#i think i'm going to stay offline today that was too much

[forcebookish]

WHEN I SAID THAT I WANTED MEW TO KISS TOP'S NECK AND FOR TOP TO MOAN WITH MEW THAT IS NOT WHAT I MEANt

[amypihcs]

So i'm dead.

@contact-guy's beautiful comic (i loved it, truly, it killed me.) and watching Hellsing with an offline friend of mine killed me THROUGHLY.

And since i fear i'm figuring out how Holmes and Watson's relationship will evolve into @contact-guy's comic serie i'll curse you with the HCs i made with my dear @i-dont-talk-for-days-on-end today talking about my future drawing of Watson with his loves, Holmes and Mary.

You can probably tell i'm emotionally devastated because my writing is more inconsistent than my usual.

So.

For me is very important that Mary gets treated well, since she exists in canon and is a fantastic woman. And i also love to think that she and Holmes are friends, after all they both love Watson.

My take is, Watson and Mary have kind of a façade marriage based on good friendship and comradeship but without love and generally without sex.

This could work in two ways, both of which are incredibly nice one:

Aroace Mary who needs some sort of social respectability coming from a marriage and got lucky enough to find a man as good and kind as Watson who is more than willing to help her to achieve it without endangering her

Lesbian or Bi Mary in a relationship with a girl, probably her ex employer, could be someone else, who still needs the respectability and stability coming from a marriage and is still lucky enough to find our favourite bisaster, Dr John H. Watson, who is also bisexual and in a relationship with a man and would benefit a lot from the cover of a respectable marriage.

The first one is rather easy to treat. Watson and Mary make good friends during Sign of Four, Holmes notices/guesses that Mary is acespec like him (my Headcanon for Holmes is that he is demigay) and when Watson proposes and she accepts they put immediately straight that it won't be a consummated marriage, ever.

The second one develops in the same way, and this makes so much more explainable the many times Mary is mentioned to be away visiting relatives in canon. Mary is with her partner, Watson is with his partner.

Now angst warning!

Sherlock Holmes looks very favorably upon Watson's marriage, he is in fact the one that pushes Watson into it, and for very good reasons.

Let's put sign of four in 1887, alright? Chances are high he was already pursuing Moriarty, or that he generally was realizing more and more the risk of dying on the job, well, Holmes is a smart man. And a clever, practical and caring one as well. he is a man who loves deeply and cares deeply and wants to always have his affairs in order.

Is it too much of a stretch to imagine that he realizes the higher and higher risk of SOMETHING BAD happening? I don't think so. And he knows that Watson could get caught in the crossfire and he wants of course to protect Watson and offer him some saving net.

He pushes Watson into this marriage that will not mean the end of their relationship but the creation of another meaningful relationship for his love, so that SHOULD I DIE he will have someone to help him weather the storm (would watson care, would he? nobody ever did, but WATSON. Watson cares for everyone... would watson care...). The marriage also means that he will go back into practice, and this is an economic safe net, something always good. Their relationship is of course carefully concealed but such a handsome, sociable, perfect man as Watson is staying unmarried and living with a bachelor friend might give rouse to suspects, marriage will give his incredible partner respectability, something Moriarty or anybody won't dare to attack without sure cards in his hands, and Holmes will make sure NOBODY has any such cards.

Holmes is no coward, but he's not stupid either. He knows his job is dangerous and it might lead to really bad things happening, so he is happy when Watson tells him Mary said yes. He is happy on the morning of the wedding, he is the man who ties Watson's tie and then kisses his lips. He tells his husband to go marry, enjoy his honeymoon and start his life with his wife. And then come back to him, to their rooms and their love. And they both will have tears in their eyes. Holmes will not be at the cerimony, nor will Mary's wife. But they will always support their partners.

Holmes OF COURSE will sulk for a bit, until Scandal in Bohemia. He did what was right, but he still feels lonely. And then Watson comes back. And they're together once more, they're in love and they can break the world apart. And then comes 1890. Watson is a bit more settled down, Holmes has his affairs in order, he can set to the work of his life. And then comes 1891.

Holmes is afraid.

They set fire to their rooms. Home is not safe anymore.

Reichenbach comes.

Holmes is not suicidal, he is terrified. And yet he will once more put Watson's happiness in front of his own. He will not put his husband in front of an impossible choice. He drafts a letter in his head. He leaves it under a silver cigarette case.

He can't imagine he will only see his husband three years later.

His plans worked and failed. But they're back together. Holmes will finally talk. There's a broken window in 221b Baker Street, they're both older, more tired. A bit sad at how things turned out. Mary is dead. Holmes couldn't have forseen that. And yet after some days, after a dinner. Watson will pat the empty spot on his left on the couch, he's still sitting in the center. He will hug Holmes close to his chest, they will remember the times all three of them hugged, Watson and his loves, Mary on the right, Holmes on the left. Holmes on the heart's side, Mary on the reason's side. They will cry. And remember. And be glad for what have been and look forward to what will be.

They're older, more sure of themselves. Watson's status as a widower is respectable enough, he murmurs in the dark. He will only be married to one man for the rest of his life. The following morning, Holmes presents Watson with a French gold coin, for his Watch chain. That will be their ring, their memento.

Years will pass, they will retire, they will always be together, because they never lived, so they can never die. Outside the rain pours and the cabs rattle in the streets.

And it is.

Always.

1895.

Okay, sorry for the immense rant, i have tears streaming down my face, my j'accuse is up in the first lines and it's also my thank you for getting the balls to write this rant on holmes, watson and mary.

[bomberqueen17]

what is up froods

lol i keep forgetting to like. actually write updates in my personal journal. i'm using this tumblr too much like a tumblr.

i went down a rabbit hole the other night in that i just opened my own archives and went back to 2013 and then realized i started this in 2011. i didn't say a lot, back then i definitely was still using my LJ for Big Personal Updates and Tumblr was exclusively for snappy shitposts, and then I abandoned the LJ and only blogged in snappy shitposts for a while, and I did some vagueblogging that I genuinely have no idea what it was about, and that's fun.

But there's some. Boy there's some real fossils in there. God everything stays the same but everything happens so much.

I know I've backed up this blog but IDK how much you can make it make sense, offline. Anyway. That's how it goes. I'm not in any kind of existential panic about the site I'm just reacting to the zeigeist here, it made me think of old times.

I go back to the farm in a couple of weeks-- just for a couple of weeks, but the Season is Starting. My physical therapist keeps giving me more exercises. She's right, my core strength is wretched, but when I said I'd tried to do crunches now and then, tried to stay a tiny bit fit but-- she was like omg no you can't do crunches, with that hip cartilage as it is, so I felt a little better. So she's teaching me what I *can* do, and the important thing is that she's like you cannot do this more than every other day or three times a week, you cannot rush this kind of thing, and it's wonderful advice contrary to all the other advice I've ever had in my life which was like every moment you're not doing more work you're being a lazy shit. So, that's nice. I'll cut because nothing else here is going to be interesting.

I'm not the youngest person at physical therapy but there's a lot of old people there. I haven't been masking, I've been being lazy and just using xylitol nose spray before I go, and it's been fine, but I know that's just luck. (I see no one but Dude, who sees almost no one but me, so the consequences of fucking up would be minor.) with a trip to the farm coming up, I'm going to go back to masking, at least in the lead-up to the trip-- because last time I had COVID I had almost no symptoms, and nowadays apparently the rapid tests aren't super useful. The way I'm coping is, I know, a logical fallacy-- since COVID wasn't bad the one time I had it, I'm just telling myself I'm resistant naturally and it won't hurt me, and I know this is not the truth at all but it helps me cope-- but I cannot stand the thought of spreading it to someone who would be more hurt by it, so I have convinced myself not to fear catching it but to fear spreading it. I figure it's effectively the same and lets me not just be fucking terrified all the time.

I also discovered that a former employee of the farm who's out here going to college is interested in carpooling, and we've already got a tentative date for him to ride back with me on my way back from the farm at the end of March, and this has lightened my spirits a great deal. It's such a long drive and it feels like such a waste of gas, and he does have a car but it's not actually that safe to drive on the Thruway. (He swears up and down it's perfectly safe but just not at sustained speeds over 60. I was like omg kid do NOT, I will drive, my car is brand fkn new. He's taking the train home and will ride back with me.)

Let's see. Oh I don't think I've kept up with posting about the kitchen painting. It's down to the last tiny fiddly details, and what I've got to do is do a half-stencil in the corner above the door, and I did one half yesterday and will finish the rest today. I had to custom cut out a copy of part of the stencil to make it work, and it's sort of janky and I am going to have to hand-paint it with a lot of masking tape, but it's such a small area that like, why not, I can be that fussy. It's fine.

Once I finish that, which if I do part in the morning and part in the afternoon I can do today, then I can FINALLY CLEAN UP AND PUT AWAY all the painting detritus. I can't tell you how excited I am to do that.

I've also been doing fabric dyeing, finally. I collected several of the muslin garments I'd finished and meant to do something with, and got out my dyes. I did a batch of ice dye solely because I forgot which ones I'd intended to use for that; now I have a pair of slightly ill-fitting homemade leggings that look like a clown threw up on them, and a cheerful sweatshirt to match. i then used the runoff to dye the cream-colored canvas work smock-- I sort of tie-dyed it because I pasted up a little bit of two of the component colors and poured that on a couple areas that I then rubberbanded, because I wanted tie-dye but did not want any white areas left. So it's a blue/purple/red smock now, and the rainbow stitching I constructed it with was polyester so it's still rainbow, huzzah. Subtle and understated and also I can smear it with filth and maybe it will still look intentional.

[image description: a canvas work smock with big pockets, hanging to dry, mostly a mucky dark purple but with some brighter splotches of red and dark blue, and some bits of paler purple.]

[image description: assorted garments draped over drying racks in a sunporch, in blotchy shades of red, orange, yellow, green, blue, purple, all kind of run together but not murky.]

And then I did another batch of ice dye, this time with the dyes I had bought that are supposed to work well for this because they split. That dress is still in the wash so I don't have pictures of how it turned out, but mostly it just looks splotchy green. LOL oh well. The point was, I made all these test garments in undyed fabric, but I don't have a lifestyle where I can wear a white dress, so now I have some non-white dresses I don't have to be precious about. Some of them I should now probably hem and like actually finish..........

I have one dress and one shirt left, and a pair of light-wash jeans I don't like wearing, and I'm thinking about trying like. Ombre or something. We'll see if I get around to that.

My sewing area is still a fuckin disaster and I don't want to think about it. But I'm cutting out a vest from scrap denim, I want a quilted abrasion-resistant washable work vest for farm work next week and I gotta get a move on. All I need now is to cut out the batting and get to it. So hopefully today.

I took photos, I might try writing up how-tos on the dyeing and on the repurposed denim stuff, but I also might not. If I was doing this again I would probably not bother with the ice, for the rainbow one. We'll see once the properly ice dyed dress comes out of this wash, I can hear the washer spinning but I'm trapped under Chita at the moment.

I missed this week's fic update because I'm progressing so slowly on both current active WIPs. I have a bunch written ahead in both, but each one has the back half of the current chapter just held up waiting for me to write them; I've overcome the structural decisions that delayed me, but I have to just sit and write them. And both of them are complicated scenes I've been waiting to write a long time, so I'm looking forward to writing them, and so like, paradoxically, can't make myself do it. Because once I've done it I'll have done it, see... anyway. Silly but there it is. I'll get through it once I decide I deserve that treat. I know! I know.

[v-lynx-2]

Midnight with you.

Jake x mc

Putting an insomniac hacker to bed isn't an easy task as mc came to believe.

First thing mc tried to educate him on the importance of sleep over the phone sending him articles, screenshots, videos, but it didn't seem to work as she would text him few hours after midnight and he is still there.

Second try, mc tried to help him manage his time, maybe he has so much to do that he had no time to sleep..

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Mc : what are you so busy with lately ?

Jake : for now I'm setting up my equipment in a different location.

Mc : um.. Jake.. isn't this usually a secret kind of info?

Jake : in case anyone reading our chat ?

Jake : I guarantee you, it's so unlikely to happen.

Mc : okay so when are you going to do that ?

Jake : by morning I will reach the new location, but please mc, you can sleep.

Jake : you don't have to keep me company that late, picking up my bad habbits won't do you any good.

Mc : but !

Jake : No.

Mc : look, you really need some help with time management, you can tell me your plans and I can help you organize them for you.

Jake : why ? Everything is working just fine.

Mc : just fine? You barely get any sleep !

Jake : don't worry, you get some sleep.

Mc : Jake ..

Jake : goodnight mc, you need not worry about me.

<Jake is now offline>

Mc : 🙄

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Saying third time is the charm, mc tried again.

This time she prepared everything for the sole purpose of getting him to sleep few decent hours at least.

Dimming the lights, big dinner, warming some milk, setting up the right room temperature, fluffing up the pillows and spraying a little bit of lavender essential oil on them and a warm bath, mc vowed that today would be the day this hacker gets some sleep.

Usually, when mc invites him over, he would stay around for a movie, sometimes dinner but never too long, not this time though.

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Jake : I have brought the movie you picked with me.

Mc : cool !

Jake : also a little something I hope you like.

Mc : awwww Jake 💖

Jake : ;)

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The movie was boring, Jake barely kept his eyes open, it was all going according to plan, mc picked this movie specifically for this.

" oh thank you" said Jake, as mc gave a mug of warm milk and honey and came back to cuddle with him, it felt so nice and comfy he could feel himself getting even more sleepy, that's when he suddenly stood up.

" hey what's wrong? "

" it's getting late.., I have to go " he said looking at his backpack by the table.

" you know you can stay the night, right ?"

" I can't"

" who says? " mc asked

" I do, I have things to do "

" this late ? Jake.. is there a problem? "

" No, I just.. let's talk later, okay? "

" Nope, whatever you are working on, can wait" mc said folding her arms.

" cute, job calls mc, you know that I usually do all my work-"

" at night, yes, I get it, we can't cuddle because you think that you can't put your projects aside for once, yeah cool " mc said going to her bedroom and closing the door behind her.

Nothing is going according to plan.

She just wanted him to have some rest, his lifestyle is really unhealthy, she just wanted to help.

Mc hears knocking on the door.

" mc, I wasn't planning to stay tonight.. but-"

Mc opens the door to let him in

" but ? "

" don't expect much sleep." A smirk escaped his lips as he came closer to the bed, mc blushed.

" um I ... Well, don't worry, I prepared a relaxing bath for you"

" oh for us? How lovely, I'm afraid I didn't bring a spare change of clothes"

" I took care of that " said mc proudly.

" good job, mc" he said taking her face in his hands " always being so efficient " he said bringing his face closer " I was right about you "

Mc's face is burning as he leans in and whispers

" good girl"

Trying not to faint she looks up to see his smirk

" very well, shall we ? " He said opening the door for her.

Mc stood there thinking, she didn't plan this, it's not according to plan but somehow... it's better.

" getting too shy ? Perhaps you can go first-"

" No.. I don't need a bath actually" mc said trying to hide her face " but.. "

" now now, look at me and tell me what you want"

Struggling to meet his eyes, mc managed to do so barely.

" I do want to join you but.. I wanted you to relax and .."

" I would be more relaxed with you" he said giving mc a soft smile as she joined him.

Cuddling behind her in the bath " you planned all this today to help me relax, didn't you? "

Mc nods her head.

" I appreciate that, mc, I really do"

" aww no problem"

" I don't remember the last time I did this.. "

" chilling? Yeah I don't think you did that before"

" haha, you could be right " he laughed softly.

" .. I mean considering your situation and all ..sorry i-" mc said as she remembered what he said about his past.

" it's okay "

Few minutes of silence go by, which Jake seems to be comfortable in but mc on the other hand thinking she might have ruined the mood.

" Jake.. you are freelancing for now right? "

" right, but don't worry about that, I've been working towards financial stability as for the next job I'm planning to- "

" just saying don't overdo it, get some sleep ! You are human !! "

" ah well.. I think I'm used to this"

" living on the edge, huh"

" it's quite exciting sometimes it's too dangerous but with high risk comes high reward "

" sure as long as you don't play hero by yourself and let me help"

" I don't recommend, I don't think it's an area of your interest"

Mc turns to face him, leaning with her hands on his chest . " Come on, after what we went through, you know I can help "

Lost in her eyes, he put his hand behind her back to pull her closer. " I know you can, I would rather not have you go through constant stress "

" it wasn't all stress, you know, we made friends"

" You made friends" Jake corrected her

" nahh, Dan definitely likes you"

He chuckles and turns to kiss mc on her nose.

" Phil is also back running the aurora bar, maybe we can go grab some drinks? "

" unless the aurora is under new management, I'm not interested in going there, would you like black swan instead? "

" haha sure, anything but there huh "

" i would rather take you to a place that has more class "

" like the Chinese restaurant across the motel you stayed at " mc said smirking

" yes but not exactly..."

" hm ? "

" let's leave the bath first, I will explain"

Mc brought them towels and gave him a change of clothes and started to get dressed.

Sitting on the bed shirtless he started to explain

" I'm planning to take you some place better, the plan is still under development and I don't know if you would like it "

" like take to me on a better date? "

" that too. "

" hm i still don't get it "

" wait here "

Mc went to sit on the bed as he went to the living to grab his bag.

He sits leaning on the headboard with his laptop, mc sitting next to him and he went through it and opened the file named ' new folder ' (yes, new folder, he didn't name it, he is allowed to be lazy sometimes XD)

" this reminds me of back then, when we used to look for clues in the pictures together" said mc.

" yes, but this is better"

" yeah, more comfy and all, do you like lavender? It sure is relaxing"

" oh this is lavender, yes it is quite nice, now, tell me, what do you think? "

" well this looks like a nice apartment, is this the 'new location' you were moving to? " Mc asked

" yes, exactly. I have been making sure it's secure enough to guarantee our safety, I say it's a catch considering it's location in the city " Jake explained as he kept showing mc the apartment from different angles

" wait wait wait! Our ? You mean like.. you and me? "

Mc looks at him in shock, is this what he was so busy planning for ?

" yes "

" moving in together? ?"

" finally, yes, unless you don-"

" should I pack my stuff ? "

" absolutely "

She went in for a tight hug he had to put the laptop down and pulled her closer

" I'm so glad you like "

" it's the best thing I've ever seen ! "

" I must say I quit like the design myself but I couldn't stay there one night, it's missing one thing "

" what ? "

He pulled the covers over them and hugged mc closer.

" this "

Jake said kissing her cheek.

" aren't you quite the romantic? "

" says the one who planned all of this"

" yeah what about it ! "

" I love it "

" I love you"

" I love you more "

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Jake : I never slept that great in my life

Mc : same tbh

Jake : we should sleep together often ;)

Mc : 🤭

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Finally, mc has managed to at least add more hours of sleep to his schedule, nothing is impossible!

The end

( I didn't spell check for errors, sorry, bye)

[maybe-its-micheal]

What Happened in Quackity's Stream Today?

Today, June 19th 2023, Quackity went live with a qsmp stream in Spanish titled "El Fin de Quackity" (The end of Quackity) and I'd like to sumarize in English what happened!

I wanted to include as much detail as I could. (Anything added in parenthesis is my own speculation or additional comment)

First 20 minutes

Wearing professional looking clothing and sunglasses irl, he joins QSMP on his "ElQuackity" account, which is different from the account he ussually uses for qsmp. (He has logged in through this account before offline, but does not use it to rp as q!quackity and has in the past implied that there is more than 1 Quackity on the island) There are many past attempts of trying to join the server, which all say "no connection" over and over again, one sayd "limited lives" and the last one says "ETF EHR IER OYR KRO KER NBJ EAD." (?)

He waits in the room Cucurucho took (the former) Quackity to after the wedding, right before he was disconnected from the server. He just walks around and occasionally looks through the window of the door, he doesn't say anything, just sighs a few times, and cannot break blocks but punches a chair, seemingly bored and tired of waiting

Cucurucho arrives! Quackity tells it that its late, and it opens the door and leads him out of the room. He asks if he can be given a key for the doors, and Cucurucho responds by blowing bubbles at him. He laughs it off and says its no problem

Cucurucho begins walking, and Quackity asks it to wait. He asks "where does he work?" Cucurucho blows bubbles. "You don't want to tell me? Which office is it?" He walks down a hallway of identical rooms. "Do you not want to tell me, or do you not know?" Cucurucho stays quiet. This is still the same location Cucurucho took (the first) Quackity to after the wedding, when Jaiden saw them together.

He looks at a door that says "Storage Room" and looks at the button to open the door. Cucurucho looks at him, and then a different door. He follows Cucurucho, and they leave. He asks if Cucurucho also thinks its too cold in there, and says he doesnt know if they can do anything about the temperature. Cucurucho turns to look at him quickly when he mentions the cold, but then turns away and keeps lesding him out

They ñeave the ofices and arrive at the train station, and Quackity, seemly startled, says they should go a different way, back through the offices, because there is no way the other members of the server will be able to pass through there. Cucurucho says no, and Quackity keeps trying to convince it to let them go back. It laughs.

Cellbit says "THEY'RE AT THE TRAIN STATION" in chat, and not long after Mike, Pac, Richas, Fit, Forever, Cellbit, Baghera, Pomme, and Badboyhalo (I think thats everyone?) Show up. Right before they arrive, Quackity sarcastically says "perfect. Here everyone comes," then tells Cucurucho to disapear. Once they get there, he says "friends, friends!" And greets them, hapily saying "I'm back!"

Mike (I think) asks hin where he was, and he says he was with Cucurucho, against his will.

They ask where Cucurucho is, and he says he doesnt know, then asks if anything happened while he was gone, they said not much. He told them that he was taken, and told things, and it was hard. He then said he should probably step away for a moment, and would tell them later.

Forever follows him outside and asks "do you remember what I told you the day of the wedding?" Quackity responds "Forever, I can't talk right now, there are some things I meed to do. We can talk about that later, ok? Is tgat ok?" Forever nods his head to agree.

He runs a short distance away, out of earshot, and starts swearing in annoyance. He also realizes he doesn't have any items on him, and keeps running.

He is filling in new area on his map as he runs, meaning this Quackity has never been to the area outside the train station before

He keeps talking about how Cucurucho left him here with nothing, and didn't tell him about the map. He swears at Cucurucho

He finds a boat and sails for a bit, then gets out and runs again. He is looking for specific coordinates he was given

[eliotqueliot]

Queliot & The Magicians Fic Reading Winter Challenge, part 1

I'm going to return to posting about my fic reading. Basically this is just a list of Queliot & Magicians fanfic that I read & loved! With a few little comments about why I loved it, in case you want to try it, too.

However--there's a little more to this challenge personally, behind the scenes.

I started reading Queliot fanfic before I had an AO3 account. While I always left kudos as a guest, at first, I didn't leave a lot of comments.

Meanwhile, this summer, I was out of town a lot. I did a lot of fic reading--but a lot of it was offline, with fic I downloaded so I could read them--and then I got super busy upon return and still haven't finished commenting.

And also--a lot of the fic I love, including several I'm currently reading, are LONG. I don't wanna stress myself out or shortchange the fic by telling myself to read a new-to-me fic every day, like I did the last time.

This time--my personal challenge is gonna include spending more time reading Queliot & Magicians fic (I love it the most, and I've been so stressed out lately that I haven't had time to read enough--yet ironically reading the fic would help so much with the stress!)--but also--taking the time to go back and add comments to some of the fic I've read but haven't yet commented on!

I'll be sharing the list here--because I hope more people will dive in & enjoy these wonderful stories--also to keep me on track and help me find the fic I love. I'll do my best to post every few days with 2 or more recs. My goal--starting today through Jan. 31--is to rec about five per week--for a total of 40 fic! Let's see how I do!!! <3 (Yes, you know me too well--I will be trying for more than 40 LOL)

By the way--this whole thing started thanks to @lizardkingeliot and specifically:

I really love this high school AU showing Eliot & Quentin's friendship--and just how important they become to one another, how quickly (platonic, not a romance). It's deep and moving and for me showcases just how well they connect. Please mind the tags. Thank you so much, @tbraves24

And I would have stayed up with you all night, had I known how to save a life - tbraves24 - The Magicians (TV) [Archive of Our Own]

2. Queliot romance--very hot!--very much like them--and so sweet! I love how their connection develops--it feels so true to them--and honestly I just love how they are together in this fic. Thank you so much, @veronicasawyer99

Making Friends After 30 - cold_wind - The Magicians (TV) [Archive of Our Own]

3. I can't stop thinking about this one. Mosaic fic--my favorite type of Queliot fic--oh, the sweetness! Eliot makes a puppet show for Teddy...also showing El missing Margo...omg. Thank you so much, @lizardkingeliot

in a land far away - peacefrog - The Magicians (TV) [Archive of Our Own]

[rickie-the-storyteller]

My beloved mutual,

I wander the moors wondering when you will return from the war. The ghost in the attic misses you terribly.

Are you well? Have you intentionally rested lately? There is a hole in my dash where once your username sat.

I just wanted to answer this because of how beautifully worded it is lol. It made me super happy, so thank you for that!

I'm doing well right now, thanks. My life has been pretty hectic lately, mostly due to personal/family stuff I've had to deal with over the summer and settling back into university life for the new academic year (I don't think I'll get into the details of it... but don't worry too much. I've had fun this summer as well). I was so preoccupied with so many different things that I couldn't even celebrate my birthday properly lol. But things are slowly going back to normal, which is good. Starting my first official week back in uni today, actually. I'm looking forward to seeing how it goes!

I know I've been away for a while, and I'm sorry for that. I've missed posting on here a lot... especially since I already took a ton of time offline earlier this year (during Lent). But I also feel like my time away has given me a sense of clarity in a lot of ways. I mean, yeah, it was a bit of a stressful time for me and my family, but sometimes you just need time away, you know? It helps you think and reflect on stuff... something I feel like I don't think I do enough. A lot of people don't, just because of how busy life can be sometimes. But it is necessary. And it has helped me a lot. I now have a couple of new ideas of directions I could take my blog(s) and my content creation in general (like my YouTube channel, for example. I've only posted on there twice, and it has been over half a year since my last video lol). I'm looking forward to sharing what comes next on my storytelling adventures. But I think further info on that will have to come in a future post. So stay tuned!

[that-angry-noldo]

Chatroom || M. Eledhwen, Hurin Thalion

Hurin Thalion is online

Hurin Thalion

18:46 hey

M. Eledhwen is online

18:46 i catched the wifi so i can text you again :)

18:47 how are you doing?

M. Eledhwen

18:47 I have a bad feeling about this

18:47 sorry

18:47 it's just

Hurin Thalion

18:48 hey it's gonna be alright okay?

18:48 it's gonna be fine

18:48 you won't even notice I left

M. Eledhwen

18:49 it's already empty without you.

Hurin Thalion

18:49 i know

18:49 but

18:50 trust me, okay?

18:51 we didn't want this war right? but somene got to show the bastards what are we made of

18:52 i'll be home in few months

M. Eledhwen

18:52 promise

Hurin Thalion

18:53 i promise with all my being

18:54 take care of turin alright? is he asleep?

M. Eledhwen

18:55 yeah

18:55 yeah i think so

Hurin Thalion

18:55 good

18:55 i have to go

18:56 love you ❤️

M. Eledhwen

18:57 i love you too

Hurin Thalion

18:57 :)

~

M. Eledhwen

10:47 hey

10:47 how are you?

Hurin Thalion

19:32 sorry just got the chance to get on my phone connection is horrendeous i hope this sends

19:33 i'm fine, i'm fine

M. Eledhwen

19:34 have you adjusted yet?

Hurin Thalion

19:35 yea yea think so. Sorry i gtg now take care

Hurin Thalion is offline

~

M. Eledhwen

19:56 hurin?

20:12 i hope you're alright.

~

Hurin Thalion

17:48 i'm still kicking don't worry ;)

M. Eledhwen is online

M. Eledhwen

17:48 thank god

17:49 don't die yet

~

M. Eledhwen

16:25 Turin said hi

16:25 I was at doctor today. it's a girl

18:45 alright

18:45 love you.

~

Hurin Thalion

04:32 IT'S A GIRL??? THAT'S AWESOME

04:32 i'm so happy

04:33 i'm sorry i can't text more

04:34 i love you

Hurin Thalion is offline

Morwen Eledhwen

07:16 i miss you

07:16 love you too

~

M. Eledhwen

03:24 f-cking *** i couldn't get a single night of sleep this week

03:24 i'm considering just moving to the bombshelter

03:24 you have my blessing to end them in the most gruesome way possible

03:25 alright, sorry. i love you. take care.

~

M. Eledhwen

15:32 i hope you're doing alright

15:33 turin drew you a card

M. Eledhwen sent a file: i-love-you-dad.jpg

15:34 i miss you

~

M. Eledhwen

02:34 Hurin?

02:34 i can't sleep i'm so sorry

02:34 i knew it'll end up badly i watch the news and it's bad isn't it?

02:35 hurin please i worry so much. please tell me you're still alive

02:36 will you make it out will huor make it out there's so little news but at the same time there's so much news

02:37 i'm so sorry i'm crying hurin

02:38 promise you'll come back

~

Hurin Thalion is online

Hurin Thalion

01:56 +

Hurin Thalion is offline

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M. Eledhwen

07:04 i love you

~

M. Eledhwen

13:46 the baby was kicking today

13:46 i just thought i'll share with you

13:47 be careful alright?

~

M. Eledhwen

21:02 shellings are f-cking everyday i f-cking hate it

21:02 i hope all of them die

~

M. Eledhwen

13:45 hi dad! its turin! i miss youy. mom has a belly wit a baby and i gonna be a brother again. can we name tgis baby lalaith too? mom sais we cant but i think we shoud. i think you should kill all tge orcs. and come back and we cab be together. you mom and baby. and me. mom misses yoy and sador still can't finish the chair. sador is silly. i love you. say hi to uncle. kill all the orcs. bye! i'll text you again when mom gives me phone. i love you 💜🤐🤔😇🥶🐖🦝🐻🦇🦚

~

M. Eledhwen

12:56 hurin i miss you

12:57 there's not much else to say

~

M. Eledhwen

08:32 Turin asks if you texted back every hour or so i think

08:33 it would be endearing if it wasn't heartbreaking

08:34 i miss you

08:35 please come back

~

M. Eledhwen

15:13 they say we need to leave the city on the news

15:14 i will send turin away

15:15 but i'll stay

15:16 i don't have where to go

15:17 and i can't leave my home

15:17 not again

15:18 i'm sorry i know you said to leave

15:19 but i can't

15:20 i knew it'll end up badly

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M. Eledhwen

16:32 dad it's me turin i text you again. i will leave mom says so. i don't want to leave i have school and friends and sador is staying. mom is staying too and i don't want to leave but mom says i have to. i want to cry but big men don't cry right? you don't cry i think? mom doesnt cry. I miss you come back. i miss you and uncle. and mom is sad and i am sad. i don't want to go. say mom i don't need to go. and kill all the orcs. and come back. i miss you.

~

M. Eledhwen

17:35 turin left. rian moves in with me.

17:37 i want to hope but there's so little hope left

17:37 i'm so tired

17:38 please. please stay alive.

~

M. Eledhwen

07:08 hurin hurin i think they're entering the city

07:09 oh hurin

07:09 hurin hurin i'm so scared

07:10 please

07:11 please i want to wake up

07:12 hurin

07:13 hurin

07:14 hurin

~

M. Eledhwen

06:44 they're in the city

06:45 they're cutting wires there'll be no communication

06:45 they're checking phones on the streets

06:45 hurin

06:45 hurin i'm so sorry

M. Eledhwen left the chat

[soullikethesea]

Yesterday I was on the struggle bus.

Kept getting the "shakes/shivers" and all I could mutter was: "I know. It's too much, isn't it?" Then I also hyperfocused on watching crime stuff all day long and that obviously didn't help. Left me with a headache and a more clear realization that I was triggered.

Turns out, *still* triggered from that friend's party weeks ago. Not great news! I had all these memories of Bf and of my dad just going in circles through my head non-stop.

I pretty much lost contact with current reality. But then I forced myself to go out and get pizza and that helped a lot. (1) I could see that I am old enough now to go outside on my own, (2) I could see that my environment is different now, (3) the fresh air helped, (4) I chose spicy pizza and that helped, (5) afterwards I had really cold icecream and that helped too.

At that point I realized a bit more about what was going on. So I put on a kids' movie to try to make us more comfortable. I whimpered and cried through the whole thing, but I do think it was a good distraction. Then I also read for a bit and started a jigsaw puzzle.

For today, I think it's important to stay offline for a bit. Less technology. So after this post my goal is to do that. Hopefully that will allow for a bit of a break as well. T texted that she has to cancel our appointment because she has to attend a funeral, so that also made me feel really worried for her somehow.

And a tiny bit worried for us, because I'm not really sure how to solve this triggeredness. I'm sure I'll be okay, I just hope I'll be able to handle work (and not secretely fall apart inside without knowing, which is what has apparently happened).

[malscare]

I've never interacted before but fwiw I think you're cool as hell and stand for good shit. Idk your personal life but I found myself happier after I started letting myself be mid. I got into art, got more comfortable with my body, and in just a few short months I felt as though I had a life worth living, even if I don't strictly like it. We're both not very far from the starting line of our lives, and I'm not gonna have my shit together for YEARS but I'm going at my own pace. And as long as I'm having fun idc about much else. It may be worth getting medicated again, mitigation is at least better than nothing, but again idk you so I could be wrong. Keep on living, and live for you ^_^

hi sorry for the late reply, i was trying to stay mostly offline today ;v; thank you, and I think that makes a lot of sense!! I've heard a lot of similar things from other people too re: letting yourself be mid and being happier, it just gets kind of scary especially when you have ppl telling you you're wasting time or like. implying and even telling me outright that my work and myself aren't enough through the midness bc like. they see it as complacency and I don't want to be that, and I don't even feel like I'm having fun most of the time, and can't bring myself to do what I found fun before. I definitely like think you're right, and I think you should be proud of where you are though. I want to be, and I'll try, and hopefully soon I can see if getting remedicated helps

[mygainyear2024]

Day 58 my virgin e-bike experience

Today I booked a three hour, seven hills of Lisbon e-bike tour on the recommendation of a woman from Ballarat who's in the same facebook group as me "Solo in Style: Women Over 50 Travelling Solo & Loving It! There's been lots of solo women in Portugal posting on the group and when I get to the backlog of posts, you'll hear about my catch up with Sherry, a social worker from Calgary.

On the long walk to the meeting point, I contemplated the hazards of being in a city like Lisbon. I think it might have been sparked by the two low flying pidgeons that I had to quickly duck, not an unusual occurrence. Honestly, I think there's more chance of being hit by one of those than having an accident on that treacherous road I was on in the Algarve, the N125. There's also a much higher chance of slipping on the cobblestones, made more dangerous by the gradient of all seven+ hills. And even more of a problem as I'm looking at my phone and following the very unreliable offline maps.me directions. I am the tourist who is often going around in circles looking at the phone, taking a few steps, realising I'm now further away from my destination. I'm also the tourist whose undies keep going up their bum, the undies haven't shrunk, the bums gotten bigger!

So I can get all the not so great things off my chest in one post, there's so many smokers, dogs, cats, tourists, cyclists with no helmets, stinky toilets with no loo paper, garbage around the streets (the capital doesn't seem to have the same litter disposal options as the other places I've been) and heat. Today's early morning 19° at 8.20am, felt like high 20°s in Brisbane. And sadly the cost of postage. I enquired about sending a box of my stuff home. I observed they had 10kgs boxes while I was in the queue, a whopping €250! That's put a dampener on my shopping.

I haven't ridden an e-bike before and it seemed like fun, sadly we didn't really get a good go at riding, too many stops for the history lesson by the guide (I was the one with all the answers as the two other couples had only just arrived in the country), the traffic really slowed us down, as did Nancy from San Diego, who said she rides bikes all the time, but seemed to be an accident waiting to happen. There was only one hill that I didn't feel comfortable riding down, because we took off on the bloody hill. The rest of the way I was fine and only had the bike in turbo for the two big hills, one of those is the hill I’m staying on. There were some interesting sites, Lisbon's copy cat Golden Gate Bridge, Champs Élysées and Christ the Redeemer. Lisbon also has the longest European Bridge, at 17kms.

I asked one of the staff for a piri piri chicken recommendation. I thought I can't leave Portugal without making sure I'd actually tried piri piri, as the others were just bbq chicken without piri piri, To be honest, I think I could have asked for the piri piri on the side, as that's what I got at recommended Bonjardim. A very small 1/2 chicken and dry, semi warm chips and small mineral water was $25.43! The prices here are certainly more expensive. The Red Rooster quarter chicken and chips that Mum used to get us every Thursday night after supermarket shopping were a cut above. The waiter asked if I wanted to pay a tip, I said no! The American couple beside me asked me how the meal was. I told them honestly!

The rest of the afternoon I had a wander around the streets, filled with tourists. I took a look at Pink Street, which was really a very small strip with restaurants and got asked on the way in by two dudes "sniff or weed"! I had specialty coffee, noting the flat white was cheaper than the latte and two scoops of gelato. I told the guy who served me that I was going to take a seat, and he said I stay until closing at 6.30. I did suggest he could go on a break and leave me to manage things. I was happy to stop walking up hills and escape the heat. If he'd have taken me up on the offer, I really would have done it!

[chelleztjs18]

Hello you mrs. honey nut cheerio lady robin hood who likes christmas but is allergic to the pine tree lefty eyebag 😌

I fell asleep but then woke up, saw your answers and fell back asleep 😅 I was going to respond but I couldn't keep my eyes open and I would have probably typed some gibberish.

Hope you slept well. Doing anything fun today? Or just finishing up little stuff before you guys leave for the airport?

So when you do that, does it ever creep your customers out when you guess their order correctly? Also, the thing about guessing the voices from animation or movies, that's amazing. I could never even guess or be close to who it is if I did guess.

I'm the same way with names and numbers. I try to guess the name and it's always far off 😅 then numbers always get jumbled.

Ah I see. What's the most words you have written in just an hour? Also, have you ever finished writing a fic then reread it after and scrap the whole thing?

I'm the same way with reading fics with a lot of kinks. I think I just read the fic, but then once I see something disturbing to me, I stop. I try to push myself to see if I can handle reading it, but then it actually weirds me out so I can't continue 😅

I think my answer is the same as yours. Especially the bdsm with pain, or if it has blood and other bodily functions..no no for me. And is pet play like beastiality? Sorry I don't think I know that.

I did not expect the naenae song 🤣 do you do the dance too?? Hahaha

For me:

1. Dynamite by BTS

2. Secret Love Song by Little Mix

3. Any country songs lol

Name 3 songs that remind you of your crush.

- CuriousGeorge

Hello hello youngins righty eyebag! 😅

I wanna see what kind of giberish u type if u reply mr when u r sleepy.lol.

How r u? N how was ur day? R u feeling better emotionally?

I didnt sleep well last night. Stayed up until like past 2.am. i got a little panic attack becausr i overthought if i forget something or if i pack too much.

We got to the hotel around 4pm. N im just chillin now.

The hotel is nice.. was thinking to sleep early tonight because we gotta wake up at 4am to go to the airport but the room has a separated room like a living room with desk n chair with tv also, so it is so tempting to stay up late n write. 😅 but i think i should sleep early..but im not sure.lol.

Haha no. They actually love it.. but i did kinda shocked one customer though because i started the talk in a wrong way but then she laughed about it. It was when i was in new orleans walk at night n i was kinda drunk. N i recognize too. N my drunk ass talked to her n say "excuse me, u live in ...(city name) right?" 😅

N her drunk face was like "wtf" n she said yeah.. n i was like "oh no dont worry, im sorry..i work at (sushi restaurant name) n i serve ur table pretty often." Then i start mention her regular orders n then she recognize me.🤣🤣🤣 n she laughed. Then we walked the bourbon street together drunk. 🤣

About recognize actors / actress voice in animation movie, sometimes i got it right sometimes i dont.😅🤣

Yeah numbers n names r hard to remember.

I never pay attention how much i write in an hour. Mostly 1 fic i wrote at least between 4-6K words but the most in one fic i think it's like 12K but i end up splitting them to few parts. If The Monsters Within a whole one fic it will be the longest i hv written because over 18K words n still counting. 😊

Yeah i have done that, but not scraping the wholr thing though, i scrapped almost half of it.. one time i wrote quite a lot, ideas flowed n stuff..i wrote it on google doc n it was on offline mode because i was on a flight. But when i finally connect it to internet, the part that wrote was not saved n gone.. i wanted to cry. I think it was the dark wanda fic "I Love You Too Much" i dont know if u have read that but yeah i had to write all over again.

Haha yeah im like that too. It was an age play fic, i tried to be open minded about it but i stopped in the middle because i couldnt read it.

Petplay is a kink where one of them act like a pet such as puppy,or kitten or bunny. I dont mind reading light pet play but not too much. Im not good at explaining this but i guess u can google it. 😊

Haha yeah sometimes i do the nae nae song but only when im drunk. 😅 im not a good dancer n too shy for that. But when im drunk im a different person.😅🤣

Ah okay.. i will check those songs.. u dont like country song? I think pop country r very nice to listen to, for me. 😊

Song that reminds me of H? Hmm...

1. Gorgeous by Ash (the one that inspired me smut idea with Natasha. 😊

2. Con La Brisa by Foudeqush

3. Gooey Rework by Glass Animals. 😁

What about u?

Also i think u asked something about pt. 4. I dont remember if i have answered it or not. Can u remind me again? Im too lazy to scroll to my answers right now. Sorry. 😁😆

Next question?

Cheerio! (Not the cereal one)

[blog-name-idk]

Everything Falls (Into Place) | 07

*Banner by the incredible @bangtansmauyeondan

Pairing: OT7 x Fem Reader

Genre: College!AU, Roommate!AU, Fluff, Humor, Smut

Summary: Your new roommates are unbearably nice and unbearably hot. Good thing you're an adult who is fully capable of platonic friendships with the opposite sex, right?

Word Count: 624

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Jimin What movie are we watching for Festa night??

Hobi Nothing scary please 😥

Jungkook Be a man, hyung

You What is Festa night?

Jin Only the most wonderful time of the year! Namjoon, did you not tell her?

Namjoon Sorry [y/n], I can't believe I forgot We try to designate one weekend every semester to a full group hang Friday is dinner + movie night Saturday is boozy brunch + recovery Sunday is responsible stuff

You Huh, that's actually a really cute tradition. I hope you guys have fun!

Jungkook Do you already have plans this weekend?

You Not yet, but I can figure something out! Don't worry, I won't crash bro night

Yoongi you're invited dumbass

Jimin You're one of us now, silly!

You Aw you guys, I'm so happy to be an honorary bro <333 Jin, are you gonna cook? Do you want any help?

Jin I am blessed with a kind, beautiful, considerate wife-bro Guys, take note

Namjoon I can help!

Jin Thank you Namjoon You can help the most by staying out of my kitchen But I appreciate the consideration

You Wait, does Jin do all the cooking for Friday AND Saturday? That's kinda fucked up

Namjoon I could help…

Hobi Brunch is on the rest of us!

Jimin We're not THAT selfish :(

You Hey you can't blame me for assuming, it's not like anyone else ever cooks around here

Jin [Y/n] <3333333

Jungkook I can cook I just choose not to

Jin Wow

Yoongi let's be real, hobi and i make the food tae makes coffee and jimin and jk make mimosas and margaritas

Namjoon I want to help… Am I useless?

Jimin What?! No, of course not!

Jungkook Of course not hyung, there's a reason we call you our leader

Namjoon But you guys never let me do anything to help Do I really ruin everything?

Yoongi fuck guys we made namjoon sad

You Joon, I'm having problems starting my art history paper It's on the juxtaposition of traditional and postwar Japanese culture and how the dichotomy is still portrayed in contemporary art today I need you :(

Namjoon OMG I have the perfect reference book for you! Let me go find it!

You Oh! If it's not the photobook you showed me before, could you bring that too? … Namjoon?

Yoongi i think he's gone

Taehyung You didn't tell me you were taking an art history class!

You That's because I'm not

Hobi [Y/n], have we ever mentioned how much we love you? Because we love you soooo much <33333

You Not enough ;)

Taehyung We love you [y/n] <3

Jimin [Y/n] you're the best! <3

Jungkook [Y/n] you're almost as amazing as me <3

Jin [Y/n] you're almost as beautiful as me <3

Hobi Ahem, Yoongi-hyung

Yoongi … fine <3

You … I'll take it

Jungkook Yeah you will

You JEON JUNGKOOK! You did NOT just say that to me

Jimin Oooooo Kookie's in trouble

Taehyung Oh, we almost forgot the most important thing! [Y/n], do you own any pajamas?

You Uh, like sweatpants?

Jimin Rule 1 is that festa is a weekend-long pajama party They have to be legit pjs

You I love it, it sounds adorable I don't have any though :( If I even wear anything to sleep it's just like a shirt

Jungkook klojl

You ?

Jungkook I dropped my phone

Hobi You can borrow some of mine!

Taehyung Or mine!

Jin Back off ovules She's MY wife, she'll borrow mine I have the best selection, anyway

Jimin Hyung, she'll drown in your clothes You can borrow mine! You'll look perfect!

Jungkook Yeah bc you're the same size

Yoongi lmao

Jimin Jeon, let's take this offline

Taehyung RIP Kookie

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Tags: @singukieee

[digital-corruption]

Pieces of You Part 7

“Well I want to say it’s been swell, but it hasn’t,” Hannah said spitefully as she stood by my apartment door with her bag packed. “I still can’t believe you’re content with this.”

“I'm not, but I have to accept we're never going to have a normal relationship,” I shrugged. “It’s a long drive to Duskwood. Don’t do it all at once, ok? You should stop somewhere for the night.”

Hannah rolled her eyes, “Yes, mom!”

“I'm serious! My cousin fell asleep at the wheel and hit a tree!” I frowned at her resistance.

“Only if you promise to confirm his nightly check-ins,” she insisted.

I smiled and nodded, “Aye, aye.”

“Well good night, sister,” she grinned.

“What did you call me?” I looked at her confused.

“One day you will be,” she winked and opened the door to leave.

I blushed, “We'll see. Take care, Hannah.”

After seeing Hannah off, I tidied up my apartment a bit and then sat down on the couch with my new phone. There was a confirmation notification reporting that file restoration was complete. I had a look and sure enough, all of my photos and videos were back.

MC: Thank you! 😄

???: I might’ve missed a few things since I last ran a backup.

MC: Oh, I don’t take photos that often. 😅

???: I’ve noticed.

???: You should take more. :)

MC: You keep a backup of my phone though? You were always ready to format it?

???: I have to prepare for worst case scenarios. It seems it was necessary.

???: I did not account for you engaging another hacker though.

MC: The end justifies the means, right?

???: I suppose I deserve that.

MC: Are you safe now?

???: Not as safe as I would like.

???: It hurt seeing you today. More than I had expected.

MC: Then you know how I feel. 😩

???: Please. You need to move on. Find someone else.

???: I want you to be happy and safe. I can’t give you either one of those. Find someone who can give you both.

MC: Have you considered that moving on isn’t an option for me? 😠

Jake spent a long time typing and erasing his next message. Eventually there was no activity.

MC: Nothing?

???: I tried. What else can I say to change your mind?

???: The last option is to make you hate me.

???: But I don’t have it in me to be cruel to you.

MC: Really? You’ve been pretty cruel so far.

???: And it hurt!

???: I'm sorry about last night. I was slow to react to Vortex's attack.

???: I...

???: I couldn’t stop thinking about holding you.

???: Seeing that video and photo hurt so much. :(

???: That's me causing you that pain though. That's what hurts the most.

MC: Then don’t disappear on me. 🥺

???: I don’t want to, I really don’t.

???: I need to go. I need to stay ahead of my pursuers.

???: I can’t make promises of when I will be able to communicate with you again.

MC: Just promise me that you will 🙂

???: I will try.

MC: No, you will

???: I want to.

??? is now offline.

I sighed and flicked to swap apps when I noticed something in my gallery I hadn’t noticed before. The photo was dated today. I opened it. It was a photo of an ad for a deal on flights to a tropical island posted in the window of a travel agency. Confused, I held up my phone closer. I saw there was something hidden across the bottom so I angled my phone a bit more to reveal the words 'Our island?'

I couldn’t help but smile. After staring at it for a bit I closed the photo and immediately saw there was another photo taken just a moment ago. It was a gorgeous photo of the city skyline, absolutely glistening at night from across the river. I changed the angle of my phone again. At the bottom the hidden text read, ‘Wish you were here with me'.

Me too, Jake, me too.

[i-desire-jake]

First meet (part 1)

Characters: Jake and female Mc

Genre: Fluff and romance

Summary: Everything's over except Jake and mc love which is growing more and more day by day. So fate decides them to meet each other.

-Oh man... I don't feel like cooking today, and I'm so God damn bored.

You huffed while lying on your couch on the weekend day.

-what should I do you think, and then an idea pops on your mind.

-Yeah, I should disturb him a bit. You grin cheekily at your idea and then grab your phone to text your love.

Yeah you will text Jake. It's been around two and a half month since Hannah was found and MWAF was caught.

You thought that Jake would immediately cut contacts with you after the case was over, but that didn't happen. Instead you both still text till today.

You both have confessed your feelings towards each other and he has even promised you that one day you both would be together. Jake is not the shy person which you thought he would be. Instead he is confident enough and his boldness is enough for you to give you butterflies and to make your knees tremble.

            _____________________

YOU

Hey Jake:)

How is my baby?

Jake is now online

JAKE

Hey beautiful <3

I'm good what about you?

YOU

I'm bored Jake -_-

JAKE

Wanna have some fun? ;)

YOU

Ugh! You and your dirty mind

JAKE

Only for you beautiful ;)

YOU

Baby, I miss you so much.

I so desperately want to meet you.

I want to hug you. Kiss you like there's no tomorrow. I want to be with you forever.

When will you come....?

JAKE

Hey love, don't cry.

Jake hacked your camera and saw you through it.

I have a good news.

YOU

You are free😲😲?

When? Where ? Time?

JAKE

Uh.....

I'm not free.

My pursuers are still after me.

But now this will only last for a few more weeks. I have figured a way to get rid of them and I'll soon be with you love.

YOU

Oh! That's wonderful😁

Can you meet me, somewhere please??

You can come at my house today. After all you'll get free soon, so you can roam around a bit right?

JAKE

I'm sorry love, today I'm busy a bit. So I can't come.

YOU

Oh

JAKE

Hey, hey. Don't worry. I will plan something soon and I promise you I'll do my best.

YOU

Thank you so much Jake.

JAKE

:)

YOU Elephants are jumping inside my stomach. I gotta go and eat something.

JAKE

Hehe

Bye beautiful  <3

YOU

Talk to you later love.❤

Jake is offline

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Uh...

I don't want to spend my day on the couch.

You think for a bit to what to do next.

-I'll go to the restaurant, and get a take out. Then I'll enjoy my time in the park.

I should even visit the new botique by the restaurant.

You take a shower, then rummage through your closet searching for something nice to wear.

You wear a knee length yellow floral dress paired with white sneakers and a small hair clip on your beautiful beach waves.

You take a mirror selfie and immediately send it your man.

The picture effortlessly highlights your curves and your beauty.

One would be lying if they said that you don't look pretty.

Jake is online

JAKE

If I would have been there, then you  wouldn't be able to get off from your bed for the whole day.

Your cheeks blushed reading his flirty text.

YOU

Oh, really! I'd like to see😉

JAKE

Don't mess with me babygirl or you'll regret.

YOU

Bye babe 😆

JAKE

You really leaving after turning me on. That's not fair.

Jake is offline

YOU

Everything is fair in war and love babe☺

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JAKE POV

-God, that girl is really making me nervous. He mumbled before deciding to order food for himself.

Tring Tring. Tring Tring.

-Great now. Their home delivery service is closed today.

-Ugh! I'm really craving Chinese today.

 I should get a take out and come back quickly.

He mumbled to himself then went to his laptop to check the condition of his pursuers.

-Wow, I'm really progressing quickly. I'll be free soon. I can't wait to meet Mc.

-I should surprise her today with an unexpected home visit.

But wait.

Ugh.

She was going somewhere today. Ufff. Then tomorrow. And that's final.

He dressed in his usual black hoodie and a plain denim jeans then went to Chinese to fulfill his hunger for food.

MC POV

Hmm... this dress looks sexy. I should buy this.

You giggle at yourself then buy all the dresses you like and head to your favourite restaurant.

-I'm so glad they have elevators here, or else I would have died walking up to the sixth floor to the restaurant.

You sigh, then go to the counter to order your food. You notice a strange man dressed in all black ordering food for almost four people.

- Looks like that man really like Chinese.

You mumble to yourself then go back to the counter to pay for your food.

JAKE POV

- $120

-Sure, here.

He pays for his food in cash then start going back to the exit.

" Stairs under construction. Please use the elevator. Sorry for inconvenience. ⛑⛑"

- what the fuck!

Ugh..... Now I have to use the lifts.

Jake covers his head with his hoodie then enters the elevator with his head down.

He presses the the button for ground floor then wait for the elevator door to close. But before it could close completely, a woman sticks her shoes in between the doors the prevent it from closing.

Jake looks to up to see the person and gets shocked as hell when she enters the elevator and stands beside him.

MC POV

After paying for the food you rushes to the exit when you saw that the doors of lift were about to close.

Yiu stick your shoes there, then enters the little room.

"Thank God I entered on time or else I would have to wait for more ten minutes "

You glance on your side and saw the same hoodie man staring at you with wide eyes.

What's up with him. You think in your mind.

" I know I'm beautiful, mister. But if you would stare at me with that wide eyes then it may pop out"

You joke at the man who now seems embarrassed at his actions.

He clears his throat then look away. But his gaze is still on you. He observes your every movement like he adores you the most.

After a few minutes you notice that the elevator is going down really slowly. You must have reached down till now but you were still moving from 5th to the 4th floor.

- "isn't this lift to- aaahhhhhhh!"

You screamed loudly when the elevator started shaking rapidly and the lights were flickering on and off.

There was a loud thud on the roof of the elevator and you fell directly on the man beside you. If he wouldn't have hold you, you would have crashed your head roughly against the wall.

The lights went off and the room became dark. You started shivering with fear while still clinging to the man. He embraced you and patted your head a few times to calm you down. Minutes passed and then the  light came back.

You came back to your senses when you saw that you were hugging the stranger.

You immediately pulled back blushing and mumbling apologise

- "I....I'm so-....sorry"

- "It's okay beautiful" the man said with a smirk after seeing you blushing and stuttering

JAKE POV

Mc fell on me when the elevator crashed and started shivering. She really is a cute tiny little thing. Jake thought in his mind

When Mc let go off him, he saw that she was blushing like a tomato.

Wow, she looks so cute. I should tease her and see her reaction to a stranger flirting with her.

- "It's okay beautiful" I said after her stuttering apologies.

She blushed even more but then pulled herself together and said

- "Yeah, don't call me that"

- "Why not? You're beautiful so I can call you" I said smirking.

- "Uh....I should press the alarm button because we are stuck"

She pressed the alarm button a few times but it didn't work.

- "look what's written over there. It says the alarm is out of use. You should call that number which is given below it" I said pointing at the number.

I had no intention of staying in the lift forever, but if it's with my love then I can have second thoughts.

I took the phone out from my pocket then started disabling the cameras in the lift. I have already disabled the restaurant's camera before coming but not of the elevators. It's because, I never use lifts to change floors as they are too risky. But I was forced to use it today because the stairs were damaged.

I was in my own thoughts when I heard Mc yelling at someone on the phone

- "Yeah, what do you mean by 3-4 hours? You want us to die inside? I'll report you then you'll lose your fucking license. What kind of service do-"

Before she could shout more and make the situation worse, I snatched her phone away from her then spoke in a different voice "take your time but don't take too long or else we'll might suffocate here. Yeah thank you and please hurry"

I said to the manager then hung up the call returning her phone back.

- "Great. Now we are stuck here for an eternity"

She said in an irritating voice.

I should annoy and tease her more, I thought to myself then proceeded to my actions.

- "why are you worrying babe? You are here with a handsome man like me. Trust me I won't let you feel bored." I said in a flirty tone.

- "Stop calling me with those names. And handsome? Haha I've never heard a better joke. You look like an alien" She said 

*Mc in her mind- btw, he is really very handsome. Uh don't think like that for him*

- "What? alien? Me? I'm offended babe. But you can't do anything cause you are stuck here with me now"

I said, then took off my hoodie revealing me only in my navy blue tshirt.

MC POV

After his heavy flirting, he took off his hoodie showing him only in his thin tshirt.

You couldn't take your eyes off him. He was muscular and well built.

*Wow he's really something. Ugh stop drooling over her Mc. You have your Jake so no other men. But God he really depicts as I imagined Jake. Ocean blue eyes, shiny black hair and so nice-*" you were interrupted out of your thoughts when he again started flirting with you.

- " Stop staring at me, I know I'm handsome and hot but if you will open your eyes that wide then it will pop out" He said mimicking your previous words.

You cleared your throat and looked away saying " why did you removed your hoodie?"

- " Because it's too hot in here."

He said taking a step towards you.

- "yeah, wh-what do you think you're do-doing ?"

You stutterd at him backing off a bit.

Seeing you going back, he smirked and again took a few steps towards you until your back was pressed against the wall.

He put both of his hands beside your head and leaned a bit towards your face saying.

- "Are you scared babe? I won't do anything............without your permission "

You didn't utter a single word because you were completely shocked. Not by his actions but by yourself. You thought only Jake could make you blush and give you butterflies in your stomach with his flirty texts. But here this complete stranger is making you feel nervous as hell and you were blushing like a tomato.

- "Do you want to be my girlfriend? I promise I won't disappoint" He said leaning a bit more forward. Your faces were now only a few inches apart. He tucked a strand of your hair behind your ear seeing your reaction. Your whole body got an electric shock just with a simple touch of his.

"*No, this is wrong. I only want Jake and no one else.*" You thought to yourself and then pushed him away from you.

- "Stay away from me, you pervert. And don't touch me. And for the record, I already have a boyfriend."

He knew well that you were talking about him but how little did you know that your love was this close to you.

- "Oh really?"

- "Yes really" you said.

- "Don't worry babe. I'm sure he won't mind if you'd flirt with me. In fact he would be happy" He said making you confused.

- "Oh yeah? You don't know who he is. And if I'd tell him that there was an alien harassing me in the elevator, he won't spare you."

- "Why? is he a police or a psycho who would kill me?" He asked amused.

- "Trust me he's not a police but he's much more powerful than them. And he's not psycho. So mind your own business and fuck off."

You said to him visibly angry. You can't control yourself when someone bad mouthed him.

- "Hmm.. looks like you really like him"

- "No. I love him"

He let out a happy chuckle then said "Now your boyfriend will say you to kiss me"

He turned around from your side then started doing something.

You ignored him, then took out your phone for time pass.

You saw Jake was online so you immediately went to his chat.

YOU

Hey babe :)

JAKE

Hi beautiful. <3

I'm offended.

YOU

Why? Did I do something wrong?

JAKE

You didn't kiss him.

YOU

Huh, what??

You glance at the man who was still busy with his phone.

JAKE

I love you too.

Then your phone started ringing. It was Jake. He never called you before, not after the case was over.

You quickly received the call.

- "Hello. Jake?"

Silence.....

The man beside you turned around with the phone pressed against his ear.

- "I love you too, beautiful"

The man said and the same voice you heard in your phone.

You were dumbfounded and shocked.

- "You know you look so pretty in real life. And you're so cute. Especially with that angry expression of yours."

Jake or the man in front of you whom you considerd stranger till now said to you in a sweet voice making you completely shocked.

A/N : okay, so I don't know how I feel about this. I think something's missing but I can't figure out what it is. So if you find any mistakes please tell me. I'll try to improve it next time. There will be one or two more part after this.

[thirstybtsthoughts]

hey bunny i need some advice :(

there’s this guy in my class and we started talking to each other online every day (i haven’t met him properly because i don’t have offline school rn but i will soon) and he’s a rllyyyy great person i love talking to him. we confessed to each other and we decided that we should wait until we meet to start dating. but today he opened up to me about his commitment issues. he has dated 6 girls (none have lasted more than 2 months continuously) while i’ve never dated anyone. am i wasting my time? i don’t want someone who will leave me in 2 months time. i spend a lot of time talking to him. i think i should be focusing on my studies instead bc this is an important year. i’m too invested now but i have this bad feeling that it won’t last and i can’t stop thinking about the break up (while i haven’t even met him yet??) but it’s too late to go back now

My first instinct would be to not trust that he'll be with you for the long term because of his commitment issues and break up with him. It's great that he's been honest and said it, though if he's brought it up now, maybe he's already worrying about commiting to your relationship and panicking that when it comes to meeting you he might be afraid to go ahead with it.

BUT my heart and experience is saying to give him a chance. Put your primary focus on your studies (NO man is worth being distracted from your studies, you will only regret it later so I'm telling you this now lol), but also you already like him, he likes you, maybe you'll be the person he stays with and commits to. You might end up having an absolutely wonderful time with him.

Take it slow, don't put too much emphasis on what the future might hold. Think of it as a day by day thing for now (more to help him tbh). And if it ends badly, although heartbreak is painful as fuck, it's also something you learn from and over time you will be glad you had the experience. I hope my rambling helped a little 😂. Good luck! 💜