.” He confessed.
You gently squeezed his hand. “I wasn’t asking you to do those things yet. We weren’t even at that point.” You told him.
“But I knew how much I loved you. I fell harder for you everyday. I knew if I stayed, I would end up marrying you. Which sounds like a dream, like a beautiful dream— but a really fucking scary dream too. I didn’t want to disappoint you and have you resent me. I figured it would just be easier to end it before we got to that point. It would be so much harder to lose you when there’s a ring on this finger.” He said, looking down at your hand in his.
You pressed a soft kiss to his lips. His eyes fluttered closed, not having time to kiss you back before you pulled away. “You were never going to lose me. You said you weren’t a good boyfriend, but you were. You’re the love of my life, and you made me feel so special and seen. I know you feel all these expectations, but those aren’t mine. I just wanted you.” You promised him.
“I’m not enough for you.” He admitted, weakly. You shook your head, cupping his cheek with your hand. “You are all that I need.” You said.
He closed his eyes, a few rogue tears rolling down his cheeks. The relief was written all over his face. Forgiveness. Finally.
He felt your lips press against his cheek, kissing each one of his tears away. “To answer what you said last night, I’m a mess without you too.” You told him simply.
He smiled at you before leaning down to kiss you. There was familiarity but also a little bit of exploration. He didn’t waste a second before letting his hands roam your body. You melted into his touch like the first time.
Your bodies jumped back to old habits as you laced your fingers through his hair and he pulled you into his lap.
His lips still fit perfectly against yours. Like you both were built for each other— and no one else.
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˖ ֹ੭୧ OTHERWORLDLY ⊹ ࣪ ⑅
ˋ°•*⁀➷ batboys with inhuman/gf!reader !
ˋ°•*⁀➷CHARACTERS: Bruce Wayne, Dick Grayson, Jason Todd, Tim Drake, Duke Thomas (my king is finally here), Aged up!Damian Wayne
NOTES: requested by anon!! sorry this took so long, i had to decide between either all the boys together with batsis!reader, or each boy alone with gf!reader and then i had to decide between fluff or angst and i spiralled. BUT ITS FINALLY HERE WOOO!!!!! BTW! Hope you dont mind, but I did pick your like 'inhuman' features, because i didnt really know how to write the fic without it so... 😰 each boy has kinda different traits tho, just to keep you on ur toes :)
BRUCE WAYNE:
traits i imagined for the mini-fic: claws (retractable, thick and sharp), slightly luminescent eyes (gold-toned), subtly non-human energy, like something that doesn’t quite belong on Earth but isn’t threatening unless provoked.
Wayne Manor was quiet at night.
Too quiet.
You sat in the window alcove of the west wing, legs drawn up beneath you, a small bottle of dark polish cradled in your palm. It was nearly black, but in the right light it shimmered like obsidian laced with gold.
Like you.
You were halfway through painting the claw of your index finger when you felt him approach. Not heard—felt. Bruce moved silently, always had, but the air shifted when he entered a room. You didn’t need enhanced senses to know it was him.
“I thought you were working,” you said without turning.
“I was,” he answered simply. “But Alfred mentioned you'd gone quiet.”
You smirked. “That’s usually a good thing.”
Bruce came to stand just behind you. You could see his reflection in the glass—tall, shadowed, arms crossed loosely. Watching you.
You returned to your task, carefully dragging the brush over the curved claw tip. “People used to call them monstrous,” you said after a moment. “Said no one would ever love me with hands like these.”
Silence.
Then Bruce’s voice, low. Certain.
“They’re wrong.”
You blinked and glanced over your shoulder. “You don’t flinch. Even when I’m at my worst.”
He met your gaze in the glass, blue eyes steady. “I’ve seen what true monsters look like. You’re not one of them.”
“But I’m not human.”
“Neither am I. Not entirely.”
You turned fully, resting your clawed hand in your lap. “You don’t have claws.”
“No. But I’ve torn through more lives than you ever will.”
The weight of his words settled between you. But then he knelt in front of you—Bruce Wayne, kneeling like a man before a goddess—and took your hand gently in his.
Carefully, reverently, he lifted your palm, studying the claw with a gloved thumb tracing just below the polish line. “You’ve survived things I can’t imagine. And still, you sit here, painting your claws like they deserve to be beautiful.”
You swallowed hard.
“They do,” he added, softer this time. “You do.”
You stared at him, heart aching with something warm and unfamiliar. “You’re not scared of me?”
“No.” He looked up at you. “But I am scared for you. Every time you step into the field. Every time someone sees what you are and thinks it makes you less.”
He stood slowly, fingers lingering on your palm. “But I’ll remind you, every time, what it actually makes you.”
You exhaled, steadying your breath. “And what’s that?”
Bruce’s gaze lingered on your clawed hand before it met yours.
“Extraordinary.”
DICK GRAYSON:
traits i imagined for the mini-fic: retractable claws, bioluminescent eyes, slightly textured skin, all very soft and pretty but not fully human.
Dick was upside down.
Literally.
Hanging off the edge of your couch with his feet hooked over the top and his hair brushing the floor, he watched you from his inverted perch like a particularly affectionate bat.
“You’re staring,” you said without looking up from the coffee table, where you were delicately painting your claws with a shimmery moonlight-blue polish.
“I am,” he admitted, no shame. “Because you’re the hottest alien-mutant-witch-thing I’ve ever seen.”
You snorted. “Wow. Flattered. Especially by the ‘thing’ part.”
He righted himself with a practiced roll, landing with a bounce beside you. “You know what I mean. You're like if a thunderstorm had a favorite person.”
You paused, brush mid-swipe. “���A thunderstorm?”
He reached out, gently taking your wrist in his hands. You let him lift your hand, examining the way the color caught the light against your inhuman skin—slightly iridescent, like pearls and starlight.
“Beautiful,” he said. “Powerful. Maybe a little dangerous. But only if someone’s stupid enough to stand in the way.”
Your chest warmed.
He tilted your hand, running his thumb carefully along the base of your claw without ever touching the wet polish. “I know people stared at you before. Made you feel like you had to hide it. But I wish you could see yourself the way I do.”
“You really like the claws?” you asked softly.
He looked at you, expression soft and sure. “I love the claws. I love your eyes. I love all of it. Every weird little thing that makes you not-quite-human.”
You blinked at him. “You love me?”
Dick froze.
“…Well,” he said, laughing a little, “I was gonna wait until we weren’t actively dealing with wet polish and alien self-esteem issues but, yeah.”
You didn’t respond right away. You just set the brush down, carefully blew on your fingers, and leaned in.
When you kissed him, you made sure not to scratch him—even though your claws were sharp enough to tear steel.
He kissed you back like he trusted you anyway.
JASON TODD:
traits i imagined for the mini-fic: retractable bone claws, glowing silver eyes, slightly altered physiology (you don’t bleed red; it’s iridescent).
You were sitting on the ledge, dripping rainwater and adrenaline, blood that shimmered like mercury sliding down your jaw.
Not red. Never red.
Jason had seen you tear through five guys in under thirty seconds with nothing but those claws and the snarl of something not entirely human rising in your throat. Efficient. Brutal. Beautiful.
He should’ve been unnerved.
Instead, he tossed you a bottle of water and dropped beside you with a thud.
“You always this dramatic when you get stabbed?” he asked.
You caught the bottle, eyes flicking toward him. They were still glowing—bright and silver in the dark, slitted like a cat’s.
“You mean when you said, ‘I got your six’ and then let that asshole put a blade through my side?”
Jason shrugged, unapologetic. “Didn’t expect him to be that fast.”
You grunted and twisted to examine the wound. It was already closing. Flesh knitting over with inhuman smoothness. “I’ll live.”
Jason leaned on one elbow, watching you. Not like you were a threat.
More like he didn’t know where else to look.
You noticed. “You’re staring.”
He didn’t deny it. “You bled silver. That’s new.”
You lifted an eyebrow. “That’s the part that caught your attention? Not the claws through a guy’s ribcage?”
“Nah, that was hot.”
You blinked.
Jason grinned, something tired but genuine tugging at the corner of his mouth. “I mean, yeah, I’ve got issues, but damn.”
You snorted, pushing him lightly with your boot. “You’re such an idiot.”
“Maybe,” he said. “But I’m your idiot. Unless the glowing eyes thing comes with a side of ‘rip my heart out and eat it for breakfast.’”
You stared at him. “You think I’m dangerous?”
Jason leaned in a little closer. “You think I don’t like dangerous?”
A beat passed. The city buzzed below. You could feel the tension—his, yours, the unspoken thing that always simmered between you two.
Then softly, Jason added, “I know what it’s like. Feeling like you’re more weapon than person.”
That landed heavier than the banter.
He reached out, brushing his thumb under your eye. His glove came away smeared with iridescent blood. He stared at it for a second—then wiped it casually on his jeans.
“But I also know you,” he murmured.
Your voice was quiet. “Even like this?”
“Especially like this.”
TIM DRAKE:
traits i imagined for the mini-fic: glowing pupils, clawed fingers, heightened senses (you hear things before they happen).
Tim didn’t even flinch when you dropped from the ceiling vent like a bat, landed behind his chair, and whispered, “You forgot to eat.”
He just sighed, blinked at the timestamp on his screen, and spun to face you. “Okay, first of all—creepy. Second of all—how do you always know?”
You grinned, slipping into his lap like it was your designated seat. “You smell like stress and code. Your blood sugar dropped about two hours ago. Your heartbeat’s off. And your spine’s making that clicking noise it does when you haven’t stood up in six hours.”
Tim just blinked at you.
“...Do you even like that I’m not human?” you asked, half-teasing, half-insecure. Your claws tapped lightly against his shoulder. “Or are you just putting up with the weird because you think it’s hot?”
His hand came up instantly, brushing your cheek with that soft reverence only Tim Drake could deliver after 72 hours of zero sleep.
“Putting up with it? Are you kidding?”
You stared at him.
He stared right back. “You’re the only person in this whole tower who doesn’t knock, sneak, or announce themselves. You just show up. You hear things I don’t. You see things I don’t. You’re like…” His voice dipped, thoughtful. “You’re a reminder that this world is bigger than me. Bigger than all of us. And you still chose me.”
You blinked. “That’s the most romantic burnout thing I’ve ever heard.”
Tim huffed a laugh. “I mean it.”
Then he tilted his head, studying you like you were a riddle he loved solving. “Your eyes are glowing more than usual. Did something happen?”
You bit your lip. “Maybe. I kinda overheard Steph say she didn’t trust me. Said I was… unpredictable.”
His face went blank.
Dangerously blank.
“Unpredictable,” he repeated. “Says the girl who once filled Damian’s locker with glitter and legally changed my ringtone to MCR screeching for a week.”
You snorted, eyes glowing brighter. “Okay, fair.”
Tim’s hand slid down to your waist, grounding. “Steph talks out of fear sometimes. But I’ve run the data. You’ve never hurt a single innocent person. Not once. And when I’m with you…” He leaned forward, pressing his forehead to yours. “...I’ve never felt safer.”
Your breath hitched.
“You analyze me like a case file,” you whispered.
He smiled sleepily. “Only because the evidence proves the hypothesis.”
You tilted your head. “And the hypothesis is?”
He kissed the corner of your glowing eye.
“You’re perfect.”
DUKE THOMAS:
traits i imagined for the mini-fic: translucent skin that faintly glows under moonlight, elongated pupils that adjust to light instantly, and a naturally cold body temp.
“You’re not human, are you?”
You stopped mid-stretch and raised an eyebrow. “You’re just now noticing?”
Duke grinned from across the rooftop, leaning against the edge of the water tank with that golden-hour glow catching the edges of his armor. “Nah. I noticed the night I met you. You didn’t blink when I lit up the alley with a full solar burst. Everyone else flinched. You just squinted and said, ‘That’s cute.’”
You laughed. “Still is.”
He walked toward you slowly, head tilted like he was reading your movements—like he always did. You moved slightly differently than everyone else, and Duke noticed. Your joints had a fluid, alien grace to them. When you breathed, your skin glowed faintly like moonlit water, pulsing in time with your heartbeat.
It didn’t freak him out. It fascinated him.
“You ever worry?” you asked suddenly, voice light but layered. “That I’ll go full X-Men mutant meltdown and fry your brain by accident?”
Duke stopped in front of you. Close enough to feel how cold your skin was compared to his.
He reached up, brushing your cheek with his fingertips. “Nope.”
You blinked. “Seriously?”
“Seriously,” he said. “You think I’d let just anyone spar with me on a rooftop while they glow like cosmic jelly?”
You snorted. “That’s a new one.”
Duke smiled. “You’re not dangerous to me. You’re just… different.”
You raised a brow. “That doesn’t scare you?”
He leaned in, his voice low, steady. “I’ve seen fear. I’ve lived it. You? You’re not fear.”
His hand slipped into yours—warm and electric against your cold skin.
“You’re power,” he said. “And control. And beauty. You walk through shadows like you were born in them, but you still look up like there’s something better coming.”
You stared at him, breath caught.
He grinned. “Besides… light doesn’t flinch. Neither do I.”
And with that, he tugged you in, forehead pressed to yours, both of you glowing in your own way; different, powerful, understood.
AGED UP!DAMIAN WAYNE:
traits i imagines for the mini-fic: slitted eyes, venom-tipped claws, a low, thrumming pulse that can be felt when near you.
Your claws retracted with a soft click as you stood over Damian, hand extended, breathing light. His chest rose and fell where you’d just pinned him.
“You’re getting predictable,” you said, cocking your head.
He scowled—just a little—and slapped his palm into yours to hoist himself up. “You’re getting smug.”
You grinned, fangs glinting in the light. “And you’re not bleeding this time. Progress.”
Damian rolled his shoulder, brushing imaginary dust off his tunic. “You didn’t use your full strength.”
You shrugged. “Didn’t want to hurt you.”
He stared at you—sharply, like he was trying to cut through your casualness. “I’m not fragile.”
“I know,” you said gently. “But you matter.”
That shut him up.
You stepped closer, sensing his breathing shift. He didn’t move. Didn’t flinch. Just watched, taking in your slit-pupil eyes, the way your skin shimmered faintly in unnatural light, the residual twitch of venom still clinging to your claws.
Anyone else would’ve called you a threat.
But not him.
“You know,” he said carefully, voice low, “Mother would see you as a weapon.”
You didn’t respond.
“She’d try to break you open. Use whatever made you this way. Strip you of control.” His eyes narrowed. “She’s done it before.”
Your jaw tightened. “Is that what you see when you look at me?”
He took a single step forward.
“No,” he said. “When I look at you, I see someone who’s endured without losing themselves. Someone who could kill me in under ten seconds, but instead pulls punches to spare my pride.”
His hand brushed your wrist, featherlight, deliberate.
“You are not a threat to me,” he said. “You are my partner.”
You blinked. “That’s the nicest thing you’ve ever said to me.”
He scowled faintly. “I’ve said nicer things.”
“When?”
“I called you ‘tolerable’ last week.”
You laughed—sharp and surprised—and Damian’s eyes softened at the sound. Not that he’d admit it. Not out loud. But you could feel ait in the shift of his stance, the way his shoulders relaxed, the near-imperceptible curve of his mouth.
You leaned in, just slightly. “You like my eyes,” you whispered.
He didn’t deny it.
He just looked you dead-on and said, “They see everything. Including me.”
And then he walked away, because of course he did. But his hand brushed yours as he passed, and you knew.
He wasn’t afraid of what you were.
He was in awe.
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pat pat, baby
angst, fluff, back rubs & butt pats, gentle teasing, mild anxiety, some crying, mentions of guilt
word count - 1k
You’re curled up on your side, facing the wall, blanket pulled all the way to your chin. The quiet hum of the bedside lamp is the only sound in the room, but your thoughts are so loud it’s almost dizzying.
Your chest feels tight. You’ve had that awful, sinking kind of guilt in your stomach all evening, ever since you sent the “sorry, not feeling up to it tonight” text to your friends and watched the messages roll in. You should’ve gone out. Should’ve pushed through. Been fun, been present, been better. Your friends had sent sweet replies, "miss you already," “next time, promise?”, but every message felt like proof that you were disappointing them. Again.
Chris doesn’t say much when he slips into bed beside you. Just the soft rustle of cotton, the dip of the mattress, the way his body slots in behind yours like he’s done it a hundred times. Like he will a hundred more.
He doesn’t speak right away. Just lays there, warm and steady, arm sliding gently around your waist until his hand rests against your stomach.
After a moment, his voice breaks the silence, low and close to your ear. “You okay?”
You don’t answer. Not in words.
Instead, you turn over suddenly, almost clumsily, and bury your face in his chest like you can hide inside him. Your hand fists lightly in his shirt. You don’t mean to cry, but the second his arms come around you fully, the tears spill anyway. Quiet and slow, soaking into the soft fabric of the hoodie he always lets you steal.
His arms tighten around you. “Aw, baby…”
He presses a kiss to your temple, then rests his chin lightly on your head, like he’s holding everything in place. One hand starts tracing light circles on your back, the other rubbing your side, his thumb brushing just under the hem of your shirt.
“It’s alright,” he whispers. “You don’t have to explain anything. I’ve got you.”
You sniff, still clinging to him. “I feel guilty.”
“I know,” he says gently, like he really does know. “But you don’t have to. Staying home doesn’t mean you’re doing anything wrong. You were just taking care of yourself.”
You nod into his chest, even if it doesn’t feel true yet.
You turn your head just enough to nuzzle your face into the crook of his neck. “I think I just... feel bad for not being more fun.”
“Fun?” Chris repeats, gently squeezing your hip before resting his hand there. “Sweetheart, I literally turned down bowling with my brothers to take a nap with you last week. You think I care about fun?”
A laugh breaks out of you. Quiet, but real.
“Seriously,” he adds, softer this time. “I don’t care if you’re fun or exciting or anything like that. I just like when you’re here. I like you.”
He shifts slightly, adjusting the blanket around your shoulders, then lets his hand drift lower, over the curve of your back, your hip, resting there for a second before giving a soft little pat. Then another. Slow, steady, warm.
Not teasing. Not looking for more. Just something quiet and physical that said: I’m here. You’re safe.
You hiccup a quiet breath, shoulders finally loosening a little.
Chris keeps rubbing slow shapes into your back, pausing occasionally to give a light, grounding pat to your butt, like he's wordlessly soothing a child who just needs to be held.
“You always do that,” you mumble against him, voice still small. “The… the butt pat thing.”
He chuckles, low and breathy. “Do you want me to stop?”
“…No,” you whisper, softer than before. “It helps.”
“Good,” he says, kissing your forehead again. “’Cause I like your butt.”
You giggle and nestle into him further.
Another soft pat. Then a few more, slow and spaced out, like a heartbeat. You let your hand slide beneath his shirt a little, palm pressed to his skin now, and he holds you closer in return.
The rhythm is steady, but every now and then he lingers, fingers flexing just slightly like he’s memorising the feel of you.
He pulls back just slightly then, brushing the hair from your face.
“C’mere,” he murmurs, shifting to guide you gently onto your stomach. “Let me help.”
You blink at him, a little hesitant, but nod. Your arms stretch out in front of you as you settle, cheek pressed into the pillow. Chris settles beside you, then slowly drapes himself over your back, not all his weight, just enough to feel his warmth blanketing you.
His hand starts moving again... rubbing slow circles between your shoulder blades, then down along your spine.
“This okay?” he asks quietly.
You hum, eyes fluttering shut. “Mhm. Feels nice.”
You feel him press a kiss to the back of your head, then start kneading at your lower back, thumbs working out tension you hadn’t realised was even there. And then, just like before, he sits up a bit, and his hand shifts lower.
Pat.
“That’s your reset button, right, baby?” he murmurs, patting again. “Always works.”
Then again, a little firmer this time. Pat pat.
You groan into the pillow, but it’s half-laugh, half-sigh. “Chris.”
“What?” he says, feigning innocence. “It’s therapeutic.”
“You’re ridiculous.”
“And you,” he says, punctuating his words with another pat, “are very cute when you’re clingy.”
You let out a sleepy whimper of protest, burying your face deeper into the pillow. “Shut up.”
“You want me to stop?”
You shake your head, your smile giving you away. His touch, his voice, the solid press of his body grounding you into the mattress, it’s all working. You feel steadier. Calmer.
Chris rests his hand there between pats, warm and heavy, and you find yourself leaning into it before you even realise. His hand taps a little firmer, a little lower, and you let out a small, muffled whine, but don’t move away.
Still tired. Still soft. But okay.
And with one last pat, he leans in murmuring with his lips pressed lightly against your cheek, “Told you. Works every time.”
a/n: been thinking about chris patting your butt to comfort you for a while now :)
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Honestly for me it’s difficult to decide
The best experience would be to just shrug and move on, then it doesn’t really cause any kind of problem, but then sometimes it’s not something you can just ignore and it stays in your head forever, so maybe it’d be better to vague post about it so then maybe there could be a coherent discussion on it, but also if you just want to be validated in your opinion and don’t want to hear people arguing over it at all it’d be good to discuss with a moot in private
Overall I think the only wrong answer would be to outright say that you don’t agree to the op, because that can lead to misunderstandings and useless arguments. Especially if it’s something the op is just trying to have fun with and then ends up getting what looks like hate in their replies/reblogs
i actually need to know people's thoughts on this because at least in my experience the answer to this has drastically changed since i was on tumblr in the 2010s and its driving me fucking insane
*im talking about fandom takes specifically. not someone being horribly evil about a real-life issue or or blatantly factually incorrect. literally just harmless fandom disagreements or differing interpretations of a text/character/etc.
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You did what?… With who?
Mason and the Macabre Masterlist
Pairing: Maya Mason x HorrorExec!reader
Summary: A casting crisis ruins date night, but things really fall apart when you find out Maya once hooked up with your boss Matt. Hurt turns to heat, and in the aftermath of a messy conference room blow-up, Maya takes back control, reminding her bratty horror queen exactly who she belongs to.
Word Count: 8.8k
Warnings: Explict smut so as always MDNI xo
A/N: I think I’m not the only one who was jump scared at the Maya Matt hookup scenes, which is where this little fic came from ft. Reader being just as shocked as me xo



The clock reads 9:17pm, and the only thing worse than the flickering fluorescent overheads is the fact that you’re still here. Still at Continental. Still in this goddamn conference room.
What was supposed to be dinner and the Boris Karloff Black Sabbath retrospective, one night only, 35mm print, perfect eerie vibes, has instead become stale trail mix, Maya yelling into her phone, and Quinn lying flat on the floor like she’s emotionally decomposing.
The table is a battlefield: headshots, post-it notes, crumpled printouts with studio-approved names scribbled out in Sharpie. Somewhere near the center lies a half-full bottle of Advil and someone’s forgotten vape pen.
You haven’t spoken in ten minutes. Mostly because if you open your mouth, you might scream.
Tyler clicks away on his MacBook with the fervor of a man about to quit the industry and go live in a yurt. Matt’s pacing. Sal’s leaning back in a chair that you’ve threatened to destroy three separate times. And Maya, your girlfriend, your beautiful, high-strung, Prada-wrapped, chaos goblin of a girlfriend, is at the head of the table, barking into her AirPods at an agent who’s clearly lying about availability.
“She’s not booked out through Q3, Gary, she’s at Erewhon every morning and she took a Hulu guest star last week, don’t lie to me—”
You look at the clock again. 9:18.
You shift your gaze to Maya, who catches it for a second. Her expression softens just for a moment. There’s guilt there. The kind that says: I’m sorry, I didn’t forget. I wanted to spoil you rotten.
But then she’s back to shouting. “Then give me someone better. We were about to announce. You want me to put out a press release saying our Cannes-contender lead ‘politely bailed due to exhaustion’? Gary, this is not a fucking Benadryl commercial, this is a prestige thriller with blood and teeth and you owe me for that Variety spread!”
Matt slumps into the seat beside you. “He couldn’t wait till after filming to check into rehab?”
Quinn, from the floor: “Mental health is health, Matt.”
You say nothing.
You’re too busy watching Maya. Watching how fast she moves when something goes wrong. How she thrives in chaos. How much you love her, and how much you resent her for being able to switch gears without missing a beat, even when she promised to hold your hand through that haunting Karloff close-up you’ve been dreaming about all week.
You cross your arms and lean back, nails biting into your sleeves. If she notices your silence, she doesn’t show it.
You’re trying to be a team player. You really are.
You get that this is a crisis. You get that losing your lead actor two weeks before announcement is a full-blown, PR-nightmare, press-cycle-imploding catastrophe. You get it.
But also?
You had these tickets for months.
The Karloff screening was one night only. One night. You’d planned it down to the detail, dinner at that weird little vampire-themed French place on Melrose, then the 10:30pm showing at the New Beverly. You had an outfit. You had lipstick named after a fictional vampire. And Maya had said yes. Maya had promised.
And now she’s playing agent chicken in cargo pants while you rot in a swivel chair next to Matt “crisis is my cardio” Remick.
He slumps closer to you again, chip crumbs on his hoodie. “Hey. You okay? You’re, like… very quiet. And your eyes look like you’re planning a murder.”
“I’m great,” you say, voice thin as piano wire.
He squints. “Are you mad at me?”
“No,” you say, smiling coolly. “I’m mad at the circumstances.”
Matt nods, sagely. “Yeah. Totally. Unforgiving circumstances. You know, I had dinner plans too.”
You blink slowly. “Did you have tickets to a once in a lifetime horror screening and a girlfriend who swore on her Saint Laurent collection that she’d wear a dress with a slit so high it’d make your nosebleed?”
He pauses. “I… did not.”
“Then don’t talk to me.”
Matt sits back.
Maya glances up from her phone at the exact wrong moment, eyebrows furrowing just slightly. She tilts her head like she’s trying to catch your eye, checking in, but you’re already looking away, arms crossed, fingers drumming tight against your elbow.
She sighs. Loudly. Then turns back to the group. “Okay, if we’re tossing out anyone with a criminal record or a secret second family, we’re down to, like, four viable leads. This is a mess.”
Tyler says, “I’m putting the narrowed list in the doc now.”
Quinn mumbles, “Can we manifest Andrew Garfield… oh or Anthony Mackie? We helped him by getting rid of that deliriously boring ending to Alphabet City? Maybe he would want to help us?”
And you sit there, jaw clenched, wondering which will happen first: Maya noticing that you’re barely breathing around her, or you finally snapping and telling everyone in this room to go to hell.
Spoiler: it’s going to be the second one.
The door creaks open and Matt’s assistant, that poor trembling twenty-something with crazy eyes and a name you never remember, steps in balancing four greasy brown takeout bags and a drink tray.
“Okay,” she says, voice chipper and doomed. “Dinner run! Um, I’ve got three poké bowls, one salad with no croutons, and one… bacon cheeseburger?”
Everyone barely glances up. Except you.
You sit up straighter. “I didn’t order a bacon cheeseburger.”
The assistant blinks. “You didn’t?”
“No,” you say flatly. “I ordered the spicy miso ramen. With soft-boiled egg and scallions. And the kombu broth, not tonkotsu. It was very specific.”
“Oh,” she says. “Okay. Right. Um. Yeah, I think they forgot to include that one and I had to sub something in and I thought this would be—”
“It’s not,” you interrupt.
The entire room stills.
Matt chuckles, that awkward little I want us all to have fun chuckle. “Hey, it’s food though, right? Fuel for the chaos. That burger probably tastes great if you close your eyes.”
You swivel your head toward him so slowly it’s cinematic.
“Matt,” you say, ice in your voice, “if you say one more thing about this situation being ‘fun’ or ‘quirky’ or anything short of catastrophic, I’m going to take this burger, hurl it through the window, and then I’m going to go home and personally leak to Deadline that you’re considering Armie Hammer for the lead.”
Sal blanches. “Okay, wow. Vivid.”
Tyler is silently typing faster. Quinn has frozen mid-sip. Maya, who had just stepped away to take another call, turns back at the sound of your voice and clocks your expression instantly.
The assistant holds out the bag to you, hands trembling.
You don’t take it.
“Put it down,” you mutter. “And tell them next time, if they can’t handle reading a four-item order, they shouldn’t be in delivery.”
The assistant nods like she’s just been saved from the gallows, barely, and vanishes.
Matt tries again, brave little idiot that he is. “Hey, look, I know tonight sucks, but we’re gonna fix this. We always do.”
You stare at the burger. It’s oozing melted cheese you didn’t ask for onto a paper napkin. Your stomach growls in betrayal.
“I don’t need reassurance,” you say, eyes still on the food. “I need someone to give a shit that this night mattered to me.”
Matt, for once, says nothing.
Maya watches you carefully, lips slightly parted like she wants to say something but knows better than to try right now.
Good.
Because if she tries to talk to you with that soft voice, the one she uses when she’s trying to calm you down ‘baby, come on, it’s not that deep’ you’re going to lose it.
You exhale slowly, blinking down at the offending burger like it personally insulted your family line.
Then you push your chair back, the screech loud and final, and stand.
“I’m going to smoke,” you say.
Across the room, Quinn lifts her head from the couch where she’s now fully horizontal, half a Red Bull can balanced on her chest. “Didn’t you quit?”
You meet her gaze, deadpan. “Yes. I did.”
The room is quiet as you grab your coat off the back of your chair. Not a single person tries to stop you, not Matt, not Sal, not Tyler who definitely pretends to type but is secretly tracking the emotional temperature in the room like it’s a goddamn hurricane warning system.
Maya watches you like she’s deciding whether to follow or give you space. You don’t even look at her as you leave.
The door clicks softly shut behind you.
And then it’s just the hallway, dim, echoing, empty. You fish through your bag for the emergency pack you swore you threw out three months ago. The lighter’s tucked in your inner coat pocket, because you always keep one on you. Just in case. For moments like this.
Moments where your girlfriend forgets the thing you’ve been looking forward to for weeks. Moments where everyone around you thinks you’re just a work machine who doesn’t need a night off, doesn’t deserve softness or spooky vintage horror or god forbid a meal that tastes like something other than cardboard and stress.
You step out onto the rooftop access balcony, light up, and take a long, furious drag.
The city below sparkles like it doesn’t care you’re having the worst night of your life.
Behind you, the door creaks open.
And you know it’s her.
You don’t turn when you hear the door open. Just flick the ash off the end of your cigarette and keep your eyes on the skyline, all glittering buildings and smog-hazed moonlight. The kind of view people would die for.
You’d trade it for a decent bowl of ramen and thirty uninterrupted minutes in a dark cinema with Maya’s hand in yours.
Her footsteps are soft behind you. Rubber soles on concrete. She’s not in heels today, she never is when shit hits the fan. Maya in crisis mode means sneakers, slicked-back hair, oversized streetwear that still somehow screams money.
“Hey,” she says, soft and casual, leaning against the wall beside you. Not too close. Not yet. “I was wondering where you snuck off to.”
You exhale a slow stream of smoke. “I said I was going to smoke.”
“Yeah, but like… dramatically,” she says with a small grin. “You’ve got that whole ‘tragic noir widow who poisoned her husband’ vibe going.”
You don’t laugh.
Maya shifts her weight, biting at the edge of her thumb. “Okay. So. You’re pissed.”
“Nope,” you reply coolly, eyes still forward. “I’m disappointed. Different thing.”
“Baby…”
“I don’t want to do this right now.”
“Well, tough, because we are doing this right now. I’m not going back in there to listen to Matt talk about how maybe Timothée Chalamet has ‘genre potential’ without fixing this first.”
You roll your eyes.
She steps closer. “I know I ruined tonight.”
“Do you?”
Maya pauses.
You finally turn your head, flicking the last of your cigarette over the railing. “You promised me, Maya. You said dinner and Black Sabbath. You said you cleared your schedule. I wore my stupid little dress and you—”
“I know.” She sounds guilty now. Not soft. Not smug. Just tired.
“I wanted to go,” she says. “I did. But when this shit hit the fan, I had to—”
“No,” you interrupt. “You chose to. And that’s fine, Maya. That’s your job. I get it. I’m not mad you’re good at your job. I’m mad that I didn’t even register to you tonight.”
Silence.
The only sound is the faint hum of traffic below and your own heart, pounding like it’s trying to crack your ribs.
Maya steps in, finally closing the space between you. Her hand hovers at your wrist.
“You always register,” she says, quiet now. “You’re the only thing that registers. Even when I’m on the phone with Gary the lying agent and Quinn’s comparing headshots like she’s swiping Tinder for psychopaths… I’m still thinking about how pissed you are. About how I let you down. I know I did.”
You stare at her.
“And I’ll make it up to you,” she adds, more confidently now. “I’ll find another screening. Or I’ll buy out the fucking New Beverly and force them to show it again. Just us. You can wear your little dress and I’ll wear heels and lipstick and no bra. I’ll make it right.”
Your mouth twitches. “You’re such a manipulative bitch,” you murmur.
She grins. “Takes one to love one.”
And finally you let her reach for you, her hands settling at your hips, her body warm and familiar against yours as the city glows below and the disaster inside fades, for just a second, into something survivable.
Maya’s hands slip around your waist, thumbs pressing into your hips like she’s trying to anchor you. You hate how good it feels. How easy it is to melt into her, even when you’re mad. Especially when you’re mad.
“Still want to be mad at me?” she murmurs, lips ghosting just beneath your jaw.
You huff. “Yes.”
“Okay,” she says, dipping her head lower, mouthing at your neck. “Want to do it while I’m kissing you?”
You don’t dignify that with an answer.
Instead, you grab her collar and pull her in hard, kissing her like you mean to punish her for every moment she made you feel invisible tonight. It’s angry, all teeth and open mouths and smudged lipstick. Her rings dig into your back as she pushes you gently against the wall, one leg between yours, her tongue slipping past your lips like she owns you. (She does. You hate it… you love it really.)
Your fingers tangle in the back of her shirt. Her hand cups your jaw, possessive and greedy, like she’d crawl inside you if you let her.
You’re still furious.
But you’re also starving for her, for closeness, for the night that got stolen from you.
She kisses you like she’s trying to give it back.
You’re breathless when you finally pull away, her forehead pressed to yours, both of you panting like you’ve just run a mile.
You blink up at her. Then pout. “I’m still mad.”
“I know.”
“And I have nothing to eat.”
Maya sighs dramatically, hand still on your waist. “Okay. Do you want me to go downstairs, threaten that assistant into running to Little Dom’s, and bring you back a real meal while I blackball every poké place in LA?”
You pause, considering it. “…Yes.”
She kisses your nose, grinning. “That’s my terrifying little goblin.”
You swat her ass as she turns to leave.
She blows you a kiss over her shoulder. “Stay mad. I’m gonna fix it.”
And for the first time all night, you believe her.
When you walk back into the conference room, it’s like nothing happened. Well, almost nothing.
Quinn raises one eyebrow but wisely says nothing. Matt offers you a sheepish chip. You ignore him. Tyler avoids eye contact like you’re a wild animal that bites.
And Maya? She’s back at the head of the table, arms crossed, glaring at a printout of an actor’s IMDB credits like she can will charisma into his face. The moment she sees you, her expression softens just enough for you to catch it.
Without a word, you cross the room, slide into her chair, and settle into her lap like it’s your rightful throne.
She doesn’t blink. Just wraps her arm around your waist and pulls you in closer, her fingers tracing circles at your hip like it’s the most normal thing in the world. Like you’re not both high-ranking executives in a Hollywood studio actively clinging to each other in the middle of a very serious emergency meeting.
You grab the stack of casting options Quinn’s compiled and start flipping through them, sharp-eyed and fully engaged for the first time tonight.
Maya’s chin rests on your shoulder. “Do we like him?” she murmurs, nodding at a headshot.
You snort. “He looks like the kind of guy who’d get cast in a remake of something and say in the press tour that he’s ‘not really a horror fan.’”
Maya hums. “Death penalty.”
Matt clears his throat. “Are we just… are we doing this? Like, are you… are you just sitting—”
“I’d stop talking if I were you,” Quinn says without looking up.
Sal mutters something about needing therapy.
You sigh, flipping another page. “Okay. We need someone with heat, with depth, and with a name that won’t make Variety think we’ve lost the plot. Who actually wants to do genre. Not prestige posturing. Not some Marvel rebound gig.”
Maya squeezes your waist proudly. “She’s back, baby.”
You glance at her. “Don’t push it.”
She bites back a grin.
And just like that, the meeting resets. The energy shifts. You’re still hungry. Still annoyed. But you’ve got Maya’s warmth beneath you, your hand sorting through the chaos like you’re building an altar out of headshots and spite. It’s not the night you wanted. But it’s yours.
It’s a full-on war room now.
Papers litter the table like battlefield debris. Someone’s ordered more coffee. Quinn’s abandoned the floor and is pacing in socks, muttering actor names like she’s summoning demons. Matt has one AirPod in and two phones on speaker. Tyler’s got six windows open on his laptop and keeps saying things like, “If we shift the press embargo window to Thursday, we could still meet the media lead-in without violating the NDA.” Sal’s in the corner on the phone with someone, you don’t know who, and frankly, you don’t want to know.
And you?
You’re still on Maya’s lap, her arms looped lazily around your waist as the two of you scroll IMDb Pro like it owes you money.
“We’re running out of options,” she mutters, chin on your shoulder.
“No,” you say, flipping through headshots. “We’re running out of good options. We’ve got plenty of bad ones left.”
You scroll past a mid-tier heartthrob and grimace. “He thinks ‘The Babadook’ is a slur.”
Maya snorts.
You feel the vibration of her phone before you hear the ding. She shifts under you, grabbing it from the table, scrolling a few beats, then—
“Wait,” she says, and her voice changes. It sharpens.
You lean back slightly to see the screen.
A photo. A name.
You blink. “Him?”
“He’s free,” she says. “Just left that three-film deal with Netflix, so he’s loose. And he wants awards again. Said it in his GQ interview last month.”
“He hasn’t done a thriller since that Swedish noir remake thing,” you murmur.
“Exactly.” Her eyes are gleaming. “He’s overdue. He wants something gritty, something sexy and smart. We give him this, with you as exec producer, me running the campaign, he eats. He feasts.”
You glance at the name again. A-list. Oscar nominee. Under 40. Still hot enough that the trades would sell it as a comeback. Your gut twists.
“That’s a real star,” you say quietly.
Maya grins. “Then let’s fucking go.”
~ Twenty minutes later ~
The room is silent. Breathless. Tyler’s phone is on speaker.
A female voice says clearly: “He’s in. He loves the script. He’s asking for a quick polish on act three, but he’s in if you’re in.”
Tyler mouths ‘holy shit’.
You and Maya look at each other. She’s grinning like a woman who just closed a million-dollar deal. Because she did.
“Tell him we’ll have a new draft by Monday,” Maya says. “And that we’ll build the whole campaign around him. Fall festivals. Viral drops. Let him play serious again. Full resurrection treatment.”
“Yes, ma’am,” the voice says.
The call ends.
The room explodes.
Quinn is dancing around the table, chanting, “WE DID IT! WE FUCKING DID IT!” while holding her Red Bull like a trophy. Tyler’s fully teared up, muttering something about “professional peak” as he rapid-types a new press release draft. Matt’s hugging people he normally avoids. Sal opens his personal stash of whiskey from the bottom cabinet man’s behind to gulp it down in celebration.
And you, you’re just sitting there, dazed, still on Maya’s lap, the adrenaline hitting you in waves as you both watch your team lose their minds in the best way. You feel her hand stroke your back, grounding you.
You turn and face her, and her smile softens.
You’re both exhausted. You’re both glowing.
You kiss her.
Right there in front of everyone, without thinking, just full-on lips crashing together, the kind of kiss that says we did it, that says I love you, that says we’re a fucking empire, you and me.
She kisses you back with a little groan like she’s been dying for it all night.
When you pull away, she tucks a bit of your hair behind your ear. “Fuck me I’m good.”
You smirk. “Baby you know I’m the bottom here.”
She rolls her eyes, but you feel her squeeze your thigh under the table.
Someone cranks music, something loud and celebratory and wildly inappropriate for a work setting, and suddenly Quinn’s tossing around casting sheets like confetti, Tyler’s laughing, and Matt’s on his second glass of Dom Perignon.
Then…
“I’m just saying,” Sal calls over the chaos, already tipsy, “I’m so glad Maya and Matt aren’t fucking anymore because a fucking win like this would’ve ended in one of those weird celebratory makeouts with, like, tongue and teeth and that whole… thing.”
Record scratch.
Everything stops.
You don’t move. You don’t blink. The music is still playing but it sounds underwater now. Distant. Wrong. Because your body just froze around one word: fucking.
Your brain does the math. And the math is bad.
You were not aware that Maya and Matt had ever…
Your gaze snaps to her before you can stop yourself.
And Maya? She’s pale. Like someone just slapped her across the face. Her arms loosen around you just slightly. Like she wants to speak but can’t figure out which version of the truth to start with.
Maya stiffens beneath you. “Sal.”
“What?” Sal blinks, clearly not reading the room. “I’m just saying it’s refreshing not to end a big win with that weird forehead-touching, neck-biting, sweaty thing you two used to do. Like, get a room—”
“SAL.” Maya snaps.
Matt chuckles, a little too defensively. “Okay, it wasn’t that bad.”
“Oh my god,” Quinn says from the couch, voice deadpan but gleeful. “Wait. Wait. You and Matt actually—”
You slide off Maya’s lap slowly. Mechanically.
No one speaks.
Not even Sal, who finally realizes far too late that he just opened a black hole in the center of the room.
You look at Maya, but this time, you don’t see her in her triumph, or her glory, or the way she kissed you like she’d won a million dollars. You see someone who never told you something big. You see a betrayal you didn’t even know you had to look for. And Maya? She looks like she’d give anything to take the moment back.
“No no no no no,” you say, waving your hand like you can physically clear the words from the air. “This isn’t real. Tell me this isn’t real.”
Matt’s hands go up, palms-out. “Hey, okay, it was a long time ago! Pre-pandemic! Practically a different era. We were hot!”
“No you weren’t,” Tyler mutters.
“Thank you,” Sal says.
“I mean, I didn’t think it was important,” Matt tries, shrugging. “We’re adults. It’s ancient history.”
You round on Maya, who looks like she wants the floor to swallow her whole.
“You fucked Matt?” you whisper. “Matt? My boss?”
Maya’s hands go up in surrender. “I swear to god, it was barely a thing. Like three times. Maybe four and some make outs—”
“Four?!”
“And we agreed it was a mistake! That it was weird and a boundary issue and we were never doing it again!”
“Oh my god,” you say, stepping back. Your face is hot. Your ears are ringing. You genuinely think you might pass out.
Maya stands, panic rising in her voice. “It was before you, okay? It didn’t mean anything—”
“It means something now!” you snap. “You’ve been in meetings with him, pitching with him, touching me in front of him, and never thought maybe, just maybe, I should know this?!”
“Babe,” she says, pleading. “It wasn’t—”
But you’re already walking. Past Quinn, who mouths holy shit. Past Tyler, who looks like he’s about to throw up. Past Matt, who mutters, “I mean, it wasn’t bad,” and Maya, who yells, “Matt, shut the fuck up!”
You don’t look back. Not even when Maya calls your name, urgent and anxious behind you. Because if you do, you’ll cry. And you won’t give her that. Not in front of all of them.
You don’t make it to the elevator.
You barely make it past the hall.
You stumble into the nearest quiet corridor off the main floor, press your back to the wall, and slide down until you’re crouched in the shadows beside the fire extinguisher, hidden from the party you used to be part of ten minutes ago.
Your hands are shaking.
Not in a poetic, trembling-lip way, no you’re shaking like your body’s short-circuiting. You can’t get a full breath in, like your lungs are folding in on themselves. Your fingers fumble for your phone, but it slips once before you catch it again, screen lighting up far too bright in the dark.
You open the Uber app.
It takes three tries to type your address.
You don’t even look at the price. You hit Confirm pickup, then curl your arms around your knees like you’re holding yourself together with sheer force of will.
A car in six minutes.
Six minutes, and you can be out of here. Away from the conference room. Away from the memory of Maya’s arms around you while she neglected to mention her little HR-certified hookup history with your literal boss.
Away from Quinn’s face going no fucking way, from Sal being… well, Sal, from Matt trying to laugh it off like you’re all just characters in one of his shitty improv sketches.
You stare at the blinking dot on your phone.
It says your driver is named Eli.
You’re going to climb into Eli’s Honda and pretend you’re not the idiot whose girlfriend used to fuck the head of the studio you work for.
You wipe at your eyes angrily. No tears. Not yet.
You’ve got to get home, take off your makeup, wash this night off your body like it didn’t happen. Get three hours of sleep, if that. And then come back here tomorrow to the same office, the same glass-walled rooms, and the same people who all know exactly how humiliated you were.
You’ll have to walk into that conference room and look Matt in the face. And worse you’ll have to look at her.
You grip your phone tighter. Try not to scream.
Four minutes now.
Just four more minutes.
You close your eyes.
You do not fall apart in the hallway.
Not yet.
Back in the conference room, the mood has absolutely tanked.
The music’s still playing, some obnoxious party track with a synth drop no one asked for, but now it just feels cruel. Tyler quietly lowers the volume without asking.
Maya’s standing at the head of the table, arms crossed, jaw tight. She hasn’t said a word since you left.
Then she lets go. “Okay. What the fuck was that?!”
Everyone freezes.
Sal, still halfway through pouring another whiskey: “That was not on me.”
“Really?” Maya snaps, eyes blazing. “Because you’re the one who decided to resurrect the ancient, cursed Matt-and-Maya-era like it was relevant.”
Sal shrugs. “Didn’t realize it was classified.”
“Oh my god,” she says, rubbing her temples. “Do you just say things to hear yourself speak or was tonight special?”
Quinn’s still staring like she just watched a plane crash. “You two actually had sex?”
Maya paces now, agitated, unspooling in front of them. “I didn’t tell her because it didn’t matter. It was a blip. It was so long ago, and it was awkward and messy and I thought… it just never came up, okay?!”
Matt nods too fast. “Yeah. And I supported that! I supported not bringing it up! Because I thought it would be weird to tell her!”
“We were stupid. It was sloppy!” Maya barks. “It was during the Blue Fox merger, I had bronchitis and a PR embargo hanging over my head!”
“Oh my god,” Quinn whispers. “Was there tongue?”
Maya throws her hands up. “Yes, okay?! There was tongue. There was stress. There was bad lighting. It was a low point for everyone involved.”
Matt winces. “Okay that’s kinda harsh, I think it was kind of beautiful…”
“Matt,” Sal says, “shut the fuck up.”
“I can’t believe you didn’t tell her,” Quinn mutters, more to herself than anyone.
Maya turns, sharp. “Why would I?! So she could, what? Laugh? Pity me? Set fire to her retinas with the image of me and him in a West Hollywood bar bathroom while Luther Vandross played in the background?”
Quinn blinks. “…it was to Luther Vandross?”
“Of course it was Luther Vandross! I have taste, Quinn!”
The room falls quiet again.
Maya deflates a little. She’s still furious. Still too raw to know what to do with herself. “I didn’t tell her,” she says, quieter now. “Because it was nothing. It was a blip. It was before. Before her. Before I even knew what it felt like to want to come home to someone.”
“She looked at me like I was someone else,” she says quietly. “Like I’d lied about everything. Like I’d humiliated her.”
“She’s not wrong,” Sal says, uncharacteristically soft.
That’s what makes Maya go still.
Sal shrugs. “I’m just saying. If I found out my girlfriend used to bone the guy who signs her paycheck, and she didn’t tell me? I’d be halfway to my dealers for medical grade coke by now.”
“Well it’s not technically me who signs them.. that would be Lucille from accounting…” Matt interjects
Maya’s jaw clenches. “Not helpful Matt.”
~
You slam the door behind you.
Hard.
The keys hit the floor. Your bag drops somewhere near the entryway. You don’t even bother turning the lights on, you just march straight into the kitchen like a storm in heels, throw the fridge open, and stare inside like something in there’s going to fix this. Spoiler: there’s nothing but a bottle of white wine, a leftover oat latte, and a Tupperware of pad thai that’s three days past edible.
You grab the wine. Twist the cap off with shaking fingers and drink straight from the bottle.
The second the first gulp hits your throat, you pace back and forth, back and forth, bare feet slapping hardwood like you’re wearing a hole into the foundation.
“Matt,” you hiss, to no one. “Matt fucking Remnick?”
You laugh. It’s ugly. “Of course. Of fucking course.”
You fling yourself down on the couch and dig your nails into the throw pillow like it personally betrayed you.
So let’s just tally it up, right?
The guy who pays you, the guy who nods along during your pitch meetings like he’s just smart enough to track the plot but not smart enough to understand why it works, that guy? That doughy, beige suit wearing, oat milk-drinking, workaholic dipshit?
He fucked your girlfriend.
Your Maya.
The Maya who kisses your throat when you’re reading in bed. The Maya who calls you her “creepy little horror wife” in meetings like a badge of honor. That Maya?
Fucked. Matt. Remnick.
You press your hands into your eyes. Oh, and the best part? Sal knew. Sal. Fucking Sal, who you’ve sat next to in a hundred meetings, who’s texted you bad memes at midnight, who’s thrown shade at every actor you’ve ever cast.
He knew.
How many people knew? How many people sat across from you in conference rooms, watched you and Maya flirt and smolder, and thought, Wow. Hope she told her she used to hook up with the boss?
You drag your hands down your face and make a sound that’s somewhere between a scream and a sob. You feel sick. Like the butt of a joke you didn’t know was being told.
Your phone buzzes from your bag across the room.
You don’t even look.
If it’s Maya, she can wait.
~
You wake up face-down on the couch, blanket halfway off, one leg tangled in your throw, and a wine bottle dangerously close to rolling off the coffee table.
Your head pounds. Your mouth is dry. It’s 5 a.m. and you feel like someone took your rage, poured it through a filter of grief, and blended it with three hours of half-sleep and one unfinished nightmare about Matt Remnick in a hot tub.
You groan. Sit up. Immediately regret it.
Then you see your phone.
18 texts.
4 voice notes.
1 missed call.
All from Maya.
You stare at the screen for a long moment before thumbing open the thread.
The first one hit around 12:23 a.m.
<Maya: ok so i’ve been lying in bed for two hours staring at the ceiling like the little match girl but instead of cold i’m dying of shame>
<Maya: just fyi tho the matt era was VERY short-lived and powered entirely by alcohol and bad decisions and i got bronchitis right after. draw your own conclusions.>
<Maya: I should’ve told you. I didn’t because i thought it was irrelevant and then i convinced myself it was embarrassing and then it turned into a weird shame snowball and then sal threw a grenade and now we’re here>
<Maya voice note: Hey. Um. I don’t know what I’m doing. You know I’m shit at this. I just… fuck, you looked at me like you didn’t know me and I’ve never wanted to crawl into a Bottega clutch and die more. Just… please tell me you’re okay?>
<Maya: i’m gonna go to sleep before i drive to your place in a hoodie and crocs and throw pebbles at your window like a fuckin Lana song but specifically for lesbians>
<Maya: unless that would work??>
~
Your alarm didn’t go off.
Actually, no, your alarm did go off. You just threw your phone across the room sometime around 6:30 a.m. after rereading Maya’s latest text for the fifth time and muttering “fuck off” into your pillow.
So now it’s 9:12 a.m.
And the Continental morning meeting starts at 9.
You bolt out of bed with a groan, mouth dry, head pounding, last night’s wine and rage still thick behind your eyes. You shower in record time, slap on concealer, mascara, a black turtleneck, and sunglasses that scream do not speak to me I will kill you where you stand.
No breakfast. Just coffee in a to-go cup that tastes like cardboard and regret.
Traffic’s hell. You scream once in your car just to get it out. You park like a menace, don’t even check the mirror, and stomp across the lot toward the building with your bag half open and your badge clipped to your sleeve.
When you push through the glass doors and into the marble lobby of Continental Studios, you’re ten minutes late and vibrating with fury.
Matt spots you immediately from the hallway. He’s holding a protein bar and his big dumb reusable water bottle and smiling like it’s casual Friday.
“Hey,” he calls, jogging to keep pace beside you. “You’re late for the morning slate check-in.”
You don’t even look at him. Instead you snarl, voice low and venomous, “bite me, Remnick.”
He freezes mid-step.
“Okay,” he says slowly. “That’s fair. You’re mad. Totally valid. Just… don’t bite me in the meeting, okay? Bite Sal. He can take it.”
You don’t respond.
You just keep walking. Because the only thing worse than seeing Matt today… is knowing she’s already in the conference room.
And you have to sit through the morning meeting like none of this happened. Like your entire sense of stability didn’t just crack open in front of half the fucking team.
The door swings open.
You step inside the conference room with that perfect blend of silence and menace, black silk shirt, razor-sharp tailored blazer, sunglasses pushed up into your hair like a crown. You’ve got your coffee in one hand, your notes in the other, and the kind of expression that says I dare you.
Tyler starts the meeting like he doesn’t smell the emotional blood in the air. “Okay, so first things first—our guy’s officially confirmed, and the trades are prepped. We’re greenlit to announce end of week if we can finalize rollout assets.”
“Cool,” you say crisply, flipping open the folder. “We’re not announcing Friday.”
Everyone looks up.
Matt blinks. “We’re not?”
“No. It’s too crowded. Dune: Part Three has an early stills drop Friday morning and Searchlight’s doing an ‘Anatomy of a Fall’ deep-dive with the New Yorker that afternoon. We’ll get buried. We push to Monday and own the morning cycle.”
Maya opens her mouth to speak, and you don’t even look up. “Unless you’d like to announce our Oscar-bait thriller between a sandworm and a French woman falling down the stairs.”
Silence.
Then Quinn mutters, “God, you’re scary when you’re on.”
You still don’t look at Maya. But you feel her eyes burning into you.
Matt clears his throat. “Okay, Monday. We can make that work. Uh… Maya, what do you need for assets?”
~
The rest of the meeting trudges forward like it’s wearing lead boots.
You don’t speak unless you have to. Every sentence that comes out of your mouth is clean, clear, and lethal. Maya keeps glancing your way like she’s trying to find an opening, a soft edge, a tell, anything.
But there’s nothing.
You give her nothing.
No warmth. No flicker of forgiveness. Not even a look.
Just silence and strategy.
“If we’re shifting, talent needs their glam appointments moved up. We’ll need rep confirmation before lunch.” No snark. No emotion. Just fact.
Maya nods slowly. “I’ll handle it.”
Still, you don’t look at her.
Even Sal picks up on it now. He’s not cracking jokes. Matt fumbles through the updated calendar notes. Quinn adds a few scheduling tweaks. Tyler asks something about embargo coordination, which you answer with the kind of precision that makes Sal mouth “yikes” into his coffee.
Eventually, the meeting wraps.
Chairs scrape back. Laptops close. No one says much.
And Maya? She stands. Lingers behind her chair, one hand resting on the back of it like she doesn’t know what to do with herself. You don’t look up. You’re reviewing the press deck. You are calm. You are composed. You are the queen of horror at Continental fucking Studios. And right now? She doesn’t get to have you.
You gather your papers in silence. Neat. Controlled. No sign of the volcano beneath the surface. You slide them into your folder, close it with precision, and stand.
You don’t look at Maya. You’re halfway to the door when you hear her.
“C’mon, wait.” Her voice is low. Urgent.
You pause just enough to let the tension snap taut, but not enough to look back. “I have work to do,” you say coolly.
She scoffs. “Oh come on. You can’t get mad at me for having a past, fucking hell.”
Your spine stiffens.
“I’m nearly double your age,” she continues, stepping forward now, voice rising just slightly. “I’ve fucked people. Like, sorry? Grow up.”
That’s when you freeze.
Turn.
Your voice shakes, not with weakness, but fury. “Yeah. I’m fucking aware, Maya.”
She blinks. Like maybe she thought you wouldn’t bite back.
“But this isn’t just anyone,” you hiss, stepping closer now. “This isn’t some ex from New York or a personal assistant you ghosted after Sundance. This is my boss. This is the man who signs my paychecks. Who I have to pitch to, smile at, navigate. And you didn’t think I deserved to know that you two had history?!”
“It was barely history…” she starts
“It doesn’t matter!” you snap. “It matters to me! And you didn’t tell me because what? You thought I’d be jealous? Uncool? That I’d what, throw a tantrum? Guess what, I’m throwing one now!”
Everyone else outside the glass conference room is simultaneously edging closer and pretending not to exist. You can still feel everyone’s eyes on you, even if they’re all pretending they aren’t. Sal suddenly finds the far wall very interesting. Quinn’s fake AirPods are basically a theater curtain. Matt’s holding a water bottle like he might use it as a shield.
Maya runs a hand through her hair, frustrated. “Look, I know I should’ve told you.”
You cut her off. “Then why didn’t you?”
“I was embarrassed, okay?” she blurts. “It was a shitty, messy mistake and I didn’t want to bring that into us. I didn’t want to give it weight. You matter. He never did,” she says, too fast now, words spiraling. “You know how this studio works. Half the people in that room have fucked each other. And yeah, I messed up not tell you, but you can’t just crucify me because I have a past you didn’t pre-approve.”
You laugh, cold and wounded. “That’s not what this is about and you know it.”
She sighs hard. “Then what the fuck is it about?”
“It’s about respect, Maya!”
Now you’re really in it. Eyes burning. Breath ragged.
“It’s about the fact that I was the last to know. That Sal knew. That Tyler didn’t blink. That you let me sit next to Matt in meetings like it was nothing. Like I was some clueless intern with a clipboard and not your…” You stop. Swallow. “Not someone you say you care about.”
Maya’s face crumbles for real now.
“I do care about you,” she says, stepping forward, eyes desperate. “You think I don’t? You think I haven’t been losing my fucking mind since last night? I’ve sent you like sixty texts, I drafted a notes app apology, I didn’t even put on moisturizer this morning, do you understand how deranged I am right now?”
You blink. “That’s your barometer for grief? Moisturizer?”
“It was Dr. Barbara Sturm, you psychopath!” she snaps. “That shit is eighty-five dollars a pump!”
There’s a beat.
And despite yourself you almost laugh. Instead, you just shake your head, trying to calm your own heart, your own hands, your own instinct to forgive her too fast.
She’s watching you. Chest rising and falling. Waiting for you to say something. Anything.
And the room?
The room is silent.
She’s watching you. Breathing hard. Jaw tight. But her eyes? They’re tracking every inch of you like she’s trying to memorize your silhouette before you vanish.
Then she moves.
She closes the distance with one sharp step, and before you can stop her, her hands are at your waist. Light at first. Testing.
You flinch. “Don’t.”
But she doesn’t back off. Instead, she leans in, mouth grazing your jaw, voice low and warm and dangerous in your ear.
“Baby, come on,” she murmurs. “I love you.”
Your breath catches.
Her hands slide lower, fingers curling at your hips like she’s staking a claim. She presses in close, intimate, entirely inappropriate with your coworkers still very much looking through the glass conference walls into the room and brushes her lips just beneath your ear.
“You’re pissed. I get it. Be pissed,” she breathes. “Yell at me later. Call me names. Tell me I’m a stupid, emotionally constipated corporate nightmare.”
You don’t move. Can’t.
She nips lightly at your neck. “But don’t leave me.”
Her fingers tighten, sliding up under the edge of your blazer, thumbs brushing your sides, mouth now trailing lower like she can seduce the forgiveness out of you.
“I love you,” she says again, lower now, desperate. “I was a coward. I fucked up. Let me fix it. Please.”
You should push her away.
You don’t. You don’t because she knows exactly where to touch you and she’s touching you there now, hands firm on your waist, thumbs pressing into the soft spot just beneath your ribs like she’s trying to hold you together before you shatter again.
And then she kisses you.
Hard. No warning. No room to think. Just mouth on yours, hot and hungry and completely insane given the fact that you are very much not alone.
Your folder hits the floor.
Maya walks you back a step, her hands tangled in your blazer, mouth moving over yours like she needs it more than breath. There’s no gentle easing into it, it’s immediate, consuming, and deep. She kisses you like she’s trying to rewrite the memory of Matt fucking Remnick out of your bloodstream.
You pull back hard, breath heaving, mouth swollen from her kiss, mascara smudged, and Maya’s staring at you like you just gave her a second chance at life.
She reaches for you again.
You stop her with a single raised eyebrow and one lethal line, “…Matt? Really?”
The room goes dead silent again.
“Matt Remnick?” you repeat, voice dripping with horror. “You were into that?”
Sal audibly snorts and pretends to choke on his drink. Quinn lets out a wheeze and turns fully to the wall like she’s entering witness protection.
Maya groans. Loud. Embarrassed. Absolutely desperate. “Oh my god,” she mutters, eyes wide as she grabs your face and kisses you again.
Hard. This time it’s needy. Almost angry.
“I’m into you,” she growls against your mouth. “I’m into this. Not him.”
You’re still breathless when she pulls back.
You look at Maya.
She’s flushed. Wrecked. Entirely yours. And completely aware she’s still on thin ice.
You smooth your blazer. Pick your folder up off the floor. And say, as calmly as if you’re discussing box office projections: “We’re still having this conversation later. Somewhere private. Somewhere where I’m less inclined to claw your eyes out and let you fuck me against a filing cabinet.”
Maya exhales shakily. “Copy that,” she whispers.
Sal gives you a little golf clap. Quinn doesn’t look up, but says, “I hope we never stop working here.”
And without a word, you turn and walk. Down the hallway. Past the open offices. Through the glass doors.
Maya follows like a shadow. You swipe your badge and push open the door to your office, stepping inside with controlled hurt still radiating off your skin.
Maya barely gets the door shut behind her before you’re on her again.
You grab her jacket lapels and slam your mouth to hers, no buildup, no words, just heat. She groans into it, hands going immediately to your waist, pulling you in like she can’t stand to be apart from you another second.
This kiss is filthier. Sloppier. More desperate. You bite her lower lip and she gasps, nails digging into your hips as you press her back against the door.
“You drive me fucking insane,” you whisper against her mouth.
“Yeah?” she pants, licking her lips. “Well you’re fucking infuriating and I love you.”
Her hands roam over your back, up your spine, under your blazer. She tugs it off your shoulders like it’s offended her.
She laughs into your neck, breath hot as she whispers, “Is this… our version of conflict resolution?”
“Shut up,” you mutter, pushing her down into the couch with one hand on her chest.
You climb into her lap and kiss her again, harder this time, her fingers slipping under your shirt like they know exactly what kind of damage they caused and exactly how to earn forgiveness.
You grind your hips against hers and she groans, low in her throat. “You’re still mad at me.”
You pull back just enough to look her dead in the eye. “Yes I am.”
She smiles. “Liar.”
And then you’re kissing again like you want to ruin her, like she’s the only one who could ever deserve to be ruined by you. You’re breathless in her lap, lips swollen from kissing her too hard, your blazer long forgotten somewhere on the floor. Your fingers are clenched in the fabric of her shirt, your eyes hot, your body humming.
You’re still upset. Still bruised with betrayal. But god, her hands feel good on you. You pull back, panting, trying to steel yourself, to glare at her.
But your voice comes out shaky. “I’m still mad,” you whisper.
Her hands slide from your waist to your thighs, spreading you just slightly over her lap. “Good.”
And then she moves.
Suddenly you’re on your back on the couch, gasping as she pins you there, her body over yours, her mouth hovering just above your throat.
She’s looking at you differently now, like she’s done pretending you’re in control.
You shiver. “Maya?”
She kisses you. Slow. Possessive. Deep enough to make your stomach flip. When she pulls back, she speaks low against your mouth. “You’re being a little brat.”
Your thighs twitch.
Her hand slips between your legs, pressing over your panties, hot, firm, and unrelenting.
“Still think you’re mad at me?”
You whimper, arching into her hand.
She grins. “Thought so.”
She pulls your underwear aside, slides her fingers over you, slick, slow, maddening. You gasp, hips twitching. Her mouth is at your neck now, sucking lightly, just enough to make you writhe.
“You’re soaked,” she murmurs, smug. “Say you need me.”
You shake your head, breath trembling. “No.”
She presses two fingers in, deep and smooth, and you whine.
“Say it.”
You grip her shoulders like you might fall through the floor.
“I need you,” you breathe. “I need you, I need… fuck—”
“Good girl,” she says softly.
And then she fucks you. Harder now, fingers working you open, her body flush against yours, her mouth at your ear whispering things that make you gasp her name like a prayer.
“You gonna be good for me now?” she whispers.
“Yes! Yes, I promise… please don’t stop…”
You’re shaking beneath her, legs spreading wider, body losing every ounce of control you fought to hold. She’s everywhere, her voice, her hands, her breath, her mouth, and she doesn’t let up until you’re begging.
You come with a sharp cry, arching into her, body going taut, her name spilling from your lips like you were made for her.
She holds you through it, kissing your cheek, brushing your hair back, whispering, “That’s it, baby. That’s it.”
When the shaking slows, you cling to her, flushed and fucked-out, heart pounding. You nuzzle into her neck, voice tiny. “I’m not mad.”
She smiles against your hair. “I know.”
The room is quiet now.
Your body is warm and shaking gently, curled half on top of Maya on the couch. Her shirt is unbuttoned, your blouse’s somewhere on the floor, and your legs are tangled like you never plan on moving again.
She’s holding you. One hand stroking slow circles between your shoulder blades. The other resting lazily on your thigh, grounding you.
You’re breathing against her chest, face buried in the crook of her neck, eyelids fluttering. Safe. Fuzzy. Boneless.
Maya kisses your hair. “You alive down there?” she whispers.
You nod, slow. Muffled. “Mhm.”
She smiles, running her fingers through your hair now, kissing your temple.
You nuzzle closer, arms tightening around her waist.
Then, softly, voice quiet and thick with exhaustion, you apologise. “Sorry I was so dramatic.”
She blinks. Pulls back just enough to look at you. “Babe.”
You shrug against her. “I know I was bratting out. I just…” You sigh. “It’s Matt.”
There’s a beat.
Then Maya snorts.
You lift your head to glare at her, but she’s already laughing quietly, shakily, that signature Maya Mason chuckle that sounds like she can’t believe her life.
“I know it’s Matt,” she wheezes. “Believe me. I have to live with that fact every day.”
You flop your head back onto her chest. “God. Well I guess that’s punishment enough.”
Her arms tighten around you, still laughing as she presses kisses into your hair.
“You’re insane,” you murmur.
“I love you,” she says instantly.
You’re quiet for a moment. Then you whisper, “I love you too.”
She stills. Then lets out a soft little exhale, like the air just came back into her body.
You both lie there like that for a while. Quiet. Safe. Outside your office, the day goes on. Inside? It’s just you and her.
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You Said You Loved Me
drew starkey x costar!secretgf!reader
warnings: emotional whiplash, betrayal, heartbreak, mental health themes, self-harm mention, panic attack, regret, heavy emotions
a/n: tumblr isn’t letting me answer the request like usual but here is this one requested by @kieeslove . this is one is probably one of the most heartbreaking one-shots i’ve written to be honest but i love how it ended up coming out. please please please read the warnings before reading it.
The apartment is quiet. Too quiet.
You’ve had the whole day to yourself—no call time, no script changes, no wardrobe fittings. Just a long, open stretch of silence that you’d usually welcome.
But today, it’s been anything but peaceful.
You’ve barely moved from the couch since noon, wrapped in the hoodie Drew left on the kitchen chair last night, half-watching a show you’ve seen before just to fill the space. Your phone rests in your lap, screen dim, but your mind hasn’t stopped racing for hours.
You saw it this morning.
The story.
Odessa’s.
It popped up right after breakfast, when you were still groggy, sipping coffee on the balcony. You tapped through mindlessly until you froze on a video—shaky, close-up, her voice giggling behind the camera.
Drew.
He was leaning against a trailer, smiling—no, laughing. That wide, rare kind of laugh that crinkles the corners of his eyes. She flipped the camera back to herself, grinning like it was an inside joke between just the two of them.
And maybe it was.
The next slide was a photo. A candid. He had his head thrown back, laughing at something you couldn’t hear, while she stood beside him with only half her face in the frame.
But it was enough.
Enough to make your stomach twist.
Enough to make you stare too long at the caption.
“Set life with this goof 🤍”
The cast knows about you and Drew. Everyone on set does. You’ve stopped pretending around them—stopped hiding the way you slip into his trailer during breaks, how he kisses your temple when he thinks no one’s looking.
But outside of that circle, no one knows. No Instagram posts. No red carpets. Not even soft launches in the comments section.
And you understood why at first.
Keeping it private felt safer. Cleaner. Something just for you two.
Until moments like this.
Moments where he looks like someone else’s.
You scroll back through the texts—between you and Drew, between you and Odessa.
There’s nothing wrong, not really. But there’s a shift. A subtle unraveling.
He doesn’t say “I love you” before bed anymore. Doesn’t kiss your forehead when he leaves for work.
And Odessa—your best friend, the person who once felt like your other half—she’s been on set more and more. Not because she has to be. Just because.
You used to think she came to see you. To hang out between scenes, raid craft services, sit on your trailer floor and gossip about everything and nothing.
But lately, it feels like she’s there for him.
You told yourself not to overthink it. Not to read too much into the way her hand lingers on his arm when she laughs, or the way he seems more awake when she’s around.
But today, alone with your thoughts and too much time, the pit in your stomach hasn’t let up.
You pick up your phone again and scroll to your thread with Odessa.
No new messages.
She didn’t text you today.
Not after she posted those stories. Not after she spent half the afternoon on the same set your boyfriend was working on.
You’d texted her earlier—just a casual “You on set today?”—but it’s still sitting there, unanswered.
You switch to Drew’s messages.
You (9:42am): Miss you today. Hope the scene went okay.
You (12:16pm): Odessa still there?
You (3:03pm): Are you home late tonight?
All read. None replied to.
The front door opens at 1:14 a.m.
You don’t even flinch anymore. You just pull the hoodie tighter around you and pretend the tightness in your chest isn’t there.
Drew walks in with slow, tired steps, jacket slung over his arm, hair tousled from a long shoot.
You look up at him, soft but cautious. “Hey.”
He pauses at the doorway to the kitchen. “Hey. You’re up?”
“Didn’t have any scenes today,” you say, voice quieter than you mean. “Just stayed home.”
He nods, distracted. Opens the fridge. Grabs a bottle of water. Doesn’t ask about your day.
He scrolls his phone, thumbs moving quickly.
“Long shoot?” you ask after a moment.
“Yeah,” he says, cracking open the bottle. “Ran over like an hour. Just wrapped a little while ago.”
You hesitate. “Was Odessa still there?”
He lifts a shoulder in a shrug. “For a bit. She left before we wrapped.”
Another beat of silence.
You want to say more. You want to ask why she’s always there lately, or why he hasn’t said I love you in four nights straight.
But your throat closes around the words, like saying them out loud would make it worse.
Drew glances at you again. “I’m gonna crash. Early call.”
You nod. “Yeah. Okay.”
He disappears down the hall. No kiss. No touch.
And again—no I love you.
You stare at your phone until the screen fades.
Open Odessa’s story one more time.
Watch the way he laughs like he’s weightless. The way she looks at him like she knows something you don’t.
They don’t look like they’re hiding anything.
But you feel like you’re the only one being kept in the dark.
You wake up to an empty apartment again. Drew left early for set, just like he said, but something’s different today. You didn’t have to film any scenes today either, so you stayed home, hoping maybe things would feel normal again. Maybe Drew would come back and the silence wouldn’t stretch so thin between you two.
But that’s not how it goes anymore.
You scroll through your phone, trying to shake the heaviness. You glance at your messages—nothing new from Drew, just the usual short replies.
Your eyes flick to Odessa’s name, the friend you’ve known for years—the one who always seemed like your sister, the person who knew you better than anyone. But lately, even she’s become distant.
You tap her name and open your texts.
“Can’t wait to hang out tomorrow! Dinner and drinks like old times?” you typed a few days ago. No reply. Just like the other texts since then.
The next morning, you woke to a curt text from Odessa: “Had to fly back to LA today. Sorry, last minute. Hope you understand.”
No call. Just a text.
Your stomach dropped. You’d been looking forward to that night all week, but now it was gone—just like her.
You tried not to overthink it, telling yourself she was busy.
She returned, just a few days later but didn’t tell you. You found out the worst way possible.
You were walking past the trailers on set when you saw them.
Drew and Odessa.
Laughing together.
Close.
Too close.
The easy way they leaned into each other—like you used to, all three of you—felt like a punch to the gut.
You stopped, heart hammering in your chest.
They looked up and caught your eyes. Drew smiled, but it didn’t reach his eyes. Odessa’s grin faltered for a moment before she turned back to him.
Your throat tightened.
You blinked, trying to tell yourself you were imagining things. Maybe they were just friends. Maybe you were just overthinking.
But deep down, the pit in your stomach grew.
The distance between you and Drew had been growing too. More than growing—it had widened into a chasm you didn’t know how to cross.
Your conversations were clipped, like you were just two roommates trying to coexist rather than the couple you once were.
You found yourself wondering if maybe you were the problem.
Maybe I’m too much.
Maybe I’m not enough.
You replayed every conversation, every look, every silence between you two.
The way Drew would zone out when you talked about your day.
The way he spent more and more time texting someone you couldn’t see.
The way Odessa—your best friend—pulled away too, her responses short and distracted whenever you tried to ask if she was okay.
One afternoon, you caught her alone near the trailers.
“Hey, you’ve seemed… different lately. Is everything okay?” you asked, voice gentle.
She glanced up at you, eyes guarded.
“Yeah. I’m fine,” she said, but you knew better.
She was closing off, just like Drew.
You wanted to reach through the walls that were building around her, but you didn’t know how.
The days blur together, each one heavier than the last.
You watch the calendar pages turn—slow and unforgiving—but the distance between you and Drew feels like it’s growing faster by the day.
He’s quieter. More distracted. Even when he’s in the room with you, it’s like you’re separate islands sharing the same space.
It’s been over a week since he kissed you.
Not a single brush of lips, not even a quick peck in passing.
You catch yourself waiting, holding your breath for the moment it will happen. But it never does.
You try to convince yourself it’s just stress. Long shoots. Exhaustion.
But when the lights go out and the apartment is still, the silence screams louder than any excuse.
One night, you find yourself standing in the bathroom, warm water streaming over your face, blurring your vision.
You don’t want him to hear the quietness of your tears—so you let them fall only in the shower, behind the locked door.
The water carries the ache away for a little while.
Later, when Drew leaves for set—his phone forgotten on the kitchen counter, screen unlocked—you hesitate.
Curiosity gnaws at you.
You pick it up, fingers trembling.
His messages open to a thread with Odessa.
You scroll through, the words soft but sharp:
“Missed you today.”
“Can’t wait for tomorrow.”
There’s nothing explicit. No promises or declarations.
Just the kind of words that linger in the spaces between.
Your chest tightens.
You close the phone carefully and set it back down.
Staring at the ceiling, you wonder how long this has been going on.
How long you’ve been standing on the outside looking in.
You want to confront him. To demand the truth.
But the words catch in your throat.
The apartment is quiet again.
That terrible, airless quiet that makes you feel like even the walls are watching.
Your phone buzzes.
You almost don’t check. You’ve been trying to be good—trying to stop torturing yourself by scrolling through Instagram, through posts with her name tagged beside his, through photos where his eyes don’t even look like his anymore.
But the name on your screen is one you can’t ignore.
Odessa.
Your pulse jumps. You hesitate. Then you open it.
“I told Drew I’m in love with him. He feels the same. I’m sorry. We didn’t mean to hurt you.”
The air leaves your lungs in one slow, numb exhale.
You reread it once. Twice. A third time, as if the words might change if you look hard enough.
They don’t.
No emoji. No nervous laughter. No gray area.
Just a quiet confession and a knife between your ribs.
But you don’t cry.
You don’t scream.
You don’t even blink.
You just sit there on the couch, arms wrapped around your knees, the message open on your screen, the cursor blinking like it’s daring you to respond.
You don’t.
The front door opens not long after.
You hear it before you see him—his key sliding into the lock, the door creaking open, boots hitting hardwood.
He walks in humming, like he’s had a good day.
Like the world didn’t just drop out from under you.
Then he sees you.
And the humming dies.
“Hey,” Drew says slowly, careful. His voice is soft, uncertain now. “You got her text.”
Your head turns slowly toward him. Your eyes are glassy, unreadable.
So he knows.
Of course he knows.
“She told you she was going to send it?” you ask, voice flat.
He nods once. “She said she felt guilty. She didn’t want to lie anymore.”
You blink. Once. Twice.
“And you let her?”
“I didn’t let her,” he says, stepping closer. “I tried to stop her, but—”
You laugh, but there’s no humor in it. It sounds like something breaking.
“She said you feel the same.”
Drew hesitates. “That’s not what I—look, it’s not black and white, okay? It’s complicated—”
You stare at him. “Complicated,” you repeat, the word like acid in your mouth.
He moves toward you, crouching beside the couch, reaching for your hand.
You flinch before he can touch you.
He freezes.
“I didn’t mean for this to happen,” he says quietly.
Your hands shake as you stand, your voice rising without warning. “Don’t you dare say that to me.”
His eyes go wide. “I—”
“No.” You cut him off, stepping back. “You don’t get to say you didn’t mean to. You chose this.”
“You think I wanted to hurt you?”
“You did hurt me.”
The fury rises in you like a tide—faster than you can stop it.
“I’ve been here,” you whisper. “Every single day. Loving you. Waiting for you to love me back the way you used to.”
You grab the photo from the coffee table—the one from Paris, the one where you look happiest, safest, most certain of him.
You throw it across the room with every ounce of strength you have.
It hits the wall and shatters, glass and memories scattering across the floor.
He flinches.
“You were supposed to love me,” you say, voice cracking now. “Not her. Me.”
Drew steps forward like he’s trying to fix something already broken. “I do love you—”
“No, you don’t,” you snap. “Not really. Because if you did, this wouldn’t have happened.”
He tries to hug you, arms reaching for you like he still has a right to them.
You let him.
But not out of love.
Out of exhaustion.
His chest presses to yours, and for one brief second you remember the comfort that used to live in that space.
Now it feels foreign.
He murmurs, “We can fix this. Please. I’ll cut things off with her. We can go to therapy or—”
You press your hands to his chest and push him back gently.
“No,” you say. “This isn’t something you fix.”
“I didn’t want to lose you.”
“Well, you did.”
You walk to the door. Open it.
His breath catches. “You’re really kicking me out?”
You nod.
“I need space. I need you gone.”
Drew just stands there, stunned.
You look him straight in the eye.
“Come back for your things when I’m not here.”
“Please,” he says again, voice cracking. “Just let me explain—”
“You already did.”
And then you close the door.
Not hard.
Just enough to say this is final.
The click of the lock is the only sound in the apartment now.
The kind of silence that feels like grief.
Weeks pass.
The days don’t feel like days anymore.
Just hours strung together like dim beads on a thread you didn’t ask to hold.
You’re back on set.
Back in makeup chairs and wardrobe trailers. Back in long shooting days and artificial sunsets. Back in scenes where you’re supposed to smile, touch, kiss. Where you’re supposed to cry in the rain, shout until your throat is raw, crumble in someone else’s arms like your heart is breaking.
Pretend.
You move through it all like a ghost.
Quiet. Efficient. Detached.
You say your lines. You hit your marks. You laugh when the script says you’re supposed to. You kiss him when the camera rolls. You sob against his chest on cue, let your voice crack in that way the director loves. You even slap him in one scene—your eyes glassy, your voice trembling as you yell through clenched teeth.
But nothing touches you.
Not really.
You feel like someone’s removed your insides and left only the outline of you behind. Something hollowed out and left on autopilot.
Between takes, you sit by yourself.
No music in your headphones. No books cracked open. Just silence, staring at nothing, like you’re afraid to fill the space with anything real.
You used to light up on set. You used to steal the crew’s snacks, laugh between takes, tease Drew when he flubbed his lines. There was always an energy around you—light, warm, full of spark.
Now, the spark is gone.
And everyone feels it.
They don’t say anything, not directly. But you can feel the stares. The too-gentle hellos. The quiet way people check on you like they’re afraid you might shatter if they speak too loud.
Even Drew notices.
Especially Drew.
You don’t look at him unless the scene requires it.
You don’t answer when he says your name off camera.
You don’t sit near him at lunch, don’t meet his eyes when the director gives you blocking notes, don’t flinch when you’re told you’ll be filming another kiss today.
You just nod.
And do it.
Like it doesn’t hurt.
Like it doesn’t kill you every time his hands touch your waist, every time he looks at you like he remembers what it used to feel like to be loved by you.
The worst part is—he still looks at you like he’s in love.
Like he’s sorry.
But sorry doesn’t undo the wreckage.
You’ve already learned how to carry the debris.
Today, there’s a scene. You’re arguing. The kind that gets rewritten the night before for “heightened emotional stakes.” You scream at him, tears in your eyes, spit flying as you shove him in the chest. Your voice breaks in all the right places. The crew holds their breath.
"Cut."
You step back. Wipe your face. The tears vanish as fast as they came.
You turn away from him without a glance, your expression flat. Cold.
Drew just stands there, stunned. Still catching his breath from a fight that wasn’t real—at least not on paper. Still staring at you like he’s waiting for something soft to return to your face.
But your face is steel now.
Sharp angles. No trace of the vulnerability from a moment ago. Just rage simmering under the surface, quiet and controlled and utterly unreachable.
Like flipping a switch.
And that’s what terrifies him.
The way you can drop the emotion like it never existed. Like he doesn’t exist.
Between takes, you walk off set. You need air. Space. Anything that doesn’t feel like recycled heartbreak.
You step out behind the trailers, where no one’s watching.
Your hands tremble as you pull a cigarette from your jacket pocket. You haven’t smoked since college, since a messy breakup you thought nothing would ever top.
Funny.
You light it with shaking fingers, inhale, exhale, trying to find some kind of calm in the burn.
You don’t hear Rudy approach.
But you feel him.
He walks up slowly, hands in his pockets, eyes kind.
Without a word, he reaches out and gently takes the cigarette from your fingers.
You don’t fight him.
“Hey,” he says softly.
You glance at him, just barely. “Hey.”
“You okay?”
It’s the kind of question that should come with a dozen follow-ups. But he doesn’t push. Just asks it like he’ll believe whatever answer you give him.
You nod once. “Yeah.”
It’s a lie.
He knows it’s a lie.
But he lets you have it anyway.
Rudy looks at you for a long moment before dropping the cigarette to the ground and stomping it out.
Then he slings an arm loosely around your shoulders.
You don’t lean into it. But you don’t pull away, either.
You just stand there.
Side by side.
Quiet.
Because some silences don’t beg to be filled.
Some are just there to be witnessed.
The moon is a sliver above the water—ghostly and thin, like it’s watching but too tired to shine.
Drew finds you sitting at the edge of the dock, legs drawn up, arms locked around your knees like if you let go, you’d come apart completely.
You haven’t moved in what feels like hours.
He stands behind you for a while, saying nothing. Just… watching.
You look so still.
Too still.
So he steps forward, wood groaning beneath his weight, careful not to scare you. Not that you react. Not even a glance. Your eyes are locked on the black water, the surface rippling quietly like it’s holding your secrets.
He settles beside you, close but not touching. The wind brushes through your hair.
For a moment, all he hears is the hush of the waves and the far-off echo of laughter from the house.
He thinks maybe you’re calm.
Then he hears it.
That faint, stuttering breath. The wet sound of someone trying not to fall apart.
He turns to look at you—and sees it.
Your shoulders trembling.
Your jaw clenched so tight it’s trembling.
The soft, broken sound clawing from your throat as your lungs fail you.
You’re crying.
But it’s not just crying.
It’s a full-body unraveling.
He shifts closer, alarm rising in his chest. “Hey. Hey, breathe. Look at me.”
You don’t.
Your body hunches in tighter, shoulders shaking harder as your breath gets faster, shallower—like you’re trapped under something heavy.
“Breathe with me, okay?” Drew tries again, voice soft. “Just… follow me.”
He reaches out carefully, fingers brushing your wrist to anchor you, like he used to do back when things were simpler—back when that touch meant safety.
But this time, the contact makes you flinch.
And still, his hand closes gently around your wrist—and that’s when he feels it.
His fingers still.
Then tighten—just slightly.
Because he knows what he’s touching.
Scars.
Fresh ones.
Fainter than they used to be, maybe. But new. Raw.
His entire body goes cold.
“Please…” His voice breaks, a whisper edged in panic. “Please tell me those are old.”
Your head snaps toward him.
Your eyes—red, wide, furious—are like a slap.
You rip your arm from his grip and clutch it against your chest like a secret.
“I told you I wasn’t doing that anymore,” you snap, voice cracking. “I told you I was okay.”
“I thought you were,” he says, stunned. “You promised—”
“You think I wanted to start again?” you explode. “You think I wanted to go back to that?”
Your voice is all rage and ache and grief. “Do you know what it’s like? To sit in a bathroom with a towel under you and a razor in your hand, and you’re shaking so bad you can’t tell if you want to die or just want it to stop?”
He’s silent.
Paralyzed.
“I stopped for you,” you say, trembling. “I stopped because you made me feel like I was enough.”
Your voice drops to a whisper. “But then you weren’t mine anymore. You were hers. And I couldn’t breathe, Drew. I couldn’t fucking breathe.”
You stand up so fast he can barely react.
You stumble backward a few steps, chest heaving, arms wrapped around yourself like a shield.
“If you were just gonna fall in love with my best friend…” Your voice cracks. “Then you shouldn’t have asked me to be your fucking girlfriend.”
He rises slowly, hands out like he’s approaching a wounded animal.
“I never meant to hurt you like this.”
“But you did!” you scream, backing away. “You knew how fragile I was. You knew. I told you everything. I told you what it felt like to want to hurt myself. I told you what it cost to survive it.”
Tears streak your face, wild and fast.
“And you still chose her.”
He tries to reach for you. “Please—just talk to me.”
You shove his chest with both hands. Hard. Then again. And again.
“You were supposed to love me.”
He doesn’t stop you. He just stands there and takes it.
“You were supposed to be different,” you cry. “I trusted you with everything. I gave you every broken piece and you just—God—Drew, you left me there.”
More footsteps. Fast ones. The house has gone silent behind you, but now someone’s running.
Rudy reaches you just as you collapse forward.
He catches you in his arms, sinking with you to the dock.
Your body shakes with silent sobs, all strength gone, all resistance dissolved.
Madelyn grabs Drew, her expression unreadable—fear and fury clashing behind her eyes.
She pulls him back, away from you, away from the collapse.
“What happened?” she hisses, voice low and sharp.
But Drew can’t answer.
He’s crying too.
Watching the way Rudy holds you like something sacred and shattered.
Your voice, small and hoarse, cuts through the stillness.
“I really loved you,” you whisper, like you’re trying to remind yourself it mattered. “I really did.”
Rudy closes his eyes, jaw tight, hugging you closer.
“And I tried,” you say, your breath hitching again. “I really tried not to hurt myself. I really did.”
The only sound left is your broken breathing and the water moving beneath the dock.
No one knows what to say.
No one knows if anything would help.
And Drew—
He kneels in the shadows, hands shaking, the words I’m sorry caught somewhere between his heart and throat, knowing they’ll never be enough.
Not now.
Maybe not ever.
The room is cold. Fluorescent lights hum overhead, casting pale shadows across the long table that stretches between you and the others.
You sit at one end, fingers curled tightly around the edge of the wood, knuckles blanching with pressure.
Across from you, the cast shifts uncomfortably in their seats—Jonas standing at the head of the table, his hands resting on its surface like an anchor, eyes serious and tired.
Drew sits near the middle, hands folded in his lap, eyes fixed on the scuffs in the floor.
The silence hangs like a storm about to break, thick and unyielding.
Jonas clears his throat.
“We can’t keep filming like this,” he says, voice low but steady.
“This tension, this… distance. It’s hurting the work. And it’s hurting all of you.”
He looks around the room, then back at you.
“We all want to move forward. But that means you and Drew need to talk. You need to clear this, or at least try.”
Your throat tightens, words lodged in your chest like shards.
You stare down at the table, tracing a scratch in the grain with your finger.
Drew finally speaks, voice hesitant, raw.
“I never meant for things to get this messed up. For me to fall for Odessa.”
He looks up, meeting your eyes briefly.
“I wasn’t trying to use you, YN. I swear. You have to believe me.”
You swallow hard.
Bitter words claw at your throat, but they spill out before you can stop them.
“You promised me everything.”
Your voice breaks, trembling like a frayed wire.
“Paris. A house with a garden.”
“Kids. Marley from the pound.”
You close your eyes and press your palms to the table to stop them from shaking.
A cold certainty wraps around your words, unshakable.
The room is still.
Drew’s shoulders slump, a bitter twist in his chest.
“Do you really think I fell for her just to hurt you?”
His voice breaks like glass, fragile and jagged.
You don’t answer.
You don’t want to.
“You think you’re the only one hurting?”
He shakes his head, voice rising with desperate frustration.
“You think this is easy for me?”
The words are raw, ragged.
You lean forward, voice cutting through the thick silence.
“Easy?” you scoff. “You and Odessa? The perfect little couple who ruined me?”
Jonas steps between you with a steadying hand raised.
“Enough.”
You lift your head slowly, voice low and final.
“I can do the scenes. But Drew stays away from me.”
“Odessa stays away, too. If she ever visits, I don’t want to see her.”
The words fall like a decree, clear and unyielding.
You stand abruptly, the chair scraping hard against the floor.
Your breath catches—sharp and uneven.
The door slams behind you.
Leaving behind only silence and the lingering weight of what’s broken.
Time passes in strange ways after everything breaks.
The apartment is quieter now. Not silent—just… softer. Like everyone’s learned to move around the wound without touching it.
You’ve stopped crying in the bathroom.
You still avoid him on set.
But you’re functioning again.
You wake up with the sun instead of dragging yourself out of bed at noon. You drink water. You make your bed. You sit on the balcony in the mornings with a journal in your lap and your knees curled to your chest, scribbling down thoughts you won’t say out loud.
You don’t live in the old apartment anymore.
You couldn’t. Not after everything.
The quiet was too loud there. The walls still held the shape of him—his coffee mug on the counter, his laugh echoing in the hallway, the soft imprint of a life you built and lost all at once.
So you packed it all up and left. New place. New routine. Smaller, lonelier, but yours.
No ghosts.
Just space to breathe.
Sometimes, you paint again. You drag an old easel out to the balcony and lose yourself in blues and golds and soft, wide brushstrokes. Your fingers end up stained for days.
Sometimes, you laugh.
Mostly with Rudy. He’s your shadow now. Always close. Always watching.
He knows when to joke, when to distract you, when to sit in silence and just breathe beside you.
JD brings you coffee every morning from town, no matter what. It started as a quiet gesture. Now it’s a ritual. He doesn’t say much—but you know it’s his way of reminding you you’re seen. Still wanted. Still here.
The cast has adjusted. They don’t talk about what happened. Not in front of you. Not in front of him.
You and Drew still share scenes. Still work together like professionals.
But off-camera? You orbit each other like broken planets.
Not friends.
Not enemies.
Just… nothing.
And maybe that’s worse.
Drew keeps his distance, like you asked. He doesn’t push. Doesn’t try.
But he watches you when he thinks you won’t notice.
From the far side of the room, across the lawn, just past the camera setup.
Always just out of reach.
You caught him once, lingering in the doorway as you laughed too hard at something Rudy said, your head thrown back, hair messy, eyes brighter than they’d been in weeks.
He didn’t smile.
He just stood there, quiet and still, his expression unreadable.
Like he wasn’t sure if he was allowed to feel anything.
Like he wasn’t sure he deserved to.
Some days, you think you might hate him.
Other days, you ache just thinking his name.
But mostly—you’re just tired.
Tired of missing someone who’s still right there.
Tired of feeling haunted by a version of him that doesn’t exist anymore.
And Drew—
He wonders how it got like this.
How a joke at a table, a few lingering glances, a shared hoodie and some stupid, unspoken boundaries turned into something he’d ruin with a single mistake.
How he lost the girl who loved him enough to break for him.
He watches you from afar, regret curling in his chest like smoke.
You’re still beautiful. Still brilliant. Still trying.
But now, when you smile—it’s never at him.
And he doesn’t know if it ever will be again.
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Batfam X Reincarnated! Reader [but make it angsty]
I'm feeling angsty so saddle up for this one, also yes I'm writing this at 12 am once more? How could you tell (●'◡'●)
Quick disclaimer for canon-typical for violence, illness, death [lots of it], angst, and time loops. Also this makes, like, zero sense to me but I still wanna write it so yay!
The world always had a love for the dramatics. Everything on this planet has faced hardship after dramatic hardship without delay. It's no question as to why Reader was currently coughing up blood. They were sick, terminal even, and there was nobody to comfort them in their time of need.
Their family had labeled them as a 'financial burden' and cut off all contact with them aside from a once in a blue moon visit. It was supposed to be today but the weather was uncaring and unkind, it was like the sky had opened up to pour all it's tears out for the day. Roads were flooded and it was simply out of the question for people to be making drives.
Reader coughed once, then twice, and then for a final third time as something wet was expelled from their lungs. They looked down, ah...that was their blood, wasn't it? They didn't have time to call for someone, as this was a new development and something that shouldn't be happening, but they were attacked by an onslaught of rapid coughing.
It was getting harder to breath and there was a terrible pressure behind their eyes, like it was going to pop. And then something broke, a silent snap of the thread, and Reader couldn't stop the overflowing blood spill from their lips.
Distantly they heard the shocked scream of someone, maybe it was a nurse? But it sounded so familiar...there were hands shaking them in panic. Rough, calloused hands that felt like someone from their childhood.
Rough hands rubbed over their face as they let out a childish giggle. "Dad stop! You're gonna mess up moms hard work!!" And a rough laugh responded back with a fond voice. "Ah but you're such a cool looking tiger, look at how fearsome you are! I must tame you with pets so you wont feast on us poor folk" Followed by even more childish giggles from the two.
Reader wondered if this was the hands of their father, but brushed it off with a tired sigh. There's no way their father would be here, the roads were covered in too much water.
The book slipped from their hand and fell to the floor just as Reader closed their eyes. The last thing they could ever see through the blurriness of their vision was their fathers terrified and panicked face.
Guess he really did show up. How cruel of fate to do such a thing in this life..
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Reader opened their eyes to a more comfortable bed, one without the itchy hospital blanket that was too thin for comfort. They raised a hand to their face and rubbed away the tears. They looked to the wall, finding the mirror they used to have in their childhood room before they moved.
They lost the mirror sometime during the, moving process and they never saw it again. They had to move closer to the hospital for their mothers treatment. Who would have guess that Reader would have the same illness as their mother later down the line?
Reader pushed away their thoughts, they didn't have time to think about that. This was the tenth time they've died in this universe. And just like the last ten times, they woke up back in their tiny ten year old body like it was all a bad dream.
"Why can't this end? What am I doing wrong? I've been here so many times..." Reader thought to themselves trying to understand this terrible time loop. In the first loop they had clung to their mother, afraid of their sickness. They hadn't died yet, only having been reincarnated into the DC universe as Bruce's neglected child who had a sad fate.
Their mother, Bruce's second wife, had an uncurable illness that would be later passed down to Reader due to genetics. It was one the writers made up for pure angsts reasons, there was no cure and it acted like the Hanahaki Disease. Not in a "I need my love to be reciprocate or I'll spit up flowers and die, or lose all my memories and feelings of you to get rid of them" but rather in the way that the lungs were filled to the brim with something that shouldn't be there and will continue to grow unless you get a new set of lungs.
They tried so desperately to keep the illness from developing in that life time, even trying to tell them of their previous life as someone from another universe. Their kind mother had only patted their head with a small laugh and praising them for how creative their mind was.
When it did develop, like it always does, they were branded as having cursed their mother by the public. Their father, who couldn't stand the looks they were giving his child so he decided that it was best for them to stay inside. So he looked them away without a word, and Reader was only let out for their mothers funerial.
Reader will never forget the feeling of betrayal, and Bruce will never forget the way his own child had glared at him with so much hate in their eyes. How could he do this to them? To lock them away and not let them visit their mother? How could he? How dare he.
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In their next life Reader hadn't said a word about it to their mom, only clinging to them like a second pair of skin. Where ever their mom went they would follow. Yet she still died of the same illness on the 5th of May, just like clockwork.
The third and fourth played out roughly the same. Reader clung to their mom, attempted to be kind to Bruce and his own posse of children but was met with confused looks considering they spent most of their time in the hospital or in their room. They wouldn't die of the sickness, not in those lives, but rather that it was an attack that stole their life. In the third it was a gunshot to the stomach and they were left to bleed out in some warehouse.
In the fourth they were pushed out the way of falling rubble and had gotten impaled by some exposed metal wires. They knew it was an accident. Robin hadn't meant for them to get hurt that way, not ever. But it still happened. It still hurt. They could never make it past 18, always dying before their 19th birthday.
They couldn't stand to be touched in the next life. The weight of it all had gotten to them and they just...couldn't do it anymore. No false joy, no hiding away their sorrows behind closed doors knowing nobody would check on them. They had sobbed so much, and cried for so long that their tears had left them feeling hallow. The next lives just blurred together like sand slipping through their fingers.
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This time was different. For lack of better words, it was weird. Their father had woken them up with a tight hug, sobbing into their shoulder like he was so afraid they might disappear if he softened his grip. Their mother had been woken up by the missing warmth of her husband and had followed him to your room.
She didn't say a word, only hugging the both of them as tight as she could. After that night things started to change from Readers past memories. When Bruce took in Dick, he didn't forget about them after a while. He made time and an effort to include them into his plans, to hangout with his friends.
And when Bruce introduced Jason? He had looked at them like he was seeing a ghost, like he was looking at someone he knew had already died but still couldn't come to terms with it. Reader would never accept it but they had a feeling that people were starting to remember their past lives as well.
Tim had been the most normal. He didn't look at them like a ghost, didn't cling to them like a tick. He had just sat next to them in the library and asked them about their day. And Reader would like to mention they did not tear up at the question, no that would be a bit silly. It's not like they've been waiting eleven lifetimes for someone to ask them, no certainly not.
Steph had invited them places, treated them like they've always been apart of their friendship. Like it was the most natural thing to do in the world. Like in another life time she didn't avoid them like she knew they were dying and didn't want to stick around.
Cassandra was the second best thing to normal in this life. She hadn't deviated, nor had she had some twist in her personality like she was privy to information she couldn't share. No, she had done what she always did and silently offer her support. A tissue when no one was looking during a sad play, a pat on the back when Reader was looking down, and pat on the head when Reader felt like they were simply fading into the background once more.
But Damian? He avoided them at first. like he couldn't stand to see their faced. To him Reader looked sickly, so close to death, that it scared him. He was afraid to touch them but at the same time he just wanted to hold them close and never let go. He couldn't get the images of their death out of his mind.
The way they looked pale when he found them in the first life, frozen solid with nothing but a blanket to keep them warm during the night beside their mothers grave. The way they had seemed so at peace in their final moments, like it didn't matter at all. The way he found them once more in the second life, having died in a car accident near the harbor. Their body submerged in water had floated to the top, mocking him as if saying that this could have been avoid had he shown up sooner.
He found them bleeding from their stomach, beaten and bruised and so incredibly pale. Then he was the cause of their next death. He'll never forgive himself for that. Never. He should have known that it was exposed, should have pulled them his way instead of pushing them. How could he be so stupid? Then he found them in the next, and the next, and the next, and the next, and the next. Pleaseletitstop, hessorrypleasejustletitstop. Because fate hates him so much for how he treated Reader in the first life, he found them in all the other lifetimes too all except the last one.
Bruce had found them. Coughing up their lungs with a pained look, realizing that they were dying just like their mother was and he couldn't stop it. He was unable to do anything, all he could do was shout their name in panic as he tried to keep them awake and- oh god where the hell were the doctors?!
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In this life time the Wayne family had remembered. And cursed with the fruit of knowledge they did everything they could to keep Reader safe from all harm and away from the prying eyes of the public. This time they would do it right. They'd make sure that Reader's mother would survive, they'd do anything to keep the two of them alive this time around.
And if they had to use the Lazarus Pits to do so then so be it.
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